RADical Adventures

Could Jesus parent RADical kids?

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Mon, 14 Apr 2014 06:21:00 +0000

I found myself recently typing "Even Jesus would have a hard time caring for hurt kids" when I stopped to consider. Would he?

It's hard. It's upside down. It's thankless.

He would do it, of course, but would it be hard?
When I think of Jesus, I generally think

loving, calm, accepting, patient.

But he wasn't always; he got mad, he hurt, he was sad, frustrated, angry, confused, all the usual emotions. He's not the sissy you see in the movies. He carried the weight of the world on his shoulders and had normal emotions, yet I always think

loving, calm, accepting, patient.

He cares for all of us, all the broken humans, with all our broken dreams.

Talk about hard, and upside down, and thankless.

Imagine all our difficult, hurting kiddos, times a billion.

So yes, I think he would have a hard time caring for hurt kids, but he already does it daily. And he does it well. While feeling all those emotions, he somehow exudes

loving, calm, accepting, patience.

I can't do that. I'm not the savior of the world. But I can do better. I only have three hearts to care for and I can do better at loving, calm, accepting, patience.

My Orlando

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Sun, 02 Mar 2014 04:18:00 +0000

As soon as I saw this, I knew I had to tweak it for Orlando. ❤ This is for all of my trauma mamas, especially my Haven family who keeps my nest cozy and keeps the chocolate coming.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Sat, 14 Sep 2013 01:12:00 +0000

For a few years now, we've really been struggling with Cj, our "normal" child (if that doesn't offend you), our Neuro-Typical child (if it does). He's securely attached and not RADical like the other two, but holy heck does he have issues. Dad and I have PTSD from all the RADicals brought to the family, so we GET that it's hard, and we've been very understanding and educating. But he has an anger that goes way yonder beyond normal sibling rivalry. I have a brother and Dad has brothers and sisters and we understand bickering. But this is pure hatred. It's not mean, hurt, lashing out, it's just hatred, with a level of rage that we just don't understand.
For years now, we've tried so many different things, from giving him special privileges (because he's indeed more responsible) to entirely grounding him from the family (to protect us all from him) and literally a hundred other things in between, but nothing has helped. It's worse now than ever. Mr and Em brought crazy to the family, and it was pretty horrible, but this is an ugly that's just ripping our family apart. As always, we're very open with the kids and they're all aware of his anger/hatred and he just thinks it's justified, but has no good reasons why.
So we've poked, prodded, dug, and researched because we're just not willing to live like this any longer. Something that kept popping up in my reading always caught my eye, but sounded too simple (aka flaky). But in researching that more specifically, it doesn't just sound like him, it IS him.
Narcissistic Personality Disorder, honestly it sounds like a spoiled brat, but in looking at the symptoms, we said whoa, all of those. And nothing else. This alone encompasses all of his behavior and explains a whole heckuva lot. And is slightly encouraging because he doesn't MEAN to be so MEAN.
Symptoms:

Believing that you're better than others
Fantasizing about power, success and attractiveness
Exaggerating your achievements or talents
Expecting constant praise and admiration
Believing that you're special and acting accordingly
Failing to recognize other people's emotions and feelings
Expecting others to go along with your ideas and plans
Taking advantage of others
Expressing disdain for those you feel are inferior
Being jealous of others
Believing that others are jealous of you
Trouble keeping healthy relationships
Setting unrealistic goals
Being easily hurt and rejected
Having a fragile self-esteem
Appearing as tough-minded or unemotional

The interesting thing is we talked with him and read through this list and said do any of these sound like you? He said no, to every one. THAT is telling. He doesn't believe that he believes he's better than others, he simply thinks he IS better than others. He has no problem saying he deserves more and sees nothing wrong with it. If there's one donut left, he thinks he deserves it. Of course all of us WANT it, but he says he deserves it. He deserves to choose the TV shows, the games they play, the rules they use, because he's the best. That simply makes sense to him and he thinks we're just mean and crazy to not understand that. When we try to make things fair, he is feeling shorted because he doesn't get the most/biggest/best as deserved. :/

Of course the kicker to all of this new understanding is that like reactive attachment disorder, it ALSO stems from trauma and attachment. Ugh! We've always thought well, Cj was just more resilient than Em or Mr because he's had no problems attaching. We just thought he had a healthy self-confidence, but are learning that that is also a response to trauma, an overdose of fake self-confidence to cover for insecurity. So while the other two kids feared attachment and shrunk into themselves, Mr acting out and Em acting perfect, Cj swung the opposite way, becoming bigger and better than his circumstances and his fears.

As an only child, we didn't notice this (until we look back, hindsight you know). When we adopted the other two, we didn't notice (because we were busy going insane, as parents of RAD tend to do). But now that we've peeled back all of those layers of crazy, and disconnected from the (distracting) rat race, and are left with just each other, we are faced with a bunch of ugly. He's an amazing person, but an awful brother. He's super considerate and helpful to others, but horrible to his family.

So this is good news, mostly. At least it's not on purpose and I fully believe it's not. But working with him and trying to do behavioral therapy on our own will be challenging. That's a nice way to say this will suck. But we're not willing to not try.

Torture with love

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Sat, 14 Sep 2013 00:24:00 +0000

How do you torture your RADical darling? With love notes. :)

Mother's Day

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Fri, 10 May 2013 20:07:00 +0000

In case you remember last year's Mothers Day cards, wow, this year was a bit better. Hopefully that means more healing has taken place.
Em hasn't done hers yet, but I'm sure she'll just try to figure out what I want, even though I don't want anything except for her to have a real feeling.
Cj's was just informational, so his birthmom would know the basic facts. He said he has no emotions about her whatsoever. I'm not sure I totally believe that, but I'm honoring it and just said okay, thanks.
Mr's was a bit less harsh than last time. And I admit I love the last line. :)

Hi Mom. I'm ten. You probably know that. I just want you to know that card last year was my anger for you but this one's about my love for you. I know that you made f***ing bad choices but I forgive you. I know you are nice in your heart. Now I travel in an RV. It's so much fun. My mom now is about 2 million billion times better than you.

I love that he feels she's nice in her heart. That means he's able to feel that about himself.

Too hard!

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Fri, 26 Apr 2013 18:12:00 +0000

I don't want to do dishes. They're too hard. It's too boring. It's no fun... Have a drama queen RADical at your house too??
I said hold still, I need to show you a pic of what you look like.
But Mom, it really IS too hard! :/

Lessons RAD teaches about God

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Fri, 15 Mar 2013 02:29:00 +0000

Along the lines of my RAD-inspired post about God loves every one of us NO MATTER WHAT we are/say/do, tonight another RADical thought hit us.

All we want is for Em to love us and let us love her. But she's so busy hypervigilantly trying to do this, be that, say this, don't say that, all to be perfect enough for us to not send her away. We simply want her to CHILL and just BE.
It struck us that God wants the same thing, for us to just be. Love Him, let Him love us. Simple.

I think about Mr, who is attached now, and very cuddly with me, and I love when he comes up for a hug. Even though he rushes off and bounces off people, is rotten, chooses not so wisely, and generally drives us crazy, he comes right back and makes my heart happy with another hug. That's all I want. Simple.

God loves us and looks forward to those moments. There's no list, no attendance, no checkmark, just be. Love Him, let Him love you. Em doesn't trust that and tries to earn it, in vain. Mr trusts and just (as the kids say) bes.

I love that our RADical kids show us our poor attempts at earning God's love. Just be. Love Him, let Him love us. Simple.

Therapeutic parenting, right upside my head

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Tue, 11 Dec 2012 20:27:00 +0000

You know when you’re super busy haughtily judging someone and it hits you... hard... right upside the head... that you do the same thing? Yeah, it hurts, and helps.

If you’re a therapeutic parent (by choice or not), you are supposed to be therapeutic for your child, the victim. Yes, you are *A* victim of trauma, but your child is *THE* victim. It’s VERY hard to parent these kids, but imagine how much harder it is to BE these kids.

A&T Network says Therapeutic Parenting is "the type of high structure/high nurture parenting that is needed for a traumatized child to feel safe and start relaxing enough that they begin to heal and attach.”

I suck at it, but I keep trying. High structure is doable, but high nurture (with little "emotional return") is excruciatingly hard. But either one, without the other, is useless.

Some days I rock, but some days I forget the “for a child to feel safe” part and focus on the “for the mom to not be exhausted” part or the “for the mom to be pitied” part. Oh, those aren’t in there. That’s right. I’m not the victim; I’m the victims’ mom. I’m an adult capable of understanding how abuse and neglect affect brain development, which affects behavior. I'm able to (on most days) discern that my children’s behavior is not about me, but about their past. Their past hurts much more than my present.

Today I needed this. I needed to cut short my pity party and grab a can of suck-it-up. If you need a can, please help yourself. And then help your child.

I think I’ll have another…

She doesn't like love

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Tue, 04 Dec 2012 06:02:00 +0000

Em's come so far, but she still doesn't like love. Or the thought of liking love. The other day I heard her reading, "Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever." So I said, "See? LOVE will always follow you, no matter what you do." She said, "Love sounds like a creepy stalker." Ah, so far to go...

They get it

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Sun, 16 Sep 2012 18:48:00 +0000

Sometimes your RADicals get it, and can even joke with you about it. These two brought me this book saying I needed it! :)

Homeschooling RAD

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Fri, 14 Sep 2012 05:22:00 +0000

Why we homeschool our kids with RAD. I wanted to share how we ~~chose~~ ~~fell into~~ ~~were nudged into~~ ~~were forced to~~ ~~tried not to~~ accidentally started homeschooling our kids with Reactive Attachment Disorder (and our one without).
The short version: We did "nothing" and it was better than school.
Let me explain with the long version: We never planned to homeschool. There are schools; kids go to them; we simply never thought beyond that. So when our Attachment Therapist suggested what would really help Em heal was to be homeschooled, we said Um, no.
She said she really needs time alone with just me because she never gets that, being in school all day and with her siblings in the evening. Still, no.
She said both boys had time with just their mom to attach and do all the things moms and babies do naturally. Well, with Mr is wasn't naturally, but from age 3 to 6, thanks to a lot of attachment therapy and baby-focused play, and his siblings being in school all day, he did learn to love and trust. Cj was only 20 months and (ironically) seemed very attached straight from an orphanage. Of course he was with me all day doing those mom and baby things. Oh, dear.
Our AT was right, Em needed that. Shoot. How could we not? Um, okay.
She suggested we simply give her one year. She said ideally, she just needs mom time, not education. But since she and Cj are the same age, it would be rough for her to be a grade behind him next year. She'd always have to explain that, which wouldn't help her self-esteem. So we figured we'd keep an eye on Cj's homework and try to keep her on pace. She wasn't doing well in school anyway, with low grades, high stress, behavior struggles, and days of "checking out" in her teacher's words.
So in 2008, Em started grade 3 at home. We went to the pool, went shopping, ran errands, cooked, baked, cleaned, read, played with dolls, played computer games, played inside, played outside, and played some more. That's it. All year. And while she began the year far behind Cj, she ended the year far ahead of him. What?! We didn't teach. She didn't learn. But somehow we did, and she did, on accident.
Obviously, that personal attention helped her esteem and confidence. Obviously, she picked up some math skills playing with the calculator in the grocery store. Obviously, she was absorbing history and science from her games and books. Obviously, we couldn't send her back to school. Oh, dear.
Obviously, if her year of "nothing" was better then their year full of stressful school, we couldn't send the boys back either. Oh, dear.
So, while we planned to spend a year attaching (which was very effective, I add almost as a side note), we accidentally spent a year learning. And then another and another...

Most people have goals, plans, ideals, convictions, and strong feelings about why they want to homeschool. We simply couldn't not do it after seeing the results of doing nothing, at home, together.

Seeing her feelings

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Fri, 01 Jun 2012 06:59:00 +0000

One thing we've always done with em is "show" her her feelings (suggested by her AT). Since she doesn't feel her feelings or always connect them to what's on her face, we show her in a mirror and help her connect them. (I should explain that better, but it's late and I'm lazy).
In the car, she was really annoyed with me (because I touched her at the same time she thought she was "in trouble" so she was all tense and weird - and then I pointed that out). But she was making this very annoyed/frustrated face and I said wow are you annoyed with me for pointing out your feelings, look! And I took a picture of her. When I showed it to her, I expected her to just continue being annoyed, but she grabbed it and said WOW, do I seriously look like that?!
It cracked me up. Definitely not her best look. :)

First Mothers' Day

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Sun, 13 May 2012 02:36:00 +0000

Pretty big issues around here lately, so we’ve been doing lots of therapy and working on things. I don’t see a light at the end of the tunnel yet, but I do think there’s a light, so that’s a great improvement of late. It’s been tough.
We did a First Mother’s Day here as some therapy for the kids. No matter the issues, our kids’ first moms DID choose to have them, so they’ll always have my heart for that. I figured they’d be pretty detached and emotionless, so mr really surprised me, but in a good way. BIG feelings but he’s not trying to hide them or holding them in, so good stuff. He asked if he could “write a cuss” and I said these are your feelings so you can write absolutely anything you want. He did!
Cj is pretty typical for him and em is typical for her (trying to guess what I’d want her to write.) Maybe she’ll let go of those feelings one day. FYI, a LOT of therapy surrounded all this (with much positive and negative), so please don’t post advice or complain since you don't have the full story. I'll frown and delete.
I do hope my cards tomorrow are different!
Language warning! Sharing unedited, except for misspelled words that were auto-corrected and erased names to protect the guilty. The boys decided to burn theirs, so no pics.

mr:
Happy Mother’s Day. Thank you for not aborting me but I still hate you and even if you tried you couldn’t have me back.
Fuck you, you bitch.
I’m sorry for my bad language but that’s the way I feel.

*cough* I know!

cj:
Hi Mom. My new name is __. I live in the USA. I am 12 years old. I am a Christian. And I have no hard feelings against you. :)

em:
Happy Mother’s Day! How are you? Are you well? Have you had any other kids? I have a big family now. And live in my RV and travel the country. I have a new name and still live with my brother __ who is now __. I would like to hear more.
I don’t resent you for what you’ve done. You made a mistake and like God I forgive you. God loves you.

This was our first and it was interesting. They ended up needing much more than honoring their first moms and it was ~~hard~~ good. I won't even try to explain. Afterwards, em went outside and just sat, quietly reflecting, while the boys went into their room to wrestle. Now that didn't surprise me.

Maybe I'm just right

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Tue, 01 May 2012 01:26:00 +0000

It's my husband's turn to mourn our "what could have been" ideas today but in our discussion today he had a good insight. We always wonder why WE ended up with kids who need loving non-sarcastic patient compassionate parents (none of which fit us). I ~~yet again~~ said why couldn't they get someone like _____ [insert that compassionate patient mom you know] who would feel normal doing this? He said maybe she couldn't handle it BECAUSE she is those things. Maybe she couldn't handle the rejection like we can. Maybe it takes a parent whose heart is just hard enough to withstand it.

Interesting.

So while I usually think they needed a softer mom, maybe they really need me, because I'm not a softie and I'll stick it out! ~~Maybe~~ Definitely I'm not the perfect mom that will be all they need to heal quickly, but maybe I am the perfect mom to stick it out and try mostly in vain but never give up so they can heal slowly.

Chaos to Healing

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Sat, 21 Apr 2012 02:32:00 +0000

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Post-Orlando let down, aka re-entry

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Sat, 24 Mar 2012 04:12:00 +0000

I went to Orlando again. And it's just as hard to describe. But I finally have words for one part and wanted to share.

I was on a pedestal...
...It was hard to step off.

Here's what happened. In Orlando, moms praise you for ANYTHING you do. Seriously.
Take the 5K. If you run it, they cheer. If you walk it, they cheer. If you hoop at the finish line instead, they cheer. If you cheer for others, they cheer. If you quit, they cheer. If you stay home in bed, they cheer. If you drive a van, they hold up the finish line and cheer. Whatever you want or need to do for you, they cheer.
And the same goes for your RADical parenting. Good or bad, they cheer, because at least you're doing it. Here's a quote from last year's post...

I was reminded that I do a lot of things right, and even more wrong, but greatly encouraged because I DO them. Did you catch that?
These moms thought I was awesome just because I do them.
Most people have no idea that I do them.
Can you imagine? I honestly wish every single one of you could. For the FIRST time ever, I felt fully loved, respected, appreciated, and encouraged by people other than my husband who fully understand what it's like to live with RAD.

Dealing with my RADical life, I sometimes "step down". I might not actually put ~~normal~~ other moms on a pedestal, but I do take a step below them in my mind. I have more to deal with, I get overwhelmed, I don't always do a good job, etc. I don't think they're better, luckier maybe, but I see them on a different level from me. So in my daily life, I know I'm trying and sometimes I'm amazing, but I just feel a step below.

In Orlando, moms say GET UP THERE MAMA! Step up here on this pedestal and let me tell you how awesome you are! I can't argue, because they're busy climbing up with me. And it's so fun at the top. It's a weekend beyond description (at least for now)...

Then you go home.

And no one sees the pedestal. They want food, love, attention, time, clean dishes... They don't ask if you'd like to sleep in, or eat this bag of cookies, or stay up late with your friends, or learn to knit, or soak in the hot tub, or read in peace. And more importantly, they don't tell you how awesome you are.

I was angry, but I wasn't sure why.
Sure, there's payback for mom being gone for days, we all expect that from RADicals.
Sure, there's a mourning period after such a refreshing retreat from RADical real life.
And sure, you miss your wonderful, supportive friends.
But after all that, I was still mad and didn't even know why. I should be happy. It was great, I learned a lot, and I was very glad to be home. But I was mad, resentful, mean even!

After a few ~~arguments~~ discussions with my poor husband, I finally realized I forgot to step off of the pedestal and get back to life. I'm still completely awesome and my heart's still perched up there grinning, but I needed to start using the tools I received to be an awesome mom. I had to get out of bed, put away the snacks, and start loving on my family again.

And guess what? I was happy!

And guess what else? I didn't step back down below the ~~normal~~ other moms. I stepped right there beside them. Budge over ladies, make room. This mom is awesome, even when I'm not awesome, whether I'm on my pedestal or not!

I ♥ Orlando.

You first

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Thu, 08 Mar 2012 01:42:00 +0000

Thought of the day: You know how Christine is always saying we can’t not do what we ask our children to do? (Yes, I hate her too.) But I’ve been thinking about all of us. The same way we simply want our kids to ACCEPT our love, that we freely offer NO MATTER WHAT they are/say/do… God loves every one of us NO MATTER WHAT we are/say/do. EVEN IF we have a horrible day of yelling, we shame our kids, we push them away, we think terrible thoughts, we say hurtful things… He still loves us. Period. We beg our kids to accept that, yet we think how could God love us when we’re struggling so bad, or ready to give up, or have given up, or don’t give him a second thought. He’s still there and he still simply loves us. No matter what. Think about this the next time you frustratingly tell your daughter “Will you PUH-LEASE just realize we love you NO MATTER WHAT?”
You first.

RADical Atlanta group

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Wed, 01 Feb 2012 02:34:00 +0000

RADical new website alert! I just learned about this resource for any of you near Atlanta. They'd love for it to go national one day too. If you're in GA, check it out!

Traumatized Adoptive Parents Support (TAPS)
http://tapsupport.blogspot.com
We are organizing a new support network for metro Atlanta to:
befriend and support each other, enjoy each others' company, affirm each others' experiences, find ways to help our children, back each other up, have each other to depend upon in emergencies, and for everyday help.

RADical moments

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Sun, 22 Jan 2012 03:00:00 +0000

I haven't blogged, mostly because I feel heard, supported, and most importantly UNDERSTOOD by trauma mamas I've connected with from Orlando. I heart Orlando.
But just because I went to Orlando doesn't mean our lives are no longer RADical. I mean, we live in an RV. We have 400 square feet of RADical. We have 24/7/365 of RADical. I just whine about it less, on my blog anyway.

Recent moments:

☹ May I just say I should not have to buy diapers we're out of because 1) he's 9 and 2) we've stayed at Walmarts (in the RV) the last few nights so we literally LIVE there & he's not mentioned it each time we go in & shop?! Argh!

♥ My daughter was acting really weird and I started to poke fun, remembered that's not nice, and realized she was feeling love! So I've been singing about how much she really loves love she just is afraid of loving love and she's saying noooooo but smiling and singing too.

♥ Guess what?!!! I'm the "yes-sayer!" I've always been quick to say no. Mom always told us no before we could even ask and I tend to to the same. Lately I've been REALLY focusing on saying yes. My son wanted something and asked me first, I said, yes. He said "Yes! I knew you'd say yes, because you're the yes-sayer"! LOVE! :)

☹ Why why why why cant I remember to expect trouble?! We move *ahem* very often so we always have a transition day of general badness and I expect it. This time we were busy on moving day and loved exploring (we're in the middle of nowhere in the desert) then had visitors the next day so I let my guard down. Ugh! The day after was our crap day and it took me by surprise, again. Halfway through, we both say ohhhhhh that's why they're insane today. Argh!

Find a (RADical) Friend!

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Sat, 21 Jan 2012 03:00:00 +0000

Check out what Diana at Gold to Refine is developing! Find a Friend is a network to help parents of traumatized or otherwise special needs children find each other in real life.

More info: http://goldtorefine.blogspot.com/2012/01/find-friend-update.html

RAD resources

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Sun, 25 Sep 2011 21:00:00 +0000

Help! I want ONE place to send to RAD moms who need help and hope.

I want a good all-inclusive list for RAD info, but that's hard! Here's what I've compiled so far, but I want to shorten it to one place and better info.
PLEASE POST ANY SUGGESTIONS!

Christine's videos are wonderful and very honest AND let you laugh so I'd start there. I think the sites are informative, but have found the best support on other blogs of moms who get it.

Therapeutic Parenting DVD
Chaos to Healing is a 99 minute Therapeutic Parenting 101 DVD by Christine Moers and Billy Kaplan. Watch it, then watch it again. You are welcome.
Need to watch it right this second? Yeah, you can do that with Amazon Instant Video!

Blog and videos
Christine is a great trauma mama. welcometomybrain.net
MUST SEE Videos: youtube.com/profile?user=christinemoers (What you do with pee is the BEST!)

Books
Therapeutic Parenting Manual by Denise Best - great handbook!
Beyondconsequences.com These books helped but only after we saw a video and really got it. The brain function info is great, although this approach is a struggle with our normal, and our RADicals' history of not trusting.
The Connected Child: Bring hope and healing to your adoptive family.

Orlando RAD retreat
Info about Orlando, a gathering for trauma mamas that is amazing. I highly recommend it.
momsfindhealing.com

Sites with RAD info
Attach.org
Attachmentdisorder.net
Radkid.org

Definitions of RAD
Definition of RAD in our home.
Wikipedia's definition of RAD.
Great article for teachers and others dealing with our RADical kids.

Good blog posts
Blessedby10.blogspot.com/2010/04/so-you-want-to-adopt-through-foster.html
attachmentdisordermaryland.com/parenting.htm

RAD Facebook groups
Moms of Attachment Challenged Children

RAD Forum/Community
Trauma Headquarters

Some RAD blogs
Goldtorefine.blogspot.com
Reactiveattachmentdisorderlife.blogspot.com
Mommyneedstherapy.blogspot.com
Stellarparenting.com
My-rad-life.blogspot.com

AGAIN PLEASE POST ANY SUGGESTIONS TO MAKE THIS SHORT, SWEET, BUT HELPFUL, THANKS!

Ten ways to support a RAD mom

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Wed, 24 Aug 2011 18:09:00 +0000

I came across this article on a RAD moms group and love it! Thought you might too.
http://adoption.families.com/blog/ten-ways-to-support-to-a-rad-mom

I haven't posted here forever! But I realize it's probably because of said RAD moms group. It's been so helpful to have supportive people who get it as close as my keyboard!

Orlando

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Sun, 24 Apr 2011 21:11:00 +0000

When you hear Orlando in "normal" circles, you think Disney World. When you hear it in RADical circles, it's said with the same awe, but means something else. I can't link you to a specific website that says this is Orlando, because Orlando is bigger than that. It's some kind of gooey cloud of support and love that floats around covering different people in different ways. Yes, that's a bit of a cop-out because it's just that hard to describe! Read this post and those below for other descriptions.
In short, Orlando is a weekend for just trauma mamas called SOUL Sisters (Supporting Our Unconventional Lives). Mostly moms of kids with early trauma and attachment issues (aka RADicals, like ours).
In long, Orlando is amazing. Yes, I realize that's actually shorter. It's not just what you do there, or who you meet there, or what you learn there, it's just BEING THERE.
Being with 68 women who actually live in your shoes. People who understand better than the best therapist ever could and don't care what you say, because they're saying it too. Hearing conversations that start with "The first time my son tried to kill me" and not being surprised. Having conversations where you tell people what your REAL life is like, and not holding back for fear of shocking them. Never saying "we're fine thanks" because they'd know that was a lie and also because they actually want to know. Hearing stories that make you so appreciative of how far your kids have come, and others that give you hope of how far they can go, and others that remind you that you're so not ready to adopt any more!
It was also a refreshing getaway. I slept in, stayed in my jammies, took hour long showers, and read til the wee hours. I took lots of mental notes and just soaked in how other moms deal with kids, situations, and feelings. I heard great new ideas and ways to handle them. I was reminded that I do a lot of things right, and even more wrong, but greatly encouraged because I DO them.
Did you catch that?
These moms thought I was awesome just because I do them.
Most people have no idea that I do them.
Can you imagine? I honestly wish every single one of you could. For the FIRST time ever, I felt fully loved, respected, appreciated, and encouraged by people other than my husband who fully understand what it's like to live with RAD.
I also got to meet RADical moms I've read about for years. Christine, Lisa, Ali, and so so so many more. Well, 67 more. 67 more amazing women who are rock stars for even SURVIVING RAD, let alone helping their kids to heal. And the theme of the weekend? I am not alone. I'm not! You're not! I have a rock that says so and a Supergirl ring to remind me AND now a MAP OF OTHER TRAUMA MAMAS! (That map is both encouraging and heartbreaking. So much hurt all over the map.)
There's so much more, tattoos, pedicures, hooping, table dancing, laughing, crying, watching others run a 5k (while eating, in my jammies)... but you just had to be there. I thank Corey and Christine from the bottom of my RADical heart for letting me be there, at the last minute, and I pray I can go again next year!
Most of the group after a Greek dinner, during which most of us danced on tables at some point.
My amazing housemates after the Greek dinner.
Our house on the last day. I wish they all had RVs and we did a RADical caravan around the country!
More pics from the Orlando Flickr group (these pics shamelessly lifted from there).

More Orlando posts (oh my, so many!):
The Waggoners

Kristine

Mighty Isis
Sarah

Beemommy

Christine of WelcomeToMyBrain.net (another and another)
Corey - Saturday
Corey - Friday
Corey - Advance party
Ali
Roz
Storing Up Treasures (and again)

Mothering for Money
Marty's Musings
Ranch Chico
The Accidental Mommy
Story of Our Life
Sarah
Our Fab Five
Christina
The Short Bus
The Other Mother
CORoots
Mothering for Money
Peace in Puzzles (another and another)
Mama Drama
Stellar Parenting (another)

My Sweeter Chaos

Why North Dakota

Lisa
Sarah
GB's Mom
Brandy
Last Mom
Diana
Tiruba Tuba
With Love From Sumy
Stacey
D
Jamey (another and another)

Attachment parenting?

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Thu, 24 Feb 2011 01:01:00 +0000

First of all, I think these parents are 100% correct and actually love what they're doing and admit this post is motivated completely by jealousy on my part...
With that out of the way, does anyone else get annoyed with normal people who do attachment parenting? Don't get me wrong, I love that they do, just not that they call it that. I want to scream that's simply parenting! That's how it should be! (Granted, it is quite different than much of today's normal parenting but they're already attached!)
I get that they're using great principles and increasing attachment (and aware of doing so) and doing it to a new level even and that they rock, but if you have attachment, it's sooooo different than trying to get attachment. If there's no RAD, trauma, or the many, many other issues that make trying to get attachment so um, insane, well, that's just good parenting! That's easy! (As easy as parenting is, which it isn't, but it's not trauma parenting!) But that's what so many of us would like to go back in time and get, to attach from the beginning and not have to fight so hard for it.
Is that horrible? That's okay, it's my blog. But does anyone else get annoyed with it? Does anyone else want to say dump your baby out of that sling, give him to someone else to abuse for a few years, THEN see if you can do it? I know, that IS horrible.
And see, total jealousy on my part, I know. I guess selfishly I'm saying I do what you do, but mine is way, way harder. Wahh, what a baby. :)

I get to go to Orlando!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Unspeakable Joy) — Tue, 22 Feb 2011 23:40:00 +0000

Oh my word! I get to go to Orlando next weekend!!! I'm still in shock! I saw Christine post on Twitter about coming to Orlando and just asked about her schedule, because we're currently near Orlando and I hoped to say hi. THEN I realized that she's coming for THE Orlando getaway that I had already written off last year thinking we wouldn't still be in Florida in March. Well, thanks to my procrastination of an event that I pushed back to later in March, I'm IN Florida, near Orlando, available, AND Christine had an opening in her house! (There are many houses this year!)
So, all of a sudden, I get to have a RADical weekend with many other RADical moms! How exciting is that?
Who else is going?? More info on Orlando here!
And here is my roommate! http://ramblingsofatraumamamma.blogspot.com/
And THAT Lisa from Life in the Grateful House?! And Ali from Crawford Life & Times?! And a new RVing family I'd heard about?!
I'm seriously freaking out here!