Pink Penguin Poetry

Cotton Candy Kisses

2009-11-09T15:19:00.003-06:00

Sweet as sugar
Pure as any other,
A feather light touch
A second where our lips meet,
When you kiss me hello
Or smooch me goodbye,
The sweet innocence
Yet deep intense passion,
Romantic and sensual,
The world seems simple
And life bright and cheery,
All with one sweet kiss

Letters Never Sent

2009-11-08T20:40:00.003-06:00

I wrote a letter
To demand answers,
I poured my soul
Into the printed words,
Tears stained the pages
And smeared my thoughts,
I wrote a letter
Wishing to know
Why you never loved
Your first born child,
Did you easily forget
Or did you pretend
Your seed was never shared?
Was it easy to
Just walk away,
Years later I wondered
If you admitted to fatherhood
Before your other children,
I wrote this all
In a letter,
Sealed it with a tear,
Added it to several more,
Of letters never sent,
For if you were to answer
With truth or lies
It matters not,
If you were to answer
I would have to admit
To being your daughter

Eraser

2009-11-07T11:46:00.003-06:00

In a book
With edges frayed
And pages worn,
There I once
Wrote of a
Love I thought so pure,
A love that consumed
My very soul,
Was I too young
Was I naive,
Does love truly exist
Or is it just
A passing fade,
Words written in happiness
Words written in hope,
Written with no
Knowledge of heartbreak,
A life I never wish
To write about again,
I wish for a devotion
Without lies
Without deceptions,
I wish to erase
The days I was blinded
By an impure love

Drowning

2009-11-06T22:26:00.003-06:00

Liquid fire passes
My lips and across my tongue,
Managing to sooth
yet burn all the same,
The first dose is measures
Until the tears refuse to cease,
The bottle tips
Pouring clear relief,
All I wish is an end
An end to this inconsolable grief,
Though the end is but
A momentary lapse,
A pause is all I can wish,
I'm drowning inside a bottle
A bottle clear and cold

Behind The Door

2009-11-02T16:15:00.003-06:00

A wooden door
Stands before,
Blocking the way in,
Keeping the outside world
Unable to cross the threshold,
This door also
Locks in the cries of anguish,
The light creeps
Through the corners,
Beckoning from a life unknown,
What lays beyond this door
That guards my heart,
What lays beyond the walls
That guard my soul,
What lays beyond this life
That I have lived so long,
A jumble of keys
Surely one must fit,
One step out to feel
The sunshine upon my skin,
One moment to take in
A breath of air fresh,
One step out this door
To a new life

Cooling of the Days

2009-11-01T13:50:00.004-06:00

Crunch crunch crunch...
Crisp and cool beneath my shoes,
Down the path I make my way
To find myself another day,
This journey controls my time
And captures my soul,
My eye watching careful
For a sight to freeze behind the lens,
As the sun slips from
The cerulean sky,
Frost attempts to share his chill,
Crunch crunch crunch...
Leaves of amber and auburn
Float to the ground
Like falling tears from the trees,
The days of summer have gone
Draining color from the hours,
Soon the winds will blow
With curtains of white closing,
Crunch crunch crunch...

Escape the Rain

2009-10-09T16:33:00.005-05:00

Like a flash in the darkness
Grief rips apart my soul,
In an instant so brief
All the walls have
Been burnt to the ground,
Leaving me raw and exposed
Unable to turn the pain away,
Of all the things I had
Built barriers against
Suddenly were able to attack
Deep down to my soul,
Grief opened the door
And tore apart my defenses,
All the memories I was able to hide from
Rain down on my skin like frozen needles,
Now I lay here on the floor
Unable to speak
Unable to feel beyond
The urge to tip back the bottle,
And for even for a moment in time
I could forget the pain
And escape the rain,
My body aches
And my thirst has no delay
My heart feels as if
All I had loved is gone,
For just a moment
Can I escape the rain?
Can I hide the pain?
For just a moment

I Took a Walk

2009-10-07T18:14:00.007-05:00

Its just a bit of kryponite
I left my body somewhere
In the sands of time,
As I took a walk
To find myself
And who I should have been,
The answers are all the same
All hidden in the unknown,
I take a walk
Looking up at the stars
Realizing how small we are,
Wondering which one will
Shoot across the sky
And grant my wish tonight,
I let my mind wander
And leave my body behind
In the world of tangible,
I ride the waves of imagination
Soaring through the clouds
Of doubt, dreams, and damnation,

Lullaby

2009-09-30T22:22:00.001-05:00

Kalei Kalei do not cry for me
For I am but a lullaby
To send you off to pleasant dreams,
A thought to ease your woes
And heal your broken heart,
Though you long to be held
Tightly in my arms
This cannot happen tonight,
Close your eyes and imagine
Me there by your side,
For I do not wish
To see you cry,
Kalei remember though I am gone
My memory lives in your heart,
Hold true to the love we had
If that will ease the pain,
But dear Kalei know this
Perhaps we were never meant to be,
After all these years we may still fit
And seem like a missing piece,
But after all this time
We are still not one
Not the way your heart desires,
I wish you all the happiness
But perhaps this is
All we were meant to be,
Kalei do not cry for me
Just let me be your lullaby

Finding My Voice

2009-09-29T20:50:00.002-05:00

Deep inside of me
There is a girl I know,
Yet she is a stranger
All of you will not see,
I find myself screaming out
But unable to find my voice,
I dream in shades of gray
In a world seemingly fantasy,
My name up in lights,
Or a little house painted white,
A life safe and settled
Or wild and carefree,
Anything that I already see
Is the life I dream I can be,
My soul has been held prisoner
To the lack of love of the
One I gave my heart to long ago,
I bite my tongue
And forget my dreams
For a fragile maybe from his lips,
Sometimes he promises
The life I've always yearned,
Sometimes he pretends to know
But in truth we are clueless,
I must reach down deep
And find the girl I should have been,
The one who lose her voice
That day she met you,
You and me, we make sense
But I cannot wait around on love
And on dreams that have yet to come through,
I am finding my voice
Shouting out and singing a new song,
I am finding my dream
Wishing on a new star,
I wish you could come with me
As I venture forth to find
The girl I should have been,
But while I am finding my voice
The world we knew has muted
Faded from my heart,
Though I am out there
Finding my voice,
I will always remember you

Trying Not To Think

2009-09-27T20:03:00.004-05:00

Sweet sixteen and full of dreams,
I try not to think about
Our first time,
How scared but safe I felt
Being held in your arms,
I try not to think
About our goodbyes,
My heart has been broken
Shattered and scattered in the night,
And you came along
To hold me tight and clear
Away my falling tear,
I try not to think
About all my secrets
Of which only you know,
I try not to think
Of those late nights laughing,
Or those hours just talking,
I try not to think
About our goodbyes,
I try not to think
About the day he came into life,
The day I became a mother
And you became a father,
I try not to think
About all the nights
Spent scared and alone,
Wondering if decisions were right
If I had the strength to continue on,
I try not to think
About the days you were gone
And the few days you were here,
I try not to think
About our goodbyes,
I try not to remember
How easy it is to love
And how easily my heart breaks,
I try not to think
About you when I decide
On if I will stay or go,
I try not to think
About being in your arms,
I try not to think
I try not to feel
I try to pretend
I do not have to say goodbye,
I try to act as if you
Never touched my soul
Never were part of my life,
I try not to remember
I try not to think

You I Need

2009-09-24T15:04:00.002-05:00

I just want you here
To hold me tight,
I don't want to
Sleep alone tonight,
So pull me in your arms,
Tell me not to cry,
Its ok if you
Don't love me,
Just tell me you care,
With only you
Do I feel safe,
Its you I need
To comfort me now,
I'm not asking
For your love,
Not begging for
A forever promise,
I just don't want to
Sleep alone tonight

Would You

2009-09-21T18:43:00.000-05:00

If I call you today
And tell you of a life
That was created yesterday,
Would you believe me,
Would you stand by me
If I told you the father ran
Because of the responsibility,
Would you have sympathy,
If I want to cry
Because I am scared
That I can't do it on my own,
Would you hold me,
Would you brush away my tears,
If the world turns it's back on me
Would you still hold my hand,
If everyone gossiped of me
Would you defend my honor,
If I call you today
Would you still be my friend tomorrow,
Would you?

Happy

2009-09-17T12:58:00.003-05:00

It tears my heart apart
But love does funny things,
I think of you
Wondering what might have been,
Wishing something could be,
Alas but I do not know
What the future holds for me,
My soul longs to be your mate
But yet I hesitate,
I love you
So I will let you go,
I will turn the other way,
Find someone who will
Treat you right,
Do not settle
For the wrong one again,
I cannot stand to see
You in that pain,
I love you so I will
Turn and walk away,
I want you to be happy
And if that's not with me
Then I have no choice,
I cannot wait forever
Hoping on a dream,
We seem to fit so perfectly
But never try to finish this puzzle,
I only feel alive
When you are here beside me,
But I will sacrifice my love
For you to find another,
I will turn around
And look the other way,
All I want you to be is happy
Even if it is not with me

An Empty Room

2009-09-15T18:59:00.002-05:00

I sit upon the floor
staring up at the empty walls,
The paint faded with time
And filled with faint picture lines,
Here I sit in an empty room
Thinking about how time has gone,
New memories will be made,
A new life I am about to live,
Stepping out of this life
And into another,
I am about to venture out
On a grand adventure,
Perhaps tragedy and heartbreak
Linger around the corner,
Or just maybe happily-ever-after
Is waiting there for me,
All I know is everything is about to change,
I think of this as I sit
In this empty room

Ride Alyssa Ride

2009-09-07T18:07:00.000-05:00

You were always one of a kind,
A cowgirl in a man's world,
You never listened to
"No you can't"
As you went off with
You bell and your rope,
Now all I can say is
Ride Alyssa ride,
Take that 8 second bull
And ride across
The clear blue sky,
Hold on tight
And don't look back,
Ride Alyssa Ride,
I always knew you'd
Be one of the greats,
And now you're up against
Lane Frost himself
At that rodeo in the sky,
And all I can say is
Ride Alyssa ride

Breathe

2009-09-03T00:35:00.000-05:00

Take a moment
And pause time,
Take a look at
The world around you,
And just breathe

Play

2009-09-02T00:04:00.000-05:00

I see you there
Peaking back at me,
I see your grin
As you're ready to pounce,
I pretend to fright
As you leap from hiding,
I shriek and run
As your little legs follow,
Playing with you
Is the highlight of my day,
For how can anything
Be more important
Than time spent
With my son

No Words

2009-09-01T00:35:00.000-05:00

Sometimes there are no words
To express an emotion too strong,
I want to be able to comfort
And take this ache away,
I want to heal your shattered world
But can find no words,
As our hearts are weeping
And our souls are screaming,
No words can describe this day

Follow Your Star

2009-08-31T00:35:00.000-05:00

Be your own person
And follow your star,
No matter where it may lead
It is where you are meant to be,
Find your own dreams
And sing your own song,
And you shall shine and sparkle
Like a diamond in the sky

Still Here

2009-08-30T00:35:00.000-05:00

Today we gather to say goodbye
To a friend daughter sister,
To a girl we all hold dear,
Life sometimes leaves us with
So many unanswered questions,
All of which begin with why,
I wish I had a magic word
That would ease the ache inside,
I wish I could turn back time
And a single second be changed,
I wish I knew the answer why,
All I do know is though in body
Our dear young girl has left,
But she shall live on forever,
For now her spirit lives in our hearts,
For every person who holds a memory
Holds a part of her soul with them forever

Where Were You

2009-08-29T00:35:00.002-05:00

You were there that day
She was born,
You were there
Protecting that little girl
From a midnight fire,
You were there when
She spent eight seconds
Upon those wild bulls,
All along her way
You had been there,
But where were you yesterday?
Why weren't you there
When that gravel road
Took that girl away?
Surely a child of but fifteen
Wasn't needed in Heaven,
Surely if someone had to die
It could have been another,
Why did you take her
Who inspired girls to break the mold,
Why weren't you there
To protect her that night?
All along you had watched
And guided her through life,
Where were you
As her truck rolled?
Where were you as
Her last breath escaped?
Why did you take her
When we needed her here?

Memories Bittersweet

2009-08-28T00:35:00.000-05:00

As I flip through the photos
In this old tin file case,
I come across these of you,
They make me stop and remember,
The memories are plentiful,
I recall the smiles
As do I the tears,
Then I remember
What came between us,
And how my life changed because,
I see the pain I experienced,
The long months of bitterness,
Then I remember the times after,
The new things I found
After I healed from the heartache,
Even though these old photographs
Will never remind you of me,
I can only remember you,
With memories bittersweet

Ocean Sunset

2009-08-27T00:35:00.000-05:00

Oranges pinks and yellow,
Light dark bright and pale,
Blue skies darkening,
Water reflecting the glow,
A gentle roar
As each wave crashes
Upon a sandy shore,
The pale moon rises
To take her place
Watching over the ocean,
The mighty sun sinking,
Colors blending into the night

Black

2009-08-26T00:35:00.000-05:00

The darkest
of all the hues,
A raven perched
On an old fence,
A sleek panther,
Print on a page
To a captivating novel,
A shadow cast
Always following,
A witches hat
And her cat,
The dress of grievers
Gathered to say farewell,
A midnight sky
Illuminated by twinkling stars