Phileosopher

Accounting and Finance ( personal tutor )

2012-10-29T19:24:00.001-07:00

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sad

2012-06-26T08:26:00.001-07:00

Just sad. That's all.

1st day of being alone

2012-04-20T00:56:00.001-07:00

torturing

sssss

2012-04-20T00:05:00.001-07:00

the stress that i cant utter FUCK YOU in facebook because i need to take care of my reputation and showing good example to people.

but anyways,

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
hope you burn in hell

pppp

2012-04-19T23:58:00.002-07:00

if only i could,
if only i can,
leave this place ALONE without anyone,
gaining peace of mind.
having no sufferings from external people, annoying people,

and only i could change,
change to a theoretically better one,
where the statements above would be invalid.

What can I do?
God does not respond to me...
what else could I do?
all those torturing....

actions speak louder than words

2012-04-10T07:58:00.002-07:00

sometimes, actions really play an important role rather than just speaking out.
and i understand why guys sometimes cheat on their girl friends. there are reasons. and i know it

so happy

2012-02-04T22:54:00.000-08:00

HAPPY HAPPY. my life is so happy from today onwards

===

2012-02-03T19:25:00.001-08:00

endure until one day and give up without any regrets and qualms.

ap

2012-01-29T01:31:00.000-08:00

Just like how earthquake which was bestowed by God towards Indonesia, serious apathy syndrome has again bestowed to me in the same manner.
Without much consideration, I will again exile myself.. it happened probably less of empathy from others in a reasonable or unreasonable way. In whichever way, it is still a fact that it occurred; nothing can be done.

- torture -

2011-12-25T08:58:00.000-08:00

It is back again.
I am quite certain it is the same one.
The trigger is increasing in a rapid frequency where I couldn't hold it anymore.
This is definitely mental sickness. Can I overcome it all by myself?
I don't need help. All I need is apathy just like last time.
Why would I care so much?

-Love-

2011-12-24T23:30:00.001-08:00

Finally I get to know what is Love and....
Even when the impact is great until it can sink an island,
I will still endure because I am not an island, I am a continent...

=(

2011-12-11T07:21:00.000-08:00

If everyone is going against, don't fret.
Friends are just mere friends, nothing more nothing less.
Live on your own.
Ditch people instead of getting ditched, this is how we protect ourselves.

- endurance -

2011-12-09T19:40:00.000-08:00

How can endurance lead someone until the end of journey? Perhaps the end of journey simply means end of life?

What I experienced so far was an extraordinary gain in endurance and the level of fakeness in me. I was so exhausted and yet I can pretend I am really okay. Just like last time, I accommodate people with despair externally and now I accommodate people with despair internally. Which one is better? which one causes more damage to me overall?

If I am able to go through this for 5 years, I will be champion! at least to myself I am a champion because I really know how capable I am..

- titleless -

2011-11-13T02:52:00.000-08:00

What can transparency do?
Transparency will never give us freedom to maneuver. No matter how much we try, we are still visible to others.
Others will know every of our moves.
Concealing or hiding the motives in the moves will be detected by people who are at the same level.
So, what can I do?
Efficient Securities Market?
Simply said, I am just not good enough.

- exciting nightmare -

2011-11-06T03:21:00.000-08:00

It's another phase in my life.
I would say I enjoyed it for the past few days. I've prepared well I guess..
I think I chose the correct path enduring and lucky enough to get accepted.
Exposing myself in a successful system is definitely a right choice.
Thank god...

- Social link and Social creation -

2011-10-27T21:41:00.000-07:00

Social creation is derived through social link. What society feeds you determines what type of person you are. To me, it is best to be on average where everything is balanced. In a list, if you are on the top where there will be social highlight. Social highlight posts threats and satisfaction as well to the individual. There are intangible and tangible threats that the individual need to accept. Some threats might act as an catalyst where the individual will react positively in shaping him/herself.Some might just bring him/her down.

Sometimes, society's feedback is one of the many indications that clearly shows the individual's position. Interpreting those feedback is an important skill that one should have. Let's talk about sampling, if 10 samples out of 20 delivers the same notion that we should be better, just accept it. The probability of the 10 colluding a general notion is low unless they are from the same social circle.

I couldn't deny that I am a social creation although I tried hard resisting. I don't like to walk alone... life is just too short.

i choose not to care

2011-10-17T10:39:00.001-07:00

i dont care

Doesn't feel good

2011-10-15T10:58:00.001-07:00

the title speaks loudly.

- think -

2011-10-09T04:10:00.000-07:00

I really have to plan and think meticulously.
Huge future benefits with substantial effort to be traded.
Life is no longer easy starting from now. Just wish for the best. Please contact me next week because I really need the offer.
Have to work triply hard in order to fulfill my additional obligations.
Hope my plans will work out after 3 years..

-m-

2011-10-04T21:00:00.000-07:00

Seriously, I can live without anyone, thank you for shaping me. It is proven. Opportunistic behavior.
People will change and will leave you eventually. Even my soul will leave me. No one can be trusted; even myself. That's all..

Knowing myself better.

2011-10-03T21:47:00.001-07:00

After the failure, I finally noticed that I have low self esteem.
The reason I strife so hard to be better is mainly because I have no confidence in myself. That is why I have to better in order to boost myself up. I always said that image is not that important for me but it is not quite true. I cared about how people look at me. I still can't live on totally on my own yet.I am not confident of who I am. Society somehow played its role in structuring me. Perhaps it is because my history made me or I made myself up.

A free gift will always remain tautology. That is a fact and there is no such thing is a free gift.

- philosophy.

2011-09-18T05:59:00.000-07:00

Can't really deny that everyone in this world is naturally born philosopher. When they are able to think rationally/irrationally in their own way and be able to convince others, it makes them philosophers. Subjectivity bores me much and I hope I can narrow down my philosophies and listen to their philosophies more.

Still hoping for the best.

2011-09-17T06:59:00.000-07:00

As humans have their upside and downfalls, this is actually the first time that the situation brought me to an anxious condition where it adversely affect my performance in basically everything.
Being single is definitely the best thing after suffering for such long period.
I sense light in front of me. However, there is darkening aura as well which made me anxious. I believe God will shine my path through.
Although I am reluctant to believe in Him, I somehow gave it a try... like real...

emotional.

2011-09-14T04:01:00.000-07:00

How could I fail it? Am I really that intellectually blunt? How could I fail given second chance. I really could not accept this kind of shit man...
I never failed till this extend in my life before. This is the first time..

Do you know?

2011-09-11T22:27:00.000-07:00

Do you really know me well?
Break the puzzle and solve again.... you are not even walking in my shoes. how could you possibly know my world?