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..of her beauty

2012-02-16T10:28:00.002+03:00

If the skies opened up
Revealing beauty beyond the Milky Way
And the stars shone their light in beautiful colours
Like flowers full in bloom in spring time
And if the skies perfectly lay out
Like one priceless hand-painted portrait
I'd see that and still rank it much lower
If I compared that to her wondrous beauty..

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2012-02-09T13:39:00.000+03:00

This loud voice we have tried to muffle
Busied ourselves so as to avoid its calls
Refused ourselves time to think or feel
And tried to starve and famish it completely

But it cries to be spoken out and acknowledged
If for nothing else for the beauty of its promise
For the sweet chiming bells it rings in our hearts
And for the joy it spreads when our inhibitions lift

Shall we yield to this voice in our hearts?
Tear down this high walls we have built around us
Allow ourselves to express this longing in our soul
And in expressing it set ourselves free forever

Free to bravely explore what may become of us
When fear falls and hope sets us lifting on its wings
When everything is possible and our path a common one
Facing the future together, hand in hand standing tall

Part 3......Something bigger than himself

2012-01-30T16:24:00.001+03:00

...this poem is poem under construction..

Then he was jolted by a force of a thousand waterfalls

He trembled as he saw the roof of darkness fall

Rushing light fell all around him, spreading fast to settle

Let there be light, someone had let there be light!

And light brilliantly shone over his cupped face

His hands wet with tears, forgetful of himself like a child

The brightness of the light was visible under his closed eyes

Shaken, he dared not open his eyes; he wanted to but would not

There was absolute quietness, even his heartbeat was muffled

His mind was blank, clean like a book of plain empty pages

There was no thought in mind, there was not one

He waited for one, but none came, not even one

There was not a pattern formed in his mind

Images floated in his head making his heart flutter

Then warmth, warm enough to dry his falling tears

He opened his eyes again, to see trees swaying in the wind

...................

2012-01-27T11:01:00.002+03:00

...for Paula

2012-01-24T16:56:00.003+03:00

Banish me from this city to a far-flung world
Build high walls all around that I cant climb back in
Strip me of all I own and give me a villain's send-off
But grant me one wish, let her face be the last one I see

Let my memory of this city fade away
That I have to ask for directions on every street corner
Let me get lost a trillion times if I may every day
But may I never lose this sweet memory of her smile

For even when I wonder through the streets lost
Stand at the crossroads not knowing which way to turn
When in my mind I see her face, all the burden I carry fall
And joy bubbles up inside me lifting my spirit up

She frees me from all the worlds cares
Unclenches me from the gripping holds of fears
One look at her and I am so full of life again
She with her bright spark reignites my dimming light

For Paula, my pal who smiled at me and just made my afternoon
the other day.This is not an attempt to thank you, ...for it is impossible
to thank you enough. But I acknowledge you ;-).

...of hope

2012-01-20T15:06:00.000+03:00

Here where disappointment has visited and left its marks
Where pain has cut so deep leaving behind deep scars
where will has been so severely tested and faith almost lost
Here, even here, in the ashes lingers the inextinguishable rays of hope

my brother be telling me..

2011-11-24T11:28:00.001+03:00

She likes me my brother be telling me
Good for her to show ambition I be telling him
But hers is a desire of the moth for the star
Shelley called it the devotions of something afar

Or am I gonna make her dream come true?
Abandon myself and allow her come to my rescue
If my brother is right then for her I really wish I could
For her happiness not for me won't that be good?

But I can't, not for her but for another I could
And I should... I will; I will when time is good
When I have talked to my girls..
I got gals? Good gals, hows that for honesty!

So she likes me my brother be telling me?
She is merely making numbers I tell him.......
He laughs..
And before he stops I look at him and I too start

holding tightly on your hand

2011-11-22T09:39:00.001+03:00

Across the table where those two lovebirds sit
There you and I sat thousands of hours ago
I want to forget and think of the one I am now with
But helpless I watch the past and the present collide to battle

On these very selfsame streets where we walked hand in hand
Our footprints close to each other are buried under layers of time I think
And as we walk with the one I am with I have you in my mind
Time has passed but in my mind memories tower over the reality

My heart leaps when I hear Jennifer Hudson's song you used to like
The one I am with sings along and arouses burning jealousy in me..
I cannot pretend, my heart is beating to another say in a different year
The one I am with tries but cannot understand me, how could she?

She loves me she tells me and I love her........ I think
But she can see right through the lie that is us I hope, I really hope.

to you..

2011-11-18T14:05:00.001+03:00

Were you here with me today
Sitting right here by my side( and always)
Quietly even without uttering a word
Still unending joy would pour forth

Were I to see you now
Coming to me even though for a while
Though you'd soon be gone
Still you'd leave me with a delightful smile

Were you to talk to me now
Or any time day or night
And just say as little as just hello
Still your words would be of much comfort

And were I to make one wish; one prayer
It would be of us together, forever

my guards broken, my laws have crumbled..

2011-09-15T11:03:00.002+03:00

Somewhere in the deep of her heart
A spark ignites warming and lighting her face
And I behold in awe the most beautiful smile
A smile that pushes all emotions off its way

And that warmth catches on me
I forget all else and on her I'm transfixed
She conjures up a smile in me
I am under her spell it seems

Her warmth, comforting warmth beckon me
My guard is broken, all laws I know crumble
My mind becomes ungovernable
My heart is set, My mind obey only one will

To be near her forever
To hold her hand in mine
Never to close my eyes ever
As I admire my beautiful mortal angel

That alone, nothing more, is i want
Its all I can ever want
If I will labour to have her for keeps
Then, undoubtedly, I foresee my labour being so sweet

My crown of many lights

2011-09-14T15:01:00.002+03:00

The suns pate sinks deeper over the horizon
A flowing flood of darkness chases the fleeing light
Light like a coward retreats without a fight
All its energies spent its brightness fast fades out

Night which can utter no word announces itself to millions
Spreading itself and covering everything under its dark veil
No wick nor floodlights, nothing will keep darkness away
It must rule the night before morning comes and it’s dethroned

Pity and shame for the sinking sun turns the moon red with anger
And it steps out to help its bigger and brighter brother illumine the earth
The stars too refuse to endure watching its kin put to shame
Out one by one, the little of the family to the biggest they all shine

Darkness is thwarted in its attempt to entirely rule the earth
Man, whose walk would have been halted by the flood of darkness
Stands, stops, and turn his face upwards with a grateful smile
His words are soft and heartfelt, a cross between poetry and prayer

His emotions a sighing, a relief, a jubilance…
A new awareness, a restoration of something which was fast breaking,a mending
Hope and joy propels his mind, sky by night becomes his fast library
And he reads captivated by newfound wisdom, almost a new religion

Wisdom is above, God is above, light too mustn’t be hid but put above
The veil of darkness is shredded by the piercing rays of light, rays of hope
It will exist, but not triumph, the sky is mans crown, the sun, moon and stars
And though the crown be so high we forget, it’s still on our heads lighting our path

Of thoughts of future and now

2011-09-07T08:05:00.000+03:00

Are we the future
Or when does the future begin?
Where, who could be sure
Is the line dividing?

If its not of today dependent
And its its free of history's influence
Then my thought of tomorrow
Are the most perishable

Dying on the ground they're planted
Denied a chance to grow
If its so, and my hope is it isn't
Then the present is more valuable than gold

Now that I can feel my pulse
Now that I can talk with you
Now I"ll truly live my life
Whether in the future I'll belong or not.

Oh Happy Day

2011-08-01T20:35:00.002+03:00

What a happy day!
Someone help me count my blessings
Someone can't they're too many
Someone needs to call an accounting firm
Call delloitte and touche
And call a studio while at it
Tell them to come take a picture perfect smile
It won't be here forever
Or it might, but I won't be here forever
(touch wood or whatever!)

But wait, I don't got time time to wait
Better yet I don't got time to waste
You get your cameras out you'll thank me later
Click with your phones camera you'll get yourself a wallpaper
And I'll always be there smiling at you, smiling with you
You can pay the debt by smiling back at me,- won't you?
But you don't have to, keep the debt to yourself if you want
Lets create happy memories of this day, lets pack them warm
And after the cold night comes, they'll still linger on
They'll be your friend on a hostile day, let us let them

See how generous I am, See how freely my happy thoughts I share
And It's not my birthday, and its not a payday or some happy anniversary
Yet I feed your memory, let the happy bug spread it'll make no one angry
Oh and I've remembered this,-.. and I didn't get a kiss from a girlfriend
(Take that last line one line up it'll make fluid flow)
See I'm imperfect with these lines and still my joy is perfect!
The cold is biting outside but it won't soak my lofty spirit
It's like I've been reading Leo Tolstoy's quote all day like a mantra
"If you want to be happy, be"
Why I am I don't know, I don't care, I just am!

Keep Me Away From Evil And Bad Gals..

2011-07-17T16:45:00.005+03:00

Who am I O lord?
What is my cause?
That you should bring me this far?

O sovereign Lord
You have shown me much grace
And let me know your favour

Is this your usual way of dealing with man?
What am I that you should consider me?
That you should care so much for me?

What can I Phat say to You?
You do things according to your will
And for the sake of Your word, Your living words

You take my hand when I've fallen and raise me up
Indeed there is not one like you
You are the great I AM

You are unchanging, You are not mere man
Your words are trustworthy
And you delight in fulfilling all your promises

I am humbled by you
And yet I pray
Walk with me dear Lord
Shine your light upon my path
Walk before me making the crooked paths straight
Hedge me from behind and in front me
Keep your protection upon me at all times
Protect me O lord even from myself
For my heart and thoughts oft lead me astray
And keep me away from evil and bad gals always

Have mercy on me do not deal with me as I deserve
I appeal to your goodness and your Love
And teach me Father
To know you so I may learn from you
That I may be transformed to be more like you
To love others as I You love me
I am inherently weak, strengthen me
My wisdom is folly, Teach me true wisdom
I plan but I can bring nothing to fruition
So Bring my plans into being

Reveal to me your will upon me
That I may know my true purpose
That I may live and be according to your will
Use me through all you have equipped me with
That I may not feel unworthy among your great creations
Yet teach me to be humble
Let your peace be in my heart
Take away my anxieties and give me your calm
My faith, my trust in in you
let it be so, now and hereafter, and forevermore

First part of the poem adopted from David's Prayer

Tomorrow, and tomorrows that follow

2011-06-30T18:29:00.000+03:00

If tomorrow comes
And finds in my element
whether the cold will sharply bite
Or the sun will rise to bath us with warm rays
whatever,I hope it finds me in full flourish
In faith, in hope, in joy...

My heart pumping with renewed expectations
My blood warm and flooding my veins
Unlocking paths to whole new galaxies of thoughts
Of bright new dreams that will fill my day
And to fill, to last, embedded in my mind forever
To inspire me tomorrow and all tomorrows that follow

One Day.

2011-06-25T13:40:00.002+03:00

(When Darkness Engulfs Daylight)

In days that are coming
Whose progress I cannot halt
Nor their march thwart by heavy arming
One day is to me truly sworn
To bring my life to an ending
Nearer and nearer it footstep draw

Its oath it has never broken
For all men born
It stays faithful to its cause
So when my life it deems full of term
Then wherever I'll be
In the air, land or sea, it shall come

Its shadow will be felt
When its heavy darkness engulfs daylight
I will have left, nay, taken
And only left behind an extinguished frame
One more stump
Where towering life once flourished but death felled.

Finally here we are

2011-06-19T17:14:00.001+03:00

Finally here we are
At the folding bridge
Carrying us forever
To a new unfamiliar world

Here, Soon, before our very eyes
Our dream will become a reality
And having dispensed with the past
We'll embrace a whole new world

A world of our own creation
Here, far away from where it all began
We bravely chose our dream
Believed even when we had little to go by

The dust on our feet will wash away
As we walk on these new grounds
The old memories too will fall behind
As we have a feel of this new world

Like in the past adventures
It's us, us only for each other
And God smiling for us from Above
The bridge tilts! Let embrace, embrace the future.

Journeying towards..

2011-06-12T14:42:00.003+03:00

When you fly away across the land and the seas
Through the winding way of the skies
To the other side of the moon and shining stars
Carry my hope and dreams with you

When you stand dwarfed by Mercury, Venus, Mars..
Watching the flaming meteorites zoom past the dark holes
Feeling alive there where you truly belonged
Keep too the memories we created here on earth

Then even when my aching soul longs for you
For that touch of tenderness of your human-angel hands
My hopes in your bosom, my dreams breathing truly
I will upon waking from this sleep see that beauty as you do

I will see with your eyes, and smell what you smell
The beauty of the world without
The smell of things heavenly
What no eye has seen except of the one who first created

Have no fear, shed no tear
I will live freely only if I let you leave
And as it has been, our lives in each others hands
So shall it ever be, lets let it be

Let your body lift and float above
Your shadow shielding me, always comforting me..
Towards heavens, towards object of light my eyes ain't seen
Lifting and lifting I will be with you as we move towards oneness.

How much more Human?

2011-06-04T20:47:00.003+03:00

This headache will split my head
These shoes are killing my feet
Can't wait to put this bag down
Remove my shoes &sock and let my feet breathe

Wouldn't I kill for a cool glass of Pepsi?
Trade all I own for Shower and a massage?
And sleep, sweet sleep, healing sleep!
If I could have all that now, now, now!

My girl is waiting for my call
Kinda makes me wish I'd never promised I'd call
There is a mountain of work tomorrow
My best years I'm selling off for hard cash

Ain't that cause for little sorrow
Oh how human have I truly turned?
Wishing for, wishing for..
Wishing for a quiet moment in the midst of chaos

Making The Transition.

2011-05-28T16:53:00.002+03:00

Yesterday is so gone
Broken down out like a million fine particles of dust
My boot-prints blown
The sand keeps no memory of where my feet stepped last

Today I've left the gravel path
And now I walk down this rich red carpet
It too I'll leave behind
Not my footprint though, here too they can not last

My fingers prints are everywhere too
On that warm coffee cup I tightly clasped
On the mouse at the cyber too
They too won't last ain't that so sad?

My old friends have forgotten my number
Tomorrow they'll struggle to remember my face
That will not matter much I'm making new ones
And everything I am they all love to remember.

69 things that put a smile on my face.

2011-02-02T11:48:00.003+03:00

1. When you smile at me!
2. Intellectual conversations.
3. Getting a favour i don't deserve
4. Reading Malcom Gladwells books.
5. God's sense of Humour when talking back to Job
6. Seeing the sun set in quiet countryside.
7. Sitting on a river bank listening to the waters flow.
8. A waterfall, even the sound of it.
9. The crushing occean waves at the beach.
10. Crisp notes popping out of Atm machine.
11. Writing a cheque.
12. A nice warm hug.

13. Coffee, the smell of it...
14. A bar of chocolate all for myself.
15. Going on a trip with pals.
16. Beholding the million stars light the skies
17. Full moon on a cloudless sky.
18. Making a meal for 2.
19. New pair of shoes.
20. Completing a difficult poem.
21. When you tell me I'm smart...(call me and tell me now!)
22. Going up on a lift alone.
23. Mums who let me hold their child.
24. Lunch at 11 am.

25. Beautiful music.
26. A good speaker.
27. Waking up and remembering a beautiful dream i had.
28. Solving a puzzle.
29. Completing the crossword.
30. When she pats my hand or arm or back while talking to me.
31. When she moves close to straighten my collar.
32. Receiving that brief, ''I Miss You text''.
33. When people tell me they're reading my blog.
34. A good kiss.
35. Relating my stories to my cousin.
36. Laughing about an old childhood story with my bro.

37. Being so in love, the texts, the dates, oh everything..
38. Watching cool couples chatting in coffee shops.
39. When she holds my hand while we are watching a movie.
40. Colds seasons like In June but when its not wet.
41. Walking on green grass bare-feet.
42. New people looking so excited to meet me.
43. Knowing you truly love me despite my foibles.
44. Christmas season buzz.
45. Elizabethan literature.
46. Listening to a good storyteller.
47. Witty-ful people.

49. My old pictures.
50. Finding money in my pockets while ironing.
52. Meeting and chatting with my pals after church.
53. Seeing a chat-box opening in my fcbk page and its you.
54. New clothes.
55. Accomplishing a goal.
56. When all my clothes and shoes are clean and pressed.
57. When I dress up for something, look into the mirror and know
I look sharp.
58. New perfume.
59. High speed internet.
60. Visiting a book store.

61. Science or arts documentaries.
62. A good movie.
63. New photos.
64. Answered prayers.
65. Friends who come to see me and chat.
66. People offering me good advise.
67. When you tell me you believe in me.
68. Unexpected kiss on my cheek (that almost always makes me blush).
69. Knowing Im loved and being told so.

Going Home (cyber-write)

2011-01-03T20:24:00.000+03:00

From home to town
From town to coast,...and back
Turned the wheel full circle and some!
& while I was away a whole calender has gone to trash

Now maybe its time to go back
Not back home cos you know what they say,``homes where your heart is''
And my heart is in my chest so wherever i am.....?go figure!
Your son is coming home, ..will it be from town to home and back?

Uniting Us. (Abridged version)

2010-09-30T11:28:00.000+03:00

Love stands far high above us
As if looking out for us
Love is in itself holy and pure
And humbly it charms us forever

When we break love it still lingers
It is the god of second chances
There is no condemnation from love
When we are down it lifts us up

Love holds the world together
Delighting in bringing us closer
It is the keeper of hope
It inspired Eros

Through a thousand years love remains
Without losing its zeal or fervor
It will take your hand at your point of departure
And travel with you if you want forever

Love lives for every single one of us
We are all beauties in love’s eyes
In touching us love changes the world
In accepting love our world is changed

Love gives peace to our souls
Love instructs our actions
Through it broken souls are redeemed
Through it we cherish in giving

Love has put a thousand smiles on our faces
Bringing us warmth and laughter
And when we have lost it
Troubled we seek to regain it

Love is the god of Life
If taken away from us
Our world would be weary and cold
And everything would lose its meaning
Hail to this love

I Give You Phat

2010-09-22T14:38:00.003+03:00

Step up to receive him
Cool and calm claims he
So come playing classical
Or come playing Neo-soul
Pavarotti in the background
John Legend out loud

Step up to receive him
Cool and smart claims he
So bring Kant's categorical imperative
Ditto Baruch Spinoza's thesis
A bit of Swinburne's poetry
And ready to discuss Shakespeare’s classics

Step up to receive him
He is all he claims but also human
He enjoys Cadbury's chocolate
And or Coke if not Pepsi
He loves to cook so allow him
And he enjoys doing dishes so don’t stop him

Step up to receive him
Real to himself claims he
Buzan taught him the mind-map trick
De-bono teaches him how to think
Mc-Graw is his favourite shrink
And Blink is his favourite read

Step up to receive him
He write poems so read him
Talk about books and hell love you
Read his blog and he’ll acknowledge you
And he’s a thinker let him muse
Later he will tell you what’s in his mind

Step up to receive him
There is none like him claims he
He enjoys witty talk so indulge him
He has a staccato laugh so tickle him
He listens well so talk to him
And he's willing so try him

Step up to receive him
Step up with confidence
Let your heels lift you
As you come to sweep him off his feet
He’s ready are you ready?
Then step out and claim him.

Cross-roads

2010-09-13T15:09:00.001+03:00

You traveled east
And he traveled west
The hope of you being
Had come to an end

None of you looked over the shoulder
For pain if your eyes met
It was indeed over
And evenly tears you wept

After countless hours and days
Of persuading your heart to let go
You finally managed to bury your pain
And you were ready to shut that door

But they say earth is an orb
And a small orb it turned out
For when again your paths crossed
Your bodies proved shallow to hide the buried emotions

Now old emotions are floating on the surface
Rocking you about like a boat in a raging storm
Its like you never moved, you’re rooted on the selfsame place
But you mind shifts in a Billion ways

Choice shows you different paths like a compass
Confusing both your heart and your mind
One is saying don’t go back but the other can’t resist the pull
Watching we wish we’d help but that’s our nagging dilemma too.