Rants of a Rave Puppy

Take the Sandals from your feet for the place you stand is holy ground. (Exodus 3:5 HNV)

2011-03-23T07:32:00.000-08:00

While doing some reading ( I bet you know what I was reading, and where at in the book I was)

I came upon the phrase “holy ground” and of course my ADD brain went several different directions at once. Aside from being a great name for a coffee shop (get it?) it’s an image from Exodus where Moses is summoned by the Lord to Mt. Sinai and He commissions Moses to go back and set His people free. God, in the form of a burning bush, tells Moses to remove his shoes because he is standing on holy ground. This got me thinking. Why would God want Moses to do that?

This may sound obvious (I have a knack for that), but when you take your shoes off you are barefoot. This assumes no socks of course, which would have been the case with Moses. Why does God want bare feet on His holy ground, right there in His presence? The answer I got while praying about this surprised me and I hope it does something for you too.

At first I was thinking that having our bare feet on God’s holy ground sounded like a bad thing. After all, it’s our flesh in direct contact with where the Lord is. We are unclean. Feet are unclean. We cannot, on our own, have direct contact with a holy God. So why not have some kind of covering on our feet, on our flesh? I mean, that sounds like a Biblical picture to me, having our sin covered and all.

But think about it. Shoes, sandals, are man-made things. We make them and use them to protect our feet, which is fine. But when we are in God’s presence, when we are on His holy ground, we cannot stand on anything that we have made. We cannot stand on our own works in His presence. Our works don’t bring us closer to God, they actually separate us from Him. They must be removed.

Since God is the one who calls us into His presence, we are holy. He makes us holy. His calling upon us transforms us, it isn’t something we do. He commands us in Deuteronomy and Peter repeats the command to “be holy, for I am holy”. In God’s presence, because He has called us, we can stand barefoot. We do not and cannot stand on our own works, because we have been made holy. The two can’t coexist.

What about the shoes? I’ll bet you that Moses put them back on when he left that mountain. What do shoes do? They provide protection and make it so we can move around easier. Out in the world we need protection from the world. We are to walk in it and on it, but separate from it. As Paul puts it, our feet are shod “with the preparation of the gospel of peace” (Ephesians 6:15). Actually, we wear new shoes. These aren’t the old shoes of our old works or of our own design, these shoes also come from Him. It’s like when Adam and Eve traded in their fig leaf suits for God’s sheep skin suits. Instead of being covered by their own works, they are covered by God’s grace, the Lamb that was slain.

Are you standing on your own shoes on holy ground? Are you expecting God to be impressed with all that you are doing for Him? God gives grace. God gives mercy. You don’t get more grace or more mercy for doing stuff for God because they aren’t used as a reward. They are used as a gift. Take off your shoes. Feel God’s grace and mercy squish between your toes. When it’s time, put on your gospel shoes, walk into the world, and be used of God to lead people back to that holy ground. Show them how to untie, unbuckle, and unvelcro their shoes and stand in the presence of the living God.

Answer to the question " What did you mean when you said "And the Band played on"?

2011-01-23T01:50:00.000-09:00

And the Band Played On: Politics, People, and the AIDS Epidemic is a nonfiction book written by San Francisco Chronicle journalist Randy Shilts, published in 1987. It chronicles the discovery and spread of Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV) and Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome (AIDS) with a special emphasis on government indifference and political infighting—specifically in the United States—to what was initially perceived as a gay disease. Shilts' premise is that while AIDS is caused by a biological agent, incompetence and apathy toward those who were initially affected by AIDS allowed the spread of the disease to become much worse; AIDS was allowed to happen.
The book is an extensive work of investigative journalism, written in the form of an encompassing time line; the events that shaped the epidemic are presented as sequential matter-of-fact summaries. Shilts describes the impact and the politics involved in battling the disease on particular individuals in the gay, medical, and political communities. The book begins its discussion in the late 1970s with the then-first confirmed case of AIDS, that of Grethe Rask, a Danish doctor working in Africa. It ends with the announcement by actor Rock Hudson in 1985 that he was dying of AIDS, when international attention on the disease exploded.
And the Band Played On was critically acclaimed and became a best-seller. Judith Eannarino of the Library Journal called it "one of the most important books of the year", upon its release. It made Shilts both a star and a pariah for his coverage of the disease and the bitter politics in the gay community. He described his motivation to undertake the writing of the book in an interview after its release, saying, "Any good reporter could have done this story, but I think the reason I did it, and no one else did, is because I am gay. It was happening to people I cared about and loved." The book was adapted into an HBO docudrama of the same name in 1993. Shilts was tested for HIV while he was writing the book; he died of complications from AIDS in 1994.

XMRV: Silence is not Science.

2011-01-23T01:36:00.001-09:00

Watch the three videos in order.. It is a great way to get the foundations you will need to gain an understanding of the virus and what it does. Now read the blog;

A newly discovered retrovirus may be the explanation for old diseases. But there were clues that this existed going back to the 1980's. Government inaction over the past few decades has caused this retrovirus to spread widely in the general population and blood supply. This epidemic is at least 10 times the size of HIV/AIDS.

They say it's spread by blood & bodily fluids, but not sure if sexually spread? At least 50% of family members in a family where one person has been diagnosed test positive. CDC dropped the ball in1984 after Lake Tahoe outbreak, calling it "Mass Hysteria. Definitely in US blood supply; SO many suffer w/ condition; financial disaster of unprecedented proportion if Fed. Government forced to pay for all the costs. So they cover it up. Surprising?

Not really because news like this isn't popular. Reagan (and the rest of our government) went the two terms of his presidency without once mentioning HIV/AIDS while the epidemic took off globally. It grew into what would be a harder to control illness as they did nothing. HIV/AIDS has grown beyond medical reasoning because it was not attacked when it first popped out on the radar. In the UK, the psychiatric ('it's all in your head') treatment plan dominates ME/CFS, keeping hundreds of counselors & physiotherapists employed. And hundres and thousands of people tourtured and locked away against their will without chance of getting out. They control the entire £11m CFS/ME research budget. There are some dedicated, underfunded and amazing doctors who believe CFS/ME is a biological condition, but they are not being heard. There's no money in it if the testing becomes firm and the condition gets solid and the test for infection becomes as common as the HIV test is today. So why listen?

The US Govt's PNAS paper by Lo & Alter was mentioned at the Zagreb conference and said to have found XMRV in a greater % of samples than the Lombardi paper. This was in press but when the CDC were about to publish their negative study (proved only their inability to find XMRV), Alter was told to modify it to bring it in line with the CDC study. He removed refs to XMRV so that the paper, published 2 months later, only talked about the MLV sequences, while the CDC study was published immediately. Lo and Alter have never explained why they presented at Zagreb that they had found XMRV in a majority of ME patients but they then changed it to MLVs not including XMRV. (Wonders how much the CDC paid for blood and silence) It doesn't seem credible that that was a mistake in the conference presentation as these are very sophisticated and careful scientists. ( What dirt did the CDC find that they don't want to let out?) Meanwhile, millions suffer and are left to lay in their dark secluded rooms praying that the hurting and slow agony of death will end. Many have already died and become nameless faceless victims of the CDC's lies and there "smoke and mirrors" sideshow of errors.

Listen to that heartbreaking honest appeal for help for those who need it due to this murderer that has gone unchecked and non-researched for years. Imagine its your mother, grandmother, wife, sister, daughter, co-worker, father, grandfather, brother, husband, boyfriend, domestic partner... Now imagine its your child speaking and ask yourself how can you listen to this and still not be moved? Can you still not take action? How many people must die or suffer silently in this new age death camp not unlike the suffering of the victims of the Nazi holocaust? Read the Open Letter to Dr. Elizabeth Unger, new Chief of Chronic Viral Diseases Branch. Read the wonderful use of terms such as the raising of their middle finger to the people who suffer and ask why are you not moved? Read the suggestions such as "There is an alternative. We cannot wait ten years for science to grind outs its conclusions. Every person in the world who believes that CFS is important should send $10 to the WPI. I plan to send $10 today. It may not be much, but it is a start." read that and ask what can I do?

The CDC releases a site, DANGEROUS LIES are hidden there if tyou don't educate yourself to know better.. We can not afford for this to stay marked by the term "The band played on", we must stand up for those who can not stand up literally or figuratively for themselves. We that are able and have the energy must stop hiding in the sand and ask ourselves " Why do we not care for those around us?" I am standing up, I stand for one person who can not stand, I will take up arms to fight until my body says it can not stand. But when I fall who will stand up in my place?

That's only part of the issue who is standing up for those who can't why is there such a stand still in our society to help those who need it? I bet if XMRV research or care for the patients was a tax they took from your paycheck you'd wanna know the who what when where why how of it all... So why not know those all to often ignored answers when its just for the help of your fellow human beings? Osler's Web: Inside the Labyrinth of the Chronic Fatigue Syndrome Epidemic is a fascinating resource, my ground work in my understanding came from there. I also can say I know paitents of CFS/ME and XMRV and have gotten to learn from them first hand. I can not imagine my body slowly saying I quit, I'm done. I am afraid of that feeling.

I am keeping up on the WPI site as well to learn everything that I can about the how it the why the what and so forth until the energy to study is no longer there and the ability to stand up is passed on to the next generation. This is something that we can not ignore, you cant brush it under a rug like it is not happening, they tried that and it did not work, it only made a backlash.

The Tea Party

2011-01-22T23:32:00.003-09:00

The tea party is group of undercover republicans posing as grassroots-everyday kind of people. It was founded by a republican strategist (Sal Russo), one its top donors is a republican activist (Mike Huckabee), and Jim DeMint, a republican senator, is one of its biggest supporters. It doesn't seem very "of the people" to me.

Those Tea Party protests at town hall meetings were real, regular, everyday people, but the idea, the "belief" that was instilled in their minds were created by [undercover] republicans. While the tea party maintains conservative beliefs and values (like republicans), its claim of being a grassroots movement is merely a ploy to appeal to the American people and gain their support.

I would think that a true grassroots, of-the-people political movement would claim independent/moderate. I believe they will have little to no effect on the American political system. If Tea Party people like Christine O'Donnell, who doesn't know what the first amendment states, (The phrase "separation of church and state" is usually traced to President Thomas Jefferson. In a letter in 1802, he referred to the First Amendment and added that it built "a wall of separation between Church & State." It is widely known that the first amendment is the source of the "separation of church and state" legal concept and goes back to the very founding of our great country. Very basic civics.) and Joe Miller (whos website now asks for donations to pay off his debts), who filed a federal lawsuit against Murkowski when he openly opposes federal power, keep running for office, I don't see the movement lasting too long. ( He openly opposed federal powers until they could be used for his gains...)

I think the "tea party" is a group who is only made popular by those who talk negatively about them. I think they will soon enough go back to being included back into their republican party and fade out. I do not think they are strong enough to provide a candidate for president unless they get someone like Sarah Palin who was brought to fame as Alaska's Governor as a republican who jumped to the tea party ship after being disgraced in her role as the vice presidential bid. She left the role of governor and has not successfully loaned her tea party support to candidates in Alaska such as Joe Miller.

I think the "tea party" would die if they were not given so much publicity by those who want to negatively impact them. If the media would just turn their cameras off of them the "tea party" would end and the flash in the pan would have stayed just that. I see it as a spoiled child they act out to get attention and its the attention that keeps them where they are. So when the question was posed to my entire class about there feelings on the tea party and you know only one in 56 thats right one in 56 said that the tea party is more than just a republican party undercover... So if thats your support 1 in 56 then your slowly going to die...

School is sucking today

2011-01-22T20:38:00.000-09:00

School so worth it that I wanna beat my brains out lol.. A Dictionary of Law (Oxford Paperback Reference), thats one book i need to use all day and its ok but it defeats me. I can know that this book will have the terms i need but, then why do i have to remember all the terms?? Does anyone remember everything they learned off hand? Black's Law Dictionary, Standard Ninth Edition (Black's Law Dictionary (Standard Edition)) is another book i am using for this class and i love this class and i love the law but really come on now.... I know i will use a lot of this info on a daily basis but some of it I am learning i think just to kill time cause some of it i dont foresee ever using.. Tort Law: AND Dictonary Law (Longman Law) Im not even going to discuss that book ....

In my other class today we discuss court cases involving schools, some where the school is a defendant and some where students have been defendants. Fist Stick Knife Gun: A Personal History of Violence, was useful in this i loved the book anyway... i also used Lies My Teacher Told Me: Everything Your American History Textbook Got Wrong, to put a real look on to it all. All and all a great day..

2011-01-20T14:29:00.000-09:00

Week1 day 3

Breakfast was made (4 egg whites, 1/2 cup greens, 1 cup oatmeal, 1/2 cup fruits) Used real egg whites today not the fakes. ... the fruit was raspberries YUM! so this is breakfast for today on this makeover, tomorrow is steak and eggs for breakfast...

Going to sisters for the day to do the laundry.. awesome...

AM Snack today was made (3 oxz lean steak and 2 cups greens) and yummy! The steak was seasoned with salt and pepper rub and the greens was spinach with light olive oil and salt. YUMMERS! Decided not to have Chickennn

LUNCH!
made my lunch today 4 oz. chicken breast 2 cups mixed veggies and 1/2 cup rice. MMM the rare occurrence of chicken! a treasured rarity and coveted gift the goes bok bok bok. So keeping in mind i am eating every two hours the meals are close togeather but i find that i am hungry just before time and full right after with pleanty of energy to carry on.

So then on to the afternoon snack which is preceded by doing homework for school and housework was great (4oz chicken, 2 cups veggie) today. Enjoy the rare appearance of chicken to break up all the steaks. Watched the movie "Salt" while eating..

Dinner time!!! Made my dinner (5oz steak, 2 cup veg) drank my water and watched T.V. After dinner willbe my workout but im not going to go to gym to do it tonight im going to stay home to do it. Can we say flexible but not lazy tonight.

PM Snack now mind you the pm or what we call the midnight snack is usually a guilty pleasure or a light snack but to this diet it means 5 oz chicken and 1/2 cup fruit. a midnight snack that taco bell calls the 4orth meal. gotta love it... Nothing like trying to sleep with that much food just getting put in the belly...

Enjoyed the night out at sissy's house.. Until her husband thought he had the right to decide how i wanted to be addressed...

2011-01-19T14:30:00.019-09:00

Week1 day 4
Breakfast was made (4 egg whites, 1/2 cup greens, 1 cup oatmeal, 1/2 cup fruits) Used real egg whites today not the fakes. ... the fruit was raspberries YUM! so this is breakfast for today on this makeover, tomorrow is steak and eggs for breakfast...

Going to sisters for the day to do the laundry.. awesome...

AM Snack today was made (3 oxz lean steak and 2 cups greens) and yummy! The steak was seasoned with salt and greens was spinach with salt. Decided not to have Chicken

LUNCH!
made my lunch today 4 oz. chicken breast 2 cups mixed veggies and 1/2 cup rice. MMM bok bok bok. So i am eating every two hours i find that i am hungry just before time pleanty of energy to carry on.

So then on to the afternoon snack which is preceded by doing homework for school and housework was great (4oz chicken, 2 cups veggie) today. Enjoy the rare appearance of chicken to break up all the steaks. no movies today extra homework.....

Made my dinner (5oz steak, 2 cup veg) drank my water and watched T.V. After dinner wil lbe my workout but im going to go to gym to do it tonight.

PM Snack 5 oz chicken and 1/2 cup fruit. a midnight snack that taco bell calls the 4orth meal. gotta love it... Nothing like trying to sleep with that much food just getting put in the belly...

And i realize how today is just like the las two days so is it going to be the focus of this blog again... hmmm maybe not...

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2011-01-18T21:02:00.001-09:00

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The six week body makeover

2011-01-18T14:10:00.001-09:00

Week 1 day 2

Breakfast was made (4 egg whites, 1/2 cup greens, 1 cup oatmeal, 1/2 cup fruits) hate egg whites... And had to sub grits for oatmeal today yuckies... the fruit was blueberries YUM! so this is breakfast for today on this makeover, tomorrow is steak and eggs for breakfast...

AM Snack today was made (3 oxz lean steak and 2 cups greens) and yummy! The steak was seasoned with salt and pepper rub and the greens was spinach with light olive oil and salt. YUMMERS! tomorrows am snack is chicken fingers with baked potato wedges.

LUNCH!
made my lunch today 4 oz. chicken breast 2 cups mixed veggies and 1/2 cup rice. MMM the rare occurrence of chicken! a treasured rarity and coveted gift the goes bok bok bok. So keeping in mind i am eating every two hours the meals are close togeather but i find that i am hungry just before time and full right after with pleanty of energy to carry on.

So then on to the afternoon snack which is preceded by doing homework for school and housework was great (4oz chicken, 2 cups veggie) today. Enjoy the rare appearance of chicken to break up all the steaks. Watched the movie "Salt" while eating..

Dinner time!!! Made my dinner (5oz steak, 2 cup veg) drank my water and watched T.V. After dinner willbe my workout but im not going to go to gym to do it tonight im going to stay home to do it. Can we say flexible but not lazy tonight.

PM Snack now mind you the pm or what we call the midnight snack is usually a guilty pleasure or a light snack but to this diet it means 5 oz chicken and 1/2 cup fruit. a midnight snack that taco bell calls the 4orth meal. gotta love it... Nothing like trying to sleep with that much food just getting put in the belly...

and so its pm snack and then a 18 minute power workout at home not in gym yay!

The six week body makeover

2011-01-18T01:05:00.000-09:00

So I am back on the six week body makeover. I got good results the last tie=me. I filled out to a healthy weight and gained some muscle so its a new year and time to do it again. So I am back to eating steak 3 times a day with chicken twice a day and egg whites and spinach for breakfast. Doing more water and little soda, and this makes me happy.

I also got the partner to do it with me, we decided to blog our daily feelings and weekly progress so others looking into the program can get an idea of what they might see. So lets begin...

Day 1 week 1

I am 29 years old
I am 5ft4in tall
I weigh 123 Lbs.

I made my dinner meal (5 oz lean steak, 2 cups veggies) and drank 8 oz of water.
I forgot how filling a meal that is. two hours later my pm snack was ready (4 oz. chicken breast, 1/2 cup fruit) and again I was full. I cheated though had 4 oz glass of milk.
No gym workout today, did the home exersizes for the required 18 minute routine for the day.

Since I started this at dinner time day 2 will always start at dinner.

I do need however a new tape measure and scale for body measurements. More to come tomorrow..

Who would you thank??

2011-01-17T00:02:00.000-09:00

As I sit here looking at the end of completing my newest degree I am sitting here knowing i am six classes (27 weeks left roughly)which yes sounds like a long time to be thinking about the end but in reality to me its going to rush past me and I need to be ready.

I am thinking when asked who I want to thank in the commencement announcements who would be there? So after some thought and some practice here is my announcement:

Graduating BAEE Program Graduate name: ( I'm not tell ing you so we'll say Rave Puppy) would like to acknowledge the following people for helping him get to this milestone:

I First thank my Mother and Father who know how long I have followed this path and have witnessed the breaks and the triumphs in the road to success for me. I'd like to thank my partner for sacrifices he has made to allow me the space and support at home to pursue the goals I laid out so that our family can prosper at the end of the road. I'd like to thank my friends whom have been sounding boards, advice givers, proof readers, and above all stress relievers.

So who would you thank??

Can I have my sign back please

2011-01-13T17:37:00.001-09:00

OMG! The zodiac has changed.. After thousands of years we have figured out we had it wrong! ( Didn't I drop that bomb shell last year??) But as it stands it is wrong new dates have been set according to the correct path of the sun and the charting of the forgotten 13th constellation. so here is the "new" zodiac, or to be honest the correct zodiac..

Capricorn
January 20- to February 16
Aquarius
February 16 to March 11
Pisces
March 11 to April 18.
Aries
April 18 to May 13
Taurus
May 13 to June 21.
Gemini
June 21 to July 20
Cancer
July 20 to August 10
Leo
August 10 to September 16
Virgo
September 16 to October 30
Libra
October 30 to November 23
Scorpio
November 23 to November 29
Ophiuchus
November 29 to December 17
Sagittarius
December 17 to January 20

So to everyone who got those big fancy zodiac tattoos don't you wish you would have waited and not done it until it was double checked cause now you have a mark for the wrong constellation..

Jobs are hard to come by

2011-01-12T15:48:00.000-09:00

So, with demonstrations in the middle east, soaring unemployment in the United States, economies all around the globe are feeling pitfalls. What is going on?? Is this the downfall the "wackos" have been warning us about? Is this the darkness thats going to end life as we knew it. In the United States they have eliminated most of the middle class if there are any middle classers hanging on I say climb up the ladder or you're going to fall off the map.

What is the good of education that is supposed to open the door for bigger earnings when we have Master degree holding people driving taxi's and working drive thru's at McDonald's? Are you getting what you paid for? Are you getting what you went into debt for? I know i 'm not, I am in debt for school and still taking more classes building more debts and I will be in school debt when I die..

What can we do? Just keep going to classes and watch the debts pile up or do we stop going let loans go defunct? ARRRG what a world...

2011

2011-01-07T02:08:00.000-09:00

A new year a new well thats all that's new.... Still no flying cars, still no voice command car that drives itself. really I mean wheres the cool shit???

Fireflies.... What a night

2011-01-02T03:41:00.002-09:00

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Happy New Year!!

2010-12-31T20:26:00.000-09:00

So Invited a few friends over for a holiday party.. Thus means shopping for drink and food and cooking and cleaning.. Planned out enough for 6-7 people cause those were the ones who said the would make it and a couple extras in case we had random stopper byes..

This also means spending the money to drink and food the guests.

So my rant starts here, I call a friend the first one who said she'd be here cause she asked if i wanted to go get fireworks.. This made me ponder fireworks why?? So I call her and BOOM she decided to have people to her place totally blowing me off and its like oh well I'm not going to stress it. It would have been nice for her to call ahead of time but oh well...And my best gay men can't come cause one is hurt and I totally get that.. totally cool. I hate being drug around when I'm sick or hurt too.

Realizing I should reconfirm the rsvps for the rest of the people one by one they either said oo we forgot we had plans with you and made other plans and we really cant cancel our new plans.. HOW RUDE! That I am stressed over and upset about. Not a single call on christmas from the people we call our close friends, and then this. It's like we have been deleted off the social phone tree.

See if we go out of our way for them as fast as we always have in the past. I guess if we don't call then we are dead to the world cause everyone's fingers are broke and cars are dead.

So there my rant ends....!

So new year's resolutions for 2011.....

I am going to only give the correct amount of help to hose who give a proportionate amount back, I am going to enter this new year secure in the fact I am in a healthy relationship and that it is growing to be better and deeper each day. I am going to be more calm inside this year, not so quick to be upset or knocked off balance by the actions of others. I am complete within my feelings and my inner self, those that are in and those will come into my circle are there cause I want them there not because they have to be there. I am human I am me and I am healthy.

What a day..

2010-12-30T19:08:00.000-09:00

So went to be bed shortly after the dinner party ( shortly after being 4 AM) ended. I don't remember going to bed but, I remember waking up in the bed... ( No I was drunk I didnt drink last night) We went to the laundromat did 4 loads of laundry ( that means 6 or 7 loads put into 4 of their larger machines) that took about 2 hours I think. Then came home played with Pakak (pronounced Pak-ak, it means Mischevious in alaskan native) found out he likes Frisbee.. Came home cleaned out the closets and Steve made dinner, check it out all the house work done and it was done in 3 hours.. Now at 7 PM what to do...

Awww Son of a Biscut...

2010-12-29T17:38:00.001-09:00

Tales of the Inner Blondie...

Have you ever gone to do something knowing you'd need a part or piece of equipment to do it and you get to the all crutial step where its needed and realized you forgot that one thing? Awww Son of a biscut!

Have you ever done that three days in a row??? Now thats really an Awww son of a biscuit move I tell you what buddy.

So, my friends are here and its time for a dinner yum yum party and wine.....

GOOOOO UUUSSSSSSSS!

UPDATE

OMG everyone should go get a kinect and the dance game. Once you have those get wine and beer and friends over to your house. Once you do this feed them and get them buzzed. Once you do this put the game in and make them play. Once you do this sit back and be ready to laugh till you pee yourself...

You can't finish a sentence like this......

2010-12-29T15:50:00.000-09:00

Ok so someone walks into the room and says oh my god you just missed the coolest thing, then they leave the room without telling you what the thing you missed was... How do you end on that??? It left me wondering what I missed... Did flying monkeys shoot out their ass? Did the dog dance an Irish jig??? what was it?? So I sit and I think about it and then I go to the person and say what did I miss just to get the answer "Oh nothing it wasn't so cool after all."

That's kind of anti-climactic you think??

I mean who shifts gears that fast?? How did it go from the coolest thing ever to nothing at all in the span of 2 minutes?? Think about it for a second before you call it the coolest thing ever.. Save us all the trouble of anti-climatic moments...

Cause it is rather annoying to think you missed the coolest thing to find out all you missed was the dog farting and scaring himself...

Dude a quarter life Crisis?!?!?!?!?!

2010-12-29T00:52:00.000-09:00

So forget the mid-life crisis today I have realized I am having a quarter life crisis... I have come to all to real idea that this is when I have to take another step up the ladder of growth and development. I am telling you if I knew being a well rounded human involved feelings and all this junk I would have opted to be born a rock....So here we go let's explain where I am at....

I'm having a quarter life crisis...
So, whats a quarter life life crisis mean well here it is....
Puppy's thoughts on a crisis...

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.
What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not.
You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused.
Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better.
You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
That's a quarter life one... so if this Saturn return is this all mighty thing then i hope my mid life crisis will be as simple as buy a sports car.....

Ranting

2010-12-29T00:46:00.000-09:00

Ok so i call this pizza place and they say hello thanks for calling "pizza place" would you like to order a pizza? hmm no i wanted to get a loan to buy a house. yes i wanted a fucking pizza.

then i call an american company to ask for application info and they say would you like to hear this message in english i think well you are an american company so yes. then the message says thank you for calling our application office and then the rep. answers and first thing she says is " are you calling to apply for a job with "american company name".. no i said i was calling to ask about puppy dogs.

then i call a man to inqiure about a christmas tree and they answer the phone and the guy older than 30 from the sound of his voice says are you calling about the tree ??? i think no, im calling about the vacation to mexico i saw in yer front yard.. the one that said for sale call.

so i am at the conclusion one of two things are going on.. the world is on crack and only stupid people survived or god thought i needed a laugh.. so im going to go with the god answer at least that way I have a little hope for humanity left.

XMRV Retrovirus and how it can make everyday tasks seem giant...

2010-12-26T23:57:00.003-09:00

Today I have started blogging. I am sitting here designing the template and finding out what will I blog about. I thought about sticking to a theme like a blog about politics or one set subject. I poured over topics and ideas and then it hit me... A RANDOM BLOG!

And so here we go a random blog. Well, today I did nothing productive on a grand scale. I cleaned my kitchen, I cleaned the living room, and I played some games on my IPad. But, on a small scale to some that would be a grand thing. I am talking about those whom suffer from Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and those with the XMRV retrovirus.

A reto-virus that is highly infectious and is more than likely in our nation's blood supply. Its a debilitating illness. According to the Whittemore Peterson Institute in Nevada, 95 percent of chronic fatigue patients in a recent study also had the XMRV retrovirus. I can not imagine something that leaves someone so fatigued and in such chronic pain they can not barely sit up in much less get of bed. The link I have shared is an interview with Siobhan McElwee (see the extra info at the end of todays blog..) a dear friend and someone who has been diagnosed with the XMRV reto-virus.

It is a start to the media finally catching this and finally drawing attention to this infectious reto-virus. It is a trickle of information now but flood gates will open. So if you are wanting to know more read the links and watch the video I have included here today.

Happy web surfing and please come again soon.

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http://www.mecfsforums.com/

This page linked below is an awesome site with a wealth of information and links to help support a very interesting socks project. I highly recommend it and support this..

http://www.sockit2mecfs.org

TODAYS EXTRA GOODIE ITEM

http://www.talkingfox.com/2010/12/giving-back/

This Siobhan's blog and she is also an amazing artist. I am a collector of her work and it is fab!! well, she is donating 100% of the proceeds from her art to the Whittmore Peterson Institute to help advance funding for advanced research. Check her out and get some hot art and help a great cause... Like she says " C'mon you know you want to."