Praising You Thru This Storm

Day 73 October 28

2011-10-28T00:26:00.000-07:00

Day 72 October 7

2011-10-07T00:18:00.000-07:00

What saves a man is to take a step. Then another step. It is always the same step, but you have to take it. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Wind, Sand and Stars, 1939, translated from French by Lewis Galantière

Day 71 September 13

2011-09-13T18:04:00.000-07:00

Day 70 September11

2011-09-11T17:17:00.000-07:00

Day 69 September 8

2011-09-08T07:13:00.000-07:00

Day 68 September 6

2011-09-06T00:42:00.000-07:00

Prayer does not change God, but it changes him who prays. ~Søren Kierkegaard

Day 67 August 19 Surgery

2011-08-19T13:23:00.000-07:00

Havn't written for awhile. Two weeks ago today I went in for a simple back surgery to get some hardware removed. It didn't turn out so simple. My O2 saturation dropped, whether from the pain medicine, the way my body was processing after surgery ( my liver and kidneys ) or who knows what else. Anyways, I dropped so low that I became unresponsive and ended up in the ICU where they gave my all kinds of things to reverse effects. One nurse told my the next step was a ventilator. Oh the power of prayer! I recovered there for 2 days and then graduated to a regular room. Yes that's what they call it :) I stayed there till Thursday and then came home. The staples came out on Tuesday, as I said on my FB, the little things in life feel like a miracle. This experience is really going to change me. I still have pain from the incision and drain, to be expected. I am also really tired! This is why Lord I keep Prasin You Thru This Storm...

Day 66 August 3

2011-08-03T23:33:00.000-07:00

Day 65 July 19

2011-07-19T00:41:00.000-07:00

I had an MRI today and I heard this through the headphones during the test. Made me think of my Grandmother and her strong faith. What a great example she was through all her illness and tough times. Lord I will just keep Praisin' You Thru This Storm...

Addendum

2011-07-18T00:15:00.000-07:00

This blog was created, not to make anyone feel sorry for me or our family, but in hopes that maybe one person might read it and realize they are not alone. It helps me get things off my mind, especially now. I have and always will feel that their is someone out their that has it alot worse than we do. That is why I love my family and the Lord and will keep Praisin' Him Thru This Storm...

Day 64 July 17

2011-07-17T14:38:00.000-07:00

So here goes, maybe this will clear my mind and help me learn how to blog rather than post. About 7 years ago I lost my best friend in a homicide followed by him hanging himself. 5 years ago my oldest daughter almost died twice, of meningitis and pneumonia, shortly after that I started having an intense pain in my side that took about 2 years to lead to a back fusion that I continue to suffer chronic pain from. In the meantime my husband was fired from a job of 23 years, and then a minimum wage job of a 1 1/2. I suffer from migraines for about the last 20 years, fibromyalgia, high blood pressure, diabetes, and of course being overweight from meds. In the last year and a half I have been hospitalized 5 times in the psychiatric unit at the local hospital, each time for about a week or a little more. Every time, though I seem to get a little better. My latest diagnosis is Bipolar II, anxiety disorder, and depression. Hopefully all being situational. I don't know how to tell it any shorter, but that is me and my family in a nutshell. That is why it is so important to me to keep Praisin' the Lord Thru This Storm...

Day 63 July 16

2011-07-16T14:21:00.000-07:00

Only a life lived for others is worth living. ~ Albert Einstein

Day 62 July 14

2011-07-14T18:08:00.000-07:00

Day 61 July 13

2011-07-13T03:39:00.000-07:00

You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them. ~Desmond Tutu

With out the support of my family this week, I don't know where I would be right now. Sometimes you wonder if you have the capacity to love another child when you are choosing to add to your family. God gives you this gift for which I am so thankful for that you can love them all the same! Sometimes they disappoint, but so do I. I try to have a short term memory:) All I know is I love my Heavenly Father and my family on earth sooo much, and Lord I will keep Praisin' You Thru This Storm...

Day 60 July 12

2011-07-12T01:24:00.000-07:00

Day 59 July 7

2011-07-07T16:45:00.000-07:00

Day 58 June 26

2011-06-26T00:08:00.000-07:00

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:6-7 NIV

Day 57 June 25

2011-06-25T10:51:00.000-07:00

2011-06-24T00:39:00.000-07:00

Day 56 June 23 (con't.)

2011-06-23T12:35:00.000-07:00

Yes, I will be a "Fanilow" to the end. But this puts my life in perspective as if Lord maybe their will be small storms but I just need to Keep Praisin' You...

Day 56 June 23

2011-06-22T17:37:00.000-07:00

Best Friends: My college roommate, the friend I lost to a tragic death that started my "storm" 81/2 years ago, the one friend who is sticking by me thru this "storm"? All of them are, but who should automatically come first at the top of my list is my Heavenly Father. This is such a challenge to me right now. I need to remember to keep Him at the top of my list and the rest of the friendships will follow. Sometimes I feel so alone right now. My college roommate lives an hour and a half away, I lost who I considered my best friend, so that leaves me right now with one good friend sticking by me through thick and thin. Lord that is why I Keep Praisin' You Thru This Storm...

Day 55 June 20

2011-06-20T19:04:00.000-07:00

Learning to live by God's Grace. It's to me one of my hardest challenge. I've always said He will provide, just trust. Maybe not what you want, but what is in His plan. It is so hard to trust. My husband and I had to go to court today on a judgement, and trusting in Him, He protected. We had a great conversation on the way home. The challenge now is to keep trust. That is why I keep Praisin' Thru The Storm....

Day 54 June 19

2011-06-19T03:09:00.000-07:00

The Precious Gift One gift, above all others
God gives to us to treasure
One that knows no tis me, no place
And one gold cannot measure. The precious, poignant, tender gift
Of Memory --- that will keep
Our dear ones ever in our hearts
Although God gives them sleep. It brings back long remembered
things
A song, a word, a smile
And our world's a better place
- - - because
We had them for awhile!

Our family has the honor of joining all the family and friends of Jared Stout today to release balloons in his honor. Today would have been his birthday. It brings back so many memories of losing a good friend of mine, but today is to honor Jared and it's also Father's Day, what a tough day for their family! That doesn't mean I stop and don't honor my dad or the girls don't do something special for theirs. Evil exists in this world and that is no fault of ours. I am learning and just starting over Lord. That is why I will Keep Praisin' You Thru This Storm...

Day 53 June 16

2011-06-16T01:06:00.000-07:00

Souls are like the butterflies
They travel when set free
They go where they feel welcome
Right now, they come to me

Hearts are like the fireflies
They shine when they're at peace
They glow like the morning sunrise
And still, they come to me

Minds are like the birds
Swiftly flying, ever free
They grow stronger and more steady
And too, these come to me

I want you with me always
For you are all of these
I'd never loved another
But then, you came to me

I want to show you to this place
Where ghosts and spirits dwell
And once have I you followed
Hence, none other can you tell

This place shall be a secret
Ours only to us keep
This place where ether travels
Beyond all earthly things

For all souls travel here
Whence they have past and gone
To the land where spirits dwell
With souls like butterflies.

Day 52 June 12

2011-06-12T22:17:00.000-07:00

The end of what might to some parents seem an imperfect weekend, but to me could not have been more perfect. My daughter played in a 3rd and 4th grade softball tournament Saturday and Sunday. Winning her first game and losing her second two. But, as I have mentioned before, thru a child's eye's all that mattered was not that only five teams were entered, but that she received a great trophy for 3rd place. She doesn't feel well, but stuck out waiting for an hour and a half for that trophy, but the smile on her face made it look like it was for 1st place. Thru the eyes of a child, that's why Lord I Keep Praisin' You...