random thoughts of a clueless doc

HElp!

2011-09-19T20:26:00.001+05:30

great im on squidoo and on hubpages and god knows what else now ....
and i dont think im gonna be making anythig outta it other than a fool outta myself...
do chk it out if you are completely jobless!!!
http://murali14.hubpages.com/hub/To-fear-or-not-to-fear

http://murali14.hubpages.com/hub/Dont-be-so-serious

http://murali14.hubpages.com/hub/-Good-doctor-Bad-patient

http://www.squidoo.com/5-things-you-should-know-before-an-enterprise-ride-

i cant seem to find it ..

2011-09-16T15:30:00.000+05:30

what is it about me..or is it happening to everyone?

my weekends seem like a big deal....like a huge amount of time when they are approaching

and then poof ...they jus disappear...

it happens every week....on friday its like i have two days...TWO DAYS TO GO..

and really happy with myself ...i sit and plot...i sit and plan...

__ for saturday morning...

__ for sat night ..etc etc

and then the time that was there ....isnt there anymore...where did it go???..

and hence on monday morning ..or if im lucky on sunday night i ll do like a weeks worth of work in like 2 hours..and no....no time for relief and all that...i have the next week waiting for me ....and gosh does it start with a bang...MONDAY MORNING!!

and you will wonder why im rambling about monday morning on a friday evening...well you would too if monday morning involved 3 of your most hated subjects in a row...ok i admit i like psychiatry a lil bit (arent we all a little mad anyway...)and i have soooo much to do in the next two days ...that im gonna end up doing on ..sunday nights...wonder what we would do if there were no saturdays and sundays in a week :(

akshayapathram of thoughts...

2011-09-09T18:37:00.001+05:30

so i sit here after somebody says sumthing and wonder what they are probably thinking on the other side...

and turns out i come up with more possibilities than the other person can handle...

(which also explains why im usually right if im guessing something....i go thro the entire list..!!!)

but you have to understand....if u dont tell me real fast what you are thinking ...its scary sitting here looking at one sentence and wondering what you could probably be thinking...

and hence the akshaya pathram of thoughts....

but i guess the akshaya pathram would stop producing food once everyone ate and the pot was cleaned...my thoughts dont stop....

which is also why i dont manage to get any sleep...the stupid brain of mine wont stop working ...

it has to wonder about a million different things at once...

it has to analyse every sound in the middle of the night...

and i cant help it ..

so if you see me typing away while you think how you should respond...

1.reply fast

2.dont complain...its not like i can help it ...:)

long weekend...dont know wat i hate

2011-08-15T18:39:00.000+05:30

when i had a good net conn i wasnt allowed coz of xams...

wen xams got over...net conked off and ...

wen i had a good conxn and exams were done...i was banned from net usage ....not that i had any energy after 7 exams non-stop...(yes medicine is a frustrating irritating course to pursue...)

so i have been stuck at home ...4 days in a row...

with a medical novel in hand...which i wasnt allowed to read...

a lot of not so medical but very very anatomical novels from my sister (yes i do have a pretty cool sis..)

and lots of games....but alas! couldnt do any of those...

holiday spl movies....which i couldnt watch...

movies on my lappy i wasnt allowed to watch.....

great...and now at the end of 4 days off...i dont know if i hate a working day more or a holiday more !!!

outta the blue

2011-07-21T16:56:00.000+05:30

the thing abt being a doctor or trying to become one is that you cant be A CLUELESS DOC..
you have to know everhything ...always..
which is what i am afraid of the most...
you cant never let your knowledge let you down..
and its not like people will ask you only after you get your degree...
people will ask you whenever wherever...OUTTA THE BLUE..
UR a med student...ur sposed to know..
friends
family
relatives
friend's friends
....
anybody...
and you should know what you have to do coz u cant google it up all the time..
and yeah there are escape routes....what we call 'BLANKET TREATMENT' ....
where u just treat every damn thing possible so the patient invariably gets better...
but thats just how it isnt supposed to be done..
and i dont wanna b another quack...
i dont want to be a quack at all!!
i want to go out there and be the bestest doc ever...
and not knowing doesnt help! :(
but hey how am i sposed to get 7000-8000 pages of knowledge into my head AND REMEMBER IT ALL

when in a fight...

2011-07-20T22:13:00.000+05:30

i have always wondered this...if ur the non contributing member by which i mean audience in a fight...and ur not like supporting anyone...
do u get to laugh at the lack of logic and the irrational arguments or do u sit and cry that u cant laugh??
trust me it is frustrating...u cant laugh and u cant swallow the laugh...
being in a fight of course is an entirely different story...u can wateva u want and say i said it in a fit of rage (and thank god we get to say that...its A LIFESAVER...that phrase..)
the safest thing hence is probably to jus dip ur nose into a book and act like ur reading and mentally laugh at /curse the situation..or cry if u must ...but ...arrrrgh nevermind

corvus and his kids....or uncles..or aunts..or girlfriends...

2011-07-16T16:42:00.000+05:30

okay so you all have read the story about corvus the crow...(if you haven't i recommend you do ...)
i really dont know how or why ....but apparently all our ancestors come back as crows....and you have to feed your ancestors before you eat...and on saturdays the blessings get doubled by some kind of divine mathematics.....i dont get much time to pray throughtout the week anyway..unless there is an exam of course...so saturday is the prayer room cleanup,prayer backlog completion etc etc day..
and there is this annoying cawing match going in the background....outside the kitchen window ...with glossy black feathers and a keen eye sits the most irritating crow ever....i kinda assumed it was a call for the lady next door and didnt bother about it...
but then i saw the same crow on the windowsill in the next room...centimetres away from the table..fighting like i stole his breakfast (ot a she bt im sure if it were a she..she wouldnt have bothered with the manners and all..woulda come in and pecked my nose...)..then it hit me...
we werent being nice to the crow by feeding it....it was his birthright to eat at our place by 8 am everyday...and crows dont like it wen their breakfast gets delayed...and so he kept shuttling between rooms till i served his majesty his breakfast...
usually crows get freaked out if u get anywhere close...this one almost ate outta ma hand...and then
THE SAME ANNOYING CAWING...10 mins later..i noticed it was a family meal...5 of em on my windowsill sharing a handful of rice...
HAPPENS ONLY IN INDIA :)

random thougts ABT EXAMS!!

2011-07-02T22:34:00.000+05:30

Exams are on this month...
i mean this month!!
and that would be 7 papers and one clinical exam
and that would be roughly 14 textbooks..each the size of a huge pumpkin ...only flattened if you get what i mean....
and then again i havent touched my books in the last 6 months...and when i have i have fallen asleep on it and
wen i woke up the page was like crumply ...
point being ...well i cant do it ..
or mebbe i can but i cant
or i can but i dont know
and i jus realised i need to update my playlists...
arrange tabs around my phone menu
clean the room
i mean seriously...i usually can atleast spell the subject...
this time round i cant even do tht ..its call otolary...blablabla....
see!! and now suddenly the whole world is more interesting ....
EXAMS !! :|

sunday afternoon................nothing lazy about it at all

2011-06-26T12:52:00.000+05:30

lazy sunday afternoon

the words that cut through like a dagger...coz in 21 years i haven't experienced even one ...:|

as unbelievable as that sounds...

after the early morning wake up...(yes there is nothing called waking up late...unless you call 6 am late like my granny....)..wake up time is 5 am..anything before 5 is just a lil early (even if it is 3am) and everything after 5 is late...

which doesn't work in my favour...especially since i couldn't even sleep till 3 last night...

anyway the Sunday routine is wake up ,do ur thing......do ur prayers BEFORE 10 AM

...eat brunch by 12 which is very very appetising when it is cooked...but you don't feel like eating on the plate ..with me atleast...today being the exception...

some sunday special activities according to the moods of the leader of the day..........

and then we move into pre-next week mode....which is prepping for next week....so lazy sundays are a myth and its damn frustrating when everyone else mentions it and you don't have clue what they are talking about...of course that is why i would be clueless.....

:D :(

2011-06-23T19:54:00.000+05:30

okay so maybe all those stars in heaven felt bad after yesterdays blog and decided to start up....
i went up to check my marks today and lol this is funny...so here i am looking at my marks...and somehow everyone before and after me in my batch has lesser marks..some have flunked and im having an abnormally large share of marks...
and i found it more amusing than amazing....
maybe the guy who took my viva decided i had been through more and hence deserved more...
and yes i did see people go up in flames...the ex toppers
the sad part is that they had to try to corner me in public..but the funny part is i finally didnt care....
i found it more amusing than annoying...
life is funny ...in a cruel way :) :( :| :/

astro(il)logical

2011-06-22T19:25:00.000+05:30

okay so according to the stars i am supposed to having the time of my life...

i am supposed be getting favours from VIPS and having great opportunities and blahblahblah....

and here i am penniless pretty much ...im defly not getting a Ferrari from any1 this week...

and here i am in the middle of chaos with everything going wrong...in all directions...

im losing hair,teeth(i dont know how many i got so wouldnt know if i lost one or two...),peace,sleep,NOT WEIGHT and then of course friends....people ....family...which would make me a loser?

coz im losing so much and just gaining age.weight and experience in the process and none of those seem to be helping me in any way...

its like the universe is plotting it ...you know like that terrible viva which was supposed to be damn easy....even what is supposed to be damn easy is being made difficult for me...

coming to think age weight and experience are a lethal triad....pull you down more than push you up :|

and what definitely does not help is being told this is the luckiest week of my life ....everything is falling in place and that kind of stuff

i mean if this is what things which have fallen in place look like....what is it supposed to be when everything is wrong ...

and then there is the lecture you will get from everyone when things go wrong ...that there are people with worse luck...then again threre are people with better luck as well....

and then the people who think all is well with you coz u smile at everyone....which brings me to the quote:

When I cry at night, the only thing I can think to myself is...how can I seem so---perfectly finein the morning. Why do I smile like nothing is wrong? And how does not one single person notice that I'm not okay?

Nobody does...the closest
the farthest...
the fam
the friends ..
(the random people who turn up on chat and ask me why i am sad all the time do maybe but dude they dont even know me!!!)
in short everyone who matters doesnt...and everyone who notices doesnt exist !!

germany,australia and malaysia?...uhh good night

2011-06-20T22:42:00.000+05:30

yes i am a stat crazed person ...and i love to keep looking at the stats page on my blog....
and one month down the line what still amazes me...is other than the India US and UK people (who i force to read my blog sadly :P)...i have stats from Germany Malaysia and Australia?i mean really ....people from that far would bother to read...!!!
looks like im typing in my sleep...good night

THINGS CANT GET WORSE??SAID WHO?

2011-06-17T23:55:00.001+05:30

okay so here is why you really dont want to know how my day went...
today is the end of clinical posting exam in social medicine (translation: they torture us for a month in a dept and then like to test us to see if they did it effectively...)..
it was supposed to be on monday...but the only student who bothered to study decided to force the department (im still wondering what he used to blackmail them...)..to have it TODAY...
anyway my batch was supposed to go to the medicine ward and being so rainy god blessed us with many a malaria case...and i knew malaria pretty well..
so all i did for the last one week..DESPITE THE NAGGING THING AT THE BACK OF MY MIND...WHICH SAID..."YOU DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT GYNAEC ....GOO TIME TO READ UP!!"..i still continued with medicine...
ohh i should tell you.....Nothing against cute babies (as long as they dont puke/pee/poop/any other form of bodily fluid ejection... on me...) or their moms (except for the crazy hormones) but I HATE GYNAECOLOGY...OBSTETRICS AND PAEDIATRICS (THAT DOES NOT INVOLVE ME BECOMING FRIENDS WITH THE KIDS WHICH I AM GOOD AT...)
so obviously i havent spent days in class or nights at home...bothering about any of these subjects....
the day started a bad day ...and as u have read before...bad mornings lead to good days...THE EXCEPTION BEING TODAY...
no bus+ rain--> rain but inside bus and bus not moving-> rains when you get out of the bus...run to class ...no teachers there.....and then slowly ......but VERY VERY EFFECTIVELY...the bomb - YOU HAVE TO TAKE A OB/GYN CASE!!!!!!..
i couldnt have pitied the patients more...and the examiner...wait what do i even ask tbe mother...
great so i knew what to ask...but i didnt have anyone to ask...NO CASE IN THE WARD!! hence i was thrust upon an innocent mother and her newborn child....god save them...no actually the woman was kinda nice and was smiling when i was making faces at the intern...:P
everyone who had the tough teachers started early...passed...and left....and mine who is rumoured to be the nicest ones...decided to wait till around 1 and then call us downstairs and take our viva in groups...ahh yes he did make life easy for the 4 roll numbers before me and the one number after...but me ...IT HAD TO BE ME WHO COULD GET INTO A PROBLEMATIC VIVA EVEN WITH THE MOST LENIENT TEACHER!! best part: i didnt even say anything to get myself into it...so the guy with me gets like the simple one word answer stuff...and i get questions like what is the caesarean section rate all over the world...in this city...why do people opt for it...define rehab...polio...types of prevention..blablablabla...nobody i have mentioned this to even knows what this is about...and this was my viva after all those sleepless nights and hours of prep before the viva.
if you thought my day couldnt get worse ....you would be wrong....that again is an entirely different story...that is kinda in the present tense right now...maybe i should talk about it when its over...the question is ...WILL IT EVER!!

life cleanup ...

2011-06-14T21:26:00.000+05:30

why is it when things go wrong ...they all go wrong together??
in clusters i mean....its like problems come in herds ...and like to stay ...
unwanted guests in your life i must say.....
and the one thing that you think should not NOT NOT GET messed up...
gets messed up first and fixed last.....
and having been in the everything-has-gone-wrong-but-nothing-wants-to-get-fixed....phase...WAY TOO MANY TIMES...
and maybe i wont feel bad if i had anything to do with those things going wrong...but i DONT ...:|
and even when things get fixed ...either its a half done job OR .
.....the happiness comes mixed with sadness ...
its like extra strong coffee...to which you add extra sugar ...its bitter...too bitter to taste good...its sweet but not sweet enough to cover the bitterness.....its bittersweet ...and its gonna make ur tongue taste like crap for a long time later....
so basically the good times are like that and ...the bad times are like well burnt food- unfixable,difficult to swallow...and difficult to clean-up......
sigh ..got to go now...i have a life to cleanup....

every..do...um..bit...um..girl has her day!!

2011-06-10T16:24:00.001+05:30

my luck ain't that bad i guess...atleast not today though i knew it in the morn ...coz everything went wrong...yes it all went WRONG! and when i have terrible mornings...i usually have better days...
.
i havent slept all night coz i was scared
i was scared coz i couldnt study
and i couldnt study coz i was scared
woke up with a backache...
i got late for college..
i got stuck in the rain...
i almost got killed crossing the road...
this HUGE STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPID BEST BUS DRIVER DROVE right into puddle..and you know the whole wave of ( i dont want to think what all went into the making of that puddle) water sprayed all over me ....just like the movies...!!!
gr8 ..im walking to the bustop and now im the centre of attention!!
marvellous
and to make things better ...raining ....got an exam and NO BUS IN THE VICINITY....
and when one does come it is full :@
not the best thing right when u plan to study in the bus....
so here i am in the st bus seat with the pervy guys who keep "accidently" swaying all over the bus...with or w/o brakes and turns...and my dearest opthal book is wide open and so is my mouth coz im fast asleep.....
we get to class...department doesnt want to make us take the exam...
we dont wanna give the xam....all of us ...except...ONE GUY..who goes and promptly talks to the HOD...
so we had a chance to cancel...but we got to give it now.....
im the second in my batch...and im happy atleast ill get to know wat will be asked...and she goes to an intern and shifts the previous batch...so she is the last of the prev batch and im the first of this batch....how does it feel??well the feeling can be expressed only in *s.
i go in ...this resident chick asks me like a coupla qns ....i answer all but one...doesnt seem disappointed...."okay go...send the next person in"...
done in 3 minutes.....yes i loved the shocked look on everyones face when i got out...coz these were the ppl freaking me out abt the teacher being too strict...
yeah well i did get stuck in a jam on my way back...in the rain on my way to the bank...
have a throbbing left elbow as i type this...
BUT hey things could have been worse :P

what hurts you the most....

2011-06-06T23:02:00.000+05:30

What would hurt you the most:

broken bone
broken friendship
broken mirror (hurts too)
broken toe..(has happened to me)
broken heart
broken cookie (its depressing wen u open the pack the pieces fall onto ur lap and u cant even eat em)
broken....you get it

been through all except no.5....but you know you can clear up after all the other ones...

the broken friendships are the messy ones...

you can't forget it..

you can't ignore it...

you can't even accept it...you can try and put a bandage called "sorry" on the top of it...

but it doesn't always heal...

and then of course pretty much like infections you will have people who will try to get between you...

and try to make the most out of it....

and it hurts to shove em out and try to get things back on track.

and then sometimes...things get worse...and there is a fatality...pop goes ur buddy-ness...

DEAR GOD ...DON'T MAKE ME GO THROUGH THIS OVER N OVER AGAIN...

Out of the frying pan...Into my

2011-06-03T19:01:00.000+05:30

Hot Hot Hot....
If you are so hot why would you have anything to do with me...
It isn't even like I'm worth it..
Or am I?
You would think I'm some kinda heat magnet....
Yeah you read that right...
I was in a hurry today in a attempt to break off my holiday schedule..
And I think I forgot that the Fire God/Heat God has a crush on me...
O something like that...
Coz I have the ability to get burnt even when I don't do anything...I promise I'm like really cautious and stuff
And still my hands get burnt ....usually my hands...till today at least....
I have been burnt by almost every type of heat...
Classified as wet heat and fry heat ..check check...
Hot solid object...check
Hot liquid.....check
Hot gas( I'm talking steam....)...check
Agarbathi check
Frying pan check
Pressure cooker check...
Hot oil check (today's spl...)
Steam ...check..
Hot liquids including boiling hot water ..tea...check
Hot flying object....Mustard seeds,pepper bursting in hot oil(today's special again) ..check
Fire flying ..yes as impossible as that sounds....I once lit a matchstick...the tip which was burning broke and projectiles into my eye...
Did I miss out on something...??
SO coming to today's special...
Lighting the lamp in the morning....I'm just trying to put off the burning matchstick....
Matchstick got hot oil from the lamp on it...
Boom....projectile...right hand-> matchstick...Right arm-> burn wound...I still don't know how that happened!!
2 hours later.....
Innocent spices in the frying pan with oil....tupp....out of the oil...onto my face....God dammed seed...still don't know what hit me...
So here I am literally burning ....Okay I have made sure that's come down but still..
You know what makes me burn ...After all this..
In the evening..."Go light the lamp"...
"What do you want to cook for dinner?"
WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I EVEN WANT TO GO ANYWHERE NEAR FIRE TODAY!!
Yeah I know it isn't like the 80% burn wounds...or something...but a burn no matter how small (and only if superficial)...burns like hell...ALWAYS!!

I need to badly

2011-06-02T16:13:00.000+05:30

Okay this is as abnormal as abnormal can feel...
It is like it is abnormally abnormal...not even the usual normally abnormal feeling..
I have not had the urge at all of late....for a month almost...?
It is like it is lost completely...where did it go?
I mean it isn't like I don't want to...it is more like I can't...and when I feel like it I can't stop myself...Nope that pen won't stop writing till everything my mind thinks has come out the way my mind tells me it should...Dammit...I can't even edit or decide what to write....Whenever I do ...it usually gets messed up.
And this is the one thing I enjoy doing....I feel like it only when I am supposed to be doing something else..
Guess I will feel like writing again during pre-exam boredom...now that I have exam after exam for ...okay I don't know when I am coming out of the other side of the course...
Whoever thought writing could be this difficult...Exams exams...here they come :|

you make me think!

2011-06-01T21:45:00.000+05:30

okay so you arent the person i was best buddies with...or atleast I thought i was and here I am talking to a complete stranger 3 years down the line...
the person i knew and the person i see are simply not the same
and when they start acting the way they used to despise...lets say friend a hates pink...
imagine friend a 3 years down the line in pink pink pink pink!!!!
thats what im talking about...
and here you see them all over people they claimed to hate all along..
"ohh you are so sweet?"
wth!!
people change and i am not the best when it comes to dealing with it...especially when you thought you had somebody all figured out...and you realise you didnt know anything...
and the people who you think you dont know.....ok thats for another post

XAMS XAMS GO AWAY

2011-05-30T14:24:00.000+05:30

the portions for my 7 paper exam this sem are over 3 pages...
thats the abbreviated portions....
and some of the teachers haven't even given their chapter list yet...
and here i am ....IN my world im too scared to let go off...
wait i havent bought my books...wait i dont know which books to buy...
i dont even know wat to study...
for a nerd ...this is a huge fall...i was a nerd...
i was maybe...am i now?
nope i think ive convinced everyone else to study and now i...
dont know ANYTHING...

ON THE WEB IN A WEB

2011-05-28T23:13:00.000+05:30

dont say anything

...

"hi..."

and then i lose about 1 hour ...damn its 4 hours?

no wait i lost an entire day...

a week?

a month?

i dont know how long ...wat else i have ignored...but i guess ive spent too much time on it and ignored a lot of other crucial stuf...

looking back now there are so many other things i could have done better....

things i may have done in the first place...

things i regret not doing....

all coz i was busy catching up with friends ....which probably wouldnt have happened if i had been with them wen i studied in the first place...not blaming the circumstances...but now im on the web caught in a web i have woven over myself and i cant get myself out of...i mean have u ever seen a spider caught in its own web???

and then here i am trying to get out ..

but everytime i see sumone i know online (in a few cases i see them online even when they arent...) i cant help saying that one word...HI

why? oh why?

why cant i stop saying hi?

why do i regret it later with a sigh?
why do i fail each time i try?

why does it feel like if i dont talk i will die??

why?oh why?

10 THINGS I LEARNT FROM FACEBOOK....

2011-05-23T21:31:00.001+05:30

10 things I learnt from Facebook:

1.Pokes:
Nobody will poke you a second time if you don't give a damn the first time...Ignore their poking and they will stop.

2.Friend requests:
You can't force anybody to be your friend....
You can ask them nicely if they will ...you can ask them twice...but if they dont want to you have to let go...
Also no matter how much somebody tries to force you to be their friend you should learn to say no when necessary...Somebody knowing half the people you know isn't a qualification to be your friend...

3.Inbox:
Inbox stuff you can not afford to tell the world...
As much as you want to tell somebody something....the whole world doesn't need to know...

4. Likes and the lack of dislikes:
Zucky gave us a like button but not a dislike button...the reason ...
If you like something ....go out there and let people know that you like it....
But if you did not like something....you do not have to go around announcing it....Keep it to yourself..better off that way...

5.Share:
Share everything that is umm...share-worthy (?)
Share everything good that you know will make (or in some cases break) someone's day....Share your joy...
Share your friend's joy (without asking them sometimes :|)

6.Hide:
Hide everything you would rather not know...
A lot happens to a lot of people....a lot of people say a lot of things...
sometimes you just have to ignore some people...ignore what they say...
And if you find it difficult..to ignore what you see...hide them and concentrate on the friends that DO COUNT.

7.Comments:
Never say anything about anything...unless you are prepared for what goes on after...and for the cartload of notifications from everyone who will also comment...
Do not make comments about anybody unless you are willing to get into a full blown discussion with everyone they know and you know...

8.List:
Put people into different lists...just because you are willing to share something with someone ...you don't have to share that with everyone you know...
Organise people into different groups...based on what they mean to you...

9.Block:
If somebody abuses you, hurts you, insults you...or basically makes life difficult....
Try ignoring them....if they invade your life and your buddies lives as well..block them....
Block out people who are there to pull you down.....maybe they are still there....but you dont need to acknowledge their existence...

10.Birthday and event notifications:
Always try and remember birthdays...and even if you have no clue when you studied/worked with this person go ahead and wish them a great year ahead...it may not make your day...but it may make theirs...
NEVER EVER forget to wish somebody well...even if you don't know them....
Today you are wishing a stranger well...tomorrow...a stranger will wish you well...

New Beginning.........

2011-05-22T16:41:00.000+05:30

I'm always making a fresh beginning...always a fresh beginning....

It is like I made one ...and then here I am making one more new beginning...

Maybe it is the fact that it is a vicious cycle....and I end up making the same mistakes over and over again...

And hence have to make the same new beginnings over and over again...

It isnt like I dont know before I make the mistake that I'm making it...I do...

And then there I am again....regretting it and making a new start...

It is almost like my ability to pick terrible friends...

I make the same mistakes..

Pick the same type of friends...

They make the same mistakes each time...same fights..and I always end up saying sorry even if Im not at fault..

So now here I am making a new beginnning ...about new beginnings...

I HOPE...

Single ...not planning to mingle...

2011-05-20T22:23:00.000+05:30

I did say one person but I think I said one person to be your "friend" as well...now I have people asking me who the lucky one person is?
Like I know...Like I care...and then it comes to am i in love which I am not ....and hence it is annoying if someone goes on and on and on with the delusion that I do....(Im surrounded by so many of em I have a feeling Im some kinda freak magnet...)
No I (unlike most of my ever-in-love-ohh-my -gawd-twilight-is-so-awesome friends who uniformly haven't read any other book in that genre.....) am not waiting for any knight-in-shining-armour-who-is-a-blablabla-to turn up at my doorstep someday...
And being the one person sensible enough to shove em knights away and wield my scalpel at em !!Im not even interested for heavens sake...just coz u gals are doesnt mean I am! :/ No I mean I can seriously forward every schmuck I know to you...I don't really care ...you can have em all!!
Im single ..AND.happy about it....
I don't intend to let that change for as long as possible..but thats the way its gonna be...
They say men dont understand women....sometimes ....even women don't understand women !!!

ONE PERSON

2011-05-19T20:01:00.000+05:30

All you need is one person...
One person to make your day.
One person to do something,
To take all the bad away.
One person who can remind you,
Of everything you have been through.
One person to tell you everything,
There is nothing you can't do.
You know its a all a lie,
And everything won't be okay.
But just to hear that it will,
Is comforting,especially on a bad day.
You need one person to tell you,
You don't know you are the best.
To tell you the contrary, of course,
You always have the rest.
It isn't like you need to find a dozen,
Just one person you need to find.
Why is it so difficult,then,
To trace the friend you have in mind?