poetic practice journal by zillakiller {ryan ormonde}

(initial standing for a name) #3

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 15:44:53 PST

West Hill, Hastings

(initial standing for a name) #3

She lives here

She is not from here, she lives here

She was here for a summer in the 1960s and now she lives here

She has lived here for thirteen years, nearly

She has lived here for over forty years, but

She has lived here for thirteen years, nearly

She lives in a house here, behind me, behind the hill, and she lives here

She lives by the sea and mostly she does not see the sea and sometimes she sees the sea

She has shown her work here for many years, since before she is living here

She has been making work here for thirteen years nearly, and working

For a few years she was making scotch eggs over there somewhere, in the bakery

She has a life here

etymologies

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 04:27:06 PST

West Hill, Hastings

etymologies

the car needs a name, the van

the extraordinary funfair ride

and there is a big apple, but it isn't, but it isn't

smoke does so much and we call it smoke

and it is smoke

and mist, the sea sky, see the sea

Hastings in translation

Hastings

JERWOOD
GALLERY

ƎMITWOHƧ

(initial standing for a name) #2

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 11:46:03 PST

West Hill, Hastings

(initial standing for a name) #2

A certain person

We do not sit here, or not for long. We play the town a certain way, we say the town a certain way, the town is that way of saying and that way of playing

We do not sit here at length, we do not look at the sea at length, we do not walk the beach at length, we do not walk the front at length

we walk to here and then we are here
we walk to here and then we are here
we walk to here and then we are here

and then we return, we leave

that is the way we are here and
that is the way we are two here and
that is the way we are two

day

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 03:53:43 PST

West Hill, Hastings

day

If you close your eyes it is not night

it is not night

it is not simply visibility although it may be all for light

it is in the air

it is where the body is at, when

it is in the breath

it is in the ear

it is on the skin

it is in the eye

it is in the eye an exercise, it is a positive outcome of a trust exercise in the eye

to be repeated every day

Pantoum of possibilities

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Fri, 10 Feb 2012 08:49:27 PST

Possibility A
Possibility B
Possibility C
Possibility D

Possibility B
Possibility E
Possibility D
Possibility F

Possibility E
Possibility G
Possibility F
Possibility H

Possibility G
Possibility I
Possibility H
Possibility J

Possibility I
Possibility K
Possibility J
Possibility L

Possibility K
Possibility M
Possibility L
Possibility N

Possibility M
Possibility O
Possibility N
Possibility P

Possibility O
Possibility Q
Possibility P
Possibility R

Possibility Q
Possibility S
Possibility R
Possibility T

Possibility S
Possibility U
Possibility T
Possibility V

Possibility U
Possibility W
Possibility V
Possibility X

Possibility W
Possibility Y
Possibility X
Possibility Z

Possibility Y
Possibility C
Possibility Z
Possibility A

an intro

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 11:48:25 PST

The 'travel shoe case' writing tool is a drawstring bag (previously marketed as a 'travel shoe case') holding a number of beads, on each one is written a different word (or term, image, phrase) from the map. The map is a map I drew of my/our/a/the universe. Each bead prompts in a test of moment, of location, of writing position, in writing.

In this the first moment these four beads were selected, one at a time:

(initial standing for a name) #1

home

(blocked out phrase) #1

beauty

beauty

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Thu, 09 Feb 2012 04:34:28 PST

Occupy London camp, 'Tent City' / steps of St. Paul's Cathedral, late morning / early afternoon, Thursday 09/02/12

beauty

reset beauty to this form, these colours, these shapes, this setup

but do not

do not idealise even this

let it turn again

these two city beauties, heads on pillars, one obscured by branches, this one firstly presented pleasingly in an aperture, then off set between two dry trees baring dry fruits and between the trees and beneath the face a line and on the line black ragged material belonging back to the camp

the beauty of the camp

or dispose of beauty, never allow it, never settle

the beautiful occupation

(blocked out phrase) #1

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 11:47:00 PST

Occupy London camp, 'Tent City' / steps of St. Paul's Cathedral, late morning / early afternoon, Thursday 09/02/12

(blocked out phrase) #1

How he is to me and how this stranger, this camper, this protester,

How he is to me

How men are in necessity
How men are living together
How men are sleeping together
How men are sleeping together out of necessity and how men are sleeping together out of need

and through that, from that, after that,

How he is to me

A shared passion, a shared intention

I look directly at a face carved from stone facing my face and facing the space around me, a head on a pillar, this is a human face

this is an individual with a passion, with an intention, and with sensitivity

What happens when there are a hundred

the same passion
and other passions

the same intention
and other intentions

and sensitivities

home

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Thu, 09 Feb 2012 04:19:27 PST

Occupy London camp, 'Tent City' / steps of St. Paul's Cathedral, late morning / early afternoon, Thursday 09/02/12

home

live in a tent among the homeless
live in a tent like the homeless
live in a tent as the homeless

a city of homes, of tents, in the city, in the city

home since October, four months a cold home

to make a home exactly where the heart is

in the heart of the city
in the heart of the matter

two kinds of homeless
two kinds of home

what is necessity
where is necessity

Is home to homeless a spectrum?

(initial standing for a name) #1

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 11:49:37 PST

Occupy London camp, 'Tent City' / steps of St. Paul's Cathedral, late morning / early afternoon, Thursday 09/02/12

(initial standing for a name) #1

She said to me it is the most romantic thing, the most poetic thing

She and I should share a tent here. We would keep each other's spirits up. She would feel for us the romance of the camp at night when it is freezing and also laugh

We would have to drink coffee.

We would wonder if there is a camp of city workers asleep at their desks or under their desks, warmer than us, with toilets, a kitchen with coffee

up there, those windows

We would have to have music, headphones

Let's face it, we'd go home all the time.

'travel shoe case' writing tool

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Thu, 09 Feb 2012 07:56:37 PST

Going out today for the first time with the 'travel shoe case' writing tool. I made this yesterday, it is a drawstring bag (previously marketed as a 'travel shoe case') holding a number of beads, on each one is written a different word from the map (in the below images I pull out 'physical pain'.)

thinking about Occupy London

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Tue, 07 Feb 2012 07:24:01 PST

"From conducting its business in the coffee houses of 17th century London, the Exchange is one of the world’s oldest stock exchanges and can trace its history back more than 300 years."

- London Stock Exchange website

"[The Corporation of the City of London] is a medieval commune dating back 1,000 years which represents the interest of international finance"

- Nicholas Shaxson, author of Treasure Islands, 'a book about the world of tax evasion', quoted in The Guardian 28/10/11

writing test for amap apart: disease

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Tue, 07 Feb 2012 03:27:53 PST

disease

I am sitting in bed alone, all my clothes on.

This raised mattress with sheets for sleep, for sex, for rest, for recuperation

This bed as a site of disease

This bed as a stage for recovery from disease

This bed as a stage of consciousness, sleep

An idea of disease as something that has to do with the window, with entry first into the home, the room

Or the window lets it out

Invisible disease

disease as a taste

disease as a signal

disease from an unclean home

I could lie here undiseased and then I would disease

I could die undiseased and then my body would disease

here on this bed.

writing test for amap apart: what I write

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Mon, 06 Feb 2012 16:18:07 PST

I am sitting in a cinema box office in the West End of London.

what I write

what I write in this context is what the person sitting in a cinema box office in the West End of London writes.

I am in front of a computer so I could access other things I write (I have written)

as a symbol for what I write (I could write):

the computer keyboard in front of me, under my fingertips (at my fingertips)

I read back.

This is a thing I write, or writing is a thing I do (I can do).

I read back.

my fingers typing and my screen typing

writing my fingers and reading my screen

Here around here is the person writing, here in this part of the space.

Here in this part of the building and here in this part of the internet (which is the same thing)

More thinking (amap apart)

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Sun, 05 Feb 2012 11:02:25 PST

To repeat:

...

I find what I can, write from where I am, collect experience, find an approach, find an angle, identify, define, expand, and then pull out another word to change course.

This text becomes active in testing itself in the moment, in a location, from a point of access to information, to experience.

...

I need to imagine how this will work before I do it, or at least I am curious...

These words are conceptual (or actual?) distinctions/territories from (my) living

Although life writing is nothing new, I feel there is something perverse about pinning down with life's strange specificities the (potentially, possibly 'free', 'unbound') experience of writing, but it is a perversity that makes sense to me, to how I can write.

These personally ideological words (words forming a personal ideology) give permission to write from experience, to be subjective.

new plan for amap apart

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Fri, 03 Feb 2012 08:50:23 PST

I think I need to start again with the list of words from the map. Until now I have been responding to life as it happens and countering experience to these words (or divisions), writing against their boundaries in a way that either enlarges or restricts (defines) depending on how you look at it.

I want to introduce more energy and wit. I want to be less precious with it and more productive, and more playful. And a bit more Jackson Mac Low. And a bit more Becky Cremin.

The idea I have is to carry a bag of 86 beads and write on each one of the words from the list, then wherever I am I pull out a word and find what I can, write from where I am, collect experience, find an approach, find an angle, identify, define, expand, and then pull out another word to change course.

So the seed text (to adapt and misconstrue Mac Low's terminology) is the bag of beads, words that have come from a map that is a demarcation of personal universe, an initial understanding, an ideology, an attempt to fix belief

This text becomes active in testing itself in the moment, in a location, from a point of access to information, to experience.

See how it goes...

Rhyme for the Victoria Line (northbound, taking longer)

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Fri, 03 Feb 2012 05:20:25 PST

Brix & Stox & Vaux & Pim
Lico & Vicko & Oxo & Green
Warren & Euston & Kings X St Panc,
Highbury & Islington, Finsbury Park.
Multiple Siblings & Tottenham Hale,
A black horse, a race course,
& National Rail...

Rhyme for the Victoria Line (southbound)

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Thu, 02 Feb 2012 14:37:20 PST

Dogs* is Blackhorse, Tots is Seven,
Finsbury's Highbury, Kings is Euston.
Warren is Green and Ox is Vicks,
Pimlico's Vaux and Stocks is Brix.

*Walthamstow Central, where you can go to the dogs.

words from the map: "GAY"

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Wed, 01 Feb 2012 09:53:13 PST

some kids are shouting "GAY" at a friend who is sweaty from a jog

in the moment she says she is thinking two things

one, I can't get angry I'm a Buddhist

and two, it's not like it's an insult

words from the map: strangers!

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Tue, 31 Jan 2012 05:17:36 PST

three strangers

1

The big red doors pushed in off their hinges. So somebody, not the wind, scrape marks in the red paint. Probably a car so the person driving, driving off. Or people, do people drive a car or a person? The question is accidentally or on purpose. D said there is a possibility it was accidental.

2

He wasn't strange enough for me to sit in the back given that he would often drive G and they liked each other so I sat in the front. He told me what I already knew about G but he would have known things about G that I would not have known - knowing someone as an accumulative process of seeing them and hearing them. So I saw him sideways and quickly here and there and I heard the sound of his voice and I heard the use of his voice and I heard and saw his position. His position was not simply next to me at the steering wheel, there was more to it.

3

D told me he was a bit of a character. It was all about when he was ready to so something, ready to do it now, and he was very careful. Impatient enough for it to seem like he would not do the thing, but careful enough that he would see it through. I saw and I heard two things about him and after he fixed the doors and I was holding the doors on the phone D told me two things about him that are sort of the opposite but they are not two sets of opposite things they are four things you can see and you can hear he has.

words from the map: domesticity

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Wed, 01 Feb 2012 08:36:57 PST

get out there

to approach others who are out there
to approach others who are not

to see street life and public life
to observe or to engage in

to interrupt or not interrupt other business
to interrupt or not interrupt other behaviour

to guess
to divine

or else speculate
or else write a novel

words from the map: (initials standing for names of 7 family and 3 other names)

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Sun, 29 Jan 2012 10:07:05 PST

initial #3

this given name in writing or pronounced is

how we pass you
how we see you
how we say we see you we pass you

it is to you the special name of you.

Is your species those to whom your name is special

or are you my sibling?

We share a family name

and some things were mine
and some things were yours
and some things we had to share

between our given names an

and

these days is rare :(

words from the map: (initials standing for names of 7 family and 3 other names)

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 06:06:28 PST

initial #2

this one letter

is it M

this one letter of 26

is

the first initial of your name
a capital letter

this one letter
a simple mnemonic

like you, one

one, like you were
not and like you
were and like you

are not

is not R

words from the map: (the name of the cinema where I work)

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 00:00:56 PST

in a box

resembling the formal box, name of employer

in a box

and also the rough outline of the building

sort of villanelle 2

noreply@blogger.com (Ryan Ormonde) — Tue, 24 Jan 2012 08:03:23 PST