Ramblings from an OCD mom

Wow!

2012-05-01T16:00:00.001-05:00

It amazes me that someone can stand there and call someone else a coward and then not even sign a name to their comments! I would say that if you have something to say that you should have the balls to say it with your name associated with any comments you might have.

How do they do it?

2011-01-24T13:57:00.000-06:00

I see these women who have one, two or sometimes more children. They are cute, well-dressed and look very put together. They are organized. Their kids are involved in activities and they are doing mommy events and their house looks great and their job is great and I want to scream!! How Do They Do It? I feel like my house is ALWAYS a mess! I can barely put foundation on let alone any other makeup or fix my hair. How is it that these women are able to juggle all these things without dropping anything?!?!

Organize Everything!!!

2011-01-12T13:34:00.000-06:00

Okay so for my New Year's resolution to organize everything I have decided to start with my daughter's room since she has soooo many new Christmas toys.

1. I purchased a nice bookcase from onestepahead.com that could later move out into the living room and fit just fine without looking like my house is designed by a 6 year old!

2. I also got a net to hang to hold her stuffed animals. She loves them and I think they are clutter so this is the best compromise that I could come up with!

3. I bought underbed storage for her clothes in the next two sizes up so they are taking up much less closet space!

Anyone with any other ideas, please let me know!

New Year's Resolutions

2011-01-03T09:20:00.000-06:00

Okay so here is my New Year's Resolution list;

1. Be more organized!!
2. Do more crafts
3. Attend church EVERY Sunday, not just when I feel like it.
4. Try monthly cooking
5. Pay down Debt
6. Quit smoking
7. Workout 3 times a week

I often wonder if I might actually do my New Year's Resolutions if I had less of them but then I figure the chances of doing at least one of them if the list is long is probably better too!!

Almost Christmas!

2010-12-22T12:01:00.000-06:00

Well it's almost Christmas!! I am sooooo excited for Leilani's first Christmas where she will actually be involved in the opening of her presents! Her dad and I went in together on purchasing a play house for the back yard and I am just sure she's going to love it! If, that is, I can get some help getting it set up before Christmas morning LOL. I would have to say that the holiday hasn't been easy dealing with a divorce at the same time as going through the holiday but I think we have handled things pretty well and are doing just fine on our own! I have currently been thinking of my new year's resolutions. I want to be a better person, mother, girlfriend, friend, daughter that sometimes it's all very overwelming!! I have one more week to ponder and plan, Any ideas?

Weekly Menu

2010-12-07T11:05:00.000-06:00

Monday: Frozen Pizza

Tuesday: Soup and Sandwiches

Wednesday: Hamburger Helper

Thursday: Nachos

Friday: Spaghetti and meat sauce

Saturday: Taco Bake

Sunday: Leftovers

WOW It's been awhile

2010-11-30T13:45:00.000-06:00

Okay so it has definately been awhile since I've posted. Updates, updates......where to begin really?!? Well, no longer married and trying to do the single parent thing has been quite a learning experience so let's start there. My daughter's father decided when she was about 10 months old that he had made a mistake and growing up was not something he was ready to do yet. So, he moved out and moved in with a friend of his and he plays daddy 4 days a month. Meanwhile, I have been cooking, cleaning, teaching, learning, giving baths, dealing with everyday tantrums and starting to work on potty training!! I have to admit there are days where I just want to crawl back in bed and sleep until I can't sleep anymore but for the most part, I still love what I do everyday. I have decided that I need to be WAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY more organized though to make it on my own with all the things I need to get done in one day. So I am on the lookout for some online help for organizing my suddenly very busy and crazy life!! Any ideas????

To move or not

2010-05-27T11:46:00.000-05:00

Well so far I have been at a crossroads with whether or not we should move to the Kansas side of the metro. I have on the pro-side of moving the fact that we would not be on a lake so that we don't have to worry about the kids being that close to the water. Also, the fact that we both work in Kansas and live in Missouri so we wouldn't have to pay double taxes anymore. Then there's the fact that we could find a newer, bigger house that could possibly need less work and might actually have a yard we can be outside and play in, which is always nice. However, on the con-side of moving there is the fact that 2 of the 3 school districts we are looking at moving to don't measure up to where we currently live. Then the big kicker is we would be closer to my husbands family and some of his friends that I'm not exactly thrilled about. Also, the hassle of selling our house, packing everything up, finding a place to live with 3 adults, a baby and 3 dogs in between houses and the stress of buying a new home.

I am leaning toward not moving on the basis that I think moving closer to my husband's family and some of his friends would end up causing marital problems for us plus at best we would be moving to an eqivalent school district. Although a new house would be nice and it's always fun to shop, I just don't think the "juice" in this case would be worth the squeeze.

Earth Week

2010-04-20T08:35:00.001-05:00

For Earth Week this year I have decided that I am giving up paper towels. I can use old towels and shirts that I have cut up to be cleaning towels. Any extra towels I need I will probably try and purchase cheaply at the dollar store or possibly a thrift store. This is not only going to save the planet but will also save me money, so I get to kill two birds with one stone on this one!! Let me know if you have any other ideas!!

DEALS

2010-04-19T16:00:00.000-05:00

So I have been doing the coupon thing for about 2 months now and I think I have a pretty good handle on how this works now. Here are the deals I am going after this week:
Target
GE Energy Smart Light bulbs – $2.99/ea
Use $1/1 here
PLUS
Use $2/1 Target coupon here
Final Price = FREE
Vaseline Sheer Infusion Lotion (look for pkgs w/1 oz samples attached) – $4.99-5.99/ea
Use $3.75/1 Vaseline Sheer Infusion 4/11/2010 RP Insert (exp 5/9/2010)
PLUS
Use $1/1 Target Printable Coupon (Vaseline Body Lotion) here
Final Price = $0.24-1.24/ea
Tide 2X Ultra Travel Size Detergent – $0.97/ea
Use $1/1 Tide, any 4/4/2010 P&G Insert (exp 4/30/2010)
Final Price = FREE

St. Ives Oatmeal & Shea Butter Body Wash, Hydrating Vitamin E Body Moisturizer, and Fresh Skin Invigorating Apricot Scrub (All Travel Size) – $0.97/ea
Use$1/1 St. Ives Body Product 3/21/2010 SS Insert (exp 4/30/2010)
Final Price = FREE

Snuggle Fabric Softener (liquid) – $3.99/ea
Use $3/1 Snuggle Fabric Softener 3/28/2010 RP Insert (exp 5/2/2010)
Final Price = $0.99/ea
Band-aids (select kids, others) – $1.77-1.82/ea
Use $1/1 Target Coupon here
PLUS
Use $0.50/1 Band-Aid Products 3/14/2010 RP Insert (exp 5/31/2010)
Final Price = $0.27-0.32/ea
Crest Kid’s Toothpaste (4.6 oz) – $1.67/ea
Use $1/1 Target Coupon here
PLUS
Use $0.75/1 Crest Toothpaste 3/7/2010 P&G Insert (exp 4/30/2010)
Final Price = FREE
Gillette Fusion Razor (1 ct) – $4.99/ea (will likely vary by store)
Use $4/1 Fusion Razor 4/4/2010 P&G Insert (exp 4/30/2010)
Final Price = $0.99/ea
Satin Care Shave Gel (travel size) – $0.97/ea
Use $0.55/1 Satin Care Product any 3/7/2010 P&G Insert (exp 4/30/2010)
Final Price = $0.42/ea
Band-aids (8-10 ct travel size, Hello Kitty & others) – $0.97/ea
Use $0.50/1 Band-Aid Products 3/14/2010 RP Insert (exp 5/31/2010)
Final Price = $0.47/ea
Reach Dental Floss (unsure of size – assuming travel) – $0.97-1.12/ea
Use$1/1 Reach Dental Floss or Flosser 10/18/2009 RP Insert (exp 6/30/2010)
Use $1/1 Reach Floss or Access Flosser 3/7/2010 RP Insert (exp 12/31/2010)
Final Price = FREE – $0.12/ea

Downer

2010-02-06T20:52:00.001-06:00

So I was excited for the hubby and I to finally have some alone time and what happens? Oh, he invites his best friend over to watch the game! So after rushing around like a mad woman to clean the house before he got there, because I got a whole hour's notice I get to sit upstairs and play with our 6 month old by myself. Then his best friend leaves somewhat early and I think, "okay now we get some alone time" and nope he's asleep on the couch! Well next weekend is valentine's day and he had better get it right because it seems like this is a reoccuring nightmare I keep having.

Grandma wars

2010-02-02T20:38:00.001-06:00

I really thought this wouldn't be a big problem for me but I guess it has turned out that the grandma's are going to be jealous of the time the other grandma gets. My hubby has made several comments that would lead me to believe that his mom made some comments about how she felt she didn't get enough baby time at our holiday gathering. And how my mom seemed to hog the baby. Now I'm not trying to get in a huge argument about this with anyone but grow up! Are you serious? How old are we anyway? I think I got into a similar argument about friends when I was in the second grade!

Awkward Moments

2010-01-28T09:06:00.002-06:00

Well we had my brother-in-law's birthday party last night at my mother-in-law's house and it was the first time we had seen his fiance(the nanny) since she left Leilani in the swing for 5 hours in one day. It was definately uncomfortable at first and I would have to say when she asked if she could hold Leilani I really wanted to say no, but I managed to be nice and at the end I even hugged her goodbye. I don't know if I have all the sudden become more aware of other people's feelings because it is a mommy-gene that all mom's have or if it's just part of getting older but I can tell you that 2 years ago if that had happened we wouldn't have been able to be in the same room let alone would I have hugged her goodbye. I was pretty proud of myself for handling that moment as well as I did because I was pretty upset when I watched her to that to my baby on the nanny-cam!!

Baby fever already???

2010-01-27T14:29:00.002-06:00

So last night we are getting ready to go to sleep and my husband asks me, "Not that I am saying I want to right this second or anything but, if I was ready in the next few months to start trying to have another baby would you be ready?" I about choked!! I even mentioned having another baby in a few years and he was always quick to say, "No, one is enough!" but now here he is when our daughter turns 6 months old on Friday and he's asking if I'm ready for another one??? He said that she is just getting so much more fun now that she's able to react to things and more interactive than she was when she was first born. I do want to have another baby at some point but I think that the next few months might be a little soon. I also guess I just am having a bit of an issue with it because I thought it would be more of an argument when I was ready for another baby, and now it seems I may have to slow him down!! LOL

Dash minerals

2010-01-26T11:34:00.001-06:00

So my cousin and I are going to try our hand at owning our own business! We found a company called dash minerals that makes a product very similar to the popular mineral makeups out there but carries one less ingredient that is known to cause itching. We are going to be consultants. I've always enjoyed doing makeup and I've always been the one everyone comes to when they want their makeup done for a special night. I figure this is just the next step! I don't have a website yet but I am working on that next. Anyone interested in more information can email me at dashminerals@hotmail.com

Girls Night Out

2010-01-22T10:06:00.003-06:00

I am soooooo excited for my girls night out tomorrow night!! I haven't gone out in now almost 6 months and it's just going to be me and the girls. No hubby, and no baby!! I think I will miss them while I am out but I am definatly not going to let that stop me from having the fun I desperatly deserve!! We are going to start off at a bar where we can just sit and chat and then head off to another bar that is more like an adult arcade which should be fun. My cousin, Angie is coming and she really wants to dance so we may have to hop to yet one more bar to squeeze some dancing in. I, however, will not be found on the dance floor. I haven't lost all the baby weight and I keep telling my cousin that nobody wants to see a fat girl jiggling on the dance floor. I will leave the dancing to her. I will definatly take pictures and post some later. For now because I hardly ever post any pics I am going to add one to this post of my adorable baby girl!!

Men suck!!

2010-01-18T13:48:00.001-06:00

I am about to go postal on my hubby! I don't understand why men think they need to lie about the dumbest stuff! You know that I'm going to be mad at you for lying and that I will probably be mad at you for whatever the reason was that you thought you needed to lie in the first place so why then do you keep putting us through this same argument by coming up with lies?!? I am at the end of the rope here and not sure what to do. I love my husband but we keep having the same arguments over and over and nothing ever changes!

Finally, a breakthrough!

2010-01-08T15:42:00.001-06:00

I finally feel like I've gotten somewhere with my hubby on the whole his mom wanting to watch our daughter once a week drama! I don't think he necessarily wants it to be this way but he said that he would agree to a compromise of her not watching her regularly as long as we called his mom first whenever we needed a sitter. To which, I promptly agreed knowing full well that I probably won't stick to that agreement but hey the way I see it he told me three times if things didn't work out and I didn't like his mom watching our daughter that I could take her somewhere else but each of those three times she was right back at his mother's house the next week. So if he can tell me little white lies to get his way then I should be able to do the same!

MIL hell

2009-12-29T12:49:00.001-06:00

So I could see this coming a mile away but no matter what I did I couldn't seem to stop it. My mother-in-law has been watching our daughter one day a week for the last few months and basically doing everything the exact opposite of the way I ask her to and now that my mom is getting ready to move up and we don't need her to watch our daughter she is throwing a tantrum about how she's never going to see her and basically pulling at my husband's heart strings so that she can get her way. Not to mention that she knows this will cause us to have a fight but ya know what does she care about my marriage if she gets her way. My husband and I have been fighting about something to do with his mom watching our daughter since she started watching her and I fear if I don't get us out of this cycle soon it will be the end of our marriage. Not to mention the fact that his mom defends the nanny and the fact that she left our daughter in a swing for about 5 hours out of a day! What kind of grandma would take the nannies side on that?

My next dramaful family Christmas

2009-12-22T22:32:00.001-06:00

Well, I guess I figured if I could handle the drama of having a family Christmas with my dad's new "wife" then i could handle anything because I offered to host Christmas for my husband's family on Christmas day. The same family where his brother called me fat at nine months pregnant, the same family where his "sister-in-law" was our nanny and chose to leave our child in the swing for 5 hours out of the day, the same family where 2 of his brothers and his mom took the nannies side on the siuation and his mom called him behind my back and tried to get him to give the nanny another chance knowing that it would cause a huge fight between my husband and I if that happened! Well I don't know if it's Christmas spirit or if I'm just crazy but here we go again.....

Family Christmas

2009-12-22T09:01:00.001-06:00

Well we had our family Christmas this past weekend and our actual Christmas wasn't bad other than being a little awkward. But the next day we were at the American legion post visiting Santa and someone was introducing my dad's "wife" to someone and with me sitting right there she made sure to throw in her new last name. She would't dare say something like that in front of my brother but she knew that I care enough about what my dad thinks that I wouldn't say anything. And I had actually started to feel sorry for her the night before because nobody was really talking to her. I just need to remember all the little "digs" she decides to get in when she can, which my dad swears isn't on purpose. I mean can't he see that everytime I tell him something bothers me that she brings it up to throw it in my face?

Baby's First Christmas

2009-12-11T16:03:00.002-06:00

Well......I am so excited for my baby's first Christmas I can hardly stand it!! I know that she is only 4 months old and won't remember it at all but it is so important to me that she gets to do and see everything "special" about Christmas!! I have been researching fun and exciting events to do in the Kansas City area and areas nearby for kids and have found a few great ones. One is Deanna Rose Farmstead and it doesn't cost much either!! Anyone with other ideas let me know!!

Nanny Woes

2009-12-03T07:22:00.002-06:00

So I thought it would be a great idea to have people I know watch my daughter while I went back to work. I guess that is what I get for thinking. I have a huge mess on my hands with more family and friend drama than I ever asked for!! I hired my husband's little brother's girlfriend (say that 3 times fast) to be my nanny three days a week and then my husband and I got the sneaking feeling that my daughter was spending too much time in the swing because everytime either of us walked in unannounced she was in the swing. So I mentioned to the nanny that my daughter didn't need to spend too much time in the swing......ya know we want her to roll over and crawl and stuff too. Then at 4 months she's not even attempting to roll over yet so I decide to set up a nanny cam just to see how much time she was spending in the swing and what I saw was shocking!! I kid you not if my daughter was not having a bottle or in bed for her nap she was in that swing all day, while my "nanny", and I use that word loosely, sat on the couch and text messaged her friends, changed her facebook status and made a cleaning list for herself when she got home. I was so mad I was shaking. I wondered, would the courts go lighter on me for hurting her because I did it in a fit of rage being a mean momma bear???? So now I have to fire the "almost" sister-in-law and try and keep my husband and his brother on good terms at the same time. I called her and told her about the nanny cam and told her we were sorry it had to end like this but we would be using someone else. My husband's brother eventually called and they got in to a huge fight, he was stating that you don't treat family that way.......Well what is my daughter, chopped liver? You don't treat family that way either but she did!! I am not really sure but I would bet that there is someone I could call to make sure she never does that to anyone else's kid that she nanny's for!!

Cleaning Company Ideas???

2009-11-24T09:55:00.002-06:00

So my mom will be moving up soon and I am trying to help her get some leads for her cleaning company. Meanwhile all the business we get until she moves up will have to be handled by me. :( But it's nice to have the extra money. I am looking for any ideas anyone might have for drumming up some more business though!! I really want to make sure that she has enough to keep her afloat when she moves up. Thanks!!

My life, the Jerry Springer Show

2009-11-19T11:39:00.000-06:00

Well, I suppose I should start from the very start if I am going to tell you this story. My parents, after 27 years of marriage, are getting divorced. It will be final as of November 21, 2009. I was told about it when I was about 6 months pregnant and about 2 months before my wedding day, they considered not telling me because of my "condition". So then come to find out my dad has a girlfriend and my mom has a boyfriend and just so that the situation could be a little more dramaful the boyfriend and the girlfriend are married...........to each other. Now, they got divorced and my parents are about to be divorced so that they could basically partner-swap each other. So as you can imagine I was a little upset about this new-found knowledge I had been so blessed to recieve. I have a little brother who is about to turn 24 in a few weeks and he was pretty upset about it as well. I don't know if it's because I was pregnant and hormones were all different but suprisingly I handled the "news" really well. I even let the girlfriend come to my house to visit with my dad and the boyfriend come to my house to visit with my mom. I think a big part of why I am trying to make it work as hard as I am is my daughter. I really want her to know her grandparents because I really didn't have that growing up and I was always jealous of little kids who did. So now I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. Yesterday my dad made a comment that would lead me to believe that he and his girlfriend will be married pretty soon and I am torn between "being nice" and telling him my true feelings and thus possibly pushing him away from me and/or my daughter. I have tried to talk to him before and tell him my feelings and the most I can get back is an, "I'm sorry you feel that way". He kept saying that he wanted the divorce to be finalized so that the healing process could begin for me and my brother but I am beginning to think that he wanted the divorce to finalize for the same selfish reasons that he left and the same selfish reasons he didn't care who he hurt when he did leave........whether that be my little brother, my mother, me, my unborn child, etc. I then wonder.......someday will I be so self-involved that I too choose my wants and desires before anyone else's. Will my daughter someday think that I am so conceited and self-absorbed? Because he is my dad could it be possible that I too someday will not care about her her health or her feelings as much as my own? Could I have fallen heir to this obviously less than desireable trait?