Postings from the Insane Asylum

2008-06-27T13:57:00.001-05:00

When the rich wage war, it's the poor that die.

Whee!

2008-06-10T20:54:00.002-05:00

No older kids for the rest of the week! It's so nice when the mother-in-law offers to take the two oldest boys for a week, especially when it's the first week that school is out.

Holy crap....

2008-04-18T15:38:00.002-05:00

Wow, it really has been a damn long time since I've posted anything on this...

I guess I should work on posting again....

Maybe I'll get the urge next week....

So.....

2005-12-22T09:48:00.000-06:00

It's three days before Christmas, and I'm just now finishing the annual holiday compilation cd set that I make for my family and friends every year. I've had the songs compiled for a while now, and the tracklist of the vocal cd completed, but I've just finished the tracklist for the instrumental cd.

Here is the tracklist for the vocal cd....

1. Eclipse - The First Noel (4:23)
2. Donny Osmond - Angels We Have Heard On High (5:03)
3. Sting - I Saw Three Ships (1:46)
4. Harry Connick, Jr. - (It Must Have Been Ol') Santa Claus (4:37)
5. Eclipse - Hark, the Herald Angels Sing (2:29)
6. Trans-Siberian Orchestra - Joy - Angels We Have Heard on High (3:54)
7. Rockapella - The Hope We Hold (3:14)
8. Brian Setzer Orchestra - White Christmas (5:21)
9. Kelly Willard - What Child Is This? (2:54)
10. Rockapella - Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (3:35)
11. Stevie Wonder - Ave Maria (3:56)
12. Take 6 - Hark the Herald Angels Sing (2:42)
13. Alison Krauss - Only You Can Bring Me Cheer (Gentleman's Lady) (3:36)
14. Queen - Thank God It's Christmas (4:20)
15. First Call - O Come, O Come, Emmanuel (3:07)
16. The Manhattan Transfer - Let It Snow, Let It Snow, Let It Snow (4:34)
17. Take 6 - O Come All Ye Faithful (2:23)
18. Harry Connick Jr. - Silver Bells (3:23)
19. Rockapella - You're a Mean One, Mr. Grinch (3:14)

Here is the tracklist for the instrumental cd...

1. Mannheim Steamroller - Carol of the Bells (3:53)
2. Jim Brickman - Angels (3:16)
3. Various - The Holly and the Ivy (2:37)
4. George Winston - Variations on the Kanon (5:24)
5. Mannheim Steamroller - Joy to the World (3:39)
6. Brian Setzer Orchestra - Angels We Have Heard on High (4:19)
7. Mannheim Steamroller - We Three Kings (3:44)
8. Trans-Siberian Orchestra - Christmas Canon (4:19)
9. Hosanna! Music - O Little Town Of Bethlehem (3:01)
10. Maranatha! Music - Coventry Carol (3:16)
11. Jim Brickman - Joy To The World (3:04)
12. Sylvia Woods - Carol of the Bells (2:38)
13. Various - I Saw Three Ships (1:47)
14. Mannheim Steamroller - The Holy and The Ivy (3:01)
15. Maranatha! Music - Carol Of The Bells (1:56)
16. Sylvia Woods - O Holy Night (2:51)
17. Jim Brickman - O Little Town Of Bethlehem (2:16)
18. Mannheim Steamroller - Los Peces En El Río (3:52)
19. Liz Story - We Three Kings Of Orient Are (3:58)
20. Paul McCandless - 17th Century Canon (1:44)
21. Trans-Siberian Orchestra - God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (1:16)

You know, it gets harder and harder every year to make these cds without too much duplication of songs that I've used from the previous year. I don't mind putting multiple versions of the same song on the compilation sets, because I've always found it interesting to see how different groups and composers will approach the same song, especially for the instrumental cd that I do. This is the second year that I've decided to do a dual cd set, rather than one cd. There are so many good holiday songs around that it's hard to fit the vocal and instrumental music that I want to use on one cd, and I've found it much easier to do a dual-cd set.

Well, I hope that everyone has a safe and happy Holiday! I'm outta here!

Wow!

2005-12-14T11:42:00.000-06:00

Damn, it's been a while since I've updated anything on this blog. Just been too busy with other things to really have the time to catch up on anything.

Let's see what's happened in the past month or so...
Got a new position with the company I work for (Woo for moving up!)
Joey's been on so many different meds that I can't remember them all, but finally the Adderall seems to be helping him more than anything else other than the Ritalin did.

Other than that, just working on getting ready for the holiday season. I'm taking the day off tomorrow to get all of the christmas shopping done that I need to do, along with getting a few bills paid that need to be paid.

I think that's about it for right now. Maybe another update soon. As always, you can check the mobile postings for pictures and quick little posts that I may put up.

Happy Holidays, everyone!

Happy Halloween!!!!

2005-10-31T11:41:00.000-06:00

To all of you who enjoy the day, I hope that you all have lots of fun.

For me, it's just another day of work. Although this evening, I shall be taking a small Darth Vader and a small lion out for some tricks and treats. Hope to have lots of good and cute photos to show everyone in the coming days. Me, I'm going to be nothing special for Halloween. ;)

Have fun, and enjoy the day!!!

Blarg....

2005-10-18T07:38:00.000-05:00

Sorry I haven't been posting as frequently as I used to. I've just had neither the drive, nor the desire, to post all that much here recently.

Things are slowly progressing with Joey, he's making little improvements every day, so that is always a good sign. We're going to be looking into getting him into Head Start here soon. Cindy has to check on a few things before we can do that.

Honestly, there's not been a whole lot exciting going on in my life recently.

If I can think of something more exciting to post about, I'll try to do so later.

Have a good Tuesday, everyone.

Updates...

2005-09-30T07:10:00.000-05:00

I've been doing a piss-poor job at posting things in my blogs recently, and whether that's going to change or not, I can't say, but here's a post for today...

Joey's doing well, about to finish his first full week on Ritalin. I've noticed that here the past 3 weeks or so, I've really been making a conscious effort to keep myself in check and not get upset with him, but calmly ask him to do things that I would like for him to do, make sure to ask him politely so that he understands that is how he is supposed to ask for things. When he starts getting out of line, I ask him in a calm voice to stop what he's doing. When he's not paying attention, I will say "excuse me" and get his attention. I have noticed a major improvement in his attitude towards things. He has only had a couple incidents in the last week to 10 days where he has had to be put in time out, which is amazing considering there for a while, he was doing things 2 or 3 times a day.

As I've said before, I'm not a big believer in medicating children to fix problems (other than illnesses, of course), but when it came to Joey, I realized that something HAD to be done, that something had to take place to help him calm down and to help us to change his behavior. I know, especially now after talking with my parents about it, that I had the same kinds of problems when I was Joey's age, pretty much up until I was in 2nd and 3rd grade, when my parents took me to a behavioral therapist. I was one of the lucky ones, though, I was not put on any kinds of medication. However, Cindy has been on Ritalin, and several other drugs, since she was a kid to help keep her ADHD in check. And, I think that Joey's got both things from us. He has my intelligence, because much like I did when I was a kid, he gets bored with things easily, and he jumps from thing to thing to thing, trying to keep his attention. He's also got the ADHD from Cindy. So, I think for Joey, it's going to take a mix of the two, the medication and the behavorial therapy. I am glad that things are starting to turn around for him.

My grandfather's surgery went well last Friday. His surgeon was able to bring the murmur back in check and my grandfather is doing MUCH better than he was at this time last week. I saw my grandparents this past Tuesday night, and my grandfather looked the best that he's looked in months, maybe even in years. I'm so relieved that the surgery went well for him, and that it was able to help him. It was nice to see my mother again, so soon after their last trip here, especially. It would've been nice to see my dad too, but he has been pretty busy with work, so I understand why he couldn't. My aunt (the one who hasn't really been talking to me for the past...oh.... 5 YEARS!!!) actually talked to me, gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek. Maybe the whole situation with my grandfather made her realize that family really is more important than her petty ass issues that she's been hanging onto for years and causing problems in the family. Who knows. I know that I sure as hell don't, but oh well.

I think that's about it that I want to update everyone on for right now. If I think of anything else, I'll let ya know. :P

ya know....

2005-09-29T06:37:00.000-05:00

Raisinettes are good, then again I like chocolate, and I like raisins. It almost doesn't make you feel bad for eating a bunch of them, cause they've got raisins in them. :P

And so we wait......

2005-09-23T06:43:00.000-05:00

Wait for what, you ask....

Well, I found out Wednesday that my grandfather has to have heart surgery today. Apparently the surgery that he's having is a pretty common procedure, but still, it scares the crap out of me. He's supposed to be at the hospital at 9.30am this morning, and the procedure that he's going through is supposed to take about 4 hours. I'm working 6am-2pm today, so that I can be home to get the news about what happened during the surgery. I'm worried that something is going to happen, but I've got to stay upbeat and hope for the best.

I don't feel like talking much today because of that. I'll post more later.

So.....

2005-09-21T11:04:00.000-05:00

I'm sure that people are probably wondering how things went with Joey yesterday. Well, here's the update....
Yesterday, I worked from 6am-10am, so that I only had to use 4 hours of sick time to be off for the afternoon for Joey's appointments.

10.30am ...
We show up at Old Westpot, which are ear, nose, throat and allergy specialists. As a matter of fact, they are the place that we took Joey to initially to have the tubes put in his ears when he was an infant due to the amount of ear infections he had gotten. The doctor that he saw, is a fracking crackhead. Joey was sitting there, playing with the stethoscope listening to his own heart. Joey looked at the doctor and asked him if Joey could listen to his(the doctor's) heart. The doctor looked at him, and without missing a beat said "No, I don't have a heart, at least that's what I've been told". We end up being there for all of about 20 minutes. The doctor wants us to record Joey's snoring so that he(the doctor) can determine if Joey is a candidate for having his tonsils and adenoids removed, or whether our pediatrician is smoking crack and that Joey's tonsils and adenoids are not really the issue issue. The whole reason we went to them was because our pediatrician thinks that maybe Joey's sufferring from sleep apnea, and so he's not getting a good night's sleep, and that's why he's been acting out so much. I, personally, think that idea is a bunch of bullshit, and that maybe the pediatrician WAS smoking crack when he suggested it, but I've no type of medical background, so I don't know for sure.

1.15pm...
Our meeting with the child psychologist was....interesting to say the least. She had a very easy time connecting with Joey on his level, and then explaining things to us as well. It's apparent to anyone who spends some time with Joey that he's pretty intelligent, and that he gets bored with things very easily. Apparently the child psychologist was at the end of her ropes with trying to get Joey to pay attention to her, but she was getting him to calm down and pay attention and listen to what she was telling him, so that's a good place to start. We also got a prescription for Ritalin for Joey, because I think at this point it's going to take a mixture of medication and behavioral thereapy to get him back to where he needs to be. Today he gets 1/2 a pill (5mg), then tomorrow he gets 1/2 a pill in the morning, then 1/2 a pill in the afternoon, and then we're supposed to try a whole pill in the morning and then 1/2 in the afternoon. I think we may trying the 1/2 morning 1/2 afternoon for a while, and see how he adjusts to it, and then maybe move up to a whole pill in the morning 1/2 in afternoon, or vice versa. The child psychologist said that it may take some tinkering around with the dosage, as far as whether he gets a whole pill in the morning, or in the afternoon, or maybe split up and gets 3 1/2 pill doses throughout the day.

Now, I'm not real big on medicating children as a way to solve problems. However, I also realize that something drastic is going to have to happen for Joey to calm down and learn the things that he needs to learn, to learn that there are things that he cannot and should not do, and how to change the behavior to the way that it needs to be. I'm just hoping that this actually works and things can get turned around for him.

Sheesh....

2005-09-20T06:25:00.000-05:00

Yet again, a long stretch of time without any posting. What the hell is going on with me, I must be slacking in my old age or something. :P

Actually, to be honest, life in general has just kept me away from posting much more on my journal, for reasons that I will go into shortly...

Friday... I took the day off to spend the day with Joey, trying to teach him a bit of discipline, as he's been completely misbehaving, almost all the time, at Kindercare. He's been doing things like hitting other children, talking back to his teachers, running away from his teachers, causing a whole ruckus when it's naptime, and a host of other things. The long and short of it is that if his attitude at Kindercare doesn't change dramatically, and soon, he's not going to be able to go to Kindercare anymore, and then things are going to get bad for a while. So, to help perhaps change things around, I am taking Joey to see a behavioral therapist today, to see if maybe through some work with them, both educating Cindy and myself as his parents, and Joey himself, we can help to change this behavior and get things on the right track before they get much worse. Only time will tell, but at this point, I don't think it can make things much worse off than they already are.

There is so much more going on right now, but I don't really feel like talking about it at the time being. Maybe someday soon I'll release it all to everyone.

I hope you all have a good Tuesday, maybe mine'll be better than my Monday was.

Wow....

2005-09-15T11:59:00.000-05:00

Three consecutive days without posting anything substantial to my blog. Either something's seriously wrong with me, or I've just been too busy to do anything. :P And no, I don't consider the huge ass meme post I made on my livejournal something of substance. It was just something to pass the time while I was bored that morning.

Not a whole lot has been really going on, just work taking up a large part of my life, as per usual. :P

Joey's become a major pain in the ass at Kindercare, apparently talking back to his teachers, he broke a toy, even hit one of his teachers. Cindy and I have a feeling that Joey has ADHD, much like Cindy does, but our pediatrician thinks that Joey's too young to diagnose that in him. So, we're going to take Joey to see a child psychiatrist and see what their determination is. Our pediatrician thinks that Joey's not sleeping well at night and suffering from sleep apnea, so he wants us to take Joey to an Ear/Nose/Throat specialist and see about having his adenoids and tonsils removed. I don't know that is really the case, but I suppose it's certainly possible. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what the specialist says and what the child psychiatrist says. Hopefully they can get it figured out and we can get Joey some help, or at least some help in controlling him.

Other than that, a grand whole lot of nothing has been going on.

I signed up for an account with Google Adsense this morning, and was approved in about the span of half an hour. I'm using it primarily for the blogs that I have on the Blogger network which you can find here and here. The first link is another blog, basically, that has a lot of the same posts that this one does, plus a few from the digg.com stories that I find that I like. The second link is where I send pictures that I take with my camera phone to. A lot of them, so far, are pictures of the boys, but every once in a while I'll find something cool that I feel like taking a picture of, and I'll post it up. Figured I might get a click or a pageview every once in a while and maybe, eventually, make some money on it, highly doubtful, but it's worth a shot, eh?

That's it for today...have a good Thursday, everyone.

What a weekend.....

2005-09-06T08:20:00.000-05:00

Pretty much nothing fun happened this weekend. Cindy had to work all three days, so I stayed home with the boys, and we didn't really go out and do anything. Mikey started getting sick Friday night, so it was pointless to take him outside and risk making him worse.

Watched some of the news coverage of the devastation caused by Hurricane Katrina. I don't have a whole lot to say about it that hasn't been said.

I'm just kinda out of it today. Maybe I'll feel more talkative later.

Have a good Tuesday, everyone.

Three day weekend.....

2005-09-02T20:43:00.000-05:00

Yes, it's true, I have a three day weekend. It'll be kinda nice to not have to be at work for three days, especially considering some of the things that have gone on around here recently. Let's suffice it to say that there are times now where I REALLY don't want to come to work anymore, all because of one certain person and the fact that she's a condescending, self-centered drama queen that only thinks of herself, but I'm not going to get into that right now.

Don't really have any big plans for the weekend. Final Chiefs' preseason game is tonight, so I'm sure that I'll be watching that with the boys. Cindy has to work all three days this weekend, so it'll just be me and the boys for the majority of the weekend. Might try to take the boys to the park either Saturday or Sunday, depending on what the weather is like. I've heard so many different reports of what the weather could be like that at this point, that it's pointless to try and plan anything, so we're just going to wing it.

As I'm sure that most of my friends know, Cowboy Mouth is one of my favorite bands. I've seen them a couple times in concert, and I plan on seeing them several more times in the future. What some people may not know is that they are from New Orleans, which EVERYONE knows was one of the areas effected by Hurricane Katrina. Of course, their website is currently down. If I remember correctly, it was hosted there in New Orleans. Fred LeBlanc, the drummer/one of the singers for Cowboy Mouth has his own website, of course, and he has his own personal blog on it. I've read through his most recent posts, and it's interesting to see how it's effected him and how strongly that he feels about the town that he is from. I mean, it's no different than how I feel about Kansas City and how I would react if something catastrophic was to happen to Kansas City, but I just find it interesting.

In recognition of Cowboy Mouth and the fact that they are from New Orleans, I have nominated today, at work at least, to be Cowboy Mouth day, so I'm spending the day listening to Cowboy Mouth songs while I take phone calls. ^_^

That's about it for today, unless I can think of something else to post today. Not sure if I will make a post this weekend, but I hope that everyone has a great weekend, and that everyone is safe out there this weekend.

Official Movie Site for Serenity is on-line

2005-09-01T13:07:00.000-05:00

After months of just an image, Serenity, the new Joss Whedon movie based on the canceled Fox sci-fi western is finally able to be perused. Included is a full flash website with small clips from the film plus other activities.

I'm pretty excited to see that the website is finally up and running, especially since I loved the TV series and was sad to see it cancelled.

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Rant for the day....

2005-08-31T15:59:00.000-05:00

I'm so frelling sick and tired of gas being so god damn expensive. Come on now, here in Kansas City, regular unleaded gas is $2.86 per gallon, and I think that it is getting a bit ridiculous. Not more than 2 days ago, gas was $2.56 a gallon. Now, yes, I understand that the reason that it's gone up so much in the last few days is because of Hurricane Katrina and the closing of the oil refineries in the area effected by the hurricane.

What bothers me is a couple things...

First off.... America has what's called the "Strategic Petrolium Reserve", which is a stockpile of oil, some 700 million barrels of crude oil. From my understanding of how the SPR works, it is for emergency use at the President's discretion. Now that's all well and good, save for the fact that our current president's family made a LOT of money in the oil industry, so what incentive would he have to help keep the cost of gasoline down? And of course there's the fact that quite a few of the politicians that help govern our country have been backed for many many years by the oil industry. And of course, they want to keep that money flowing into their bank rolls, so they're not going to put in any type of real legislation to move towards more effective solutions for the impending energy crisis that will occur when we run out of fossil fuels.

Second.... Speaking of oil companies... from what I've been reading, the majority of the oil companies have made INSANE profits in the past year(some up to 300% profists), due to the fact that they were raising prices for their products, such as gasoline, but the price of crude oil is not fluctuating that much. Yes, I understand it has gone up, but I don't think that it's gone up enough to necessitate the raises in gasoline prices that we've had to put up with.

Now what brought all this on....
Well, between the van and the car, I put $50 in gas in the two vehicles, $30 in the Windstar and $20 in the Escort. The Windstar has a 22 gallon tank, the Escort about a 13 gallon tank, if I remember correctly. With what I spent in gas this morning, each of the vehicles has 5/8 a tank of gas. Now in the Escort, that'll be enough to last a couple weeks, as it gets like 28-30 mpg city. The Windstar, however, is another story altogether. It gets between 16-20 mpg city. Yeah, it's got a bigger engine, but shit, at the rate things are going now, I'm not going to be able to afford to take the boys to Kindercare anymore. Not because I can't pay the tuition at Kindercare, but because I'm not going to be able to afford the gas to take them. I think it's getting close to an economic emergency to where people are not going to be able to afford to purchase gasoline for their cars, which in turn will prevent them from going to work, which will lead to the economy crashing.

What a wonderful world we live in, eh?

Woo...weekendness....

2005-08-29T08:36:00.000-05:00

I had a pretty good weekend, at least I think it was pretty good. Didn't do a whole lot of anything Saturday. Caught up on watching Stargate SG-1, Stargate: Atlantis and Battlestar Galactica, along with a couple other tv shows that I had recorded. Cindy worked 11am-8pm, so I stayed at home with the boys all day, which we just played and hung out most of the day. Watched both the Chiefs' 3rd preseason game and the NASCAR Sharpie 500 race at Bristol. Had to switch back and forth between them, because I had some other things due to record on the DVR, or I would've recorded one and watched the other.

Yesterday, just hung out around the house. Woke up about 8.30am and went for a walk. Decided that it was time for a walk, which I need to start doing more of anyways. Then went home, picked up the boys and went out and did some shopping, just picking up some odds and ends that we needed to get. Other than that, did a whole lot of nothing, which was nice for once. I needed a good day to just relax and do nothing.

Hope everyone else had a good weekend. I'm off to face the day that is Monday.

Woo for Friday!!!!

2005-08-26T12:58:00.000-05:00

Yes indeed, woo for Friday!!!!

I'm so glad that this week is finally almost over. It's been a hell of a week, full of problems and things that have just caused me ungodly amounts of stress, a lot of which I'm not going to go into detail right now. Not because I don't want everyone to know, but I just don't feel like rehashing it all. Been having a good day so far, and I don't feel like bringing it down. :P

Good news for one of my long time friends. She got a job at Northrop Grumman, in their communication division. She's going to be moving to California soon, which is very good because she was having terrible luck finding a job where she is from, and very good because it means that she gets to be with her fiance. I'm so glad that things are looking up for her and going so well, because she's had a terrible stretch going for her up until the last few weeks. Of course, I'm sure that it's going to piss off her family a bit, and of course the father of her son. I would call him her ex-husband, because that's what he is, but he doesn't deserve it, hence "the father of her son".

Other good news....
I got an email yesterday from one of my very close friends from high school who I haven't talked to in several years. I guess she found my information on classmates.com, which is cool, cause I was actually just thinking about trying to get in touch with her, along with one of my other friends from high school. She told me that she's married now, with a 15 month old and another on the way, which makes me very happy for her. Amazingly enough, she still lives in Kansas City, so we're going to try and get together sometime soon and catch up on what's happened in the past few years.

Well, I think that's it, for now at least. Not a whole lot planned for this weekend. Can't go to the ASK-C meetup tonight at Minsky's, don't have the money or the babysitter. Cindy's gotta work tomorrow, 11-8, so I'll be home with the boys. I doubt we'll do a whole lot other than watch the NASCAR race tomorrow evening.

Have a good weekend, everyone!

Google Talk: 15 screens of it and it's features

2005-08-24T10:06:00.000-05:00

Another page of information about Google Talk, this time with some screenshots of how the different screens look.

digg description is as follows:

After I commented on the google talk story to add me (I was the second one to do so), I was swamped with messages from digg fans. I decided to take some screenshots of google's talk service and share them with the digg community. Hope you enjoy!

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Google Talk.....

2005-08-24T08:12:00.000-05:00

~drools~

So Google Talk was released earlier today/late last night. But what is Google Talk, you might be asking. Well, it's Google's new instant messaging client, that also supports Voice over IP (much like Skype, which I also have, leave me a message if you want me to add you to my contact list on Skype). I've also heard that down the pike it may include functionality to connect to other instant messaging networks, such as ICQ/AIM/MSN. I've also found out that Google Talk works on Jabber protocols, so any client that is able to connect to a Jabber network is able to connect into the Google Talk service. Now, I don't know how long that functionality will last, but I've already tested it out with my Trillian that I have installed here at work, and it connected and worked perfectly.

Here is a review by the people at DownloadSquad.com about Google Talk, another review at The Unofficial Google Weblog. Here is a link to a blog that I found on Digg that will walk a person through setting up the Google Talk connection in programs like Trillian, Gaim, and iChat.

I'm still debating on if I'm going to continue to use the Google Talk client, or if I'm going to set up the connection in my Trillian and use it that way. I don't know if I'll lose the VoIP functionality by using the Trillian interface over the Google Talk interface. I like the interface/functionality that Trillian offers, and I try to keep things on my computers as clean as I can, and if I have an instant messaging client that will allow me to connect to as many of the networks that I have accounts on as I can, then hell yeah, I'm going to use it as much as possible and keep my computer as unclutterred as I can. I'm going to have to play around with it a bit and see which interface I like more.

If anyone would like to add me to their friends list on Google Talk, just leave me a message here with your gmail address, and I'll send ya a message and get you added to my lists.

You know...

2005-08-19T12:41:00.000-05:00

I sometimes really hate the time of the month when it's a full moon. People can be such assholes during the full moon. Fucking magnetic fields and such changing how peoples' moods can be. I've had two people on the phones, back to back, that have been complete and utter assholes to me, for no fucking reason whatsoever. It's like someone came up behind them, ripped down their pants and violated them, without using any lube. I wonder if there's ever been any scientific research done that can prove/disprove that a full moon can radically effect someone's demeanor. IF there hasn't, I definitely think that there should be some, starting soon! Hell, if they pay well enough, I'd be happy to be a research subject. Lord knows I could use the money.

I've decided today.....

2005-08-18T12:02:00.000-05:00

I've decided that I'm not going to actively worry about making anyone else happy anymore. I've been doing such a poor ass job at it recently that it seems pointless anymore. I think it's more time to focus on making myself happy and let the chips fall where they may. I've tried so hard recently to make everyone happy, but have been failing miserably. I'm tired of being depressed because I can't seem to do things right by other people. It seems like anymore if it's not one thing, it's another, and if it's not another, it's everything. I'm so sick and tired of everyone not being happy with me and the decisions that I make.

I'm off for the rest of the day. I hope everyone has a good day.

Why is it that....

2005-08-16T13:14:00.000-05:00

....people want you to be upfront and honest with them, but when you tell them something in all honesty, they get pissed off at you about it?

The weekend....

2005-08-15T14:08:00.000-05:00

Didn't do much of anything, really.

Saturday it rained pretty much all day in Kansas City, so I just stayed at home with the boys while Cindy was at work. I never realized how much I missed having them around, even though they get on my nerves sometimes. I cleaned up the apartment, sorted through the laundry, just some housework, along with playing with the boys quite a bit.

Sunday, again didn't do much of anything, but for different reasons. Had to work from 11am-3pm Sunday, my monthly scheduled weekend shift. Didn't end up leaving until 3.45pm though, because I had 2 calls come in RIGHT BEFORE the call center closed for the day, and they stayed in the queues until I could answer the calls and get their problems fixed. Went home and watched the NASCAR race that I had recorded while I was at work. Waited for Cindy to get home from her friend's house, and she ended up not getting back until almost 9pm, which upset me a little bit, so about 8.30pm I decided to go for a walk, ended up walking about 4 miles and got back around 9.30pm. I'm glad it didn't rain last night while I was out walking. Now that would've sucked ass. I've had that happen before, right in the middle of the walk that I normally take, and I was stuck for about an hour waiting for the rain to subside a bit. It felt good to get out and get the exercise though, and it was a very nice, temperature-wise, night to do it.

I think that's all I've got for today. Not a whole lot else to say.

Have a good afternoon, everyone!