Rah Times

Spoken word

2020-09-16T07:32:00.008-05:00

My heart is beating right now

Can you feel it, I can feel it.
A minute ago you had something to say,
Don't let my emotions get in the way of progress.

Yah, yah, yah, but I can't help it.
When I get emotional,
Words rolls from my lips.
I don't have to say it, but I'll say this.

This is my feelings this very minute.
Deny that I'm feeling, still I'm feeling it.
You claim you're loving me,
So shield and cover me.

Let's divide truth from lies.
Who decides who lives and who dies?
Not because of just covid,
Because it's hard for some to survive

their harsh lives.

Don't give up on us, let us survive, lift us up,
Break down the dealings of society that's such a sham.
They smile, they frown pretend to like someone while they scamming.

Hey, but we all know God's the Judge
He'll take all the rat traps down.
He's got my back.
While some people, my people been falling.
Some of us will snap back.

A Conversation ( lyric)

2019-10-31T11:42:00.000-05:00

So, this is Jesus,
Girl, If you could see what God has for you,
You'd be amazed.
I said, show me Lord,
He said,
kingdom of heaven's yours.

Ok, I said, what about these things.
He replied,

Whatever your husband said,
All that your boss did.
Your worries,
Mountain of overdue bills
These things are earthly worries.

So, this is Jesus,
Your friend's dying,
Don't worry, I'll give him strength.
Whatever the doctor said,
Trust me, I'll make him well.

Ok, I said, I'm giving over,
Cynthia, Betty and Stanley.
Heal everybody,
You can do miracles.

I'm leaving all of them to you,

So, this is Jesus,
I' ve all but wrote on the wall
Not in person but through
Tamar, Micheal and Zachary.
In time nobody will be able to deny,
The examples I left to assist you.

Listen to Songs By Ruth latest single.

Have A Little More Faith on Spotify

Songs by Ruth on apple

Christmas Song By Ruth

Our Loss is Heavens Gain

2019-05-21T19:35:00.001-05:00

A friend of mine passed away yesterday. We never met in person but she shared her intent and musical gift with me.

The internet has a way to bring people together and though you might never meet them in person the bond is as real.

People at times makes great strides on the internet and others lose their hearts. In this case I feel the lost of a person I've never met, as if we had met.

I got introduced to Jennifer Dlomo through a woman who knew her from a child. Jennifer was the director of a South African children choir. Later she produced music for South African musicians.

I had been battered and bruised by life. I was born with a check two gene that causes breast, thyroid, and colorectal cancer. I had breast surgery in 2011 and later developed brain tumors in 2015. And it was anxiety from these struggles that is the root of my creativity.

I spend a huge amount of time writing and going to the doctor. While attending a pain management program at the Mayo clinic, I met one woman who introduced me to the woman who introduced me to Jennifer.

This all came about because of my sharing with her the songs I had written to deal with my thoughts of my medical issues.

I shared my heart desires to do something to enable South African women to climb out of poverty with Jennifer Dolomo.

She was open to my desire and we agreed to record one of my song lyrics believing that an all English song would help her singer break into the American market and that success would enable her to help others.

An initial recording of my song lyric was done but all the kinks were not worked out.

Then two days ago I emailed to find out how Jennifer was. I learned that she was gravely ill. She passed on yesterday from a stage 4 cancer.

She was a brilliant musician and I want to introduce Reedivah Da Queen to you. She is the singer Jennifer was trying to promote. Reedivah is an extremely talented singer. Here is a Link to her Le boom boom song that was produced by Jennifer Dolomo.

Thank you for reading and Please share the link

https://youtu.be/MkLEGwD41bs

Woman of worth

2018-02-25T12:49:00.000-06:00

My heart wants to remember
To never forget your beauty,
The joy you give,
That you do to benefit others,
Your vindication is righteousness,
And justice and truth is your value.

My Desire was Unreal

2017-11-09T22:05:00.000-06:00

Loved you as if you cared.

Lost you as if you were ever mine.

Thinking one day you'll surely,

Love and want me after I'm gone.

Your love's obscure, like an object on the ocean floor,

Til the tide brings it ashore,

it's existence obscure
invisible 'til it's touch is real.

XOXO 💖 A heart throb song
Your smile made me want to send you flowers.

Feeling Greatful/Behind the Lyric

2017-10-09T14:45:00.000-05:00

Two days before hurricane Harvey I got a report from my neurologist saying I had two benign brain tumors. It took me a few days to process her message and by then hurricane Harvey hit. My house got 6 inches of water in it. A week after the storm a remediation company came and they cut 24 inches of wall throughout my home and cleaned up all the mud that covered the floors.

I did my usual wining to my trusted friends, then after that I sent my medical information unto a relative who reviewed the findings.

Like real estate in where a tumor is located determines value, location determines the need for swift action. Mine was in the retina canal, millimeters behind the optic nerve. Even noncancerous legions grow and that was the danger I was faced.

I got to the Mayo clinic in Rochester Minnesota Wednesday night two weeks ago. On monday last week the tumor was removed. I spent the rest of last week in recovery and the step down unit.

Today, I am home and the sheet rock people are here to rebuild my home. I will be laid up in various hotel for several weeks. The unexpectedness and swiftness of the entire ordeal, left me overwelmned.

This is a condensed version of my emotions. In the past I had to deal with some tougher issues and felt disappointed in the unwilliness of some to assist or realize I truly needed their support. In my present circumstance I've let go of my expectations. Though I am still greatly disappointed I am greatful because I had flood insurance and health insurance and most importantly the best doctors in the world treating me.

I wrote a song of thanksgiving during difficult times. My hopes is that I will receive healing and that my tomorrows will be better than this moment.

My only desire is for people to listen and appreciate the message in my lyrics. It was only by the grace of God I was able to post today.

The picture is of me being prepared for gamma radiation months after my first surgery.

A Fountain of Joy

All I Ever Wanted

2017-09-09T19:56:00.001-05:00

All I ever wanted was,
your warm embrace.
To be comforted by your presence,
For my thoughts to not only be a dream.
To know not only ponder about your love.

I spent precious moment fighting to survive, being unsatisfied,
feeling cheated, betrayed, consumed with thoughts of you.
You gave to others, took from me, 'til I learned to love me.

Give Thanks in All Situation

2017-08-31T12:25:00.002-05:00

No matter how grim life circumstance gets take a minute to reflect on the positive.
After Brain surgery followed by gamma radiation two months later, I feel content. I feel far removed from my distress as though I am not lacking anything. I am grateful for the care and support I received though a difficult ordeal.

Sweet Spot a song I wrote after reflecting on my emotional highs and low that resulted from my situation, and feeling renewed after feeling empty.

For the doctors and nurses who took care of me after brain surgery, I am grateful. For the comfort and reassurance from family and friends, I am thankful.

Sweet Spot

A God of Second Chances

2017-08-26T12:58:00.001-05:00

I wrote the lyrics to a Song of Thanksgiving at a time when I was facing serious issues. I struggle with issues stemming from autoimmune disease. In addition I have other medical issues that has not been medically treated. It is like these issues has stolen apart of me and rob me of finding joy and contentment in things that should be celebrated. I feel my illness has held me back from being my best self.

I have pretty terrific children and I do for them in order that they are physical cared for but I feel that most of the time my tiredness does not exclude joy, or love.

As a young woman I chose to live according to biblical principles and to have faith and to trust God blindly. However, based on the action of some, I felt unloved and rejected by God. I wasn't truly thankful for feeling unfulfilled and pushed aside, but in this song, I wrote that God was a God of second chances.

After the musician created the music and produced the song, in my heart I felt that the lyric to this song was the very best I've ever written. It may not heal me, or give me rest, but if it ministers to someone else, then that's purpose. To live a life or to do to uplifts others was worth doing.

Listen to "A Song of Thanksgiving" Here

The Bubble was short Lived

2017-07-23T17:43:00.000-05:00

When I was young I adored you.

then I didn’t know what lacrosse was.
But I became a fan because you played.
'Til I found out about the mess you made.

The bubble I lived in was short lived.

Broken by all you exposed me to.
The bubble I lived in became crowded
Filled by those you got involved with.

Anything you told me, I’d believe.

Even your promise to take care of me.
As you can see, I’m no longer naïve.
‘N I’ve stopped wearing my heart on my sleeve.

If I want flowers, I buy it.
When I need an admirer, I write lyrics.
Though that may not give me the touch I need.
It's better than the nothingness that you give.

XOXO Heart Emoji link to a great woo song

I Needed You/ Everyone should know how to go about loving.

2017-07-19T20:26:00.000-05:00

I needed you, just not every other night.

I loved you the moment we locked eyes.

But for me a part-time lover just wasn’t right.

That was why I choose another to partner with in life.

I wished you stood with me when times got hard.

Many days my face was drenched with tears.

I had to get pass that on my own.

My hopes got shaken by my fears.

I know you can only start from where we are.

But your indifference was like a hammer.

It shattered whatever we had.

It’s finished, indifference not love is now our banner.

(Relationships have its challenges but no one should ever stick with negative energy.) Love uplifts and if it causes you to lose your best self, then that love is not for you but someone else.

Listen to a songs by Ruth
I wish love wasn't like Rocks ,
But a little more like clay
I wish it were more flexible
And not rough in any way.
I wish love was always great
And that it was good every day.

Songs By Ruth

2017-06-07T06:48:00.001-05:00

Go Away is now available on iTunes

Caramel Girl buy it here

Buy A Place or Love or listen to it here

Love That is valued

2017-05-09T18:30:00.000-05:00

A great Love warms your heart, does not leave during difficult times. Sticks around thorough great times and challenges. Everyone craves that rare love, few are prepared to exhibit, or knows it should be treasured.

This song video is a Patriotic song with very compelling lyrics and great vocal and piano music. Red white and blue
This love supportive, survive challenges.

Love Songs for all music lovers

2017-05-06T08:51:00.003-05:00

Here is a love song to add to your playlist I wish Love wasn't like Rocks
It's easy listening.

My Journey to Wellness

2017-05-02T13:15:00.001-05:00

My journey started with difficult and not knowing what I was dealing with. Understanding lead to knowing how to handle my challenges.

Here is a link into my journey into Lupus
My Journey into Lupus

XO XO Heart Emoji/ A Romantic song

2017-03-23T15:22:00.001-05:00

I've written a series of Love songs.

We all have our own love language and the way one person expresses love is not always the way another receives it. XOXO heart emoji is of love and the fear of rejection. It has a very catchy tune.

Listen to my songs on sound cloud. or on youtube
here. Best Love songs By Ruth Garnes on sound cloud

You Tube Link

Expressions of Love

2017-02-02T17:06:00.000-06:00

If you never said, you loved me
But spoke respectfully, with a kind gentle tone.
You treated me well, responded with understanding,
Relinquished my fears and concerns,
You didn't retaliate or turn away
after seeing and knowing my struggles,
but willingly assisted, without uttering words of love,
I'd say your action demonstrated care.
Was an expression of love, for
words aren't always necessary.

Meet the treat in your life.
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Buy a paper back copy of my poetry book here

There's No Point Complaining

2017-01-20T21:02:00.001-06:00

Every now and then bad things happen.
Tho’ there is a lot of good out there,
Sometimes those bad things can’t be fixed by voting.
Or by eating ice cream and drinking ice cold beer.

There’s no point complaining,

Or panicking about the change that's to come.
But when truth and confidence has dissipated,
We need a strong leader who can't come undone.

I pray that we could all come together.

Tho’ there are many haters out there.
Know, no one but God could satisfy all of us.
Politicians don’t help, they mostly interfere.

Buy a copy of my poetry book here

New Day

2017-01-19T06:04:00.000-06:00

It's a beautiful day when I awake
and you are beside me.
Whatever waits is of no importance.
Yesterday's challenges irrelevant,
your presence should be savored.
more than the need to scurry off to brew coffee,
the best start of any day is laying beside you.

Tomorrow

2017-01-09T09:52:00.002-06:00

No one would be placed into ethnic category.

Everyone would be identified by numbers.

Intention would be to not distort view,

That all would be treated fairly.

But those resistant to change,

would not be able to trade,
Buy goods or exchange services.

When that time comes, many will fear
Because of bible teachings,
of the one referred to as the Anti-Christ.

Had we met, I would have displayed love towards you!

2016-12-28T02:30:00.000-06:00

Its been a while since I've written anything other than poetry in my blog. It is about 1:34 a.m. and I should be asleep but I'm restless. On Tuesday of next week, I get scoped to see the effects autoimmune disease has on my digestive tract. It was the urge to cough that awoke me. My titer for Systemic Lupus was hardly positive but the disease seems further along than my blood test shows.

My body is super tired and its probably because I've not been getting a lot of sleep. I went to bed at 10p.m. but was awaken by that coughing.

Not only my digestive tract is affected but also my thoughts. I've moments of brain fog where the simplest of task is actually quite difficult. My short term memory seems to be greatly impacted. That is actually quite bothersome.

There are many things from my past that I would rather forget, but how I feel and what I intend to say, I am more inclined to not remember, as opposed to the distasteful things in life.

I can say this much though, when people are heartless or lacking in human compassion, the way they behave towards you when you are in great health does not change when your ill.

As my disease progressed knowing who truly loved me in life became relevant. I want to spend my wakeful moments with those I truly love and those who loves me. Sadly, I've concluded that as many who claimed to love, that very few people truly do. It was not that I was unlovable but some seem incapable of kindness, or knowing how to love.

I started writing my last poetry collection after having breast surgery in 2011 and that was difficult. Though auto-immune disease seemed to plagued me since my teen years, it went undiagnosed. According to the literature one can live a long life with treatment. I am now 53 and was diagnosed in April 2016, after the disease left it's mark on me.

I statured my blog with poetic expression to unveil some hurt, but I could never reveal my true ordeal. "The Cry of Our Children," my latest poetic collection was meant as a gift to heal a hurting world and for my suppressed voice to be heard. Many has read my poems on my blog but few as purchased the book. I supposed a gift should not be sold or bought at a price although it resulted from illness.

I was able to put my thoughts together and documented my journey into Lupus. This is that story

I unlocked the doors of love
For to gaze in his eyes.
A woman on a hunt to
Be swept away and to be mesmerized,
desiring a love that was gentle and kind,
the search took many twists and turns
opened and closed many corridors,
Was greeted by disrespect and pity but made

The most important discovery.

What others could not give or deliver,
overflowed within me.
The love I willing gave, furnished what I needed.

Buy my ebook by selecting this link

Get it in paper back here

Lessons in the Past

2016-12-20T10:17:00.003-06:00

What I loved when I was young,
I look at and turn away from now.

Not because my heart has changed,

What I was innocent to then, I see beforehand.
By my actions and past choices, I've learned,
Recognize my taste was craved by my past.

But had the past start at this moment,
People I impacted, hurt, loved,

I can't say who they'd be,
the new me might not be, what I know,
all I've learned, I wouldn't have.
So I'm thankful for my past and all
Who contributed in some way

To my person.

Buy my ebook of poetry here

Don't be Left Behind

2016-12-10T08:31:00.000-06:00

Don't Be Left Behind. Get a copy of Ruth Garnes The Cry Of Our Children.
The focus of her poems are of love not destruction.
By loving more we discriminate less
For love is the foundation of peace.
And if all had love
What more would any need?
Buy a copy of my poetry book here

Life was filled with Guns and war
And everyone got trampled on the floor
I wish we'd all be ready.
Children died the days grew cold.
A piece of Bread could buy a bag of gold.
I wish we'd all be ready.
There's no time to change your mind.
The son has come
And you've been "Left Behind" (these lyric was from the original Left behind movie)

See the Movie Here

I wish I knew Her

2016-12-08T09:00:00.002-06:00

The woman sits as though she rules
As if her words could touch us.
And we ignored her truth.
Cause they don't affect us.
She sees error in our teachings,
Those who guided us for centuries.

We don't know her name.
from where she came, or intend to take us.
She draws us in, then spits us out
With her emotional babblings,
Captivating her pain not ours,
born from her version of truth
experiences, still I wish
I knew her.....
Perhaps then I'd take her seriously.
But who listens to a babbling stranger?

Buy a copy of my poetry here

I love you best of all

2016-12-05T19:46:00.000-06:00

I was hurting.
I thought you would comfort me.
I believed that was the kind of thing you do.
but I was wrong and so are they.

They say you love me best.
not that I loved you more.
but they don't know
I am an angel, and you don't care.

You chose to walked away.
You left me to suffer.
I called out help me.
All you did was quote scripture.

They say you loved me nonetheless.
you helped others but has not given to me.
You chalked that up to mistake.
I don't see your actions as lovely.