PROJECT: Motherhood

Genetics.....a blessing or a curse???

2011-07-06T21:24:00.002-06:00

Okay so I can't really complain about my genetics.

I mean I am 5'9" tall which I'm told most women would like to be, even though I've found it to be a kind of hindrance in my life sometimes. I also have been told I look younger than I really am, which I thank my youthful looking mother for.

But then again I do have my real father's temper, which I'm not so grateful for. I grew up with that. I don't want my kids to grow up with it too. So I'm taking measures to make sure that doesn't happen.

But then there are the genetics that we don't learn about in 8th grade science. Like the genes that can make it a whole lot easier for you to get cancer or other ailments.

Why am I talking about this oh-so-happy topic? Well my sister was diagnosed with breast cancer back in February and now it looks like I'm about to find out if that same fate could await me. On August 2nd I have to go in for genetic testing and if it's found I have the BRCA I & II gene then I'll be more than likely going in for a double mastectomy. I know, you are probably thinking "Isn't that a bit radical and extreme?" But insurance companies prefer to pay for that and a reconstruction than cancer treatment down the line. And if it means avoiding cancer, never having to have a mammogram and having perky girls again, then where's the downside?

Then there are my DSH's genes. His mom had a problem with a too-short Achilles tendon and DSH had the same problem. And his dad was just diagnosed with prostate cancer, which DSH's dad's dad died from back in the late 70's. So now DSH has to be proactive about his prostate health as well. And we can't forget that my mother-in-law has diabetes, which her father had as well, so now that's another thing we have to be on the lookout for with DSH.

With all that we have had happen health-wise with our families it makes me worry about what we've passed on to our children. But then again if we sit and worry about that all day long then people would stop having children and the human race would die out.

So I guess for as much as genetics is a crap shoot we just have to put a blind eye to what 'may' happen and roll the dice anyway.

An attitude of gratitude

2011-06-14T21:00:00.003-06:00

I mean, honestly, how hard can it be to have an attitude of gratitude?

Well kind of hard sometimes.

With my sister's and my father-in-law's recent cancer diagnosis' and the unexpected death of an old friend, I'm trying so very hard to be grateful for all that I have. But some days I fail miserably.

But isn't it human to be like that? Kind of? (note: my head is tilted to the side with a puzzled look on my face with that last question)

So let's see, what am I grateful for.....

Well my family I grew up with for one, especially my mom and sister and even more especially (is that correct grammar?)that my mom is right there for my sister during her time of need.

Then there is my family that my DSH and I made, they may frustrate the snot out of me most days (DSH included) but dang I couldn't love them more if I tried.

And I can't forget my extended family that my DSH gave me when we married. I honestly got lucky with that one. From the horror stories I've heard of in-laws, I'm so very very very lucky for these sweet people!!!

My house, it's not perfect but keeps us nice and dry and when it's clean it doesn't look too too bad. ;)

My job, even if I make stupid mistakes that I beat myself up over and spend all night trying to figure out how to make it right the next day. I love it and the people I work with. Honestly it is the perfect job for me!

My car. My beloved BB, aka Beautiful Behemoth. She's big but she makes it so driving places doesn't result in WWIII between my kiddos. And she's not a minivan!!!

Now for what I'm not so grateful for:

My bad habits, like being too lazy to keep up on the housework. I'd say that it was a side effect of having a job, but I was kind of like that before hand, so it wouldn't be a valid excuse. *blushing*

People who are rude and/or mean. I mean I cannot stand it when people hang up on you without saying goodbye! Since when did saying "goodbye" become a passe thing to do??? Do we need to revisit manners class people????

Smokers who throw their cigarette butts out the window. The world's not your ashtray people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, okay enough of what I'm not grateful for. But I guess the point I'm trying to make is no matter how hard you try to find things to be grateful for it's so easy to find things to not be grateful for. I keep trying to look at the positive side of things, but what positive side is there to someone throwing their cigarette butt out their car window as they are driving??? I can't find one, can you?

Alright, I know, I get snarky, so I'll stop. *sigh* So with that I'll insert my one of my favorite Monty Python scenes which happens to go so nicely with this post.....Take it away boys.......www.youtube.com/watch?v=WlBiLNN1NhQ

It's been a LONG 3 months...

2011-05-14T20:24:00.002-06:00

Oh where do I begin....let's see how about right after my last post.

I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!! Yay me! I now work for the Girl Scouts of Colorado and I LOVE IT!!!! So that was good.

But right before I got that news I got some not so good news.....my sister was diagnosed with breast cancer. Talk about a sucker punch to the gut. She was determined to think positive when she told me so that helped a ton! In her words "I'm too stubborn to let this get me!" That'a girl!!!!

Then a few days later I got my job. I was excited but then again not as excited as I could be.

THEN on the day of my sister's surgery to remove the cancer we learned that my father-in-law has prostate cancer! Really??? Is this some kind of sick joke??? It's not very funny at all if you ask me!

Poor DSH is having a hard time with this as his father's father died of prostate cancer. And even though they've come so far with cancer treatment since the late 70's/early 80's, it's still hard to think of your father having what your grandfather died from.

Then DSH applied for a promotion that would relocate us to Oregon. We would have only been 5-6 hours away from family. We tried to not get our hopes up but his interview went so well that we couldn't help but get carried away. Looking at houses online, checking out the area....but then he found out that they went with someone else. Probably someone closer so they didn't have to pay the moving expense that they would have to pay if they had chosen DSH. I was slightly relieved because it took me so long to find my job, which I love, and I was worried about finding a job in a town with 1/5 the population of our current city. But I was also so very sad that DSH got turned down again. He works so hard and has tried so many times to get promoted and moved out of his current terminal that his poor ego has taken quite the beating. And while I'm pretty darn sure that he hasn't been chosen yet because he's not close enough geographically and it's cheaper to go with someone closer, it's hard for him to not take it personally. So we are back to hoping something good will come along soon.

And as for my sister and DSH's father, they both sailed through their surgeries with no complications, thank goodness. My FIL does not have to have chemo but unfortunately my sister does. She's very discouraged by this, as hair loss is inevitable along with a multitude of other side effects, but my mom and I keep telling her that it's better than the alternative. So if you have a moment please think a positive thought for our family members with cancer and also hope for a cure of this dreaded disease soon!!!

Just call me Slacker

2011-02-10T10:54:00.002-07:00

I admit that I haven't had much to post about lately, but usually I don't have a problem rambling on even when that is the case. So just call me Slacker when it comes to posting lately.

Oh sure I visit here to listen to my tunes. If there's one thing I can't live without it's my tunes. So then, if music soothes the savage beast, does that mean I'm a savage slacker???

I have no clue, nothing unusual there, but I do know that I really need to get out of the funk I've been in lately and get back to what makes me happy, rambling on to no one in particular.

So if I go too long without posting again please call me on it! Call me a slacker for not keeping up with this. As apparently when left to my own devices I can be quite lazy.....

I'm tired

2011-01-14T21:37:00.002-07:00

I'm tired of:

the cold weather

never going on vacation anymore

not having money for stuff

not having a clean and tidy house

having children who don't get the picture even when I do turn into Mean Mommy

of interviewing for jobs but not getting them

of taking a chance and posting I have an interview on Facebook then having to post that I didn't get the job and therefore making people feel compelled to comment on how sorry they are

of my husband going to bed early and then getting upset when the kids wake him up (well who didn't lock the bedroom door or put in ear plugs????)

And I'm just plain tired of being tired!!!

Good friends are to find

2011-01-10T13:48:00.002-07:00

But oh so important to keep.

I have one friend M, who I will admit I was not all that keen on when I first met her, but oh how she has grown on me.

I think my fondness grew when I was first pregnant with Little Man. They weren't sure it was a viable pregnancy so I was to go in to have an ultrasound done. Well I didn't know anyone well enough to ask them to watch my girls so I was going to take them with me. A mutual friend of mine and M's found out and since M lives in my neighborhood, she called M and told her. Then M promptly called me to say that I was going to bring my girls over to her house to play with her girls so I didn't have to take them with me. Then when I returned to pick up the girls and told her that there was a viable egg in there she promptly gave me a big hug, and if I'm not mistaken teared up a bit.

Since then we've been good friends but I think today our friendship grew even more. My car battery died this morning. Thankfully my hubby was able to jump my battery for me, but it died again after I turned it off when I dropped my kids off at school. I called M to see if she was near by to give my battery a jump. She wasn't near by and was actually on her way to meet another friend for coffee, but she cancelled that and showed up to jump my car. She even brought me a mocha!!! Then we headed back to her house so her husband could put my car on a battery charger.

We visited till she had to leave to pick up her youngest from pre-school and the battery wasn't fully charged yet. So she dropped me off at home and just called me a few minutes ago to say the battery was all charged and I could come by to get it.

And all I can say is good friends like her are so hard to find, but oh so important to keep. Thanks M for helping me out this morning and please know that if I am able I will most certainly do the same for you!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi my name is July and I am overwhelmed

2011-01-04T11:55:00.002-07:00

Yep, I admitted it. I'm a stay-at-home mom of three kids, ages almost 10, almost 8, and 5 1/2, who is on a fruitless search for employment with a husband who works two jobs 7 days a week and I am overwhelmed.

I'm already on medication for anxiety but it doesn't seem to work very well but I can't afford the medication that would work, or at least it seemed to work really well before I had to stop taking it because my free sample ran out and I can't afford $80/month for it. So I take the stuff that only costs $4 a month and it does okay.

With money tight, the house shrinking and no signs of employment on the horizon it's probably pretty obvious that I'm a bit stressed. But I'm trying my absolute hardest to stay positive. It's not easy, trust me. There are days where I want to scream so hard that my vocal chords would bleed, but I can't.

I can't let it get to me, or all is lost. Because as we all know the mother is the emotional center of the family and if I lose it then everyone will.

So each day I'll continue to have a smile on my face and a daydream in my head, in hopes that some day, some way, it will all work out

New year....new me???

2011-01-03T14:04:00.002-07:00

I can't believe I'm about to type the next sentence......

In seven months I have my 20th high school reunion and it's time to whip this body into shape so no one feels the urge to ask when I'm due.

No seriously if I were to wear the right shirt/dress I'd seriously look like #4 was on it's way. I seem to carry a majority of my excess weight in my belly area. So now it's time to get into a healthy routine and actually use my treadmill for something other than a dust collector.

Of course I should have done this close to 5 years ago when Little Man was a baby, but who has time for exercise when you are a stay-at-home mom to three kids under 5? Of course I could have done it last year when the kids were 5,7 & 9. But I didn't.

But now that I have a deadline of when I want to have the excess weight gone I think I'll do much better. I seem to do better at stuff when I have a deadline. Like cleaning my house really good when I know I have out of town company coming.

Maybe it's my procrastinating nature, I don't know, but I sure seem to work better under pressure.

So here's hoping the pressure of seeing people I haven't seen in almost two decades will help whip my butt into shape, literally. ;)

On the sixteenth day of Decem....oh forget it

2010-12-16T10:10:00.002-07:00

I've failed miserably at keeping up on posting the things I love the most about the holidays, but in my defense it gets hard to think of things after you talk about the music, the wonder in children's eyes, the Christmas tree, the shopping and the goodies. I mean other than the movies, which I do adore, what else is there?

Plus I've been a bit bummed lately. I interviewed for a position as a special education paraprofessional and did not get the job. They never gave a real reason as to why, they just said they couldn't offer me a position at this time. Geesh, if I had a nickel for every time I've heard that lately I'd be able to buy a coffee at Starbucks, the nice coffees too!

So with my in-laws arriving next Monday, I think this may very well be my last post for 2010. With that being said, I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas surrounded by those you love and may your New Year be one of love, hope and happiness!!! =)

On the ninth day of December my true love gave to me....

2010-12-09T20:33:00.002-07:00

....hopefully more hours in the day.

Geesh! I swear I just did a post and then realized it had been two days....whoops.

Well maybe I'll make this into an every-other day kind of thing as I seem to be running out of things to say I love about the holidays. I mean other than the decorations, the Christmas tree, music and the awe on your children's faces when they see their gifts what is there???

The goodies, that's what!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE the goodies that usually come with the holidays, cookies, brownies, cakes and FUDGE! Fudge is probably my favorite goody of the holiday season. I know that fudge isn't just a holiday goody like say fruitcake, which is rightfully relegated to just the holiday season, but for the life of me I can't figure out why anyone would want it at any time of the year. But fudge kits are most often found this time of year.

And here's another thing I can't figure out, why would anyone want to ruin the perfection that is fudge with walnuts???? Talk about one of the most foul nuts out there! I mean put some macadamia nuts in there and you'll have something. =D

On the seventh day of December my true love gave to me....

2010-12-07T11:38:00.002-07:00

...the joy of watching the wide-eyed wonder on my children's faces when they see the presents under the tree Christmas morning.

You have to understand that we don't put out Christmas gifts until the kids are asleep on Christmas eve. That way they don't have the temptation to open any before hand and since they are my kids I know that temptation will be there. ;)

Also DSH and I think that having the tree full of presents on Christmas morning helps to make Christmas morning that much more special. That amazement at how many presents are under the tree would wear off if we put the Christmas presents out too early.

Plus Little Man was having a hard enough time waiting for Christmas last night when he found out his daddy and I went shopping for presents, so why torture the poor boy more by putting the presents under the tree and then telling him he can't touch them?

So until my kids are older and can actually wait till Christmas day to open their presents, we will keep putting the presents out on Christmas eve. My kids are already growing up way too fast as it is, so I don't want to lose that look of wonder on their faces just yet. =)

On the sixth day of December my true love gave to me....

2010-12-07T11:32:00.002-07:00

....a day together of Christmas shopping.

So that is why I did not post yesterday, I was too busy going Christmas shopping with my true love. You see he is working Tuesday through Saturday at his main job which leaves his Mondays free. Yesterday was his first Monday off so we used it to go Christmas shopping for the kiddos. Which is actually the main reason for this post.

The next thing I love about the holiday season is Christmas shopping. Oh I love shopping any time of the year but for some reason it is so much nicer to go shopping for Christmas knowing that on Christmas morning my children's eyes will be wide with wonder when they see all the presents under the tree.

So while the stores may be packed at all hours of the day, I actually love Christmas shopping. However I love sleep a little bit more so I don't go out for Black Friday. ;)

On the fifth day of December my true love gave to me....

2010-12-05T10:47:00.003-07:00

...presents to wrap.

Well not yet, we haven't done our Christmas shopping yet, but we will don't worry. I also have presents my mom bought when she was out here visiting in October and ones she's ordered online to wrap. So I guess it's a good thing I like wrapping presents.

You'd think after working for a Hallmark store for 5+ years that I would not be so keen on wrapping presents, but I am. I used to love it back then and I still love it. I even still have a cool little tool I got while working at the Hallmark store that not only curls the ribbon but also shreds it so that the packages looks way cooler than they did before.

And I am proud to announce that while I still love to wrap packages I am a recovering wrapping paper addict. Every year after Christmas I'd buy wrapping paper on clearance, even if I didn't need any. Then one year I had WAY too much and I realized that I had a problem and it had to stop. So now if I do go past the Christmas decorations after the holiday I try my very best to not even glance at the wrapping paper. Now I just buy it on an as needed basis. It's a big step. ;)

I was going to wrap some presents last Friday but I was feeling a bit under the weather, so I'll do it one day this week while the kids are at school. I usually do it on the weekend with my bedroom door locked but that always results in children banging on my door and trying to peek underneath. So this year since they are all in school all day, I'll turn on my beautiful, beloved Christmas music and set up camp in the loft to wrap my heart away.

Ah the little joys of the season......=)

On the fourth day of December my true love gave to me....

2010-12-04T08:37:00.003-07:00

....snowmen and lots of them!

If you've ever been to my house at Christmas time you know that I have a thing for snowmen. They tend to take over my house this time of year and I don't mind a bit.

I don't know where the obsession began, but I do know that suddenly I couldn't resist a snowman decoration when I would hit the after Christmas clearance sales. Then slowly people started giving me snowmen as well. Now I have around 75 maybe 100 snowmen.

Maybe I find them fascinating as I grew up in an area of California where snow is something you see on TV or in the movies, as we never had in in our yards. Sure we used to be really pathetic and try and pretend that the frost was snow, but that was when I was young and my imagination could make it really seem like snow instead of frozen mist.

But now I live in an area that can get snow, blizzards even, and the obsession still exists. There's just something about a snowman that brings a smile to your face. And yes I realize that a snowman can be made in January or February, but ever since the Christmas song "Frosty the Snowman" snowmen have been associated with Christmas.

So on this fourth day of December the next thing on my list of my favorite things about the Christmas season is snowmen, making them, decorating with them and just plain enjoying their cheerfulness.

On the third day of December my true love gave to me...

2010-12-03T09:19:00.004-07:00

....hopefully a Christmas tree! ;)

With that oh-so-subtle hint I'm sure you have been able to figure out that the next thing I love about the holidays is the grand old Christmas tree. Is there anything better than a nicely lit, beautifully scented Christmas tree at night when it's dark out and the children are all snuggled in bed, silenced by their slumber that, while it may have taken it's sweet time getting here, has finally arrived??? I think not! =)

When I was growing up we always had to have a fake tree as our dog Koko would try to eat the ornaments off of a real tree thinking they tasted as good as the tree smelled. The year after he passed away we finally got a real tree and it was a bittersweet experience, because although we all loved the smell of the tree we knew we had it because the dog was no longer with us. *sniff sniff*

Fast forward several years to 2005 when my in-laws gave us their fake tree as they had moved and no longer had the vaulted ceilings that the humongous tree needed to stand up. We used that tree for three years and then realized we had accumulated too much furniture in our tiny living room to use the tree anymore. See it was almost as wide as it was tall. Here's a picture that shows how big it was......

....it takes up HALF of the room, which is hard to see here, so you'll have to trust me.

The next year we purchased a real tree that was tall but not so wide.

And while I do miss the grand stateliness of that huge fake tree, I so do not miss putting it up. I was usually the only one to do it and every single time I would end up with little red dots all over my arms where the tree touched my skin. It didn't really itch so much as it hurt. So when we decided to get a real tree I was not all that disappointed.

Back to why today hopefully my true love will give me a tree......

Last Monday the kids had the day off from school and Dear Sweet Hubby was only to work a half day. So we thought we'd go get a $10 permit to cut down our own tree in the forest nearby. However that morning I read that they weren't going to start selling permits until tomorrow the 4th. Unfortunately DSH has to work all weekend and while he has Monday off again the kids will be in school and they don't get out until almost 4 so that wouldn't leave much daylight to get our tree.

So we discussed going to go ol'Wally World to get our tree the true American Way. You know buying it from a mass merchandising company that already gets way too much of our hard earned dollars....;)

And please keep your fingers crossed that the man can get off early enough to do this as poor Peaches is really really really counting on us getting our tree this afternoon. I'm not sure why she's so set on getting it today but she's already a pre-teen hormonal crying mess these days we don't need something else upsetting her. ;)

On the second day of December my true love gave to me.....

2010-12-02T10:03:00.002-07:00

....Okay, so really this series of postings isn't about what my true love gave to me, but I just like that title so I'm going with it. ;)

The second thing I love about the holiday season is how nice people seem to become. I say seem because most of them probably don't actually mean it but the fact that they went through the effort to say it shows that they maybe give a darn, even if it's a little bit.

And yes, there is some sadness to the fact that people feel compelled to say "Happy Holidays" instead of "Merry Christmas" but we do have to show some respect for our Jewish friends and neighbors. Actually I don't know if I have any Jewish neighbors but I do have Jewish friends and I'm of the mind set that their holiday is just as important as mine.

So the next time someone is nice enough to wish you "Happy Holidays" don't get offended, feel happy that they cared enough to say something pleasant and that they were aware enough to know that not everyone celebrates Christmas.

And even if you are having a really stinky day, try to be pleasant to others, as it is truly one of the best parts of this season!

On the first day of December my true love gave to me.....

2010-12-01T13:32:00.002-07:00

....well nothing actually except some laundry and three messy kids to clean up after.

No seriously.....the real reason I'm posting is I decided to try to do a post each day about what I love about the holiday season. There are so many things that we should stop to enjoy and appreciate but not many do during this busy time of year.

So here's my attempt to remember the joy of the season......

The first thing I love about the Christmas season is the music! In case you haven't noticed I've changed the tunes on my blog and did so the day after Thanksgiving. I just love, Love, LOVE Christmas music!!! There's never any sad stories, well okay usually there isn't but there is that one song about the shoes the kid is trying to buy his mother, but I refuse to listen to that song as it is so dang depressing and if I want to get depressed I can just look at my bank balance or the ever growing pile of laundry. ;)

At Christmas time I want cheerful, full of hope music. And that's usually what I get. Okay, so again Whams "Last Christmas" isn't that happy but in all actuality it isn't even a Christmas song, so there! HA! Alright, I'm getting kind of cocky here. I'll shut up, close this post and go do some laundry while I listen to my beloved Christmas tunes turned up high!!!!!!!!!!!

Distance makes the heart grow fonder.....

2010-11-30T11:25:00.001-07:00

.....and now that my three children, who all have very strong personalities and opinions, are all back at school I'm finding myself feeling much fonder of them! ;)

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas.....

2010-11-26T08:43:00.003-07:00

on my blog and in my house.

Well okay not in my house, yet, but it will before the day is done.

Technically I'm still in my jammies but as soon as I shower and get dressed I am cleaning up my kitchen and then taking down all the Thanksgiving decorations in order to put up the Christmas ones. =)

Yes, I am one of THOSE people who like to put up Christmas the day after Thanksgiving. I never used to be this way, especially when I was working in a Hallmark store, where ornaments were put up in JULY!!! But as I get further and further away from that Christmas overload I find I really like decorating for Christmas as soon as possible.

The only other holiday I enjoy decorating for is Halloween, where I have been known to put up decorations for in September, like right after Labor Day. But one too many years of getting bugged about it from my dear sweet hubby has made me to wait until October 1st before I put out the ghosts, witches and other fun decorations.

So with that said, I hope you enjoy my newly decked out Christmas blog. I'll try not to change it too many times before Christmas comes, but knowing myself the way I do, I can't promise anything ;)

Job Hunt 2010: Does an ego good....

2010-11-10T09:36:00.002-07:00

.....NOT!!!

You hear on the news and radio how finding a job in this economy is hard and you think to yourself, really how hard can it be? Then you go looking for a job yourself and then you realize it's REALLY hard!

I can't remember how many jobs I've applied for lately but I can tell you how many jobs I've gotten......zero.

I've interviewed for two and gotten my hopes up, only to have them dashed when I didn't get the job.

It's really sad because now when I apply for a job it's with the thought "I'll probably never get this job" in my head. I used to think I was a smart woman with a lot to offer an employer but when Toys-R-Us won't even hire you it makes you start to think that maybe you aren't that great after all......*sigh*

Gone too soon.....

2010-10-23T20:58:00.002-06:00

......my mother that is.

Oh don't worry she's not "living with the angels" (what we tell the kids when someone passes away) or anything, it's just that her week long visit is over already.

Quite frankly I'm thinking of campaigning for a two week visit next time.....provided my step-dad can not wash his wallet while Mom is here, prompting her to want to go back so she can spare him from such snafus.... ;)

A little green rant

2010-10-03T19:43:00.002-06:00

I'm all for going "green" and doing as much as I can afford to do to help our planet out, but I have one gripe....

....why is it that all the vehicles that are hybrid only fit 4 people comfortably?

...Or if they do fit more than 4 comfortably they are almost as expensive as houses in some parts of the country???

I have three kids and a majority of my friends in the town I live in have three kids, but I know not one that would trade their vehicle for a hybrid as it would be too cramped or they'd go bankrupt trying to buy one!

I mean if Toyota can put a hybrid engine in their Highlander, why can't they put it in their Sienna? Or better yet, why can't they price their Highlander more reasonably? I know the technology needed for a hybrid vehicle is probably more expensive than a gas powered one, or at least that's what the car manufacturers lead us to believe.

I mean for all we know it could be more expensive to build a gas powered car than a hybrid, but those oil companies are probably paying the car manufacturers to charge more for the hybrids so that people will buy less of them.

Now I didn't mean to go off on a soapbox rant here, but when you long for a car that can fit your family comfortably while all five of you are riding in it but can't afford to get one that won't make you cry at the gas pump, you get a little frustrated.

Now that I have that off my chest, give me a minute or two and I'm sure I'll find something else to rant about....;)

It's bittersweet.....

2010-09-14T12:52:00.002-06:00

....the fact that I didn't get the job that I interviewed for.

I mean on one hand I'm bummed because not only was it an interesting job but I would have been making good money.

But then on the other hand I almost felt like as interesting as it would have been it might have been a bit over my head, as far as my ability to do it.

I went into the interview nervous because I really wanted the job, but came out feeling kind of shell shocked.

It was a lot more than the description had said, or at least more than I had imagined it. I guess reality in some cases is more intense than what you picture in your head.

So now I'm back to where I was, applying for more positions and hoping that someone will call me to interview again.

But now I know I will only apply for jobs I am fully aware that I am capable of doing. So that way if I interview for a job and don't get it it won't be bittersweet, just bitter....;)

Can we fast forward to next Saturday????

2010-09-12T08:48:00.002-06:00

Because then Big Daddy will be home again!!!

He has to work today and then when he gets off he has to go straight to the airport as his main job is sending him to Pittsburgh PA to learn a job that isn't even his!

He has to go because he's full time and they can't send the person who's job it is because they are part time and a part timer can't be sent to train. So Big Daddy has to go and learn the job and then come home and teach the person who's job it is.

Make sense to you???

Nope it doesn't make any sense to me either.

And Big Daddy doesn't want to go. The kids and I don't want him to go either!!!

So now it's just me and the kids for the next week until Friday night when he flies home.

Think it would be possible to blink long enough and have the week already done and over with??????

Holy snot!

2010-09-07T12:14:00.002-06:00

I HAVE AN INTERVIEW!!!

Earlier while Big Daddy and I were eating an early lunch my cell phone rang. I didn't recognize the number so I let it go to voicemail. Big Daddy said it was probably someone wanting to interview me. Sure enough a voicemail is left and sure enough again it was someone wanting to interview me!!!

He sure loved the fact that he was right, but I just say it was a lucky guess. ;)

Anyway, it's for a full time ongoing position working with a department of the school district that coordinates jobs for high school students with special needs.

Now granted I would absolutely love a job working with little kids, but at this point I'm not going to be picky and if I get the job I will do my very best.

But do you think if after a while I determine it's not the right position for me that it would be okay to start searching for another job? I guess it would but I'll be so darn happy to have a job, and one that's ongoing to boot that I just don't want to burn any bridges or look bad for switching jobs within the school district.

It's times like this that I wish I wasn't so anxious and worried about what other people thought. *sigh*