polvoron is love

back from the grave

2009-09-04T19:02:00.002+08:00

a lot has happened lately.

crammed to finish my portfolio paper
slept for at most 4 hours for at least two or three weeks just to finish my portfolio paper
fucked up my portfolio defense and completely humiliated myself doing so
cussed my adviser a million times
almost gave up finishing my MA
worked on my portfolio paper again!
waited and put my life on hold for two weeks while waiting for the portfolio results

NEWS FLASH: WE DON'T HAVE WORK ON MONDAY! YAY!!!

FINALLY PASSED MY PORTFOLIO - which means I'M FREAKING DONE WITH MY MA!!! YAY!!!

as if anybody cares.

2009-07-14T18:11:00.003+08:00

oh well. i'm here at my new work in makati. i've been here for two weeks and one day, and i can count using my fingers how many days i've actually worked on something. people keep telling me to enjoy this down time because once we start working, we will really START working. maybe even longer than our usual schedule.

***
i'm supposed to submit my revised paper before july 30. and i have done zilch. shet. will probably cram again. oh gosh. i can't do that again.

***
bosing, please make us stronger. and more patient. and more resilient. please please please. i beg you. this isn't something i can easily let go. come to think of it, this is something i am not and will never be willing to let go. he is my future. i want to make a future with him. so please, make us stronger. we need you help. thank you.

WOOHOO!!!!

2009-06-17T21:44:00.001+08:00

LIFE IS GOOD!!!

I'VE GOT A NEW JOB!!!
YAY! YAY! YAY!

please please please make it happen...

2009-06-11T11:35:00.002+08:00

This will be my prayer from now on until I submit the application forms and I get the results...

Please, please, please make it happen. I beg of you. My last two posts might not have sounded good; selfish even. But please, I beg of you to make it happen. Please have them accept and hire me. And if I could add one more wish...let the job be in Singapore. or Australia. Or even in New Zealand. Just please tell them to get me. Hire me! I promise I will work harder than I have ever worked before, and I will TRY to be more responsible in everything I do :)

Thank you.

Amen.

ANOTHER NOTE TO SELF

2009-06-10T10:35:00.002+08:00

FIND ANOTHER JOB!!!

SO YOU CAN FINALLY GET OUT OF THIS SHITTY OFFICE THAT YOU'RE IN.
SO THAT YOU CAN FINALLY HAVE A CAREER THAT YOU CAN REALLY CALL A CAREER.
SO THAT YOU CAN FINALLY DO SOMETHING WORTHWHILE WITH YOUR LIFE.
SO YOU CAN FINALLY HAVE A PAY THAT IS WORTH YOUR EFFORT.

:(

weird kamiseta policies

2009-05-16T23:03:00.002+08:00

*I should have taken a photo of these fitting rooms kaya lang nawala na sa isip ko dahil naiinis, nafru-frustrate at nawe-weirdohan ako kanina.

I visited the kamiseta branch at Robinson's Place Malate today. I was about to fit two dresses which I liked, but was surprised when I found out that their fitting rooms did not have any doors nor curtains as cover. When I asked two sales ladies, the manager and the guard about this, they couldn't give me a straight, logical answer. The answers they gave me were:

a. customers crowd over to the fitting rooms that's why they removed the doors/curtains
b. there was a mall-wide sale, and customers are not (in reality, as per the manager) allowed to fit the clothes they want
c. the customers are only allowed to fit the clothes ON TOP of the clothes they are already wearing
d. the management thinks that it's okay not to put doors because nobody else can see the people trying on/fitting the clothes anyway
e. IT IS KAMISETA'S POLICY NOT TO PUT DOORS/CURTAINS ON THE FITTING ROOMS WHENEVER THERE IS A SALE.

These answers are so ridiculous. I don't think anybody would feel comfortable to dress up/fit clothes in front of strangers.

If this is indeed their policy, it is very disturbing.

pwede bang...

2009-05-08T11:50:00.002+08:00

magkulong na lamang ako sa loob ng banyo at umiyak
at pagkatapos noon ay pasiyahin ko ang aking sarili
sa pamamagitan ng pag-isip na pwede akong lumipad
hanggang sa maging kapantay ko ang mga ulap
at doon ako hihiga sa kanila
ngingiti
dahil alam ko
wala nang ibang tao doon
ako lang
wala akong ibang iisipin
hindi ko kailangang pagmuni-munihan kung ang gagawin ko ba ay tama o mali
kung makakapagpasaya ba ito sa ibang tao o hindi

hay...

minsan naiisip ko
masarap maging isang adik na lango sa droga
dahil nga pakiramdam mo lumilipad ka lagi
at wala kang problema

gusto kong maging adik at lumipad
parang isang ibon

meron kayang adik na ibon

:(

i'm gonna make my own infinite playlist

2009-05-01T22:04:00.003+08:00

i don't know how i've managed to miss watching this movie. i've read about this in blogs and in a few showbiz news, but i never really had the interest to look it up and watch it. until fairly recently. i finally decided to do some research and find out what it's about. i found the movie trailer, and oh. my. god. i immediately thought, "i have to watch this!" so, being the scrooge that i am, i asked ross to download it. i finally got to watch a few hours later...and i love it. i just love it. i love it more than juno.

i was also able to download (yay internet!) the soundtrack. yay!

this country is full of crap.

2009-04-24T08:41:00.002+08:00

this is the headline for today:

CA: Smith not guilty of rape

i wonder if their whole drama was a set up. i mean, including the arrests and the courtroom bruhaha and the bitch's recantation... what if they actually planned the whole thing? man, that woman is wise. if all filipinas were like her, every woman here now would be millionaires!

and now, she's allegedly with her NEW american boyfriend in the states. this country is just full of crap.

"you were created for teaching"

2009-04-22T12:59:00.003+08:00

i was talking to my thai friend, nik, yesterday. i was ranting and complaining to him how i hate my job now. that i don't have the drive anymore. so here's how the conversation went... (he's thai, so pardon the english)

patricia (4/21/2009 3:21:41 PM): but im really really trying to find another work
patricia (4/21/2009 3:21:46 PM): i hate it here
nik (4/21/2009 3:22:09 PM): oh
nik (4/21/2009 3:22:23 PM): what s happen
patricia (4/21/2009 3:22:29 PM): here?
patricia (4/21/2009 3:22:42 PM): problems with the management
nik (4/21/2009 3:22:47 PM): hm
patricia (4/21/2009 3:22:51 PM): plus i dont have any drive to work anymore
patricia (4/21/2009 3:22:56 PM): i need another work
patricia (4/21/2009 3:23:02 PM): something more fulfilling
nik (4/21/2009 3:23:24 PM): it s time for working in school, i think
patricia (4/21/2009 3:23:44 PM): im actually thinking about getting a job in instructional design
nik (4/21/2009 3:23:45 PM): you were created for teaching

i was touched with what he said. the idea played on my head. maybe i really am. (haha. kapal ko.) then i remembered how i used to play school when i was a kid. how i used to tell my mom that i wanted to be a teacher like my teachers at school because...i don't know...i really liked them, and at that time, teaching other people really interested me. then i remembered that i also taught some of the kids in our neighborhood. (my mom liked to...as in was fond of...volunteer us (me and my brother) to church activities. the last thing she pushed us into doing was to teach kids the rosary and engage them in some church activities.) the stint only lasted for two weeks, but i remember liking the feeling of having kids that i teach really participate in the activities that i come up with. i liked making lessons and stuff for them. so maybe, MAYBE i can be really be a teacher after all. or maybe i'm really meant for that.

my only problem is my stage fright. i hate hate hate talking in front of a large audience, except when i have no other choice but do so.

hmm...have to think...

mushroom cloud

2009-04-22T12:57:00.004+08:00

ross and i saw this mushroom cloud on our way home from harrison plaza. for a minute, i thought an atomic bomb had just exploded. wahaha.

list mode

2009-04-14T15:58:00.002+08:00

this is BBC's top 100 books. i had copies of some of these before, but i sold them already. others i'm yet to read. more of them, i still haven't bought. there are also some where i watched the movie instead :(

1. The Lord of the Rings, JRR Tolkien - watched the movie
2. Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen - partly read it...the copy wasn't mine though
3. His Dark Materials, Philip Pullman
4. The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams
5. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, JK Rowling - again, watched the movie
6. To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee - have a copy, haven't read it yet
7. Winnie the Pooh, AA Milne
8. Nineteen Eighty-Four, George Orwell
9. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, CS Lewis - almost bought a copy, but was thinking of selling it
10. Jane Eyre, Charlotte Brontë - currently reading
11. Catch-22, Joseph Heller - have a copy. again, it's collecting dust in my shelf
12. Wuthering Heights, Emily Brontë
13. Birdsong, Sebastian Faulks
14. Rebecca, Daphne du Maurier
15. The Catcher in the Rye, JD Salinger - read. will probably read again soon.
16. The Wind in the Willows, Kenneth Grahame
17. Great Expectations, Charles Dickens - watched the movie
18. Little Women, Louisa May Alcott - again, the movie
19. Captain Corelli's Mandolin, Louis de Bernieres - read only the first few pages. for me, it was a difficult read because of the language. i sold it :)
20. War and Peace, Leo Tolstoy - i want to read this!
21. Gone with the Wind, Margaret Mitchell - they said the book is better than the movie. hmm...
22. Harry Potter And The Philosopher's Stone, JK Rowling - i read it for a book report
23. Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets, JK Rowling - movie
24. Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban, JK Rowling - again, movie. i don't think i will ever read a harry potter book hehe...
25. The Hobbit, JRR Tolkien - i just watched the trilogy. i loved it, i must say
26. Tess Of The D'Urbervilles, Thomas Hardy
27. Middlemarch, George Eliot
28. A Prayer For Owen Meany, John Irving
29. The Grapes Of Wrath, John Steinbeck
30. Alice's Adventures In Wonderland, Lewis Carroll - i read this. i love the cheshire cat :)
31. The Story Of Tracy Beaker, Jacqueline Wilson
32. One Hundred Years Of Solitude, Gabriel García Márquez - a difficult read, but was able to finish it :)
33. The Pillars Of The Earth, Ken Follett
34. David Copperfield, Charles Dickens
35. Charlie And The Chocolate Factory, Roald Dahl - i want to find a copy!!!
36. Treasure Island, Robert Louis Stevenson
37. A Town Like Alice, Nevil Shute
38. Persuasion, Jane Austen
39. Dune, Frank Herbert
40. Emma, Jane Austen
41. Anne Of Green Gables, LM Montgomery
42. Watership Down, Richard Adams
43. The Great Gatsby, F Scott Fitzgerald - i sold this!
44. The Count Of Monte Cristo, Alexandre Dumas
45. Brideshead Revisited, Evelyn Waugh
46. Animal Farm, George Orwell
47. A Christmas Carol, Charles Dickens
48. Far From The Madding Crowd, Thomas Hardy
49. Goodnight Mister Tom, Michelle Magorian
50. The Shell Seekers, Rosamunde Pilcher
51. The Secret Garden, Frances Hodgson Burnett - movie for me
52. Of Mice And Men, John Steinbeck - i sold this. i think i read a couple of pages, haha
53. The Stand, Stephen King
54. Anna Karenina, Leo Tolstoy - i watched the movie. i don't think i'll have the patience to read this book. it's very long.
55. A Suitable Boy, Vikram Seth
56. The BFG, Roald Dahl - i love this. thanks to rona :)
57. Swallows And Amazons, Arthur Ransome
58. Black Beauty, Anna Sewell
59. Artemis Fowl, Eoin Colfer
60. Crime And Punishment, Fyodor Dostoyevsky - i want a copy!
61. Noughts And Crosses, Malorie Blackman
62. Memoirs Of A Geisha, Arthur Golden - still collecting dust
63. A Tale Of Two Cities, Charles Dickens
64. The Thorn Birds, Colleen McCollough
65. Mort, Terry Pratchett
66. The Magic Faraway Tree, Enid Blyton
67. The Magus, John Fowles
68. Good Omens, Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman - wasn't able to finish it...yet. maybe i will. hopefully before kathy gets it haha
69. Guards! Guards!, Terry Pratchett
70. Lord Of The Flies, William Golding
71. Perfume, Patrick Süskind - i watched the movie and i immediately wanted a copy! very haunting
72. The Ragged Trousered Philanthropists, Robert Tressell
73. Night Watch, Terry Pratchett
74. Matilda, Roald Dahl - movie for me
75. Bridget Jones's Diary, Helen Fielding - read it. but i like the movie more
76. The Secret History, Donna Tartt
77. The Woman In White, Wilkie Collins
78. Ulysses, James Joyce
79. Bleak House, Charles Dickens
80. Double Act, Jacqueline Wilson
81. The Twits, Roald Dahl
82. I Capture The Castle, Dodie Smith
83. Holes, Louis Sachar
84. Gormenghast, Mervyn Peake
85. The God Of Small Things, Arundhati Roy
86. Vicky Angel, Jacqueline Wilson
87. Brave New World, Aldous Huxley - currently on sale here maybe i will read it
88. Cold Comfort Farm, Stella Gibbons
89. Magician, Raymond E Feist
90. On The Road, Jack Kerouac
91. The Godfather, Mario Puzo - i watched a part of the movie.
92. The Clan Of The Cave Bear, Jean M Auel
93. The Colour Of Magic, Terry Pratchett
94. The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho - read it. it's okay.
95. Katherine, Anya Seton
96. Kane And Abel, Jeffrey Archer
97. Love In The Time Of Cholera, Gabriel García Márquez - read it. i love this book.
98. Girls In Love, Jacqueline Wilson
99. The Princess Diaries, Meg Cabot
100. Midnight's Children, Salman Rushdie

ministop's MENUto meal

2009-03-30T08:23:00.002+08:00

...is the saddest meal i've ever eaten.

it's dry.
it's bland.
the meat is tough (i got the tapsilog).
rice is not cooked well.
it's just not enough for P40.

i've eaten instant rice meals before, but this is the worst i've eaten so far.

I'm a C-!

2009-03-27T13:33:00.003+08:00

I need to travel more. Maybe Visayas. Or Mindanao. Or maybe I'll finish the whole of Luzon first.
Anyway, I'm not sure of the location I went to in Palawan. All I remember is that the guide told us the island is very near to China Sea (?). Maybe not. But I clearly remember it was close to something international. Haha.

My Lakbayan grade is C-!

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Created by Eugene Villar.

it runs in the family...

2009-03-23T21:57:00.003+08:00

I wasn't really surprised when i read this.

I loved Sylvia Plath before. Well, I still love her. Her poems can really strike a dagger deep into one's heart. The same thing can be said for her novel, Bell Jar. It was really really painful to read it. Parang gusto ko magpatiwakal pagkatapos ko mabasa.

I didn't feel the same though when I watched the film Sylvia. Honestly, I didn't think Gwyneth gave justice to her character. Maybe it was because she didn't look depressed and enough. She didn't also look the literary type. Haha.

Sayang lang wala nang magmamana ng pagka-depress nila...

nakakalito ang mundo

2009-03-22T18:20:00.003+08:00

i've decided to leave this blog free of any personal ads. i think i've tried at least four times setting up a multiply account for my book selling thing. finally, i've managed to set up a decent one.

this is my empire.

TODAY IS ONE OF THE HAPPIEST DAYS OF MY LIFE...

2009-03-03T22:41:00.002+08:00

i passed my comprehensive exams!

our department chair has just sent us an email a few hours ago saying "this is to inform you that passed all your compre exams." yeah!!!

i've never felt so nervous opening an email before. when naomi told me that sibayan already sent us an email, my heart started pounding and beating so fast. i was really trembling as i was opening my email. but it's all over now. and i'm just relieved we both passed.

this means, i can now proceed with my portfolio. this means, i am one step away from finishing my masters. this means, i'm one step away to getting out of la salle!!! before i enrolled for the compre, i was thinking of taking a break for one term. i'm glad i didnt. it would have been a longer nightmare for me to spend another term studying.

oh god. it feels so good letting everybody know i passed the exams. imagine, i had to sit in front of a computer (in the department office none the less) for six hours. the following day, i realized that there were still a lot of things i forgot to include in my answers. that's why i'm so happy that i passed.

i'll deal with the draft of my 20-page paper maybe after my trip to korea... :) i hope what melvin said was true...that everything's falling into its place :)

post-valentine post

2009-02-20T08:41:00.012+08:00

i almost forgot.

ross and i watched zsazsa zaturnnah ze musikal last valentine's. it was sooo funny and so good. i loved everything about it. the cast was very good. i especially loved the guy who played didi :)

it was a good thing we got good seats. i believe the P700 ticket (for the front and center seats) were worth it.

they will be presenting the musical again on march 7.

(photo from here)

oh, but before that, we watched push. the movie was okay. i agreed to watch it because i liked the trailer, and i was curious to see the change in dakota fanning's character. but, the movie was quite a drag. and somehow open-ended. so....
it's okay.

(photo from here)

and because it was valentine's day, sm cinemas gave coupons to claim cupcakes from frostings. they are so so good. the cupcakes that came with the coupon were mini cupcakes. ross got the smores flavor, i got the swiss chocolate. oh my god. the bread was so soft, but it didn't crumble when you bite into it like the other cupcakes. the flavor was so good. they're quite pricey thought, especially the regular-sized cupcakes.

(the first one was banana peanut butter, then smores, then swiss chocolate... more pictures here)

compre

2009-02-20T08:34:00.001+08:00

i really really really hope to pass my compre exam on tues.
ooohhhh Lord, please don't let anything get screwed up.

not so merry christmas

2008-12-26T14:57:00.002+08:00

three deaths in the family (okay, extended family) plus overtime work at home do not really make it a merry christmas.

oh well... may they all rest in peace.

ho! ho! ho!

2008-12-24T18:51:00.002+08:00

merry christmas!

i won't really be celebrating though. i'm not sure if i can even really feel the nine-day vacation because of we have a lot of rating to do.

oh, and i have to review for the compre. syet.

i have to seriously start looking for a new job by january next year. it's a must.

2008-12-21T17:10:00.002+08:00

i'm going out of my wits because of rating.
i rated more than 50 files in two days.
anne, you smelly korean better pay up. on time.

yey! yey! yey! (part 2)

2008-12-18T22:46:00.001+08:00

i got a 3.5 for my lit class.
my 15-page paper passed!
sleeping at 5.30 am paid off!
yey! yey! yey!

kaching! kaching!

2008-12-16T21:51:00.003+08:00

more than 2,200 files to listen to and evaluate.
that means, no christmas again.
no vacation.
*sigh*

i guess the only compensation from not being able to celebrate christmas in a normal and humane way is that we'll get double pay for every file we rate. oooohhhh!!!! i just hope they pay us on time.

yay! yay! yay!

2008-12-12T21:29:00.002+08:00

i took a leave from work yesterday thinking that it would only take me a day to write a 15-page synthesis paper. yeah, right. i was totally spaced out almost the whole day yesterday. it was already 8pm when i started writing sentences that made sense. after 30 minutes, i had dinner. then at 9pm, i continued writing. i was hoping to finish by midnight because i didn't want to be absent from work (no, i am not a workaholic nor do i love working in my office. i just needed to finish rating pending files). but nooooo. it was almost midnight, and i was still trying to fill up page 2 of my paper. that was when i realized that if i go to sleep to get up at 6am to prepare for work, i wouldn't be able to finish my paper at all. and so, i decided to take a leave from work again.

so, to make the long story short...

i continued working on my paper until 5.30am. at that time, i was on page 11 (or was it 12?) already. but my head was spinning and i couldn't construct a non-elementary sentence anymore. plus, i couldn't bear the fact that i would sleep with the sun up already. so, i hit the sack.

after three and a half hours, i woke up. had breakfast. and started working on my paper again. until 5pm. today. i had to rush printing the paper so i could make it to la salle by six.

actually, my friend, naomi, and i were originally planning to submit our papers by 1.30. this morning, we decided to move it to 3pm. since it was already 2pm, and we were still working, we moved it again at 5.30.

when i got to la salle at 10 past 6, i called naomi and she said she was still working the bibliography part.

my ged. this is a very tiring day. imagine, if i didn't take a leave yesterday, i wouldn't be able to submit that freaking paper.

oh well. i'm done with all of my subjects now. yay! i'm done! let me say that again...I'M DONE!

i only have my compre to worry about. maybe after my birthday :)