Lucy -- a not-typical Essex "girl" and 30-something Artist -- witters on about the (probably) utterly useless tellings of current everyday life with her now-lone endometriosis-plagued ovary and ghostly ex-womb.noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous)Sat, 24 Jan 2026 19:19:40 GMTBlogger http://www.blogger.com113125http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/en-ushttp://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2018/08/crosstown-traffic_7.html#wegohealthawardsdepressionendometriosisfoohendrixmenopausespooniewegoTue, 7 Aug 2018 22:21:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-7790142049060955622Sorry about that. Away for longer than I thought. Quoting Dave Grohl, traffic was a bitch... Much stuff has happened since that last post in February of last year, not least my appalling memory allowing me an accidental break from blogging because I forgot to renew the domain on this little place. Oops. And so, here I am, asking you to give up 6 seconds to endorse me via that giant Private 0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2017/02/house-of-pain.htmlchronic illnesschronic paincodeinedepressiondihydrocodeinedyscheziaendoendometriosisfacebfibromyalgiagynaecologyhysterectomyinfertileinfertilitysterilisationtwitterwombThu, 9 Feb 2017 23:02:00 GMTtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-7825001138894212073"It's really good", my GP said while nodding. "Not that you're in pain; the way you're talking about it." It was while we were discussing my changing pains, and how to deal with them, that my pelvis helpfully reminded me why I've started to take an extra daily dose of co-dydramol. Next month marks three years since my hysterectomy and, although it hasn't what might be called by some people a "0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2016/07/balkan-at-change.htmlanxietycharitychronic paindepressionendometriosisfibromyalgiasuicidalvolunteeringMon, 4 Jul 2016 16:52:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-9040023999654393487A thoroughly lovely neighbour had a sort through of some stuff last week, and what she didn't want was going to be given to our local Sue Ryder charity shop. Thoroughly Lovely Neighbour said that, if I wanted the Maritsa 30 typewriter and replacement ribbons among the selection of stuff, I was welcome to keep them. (I didn't just take in to my possession the typewriter and ribbons; I donated to 0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2016/04/today.htmlAlrightTitaromasincancercancerversaryfamilyfriendsLisa LynchmastectomyFri, 29 Apr 2016 15:53:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-7643690113128277862Cancer was the reason our lives were irreparably changed, seven years ago. And exactly seven year ago today was when my Mum had to have a mastectomy. A Sunnier, warmer day than today, it's still unforgettable, the sounds and smells of the ward still lingering in my senses' memory. Or my memory's senses. Or both. Whatever, it's all still there. It's still upsetting to think about. More 0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2016/01/nan.htmldepressiongriefirishLondonlossnanTue, 5 Jan 2016 20:19:00 GMTtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-7236191820095890190A whole decade. Ten complete years since my Little Nan went and died with a broken heart. I still believe it was "her time" and that she was ready to go. Having that belief didn't, and still doesn't, of course, make it any less devastating, nor the grief less immense. I can't count the number of times my likeness to hers has been mentioned by so many people, and I smile every time. She was 0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2015/06/know-your-place.htmladenomyosisendometriosisequalityfeminismhysterectomymisogynymorphinesexismSun, 21 Jun 2015 01:21:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-9113129857595857267Nicely general-period-pain article about natural relievers in The Independent. Never going to be geared for the terror of endometriosis/adenomyosis pains but still... I dared to glance at the comments. "Man-up" and "stop moaning" and "anything for a quiet life" said by men who were, I think, trying (and failing) to be funny. When it comes to "normal" period pains, I expect they hurt. I wish they 1LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2015/06/you-make-me-feel-like-a.htmlcbtcontroldepressionemotionsendometriosispassive-aggressiveFri, 19 Jun 2015 18:14:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-5704903281389044615See, I know I'm bitchy and wretched when the hormones rage. I've known these facts for a painfully and depressingly long time. I do not require reminding whenever someone with "issues" decides to blame me for how they feel when they're having another tiresome tantrum. No person can make anyone else feel anything emotionally. If you blame someone for how you feel, you give them control of your 1LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2015/03/youngish-wombless-and-rather-pale.htmlchronic paindepressiondyscheziaendometriosisendometriosis awareness monthendometriosis awareness weekfallopian tubesgynaecologyhysterectomyoophorectomypainsalpingo oophorectomyMon, 2 Mar 2015 11:26:00 GMTtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-8239084526509137504Last year, nearly a whole year ago (18th March), I lost my uterus. How careless! I have a beautiful 5-inch-long scar on my belly. Hooray! It is my favourite of my dozen or so scars, not least because I think it vindicates what I said for about 20 years. My pelvis is still being an idiot, continuing, as it always bloody does, in giving me the pains and aches it always has (since I was 12). Only my3LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2015/01/time-to-talk.htmlamitriptylinedepressionendometriosismeditationpanicsuicidalFri, 23 Jan 2015 23:50:00 GMTtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-9033671731520250928Long time, no post. But look! Here's one, now! Here is my #Take5ToBlog post. 1. HI MY NAME IS... Lucy, and I have experienced (and still do experience) acute clinical depression, severe anxiety and panic attacks, suicidal contemplations, and OCD. 2. My mental health has affected every part of my life; friendships, sleep, some semblance of a career, relationships, appetite, education, hobbies, 0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2014/03/on-knife-edge-of-disappearing.htmlTue, 4 Mar 2014 02:44:00 GMTtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-3106575604228476895 It will happen soon. But I'll be back. I shall return to my blog, and being my usual idiotic self, and drawing and painting, and crocheting and knitting, and cuddling my impossibly brilliant and affectionate cats. I will be away for a short while. Though, I'm not certain what the official time-length or dictionary definition is for a "while". In my last blog post, I told you about my January 6LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2014/02/the-reappearance-of-lady-scarfacts.htmlanxietybenefitsdepressionendoendometrial ablationendometriosishormoneshospitalinfertileinfertilityinsomniamorphineNHSnovasureoophorectomyovariesSat, 22 Feb 2014 01:20:00 GMTtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-6475087688964918422 If I were to attempt to blow away the dust and cobwebs from this blog and the path I took to get to it, I could well sneeze for a week, so I shan't do it. I shall simply type and publish and hope no-one notices how terribly I've neglected this place. Good reasons exist as to why it's been so long since my last blog post; the morphine I have to take each day for the pains is still not conducive4LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/08/scar-tissue.htmlablationendometrial ablationendometriosisinfertilitylaparoscopynova sureoophorectomysalpingosalpingo oophorectomyMon, 19 Aug 2013 02:17:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-1097741111205440026As I struggle to keep my eyes open, I felt a need (for some reason) to show you my biggest cut yet. And it's adorned in a photo with stuff and roses and words and birds through phone apps and photo things. It's past 2am. I need sleep. Here is one of my battle wounds, healing well with all stitches now out. Sleep is now. 2LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/08/home.htmlchronic illnesschronic painendoendometriosislaparoscopynova sureoophorectomysalpingoThu, 8 Aug 2013 11:49:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-9066210410962429650Occasionally, I forget what I've just been through, and attempt to cough. And then I remember. And I curse myself. Because it really fucking hurts. I have four fancy new - and startlingly-neat - wounds, minimal gas pain in my right shoulder, and general post-operative restrictive pains. The hours immediately after I woke up were, without question, up there on the oft-unreachable heights of the 1LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/07/c-u-n-t.htmlablationdepressionendoendometriosishysterectomyNHSnova sureoophorectomyTue, 30 Jul 2013 09:23:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-3414121266596742237Next Tuesday. BAM! Lightning fast. Ohh, NHS - and especially the staff in "my" "departments" - I do love you. Here we go. Again. Cue treadmills... 0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/07/unforeseen-circumventing.htmlchronic illnesschronic paindepressionendoendometriosishysterectomymorphineNHSoophorectomyovariesMon, 29 Jul 2013 14:38:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-1812251293720913994Laziness/tiredness tells me to copy and paste what I've already told select people, with some editing here and there. So I shall. Bloody ill people taking up hospital beds. Don't they know my ovary needs to be analysed?! Because I'm such a hardnut on megadoses of morphine, I'll need a lot more than The Average Joe after my operation, which will cause a lot of pain. So I need a bed. And the 0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/07/monday-bloody-monday.htmldepressionendometrial ablationendometriosisinfertilitynova sureoophorectomysalpingoFri, 26 Jul 2013 03:05:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-627231630945384960It's the finality of it all. The totally unquestionable end. It's the wholly different way of thinking, planning, living. Living. Living day-to-day without the fear of it coming back all too soon. The knowledge that it will not be coming back; it won't be "just" six months off, give or take other highly restrictive pains. I don't have any love to give endometriosis, and I shan't miss my periods 2LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/06/the-future.htmlablationdepresseddepressionendoendometriosisinfertilelaparoscopymorphinenova sureoophorectomysterilisationWed, 19 Jun 2013 16:54:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-2637506629487917131 I didn't take enough tissue. As usual. The leaking of my Doctor Who water bottle was not helpful to my tissue situation. I knew I would cry. I typically do at those kind of  appointments, those gynaecologist chats, those highly emotional discussions with my consultant about my life and potential problems and treatments. I have tried every kind of treatment offered and explained and favoured1LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/06/the-end.htmlcodeinedepressiondihydrocodeineendoendometriosishysterectomylaparoscopymorphineoophorectomysuicidalTue, 11 Jun 2013 20:14:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-1608560751146672510Tomorrow, my consultant is probably going to say he'll refer me to his friend and apparently highly-regarded colleague in London. I shall insist I am against it. I'm as certain as I can be after Sunday's devastating sobfest that I want no more "treatments", I want no more "to see how it goes" or, "to see if there's some improvement". All the years I asked for help, all the people who let me down4LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/05/chronic.htmldepressiondesperationendoendometriosismelancholiamelancholyresentfulnesssuicidalTue, 28 May 2013 17:59:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-4878105388901225801I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know how to stop feeling so dark and bitter and disappointed. These injections were meant to stop periods and help my emotional state. Periods have stopped but my mind isn't in a good way. And the pains haven't gone; they still do well at fucking up my plans and days. Endometriosis still hurts, even when I'm having what is termed a "medical menopause". Will0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/04/help.htmldepressionendoendometriosisfamilyhouseholdhouseworknapowrimonapowrimo2013poempoetpoetrySun, 28 Apr 2013 22:09:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-425862393303587811I can not do a vast number of household chores in one day or even a week because of my stupid health problems. I do what I can when I can, and I never feel it is enough. There is always something to do and I am not always able to it. Some days, I feel I can do a lot more than others; the "other" days might involve me laying on the sofa unable to move. I never know. It's like Ovarian Bingo. This 0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/04/stamps.htmldepressionendoendometriosisnapowrimonapowrimo2013philatelypoempoetrystampsThu, 18 Apr 2013 01:13:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-4792979212010148389 Colourful stickers Have travelled the planet On parcels that journeyed From Moscow to Thanet. Letters from sweethearts Delivered and treasured Because one little label Enables such pleasure. Scientists' discoveries, Seasonal flowers, War leaders' triumphs, Hurriedly devoured By passionate people With a penchant for detail, Searching for gold dust In auctions and retail. Millennium, Christmas, 0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/04/listen.htmlbirdsendometriosismeditationnaturewildlifezenWed, 17 Apr 2013 20:30:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-9090322033122970456 Upon opening the front door, I heard a robin singing while the soothing and warm evening air swirled around me and caused me to close my eyes and breathe in and just listen. An almost perfect evening atmosphere. The kind where a walk is necessary. The kind where sitting in the garden and just... sitting... and listening, really listening to the myriad sounds, is the best and easiest thing to do,0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/04/you-look-well.htmlchroniccodeinedihydrocodeineendoendometriosisnapowrimonapowrimo2013painspoonieSat, 13 Apr 2013 21:26:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-2814703010490969793NaPoWriMo 2013 - late poem. The curtains may be closed When you walk through the door, As you make your way to your job. My laying in bed until 9:53 Does not make me a slob. Pain so intense and so deep within me Still not numbed or held back Keep me from sleeping the hours I ought. Your assumptions from what? Conjecture and ignorance? Perhaps you should learn some forethought Because, when you 0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/04/travelling-poetry-bag-shops.htmlendometriosisnapowrimonapowrimo2013poempoetpoetryThu, 11 Apr 2013 02:21:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-4051318322583539766Travelling poetry bag shops - I don't think I've seen one before. Often I've wondered How poetry travels, Steam train or maybe Concorde? Horse and carriage! Or pony and trap? Or stowed away on a goods-laden boat? Would it all be too heavy, All the letters and ink? Or would it all simply rise up and float? It may hover and circle, Hanging up high, Watching, resting, waiting. It might be sent 0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)http://www.popgoesthefeasible.com/2013/04/daydreamer.htmlbenefitschroniccodeinedepressiondihydrocodeineendoendometriosisesanapowrimonapowrimo2013welfareFri, 5 Apr 2013 23:43:00 +0100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3648105989573349790.post-5436033682980622031NaPoWriMo 2013 - part five. Day five. Yay me. Etc.. Caffeine, crocheting, and codeine. Which one do I like the most? Caffeine keeps me awake, Crocheting keeps my hands active, Codeine keeps pain from making me shake From the burning, And piercing, And stabbing inside. I daydreamed, as a child, Of what I would do When I could work and drive, When I'd said, "Goodbye" to my youth. Alas, none of0LucyOfPopness@gmail.com (Lucy)