Personal Files, Ciarente Roth

Personal Diary 14.1.114

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Sat, 14 Jan 2012 09:00:00 +0000

I can't believe he didn't tell me!

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Personal Diary 12.1.114

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 06:46:00 +0000

The moment they put him in my arms I knew.

Nicolas.

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Personal Diary 10.1.114

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Tue, 10 Jan 2012 09:25:00 +0000

Here we go.

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Personal Diary 9.1.114

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 09:23:00 +0000

Well, we're all here, and everything is ready, in plenty of time.

Now there's just waiting.

So different to last time ...

I think Ami went down to have a word with the parieurs at Fortune of Water to make sure that would be different too.

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Personal Diary 5.1.114

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Thu, 05 Jan 2012 07:13:00 +0000

They're on their way back.

And not a moment too soon, according to Dr Gephi.

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Personal Diary 29.12.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 07:03:00 +0000

It seems Dr Toin was in quite a spot of bother, but Silver managed to get her out of it.

Apparently she's all right.

I hope Silver is.

I have the feeling I'll have to wait to talk to him in person to know, though.

Being Silver.

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Personal Diary 25.12.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Sun, 25 Dec 2011 19:00:00 +0000

Silver and Ami took off in an awful hurry today. Something to do with Dr Toin.

I hope she's all right, of course.

And that they get back before it's time for me to go to Debreth.

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Personal Diary 23.12.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 06:48:00 +0000

I'd like to pick a name from Charlie's side of the family.

Perhaps Marc, after his father, if I have a boy. Or Nicolas, after his mother's father. Or Nicolette, I suppose.

Nothing feels right, though. I think this time, watching Jan and Madlen crawling around, seeing them already showing signs of the little people they're going to be, I have a much stronger feeling that the little flutters and bumps inside me are a whole other person waiting to come out and be met.

And just slapping a name on without even looking feels ...

Well, wrong.

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NEOCOM SYSTEMS FILE: Passive Monitoring, Security: Roth Residence 20.12.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Tue, 20 Dec 2011 12:40:00 +0000

[NEOCOM SYSTEMS FILE: Security Recording 16:44 20.12.113 (GULFONODI X - MOON 15 - REPUBLIC FLEET TESTING FACILITIES LOCAL TIME)]

[LOCATION: ROTH RESIDENCE, ROTH MAIN HANGAR GULFONODI X - MOON 15 - REPUBLIC FLEET TESTING FACILITIES]

[SPEAKER: PILOT CIARENTE ROTH]

[SPEAKER: LIEUTENANT CHARLES ETAY]

CHARLES ETAY: Cherie? You're home early.

CIARENTE ROTH: So are you.

CHARLES ETAY: I took a personal day. Etes tu bien?

CIARENTE ROTH: I'm fine.

CHARLES ETAY: You don't sound -

CIARENTE ROTH: Some virus, that's all. Cami brought it home from school.

CHARLES ETAY: Have you seen the doctor?

CIARENTE ROTH: Yes, I've seen the doctor, Charlie, and it's a virus, and I'll be better tomorrow or the day after.

CHARLES ETAY: Do you want some tea?

CIARENTE ROTH: I can make it myself.

CHARLES ETAY: Cherie.

CIARENTE ROTH: If I feel like tea, Charlie, I can make it myself. Thank you.

CHARLES ETAY: Cia. I know you're still angry because I wasn't here. But I'm here now. Let me make you some tea.

CIARENTE ROTH: I don't want tea.

CHARLES ETAY: Juice?

CIARENTE ROTH: All right. Juice.

CHARLES ETAY: D'accord.

CIARENTE ROTH: Are you - will you be coming to Debreth? It'll be time soon.

CHARLES ETAY: Do you want me there?

CIARENTE ROTH: Of course I want you there!

CHARLES ETAY: Then, oui, I'll be there.

CIARENTE ROTH: You can get time off work?

CHARLES ETAY: I put in for leave months ago.

CIARENTE ROTH: Oh. Okay.

CHARLES ETAY: Here you are.

CIARENTE ROTH: Thank you.

CHARLES ETAY: You're welcome, cherie.

CIARENTE ROTH: I'm sorry I was so angry.

CHARLES ETAY: I'm sorry I wasn't here when you needed me. I'll be here more, I promise.

CIARENTE ROTH: I know you can't promise. With your work. I just wish -

CHARLES ETAY: Cherie?

CIARENTE ROTH: I wish I was sure that when you weren't here, you wanted to be.

CHARLES ETAY: I always want to be here, with you, with Jan and Madi.

CIARENTE ROTH: We did rush things, didn't we? And you - you gave up a lot. I understand if you're not - if you're thinking about things.

CHARLES ETAY: Cia, all I'm thinking about is how much I love you, and how much I love the twins, and how much we'll love the new baby.

CIARENTE ROTH: When I hear you say that, I - it seems true.

CHARLES ETAY: C'est vrai, cherie.

CIARENTE ROTH: But when you're not here, Charlie ... it's hard to remember that.

CHARLES ETAY: I'll try to be here more.

CIARENTE ROTH: Okay. That would be good.

CHARLES ETAY: Okay.

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Personal Diary 17.12.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Sat, 17 Dec 2011 19:34:00 +0000

Silver's been calling it a misunderstanding.

Verin says that bundling him back to his employers with a copy of our dossier on him is usually humiliating enough that they won't try again in a hurry. And anything else is more likely to snowball the situation.

I'm sure that's true. And very sensible.

But when I think about hearing Silver over the comm line when that awful little man was ...

It might be very sensible.

But it doesn't really feel like enough.

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Personal Diary 16.12.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Fri, 16 Dec 2011 19:25:00 +0000

I wasn't, you know, exactly eavesdropping.

Not exactly.

But I have to admit I wasn't exactly trying not to overhear.

He called her Nolikka.

Twice, too, well, almost twice.

Told her he considered her a friend, as well as a colleague.

And it only took seven months!

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NEOCOM SYSTEMS FILE: Passive Monitoring, Security: Roth Residence 14.12.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Wed, 14 Dec 2011 23:45:00 +0000

[NEOCOM SYSTEMS FILE: Security Recording 23:44 14.12.113 (GULFONODI X - MOON 15 - REPUBLIC FLEET TESTING FACILITIES LOCAL TIME)]

[LOCATION: ROTH RESIDENCE, ROTH MAIN HANGAR GULFONODI X - MOON 15 - REPUBLIC FLEET TESTING FACILITIES]

[SPEAKER: PILOT CIARENTE ROTH]
[SPEAKER: LIEUTENANT CHARLES ETAY]

CIARENTE ROTH: Where were you?

CHARLES ETAY: Cia?

CIARENTE ROTH: Where were you? I've been calling, and calling, and your comm was off, and the office said you'd left for the day, where were you?

CHARLES ETAY: What happened, are you all right, is the baby -

CIARENTE ROTH: What do you care?

CHARLES ETAY: Cherie, I'm sorry, I can't keep my comm on all the time, you know there are times I can't take a call. What happened?

CIARENTE ROTH: I wanted you here and you weren't!

CHARLES ETAY: Is that all?

CIARENTE ROTH: Is that all? You fils de putain de merde, is that all?

CHARLES ETAY: Cia, Cia, stop -

CIARENTE ROTH: Let go of me!

CHARLES ETAY: Will you put the lamp down if I let you go?

CIARENTE ROTH: Yes.

CHARLES ETAY: D'accord.

CIARENTE ROTH: So? Where were you?

CHARLES ETAY: I was working. What happened? Why have you been crying?

CIARENTE ROTH: Someone got past our security screening.

CHARLES ETAY: In here?

CIARENTE ROTH: No, in the hangar.

CHARLES ETAY: Are you all right?

CIARENTE ROTH: I wasn't even there! It was Silver! He tried to kidnap Silver!

CHARLES ETAY: Is he all right?

CIARENTE ROTH: The doctors say he will be.

CHARLES ETAY: Good. That's good.

CIARENTE ROTH: Ami got him out. And I did all the CEO things I had to do and I came back and checked on Silver and I wanted you and you weren't here!

CHARLES ETAY: I'm sorry, cherie.

CIARENTE ROTH: You're never here these days, Charlie.

CHARLES ETAY: It's been a busy time.

CIARENTE ROTH: I've tried to be understanding about that, I really have!

CHARLES ETAY: I'm sorry. I know you have.

CIARENTE ROTH: But I had to listen to someone torturing my brother because of me today and when I came home you weren't here and you weren't answering your comm and - and -

CHARLES ETAY: Cherie.

CIARENTE ROTH: If you don't want to be here, you should just go! Then I could get used to it, instead of - expecting you to be here and you not being. I could just know you weren't ever going to be here.

CHARLES ETAY: I do want to be here.

CIARENTE ROTH: That's not how you act.

CHARLES ETAY: Cherie, I'm sorry, I really am. I should have been here when you needed me.

CIARENTE ROTH: I want you to sleep in the guest room tonight.

CHARLES ETAY: Cia -

CIARENTE ROTH: I want you to sleep in the guest room!

CHARLES ETAY: D'accord.

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Personal Diary 30.11.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 07:46:00 +0000

We pulled it off.

I didn't dare let on to anybody that I was worried for even an instant that we wouldn't.

But ...

Such a relief.

And thank Fortune for my pilots.

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Personal Diary 28.11.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 14:06:00 +0000

Well.

That was exhausting.

Satisfying, though.

Still, good to get home.

Except ...

I was thinking all the way back to dock that I'd get here and there'd be Charlie and perhaps he'd even have made some dinner or at least ordered something, and the fire would be on and the twins would be sleeping, and ...

But he wasn't, and he hadn't. Just the twins and the nannies in the nursery, and Camille in bed.

And the living room dark and quiet and empty.

I wish he didn't need to work quite so much overtime.

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Personal Diary 22.11.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Tue, 22 Nov 2011 04:02:00 +0000

I'm sure it's just ... crossed wires or something.

When Charlie said he'd be working late tonight, he must have meant, well, not in the office. Some other sort of police-work.

And no wonder they have trouble keeping up with the rosters, all the overtime he's had lately.

Or else when the desk-clerk said Lieutenant Etay is not working this evening, he meant, not working here at the station.

Or something.

Verin said Or maybe working means having a guys' night out, ladies not invited.

But Charlie would just tell me, if he was going out somewhere with his colleagues.

He wouldn't lie to me.

I'm sure he wouldn't.

It's just crossed wires, that's all.

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Personal Diary 19.11.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Fri, 18 Nov 2011 16:56:00 +0000

I didn't expect it to be ...

Beautiful.

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Personal Diary 9.11.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Tue, 08 Nov 2011 15:48:00 +0000

Dr Toin is ready to test her prototype.

And she's going to install it on one of Silver's ships.

Do you think, Eva said, we should tell them there's this thing called 'sex'?

But somehow ...

I don't think it would take.

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Personal Diary 4.11.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Fri, 04 Nov 2011 00:26:00 +0000

I've been so busy lately.

I try to get home at a reasonable hour, I really do, but ... it hardly ever happens.

So I suppose it's not surprising Charlie decided to put in a few hours overtime.

That the problem with surprising people.

They don't know to plan for it.

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Personal Diary 2.11.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Wed, 02 Nov 2011 10:36:00 +0000

I didn't even think ...

It was all hurry and emergency and right fucking now, Cia you're FC, right fucking now!

And I didn't even think.

Until I got there, and realised how thin my hull was, and how much thinner the walls of the capsule inside.

And inside that, me, and inside me ...

Silver came and brought me out. I probably would have been okay, there wasn't any sign of trouble on the trip, but once I realised ...

I just couldn't. Not without someone there.

Someone I knew would keep me safe.

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Personal Diary 3.9.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Fri, 02 Sep 2011 14:14:00 +0000

Sometimes I love this job.

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Personal Diary 30.8.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Mon, 29 Aug 2011 18:51:00 +0000

Really?

Over two battleships?

Really?

Really?

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NEOCOM SYSTEMS FILE: Passive Monitoring, Security: Roth Residence 30.8.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Mon, 29 Aug 2011 17:16:00 +0000

[NEOCOM SYSTEMS FILE: Security Recording 14:34 30.8.113 (GULFONODI X - MOON 15 - REPUBLIC FLEET TESTING FACILITIES LOCAL TIME)]

[LOCATION: ROTH RESIDENCE, ROTH MAIN HANGAR GULFONODI X - MOON 15 - REPUBLIC FLEET TESTING FACILITIES]

[SPEAKER: PILOT CIARENTE ROTH]
[SPEAKER: CAMILLE ROTH]

CIARENTE ROTH: So be on your best behaviour, please, cherie, d'accord?
CAMILLE ROTH: Who is she?
CIARENTE ROTH: Dr Toin?
CAMILLE ROTH: Yeah.
CIARENTE ROTH: She's a friend of Silver's.
CAMILLE ROTH: Is he sexing with her?
CIARENTE ROTH: I don't know, I doubt it, and you are absolutely not to ask either of them that.
CAMILLE ROTH: Why not?
CIARENTE ROTH: Because it's none of your business. Hold still.
CAMILLE ROTH: You ask people about things that are none of your business all the time. Ow! You're pulling!
CIARENTE ROTH: Then brush your hair yourself.
CAMILLE ROTH: But you do! Ask things.
CIARENTE ROTH: Sometimes. But I would never ask Silver if he was sexing with Dr Toin.
CAMILLE ROTH: Why not?
CIARENTE ROTH: Because he'd be embarrassed by the question.
CAMILLE ROTH: Why?

CIARENTE ROTH: It's a private thing. People don't like talking about private things. Silver especially doesn't.
CAMILLE ROTH: Oh.

CIARENTE ROTH: Besides, the answer's almost certainly no. So I don't need to ask. And if it was yes, Ami would know, and she'd tell me. There. All brushed. Go and put your shoes on, the good ones, please. I don't want Dr Toin to think I'm raising a heathen.

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Personal Diary 24.8.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Wed, 24 Aug 2011 06:36:00 +0000

kasdeya's Fury has retracted the war against Re-Awakened Technologies Inc.

As Camille would say, le sigh.

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Personal Diary 21.8.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Sun, 21 Aug 2011 04:15:00 +0000

Good to be home ...

In my own bed.

In my own body.

It's funny, you know. People, well, pilots, talk about their ships as if they were a kind of body, sometimes. As if the ship feels like a sort of metal self, when they're jacked in.

I feel the little flutter below my ribs that means my passenger is turning over and suddenly my body feels like a kind of ship. Carrying a precious cargo, one only protected from all the dangers in the Cluster by my strength and my caution.

I don't want to jump out again. I like being this body, the one that carried Jan and Madlen and carries their sibling now.

But this clone can't fight.

So that's that.

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Personal Diary 19.8.113

noreply@blogger.com (Ciarente Roth) — Thu, 18 Aug 2011 10:59:00 +0000

I must think of something nice to do for Khali ...

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