Phileosopher

ap

2012-01-29T01:31:00.000-08:00

Just like how earthquake which was bestowed by God towards Indonesia, serious apathy syndrome has again bestowed to me in the same manner.
Without much consideration, I will again exile myself.. it happened probably less of empathy from others in a reasonable or unreasonable way. In whichever way, it is still a fact that it occurred; nothing can be done.

- torture -

2011-12-25T08:58:00.000-08:00

It is back again.
I am quite certain it is the same one.
The trigger is increasing in a rapid frequency where I couldn't hold it anymore.
This is definitely mental sickness. Can I overcome it all by myself?
I don't need help. All I need is apathy just like last time.
Why would I care so much?

-Love-

2011-12-24T23:30:00.001-08:00

Finally I get to know what is Love and....
Even when the impact is great until it can sink an island,
I will still endure because I am not an island, I am a continent...

=(

2011-12-11T07:21:00.000-08:00

If everyone is going against, don't fret.
Friends are just mere friends, nothing more nothing less.
Live on your own.
Ditch people instead of getting ditched, this is how we protect ourselves.

- endurance -

2011-12-09T19:40:00.000-08:00

How can endurance lead someone until the end of journey? Perhaps the end of journey simply means end of life?

What I experienced so far was an extraordinary gain in endurance and the level of fakeness in me. I was so exhausted and yet I can pretend I am really okay. Just like last time, I accommodate people with despair externally and now I accommodate people with despair internally. Which one is better? which one causes more damage to me overall?

If I am able to go through this for 5 years, I will be champion! at least to myself I am a champion because I really know how capable I am..

- titleless -

2011-11-13T02:52:00.000-08:00

What can transparency do?
Transparency will never give us freedom to maneuver. No matter how much we try, we are still visible to others.
Others will know every of our moves.
Concealing or hiding the motives in the moves will be detected by people who are at the same level.
So, what can I do?
Efficient Securities Market?
Simply said, I am just not good enough.

- exciting nightmare -

2011-11-06T03:21:00.000-08:00

It's another phase in my life.
I would say I enjoyed it for the past few days. I've prepared well I guess..
I think I chose the correct path enduring and lucky enough to get accepted.
Exposing myself in a successful system is definitely a right choice.
Thank god...

- Social link and Social creation -

2011-10-27T21:41:00.000-07:00

Social creation is derived through social link. What society feeds you determines what type of person you are. To me, it is best to be on average where everything is balanced. In a list, if you are on the top where there will be social highlight. Social highlight posts threats and satisfaction as well to the individual. There are intangible and tangible threats that the individual need to accept. Some threats might act as an catalyst where the individual will react positively in shaping him/herself.Some might just bring him/her down.

Sometimes, society's feedback is one of the many indications that clearly shows the individual's position. Interpreting those feedback is an important skill that one should have. Let's talk about sampling, if 10 samples out of 20 delivers the same notion that we should be better, just accept it. The probability of the 10 colluding a general notion is low unless they are from the same social circle.

I couldn't deny that I am a social creation although I tried hard resisting. I don't like to walk alone... life is just too short.

i choose not to care

2011-10-17T10:39:00.001-07:00

i dont care

Doesn't feel good

2011-10-15T10:58:00.001-07:00

the title speaks loudly.

- think -

2011-10-09T04:10:00.000-07:00

I really have to plan and think meticulously.
Huge future benefits with substantial effort to be traded.
Life is no longer easy starting from now. Just wish for the best. Please contact me next week because I really need the offer.
Have to work triply hard in order to fulfill my additional obligations.
Hope my plans will work out after 3 years..

-m-

2011-10-04T21:00:00.000-07:00

Seriously, I can live without anyone, thank you for shaping me. It is proven. Opportunistic behavior.
People will change and will leave you eventually. Even my soul will leave me. No one can be trusted; even myself. That's all..

Knowing myself better.

2011-10-03T21:47:00.001-07:00

After the failure, I finally noticed that I have low self esteem.
The reason I strife so hard to be better is mainly because I have no confidence in myself. That is why I have to better in order to boost myself up. I always said that image is not that important for me but it is not quite true. I cared about how people look at me. I still can't live on totally on my own yet.I am not confident of who I am. Society somehow played its role in structuring me. Perhaps it is because my history made me or I made myself up.

A free gift will always remain tautology. That is a fact and there is no such thing is a free gift.

- philosophy.

2011-09-18T05:59:00.000-07:00

Can't really deny that everyone in this world is naturally born philosopher. When they are able to think rationally/irrationally in their own way and be able to convince others, it makes them philosophers. Subjectivity bores me much and I hope I can narrow down my philosophies and listen to their philosophies more.

Still hoping for the best.

2011-09-17T06:59:00.000-07:00

As humans have their upside and downfalls, this is actually the first time that the situation brought me to an anxious condition where it adversely affect my performance in basically everything.
Being single is definitely the best thing after suffering for such long period.
I sense light in front of me. However, there is darkening aura as well which made me anxious. I believe God will shine my path through.
Although I am reluctant to believe in Him, I somehow gave it a try... like real...

emotional.

2011-09-14T04:01:00.000-07:00

How could I fail it? Am I really that intellectually blunt? How could I fail given second chance. I really could not accept this kind of shit man...
I never failed till this extend in my life before. This is the first time..

Do you know?

2011-09-11T22:27:00.000-07:00

Do you really know me well?
Break the puzzle and solve again.... you are not even walking in my shoes. how could you possibly know my world?

=

2011-09-05T07:30:00.000-07:00

When I am able to look at them without hatred or vengeance, I knew that it is about time I alleviate myself to another level.

complete change

2011-09-01T21:02:00.001-07:00

complete change, no matter what it costs, being a bad person, being the worst, I just want to change.

z

2011-08-05T07:20:00.001-07:00

4. BDO Binder
5. Crowe Horwath
6. Mazars Malaysia
7. Deloitte ---> globally no.2, strong for manufacturing, no.1 for tax in Msia
8. Moore Stephens
9. SJ Grant Thornton
10. RSM RKT
11. Baker Tilly Monteiro Heng
12. Folks DFK & Co / Azman, Wong, Salleh & Co

end of the road

2011-08-03T00:47:00.000-07:00

The route or journey has ended few hours ago. I have given you a crucial chance and as usual, you have screwed it up again. No more chances will be given again. I promise myself I will continue a new life after on. If it happens that you read this, please do not approach me anymore as disappointment has reached its limit. I can't afford to allocate anymore of my time to you. You proved to be worthless after all. The one year duration + 2 years duration I will consider it as my failure. It's not even worth remembering. I believe in order to find happiness, we can never be selfish. Selfishness is only suitable for people who love themselves. That's all.

-sacrifices-

2011-08-01T05:48:00.000-07:00

Maybe I am too dumb to sacrifice so much just to wait for today and it's definitely not worth the sacrifice i made so far..
And definitely what people told me were correct . They suggested you deserve a better one. I still cling on to my perception not letting go and I turned many of them down. I turned myself down as well at last.. Why my path is so tough? Seriously, do I really need to suffer so much?

open my mind and speak

2011-07-23T02:27:00.000-07:00

Is this my own problem or the problem lies in others? or is it how a realistic society supposed to be? or is this life? my own life? will this mean that I didn't adapt to the society?anti-social?
I couldn't really answer the questions which are stacked in my world.
How could this be?
Am I not good enough for others? or is it because others are not good enough for me?
Anyhow, I will try my best to speak out so that at least I can minimize a variable in the possibilities. Hope it will hit right on the target and I wish the problem lies in myself but not others.

the road not taken

2011-07-20T07:55:00.000-07:00

LoL. when it comes to this phrase I will always smile to myself.

Anyways I am really serious now. There is no one I can rely on. I can only rely on myself I strongly believe, who would be there when I really needed someone? I am glad that my family members were with me but I believe I will find someone much closer than I thought. I chose the harder path this time; forgoing the path which I feel that it is more suitable for me. Hopefully I will get good returns in future. Are qualifications really that important?

I believe there will be no short cut especially when my life is destined to travel through a path where substantial obstacles will be in the way.

I still remember the phrase vividly until today.. I think YOU who and what I mean..

6 6 6

2011-07-11T09:11:00.000-07:00

If it happens that I have an epiphany, I will erase you all on the surface of earth...