Post Secret Archive

I secretly hate my best friend for losing weight..

cdctin — Thu, 17 May 2012 02:32:57 +0000

I secretly hate my best friend for losing weight because now she isn’t the fat friend, I am.

I am a stripper at night.

cdctin — Thu, 17 May 2012 02:31:55 +0000

Im 19. I am a paralegal and my dad is a well known lawyer.

I am a stripper at night.

It makes me feel beautiful and free. the only thing keeping me going to my office at the firm is my dad cause I would hate to break his heart if he ever found out.

I plan on keeping both jobs and never telling him.

Why can’t I stop cutting myself..

cdctin — Thu, 17 May 2012 02:30:12 +0000

I love my life.

I love my son.

Why can’t i stop cutting myself, no on knows!

Pretty sure I’m in love with my best friend.

cdctin — Thu, 17 May 2012 02:28:51 +0000

Pretty sure I’m in love with my best friend.

But we’re total opposites so I’m sure he can’t feel the same way.

I used to go to church, now I just read PostSecrets on Sundays.

cdctin — Thu, 17 May 2012 02:28:01 +0000

I used to go to church, now I just read PostSecrets on Sundays.

Some days I wish I would get cancer…

cdctin — Thu, 17 May 2012 02:27:21 +0000

Some days I wish I would get cancer…

Just so I had a good enough reason to take my own life.

You thought I was kidding when I told you that you ruined my life.

cdctin — Thu, 17 May 2012 02:26:39 +0000

You thought I was kidding when I told you that you ruined my life.

I WASN’T.

I’m afraid to have children…

cdctin — Thu, 17 May 2012 02:25:55 +0000

I’m afraid to have children…

I’m afraid they’ll be like me…

and they’ll hurt me like I hurt my parents.

She has no idea that she’s my best friend and I’m in love with her.

cdctin — Mon, 14 May 2012 00:35:52 +0000

She has no idea that she’s my best friend and I’m in love with her.

Really I think that everyone stares at ME because i’m beautiful..

cdctin — Mon, 14 May 2012 00:32:46 +0000

Really I think that everyone stares at ME because i’m beautiful.. when i know they stare because i’m not.

Even though we are family, sometimes I hate them because they’re so much prettier than me.

cdctin — Mon, 14 May 2012 00:31:03 +0000

Even though we are family, sometimes I hate them because they’re so much prettier than me.

Then I remember that the person I REALLY hate is 100% without a doubt is myself.

I didn’t eat for 5 days..

cdctin — Mon, 14 May 2012 00:29:52 +0000

I didn’t eat for 5 days because I quit my job due to my bad temper and couldn’t afford to buy food.

I keep wishing that my heart will stop.

cdctin — Mon, 14 May 2012 00:28:53 +0000

I keep wishing that my heart will stop.

So I dont have to kill myself and hurt the people I love.

The only thing that keeps me from CRASHING MY CAR..

cdctin — Mon, 14 May 2012 00:28:12 +0000

The only thing that keeps me from CRASHING MY CAR is knowing that I never want to make anyone else AS MISERABLE AS I AM.

I never told you that I smoke…

cdctin — Mon, 14 May 2012 00:27:23 +0000

I never told you that I smoke…

Because I’m afraid you’ll leave me because of it…

I just realized how much my mom meant to me…

cdctin — Mon, 14 May 2012 00:26:50 +0000

I just realized how much my mom meant to me…

You cheated with my sister…

cdctin — Thu, 10 May 2012 02:27:38 +0000

You cheated with my sister…

EVERYONE knew… (even my mom) 6 months before me!!!

It’s been over 3 years, I’m with someone new, we have a baby, and I still find it hard to trust him because of what you put me through. ~~Thanks~~

I used to hate how UGLY I am compared to you.

cdctin — Thu, 10 May 2012 02:25:54 +0000

I used to hate how UGLY I am compared to you.

But you know what…?

My friends love me – and I’d rather have that and be ugly, than be cruel, lonely, and beautiful like you!

My friend accepted me when I told her I was gay.

cdctin — Thu, 10 May 2012 02:24:09 +0000

My friend accepted me when I told her I was gay.

When she told me her secret, I told her she had mental health issues.

No one knows that I’ve wanted to kill myself for as long as I can remember.

cdctin — Thu, 10 May 2012 02:23:17 +0000

No one knows that I’ve wanted to kill myself for as long as I can remember.

Sometimes I wish I had a family member in the service..

cdctin — Thu, 10 May 2012 02:22:33 +0000

Sometimes I wish I had a family member in the service just so people would notice me and now that I HAD PROBLEMS TOO.

You’re coming with me to get this.

cdctin — Thu, 10 May 2012 02:21:42 +0000

You’re coming with me to get this.
But it’s about the boy who came before you.

Every time a guy smiles at me I feel happy inside.

cdctin — Thu, 10 May 2012 02:21:16 +0000

Every time a guy smiles at me I feel happy inside.

Why can’t I ever smile at myself and make myself happy?

I cried more when my aunt’s dog died…

cdctin — Thu, 10 May 2012 02:19:53 +0000

I cried more when my aunt’s dog died…

then i did when my great aunt died.

My friends trust me with their darkest secrets.

cdctin — Mon, 07 May 2012 00:42:47 +0000

My friends trust me with their darkest secrets.

I will always be there for my friends and I value loyalty above all else.

But, knowing their secrets is taking a toll on me and I can only remain silent.

I miss her

cdctin — Mon, 07 May 2012 00:41:50 +0000

I miss her so much more than i’m letting people believe…

We’ve been together for four years…

cdctin — Mon, 07 May 2012 00:40:59 +0000

We’ve been together for four years…

and I still love you…

But I hate who you’ve become…

I really would like to get back to that night…

cdctin — Mon, 07 May 2012 00:39:40 +0000

I really would like to get back to that night…

He is the only one…

1/7/2009

I aborted my baby….

cdctin — Mon, 07 May 2012 00:39:10 +0000

I aborted my baby….

and I think I did the right thing.

and I think I regret it.

I consider my roommate to be a parasite because she is black and fat.

cdctin — Mon, 07 May 2012 00:38:38 +0000

I consider my roommate to be a parasite because she is black and fat.

I hate her.

I know its not right to be a racist.

I’m Happy with him now…but its still you that I want…

cdctin — Mon, 07 May 2012 00:38:06 +0000

I’m Happy with him now…but its still you that I want…

But I accept that you dont want me that way..

I’m tired of being told what I can and cannot say

cdctin — Mon, 07 May 2012 00:37:19 +0000

I’m tired of being told what I can and cannot say

By these hypocrites who preach “political correctness”

who would call me a cracker.

without a second thought or any repercussions.

It seems to me that the ones I love always gone before their time and the ones I hate stick with me forever.

cdctin — Thu, 03 May 2012 01:55:30 +0000

It seems to me that the ones I love always gone before their time and the ones I hate stick with me forever.

So sometimes I just think that I should change myself and try to love the ones I hate so they could die faster.

I thought I loved you. You treated me like I wasn’t even a person.

cdctin — Thu, 03 May 2012 01:54:21 +0000

I thought I loved you. You treated me like I wasn’t even a person.

I never told you how I felt and never let anyone know you weren’t the nice guy they thought you were.

I moved on.

Now you’re being charged with child molestation.

Now I’m questioning my judge of character because, while I eventually realized how bad you treated me, I still felt something for you in the first place…

I come from a disadvantaged area and a poor school system.

cdctin — Thu, 03 May 2012 01:52:21 +0000

I come from a disadvantaged area and a poor school system.

I feel superior to my former classmates because I made it out and they didn’t…

I told you I had an abortion. I lied.

cdctin — Thu, 03 May 2012 01:50:51 +0000

I told you I had an abortion. I lied.

I was never pregnant–
I just wanted your attention.

I’ve never told you the truth to this day.

And now that years have past,
I am scared I can’t have children with my husband.

I thought I would be DEAD by 14.

cdctin — Thu, 03 May 2012 01:47:59 +0000

I thought I would be DEAD by 14.
I was put in foster care when I was 13. I lied to EVERYONE saying you never laid a hand on us.
I did it to be the ‘better’ daughter.
I called my sister a LIAR, and made myself hate her for calling the cops on you;
for splitting up our family.
It made us close. For once I felt like I had a Dad; one that I wasn’t afraid of.
No one knows the truth… I think maybe you even believe that I believe the lie.

You were murdered when I was 19.
A man beat you until your heart stopped.
The same way I thought I was going to die…

I miss you so much, Daddy.

I’m not too sure if I will ever forgive you, but I know I still need you.

I’m 23 and never been kissed.

cdctin — Thu, 03 May 2012 01:38:09 +0000

I’m 23 and never been kissed.

I’m 23 and never had a date.

I’m 23 and nobody cares.

I’m sorry I left you…

cdctin — Thu, 03 May 2012 01:36:58 +0000

I’m sorry I left you…

…without a reason why.

I want to wear sunglasses all the time..

cdctin — Thu, 03 May 2012 01:36:09 +0000

I want to wear sunglasses all the time because before he left, he told me my eyes were his whole world, and now i’m afraid to give them to anyone else.

When you said the reason you had to stop talking to me was because you really liked me, it hurt my heart.

cdctin — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 04:06:37 +0000

When you said the reason you had to stop talking to me was because you really liked me, it hurt my heart.

When I responded and you told me to stop because you couldn’t handle me romanticizing it, it hurt my heart.

When you told me you could never be with another woman because you couldn’t do that to your family, it hurt my soul, I want you to be happy.

You said that you were first drawn to my strength.

cdctin — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 03:58:45 +0000

You said that you were first drawn to my strength.

I didn’t think I had any but now I am on a quest to find it.

I want to be the wonderful things that you see in me.

I am inlove with her but I am married,

cdctin — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 03:57:28 +0000

I am inlove with her but I am married, i want to be with her and leave my husband but not really sure how she feels my heart aches everyday xx

You make me feel so horrible about myself.

cdctin — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 03:51:05 +0000

You make me feel so horrible about myself.

I can’t think about you without feeling sick and worthless.

I wish I’d have the guts to tell you that I think we shouldn’t be “friends” anymore.

Sometimes I think it would just be better…if I just ended it all.

cdctin — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 03:50:34 +0000

Sometimes I think it would just be better…

If I just ended it all.

I don’t love the woman I’m married to, not in the way that I love you.

cdctin — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 03:48:19 +0000

I don’t love the woman I’m married to, not in the way that I love you.

Now you’re gone, and it hurts so bad I wish I was dead too.

More than ANYTHING I want desperately to have a body like this.

cdctin — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 03:42:01 +0000

More than ANYTHING I want desperately to have a body like this.

I was raised as a strong Christian, but I now believe I’m an Athiest.

cdctin — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 03:35:22 +0000

I was raised as a strong Christian, but I now believe I’m an Athiest.

I can never tell my mother. I know she would never forgive me.

This is the mugshot of my dad the night he was arrested for beating me..

cdctin — Thu, 26 Apr 2012 05:27:41 +0000

This is the mugshot of my dad the night he was arrested for beating me and pointing a loaded gun at my head…
I’ve been waiting 6 years for an “IM SORRY”…

which will never come..

I’m afraid I’ll never get married..

cdctin — Thu, 26 Apr 2012 05:25:31 +0000

I’m afraid I’ll never get married because I will never have sex before marriage…

I feel GUILTY everyday for taking money from my parents’ for college

cdctin — Thu, 26 Apr 2012 05:23:39 +0000

I feel GUILTY everyday for taking money from my parents’ for college

I don’t regret us hooking up

cdctin — Thu, 26 Apr 2012 05:22:52 +0000

I don’t regret us hooking up but man is it going to be awkward if you both show up this weekend.

I received this email ten minutes after I cut my wrists.

cdctin — Thu, 26 Apr 2012 05:17:51 +0000

I received this email ten minutes after I cut my wrists.

You stopped me from jumping..

cdctin — Thu, 26 Apr 2012 05:17:14 +0000

You stopped me from jumping..

and now you devote yourself to making me a better, more stable person,

right here with you is a lot for comforting that the bottom of a river.

THANK YOU.

I LOVE you.

You will never truely understand how much you meant to me…

cdctin — Thu, 26 Apr 2012 05:05:49 +0000

You will never truely understand how much you meant to me…

and the worst part is you knew I loved you

And you still chose her…

“I’m fine, I promise”

cdctin — Thu, 26 Apr 2012 05:03:19 +0000

“I’m fine, I promise” are the lies I tell until I can get home and pick up the razor blade and see the beads of blood…

and then I’m ok.

I wrote this secret weeks ago…

cdctin — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 04:43:11 +0000

I wrote this secret weeks ago…

I wish my grandparents died so my dad could be free

I know I am bad…

…my grandmother died yesterday.

I photoshop ALL of my photos..

cdctin — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 04:41:53 +0000

I photoshop ALL of my photos becuase I can’t stand the thought of being considered ‘ugly’.

My husband thinks I’m cured of my depression..

cdctin — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 04:40:22 +0000

My husband thinks I’m cured of my depression because I told him the pills worked..They didn’t.

I won’t eat.

cdctin — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 04:39:34 +0000

I won’t eat.

After you raped me, I had wished I was pregnant;

cdctin — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 04:39:01 +0000

After you raped me, I had wished I was pregnant;

I thought if we had a family together, it would make the rape not real;

You were my best friend.

I didn’t fall. I threw myself off.

cdctin — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 04:38:01 +0000

I didn’t fall. I threw myself off.

I’m still terrified there are monsters under my bed

cdctin — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 04:37:13 +0000

I’m still terrified there are monsters under my bed (I’m 19)

The only thing I LOVE about my body are my scars…

cdctin — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 04:36:13 +0000

The only thing I LOVE about my body are my scars…

I’m scared that I will never be able to stop making those pretty scars.

I have never felt so alone.

cdctin — Thu, 19 Apr 2012 02:13:11 +0000

I have never felt so alone.

she is everything i want to be.

cdctin — Thu, 19 Apr 2012 02:12:36 +0000

she is everything i want to be.

i wish i was her.

I have and 8″ penis and I feel totaly inadequate

cdctin — Thu, 19 Apr 2012 02:11:55 +0000

I have and 8″ penis and I feel totaly inadequate

I’m WAY too small

I am in love with my first cousin

cdctin — Thu, 19 Apr 2012 02:11:13 +0000

I am in love with my first cousin

To bad he will never know.

When you come home I always cry…

cdctin — Thu, 19 Apr 2012 02:10:33 +0000

When you come home I always cry…

Not just because I am happy and relieved, but because I know so many people don’t get homecomings.

I still sometimes turn the volume to 23 to spite you.

cdctin — Thu, 19 Apr 2012 02:09:31 +0000

I still sometimes turn the volume to 23 to spite you.

Now I just wish you would be here to change it…

It was a one night stand….

cdctin — Thu, 19 Apr 2012 02:04:44 +0000

It was a one night stand….

I should hate myself, but I want to do it again.

I was in a car accident and when I got out of the car a tractor trailor was coming at me…

cdctin — Thu, 19 Apr 2012 02:04:07 +0000

I was in a car accident and when i got out of the car a tractor trailor was coming at me

i ran and somehow didn’t get hit

Sometimes i wish i didn’t run

It was easier when we couldn’t talk,

cdctin — Mon, 16 Apr 2012 01:09:43 +0000

It was easier when we couldn’t talk, than when we chose not to.

I let you walk away…

cdctin — Mon, 16 Apr 2012 01:07:33 +0000

I let you walk away just to see if I was worth coming back to.

I want to get pregnant so that my family will accept that we are together…

cdctin — Mon, 16 Apr 2012 01:05:49 +0000

I want to get pregnant so that my family will accept that we are together…but what if he decides i’m not what he wants.

People think I am innocent and trustworthy.

cdctin — Mon, 16 Apr 2012 01:04:41 +0000

People think I am innocent and trustworthy.
But the truth is I have told more lies then truths to keep it that way.

I’m looking for court in 10 minutes…

cdctin — Mon, 16 Apr 2012 01:03:43 +0000

I’m looking for court in 10 minutes…

Nobody can believe how calm I am…

I am PETRIFIED I am going to go to jail and my ONE mistake will ruin the rest of my life…

But I don’t want my mom to worry…

I do steroids.

cdctin — Mon, 16 Apr 2012 01:00:13 +0000

I do steroids.

I truly wish that our condoms would brake…

cdctin — Mon, 16 Apr 2012 00:59:35 +0000

I truly wish that our condoms would brake…

I desperately want a kid with you….

And I’m only 17…

I will never forgive myself for divorcing your daddy!

cdctin — Mon, 16 Apr 2012 00:57:37 +0000

I will never forgive myself for divorcing your daddy! I try to be the re-married happy mommy but the truth is it hurts me to look at your pretty lil face because I will never love anyone or thing as much as I love u and your daddy I am so sorry sweetheart.

It hurts me more than it hurt you…

cdctin — Thu, 12 Apr 2012 01:25:48 +0000

It hurts me more than it hurt you…

…I have to live with it everyday.

I was the smart one..

cdctin — Thu, 12 Apr 2012 01:24:55 +0000

I was the smart one then I started in high school.

Now I am no one.

My life is perfect and I hate it..

cdctin — Thu, 12 Apr 2012 01:24:07 +0000

My life is perfect and I hate it because it is so boring but I won’t tell anyone because I don’t want to seem ungrateful.

I was little and I just wanted you to be a father.

cdctin — Thu, 12 Apr 2012 01:23:15 +0000

I was little and I just wanted you to be a father.

Everyday I wish I would develop a Brain Tumour that would kill me..

cdctin — Thu, 12 Apr 2012 01:22:35 +0000

Everyday I wish I would develop a Brain Tumour that would kill me so I wouldn’t have to do it myself.

I wet the bed regularly until I was 13..

cdctin — Thu, 12 Apr 2012 01:21:37 +0000

I wet the bed regularly until I was 13.

A decade later I’m afraid of having an…ACCIDENT!

I totally want us to have a girlfriend to share.

cdctin — Thu, 12 Apr 2012 01:20:38 +0000

I totally want us to have a girlfriend to share.

At the same time, I totally want to keep you all to myself.

I have no idea how to rectify the conflict between those two desires.

I have only ever been with men but I find the idea of having a lesbian affair a massive turn on.

cdctin — Thu, 12 Apr 2012 01:18:57 +0000

I have only ever been with men but I find the idea of having a lesbian affair a massive turn on.

I really hope I will get to fulfill this fantasy someday.

I am 21 years old and still a virgin.

cdctin — Mon, 09 Apr 2012 00:34:34 +0000

I am 21 years old and still a virgin.

I am so embarrassed by this.

Now I am willing to sleep with a boy I do not love to lose it.

However I am afraid of the pain of having sex for the first time.

This is the only thing stopping me from sleeping with him.

I wish I wasn’t such a wimp!:(

Truth is beautiful,without a doubt, but so are lies.

cdctin — Mon, 09 Apr 2012 00:29:40 +0000

Truth is beautiful,without a doubt, but so are lies.

I will never see this again,

cdctin — Mon, 09 Apr 2012 00:28:39 +0000

I will never see this again, I desperatly want to…

Yet my WHORE sister can abort 3 a YEAR!

I’ve been here for a year now..

cdctin — Mon, 09 Apr 2012 00:27:46 +0000

I’ve been here for a year now.
Little does anyone know i feel like i have accomplished nothing.

I don’t know if i can stay.

All I want is a Fuck Buddy so I can pretend she’s you…

cdctin — Mon, 09 Apr 2012 00:26:39 +0000

All I want is a Fuck Buddy so I can pretend she’s you…

If I could afford it id be stoned 24/7…

cdctin — Mon, 09 Apr 2012 00:26:16 +0000

If I could afford it id be stoned 24/7…

…because it makes me forget all about you…

Our entire relationship was built on lies…

cdctin — Mon, 09 Apr 2012 00:26:05 +0000

Our entire relationship was built on lies…
Including the one where you told me you werent FUCKING HER behind my back.
And I cant tell anyone about it because you dont want anyone to know youre dating her. And I still love you too much to hurt you.

I lied about my dad raping me..

cdctin — Mon, 09 Apr 2012 00:23:36 +0000

I lied about my dad raping me because he was abusing my mother and she wouldn’t leave him.

He killed himself when she kicked him out. I’m going insane with guilt.

I moved half across the country to be with someone

cdctin — Thu, 05 Apr 2012 04:39:10 +0000

I moved half across the country to be with someone because my bestfriend was with someone else.
We are in love and leaving feels like the BIGGEST mistake I’ve ever made.

I’m a straight guy, I have a girlfriend, I love womens boobs.

cdctin — Thu, 05 Apr 2012 04:38:59 +0000

I’m a straight guy, I have a girlfriend, I love womens boobs.
But I really think gay porn is hot…and I like it.

It kills me to know MY HORRIBLE EX liked me when I was HEAVY

cdctin — Thu, 05 Apr 2012 04:37:10 +0000

It kills me to know MY HORRIBLE EX liked me when I was HEAVY but you like me because IM SKINNY.

I have been with my boyfriend for a year but I am more in love with my bestfriend.

cdctin — Thu, 05 Apr 2012 04:36:08 +0000

I have been with my boyfriend for a year but I am more in love with my bestfriend.

My best friend is a girl…so am I.