SreeJz's thouGhts

MOVING ON

2013-06-14T02:21:00.000-07:00

Tick tock tik, when the second hand of every clock swifts around doing its karma, we hardly realize that we too are expected to do the same . But hardly that gets into our mind. Blaming time for moving fast we hardly realize there are more than just time that we have to catch up. People are moving faster too. Though we are familiar with the concept of moving on, we hardly accept it open heartedly. The main reason, the emotional quotient that is always clinging on to us. Emotions it’s the good within that brings out evil in us.

The fight between good and evil is what mankind is fanaticizing from its existence. What’s good, what’s evil, the debate is never ending. It’s all in the eyes we see it, no matter what. Happiness is all what matters to human kind and to achieve it, we are ready to trash expectations, broke heart and bomb cities. Happiness, it’s the cruelest word, that’s just dressed up and smiling at us. Tempting us to grab it, our life is a journey, a pursuit of happiness. You get it or not, that’s immaterial. Everyone wants to be happy, everyone wants to smile, trying hard to retain the innocents from which we gracefully built civilizations.

The innocent of life is just washed off, like the water in the shores of beach. Time and again when the waves hit the shore, the sand appears new, shiny and sparkly. So is innocents, it just lasts a few smiles when a baby is born. After each smile, the innocent is washed off. Still we try hard to wear the smile, knowing it all lost. The grace, the divinity, the soul, its essence. Reason, we moved on. But could we have retained if we did not move on. We all know what the answer for that is.

“It’s not who you are deep within, it’s what you to that defines you”

Move on, move forward, and dust the rust off. It’s obvious one gets in-between timeline, jump over them you might able to see a better world that’s waiting, wanting you to see it. But at the end everything is a illusion after all. When you realized that, the innocent smile is back. Back when you never expect it. That’s how things work; expect the worse, everything turns to be better than you wished for.

The first Kiss

2013-01-13T07:10:00.000-08:00

It leads some souls to bind together

Filling every voids of time and space

The symbol of love that make you forget

Kiss is what all it begins

The beauty of lips nerve at risk

When it binds together

It all seems to get better

But all these perceptions change all together

When to get a sight of a mother

Gentle landing her lips on her creation

Like the gentle feathure

The first kiss is all it takes

To make the love blossom in

Even in the deep dark

Or twinkling soul

That’s what all it takes

The gentle kiss a symbol for love forever

Sand dunes of sahara

2013-01-13T07:03:00.001-08:00

THE PAIN OF YESTERDAY, CAN IT BE WASHED AWAY…

BY THE LAUGHTER OF YESTERDAY…

DAY SHINE OR MOON LIGHT ...

WAS IT ALL TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT..

DOES NOT MAKE ANY DIFFERENCE THOUGH…

LIGHTING A DOPE, SEEMED TO GIVE SOME HOPE..

BUT EVERYTHING JUST BURNED AWAY…

MAKING MOST FACES LIKE THE SAND DUNES OF SAHARA..

HEY BEAUTIFUL!

2012-10-19T23:53:00.001-07:00

Having seen a lot of couples who gave got together in a romantic relationship, the question that everyone would like to ask them would be ‘how did it all start?” though some of these stories would not make any sense, still we pretend to listen. But have most of us tried to read between the lies? What makes it exciting for a man and a woman’s first feeling that just holds the relationship for their entire lifetime. Of course when it’s for arranged marriage the story is completely different, but in there too the spark does happen. Some would call it a magical feeling and others prefers to smile as they know it’s more than just a four letter word that could explain the entire unfolding of things that happened to them. All this just don’t happen on its own. It’s the nature that makes it or science as geeks would explain. We all know wind is caused by uneven heating of earth, when the gentle breeze blows and the strands of a girls hair just brushes through her forehead and when she tried move it off; she looks dramatically beautiful for that point of time. The guy who manages to catch a glimpse of it and has no preconceived notion about her, guess what happens, BOOM he falls for her. And all of this has nothing to do with Hodwarts or Voldemort of course.

She wouldn’t have even spoken a word or you even don’t know her at all. But all you know is you have fallen for her. But the best part is even if newton wouldn’t have found gravity, this will happen. Who takes the blame here, of course not the girl, she isn’t that beautiful, nor was the guy he is just cornered. Or was it the sunshine that just shone which made her eyes dazzle for that moment or the rain drops on her lips that confuses him, that was it lust or love that glued two dissimilar pieces of personalizes together for that point of time. “Not all women are beautiful, but most men are blind”, two undeniable facts that’s stands strong amends all fantasies.

May be that’s the reason that LOVE is so close to GOD. Scientists may explain it with loads of reactions, but all you and me can understand is it’s that point of time when our head and heart is at war, and there is no clear winner all this happens. At that very moment when you see that kind of girl, the heart would pump us to say “hey beautiful “. There are people who say it and there are people who don’t. Of course there are different traps waiting for both kind of them, but they are the two kinds of people that make this entire green planet. GREEN, PEACE equals GOD, LOVE. Right hand side equal to left hand side. Hence proved it’s a beautiful world after all.

MESSAGE SENDING FAILED (SHORT STORY)

2012-08-18T10:15:00.001-07:00

“Salman”, the HR called.

‘You can get in for the group discussion round’. She said. This is the final hurdle that I have to par through. I know, I will , but the tension in and around me is twisting and squeezing every drop of blood of my body out as sweat. The pebbles of sweat had covered my entire forehead. Wiping it with my moist handkerchief I said “yes ma’am” and stood on my feet. From that moment on, I thought ,I am own for the rest of my life and marched into the group discussion hall. I have a feeling something was incomplete. When one is in a situation like this everything around him seems to send signals. The right pant pocket was what I had to pay attention to. My phone was buzzing. I had been here only a few hours, and I have turned inhumanly superstitious.

Picking up my mobile right now would not be a great idea I thought so I asked the person nearby, “Where was the rest room? “

‘This way he pointed out’ and I just rushed. I pulled out the mobile from my pocket unlocked it. It was her. 7 missed called. How I ignore all those, I wondered. I could not figure out a convincing reply for myself. I dialed her, wondering what would be the reason. It has been a few days that we had talked well. With the hopes that there is nothing wrong, I place the mobile near my ears to hear her voice. It was her ring tune ‘tujh mein rab dikhta hai’ the song consoled me. Still my heart continued to throttle up to its maximum. Even a small rupture would drain out 5 liters of blood right away. Her voice could have helped me better than ever, but in vain. Looking at the mirror, those times that we spend together just flashed though my head. It was almost like bolts 100meters race; it started and ended in no time. But some crazy voice in my head asked me to calculate the angular velocity if it was a javelin throw that bolt had participated. It was a wakeup call by my conscious to get my ass out of there. Rushing into the group discussion hall I made sure that only my intellectual brain was just working for the next 90 minutes. I just buried the emotional nerve deep enough so that I could dig it up right back after 90 minutes.

‘Thank you all, you may leave the hall’, these mere words were the key to it. I was right back on track. I pulled out my phone and dialed her again. The same song played; waiting for her to pick up the call I boarded the bus to home. Waiting to listen to her voice .All I was left with was disappointments that just echoed all over. Not a single thought of the interview had crossed my mind yet. Our time together and those long nights walk where just flashing by. Grazing through the window, looking at the fast moving surroundings, I just wished if the sorrw and suffering in life too had the same fate.

‘Buzz’ my mobile vibrated. This time it was for a very short while and it died. I knew it was a text. Unlocking the phone it showed ‘1 new message’. I clicked on to open the message. It was from her. The very sight of her text fueled happiness in me.

‘Busy ah!?’

The text did not have a smiley. That wasn’t her at all. Every text she send her had a smiley, after the day I said I could see her face in those smiley. The cool face, wink, sad and angry ones. She always sent me smiley. But there was something wrong.

‘no way bak home J’ I replied.

And continued grazing waiting for her reply. After a while when I knew there was no text from her, I decided to go for it. Before I could start typing her text pop-ed up. Clicking to open the inbox again. The screen just shut off leading to a call. Without any hesitation I picked up.

‘Hello, is this Salman ?’

‘Yes, who’s this?’

‘You just attended an interview with us , right?’

‘yes, what about it.?’

‘Your called letter has been emailed to you. So verify and do the needful at earliest.”

Before I could spill out the words of gratitude, the call was ended. Looking at the mobile screen again there text popped up.

‘I am moving, good bye forever.’

Emergency dial 5, that was the place I put her , right in middle of my phone, right in middle of my life. I hit it hard regretting my decision. The call did not connect as I excepted. My eyes went numb so did my emotions.

I just took the mobile and texted,

‘I don’t know what you were deprived out of this relationship. If you think this is the best for us, too believe in you.’

And presses the send button without much emotion into it. I did not think even I should give a second thought about it.

‘Message sending failed.’

I had no idea why this appeared right now.

Thinking that a person will never enjoy multiple benefits in life. the time was up for something to fail. This time it was my relationship I thought and calmed myself.

My friend besides me looked at me and asked, what the date today. I looked at my watch. It showed March 31^st and I said so.

‘Idiot its April 1^st today, get the off your day dreaming asshole. Again I need to change the date in my phone. ‘he said and moved seats.

I pulled out my mobile. There was her text again.

A wink face, I could literally see her face in that text.

THE END.

A MUSICAL WIZARD - HANS ZIMMER

2012-08-11T07:57:00.001-07:00

Hollywood movies are a fascination for people around the globe for various reasons. But there are only some names that will have special reactions that your brain and heart respond to. Hans Zimmer is one of them. Though he is not an actor whose profound performance makes your heart bleed, nor a director who waits for the state of the art technology so that the audiences get to watch a visual treat on screens. But the very aspect of background score is redefined by this musician, which makes us wonder most of the time is he really a musician or a wizard. The lion king , gladiator , crimson tide , the dark knight trilogy , if you have seen any of these movies, apart from what you have seen on screen the things that your hear and head responds to, is this legends work. He crafts the music in such a way that it’s thrusted into the soul of the movie which creates an emotional bond between the audience and the cinema. Some of his BGM scores make you realize that our ears are indeed connect to brain and brain in turn to the body and soul. Why do I say this, because every cell starts reacting to his work.

I have Read music heals souls, but only some does break the emotional barrier of a person and explore the various terrains of an individual. Sounds comes out of an instrument, but when it’s out of Zimmer’s studio , beware it will mess up our mind and heart to such an extent that you start hating yourself for not listening to it earlier. Play the BGM of dark knight and close your eyes, after a few minutes tears would clod your eye lids waiting to roll down. Zimmer doesn’t deserve an Oscar , but something much more that can’t be tagged on. Even when Hans Zimmer leaves the world, only the tombstone will have the date of his body’s death. The sound of his passion and charismatic music will echo in every mind and those will not just remain traces. There is one sun around which the earth revolves, and there is some music to which soul sinks HANS ZIMMER is one of them. And of course when its Nolan’s movie I don’t have words to describe what my head and heart fells

better

2012-07-12T08:32:00.000-07:00

from when i was a child .. my mom taught me every thing ..

she told me there is god the one above all ..

since then this has going in my mind ..

then why is there all those people suffering ..

without any buffer ...

there is lot of things that needs to be done ..

why is there people so different ..

tall, dark, short ,crook why so different ..

he could have made things even ..

all the world into a single place ..

people talking the same words..

guys and girls looking the same ..

why did nt all that happened ...

why rich why poor .. why is things so strange ..

making all sober ..

may be thats what makes things better ..

thatz what make thing people better ..

making things around get less litter ..

so lets make things better ..

with less litter..

making less of problems around our home..

lets all broom the whole world .. and its time for it ..

so where is the watch .. see the time and lets start off ..

help us.. help yourself .. make this world a better place ..

SIMPLIFED STARDOM- AJITH KUMAR alias Thala

2012-07-11T08:36:00.000-07:00

A 1986 high school dropout, who loves racing takes up two wheeler auto mechanic as a profession; no one his wildest dreams would have thought t that this half bramin, half sindhi kid could be the heart rob superstar of south Indian cinema after decade .though most of these information are by heart for his fans and of course is in Wikipedia page. But in spite of these, what makes him a better deserving super star of this generation than any other actor. Of course when an actor is loved by the people he becomes a ‘star’. But when the fan following becomes a cult, he becomes a superstar deserving the stardom status. Rajinikanth is a doubted super start himself, but some aspects KamalHaasan does outshine him. But still seeing the fan following and the Rajini mania at the box office we all know who’s the most favored among the public. Similarly, seeing the current Tamil cinema’s trend there are lot of stars such as Vijay, Simbu and others but here is some unique aspect that makes Ajith stand out of the crowd.

With attractive looks , impressive acting skills and right choice of movies anyone can make it up to the stardom .but sticking to it at all times can only be done by a few people like Ajith, who in spite of having 14 odd flops in a 20 year long career(1992-2012). If for any actor, than him guess they would have just opted for the vanishing trick. Instead, he opted for levitationtrick, defying the myth of cinema and critics around him. That’s where this magician just outsells others. High school dropout, speed fanatic, superstar and heartthrob of millions. Sometimes I wonder is that the algorithm to super-stardom where, no matters what people love you forever. But not always. Hearing Mr.Ajith Kumar’s message for his fans during vijayawards 2012 which read “look after your parents, god will look after you”. These mere words just showed it’s not the stardom, flesh and bones that built that human being. No matter how big a tree grows, it should always be intact with its roots, same goes for human being too. No matter how huge his movie gets , he still remains intact which keeps in being intimidated. a 40 year old stardom struck, human being , that’s what Ajith Kumar is . In 1971 , his name just meant ‘invincible’, even after 40years he works every day to live up to it. Stardom struck to simple extraordinary sole, that’s what he will always continue to be.

Reading the article everyone would have thought that, the writer is obviously a AJITH fan. That would be wrong cent percent. I admire him, but I am afraid that I will turn into those mad , crazy fans of thala after all.-sreejz

PS: if i could write the entire post just replacing the AJITH's name with someone else, it could be AKSHAY KUMAR, except the par that he loves cooking :)

WHY DEM0CR@CY $UCKS* !

2012-07-06T06:55:00.002-07:00

The most hyped political algorithm, democracy has spread its wings from the land of rising sun to the land of opportunities. The most of the other places just fell it place to follow the same political set up eventually, to keep the house of cards from falling apart, and stay intact. Asking a common man about thee democracy, he would start about the corrupt society and policies that plunger the tax payer’s money. The simple and most straight example of democracy is standing in a QUEUE. Everyone at some point has stood in a queue. The whole pros and cons of democracy can just be illustrated by the mere act of being in a queue. You are standing at last part if the queue waiting and desperately wanting it to move quickly with almost frustration. Some where In the middle you start hearing the mumble of a person about how things around could have been change and be far better than how it actually is. There are the most common people that are found in every long standing queue (the complaint boxes). But of course there are other kinds of people. The mumble attracts other people towards him, not because they share the same thought, but because they are really annoyed and looking for the environment for distraction. This would make the second kind of people. The third variety would be the guys who start conversation mentioning the mumble. Pointing figure how stupid he is to talk this way in a public domain. Suddenly out of the blue a darling jackass pops up from the queue and moves forward just because he’s got someone who he knows. It annoys most of the people, distracts some. Democracy plot spoiler just begins to show his face. If it was any other political system followed (dictatorship) this could be explained. But now, the people just console themselves blaming the fate, as if they know if there exists something out there. But this guy did emotionally rape other out there.

But the best part of the whole scenario, is one could just Ogle search every women other there, who are just not far away from them. The guys just enjoy this part because this is what keeps them emotionally intact. Their thoughts wander in the pursuit of that dream girl , who hardly makes a cameo appearance. If she does, then there is a better fantasy than harry potter being filmed by the trillion hormone gushing into this head, reflecting is from the amount of water off his mouth.

But after all contact matter, If you got that guy, who could do stuff for you. Then you are the man. People just envy you like a pornstar, who they are enjoy looking at and wouldn’t mind a favor from. But never would like to have besides then 24X7. Democracy is a big fuckup ideology that a couple of amateur virgins idolized. They did not know how big bitch it would turn out to be when it grows and becomes an adult. Democracy is like a dildo, in the hands of a straight guy. He knows how to use it , but he prefers not to. If he did just would just end up being an alien. It’s just in the wrong hands and misused, of course I meant democracy ;)

IS THERE A WAY OUT; OF COURSE WHAT DOES IN SHOULD COME OUT. PEOPLE BETTER START THINKING.

hush Crush

2012-04-01T17:02:00.000-07:00

PROLOGUE

Reading about different emotions that evolve in a person as part of my school assignment the strangest one that I could not figure out was “crush”. I did not know why. I did not want to refer a dictionary, I was sure it would not help me. Emotion are better understood when you feel them; I thought. Though I completed the assignment successfully, still there was something incomplete. As time passed, everything around me changed. I was told I am mature enough to understand what’s doing around me. I too accepted most part of it. Shakespeare said world is a stage, and we were mere actors who play our part in it. My stage was being set. The time has come for my entry. Everything changed after that. The way I looked at the world, the way the world looked at me. May be nothing changed, and only I felt that way.

INTRODUCTION

Teenage is supposed to be the best part of everyone’s life. But not mine. I was a couch potato. Sitting at home, spending the most of the time with my mom. I did have friends but I did not spend much time with them except school. Sharing funny stories with my mom were what I preferred. She being a teacher was the best part. She understood everything better. Some time she would even figure out what would the guys have done even without me getting to the ending? We sat together and laughed at the pranks at school. When she cooked I would sit on the kitchen table and talk. This way I learned a lot of cooking. That is the best part, I would do one thing, but end up learning something more that I never expected. Growing older the pranks in school changed. I knew time had come, that some things could not be shared. Sometime I thought, the reason that my mom gets me well is because I was a part of her, at least for a short period of time. What would it be if it was someone else I thought?

THE PLAY BEGAN

College days began, everything there was different. Studying all these years in a boy’s school had its up sides, but there was one disastrous side that I have mentioned earlier. I have never talk to a girl in my entire life. It might be hard to imagine, but it’s true. Other than my mom, and family no single soul. I knew that well, but I did not bother about it at all. The college class room has enough Girls, but I was not interested in them at all. So I did what I did best, bond with the guys. The fun in the last bench was ultimate. Most days some guys did not even have pens to write notes; we would pretend writing with our bare hands.

After a month there was our college day, that was when the fun when to the peak. There was more action “off stage” than “on stage”. We guys did everything to keep the spot light on us. Our faces were all over. That had being a mistake that changed the course of events in college. After that people knew who I was. By this time, I had a huge list of friends in Facebook. I did not know most of them, all I knew was there were from my college. So I added them all. One of the most interesting part was there were some from my own class, whom I have not even spoke to before.

Things started changing when the college started after the brief holidays. (I don’t call it semester holidays; I never gave a dame about exams) The class was not same after that. The part of the room that I have always ignored starts appearing in my radar. I could sense, nothing was ever the same.

But there was this girl who always smiled when I entered the class. I did not know why. I have been noticing this for some time now. She smiled. But did not speak a word. I too did the same. Rather I was afraid to make the first move. Days passed by, the routine went on. I knew I had to make the next step. I had a plan. And it was what I’m always good at “being stupid”. When our professor asked us to describe smile, I just popped up from my seat and shouted “smile the reason for love, and war”. She turned, looked and again smiled. And this time I knew it meant go ahead. The first time I stood in front of the whole class and talked. Stage fright, tension, there was nothing what first timers complained about. For me there was no audience, it was just her. She listened, that was enough. After making my point I took my seat. Guys went gaga over the talk, but I was expecting something else. I wanted her reaction. In vain. She did not respond. But I was happy; around me they thought I was happy about the first talk. In me, I was just thinking about her who was grazing at me for such a long time. That was enough, I though. From that time I made it a point to get in front for any talks. Just to see her, see her smile. Get the feel of that energy.

The episode of smile continued for quite a long time. I was coward enough not to strike a conversation; nor fate had any plans for us to meet up. I don’t blame either. The time hasn’t come yet I thought. What was happening in me was amazing. It was not love, and I was sure about that. Only now I could describe what crush exactly is. Nothing to give , nothing to take. Still I enjoyed it.

Finally came the day , that I was waiting for . “You talk really well” she said. Even her eyes meant the every word that her lips said.

“Not really, I just speak non- sense I replied”. Again was the smile. The smile that I would do anything for. “But I like that non-sense she said.”

“Why don’t you talk anytime? I was expecting you to, but you never did” I asked.

“I play the part of audience well she said” I did not reply a word this time.

Soon every day we would talk something. At least I made a point to say hi every day. But I made it a point not to bid goodbye anytime. We became good friends. She helped me, and I too helped her. Nothing mattered much to me when we were together. But my friends did start noticing the change. I did not have to convince them, they all knew well I would not take stuff beyond friendship. Other gender has never grasped my interest until now. This girl too wasn’t special. But the smile had something mystical.

This went on for a 2 years. The friendship between us was really great. We enjoyed each other’s company. But I made it a point that I at least had a chat with her every day.

Every time I talk to her, I look at her smile, the smile that makes me cheerful for the rest of the day. But things changed soon. Nothing really did, only I thought it that way.

Final year had come up and everything was going the way it should. Most of us were busy with our project .somehow I managed to get her into my team so that I would at least be happy during the last year of stay together. But just one day changed the way everything shaped up for the last 3 years. I happened to participate for a inter college cultural fest. I hadn’t been for anything that huge, until then. When I turn around, there would be beautiful girls all over. It was a awesome feeling. I never thought the world had this number of beautiful girls. More than enjoying the moment I felt proud being amidst them. Each and everyone there was unique, in their talent and looks of course. We guys used code words to point out the besting looking girl who was sticking around.

“Now I understand the difference between limited edition and mass produced cars “one of my friends said.

But there is one problem with most of the guys. When some girl says hi, they just try being nice to her and forget about their friends. This place was not a exception too. Coming to a place with 5 guys and now no one to stick around felt terrible but had no choice; I just moved on, participating in my events. In the debate, I was put against a girl. She wasn’t beautiful than the girls that I just saw. There wasn’t anything special, but there was something really great which I realized only after a few minutes. After the debate was done, we sat together and she said “you were good, you think differently” and then she smiled. The smile was more than just a smile. There was lots of energy and charisma in it. The moment she smiled, it wasn’t just her teeth peeping out her lips it was also the charm out of her soul I forgot everything around me. And I knew she was the reason for it. Everything at that moment made me feel different. She pulled out her cam and asked me to click some pictures of the place around. I did not hesitate. I did not know she had other plans. “Hey come on man, a picture together she said.” I wasn’t happy or sad. I preferred clicking a snap rather than being in it. All I wanted was to see that smile again.

. Whatever I did that hour, I was happy. It was the usual stuff; still everything had a different dimension to it. It was the energy around her that she spread; that made everything seem special. Soon then her friends came, and she had to go. She introduced me to her friends, I did not bother. I wanted to look at her, and make sure that I never forgot her. So that next time something bad happens, I could close my eyes and think of her. That energy would help me recover.

“Bye, enjoy our day”, she said. I did not know if I could.

All the way home and next day to college, it was that smile in my head. The usual days started off and, adjusting with it was initially difficult. I did not even share those moments with other. I knew I would be tagged a fool for not even knowing who she was, even her name. But what about the smile that inspired me to get off my seat and talk in front of others. What about that girl who started all this off this. I totally forgot about her. She was indeed in the very same class, but I foresaw her, each time for all these days. I had to catch up I thought so went to her , before I could say something she started off.

“Where were you”, she asked and her eye brows just shrunk and her forehead just wrinkled in quizzing me.

“I was busy ogling” then I laughed to take the tension off.

Until now I haven’t seen a flower blossom. But I witnessed something much more wonderful than that. The expression in her face just transformed. From the quizzing face to a splendid smile. I was just lost in that smile.

But I missed this, a lot. I thought. But I did not say a word.

Though I liked her a lot, I never wanted her to know about it. I was afraid if she would know. There was something in-between us that would never happen again. There was a great friendship, which I was not ready to compromise. And there was something more that only I just felt, but I rather leave it that way.

Time passed by and we moved on. We all graduated and many people migrated to different places. Facebook was the one thing that kept us glued on you our past. Likes, comments and status updates, all part of facebook as usual was going on and everything was fine. Changing jobs, relationship status and weekend party hosted by my friends were all just adding up my notification bar, I did give everything a miss. My 29^th birthday flipped the coin. She was online and pinged me for wishes. I was desperate to see her and was installing Skype. My crappy internet connection added to the misery.

“I am getting married next month” she said

I did not know what to say. Time has passed. I have changed a lot and I am sure she would have changed too. But I had the same state of mind when I think about her.

“omg , super J treat “was my reply. I was just being that old guy college idiot again.

“So you are still the same idiot J “she said.

I got the feeling that she would be smiling now. And I was overjoyed.

“I will be there, don’t waste an invite for me” I said

Soon she was off, and I as usually was carried off by my work.

Whenever I got time, I was thinking about what to get her for her wedding. Nothing would be enough.

Finally the day came. I was going to see her after a really long time. I did not know what to expect. The only gift that I could come up with was to fill the entire reception with loads of flowers. I just wanted to see her sit amid the flowers. And I did not care what people thought.

I went to the bride and bridegroom. He was smart , but nothing could match her. She was more than happy. The smiled showed. Her energy was all around. I could feel that. Her smile was more beautiful than the blossomed flowers around to her.

“Hope you always smile. It makes everyone around you feel better.” I said and was about to leave.

But she held my hand and introduced me to her husband.

I was just nodding. Sound entering my ears did not reach my brain. With a fake smile I nodded.

“Why aren’t you not marrying she asked” I still smiled.

“Are you in love?”

When she asked that, there were million answers processed ready for the reply. But I did not use those reply.

“I don’t know if I am in love” I replied.

She smiled, and pat me. She would have taken it seriously. But that was the truth. I did not know. I still don’t know.

Its better this way I thought. Just to see the smile, smile that give you the energy to do anything. And I moved on.

I made sure I will follow her anywhere to see that smile.

INDIAN WOMEN v3.0

2012-01-30T06:21:00.000-08:00

As always there was a problem with my mobile which I had bought a few days back. Called up the toll free number, a woman pick up nothing much worked out via the phone so I had to stop by the service center. At the reception desk again there was a woman. Yes of coarse why would not a woman be at the reception I thought for myself, but I did find a small sindoor on a forehead. In a country where women are always outnumbered by men how is that I find women everywhere. She really was good at what she was going, handing more than 3 phones. Beautiful, sexy and smart all in one. I don’t think you could think of any other women with all these combinations, of course she was Indian. Unfortunately married, this is not the first time that I find this happening. Whenever we find the right, it’s always taken.

Indian women have evolved with time, but the evolution is so fast that everything around them seems slow. v1.0- these were the kind of who were even refused the right to speak. They lived their life that would be nothing what we could imagine. Their bounties where limited to kitchen. Comfort and luxury were the words that did not find places in their dictionary. The reason why, one because they were never taught to use the dictionary; two, their life was done just satisfying their family. To make it seem simple, she would be the one who would a sport a fake smile hiding the tears rolling from her eyes. Even she wouldn’t know that she had such a beautiful smile. This lead to the unfolding of the next breed.v2.0 who wanted to do things that the predecessors couldn’t.

v2.0- we all know her. She is just behind you. Right now she might be yelling at you to stop reading this page and get something to eat. Can you see her now? She studied hard, she works harder, she juggles stuff at her best. But you could never call her a clown. She always likes to learn with you to make sure that you would feel happy, when you bring your friends back home. Most boys love her better, hoping some day they would meet someone like her. It’s just a fantasy after all, which ruins his afterlife*. (*life after his mom)

The sindoor in her forehead, the bright eyes, the smile which cheers anyone in the vicinity. I don’t know what more to put into words here, I literally run out of vocabulary now. (I just now called my mom again to take a look at her to see if I could get a few more words, in vain but still I could write more , just seeing her.)Realizing the truth that the world in filled with other kinds of women, I just wandered about to catch up with the v3.0 Indian women.

v3.0- she is no longer a myth. Of course she is out there. Many of you would just see her passing by, and you wouldn’t have noticed. Wondering how would she look like? That is a really hard question to answer. She just fits into everything. From a pair of shorts to kanchipuram silk saree everything looks good on her. The sexy, sassy, smart combo that even McDonald’s fail to offer. Gold is just a metal, and speed is the new sexy. The adrenaline gust is the new fun. Romance, virginity is no longer a taboo to her. Most of us are used to, seeing a sexy model beside a super car. But the women I am talking about would be the one driving it. Unfortunately, she is always amidst controversies. The reason why this happens. Women are getting updated faster than their counterparts. Men fall back and eventually tend to blame them. The issue is really serious when it comes to marriage. It’s like parents try to bring up a girl like Microsoft makes windows 7. But the point when the boy meets girl is when the software is installed into hardware. Most of the time it’s not compatible,(that’s when people tag “it’s complicated”) or the hardware needs a upgrade. With pc its just a matter of money. When it comes to life it’s a different ball game. Life, love are not two different things. When you see both is a single person you tend to fall for her.

Women are always a very important part any man’s life. your mother , sister , granny , aunty, your love and of coarse your friend . I bet there is one of them who makes a difference in your life. No matter what category she falls into, there is something special about her . Love them for who they are. Otherwise things would change. There is no wonder women, every women is THE WOMEN*(*conditions apply).

WHAT'S LOVE & WHAT'S NOT

2012-01-01T04:26:00.000-08:00

To start of writing this I just tried googling “what is love” the wiki link said “Love is an emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. Love is also a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion, and affection; and "the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another” people is love might accept this, and people out of love might not. Love to me is more than what a combination of 26 alphabets can define it.

Love and electricity has something is common. It’s around you ; you might not care about it at all, but when it’s not there you feel the pain , and it’s real hard to live without it. The word as such is marketed well so that people don’t understand what it really means. Love for most of us just reminds of valentine’s day, and that is the extent that the external factors have influenced it.

RELATIONSHIP STATUS –

With the rising popularity of facebook and the number of people using it , the relationship status update has become a huge issue. We all must have seen a 11year old guy or a girl updating from “single “to in a relationship” and then goes 100’s of comments and “like”. The fact is it’s a crush with mutual consent. If both people agree that they like each other do not make it love in any way. And another scenario is a “single” person is regarded looser in many people’s dictionary. Sometime the person himself feels so. Twitter is also no far behind when it comes to relationship quiries. #whatmenwant was one of the trending topics that I tries to track, and my initial statement about girls not thinking about relationship was proved wrong in here. But a small change here was, most girls here were dumped, back being single or caught their BF’s caught cheating. The tweets were more of the same “why do men always need photo’s of girls who they meets online” and various other stuff that guys generally don’t care about. More than the question some of the replies were remarkable. One it goes “we can’t see your brains so we ask for a pic”. Remarkable isn’t it.

MORE MONEY MORE HONEY-

The changing economy of a country too has to do something to this. With more money pouring into pretty young people’s pockets they try to spend it in all way they could. Time passes, they get bored. People get noticed with the expensive things hanging around them. Usually this is mistaken for crush which eventually unfolds to love and breakup. And these are the kind of people think “more money more honey”. Money could be a criteria some get to meet some great people but they only holding as a single criteria would be a point of great debate always. A true friend will never look into your pockets before looking at you which some would realize. So winning over love with money would be a handy plan, which is not worth it. But I don’t blame guys for this want to know why, just ask the girl beside you what would she be looking in a guy. she would think for a minute , or even she might not and she would go , “ handsome , god job ( basically with enough money to buy her whatever she points to) then you hear is BLA BLA BLA…… ” so next time girls when you see a guy showing off his branded stuff don’t get annoyed someone among you have changed him so.

Everyone likes being loved, and that is an indisputable fact. It feels good, when you live around such kind of people. It’s not about who it is , and how one is related to you. Some call it “liking” which is a pretty much a safe word to coin when your are among your friends who keep picking on you with some girl’s or boy’s name. Pretty much by now you would be realizing that the article is titled “what’s love and what’s not”, franking no one knows the answer for what love is. But the later question has millions of answers. Yes, don’t you know what love isn’t? It’s not materialistic. It’s more that what anyone could explain with the combination of 26 English alphabets, it’s just much more than that. God has sent us to do something in this world, but one sure thing that we wants everyone to do is to be loving and be loved in every way we could. So what would your answer be for the people who hate you, that’s your take. After all you could decide your life better than anyone could. No one knows your life better than you did.

BEAUTIFUL YOU !

2011-10-13T00:05:00.000-07:00

I did not know what this word meant before a few days. I just thought that “beauty” is all about what is in the face that makes one feel good. I generally hated this. As some us say beauty is in the inner self that most people fail to see. I don’t agree with this too.Mainly because most of us cant see what is in somebody. We even fail to see what’s around us, how could we see what’s in . “It not what you see, it’s something you feel after you see” that is what beauty is all about. To put it in simple terms some time ago we all were close to nature than we are now. There was nature to greet us every morning birds to chirp the greeting. That’s beautiful, and the whole day would be just perfect.

But now there is nothing like it. We live amidst concrete jungles. So all we are left is with our fellow people. Men look at women and women too look at women. It’s kinda strange but truth that most of us don’t agree to. You look at a bright beautiful smile, during the early day, more than the sun; your day would shine better. That’s what a really beauty is all about. Yes, of course there might be ton of other reason that many would point out but think deep down, it’s the real beauty that inspires you. It does not mean that one got to wear tons of makeup to look beautiful it’s just enough if you could have the right smile. The smile that will make everyone around you smile and light the candle of happiness. And one more thing do appreciate all the people who do that. this is for the one who inspired me to think what beauty is all about , and now I understand why we call “nature – she”.

WHAT DOES SUPPORTING ANNA HAZARE MEAN?

2011-08-29T05:59:00.000-07:00

Every country in this world has gone through a phase during which it has been revolutionized by people. Some effective and some not much. But revolution was a part of the early world. Seeing the path of evolution of revolution, India most of it happened during the struggle of independence. Thanks to the British to unite the whole country which was torn apart by different means in to a single power in the name of freedom.

But the sad thing is still the basic ideologies and customs that remained to check the development of the country still exist in some parts of India still today. But for a country whose median age is 26 there is nothing that is really out of reach.

Right now the ripples in the country are created by a single person. ANNA HAZARE. No one knows what made him stand up corruption now. A 74 year old middle class Indian is able to communicate better to the masses in India than any other person in this country. It takes a really great deal of work to get into the place where Anna is right now;in the hearts of the millions of Indians. But there is a lot of things that remains undercover that people are failing to understand. Where was Anna all these days? Yes,i did google him. I was unaware until his ( Anna Hazare ) his struggle has got his names even into Wikipedia. But corruption is not a problem that our country is suffering from yesterday or day before.

It has been prominent factor since a long time now. Mudhra Scandle of 1.2 crores in 1957 started of the legacy of scams in the country which now is grown to CWG scam and 2G scams that is worth more ever this country has lost. ANNA was alive then and now . So for a Gandhian who is a Padma awardee twice much know all this much more than the people of country better as he has lived during all these times.

What could not happen then, why is it happening now. This clearly highlight the presence of some driving force that is working in the background. Looking at the the world right now, there is revolution happening in various parts of the world. Egypt, Yemen, Sudan, Libya , Syria . The latest book of F. William Engdahl explains in detail about the reasons why revolution is happening in the world right now , which is really aimed at throwing the existing ruling power than the root cause.

But the exact point is if corruption is the reason why the people are concern around the globe then why is nt the world’s most corrupt countries facing and turmoil right now. looking at the list of corrupt countries

COUNTRY	SCORE
Somalia	1.1
Myanmar	1.4
Afghanistan	1.4
Iraq	1.5
Uzbekistan	1.6
Turkmenistan	1.6
Sudan	1.6
Chad	1.7
Burundi	1.8
Equatorial Guinea	1.9



Does this mean that the people of these countries cannot stand up against the injustice done to them. Or is it that only the names people of the nations that I mentioned above could be easily provoked. Could it be any one of these reason or both. If people could read in-between the lines, there is something more that counts. People’s noncooperation to the government is being instigated social media, Facebook and Twitter. There are reports that pentagon has been trailing to carry out such training as F.William Engdahl mentioned in one of his interview. The youth of India is now misleading as always. All of them join the movement just because they think the movement is going to throw away corruption from the country. The fact that I have to put forward is “is corruption a problem that could be fought from the top- bottom”. Will throwing away the corrupt minister solve all the underlying problems that the country is facing? Even if identifying the corrupt what is the judiciary action against them going to be? Suresh Kalmadi and A. Raja are culprits and what has been action against them. Punishment won’t work in this case. Why are not the youth of India thinking about all this? As a person I don’t know really if Anna hazare is a good person, or does he have a political motive in his agitations against the government. But I do know that supporting him is not going to solve the issue of this country , rather it is just making things complex. As of today's economy , corrupt or not our nation is growing at a tremendous rate. Why not we concentrate in that. Bad will always remain. Why not make the existing good, better so that it outshines the bad better so that as time goes by it vanishes.There are better causes for people to protest. Protest for cleaner roads and water. Protest for good food and education for our fellow brothers and sisters. Have a candle march for the inequalities and injustice done to you on the basis of caste and religion. I know all this wont happen. Going this is a politician’s job. And no one wants to be that. or at least talk to people around you , make them think about what they do. The least thing you could do. Please don’t disturb the country politically and create more problems. We already Have enough.
The nHethe

"GREEN SIGNAL"

2011-05-03T20:14:00.000-07:00

The worse thing that happens to every metro is its TRAFFIC. Everybody is desperate to get through. No matter, if you are in hurry or not everyone wants to get through the signal. All this of course happens when the road is full. Horns honking and vehicles roaring. It’s just a very disturbing sight. What if the whole scenario is different. Not a vehicle on road. Streets empty, morning clear sky.

When nothing just fills the road, even a cool breeze I start from my home to college. Usually I take the ride while my dad prefers to take the pillion seat in the not so power full 90cc scooter, everything seems prefect. Empty morning road, sleepy pillion rider, a 90cc scooter, and a 19-year rider. The story is scripted. Yes, I try hard to hit the top speed. Hard, and really harder. I do not feel pit on the scooter as it’s loaded with loads that it is not comfortable handling. Yes, I feel it. The scooter sayings “come on its enough for today”.

Even though there is no much traffic at that point of the day, there is a lot of traffic signal though. Moreover, I make it a point to look at them even I don’t bother to follow them. That decides the rest of my day. It is something like astrology column that everyone sees in the newspapers. The “traffic signal is mine”. I really look for “green signal”. It really has a great deal with the rest of my day. The boost of confident it pours into me is tremendous. The feeling is just amazing. It is not like I am rushing somewhere important, and I desperately need the traffic light to turn green. It’s a completely different feeling. It’s like God just talking to me. “Yes son it’s your day today”.

I just can understand, what’s in your mind right now. “What if it’s Red”. Did not I get you right! If its “Red”, I say to myself, “ it just going to turn green any way.” Nothing is permanent, everything has to change on. But still I want it green, though I know it’s going to change soon.

INDIAN PERSPECTIVE

2011-04-14T22:53:00.000-07:00

India, the place you hardly see Indians. This might quiz one around for a new minutes but it’s a fact. Though the river Indus is the primary reason the country is called today but the major part of the river flows in Pakistan (Pakistan (93%), India (5%), China (2%)) still we Indians and other call our country India. The country is always know for its rich cultural heritage, that was what attracted people from whole world to India. Adding the rich wealth of the country. All these aspects can be rooted any where is the world in the course of time, but the one thing that can’t be changed is the very Indian perspective.

The people of India are what make the place unique. Though times have changed, much aspect still remains the same. People’s environment has changed with time, now no one is afraid of taking photographs ( there was a belief that taking photographs will reduce one life expectancy ) the literacy rate is rocketing high year after year . Lot of MNC are making their way to India the cash on better profits. They also have access to the latest technology in the world. But has all this changed the country from thinking in a better way. The answer is NO UNFORTUNATELY.

India hasn’t changed much. It’s like the same old stuff is refurbished to look new and excite people around it. That’s what is happening with my country. No one really cares about what is happening around him. There is a basic algorithm of life that most of the Indian follow. {MAN MARRY WOMAN}{BOY/GIRL BORN}{SEND HIM/HER TO THE BEST SCHOOL POSSIBLE}{GET HIM TO THE BEST COLLEGE IN A COURSE PROBABLY ENGINEERING OR MEDICINE OR MBA}{ MARY HIM}{ MAKE HIM FOLLOW THE SAME ALGORITHM} people who just don’t follow this algorithm becomes a noted personality in this country.

It’s usually a hard call to say if this is superimposed on to the nexgen or it’s a decision that happens on its own. Go ask anyone around you about it, they call it “fate” or “destiny”. Statistics say India has the largest pool of engineers and doctors. If that is the case then each and every street should have had a clinic to treat the ill and India should have had the best possible structures in the world. This country still does not have a reputed brand that the world market can accept and be happy about. Adding to the misery is a whole lot of other problems from politics.

Some common sigh that you see in India:

1. Lots of beggars in public and the use mobile phones.

2. There is a whole lot of waste/rubbish outside the waste bin.

3. Cutting down educations funds to give price money(has happened and still happening to pay cricket players mostly)

4. Everyone can afford a bike but they complain about paying for a helmet

5. Love watching commercial cinema and complain about not winning an Oscar

6. Hero worship in everything, from cinema, politics to cricket player.

1. 7. Most women are treated as toys

Personally most of ,this generation of my country knows all this is going around them. But they ignore it. Some don’t care about it. Still some follow the algorithm whole heartedly am just trying my part. Keep remanding others about the algorithm. Indians don’t need a makeover because they already have, it’s their perspective that needs a makeover desperately or else we will still remain what we were and what we are and not raise up t what we ought to.

ISLAM - JUST ANOTHER RELIGION

2011-04-12T19:34:00.000-07:00

Every person in this world has an identity. Identity to find himself from the rest of others, lots of other things also add up, country, parents name and many other junk that most of us are not bothered about. But the recent unfolding of things has bought in a new perspective. Religion matters these days, and it rather matters most when one is Muslim.

The 9/11 attack has had a devastating effect on the whole planet. Dreams and destiny of millions of people shattered. Their families were abandoned. “Terrorist attack” was the tag given for it, but inhuman events unfolded after that. Muslims around are blamed for any attacks. Berlin or Baghdad the first media attention goes searching around whom to blame. The slightest doubt arises if it was Mujahideen , round the globe every person whose got”Mohammed” or “khan” in his surname is forced to the darkest time.

Generations has passed, people have changed. Everything around us has evolved. But still the “religion factor “has been clogging around behind us for a really long time now. In a country like India, where 1 OUT OF EVERY 6 PERSON IS A MUSLIM, it’s a difficult time for Muslims to keep the mind off. When people of different sect live together and when a particular group of people are blamed for the unrest in peace naturally it will lead to worsen the scene. Hindus have nothing against Islam; as a matter of fact do any other religion that exists in this world. Whatever is happening is a political gimmick. In World largest democracy this is one of the trump cards, no matter what, people’s mind shouldn’t be stable. No one should reach the conclusion, what is right and what is wrong. Though we all know all this still the question remains, the answer to which our hearts can answer but most of our brains won’t, “John, Kumar can pass thorough the security check easily but a Khan, Mohammed will have a tough time.”

Islam is just another religion is this world. It also propagates the same peace, love and harmony to the world as every religion does. Doubt me learn Arabic and read the Quran, you will know it for yourself.

Dedicated to all my Muslim friends

Who is Anna Hazare?

2011-04-11T05:34:00.000-07:00

1Who is Anna Hazare.?

An ex-army man. Fought 1965 Indo-Pak War

2. What's so special about him?
He built a village Ralegaon Siddhi in Ahamad Nagar district, Maharashtra

3. So what?
This village is a self-sustained model village. Energy is produced in the village itself from solar power, biofuel and wind mills.
In 1975, it used to be a poverty clad village. Now it is one of the richest village in India. It has become a model for self-sustained, eco-friendly & harmonic village.

4. Ok,...?
This guy, Anna Hazare was awarded Padma Bhushan and is a known figure for his social activities.

5. Really, what is he fighting for?
He is supporting a cause, the amendment of a law to curb corruption in India.

6. How that can be possible?
He is advocating for a Bil, The Lok Pal Bill (The Citizen Ombudsman Bill), that will form an autonomous authority who will make politicians (ministers), beurocrats (IAS/IPS) accountable for their deeds.

8. It's an entirely new thing right..?
In 1972, the bill was proposed by then Law minister Mr. Shanti Bhushan. Since then it has been neglected by the politicians and some are trying to change the bill to suit thier theft (corruption).

7. Oh.. He is going on a hunger strike for that whole thing of passing a Bill ! How can that be possible in such a short span of time?
The first thing he is asking for is: the government should come forward and announce that the bill is going to be passed.
Next, they make a joint committee to DRAFT the LOK PAL BILL. 50% goverment participation and 50% public participation. Because you cant trust the government entirely for making such a bill which does not suit them.

8. Fine, What will happen when this bill is passed?
A LokPal will be appointed at the centre. He will have an autonomous charge, say like the Election Commission of India. In each and every state, Lokayukta will be appointed. The job is to bring all alleged party to trial in case of corruptions within 1 year. Within 2 years, the guilty will be punished. Not like, Bofors scam or Bhopal Gas Tragedy case, that has been going for last 25 years without any result.

9. Is he alone? Whoelse is there in the fight with Anna Hazare?
Baba Ramdev, Ex. IPS Kiran Bedi, Social Activist Swami Agnivesh, RTI activist Arvind Kejriwal and many more.
Prominent personalities like Aamir Khan is supporting his cause.

10. Ok, got it. What can I do?
At least we can spread the message. How?
Putting status message, links, video, changing profile pics.
At least we can support Anna Hazare and the cause for uprooting corruption from India.
At least we can hope that his Hunger Strike does not go in vain.
At least we can pray for his good health

DEMOCRATIC INDIA STILLS A DREAM …

2011-04-10T01:12:00.001-07:00

Right from the existence of India from a 500 odd princely states, with the dreams of various people to make India the biggest democratic country has always been a mission impossible. If 1947 it was Nehru , in 2011 its Sonia. But still the surname remains the same. Does this 1.21 billion population need the same family to set the law in the lok sabha (people’s house) where there are hardly any people to represent the core needs and feelings of Indian public.

As early from our countries independence there has not been much changes in the way the political system has shaped up. No matter who the leader is everyone does talk about the contribution that the young blood can offer this country. But why isn’t there being any contribution still remains a question that no one has ever thought. If one go quizzing around about this “irresponsibility, selfishness, money minded” would be the answers that the majority would have spelled out. The power house of the country is cornered and ignored. One who is interested in politics will either be a politician’s son or who’s got a big bank denomination account. Young people who seem to be interested in politics are of fen being used by politicians as a use and throw material.

Democracy is losing its shape right from its existence. No matter where it is it’s just a mask whose underneath remains a the ugly face of corruption, dictatorship, and hierarchy. Politics is just another business where personnel enmity takes the front seat than any other agenda. Democracy is still a dream, and that dream can be reality with young and intelligent.

GOOD bye to CRY !

2011-04-02T23:16:00.000-07:00

NIGHT IS GONE , AND THE SUN IN BORN
I AM AWAY ALL ALONE ..
PEOPLE SEE AND LOOK AT ME..
BUT OUR EYES JUST NEVER MEET …
NOT SOME BRAD, BUT STILL I AM SAD
DON’T KNOW WHY IT HAPPENS TO ME..
STILL I AM SHY , SO I WALK AND LIE …
LOOK AT SOME, THEY SAY BYE..
TEARS ARE READY TO JUST ROLL BY…
CANT TALK WHEN PEOPLE MOCK..
LIPS JUST DRY , EYES TRY TO CRY ..
WANTING TO JUST FLY
FAR AWAY WHERE NO ONE CAN SPY..

FINDING "I" IN ME

2010-07-03T21:16:00.001-07:00

There are lots of people around us, lots of things which we see and listen to . but often without our knowledge things around us get really deep into us down to our subconscious . some might be good , some bad . but whatever happens is without our complete knowledge. Everyone around us wants us to become someone else which we are not really are . this starts right from the childhood , as early as we were 5 ;”be quite like him “.” Don’t be naughty like them”. No matter what , no one can really escape from the comparison factor and everyone some time or other much have experienced it . That how humans have grown and stand tall amidst all other species knows. but whenever someone asks me what I was doing , I really every time wanted to say “being myself “,but i could nt till now.

One of the worlds really difficult task is being oneself. There are lots of things around us that really influence us, right from our friends and our only parents .people really tend to get inclined towards people who they really love and look up to . That’s also the reason why many people take up the profession that their parents so or head their family business. But that’s not all .there are special ingredient in every one that makes one self stand out in a crowd. Even though there might be people who have same interest but it’s not necessary that all of them look into it at the same dimension. The environment around and surrounding us has a lot of role in making a person someone else, someone who he/she really isn’t.

Right from the day a person is born, no one really is given a choice, the options that he/she is really looking forward to. And this is the very mistake that many of us are making and still fail to correct.everyone feed others with thoughts and no one is really allowed to think. Not only polar bears and other mammals, even human also need to hibernate. Their isolation from normal world will make people think about them and others, what they really want which would make them work towards it. It’s good that we draw inspiration from other, but we ought to make sure that we should inspire (live) our own life, realize what you really want, not what others want from you.

What you really want, and working for it would not make you tired or bored. No one will regret their life if they have really found oneself, even if he would be small or big. Being oneself is the key to unlock oneself and it very much is within our self.

Die 4 a Dime or live for a Diamond

2010-05-25T10:47:00.000-07:00

I try doing some thg different every time

Not for the sake of earning a dime

I do thing what i feel happy for ..

From taking nap to clicking snaps

Life is what u thk what it is ..

And not what others tell u how it is

I pity ppl who try to make a scrach ...

And end up living life in a sack ..

Frm the day we step in2 this world v start learning

Frm talking, walking and baking

But just dont do it for the sake of faking

No matter , if u make a diamond or dime

Just dont mime , it wont make u better than any sam

The road is always here , u just have to choose ur mode..

It does not matter where u go ...

I am not happy when thgs happen right ..

Try to keep ur heads high and not bow ..

Any one can take my hand ..

I would make u a happy lad ...

hello ... i am all alone (will continue..)

2010-05-20T11:48:00.001-07:00

even thought i am standing in the crowd ..
still i walk alone but not like a coward ....
and i am not sad .. nor 'am mad ..
without getting hurt ...
at times i streach my hand ...
when i am pushed into sand ...
tears gush down my cheeks when i see no one 2 care ..
some how i get out ..
and continue without backing out ...
i will walk any road , like a toad ..
through all my mood ..
searching for my gold ......

why do u cry ...(will continue..)

2010-05-20T11:44:00.001-07:00

every one cry ..
not really many know why ..
some say itz pain ..
so is there any gain ..
then why do you lie ..
i cant hear it.. but still i knw u bear it ..
i cant stop u frm crying ..
but can frm dying ..
nxt time dont b nay ...
then every thg will b at bay ...
and i will never say bye ..

RESULTS ARE OUT AM I IN OR OUT

2010-05-18T11:37:00.001-07:00

Its mid night now ...
And the clock is ticking low...
Time seems not to tick ...
I still sit back clicking ...
Watching the time .....
Tomorrow my results out
It tell me whether i am in or out
I am too tensed ...
And i feel no sense...
I call me friend...
To find whether he is bend ...

Lol ! he to feels the same
Dame its so lame ..
I ask me self whtz to worry ..
There r only reason to merry ...
Still some where in me i still fear ...
Hopefully the god hear ...