Queerie Bradshaw

Solstice rituals in the forest. Yes, I included a dog treat on...

Sun, 21 Jun 2015 15:37:23 -0700

Solstice rituals in the forest. Yes, I included a dog treat on my alter, because Summer is the time to give thanks for and settle into the blossoms and blessings brought by Spring. #DailyDecadence

LOVE these body-safe dessert sticks at @asyoulikeit.shop. Trace...

Sat, 20 Jun 2015 08:21:08 -0700

LOVE these body-safe dessert sticks at @asyoulikeit.shop. Trace a delicious trail on your body for your partner to lick. Or just snack on them if you’re me. #fatgirlhungry (at As You Like It - The Pleasure Shop)

When we are sad, hurt, angry, heartbroken, it’s so easy to...

Tue, 16 Jun 2015 23:06:43 -0700

When we are sad, hurt, angry, heartbroken, it’s so easy to retreat back into ourselves, to hoard our precious resources, to hide and starve for fear of leaving our safe spaces, opening our doors, going out of our comfort zone.

But diets do not cure famines. When you are starving, the only answer is to eat. So when your heart is hurting, when your love seems lost, when your soul is burning for more fuel, the only answer is to give it more, give it more, give it more.

#DailyDecadence #BawdyLove #lovenotestomyself

Big news: I lowered the price of my #BawdyLove retreat and...

Mon, 15 Jun 2015 16:11:28 -0700

Big news: I lowered the price of my #BawdyLove retreat and installed payment plans!

Why the price change?
One simple answer: I want you there.

I want to hug you hello and hand you a goodie bag full of decadent treats. I want to laugh with you by the pool at the welcome reception. I want to connect with you during the workshops. I want to see you heal and grow right before my eyes.

If I wanted to be a rich businesswoman, I’d have stayed in the legal profession. I chose this career path instead because I enjoy connection. I enjoy helping people on on intimate level.

My retreats allow me to look you in the eye and hear what you’re saying. They allow me to hold space for your dreams, help you advocate for your needs, and enjoy life with you.

But I can’t do that if you can’t afford to come to them, so I lowered the price to make the retreat more accessible to everyone.

Reserve your spot today at LaurenMarieFleming.com/retreats.

My 20s were spent traveling the world. I was happiest when I was...

Sun, 14 Jun 2015 08:39:44 -0700

My 20s were spent traveling the world. I was happiest when I was moving, changing, leaving behind, running towards. I always dreamt of a home base, of someday having a garden and a dog and a home filled with dinner parties and house guests. I imagined I would someday write the stories of my youth’s adventures while my dog sat at my feet. On the weekends, we would hike together, finding solace for our souls in giant trees and running rivers. Someday.

Yesterday, as I took #AlbusWeasleyPotter on our first hike together, I realized someday was today. My life is almost exactly as I imagined it to be. “What do you do, when you’ve reached the moment you’ve always dreamt of?” I asked the forest. And the trees responded, “Rise higher. Expand your branches. Root yourself. Grow deeper. Heal.” And so I will.

Goodbye Palm Springs. Goodbye swimming naked under the hot...

Wed, 10 Jun 2015 14:06:01 -0700

Goodbye Palm Springs. Goodbye swimming naked under the hot summer stars. Goodbye cuddles and cries and friends with benefits. Goodbye screams and moans and laughing uncontrollably. Goodbye late night ice cream and early morning movie watching. Goodbye #kinkysummercamp.

What I am not saying goodbye to, what I am bringing with me to my life, my home, my heart (and my own retreats!), is the feeling of belonging to a community that understands my search for pleasure, joy, love, and acceptance. The knowledge that my needs deserve to be met. The confidence and comfort in my body that being around supportive, loving, open-minded people brings. The sexiness I felt lounging around wearing nothing but red lipstick. The clarity I found in being my most honest, authentic self.

Thank you to everyone who shared the magic of #desireleatherweekend with me. You are my family. I love you all.

Do you ever feel ugly? Fat? Unattractive? What about bored or...

Wed, 10 Jun 2015 07:32:48 -0700

Do you ever feel ugly? Fat? Unattractive? What about bored or boring? Ever feel like you’re too broke to have any fun? Too busy to find beauty in life?

That, my lovely friend, is your scarcity mentality at play. You and I both were taught from a young age that we had to earn luxuries like fun, we had to starve ourselves before we were worthy of pleasure, we had to gain other’s approval to feel beautiful.

I’m here to tell you that you don’t need permission to have fun (and if you do, I just gave it to you!). You don’t need someone else to tell you you’re beautiful, because you simply are. You don’t have to wait to own a beach house to be worthy of taking time to walk in the waves.

Children don’t wait for permission to run, jump, and play. They stare at themselves in the mirror for hours, loving their reflection. They have lots and lots of fun simply because they are alive and enjoying exploring life!

I wish it were still that simple, but alas, “having fun” is actually really hard for adults to do, so I created #BawdyLove to share with you ways to incorporate decadence, pleasure, joy and fun into your life.

Join me for a weekend of healing, decadence, connection, and fun. Because you deserve a life of luxurious abundance.

It’s going to be one of those weekends....

Wed, 03 Jun 2015 22:05:07 -0700

It’s going to be one of those weekends. #desireleatherweekend #bestweekendoftheyear #kinkysummercamp

This may not look like the road to a lush forest, and most of...

Wed, 03 Jun 2015 14:14:28 -0700

This may not look like the road to a lush forest, and most of the year it is not. Most of the year it is a dry sand bed spotted with brown prickly bushes that look beyond dead. Most of the year it is discarded as ugly, dismissed as barren. Then it rains, and the ocotillo wastes no time blooming, proudly displaying its bright colors, basking in the glory of its dark green leaves and bright orange fiery headdress. I learned a lot about timing and the beauty of apparent dormancy from the ocotillo as a kid. The lessons it taught me makes it my favorite plant to this day.

Today, as my father and I hiked this forest, I was reminded once again that no one is ugly. No one is beyond repair. Every one is resting in wait for their time to bloom. The dark, apparently barren months are just as much a part of your beauty as the lush days. The struggle is real and beautiful. The blooming is short and worth celebrating. Life goes on. Patience, little cactus, your nourishment will come and you will bloom again. (at Ocotillo Desert)

Give me all of your hugs and kisses. Give me all of your giggles...

Sun, 31 May 2015 00:44:20 -0700

Give me all of your hugs and kisses. Give me all of your giggles and twirls. Give me all of your worries and misses, and I’ll guide you through the world. Give me all of your smiles and laughter, and I will give you mine in return, and from now and here on after, the light in our hearts will burn. #latenightpoetry #loveheals #BawdyLove #DailyDecadence

Happy to see my sister(’s copious Basil Hayden supply)...

Sat, 30 May 2015 21:12:07 -0700

Happy to see my sister(’s copious Basil Hayden supply) after too long.

Tears of joy cascaded down my face as these two bundles of...

Sat, 30 May 2015 20:28:07 -0700

Tears of joy cascaded down my face as these two bundles of unbridled love greeted me at the airport. I used to see them every day. It’s been six months since I held them in my arms. Tonight, we all - including their fabulous mom, my splendid sister - will crawl into bed together, read our favorite books, sing our favorite songs, and hold each other all night long. #loveheals #DailyDecadence

Bringin’ back the fun and funky. I think my new hair...

Fri, 29 May 2015 19:41:03 -0700

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Bringin’ back the fun and funky. I think my new hair stylist and I are going to get along splendidly. (at London Hair Salon and Spa)

#AlbusWeasleyPotter came to therapy with me yesterday....

Thu, 28 May 2015 08:20:42 -0700

#AlbusWeasleyPotter came to therapy with me yesterday. It’s the first step in his training to be an empathetic therapy dog that will help me with my depression and PTSD, and also be able to help others as well, including hospital and hospice patients soon.

The other day, he absolutely insisted on going over to a woman. She looked eager to see him as well, so I acquiesced. After they were done loving up on each other, she told me that she was having a very bad day. The kind of day you didn’t know if you’d survive. She told me Albie coming to her felt like a sign from the universe that she should live.

Sometimes we all need puppy kisses and cuddles and unabashed love. If you ever find yourself lacking in these, just let me and Albie know, we’ve got lots of love to give you. #stayalive

I’ve been home sick for three days so I decided to spend...

Mon, 25 May 2015 16:21:31 -0700

I’ve been home sick for three days so I decided to spend this time crafting, which it turns out goes well with coughing but not so well with soup splattered all over it. #DailyDecadence doesn’t have to end just because you can’t breathe. Or because you’ve splashed bone broth all over your project.

This may be the first time I’ve seen a fat body on a major...

Sat, 23 May 2015 09:55:33 -0700

This may be the first time I’ve seen a fat body on a major magazine that’s not either a “before” photo proclaiming the joys of weight loss, or a shaming photo proclaiming the social and physical hazards of obesity. Seeing @tessholliday’s magazine spread discussing overcoming bullies and embracing herself as is juxtaposed next to a spread about how depressing Marilyn Monroe’s life was trying to be the perfect beauty everyone else expected her to be gave me hope that we are moving in the right direction. #effyourbeautystandards #BawdyLove #tessmunster #tessholliday

Farmer’s daughter care package.

Fri, 22 May 2015 16:28:37 -0700

Farmer’s daughter care package.

Somebody had a little too much fun at his Puppy Shower last...

Thu, 21 May 2015 12:45:40 -0700

Somebody had a little too much fun at his Puppy Shower last night. Poor not-so-little guy’s all tuckered out from running around the backyard with four of his new best friends, chewing on all his gifts, and trying to steal BBQ from the humans. Let this be a lesson to us all to celebrate celebrating to the fullest! #AlbusWeasleyPotter

A friendly reminder to save these dates! Registration for the...

Tue, 19 May 2015 13:56:43 -0700

A friendly reminder to save these dates! Registration for the #BawdyLove retreat is opening very soon. This weekend of healing and happiness includes midday mocktails, late night pajama parties, and a guarantee that you feel more confident and comfortable in your body when you leave. I’m giddy with excitement!

This looks like something I would be sent to review. You know...

Mon, 18 May 2015 07:54:52 -0700

This looks like something I would be sent to review. You know you’ve settled down and settled into life when dual split harness is something you get for your weekend walks with your dog and his buddy, not your weekend romps with your friend and her buddy. #sexbloggergrowsup