love me, love me not.

Not my day.

2014-02-21T21:49:00.001+08:00

Dear blog, today is just not my day. I wish to cry it all out. But i know when i cry, someone will just keep on scolding me. Thats why, i have only you to let it all out. I know, im not that clever. But this is who I am. Everybody keep saying be who I am. Perhaps, i don't belong to this world. Needed someone to talk to. But don't know who should i find. How should i express it all. Maybe i don't belong to him. Maybe someone else is.

Wow, there are still people visit my blog. ☺

2013-09-08T21:55:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone, or should i say Dear Diary.
Oh well, its the same. I'm back to blogging. I've been running around for interviews this few weeks. It was tiring and torturing. Especially when I choose cabin crew as my dream. Ugh, this never goes well. I didn't get any offer for it. Time to back to the reality then. Maybe work in Singapore? Well, two of my besties are there. I can go there too. These few weeks have been a hectic and rough week.

Million passed away due to some accident, shocked when the vet called me.

In case you all don't know, this is Million. Hmp, still very sad about it.

Rough.. Its a rough life. I'm too weak and soft.

That's all today.

Ciao.

Blogging from my ipad.

2013-06-14T13:57:00.001+08:00

Its weird cause I'm blogging through ipad.

Thats all~

My new pet?

No it's only flower~

Btw, i wish to have a marimo~

I'm Back!

2013-04-30T14:21:00.000+08:00

Good Day! I'm back for blogging, thanks to the lecturer that reminded me today. Well, this is the last semester of my degree, and it sucks. Really sucks. Hopefully I will get to go for Work and Travel to USA or maybe New Zealand or Austraillia for 4 months to see the world. *cross fingers* Thats all i wanted to say. Ciao.

Oh by the way, I LOVE TIGER'S CURSE BOOK!

Oh, Hi..

2012-06-04T21:24:00.001+08:00

Well, i am back. Its assignment and exam period again. Waiting for holiday again. 3 more weeks. just 3 more. and I am free again! Hey, no. I am not free after 3 weeks. I have to go back work with parents again. My mom ask me to go to~ so i say yes because she said gonna take me to Orlando next year with their business trip. And ofcourse my bf too.. If his didn't crash with his time table. But for me, crash or no crash I am still going! Moohahahhahaaa! That is why i have to work and save up money. Next is, I am also going to Phuket next month. Hohohohoho~ So happy. This year is the best year of my life. Work Hard!! Ciao~

moody

2012-04-23T18:18:00.001+08:00

Am i a burden to you? For once in a lifetime he said that everyday he is so pressure. Sigh. I can feel that + this sentences is hurting me too. I'm demanding too much. Kind of sad when he said this to me. What can i do? Think i'm a burden instead of girlfriend. Maybe life would be easy for him without me. :( hurt and sad. Feeling down for this few days. No one knows what am I thinking. No one will ask. Feel I am so alone. Try to be happy infront of friends. Try to be happy go lucky-er than them. They could complain to me. But i have no one to complain to. Except few. But I don't know how to open my mouth said i have problem. Well, let just hide it in my heart forever. Burried deep deep down.

Back from Japan. Tataiima~

2012-04-04T21:38:00.000+08:00

Wala~ I'm back from Japan. Was so sad to come back. I love Japan so so so much. Everything is almost perfect there. Was a very experience trip. Experienced their real earthquake, stuck in Tokyo Station because of strong winds. Huhu. Everyday is a tiring day. Get up to the station get down run here run there to catch the other train.

They have a hectic life there. The expenses is very high~ I mean living standard. Till here. Will update more when I done editing the photos.

2012-03-01T14:48:00.001+08:00

greetings. been very busy since cny ends. Busy working. and finally i got my new baby! :D Baby J1. Got it on Monday. My salary is deducted. O: left rm0 in my bank. Damned. But no worries. I am still working. I mean half working. Todays an off day at factory, but work at home. Chores are waiting. Grrr. And less than one month to my tokyo trip!!!!!!!!!!!! Hooray!

Auntie ling said i must go to their baking school to take a tour!! Yahoo! 1st mission: get their recipeeee. Moohahahahaaaa. Sake factory, sausage factory here i come too! I am super duper hyper excited. and last is Tokyo Disney!!!!! hahahaa.. I can't stop laughing. Been waiting for this trip for 21yearss. And finally my dad said have to bring me go~ Well, valentines day had pass and also my bigday~ I'm officially 21 now. Sounds old. Can i be forever 21?? Okie dokie till here.Ciao

Locking my blog.

2012-01-26T10:59:00.000+08:00

Planned to lock my blog, but i decided not to. Today is the fourth day of Chinese New Year. Oh yah, Happy Chinese New Year. Theres happy and sad.. Blagh, i don't know what to write here. Waiting for breakfast. Will be going to my brother's gf house later.. Till here. Ciao.

Flu ain't getting away.

2012-01-05T12:15:00.000+08:00

I'm so bored. After the 2 days rest, i'm still sick. Flu is not getting away but cough is coming. =| Dar is not free either. We can't have a date. One thing that makes me happy is mom and dad agrees to let me buy Nikon J1 - with my own salary :D. But i have to work with them. So, my wish as i planned - i will get the camera by end of February which meansss before going to the Tokyo trip! Yay! Awesome photos are waiting! Moohahahahaaa. Say goodbye to my old olympus camera. Well, at first i was thinking to sell my dslr. But mom scolded me :\ she said that camera is your bf bought it just for you! I should treasure it. <3 <3 :目.

Duhh i'm still bored.... Ciao.

Happy New Year!

2012-01-01T15:00:00.000+08:00

Back from Singapore yesterday midnight. Spend my countdown on airplane with tears. Blags.
Lost something at the airport. Duh it brings me down. Maybe god doesn't want me to have it. Woke up in the morning with flu. What a cheerful new year i have. But THINK POSITIVE! POSITIVE!
Have to change my thinking. Mom said i have negative thinking. So this Singapore trip ends.

Met up with Lisa and had dinner with her. we two keep blah blah blah blah blah because we didn't talk for like few months since she went back to Singapore. Good thing is she is coming back next week so we can continue to blah blah blah. XD

New year must have new wishlist. My new aim is to have a Kitchenaid and Nikon J1. I must get this camera before the Tokyo trip because i don't want to bring such huge DSLR there. Very inconvenient. *cross fingers* Lastly end this post with a picture. Ciao~

Back from MIA

2011-12-07T18:38:00.000+08:00

2nd week of holiday.
How do i feel? BE.OH.ARE.YEE.DEHH.
Last few weeks was like a hell week for me.
Depressed until crying every night.
Why? Because of assignment and exam.
As i said, degree is like hell. DON'T EVER COME.
I FEEL like SUICIDING myself.
RAGH.
So many things happened. Even friendships too.
Duh. what to say. This is life. This life is not beautiful.
KEEP REMINDING MYSELF! --> STOP LIVING IN YOUR OWN DREAM! WAKE UP TO THE REALITY!

Its 2 weeks to Christmas.
Mom had command me an important mission. Desserrrrrts.
Yesh. I'm in charge for the desserts at the Christmas partay.
Moohahaha. One more good news.
I'm going to TOKYO next year. TOKYO DESU!!
Thanks to Auntie Ling Mom gonna take me to TOKYO DISNEY!!!! MOOHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAA.

Till here.
The End.

In the blog mood.

2011-10-18T00:43:00.000+08:00

Was suddenly in the mood to blog. Good things and bad things do happen. Was very happy because last night i finally speak out our problem. Just a small matter that i realized long time ago but he still didn't notice it. Congrats to me that i finally say it out. We solved it. =D Good mood. Super good mood.

But then, today we very stress during meeting. Seriously, my mind is spinning and my head is awfully pain. Sigh. Couldn't smile at all. Whole brain is like assignment assignment assignment. T^T Thankfully, outing with Waimun and Michelle after class. I am super stress and relieved after outing with them. Super miss them. Hahahahaa. I am still so hyper. nyahahahahahaaaaaa.

Till here. Ciao.

Blagh

2011-10-09T00:12:00.002+08:00

Oh and if I mention no names and you feel the need to respond, then you must have a guilty conscience. This is a p.s for the last post.

I am not interested in your life.

2011-10-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

If you think that I am writing bad things about you. Then you are wrong. Because I am so NOT interested in your life and don't want to know anything about your life. SERIOUSLY! There is nothing for me to write about you. If you think that I am saying you, then you are so lifeless. Duh. My life is so much interesting than yours, why i have to write about you??? -___-..... So speechless.

Think whatever you want then. If you hate me, I'm okay with it. Because I'm not living my life to please you. So please, GET A LIFE! Don't make me fed up with you!

is you. your own.

2011-10-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

apparently, no one can help you when you are in the moody and stressing time. Yes. NO ONE. seriously, i am in this situation now. from the day my degree start. this stone kept in my heart and it is getting bigger bigger and heavier. well, when you said that you are stress, most of the people will say :" good luck, gambateh, or i know you can cope with it, ect..." but what i really want is to cry out loud. a simple hug will do too. but i never get it.

i've been so moody for weeks. i can't even do a thing to not to be moody. HOW TO LET IT OUT????!!!!!!! just kill me please. i really feel to giving up. but what should i do after i give up? some how i couldn't find any of my dreams any more. i have no target. i gave up my air hostess dream since i receive so many negative comments. sigh. what is life?? eat sleep work eat sleep work? i don't know.

what i really need now is a shoulder to cry on.

no title

2011-09-29T10:52:00.000+08:00

Okay, ummm.. Bye.

stressing at the top!

2011-09-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

One word. STRESSS. While other people are enjoy their life to the maximum of the maximum. I am stressing here to the maximum of the maximum. Presentation presentation and presentation. Research research research. Could this ever stop for a minute? I wished it could stop for my whole life. But what to do, I am not the GOD. I can just stand up and move on! The is what life really are, rather than outing and laughing everyday without any worries. One way that i can throw out all the stressing feeling is through here. Leave my blog if you don't want to see me complaining. =S

So much things to do. I'm super sleepy. Yesterday went to Lam Wah Ee because something happened. Came back home at 2a.m. and do my assignment until 3a.m. =.= And now I am still stuck with this assignment. Presentation tomorrow. God bless me. Ciao.

Boreddddduh Saturday. 忘恩负义.

2011-09-17T13:09:00.000+08:00

Thanks to some ones who thought me how to USE friend~ and some one who thought me to 忘恩负义.
It reminds me that this world are not good. There are many BADDduh people outside. Who we cannot trust. Recently, I read Xiaxue's blog and also watch her video. I'm inspired by her because of she doesn't scare about how people think how she is. Even when people critics her, she still stand steadily and fights back. That is all. Ciao.

Post before doing my assignments.

2011-09-14T20:28:00.000+08:00

Loads of assignments are waiting me. 2 presentation needs to be present on next week. DOOMED. Degree life is not fun. *missing diploma's life* Now my room is a mess and it ain't cheering me up. Loads of boxes needs to be unpack yet I'm lazy to do it. Not going back to hometown this week. Wish this life could stop now. One thing is i really hope that i can slim down in 3 months time.

Gonna watch smurf with Michelle this Friday. Yay! Super missing her and Waimun! Missing the gossip. BUt i think now we don't have any similar topics already. Sigh. Another thing to be sad. What a "joyful" life i have. I just want back the time we spent together. Seriously! T.T Why........... So many things need to be done. Really tired. Everyday woke up with problems in my head. PLUS! I DIDN'T GET MY MQA CERT STILL!!!! I hope i will get it soon, if not... T.T I will take the exams again. I DON'T WANT!!!!!!

Till here. Ciao.

Its a boring life. Sucks.

2011-09-13T21:37:00.000+08:00

Demotivated. Moody. Speechless. These are my moods now. Don't feel like talking at all. Can't really laugh out. I smile fakely, and unwantedly. -.- Don't know why i have this kind of mood. I just hope these mood would just fly away tomorrow. I hate it so much. It makes me think of my life is useless. Sigh. Presentations keep coming and knock my door. I don't have any mood to do the research thingy at all. Felt so sorry to my group members. T.T I wish holidays were longer and i have a time stopper machine. But it was only just a dream.

Had night mares for don't know how many nights already. When I'm feeling moody, I always want to pick a fight with my boyfriend. =.= Pity him. I'm sorry. I'm just don't know what way i can let this go. Nothing will cheers me up. Not even chocolates or ice-cream. Maybe i'm just stressed out with all the things coming and coming. I had no one to share with? I lost a lot of things recently. I don't know how to express it out. I hope this is just my imagination.

PLUS!

One of my best sister is leaving to Singapore. T.T I will miss you! Hornestly, going to college without you is so demotivating. This is the first time i felt wanted to cry. T.T

Thats all. Ciao.

Crepe Cake.

2011-09-10T13:13:00.000+08:00

I was like didn't update since came back from Bangkok. =/ Was not in the mood cause holidays is over. -.-. Went to Lost world with Dar and 2 of his friend. It was fun. =D Didn't take any photos because we are wet. Love the Petting Zoo the most. Started my degree life. It was horrible. Everything is not the same and we are so blur. Don't even know what the lecturer is lecturing. =.= Gonna die soon. Presentation like almost every week. And i have a debate thingy on next Tuesday. And i'm alone with new friends. Hopefully i can cope it well. =)

Now i learn to sew plushies. But it turns out like a thorned plushie. LOL. Will continue to improve.

The doggy bone.

And a moustache.

Tonight will go for a movie. =D Nasi Lemak. And will try to do a Chocolate Crepe Cake with Mom. Yummeh!

and here's some photos of Mickey!

His cookie monster teeth. XD

Till here. Ciao.

picture talks.

2011-09-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

Bangkok, Legacy Express Hotel.

BTS Skytrain.

Four Faced Buddha.

Chatuchak Market.

Cosplay Siam Paragon. Rinoa.

Cupcake at Siam Paragon. Delicious!

Petrol Station in Floating Market.

Floating Market.

romantic date that i miss.

2011-08-31T20:37:00.002+08:00

Just a simple photo would reminds me so much of our date. =)

I love you.

MIA for awhile.

2011-08-26T17:12:00.000+08:00

When the cows went for Vacation. She is MIA for her blog.

Yep yep yep, I am flying to Bangkok tomorrow! Yay! A family trip.

Shopping spreeee~!

See yah guys sooonnn~~