Poetry that speaks it's mind

DIVINE EMPOWERMENT

2012-05-20T22:12:00.000-07:00

Knowledge seeps through my veins runs in my blood and empowers all of my body

Wisdom fuels my soul for my ancestors live within me, through me for I am my ancestors creation

I shed the layers of the mundane way of processing and understanding who I am and open up the path to divine understanding that:

I am not Dominican, Latin or Light skinned but that.....

I AM A BLACK WOMAN!!!!!!
For I understand the blood that runs within me and the wisdom and power that was passed down generations and generations before me because my roots to the Divine Black Nation Is what EMPOWERS me and will always be a part of me!!!!!!!!!!

DIVINE LOVE

2012-04-30T04:45:00.001-07:00

When I see Him I stare because my eyes try to read him cause there is something about him that's different , different like me

My soul Comprehends yet my mind struggles to understand

My lips are sealed when engaging in conversation but my eyes, my eyes say it all
Just one look and I knew he was something out of this world
Something beyond imagination cause my soul knows but my mind struggled to comprehend
I added the ed to the word struggle cause my mind is now in tune with my soul cause know all of me knows
that:

He is that something that I yearned for, the one something I always wanted, he is everything I could ever ask for and more because my mind and soul both know that he is my DIVINE LOVE, the one that understands me, the one who looks at me from the inside out and embraces and cherishes who I am, the one that can stay up with me for hours talking and has my same point of view but most of all : HE'S THE ONE WHO CAN STAND BY MY SIDE AND REACH THE HEAVENS WITH ME.

SITTING IN BED THINKING

2010-11-29T08:26:00.000-08:00

He I am sitting up in bed thinking to my self
who will I be, where am I going in life
what road leads to success
I put my hands against my chest and I feel my heart beat to the same tune that my two feet walk to
Should I listen to my heart and let emotions lead me or do I think the logical and go down a career that will make me become something
Then if I go down the logical will I be happy, will my life be all that I wanted it to be will my dreams come true
Then if I go down the road where my heart takes lead I fear that I will fall down and never be able to get back up again since I have fallen once before in the temptation of love
I don’t know which road to take, which path I am on, what else life has to throw at me but I know I got to be strong
Strong for my future, strong for myself, Strong enough to tackle any obstacle in my way cause at the end of the day I realize that the path on which we walk on depends on the goal we have in mind
We tend to wonder the outcomes and fear that we may have chosen the wrong path but in the end there is no wrong or right only trial and error because we all make mistake but we just have to get back on our feet again and just keep moving forward letting the mistake become a lesson and letting your ambition towards reaching your goal grow stronger
Cause in the end when you think about it there is never an ending point to the path
and it all depends on the way you may perceive it

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THE TEARS THAT ROLL DOWN MY CHEEK

2010-10-20T07:38:00.000-07:00

Tears roll down my cheek not because I’m happy but because I’m sad because you remind me of the past and everything that I have been through because I see the reflection of myself within you

It’s funny how when people call men pimps and man whores I usually stay away from the men they are referring these names to but this time something was different something about you grabbed my attention I caught myself thinking the other day I would rather you be a man whore and entertain yourself than for you to want to kill yourself because I would rather you be in this world than for you to try to find another way out because for some reason I know that you have something to do in this world your life has a purpose no human has been given so many chances by god

You say you hate how the innocent die young that they die without even wanting to die but you who wants to die is still alive walking this day

You feel like you are not innocent yet I see the innocence in you because I understand what it takes to do everything you can for your kids and what it is to be depressed feel the big hole within your chest cause they are a missing part of you

Like I said before I had to give up my kids as a last result because when I tried killing myself it never worked I haven’t done everything you have done to yourself but I have cut so deep and Ode on pills and I still lived through out it everyone thought I was crazy and on drugs but if they only knew that drugs don’t even take the pain away for long

They might give you a buzz but when it comes to the end of the day that pain of not having the two most important things to you in your life kills you

I’m saying two cause I was pregnant with twins, they were my dream I was going to give birth to both a girl and boy but unfortunately I had to give them up I might be a 16 year old girl but I know to much for my own good I have experienced to much for my age I had to raise myself as an adult cause I had no one there for me no one to love me I matured before time I have always thought different than others I have always taught myself to look deep within a picture to find the truth and recently I have been looking deep within you and I find myself tearing because I wish I could have held you in your times of need and honestly I’m glad your still alive even if you never end up to be my man and even if you just see me as pussy

STUCK IN MY OWN LITTLE WORLD

2010-10-12T20:49:00.000-07:00

Lately I have been stuck within my own little world trying to find peace within myself

Trying to re piece the little that is left of me
the little sanity i contain 'cause life's strain and hardship has gotten to me finally

Cause undoubtedly you came back to me at the right place wrong time
right place because you are to far away from me to let myself fall in love with you again

Wrong time 'cause my heart is already given to someone, someone who realized their love for me while you took your time year after year treating me like crap before you could come to the realization that you would always miss me, but like I said before the day you woke up and realized you love me would be
the day I woke up with the person who already knew 'cause I'm through with letting you take over me,
I treated you like a king and I was abused emotionally, verbally, sometimes even physically cause you saw me as your toy

Your play thing, but one thing I can say is I'm no longer thinking of you cause I'm in love with the one who fell in love with me
The one who could see beyond the outer image, can read my heart beats before letters hit my lips and make words for me to speak, speak of my love for him, speak about the pain I endured being with you and how My new life, is all about me and him

No longer 'bout me and you

LEARN HOW TO LET GO

2010-10-10T21:26:00.000-07:00

A poem of the obstacles encountered when trying to let go of the one you loved in the past.

I’m trying my hardest to let you, completely let you go

So this growing pain dosen’t linger any longer and this hunger for your love can settle down

So i don’t break down into tears

Day after Day wishing for you to come back to me because honestly i’m tired of waiting,waiting for you to
see the light of day and open your eyes wide enough to see the truth

See that i really care about you and that i have been here with my heart in my hands wishing you could hear it’s silent screams

Each heart beat a word in a sentence    I BUMP BUMP LOVE BUMP BUMP you.

But my mind, my mind tells me to leave you, let you feel the pain i felt when you broke my heart,but my heart, It screams for you yet again.

The pain over bearing my minds thoughts letting images of our past flood over the little sence i was making
Letting
         my
              heart
                        win
                               yet
                                      again

JOURNAL ENTRY FROM A TEENAGE DIARY

2010-10-10T21:19:00.000-07:00

A teenage girl letting out her emotions into her diary because she feels like no one else will listen.

Dear Diary,
Here we go again, all because of me being unable to resist you, resist the temptation of speaking to you once
again.

You see i told you, me and you would somehow meet me again but this time, it’s my fault because i
contacted you.

Somehow I’m happy,happy that I was able to hear your voice again.

Happy that you actually came
into realization of how things were with us, on your own.

When you said to me “I’m sorry for treating you like
shit”, my heart stopped and tears were soon to start running down my cheeks, but this time no sadness was
involved but happiness.

I was happy for the fact that you have finally realized that i have always been there for
you. I wonder if i would have been in New York still at the time you expressed yourself to me like you did last night, if i would have taken you back.

It also dawned on me when you asked me If i have spoken about you to the people in my new school, I replied yes and you said if you speak about someone in your life to people you recently met, then it means you really love that person whom you were talking about.

I don’t know what to do,because my feelings for you seem neutral. It doesn’t hurt anymore when you are mentioned but it does make me ask myself what if. I miss the times we have spent together and the memories we shared, because seeing the new you is shocking me.

Hope fully this time life’s unexpected turn is for the better

RELATIONSHIPS ARE DIFFICULT

2010-10-10T21:09:00.000-07:00

RELATIONSHIPS
The number one reason relationships seems so difficult is, because of lack of communication. How do you expect to love one another without being able to understand one another? Both men and women need to understand each-other’s need in order to reach a balance in their relationship. This balance, becoming the door way to endless emotional and physical fantasy. A place where male can understand female, and where female can understand male. It’s a win, win situation if you take the following steps into consideration.

First step – As a couple there are decisions to make, whether it be the next step in the relationship or what bottle of wine you may want to have for dinner, their will always be an endless possibility of choices.These choices may not seem like much but the choice made will always either be a gate way to hell or a passage way to getting closer to each other.

women, have you ever wondered why men don’t say much when it comes to making decisions or why it feels like he’s distant? well, the possible reason for this is because when we let them make the decision and something goes wrong, we either take it out on them or we get angry in general. We may not realize this but some men may rather stay shut and let it go our way, then argue about it. we also may have the tendency to do that anyways, whether we may realize it or not.

Men, have you ever wondered why your always arguing with your woman even when your silent and don’t say much? Now the possible answer to that is, that women feel like your hiding something. Like your doing something wrong, and she may be accusing you left and right of doing something( most likely cheating). In order for women to be happy they need attention and communication from their man.

The answer to both your problems is ” TAKE THE TIME TO SIT AND TALK IT OUT!!!!”. You see know at days we are all to busy to think things through or work it out as a couple. We make rushed decisions and at the end of the day we all feel like we are in store for a fighting session. If we were to sit down and talk to each other and agree on a decision to make both partners happy, then it will no longer be necessary to argue over the little things.

When i say talk it out i don’t mean:
women,sit your man down and speak forever and tell him to shut up every time he’s trying to get a word in and Men, bombard your woman with all the pent up emotions you have held back, because that’s not talking it out. That’s more like the recipe for an atomic bomb waiting to happen between the both of you.

Second step- “BACK ROUND CHECK” I don’t mean this as ethnicity or pulling up the criminal files. I mean this as a way of figuring each other out. Find out the small things like favorite things and things that the other doesn’t like, what they are allergic too, fantasies, memories of the past and hopes for the present, find out whether they like to sing in the shower , or what makes them smile cause in the end theknowing the little things goes a long way. It shows both partners that they care for one another, when they take the time to care about the small things.

Women, you may agree with what I’m indicating and Men, you might think that’s to womanly for you or you’ll find out later on in time but to a women knowing the little things shows that you really care to about her to take the time to know these things.

Third step- I believe that a high percentage of the failing relationship out their in this world is do to the fact that one partner thinks that their the only one putting in all the work. The irony to that is that most likely the other partner thinks the same. The thing is that “BOTH OF YOU HAVE TO PUT YOUR PART” you have to give your all in a relationship in order to make it work.
By giving your all i don’t mean:
Women, be so clingy that your not gonna let your guy breathe and Men, throw around a few i love yous like it means nothing and think that’s she’ll be okay for the day, because most likely she can’t tell your lack of emotion behind those i love yous.

You might think I’m just like every other women writing this to go against the male but I’m not. I’m looking out for both male and women and sometimes i do agree on the fact that women need to be more caring to their man.You see a relationship is not about being 24/7 with one another and it’s not about saying i love you because when it comes to it relationships are about being able to be apart at times and still care about each other and feelings the love without the word loving having to be said.

If you take my words into consideration please share the same knowledge to those you see struggling within their own relationship because it is a fact that you aren’t the only person in this world who is having relationship problems,I have gone through it myself.

Please remember to TALK IT OUT, BACK ROUND CHECKS, AND BOTH PUTTING YOUR PART. Those three will hopefully give you your gate way and keep you out of hell’s way

GAINING WEIGHT

2010-10-10T19:17:00.000-07:00

It's crazy how body image can cause such an impact on someone.How when you think your losing weight, inevitably your gaining it back.

How when, a love one ask you if your gaining weight,it lets you down and how 15 lbs seems like the whole world has come crashing down on your self esteem as if all your high hopes on becoming beautiful have been toyed around with and beauty has now become an uneasy sight in your eyes.

Each pound added by your loved one seems like a failure on your part, cause you promised yourself you would become beautiful, but the added weight represents a shackle keeping you from gaining that feeling of being beautiful

Then your shackles are released not because you lost the weight but because you learned that the meaning of beauty depends on the eye of the beholder and as a woman I decide to believe that i am beautiful because beauty isn't about the outside it's about how you carry yourself from within

If you believe that you are beautiful than you are most definately beautiful because we have control over how we precieve ourselfs not how others precieve us

Our opinions about ourselves is what counts we can be our own worst enemies or we can be our own best friends.

So next time when you look at yourself within the mirror pick out what your are proud of instead of picking out your flaws, while remembering that flaws are actually aspects that make you different in your own unique way from everyone else in this world.

FALLING HEAD OVER HEALS

2010-10-10T16:11:00.000-07:00

It’s a poem of a never ending cycle.

It’s funny how I’m finding myself falling head over heals for this guy but honestly on the inside I’m so scared to love again.

Even though I’m done with you, your always lurking in my mind, in my dreams, in every step I take somehow your always there.

Every time I take one step forward I end up taking three steps back. The more I step back the more I find myself sinking into the dark abyss of the broken remains of my heart.

Each broken piece has one memory of you and I engraved in it and the more I try to engrave something over that piece it re shatters into other pieces with other memories engrave.

The more I try to forget about you the more I remember you. Every moment I spend with this guy my heart seems to re piece it’s self but never completely because sometimes I just can’t deny the fact that I miss you,but me missing you doesn’t mean I’ll forgive you,because you went back on your word.

You see that’s the difference between me and you, when I said forever I was aiming to fulfill it, and when I said I wanted kids with you i was never planning to abort them.

The reason I refuse to love you again is because I found someone who knows the meaning of love, who makes me happy and makes me feel like I’m not the only one doing all the loving in the relationship.

I’m not going through that makeup and break up cycle of pain because I fear if I try one more time it can end up with my life being the toll because my heart cannot take another broken piece. It has run out of pieces to break and it has run out of good reasons to love you again.