Primadonna Much?

Please be good, self.

2013-03-04T19:04:00.000+08:00

I feel like I am at the lowest point in my life. Life throwing me rock and stones, but I didn't fight back. I just sit there and crying in pain and feeling sorry for myself.

I should get up and run. Or get up and scream and throwing stones back at life. But I didn't.

I just coil up in my own shell and I don't want to think of anything.

I know it is not a wise thing to do. No one can save me up unless myself. No one.

I don't know whether to give up or try harder. It could be because I never try enough.

Excuse me for being pessimist and negative today. I feel loss. I don't have the courage and can't find the reason.

Take Care.

You so Handsome!

2013-03-01T19:58:00.001+08:00

"How can you fall in love with me? I mean, we are totally opposite. We have different personality. But why do you love me at the first place?"

"Because you're irresistible."

It was last night conversation with him. Happy birthday my darling! You're 25 and awesome! =D

You make my laugh a little louder,

You make my smile a little brighter,

And you make my life a little better.

ILYSM! Muach!

P/s - Sorry for not being able to celebrate your birthday today. Beside, this year's February do not have the 29th! :P I promise we'll celebrate once we meet up, ok, love?

Schmile

2013-02-27T15:53:00.004+08:00

When disappointment fills your heart

And doubt invades your mind,

Count your many blessings

And hopefully, you’ll find

That even when your heart aches,

God’s hand is on your life;

He walks with you in good times,

He carries you through strife.

I know this time is trying

And I’ll pray for you today,

But I hope you will remember

That God can make a way

I am not sure who wrote this poem. This my favourite poem whenever I was down. The first time I read this when I was 16, I bought the poem poster in Popular bookstore. Until now, the poem seem applicable. Love, xoxo

A little note.....

2013-02-26T12:29:00.001+08:00

It's been tough in the beginning of the week. My monday was at the 'bluest' where someone provoking me, received speed trap police summon (the first ever since I drive Jenny 2 years ago), received insurance lapse payment (my agent said it was not lapse earlier before), sudden flu and heard the rumors of my manager is resigning.

And today, I cannot do my work due to network problem and it only happen at my work station. I cannot access to my email, system and internet (when I wrote this, I am at extra PC but have no connection to system either, only internet, boohoo). Everyone else have no problem with their network, PC, except me. Sedih la rasa.

Despite the 'mild' sadness and uncomfortable situation, I believe God is up to something. Something beautiful, InshaAllah.

Lucky I have the best support system ever. Thank you love and family. And thank you Allah.

xxx

Coffee in USA and Tea in London

2013-02-22T22:33:00.001+08:00

Coffee or Tea?

I love coffee. But I love tea too. Tea is my first love and my favorite is peppermint tea. Until I get to know coffee. Coffee had made me swept away. I am now addicted to it. Bad coffee!

I love premium coffee. And of course I love premium tea too. Because whenever I enjoy premium tea, I feel like I am having afternoon tea with the Queen of England at the Buckingham Palace, London. I will wear that well-tailored navy blue dress with a big hat.

I was almost meet the Queen when I was 5 years old. Haha.

What am I looking at? Checkin' them boys? (I am kidding!)

I remember choosing specifically this blue-dress-queen over others when my mum said pick only one queen to take picture with.

But when I enjoy premium coffee, I feel like I am living the American dream, having a laid back lifestyle. In Hollywood or New York city, the place where dream are made off.

I was 9 and I don't understand Hollywood during that time.

At Disneyland, LA.

Aww... What a happy kid I have been. I wonder if I can I provide the same to my kids. InshaAllah. Thanks mum and dad for all the love you showered us.

The reality is I am here. At home. By drinking coffee or tea, my imagination will take me away to those places. The point is I love. Coffee. And. Tea. Don't make me choose!

P/s - My first intention is to talk about the goodness of coffee. Then I realized I love tea too. It wont be fair to tea if I had talk about coffee! Then suddenly, I remember travelling overseas during my kids day. Because tea remind me of royal london and coffee is like chasing American dream. And I terasa rajin pulak nak scan gambar. Heh.

Goodnight love!

Muach.

Why I love you?

2013-02-20T10:54:00.001+08:00

The girl who understands just how much she is wanted is a girl who can be fully confident-empowered to make every decision a wise one, because she knows her decisions matter. A girl who knows that she is priceless, is a girl who will never settle for anything short of the best from the one who loves her the most. A girl who is sure that she is cherished and adored is a girl who no longer worries about herself; her focus is on sharing this radical love with all those she comes in contact with. You can be that girl.

Unknown quotes

ILY. I really do. Thank you for all these years, for reminding me not to be afraid and who always be shining guide. ILY.

Love,
Me.

Dinner Date

2013-02-17T20:33:00.001+08:00

Hello!

Monday is coming and it is time to get serious. I had enjoy last week since the traffic is clear and my boss is not around and I had been playful. Tomorrow will be back to normal. Boo-hoo!

Anyway, I had enjoy my weekend. Had a nice dinner with my besties at Chilis. So far, I think Chilis had the best steak compare to TGI and Victoria Station. Tony Roma's will be next on the list. ;P

I am thankful for having awesome friends around me and this particular sweetheart of mine is just my favorite! I love her very much and she really remind me of Fazura. Beautiful and kind. Thanks Keyra for the birthday treat!

Not to forget my other besties, Kamalia and Ainor for joining the dinner. Love both of you too. ;)

Medium raw. I prefer medium well. I am sure my partner will love this one the most.

10 years of friendship....and counting! Hugs!

Aww.. Looks who's got the birthday kiss!

Stolen from her instagram. *wink*

Ok people. Have a nice week ahead. Assalamualaikum!

Random Questions

2013-02-15T16:07:00.002+08:00

Dah lama tak buat jawab random question macam ni. Dah takde siapa nak interview kita ni kan....., so kita interview jelah diri sendiri. Ok?

What is your favorite cereal?
Koko Crunch & Froot Loop

What kind/brand of deodorant do you use?
Spray type - Nivea. I prefer nivea than rexona.

What is your favorite mythical creature?
Fairies! Do I need to explain more? :P

How do you eat your eggs?
With hot nasi putih plus kicap. Sedap giler kot. Haha.

What would you do if you were the opposite sex for a day?
Wooing the girl! I just wanted to know how does it feel and I want to see the girl's reaction.

What is the nerdiest thing you do in your spare time?
Googling about ancient/country/inventor history and read them and I'll be like "aww", "really", "wow" and forget about what I read after the next 10 minutes!

Do you face the showerhead or away from it while showering?
Face away. Only after the final part of showering, I will face the showerhead. Entah kenapa begitu. It's like a shower routine.

What is the oldest thing in your refrigerator?
Ermm.... Not sure. Hehe.

What is your favorite breed of cat?
All cats are cute. Alhough persian cat are adorable, but kucing kampung had it own charm.

How are your survival skills?
InshaAllah ok. I always precautious when I am alone - driving, at home, flying, swimming, etc. I always imagine what the worst could happen and plan the emergency exit/action in mind by looking things surround me.

Do you prefer chips or cakes?
Oooh, tough! Chips is something that I crave for but cakes always makes me happy!

Can you play any instruments?
Sadly no.

What is the most overrated exercise in your opinion?
Pilates? Or it is because I found it sexy but I dont have the chance to try it.

Do you prefer waffles or pancakes?
Waffles! I can enjot it anytime. Pancake is more to breakfast to me.

What is the grossest thing you've ever eaten?
Non fresh seafood like mussels, clamp, fish. Erghh!

Do you prefer breakfast or dinner?
Breakfast definately! I really enjoy the feeling of the first meal I eat after waking up with sunshine and eating with loved one. Heaven!

xoxo

Keep Calm

2013-02-14T11:47:00.002+08:00

Wise men, when in doubt whether to speak or to keep quiet, give themselves the benefit of the doubt, and remain silent.

Napeleon Hill

Birthday

2013-02-13T11:28:00.000+08:00

Assalam and hello good people!

Alhamdullilah. I feel blessed and thankful for this life. My chinese new year holiday was superb and today is my birthday!

Happy Birthday 26th Nazurah! Tak salah kan nak wish diri sendiri. ;P

The family had celebrate my birthday earlier before. Thank you to my sisters, aunties and especially my mum that make it happen. Love you the most!

I just feel overwhelmed by the wishes from friends and family. Thank you so much. :,)

I am outta word to say. May Allah bless us all. I love you people! Muach!

P/s - Thank you to you too love. You know who you are. :)

I am a Happy Queen!

2013-02-08T09:05:00.002+08:00

Sugar Rush

2013-02-05T08:28:00.000+08:00

Hello! Quick update.

1. Last weekend was super awesome. Got to to hang out with my favourite besties from school, attend one of my friend's wedding and watching movies with my buddies.

2. Had a good time with my mum and siblings too! We went for a little window shopping.

3. My monday at its best because my very first project here had been approved by the big boss. Phew~

4. I am kinda okay with the traffic nowadays. Traffic jammed is something I can handle. Haha.

5. Mood diet ke laut! Need to be on track again. Lately, my company keep on organizing makan-makan event, officially or non officially.

6. I met a nice girl as my insurance agent. I decided to switch my agent to her just because I feel connected from the first time we met. Aww...

7. I love my besties so much.

8. And ofcourse, I love my family the most!

Okay. See you later alligator!

Close to you

2013-02-02T12:09:00.001+08:00

Sometime I feel it is impossible
But most of the time I feel it is possible
Sometime I feel mad because of the distance
While most of the time I feel the patient resistance

I am happy on my own
But I am happier with you
You're like ice cream on cone
The best dessert for anyhoo

You're like a shining glitter
You're always there when I'm bitter
You're like a comfort shoes
Protecting me from wounds

I miss you. I really do.

xxx

Differences Should Not Be Bitter

2013-01-29T21:26:00.002+08:00

The difference between you and me
It's not experience
Or knowledge
The difference between you and me
Is just a little something
Call 'attitude'

You can be pessimist
Or negative
You can be whatever you want
But it wont affect me

You can hate me
Or dislike me
I will treat you equally
The same like before

The difference between you and me
It's not age
Or education level
The difference between you and me
I am just as awesome
And oh... you're not?

*Sorry if I sound so full of myself. It just some random thing happen to me. And this is definitely not about family, my loved one and my close friends. Because those people are awesome!

Muach!

Goodnight!

Angel Gold

2013-01-28T19:07:00.001+08:00

Hello!

Happy end-of-short-holiday. My search for perfect perfume is finally end. And the winner is ....... Victoria's Secret perfume, Angel Gold! My first choice is actually Versace, Bright Crystal but I end up buying VS. Well, maybe because VS is slightly cheaper where I can get additional lotion with the price of versace. Hehe.

I am a happy girl now! Ok. Secondly, mom treat us Seoul Garden for lunch. It is actually advance birthday present for me. A little too early? I know! But this is the only time that the whole family is here since Nedi has to go back to UTM next week.

Mum also brought me advance birthday present, which is kain lace. A beautiful one. :) Thanks mama.

I had a wonderful weekend. Hope yours too. Back to reality, tomorrow will. :) Ok. Assalammualaikum!

Slow Down In Space Dementia

2013-01-22T19:52:00.001+08:00

Ok. This will be a super-serious-melancholic post.

I feel like the world is spinning so fast. I want this. I want that. The desire burning until I feel a headache. Yes. I can be crazy like that sometime.

Slow down. Take a deep breath.

I don't know why, but today I feel missing something, but nothing in specific. I feel like I miss everyone that had touched my heart throughout my whole life, from year to year. I feel floating in my own timeline dimension, wondering what's next, reminiscing the past and enjoying the present moment.

I need a grip. To make me stay on the ground. I did found the inner peace inside of me but usually it wont stay for long. It always come back wandering in that time dimension of mine.

I guess I just have too much estrogen.

Well, sometime I wish I am a man who ride that sexy superbike while others stuck in traffic jammed. Ok. (Yang ni memang random. Takde kena mengena dengan post di atas.)

Have a nice evening.

source

Doa Rajin Solat

2013-01-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

Hello!

It's been awhile! I've started being busy again with new work and stuff. My play time for fmsphotoaday pun dah terbuat since I tak sempat nak focus and all that. But, I did post a few in my instagram. ;)

Anyway, I nak share something interesting (at least to me) on doa for prayers. I've got this from my friend's FB and he shared a story of a woman giving on tips on how to make your children pray on their own. She practice the doa since before she were married and her children now did their prayer on their own without reminders and quarrel.

I am on stage on improving my relationship with our creator, the All Mighty Allah. I always adore how my parents always emphasize on their prayers and also any muslim who take their prayer seriously.

Hopefully, we will not be careless on our prayer time after this. Just a gentle reminder for myself and all my friends.

Morning Blues

2013-01-17T08:25:00.000+08:00

Dear Self,

Remember 3 years ago, you were dissapointed you didn't get the job that you wanted after 3-stage-of-interview? You were so sad and you thought you're not good enough. After that you get even better offer at other company.

Well.... The cycle happen again this time. I finally received official email from the company that I always aim for and sadly I was rejected. And, like before, I feel like I am not good enough.

Allah know what's best. Trust Him. Believe Him.

Just work hard, be sincere, be humble. People can bring you down, but that only mean you're above them. I am worth more than an argument and hateness. I know I am better than that.

Ikut resam padi, makin berisi, makin tunduk. I always need to remind myself about that.

Have a great Thursday everyone! :)

Dream Away

2013-01-14T21:34:00.001+08:00

A reminder for myself... Because I feel like 'it is just a dream'.

I want to make my dreams come true.

And you're a part of my dreams. The big chuck one.

Little Talks

2013-01-10T22:04:00.002+08:00

Day 10 - One O'clock

Waiting for elevator to go to lunch.

Boring picture? I know. Will try to capture a better one tomorrow ey. And, I found this song.. Definitely love at the first heard. With a husky/sexy girl voice, beautiful lyrics, what more can I ask for in a song?

Silence is easy

2013-01-09T20:30:00.000+08:00

Day 09 - Paper.

current reading at my sanctuary bed.

T is for Tuesday

2013-01-08T21:41:00.004+08:00

Today's prompt, Day 8 - Something beginning with 'T'.

I had capture random stuff that start from T which are:

1. Toyota Camry
2. Toyota Prius
3. Tropicana Mall
4. Teddy Bear
5. Traffic

But in the end, I choose the photo below. I don't thought about this when I am searching for stuff-begin-with-letter-T before.

T is for Toll Gate at The Highway!

Trust in Allah

2013-01-08T21:32:00.001+08:00

You cannot force people to love you, nor make them stay close to you. You can love them, respect them, and hope they come back.

Allah is in full control. Nothing happens without his permission, and not a leaf falls, but he has a clear record. Truly if Allah wills, it will happen.

:) Chill, ok?

Let's Play!

2013-01-07T18:18:00.000+08:00

Hope it's not too late to play this photo game.

Photo A Day

Today, my first trial. 7th - Street. This is the street that I see every morning before I go to work and it greet me when I come back home in the evening.

Have a pleasant evening!

Okay & Fine

2013-01-07T13:49:00.001+08:00

I am ok. I am fine.
Everything is terrific,
And simply divine.

I am ok. I am fine.
Even my heart ache,
But I won't whine.

I accept the loneliness,
With an open heart,
I accept the dullness,
Without a blackheart.

I am ok. I am fine.
I keep telling myself this,
I am my own sunshine.

P/s - Everything will be alright. Everything will be fine. :)