Rashid Bums Out

Heart At 11

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Fri, 10 Feb 2012 18:40:00 +0000

I just want to say how lucky I am to have met my blogmates through my eight year old blog. Though some are no longer active in blogging, I still thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing things that somehow helped mold myself into a better individual. I even found the love of my life because of one. ♥ ;)

-Hiyono

That's a status update for me and for the rest of Hiyono's blogging friends out there! Haha! Maybe I'll just leave a comment there after putting this up so that she'll know that I have returned from a month-long slumber once again! And yes, it has been another month. I even got myself amazed on how my previous posts end up being written on the same day of each month! One for December 11, another one also came up on last month's 11th day, and today which is actually the 11th of February! So, can this now be called a monthly update? LOL!

So true. Hiyono's been here blogging for the longest time that I can't even remember how we met online! XD She's been one of my long-time blogger friends whom I haven't really met personally yet. And now that I think of it, I haven't really met any of them in person even though we already knew each other for the longest time now! Haha! But even if that's the case, they have truly stayed friends with me and the rest of the people that we know. And for that, I thank all of you to at least remember me as one of those who crossed to visit your blogs. ^^

Alright! The picture above might be a bit too bold for some but I know Xian would love this and would think that this is just "normal". Haha! Let's just say that this is my Hearts Day Photo for the coming February 14. Wohohoho! February has always been a Single Awareness Month not only for me but for almost everyone that I know! What more when Tuesday comes! Single Awareness Day for the fourth time! Hahaha!

S.A.D No valentine for me And Imma be alright if you could only see That today's just a day and if it's meant to be There's always next year, just wait and see

Anyways, being single hasn't really become a problem for me. And it will never be. LOL! Maybe I just got used to it? Or maybe I'm still waiting for that certain someone to finally arrive. Haha! What's important for now is that I'm happy of what I am doing and of what I am learning about what I really want to do. ^^

So coming this Monday, I will be having another interview with Emerson at Boni. They have originally offered me the Business Data Specialist position which is now put to hold. I don't know why but the good thing is that they still have an opening for the Marketing Analyst position. Well they said that it is actually an entry level position but what amazed me is that they can offer me a package which will be over my expected salary. If ever I get in, this will really be the coolest thing ever! LOL! But when I asked about the location of their office, I learned that it is only a floor above or below my previous job. Weird! So again, if ever I get the job, I will be seeing some familiar faces as well. Not that it matters but if I'll be getting the night shift, (9PM-6AM) I'll be only able to see a few. But when it happens that I'll be put in the mid-shift, (2PM-11PM) I'll never know what's going to happen next.

End Of Holidays, Hello 13!

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Tue, 10 Jan 2012 21:38:00 +0000

A lot of things happened and I really got myself so busy. Or maybe "busy" is not the right word so I guess I just had this holiday feeling where what you only want to do is to enjoy. So I guess that can explain why I wasn't been able to come back here for... *looks on my previous post's date then at the current date* a month! Wow, I really didn't noticed that I was actually away for a month already. LOL!

Then let me now start telling you what actually happened. The second week of December brought me in a really tight spot. That time I was rushing my part of the articles to be finished so that I can relax and enjoy the following week which is the Christmas week. But then, I was able to send my articles on the 20th instead.

Here comes Christmas. I was able to spend that day with the rest of our housemates and with my brother as well who traveled from Bicol to visit us here. Too bad though because my sister had to go to work which made her miss the occasion. But she was able to catch up with us for they were allowed to leave early. She arrived at around 3AM, and the party continued.

Ozine Fest Anime Figure Special was held on SM Megamall last December 28-29. My brother was able to attend on its first day but he had to leave the next day to spend the New Year with our mom at Bicol. The event was a blast maybe because we had Alodia as our special guest on our first day. There was like 5000 attendees all in all for those 2 whole days. I should know because I was there at the Ticket Booth in those 2 days. LOL!

And then, here comes New Year. Two of our housemates left for Bicol, the other two planned to spend the New Year in Eastwood, which they always do, while my sister did had a schedule for work on that New Year's eve. So I was supposed to be left at home alone but good thing, DJ asked me the night before that about where I will be spending it. Learning about the situation, he invited me over and then I decided to spend the New Year again with my Ozine Family. It was actually my third time celebrating the New Year with them! XD

Then hello 2012. This time, I am so prepared to go back to work. I am just waiting for an interview from a company in Makati and I just hope I could get in. And then while waiting, we are now also preparing for a new anime event coming on the 21st and 22nd. Anime fans are even saying that this is going to be the best year-opener for them! If you have some spare time on that weekend, come and visit us there!

And this is now the part where I am going to explain why "Hello 13" has become a part of today's post title. 2 days from now it'll gonna be the 13th which is actually a Friday the 13th and that is actually my birthday. LOL! I didn't even remembered it at first and I am not even planning on how I am going to spend that day. I'm just feeling a bit scared that I am turning a year older again and that I have to start my life all over again. Well as for the birthday wish, maybe I'll just hope that I can do things right from then on.

So that's it for now, I'll be posting one again very soon!

Untold Stories #2

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Sat, 10 Dec 2011 17:47:00 +0000

This entry happened to be posted so early. I'm supposed to be posting something different from this Untold Stories segment since I just previously posted a very serious one but then I guess it can't be helped now that I'm in the mood of revealing another one right now. So let me just first say this:

If only I could ease the pain. But then I said to myself, it is your battle and the only thing left for me to do is to believe that you can somehow get out of it alive and ready to face life again.

I am actually ready to click the Post button on Facebook when my browser stopped responding. So I thought, it could be more better if I'll just turn it into a blog post and here I am now. The truth is, someone very dear to me is on a process of moving on from a failed relationship. I really don't want to be so blunt about that fact since he's still healing but if ever you come across this post, I just thought that this is actually the best way to describe it. Most of us would already gone through that same path anyways, so maybe somehow you guys can understand that. I know the feeling, the pain that one must go through which makes me hate it everytime I learn that one of my friends has to experience the same thing. If only I could take away the pain, but I guess it's a part of growing up and one has to face it one way or the other.

So what in it for me? How will this post be one of my Untold Stories? In my recent job interviews, of course they will gonna ask me why I left my previous job. My answer has always been the same to all of them. I left because of having a failed relationship with someone who is actually my co-worker. I remember having this conversation with Xian about how am I going to reason with them about this, thinking that any reason would suffice but I think it would be better if I could be honest about it. I believe that to have a successful life, you need to maintain a balanced personal life as well. How can you expect yourself to live an extravagant life if you suffer from physical, mental and emotional stress. You may be the best on what you do now but will it really give you happiness if you're not even taking care of yourself? Even those people who interviewed me felt bad about me leaving my previous company because they were looking at the pay that I was already receiving back then. They all have the same reactions, telling me that I already reached P21,750 and leaving that amount might have really been hard for me. Honestly? I started to worry about myself more than thinking about the salary that I am getting. Yes, that person and I somehow settled things between us already but how would you expect me to deal with it later on? I don't know how some people do it but I can't really stay in a place seeing the person that I loved before being with somebody else, someone who is more acceptable and more right. That's why I decided to leave.

Then after that, I became unemployed for almost 2 years. I got scared on going back to working in a place where I will be meeting new people again. Just the thought that I have to make new friends again makes me feel so afraid. I became scared of being rejected, of being left alone, of being just a nobody that no one even cares about. I got scared of the possibility of meeting people who might later on just leave me again in the end. Simply, this might be called a trauma because of what I've had to go through before.

I've made friends in my previous company. Real friends, close and well-bonded friends. Until one day, everything started to fall apart because of a small misunderstanding. That time, I was still on the process of moving on from a lost love but because of me acting so pathetic and stupid about it, maybe because I really don't have the slightest idea on how I am supposed to deal with it and since my mind is still so filled with confusion, guilt and anger, the break-up extends its way to my friends. It was a phase in my life that I need to move on from my relationships, both in love and friends. Friends, at some point, also do get tired. I was really so hard to handle, too hard to understand and too hard to cope up with back then which made them so fed up of me and left. I've been in the same situation before but for it to happen again, it's just too much for me. For months, I learned to live life alone again until I finally gave up, telling myself that It's time for me to meet new friends and move on. I met wonderful people in our office. Thanks to them because somehow, the last months of my stay there became easy to deal with. I started to cheer up and to open up once again. But this certain day came in where it made me meet the other people. We talked about what happened in the past and thought that maybe we could still work things out. What happened that day was like a reconciliation. Admitting each other's faults and forgiving. I was happy that it happened but I already accepted that it can never bring things back as to how it was before. Well, at least I already got them back.

Months ago, we had this farewell party for the person who molded me to become the best employee that I can be on my previous job, the one I call 'nay, and one of the real friends that I have. At some point, the conversation went to asking me if it would still be possible for me and for that someone to become friends again despite of what happened between us. It was actually a tough one because I really don't know what to say. In my mind, I keep saying no because I already accepted that there's no way that we will become good friends again. After experiencing that certain event before, one night, out of the blue, I thought of coming over to that person's place thinking that I still have a friend left in that person. But it proved me wrong. Things can never get better between us anymore and it's best to just leave it like that. So on that farewell party, asking that for me made me think of a reason why I should still be friends with that person.

Anyways, I already tried remembering everything that happened before but I guess my mind had already dumped them away, reason for me to already say that I already moved on. Just to sum it up, it took me 3 years to move on from all that and those people who interviewed me are even happy telling me that at least now I'm healed up and already open to going back on looking for a job and be working.

And of course, after experiencing all that, I learned a lot. I told myself not to fall for someone who is in the same work that I'm in and not to live with the person under the same roof ever again because it will really be hard if I'm going to face the moving on part again. That relationships aren't really for life because it does end eventually. I also want to believe that the love shared is real but when it ended, you can't just really help but think if everything that happened was real. But in the end, what I believe most is that maybe, God is still busy writing the best love story for me and He is just making me experience the side-stories first. :)

@Hiyono. I guess there's no need for you to go back and check my archives about what actually happened before. I think everything's already here. LOL! But if you still want a more detailed and maybe feel the exact same feeling that I felt before, you are free to read back! :)

Untold Stories #1

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Fri, 09 Dec 2011 12:02:00 +0000

Update: I just want you to know that after giving it some time, I learned that I am only exerting a lot of unnecessary efforts on thinking about things that I am not supposed to be worrying about. So what you will read about the cold shoulders and stuff, that was only an presumption made by an presumptionisto. But don't worry, I can still let you read on.

Alright, I badly needed to put this into words. I don't really know if I am just over reacting or what I'm dealing right now is a couple of cold shoulders. I know, I shouldn't be dealing with this kind of things knowing that I am only here living inside this room for over a year now and the only people I always see are the ones I'm living with.

Maybe I'm just really being the assuming one thinking that there is really going on but I really can't help but think that it has something to do with me. Yes, I've been unemployed for like almost 2 years already and all I do is receive my sister's kindness for making me live through all these times -- The reason for me not looking for a job? Expect me to write about it soon. And because of me being unemployed, I wasn't been able to pay the rent for those couple of months when I got back here to live with my sister -- there's also a story behind this moving back in to this apartment, I guess I'll be blogging about it pretty soon too. And there goes my debt still unpaid for over a year but somehow my sister was able to save me from the following months by covering the rent for me. I know, I really have the best and the most generous sister one can ever have and I am gratefully thankful for that. But the fact that this debt still remains unpaid until now still makes me uncomfortable. Well this really is the major part but still there are these minor issues that really makes me feel paranoid about.

Let's start with the closed doors. Because of an incident which happened months ago where one was accused of having a very mischievous pair of hands, they started to make it a habit to always close the door. When that one person left, the habit continued which I really totally ignored since it really got nothing to do with me. Then new people came in and they just recently installed locks on their door as well. Can anyone tell me, is there something going on where I need to be alarmed and get a copy of the key to our room's door as well? I mean, I always leave my door open, it not like there's anybody else is going inside the house just for the heck of it but I really don't feel anyone will actually do it. When suddenly it occurred to me, the paranoid part of me started to think, are they, in any way, thinking that I am entering their rooms whenever they're away, at work or just plainly out of the house like what that certain person did before? I respect their privacy and that's one enough reason for me not to slip inside their rooms. What am I supposed to do there anyways? Or maybe, having their doors locked is just plainly their habit and there's nothing really for me to worry about.

Another thing, food and condiments. On this part, somehow I'm guilty. I just can't really stand seeing some leftovers be left in the table only to be thrown away later on or be spoiled. I mean, if they aren't going to eat it anymore, I better make use of it, eat it for it not to go to waste. Reading that again makes it sound weird and funny but yeah, that's true. They sometime leave these leftover ulam or even loaf of bread, I know that I am not supposed to touch these since they aren't mine but, *sigh*. Then the condiments like soy sauce, vinegar, fish sauce, oyster sauce, salt, pepper and even the ginisa mix and that other stuff. I do use them sometimes when we're out of those. I mean, normally it's allowed right? Because they can also always use ours when they ran out of stock of those as well. Some new condiments also came in since one of our housemates work in a food company and I though of trying it out. Of course I'm only using small amounts since I don't really use them before. And yes, sometimes, I use their condiments without asking them. But at some point I noticed that they were kind of eyeing these kinds of stuff and that's when I stopped my little cooking experiments. Well it's not like I stopped because I noticed that but I already stopped even before that because I'm not really getting how they were supposed to be used in cooking. Then lately, I think I just heard them talking about how a certain sauce in a bottle seemed to get being used for just looking at the amount left from it. I did saw that bottle of sauce inside the fridge but I didn't bother to check it out. I mean after all, will you still expect me to use anything which aren't ours? The next thing I know, the bottle's gone. Not in the fridge, not in the food cabinet, not anywhere. Well I guess, they already kept it inside their room. I just hate it when they might be thinking that it is me that's using it.

And here's something to top it off, Meralco bills. Since I'm always at home, of course I'll be using my PC a lot. Before it was just me but later on, when the new people came in, they also get to share the consumption for having a laptop. But still there's the fact that I'm always the one who is contributing the biggest usage when it comes to the bill. But of course whenever the end of the month comes in, it's divided among us. I know that my sister is only able to give four thousand pesos monthly for the both of us, an amount that I'm sure isn't enough but still I know that a debt is still a debt. So if ever the bills goes up, please be assured that our part will always be paid, if not enough, I know, I can and I will pay you, who knows, 2012 might just be our lucky year.

Then I also start having my own closed door habit. I do always leave my door half open but I just really can't help it. Sometimes, I'm thinking that whenever they see me in front of this PC, thought's like, 'PC nalang nang PC' or 'Umalis ako nasa harap ng PC, dumating ako nasa PC nanaman' are running through their minds. So I end up leaving my door closed or if not, I leave it a bit open. I'm not really sociable even here at home. I mean, how will I be able to since I've locked myself here for over a year so expect me to not be able to reach out most of the time. I just hope that they will not misinterpret me for not being able to face them that often because lately I've been shutting myself in whenever they're around. I just don't know how to face them anymore having all these assumptions in mind. I know that I should be talking with them about this but it isn't something that we always do. The last time we gathered to have a serious talk, someone was forced to leave the house. Maybe I'm just afraid or maybe I just need to believe that there isn't really something going on so I really don't need to worry about anything. I also wanted to think that this is just like a family issue where it's normal not to talk but I guess this kind of setup isn't really like that.

While writing this I'm actually listening to an album of DBSK just to keep my calm. I don't really want to hold grudges or anything like that. I've had enough of that feeling already -- I know you want to know about this version of story as well, so I'll update you about it as well -- and they aren't the kind of people who deserve to be treated with hate. I respect everyone here and I know that we do have some differences as well but one just have to learn to accept other people for being who they are, right? So just to make it clear, I don't have anything against them and I'm sorry if I am causing them some sorts in-house troubles.

*Scrolls up* Damn! This is what you get whenever I'm writing straight from the heart. A very long post! Haha! So just to loosen up the mood, The reason why I decided to play DBSK's album is because of what I was doing at around 2AM this early morning. I was like so kinikilig to those posted videos on Youtube about YunJae! LOL! I think I spent 2 hours just watching a lot of those kinds of videos. Haha! There were a compilation of photos made into a video and there also video clips of them which really makes people believe that Yunjae is real. Oops! Haha! There goes a link. LOL! I just really can't believe that people will really give in lots of effort only to produce something like this:

This isn't really the ones that I watched because this really went on up to 46 episodes I think? LOL! Pero kinilig talaga ako, amp. Hahaha!

Alright, I guess I really need to end this already. If ever I can get the right mood for posting the untold stories, you'll be able to read them here soon. I am really trying to put this all up here so that if ever the thought, 'Kamusta na kaya si Rashid?' crosses anyone's minds, they can always get an answer here. So as much as possible, I always want this to stay as personal as it can be. So let me now put this up as my Untold Stories #1. ^^

What Happened G-Clef?

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Thu, 08 Dec 2011 14:26:00 +0000

Both my head and my nape hurts when I woke up this afternoon. Is it caused by me sleeping too much or, alright, I've been eating 'tuyo' since yesterday and that's one of those salty foods that I'm supposed to avoid to prevent myself from having this high blood pressure. 'Eh kaso anong magagawa ko, masarap kaya kumain ng tuyo.' LOL! But at least now I'm fine and I just hope that it'll not wake me up having to complain about the same pain again tomorrow.

Job hunt update: I went to ADP in Ayala yesterday to attend to my supposed to be interview. I arrived there at around 11, filled up a form then waited for almost 3 hours before I got called. It was like waiting for forever while we were watching the video which was playing in loops! Imagine a single video which runs for like a minute with just 4 different interview-like episodes playing for the whole 3 hours that I was waiting. I almost memorized already what they were saying. I'm not irritated or anything but it's just so funny looking at the other applicants who yawning a lot of times and are obviously irate and really pissed off. Haha! So then I was called after almost 3 hours, of course I'm expecting for an interview to commence but what happened was just a short chat between me and Chris, the supposed to be interviewer, telling me that the position that I am applying for, which is actually a position offered to me by Teledevelopment, currently has no vacancy and hopefully by January, a new class will be opened. So in the end, my application will be held active until the opening occurs.

I'm not really thinking of looking for some other jobs as of the moment for I really wanted to know how my application with ADP will turn out. So I guess, I'll just have to enjoy the holidays and the rest of the year until I receive a call from them.

Lately, I've been watching on YouTube, looking for some great covers where I can sing along. LOL! 'Namiss ko ata magvideoke!' And then I thought of, 'sayang, kung nipursue ko lang ang pagkanta, sana maganda pa rin ang boses ko.' Haha! I remember back on my elementary days, I'm always one of those who join those singing contests at school where I always end up being on the second place. I remember having a voice coach who gave me all those voice exercises and a lot of those vocalizations. Haha! 'Bakit nga ba kasi hindi ko kinarir yun?'

Infinite Future

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Mon, 05 Dec 2011 12:18:00 +0000

Alright, I'll try to make this as short as possible. I just want to set the mood for myself to start writing for the articles that I'm supposed to finish. I watched Fairy Tail episode 108 a while ago and that is where I got the title of today's blog title. And then I remembered one of the interviews done by YTF where I learned about why the named their group YTF - Yesterday, Today and Forever. You can watch the interview below.

"Yesterday is in the past, today you have a choice and forever is up to you."

And most likely, every choice you make today has a great impact to what your future holds. And when I say every choice, that is each and every choice you make, big or small, yes or no, do this or do that. Then I remember the anime Steins;Gate which made a different approach on how your choices can affect the future where every choice you should have made will create a world parallel to ours and from there branches of possibilities about your future will continue to branch out. That series really is a bit complicated but I really enjoyed their concept of showing us how a simple choice can affect what will happen.

I really don't know if I'm making any sense here since all I really wanted is to let my fingers start typing so that I can go on with what I'm supposed to be doing. Haha!

Hello, Goodbye and Hello

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Thu, 01 Dec 2011 20:09:00 +0000

Done watching Hoshi wo Ou Kodomo~ timing talaga lagi panonood ko~ Umaakma lagi sa mood~ Happy Birthday uli Reu~ Siguro nga I'll just have to believe that all people pass on some time. That the only difference is whether it comes sooner or later. We've been together for 8 years and you really went ahead pretty soon. But I guess I'll just have to accept that you're a part of a much bigger plan now. Wherever you are right now, I know you're fine and happy. Just always keep a close watch over us ha? You just turned 17 and I just wish that I can spend this day with you and spend this life with you a bit longer. You're big brother is really missing you so much and I will always be. I Love you. ~♥

This was what I posted on Facebook after watching Hoshi wo Ou Kodomo, an anime movie which is about parting with your loved ones and seeing the cruelty and beauty of life. Today is actually my little brother's birthday. Well he just turned 17 which probably makes him a big boy right now but I always think of him as a cute and cheerful little boy and that will always be the memory that I will have about him. I know that I should feel happy but I also feel the sadness of being the big brother. Maybe it's kind of normal when you're in this kind of situation so I guess it can't be helped either.

I don't want to end this post with a sad note so to celebrate this day, I went out earlier to grab some burgers and noodles! I just thought that I really have to eat something. LOL! And I really got myself filled up while watching the movie. ^^

Recovery

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 17:17:00 +0000

I added some color into my blog just to get away from the so plain white template that I had. And congrats to me for putting up a link page up there! I really had a hard time putting that up though. I don't know if it's a Blogger issue but at least I managed to bring it back. I really am not a social blogger or maybe because I wasn't really wandering around but anyways I also added Belleh and Aencille on my list, I think I remember having them on my list of links before but I really can't recall it very clearly. Guess, I'll just have to make a drop by to their blogs later. ^^ This link exchange thing is really one of the most remembered part of my early blogging experience. Haha!

So my mom is still here and maybe they will be going back home to Bicol tomorrow. Well at least I can be able to concentrate on writing and going back to applying for a job again. It was really like I was evicted out from using my PC when they arrived, my mom, together with my cuz. Mom's really so into Facebook, chatting almost all day with her high school friends and classmates! And my cuz who is so addicted to Plants vs. Zombies, Angry Birds and even Sims 3!

Time check: 1:45AM. Today I will become a part of a small event at Venice Piazza together with one of the organizers of the Ozine Fests. I will be meeting up with them later this afternoon and I still really don't have any idea what the event is all about. But it was really a good thing that I got invited to be with them later.

[Googled: venice piazza event november 29 4pm]

So now I think I already have an idea. I think there will be a Christmas Bazaar, Pasko Magnifico in La Piazza Garden, Mckinley Hills. I saw this event poster with the word 'Cosplay' on it, so, just connect the dots. XD

So what's next? Hopefully I can get a job sooner and start to regain life. At least this isn't going to be like before where I am the only one working. Haha! I hope I can get to plan about things a little better now.

Heads Down

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Fri, 25 Nov 2011 17:05:00 +0000

Juggling my time between sleeping, eating, watching anime, attending a couple of interviews and writing reviews for the magazine is somewhat a challenge for me these days. I can't even tell if I'm managing it properly or I'm just slacking off most of the time.This might be hard to believe but I think I'm stressed out of what is happening right now.

I had this interview yesterday where I was asked of what I really wanted to do. For a second there I thought I knew but as we moved on, I learned that it would really be impossible to do everything. That going with the flow will never bring you to where you really want to go. It was actually for a CSR/TSR position which I am not really good at, well, they say that I can be trained since I really don't have any experience in regards to that but one thing became clear and thanks to that interview. I guess it did went on naturally, I wanted to try a new path through this position that I thought I can lead to but maybe it would be best for me if I'll be sticking to what I am really good at, nurturing the skills that I already acquired and be successful in that craft. At the end, I was given a 'No' which somehow made me feel better. I was told to try applying at their Data Center but I think I'll be visiting a different company first before coming back to them.

But trying out this next company is something that I'm really hesitant about. Knowing that I had friends on my previous company whom I almost lost, having an existing friend on a company that I'm planning to work with is really giving me this frightening feeling. This might be something that I really have to overcome. I'm afraid of going through that kind of experience again and that's why, as much as possible, I really didn't wanted for someone to refer me to their company. But if it'll not be avoided maybe I'll just have to deal with it.

Anyways, there have been quite a number of bloggers coming back to life again! I already learned that Ewoishe is back but there are also others who made their way back to blogging! It's nice to see Hiyono and Xian's blogs again! Really brings back memories, ne? XD Maybe It's time for me to put up a Links page soon. :)

3 Days and I'm Back

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Sun, 13 Nov 2011 18:58:00 +0000

I guess I'll just have to pick some random picture to be posted on each blog post in line with the dynamic views implemented by Blogger. This one caught my eye and it's the hug that really made me feel this image, plus of course the amazingly done background. I've seen this on Tumblr and thanks for posting this up. Now, I badly need one.

Globe effed up again and made me unconnected for almost 3 days. It's not that I'm really using their "service" but still I need it to connect to the internet. Funny part is, I forgot that I have a spare Smart stick lying just in front of me which I can use to reconnect me to the world. If not for my mom who called me asking if I'm still using it, I shouldn't be here typing and thinking of putting up a blog post right now.

Ewoishe is back! Yey! And it's just a while ago when I got to see a feature story about her and her blogging experience which can be found here: Who’s Who: IT Student and 7 Years Blogger. Imagine those 7 years of blogging! I even went to check my own posts and learned that up to this date, including this, I have a total of 381 published posts here on Blogger, not to include yet my blog posts which was lost together with the solitary-cross domain where I stayed for almost 2 years, 2006-2007, plus my earliest blog posts that I accidentally deleted way back on 2004 when I'm still using ebloggy. If I'm to count the years, I guess I'll be ending up with a full count of 7 as well! It's just so funny that I first posted tweet-like messages which I already count as a blog post before and all of the random everyday stuff in full Tagalog language with all the sticky caps! I bet, everyone who started blogging way ahead of me also have their own funny beginnings!

And yes, I'll be taking note of this one. ^^

Techloban: Can you share with us some tips on blogging and maintaining your online presence?

Eloise:

Know which platform or tools should you use. Weigh the pros and cons.

Be both professional and personal.

Have personality, but don’t overshare.

Keep active through status updates.

Monitor your pages through periodic vanity searching.

Network through comments, recommendations, group activities, etc.

Update all your profiles at once.

What Letter Am I Now?

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Thu, 10 Nov 2011 15:29:00 +0000

I'm not quite sure of how many letters I have used already but this one's I know to be of a major plan after having a failure on my previous plan. So, I was on my Facebook profile, editing the About Me section when I suddenly realized that this About Me section is supposed to be updated from time to time, that is if you're seriously writing the real about you.

I happened to start writing and this is what I've made up:

I'm a Long-time Writer and Blogger, Ozine Event Staff and Coordinator and for 2 years, I've become a Funemployed Bum! Social Media Marketer, Entrepreneur and a Part-time Job Hunter. Now I'm 25 and I'm almost turning 26, I decided to redo my life and I'm preparing myself mentally and emotionally to be ready to face the corporate world once again. I dunno if this is going to be the most clever thing to do but I know that I can make my own formula on how to deal with life this time around. And it's all thanks to my mom that I now have a more definite plan on what I wanna do in life. I guess it do really goes down to, "Moms know best!"

Almost 4 years of moving on from all of the heartaches that I experienced before should be enough, it only caused me a lot of mess in life resulting for me to be lost along the way. Maybe the time is now for me to get back and reclaim myself to give back all the shit that life gave me. To face the fear that I had for the longest time.

But then I just thought of having it posted here and put this up instead:

Send me a friend request and be intimately close with me or subscribe to my timeline instead. Your choice. :)

Residencia De Riego and Resort

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Thu, 03 Nov 2011 17:17:00 +0000

I'm going back to Batangas early next year! And this time, I'm going to be at Residencia De Riego and Resort! I will be with 15 other people from one of my FB group, Party Pipoys! It's actually a deal that we got from Cash Cash Pinoy, a 16 pax deal for only Php3,999 which is about half of the original value. You can check the place tru the photos below.

Here's the original text from Cash Cash Pinoy:

Highlights

When it's about lively past, history, folklore, nature and stretches of excellent beaches and relax, it's about Batangas!

Choose among 4 exclusive pack at incredible price.

A Unique Filipino design based on the classic Nipa Hut - from cottages to the rooms and bar!

Inclusive of use of swimming pool, reserved cottages, breakfast and entrance for everyone!

FREE use of facilities like Basketball half court, Volleyball court, Darts, Billiard hall, Badminton, Table tennis and Karaoke machine!

3 magnificent swimming pools to frolic in : 2 for adults and 1 for children!

Spectacular light show at the pool every evening - the resort's unique main attraction!

Your voucher is valid for 1-YEAR!

Buy and use as many vouchers as you need.

Just like that, you now have a reason to visit Batangas aside from their kicking Barako coffee! And with this CashCashPinoy deal, we won't be surprised to find all of you out there flocking to Batangas in droves! Just check out our amazing 2D/1N stay at Residensia de Riego in Alitagtag, Batangas! For 2 pax, 4 pax, up to 8 pax or up to 16 pax, you have a great choice among several packages! Whether it's a date, a get together with your closest friends or a family reunion, this offer will definitely make your out-of-town trip to Batangas as pain free as possible. Even more so when you consider that these packages include FREE use of swimming pools PLUS breakfast and entrance free to the resort for EVERYBODY! Also inclusive is an open cottage specifically reserved for you and your company!
With the Kubo Villa, inspired by the classic Pinoy Nipa Hut, you'll enjoy a simple and natural stay for 2, with Fan.
If you're more than 2, you have several choices from Deluxe Room for 4 pax, to Supreme Room for 8 pax! All these rooms are perfectly equipped with Refrigerator, Flat Screen TV with satellite, Comfort Room with Shower Heater, Intercom and many more! Or you can get Econo Room, up to 16 pax! You'll probably enjoy also the FREE Wi-fi, and the FREE use of Griller Station, facilities like Basketball half court, Volleyball court, Darts, Billiard hall, Badminton, Table tennis and Karaoke machine!!

We know the deal sounds so exciting already, but let us pump your juices up a little bit more. First of all, at Residensia de Riego, you'll be treated to some Filipino-style accommodations! Wooden structures roofed with anahaw leaves give you the feeling of a genuine Pinoy barrio. Even the bar and restaurant, which plays good music with a live band at night, is styled in this way so as not to break the illusion.

During the day, you can hang out at your nipa hut cottage, which is just one among many dotting the three spectacular pools of the resort: 2 for adults and 1 for kids! During the evening, you can still stay at your cottage and marvel at the spectacular light show emanating from the pools - Residensia de Riego's main attraction! This beautiful display of light and water is bound to be a favorite memory you and your group will cherish for a long time!

Photos were grabbed from these links:
i Travel Batangas
Batanggenyong Online
WOWBatangas.com
FB Page: Residencia de Riego and Resort

Major Update: Simply Me

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Thu, 03 Nov 2011 16:24:00 +0000

Welcome to the newly updated template of my humble blog, now using Blogger's Dynamic Views which I really starting to love. So, last blogging activity, September 25. What the hell happened to me in the past month? And why haven't I been able to blog about even a single word? A lot of things happened but most of the time I was thinking.

I did tell you that I was coming back home on my previous post. And know what, I did. I spent a week back home and realized a bunch of things which I should have thought of way back. The reason why I haven't even thought of coming back before is because of I was filled with the idea of when I come to visit home, I should be able to bring with me a huge sum of money in my pocket along with me, if not huge, at least a justifiable amount. I was too scared to go home bringing only myself. But I was wrong. Just seeing my mom and my dad really gave me the feeling that everything's fine. That I am still warmly welcome and that there's nothing for me to worry about. Well maybe, that's why it is called family. And because of that, I would like to thank Mayeth for inviting me for her wedding. This really pushed me to go back and visit home.

Next stop, my Bum Blog Series. I temporarily stopped updating them and I think it'll take a long time before I can get them back up. Like what I've told you, when I get back to writing with Otakuzine again, I'll shut down my anime blog to prevent myself from posting anything that I am actually writing for the magazine. I think and I firmly believe that what I write for the magazine is solely for the magazine's use only so I guess there's no argument about that and besides, I don't think anyone even notices that my anime blog ever existed. As for my online opportunity blog, since I'm back into writing for Otakuzine, and I'm currently applying for a bunch of positions on oDesk, watching anime, cook, eat and sleep and oftentimes going out with some real people, I barely have enough time to update that blog. And besides, if you really followed that blog, you might as well checked here in my personal blog as well. Let's just say that I'll just somehow post some of those online job related topics here so that you guys can still catch up. So in the end, I lost to my own personal challenge of managing multiple blogs.

Now let's talk about what I want to happen. Maybe it would really be hard to think of what I want for the long run so let's just stick with the small and easy to accomplish ones. I actually had this discussion already with Arashi but just to clear it for myself, what I want to do first is to produce some amount of money enough for me to pay the balances that I still owe to some people. To do that, hopefully part of it can be from what I will earn through writing, and I really wish that I land on my first job on oDesk as well. I also want to save up for my mom who want's to open a mini-store at home and to help her finish the house, polishing and furnishing. Then of course I want to continue what I started on The Filipino Dream. It's really branching out and a lot of things already happened there. So, maybe that's it for now, more plans will come out eventually.

So this is now the simple me, living better, one day at a time. That just really fits a bum like me. I don't want to lose that little hope that I still have. I still want to believe that I can make it, little by little, and soon I will get there.

Then Suddenly I Stopped

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Sat, 24 Sep 2011 19:37:00 +0000

There's a lot of those things that I have been doing where I suddenly just stopped actually doing. Well generally, that's what's happening right now. But specifically, the Bum Blogs, which is entirely connected to those things that I'm talking about.

When was the last time I posted on my other Bum Blogs? Would you imagine that the last time I written something on The Bum Earner was more like a month ago? And how about The Otaku Bum? Last post was dated on the 6th day of this month but is rather not counted since it's just a very short post where I technically rephrased in order for the blog to be updated. Maybe I was just felt like making things better which made me to suddenly stop.

Honestly? I'm still up for this challenge but I think I'm a bit clouded. I presented a concept which will lead me to stop blogging on The Otaku Bum. Well that's actually a decision of mine if ever that concept will be implemented and I really do hope it does. It still has to do something with me writing but if that time comes, it would be going back to writing on print. Somehow I already gave you an idea of what it is all about.

In regards to The Bum Earner, maybe I'll just have to become more eager to look for some job out there but I'm more thinking about making something for my own. Redefining the keywords The Bum Earner, I think it's more appropriate to say that I am earning while almost doing nothing. Not like earning while working your arse out, right? "You let your imagination run away with you.", "Inventing a job is better than finding a job." These are just a few lines that I find really inspiring on the film The Social Network.

Little by little, I can feel that somehow, I'm coming back knowing what I want in my life. I hope this can really help me move forward from here on.

I'm Coming Home

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Thu, 15 Sep 2011 20:16:00 +0000

Very soon I will be saying this for real, "I'm home!"

Now thinking back, when was the last time that I went home? I can't even remember. I haven't been home for the longest time in my life! Now I'm counting like 3 to 4 years? Unlike other people, I really rarely go home. I dunno about it but maybe because it doesn't really feel like home anymore. I've always been away from the family since I went to college. Add to that all what happened back then. But then, even if it's hard for me to define what home is now, I'm still excited to see my mum and brother there. I'm also looking forward to visiting some places there as well.

So what really made me go home? One of my closest friend is getting married and she asked me if I can be one of the MC's for her wedding! I really don't have any experience hosting a wedding before but I just can't say no to her, come on! It's her wedding day and I really wanted to be a part of that very day! I just wouldn't want to miss it!

I guess I need to check out the sample script now. I've still have a lot of script writing to do! Ciao!

What's My Inheritance?

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Sun, 11 Sep 2011 17:29:00 +0000

I bumped into this video of Victor Kim about #Kingdom Mentality and it did pushed me to write this down.

I'm really thinking of it these days, "What did I really wanted when I was still a child?" Did I wished to become a doctor? a teacher? a sailor? I really don't remember it very clearly now. That's what they ask to little ones right? "What do you want to become when you grow up?" Why didn't I had the tightest grasp of it when I grew up? What did I really dreamed of? What do I really want? There should be some roots to what I really want to do right? But why can't I really figure it out?

I've been so vacant for over the past year and I've been searching for that single purpose of my life. I don't want to be just a bum. I want this experience to be something meaningful. It's not that I am getting bored, but I want to do something more which is actually my problem. What is it that I wanted to do? I do enjoy my time while being with others and I also know that I really need to work on about something. But, I really don't know what to do. I know there are ways but the word "practicality" always gets in my way.

I want to know my inheritance. I want to know what will represent my idea, to build my own Kingdom Mentality. Something that belongs to me which I will pursue whatever it takes.

Time's Up

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Fri, 09 Sep 2011 12:02:00 +0000

Almost 2 weeks after my previous post, I guess it's time for me to stop hoping. Or should I still wait? Well anyways, if it is for me then it is mine, it's just that simple. I really turned out to be so hoping on my last post and I really never thought of the "what if's" of that certain situation. Knowing me, what goes around, comes around. I do my part and wait for what will happen after. But of course, waiting also has its end. At the end of the day, you need to think of your next step and do something about it. So time's up for this and let's move on.

Surprisingly For Me, Is It Time?

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Fri, 26 Aug 2011 19:11:00 +0000

I was searching all over the web for something that can describe what my reaction was when I opened my Facebook early last night. What happened that time might be something that I can connect to this certain thought that I was wishing. Something that all of the sudden appeared to me to give a cleared path. I'm not really going to give away the details for now but this I think is what I needed to somehow make a move for myself. I hope this can open a new chapter of my book and then let's see what will happen from there. I will surely share this in full details soon.

What More Can I Say

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Tue, 23 Aug 2011 06:31:00 +0000

Lately, what I am feeling is frustration, depression, disappointment, stress, what else? I already told you about what happened to one of my bum blogs, The Otaku Bum. Actually I was able to publish its latest post about the issue that I am experiencing and since I was able to, I hurriedly tried to post another one which is an Anime post and there it goes again, publishing issues. This is just so frustrating. I already searched for some possible fix but all I can see on Blogger discussions are a whole bunch of questions hanging unanswered.

The same thing is what I also get in regards with the internet connection that I am using right now. Unlike the previous one, this service doesn't really have a place to post your inquiries and complains. All they have is a Symbianize thread where all I could only see are questions as well. Just where are the people who knows the answers?! But somehow, what's good for now is that my internet connection is a bit stable compared than the last 2 days.

What I really want right now is to have a solution for the problem that I have with my bum blog. With that, I will surely be so grateful.

Publishing Issues on Blogger

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Fri, 19 Aug 2011 14:15:00 +0000

I don't know what is really happening, but every time I publish a post on my other bum blog, The Otaku Blog, it just don't go through. I checked Blogger's status blog and learned that they already fixed the problem but hey, why can't I publish my posts there?!

I am thinking if it has something to do with uploading an image. I was able to publish Fall 2012: Maken-Ki! Trailer having no problem at all just a while ago since I only embedded a video with it.

Now if this post gets published, then tell me what really is happening. Is it only a problem on my other bum blog or is it a problem that Blogger needs to fix?

I Owned The Stage!

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Mon, 15 Aug 2011 20:54:00 +0000

For the first time, I owned the stage! Yup! At the just recent Ozine event at SM City Rosales, I happened to grab a chance of hosting it. I didn't even imagine that it will really make me oh so nervous that day! Haha! We went there thinking that I will be fine but it wasn't really that easy to make a fine composure on stage! LOL! I can still even remember my voice trembling and my hand shaking. At least I managed to do it better when I get to talk to some of the people who were there. I just happened to get some strength from them to enjoy the whole event rather than thinking of how I will end up doing the hosting.

Hosting such events really needs knowledge on what the event is all about. This time, it's about Anime and luckily, the Anime that the people know are almost the same set of Anime that I have in mind so somehow I managed to blend in with them. The flow of conversation went well, and I hope I didn't made them feel bored.

I met a lot of people, enjoyed the event with them, and shared the stage with them! An experience that helped me go back to my previous self who is facing people giving them my speech way back when I'm still at school. Haha! Really brings back memories. LOL! But then I'm so glad that I was asked to host the event by Otakuzine. Imagine, me hosting an event?! WOW!

Free Samsung Galaxy Ace

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Fri, 12 Aug 2011 14:32:00 +0000

CleverBuy is giving away one Samsung Galaxy Ace which everybody wants for free! Yes and I'm not being mistaken here, I told you, best deals! They are giving it away for free, as in P0. All you need to do is "buy", even though there's no amount to be paid, a voucher from CleverBuy which will act as your raffle coupon. Remaining time for you to buy one is 61 hours, 32 minutes as of this moment. The raffle will be done on August 31, 2011 and the winner should claim their price at the CleverBuy office at Makati City. So far there are already 2,505 vouchers sold but who knows, I might become the lucky one!

As a loyal CleverBuyer who has been there with us since our start, we are giving away the gizmo that EVERBODY wants. The Samsung Galaxy Ace is a mid-range touchscreen Android phone released by Samsung sitting comfortably between the Galaxy S and the low-end cornucopia of Galaxy Fit, Mini and the Galaxy 5. It has some pretty decent specs that would put it into the high-end spectrum if it was launched a year ago so those who are looking for a bargain Android phone might want to consider this one. Get to win a Samsung Galaxy Ace! We’ll be raffling off all the vouchers sold and one lucky winner will win the Galaxy Ace. A cool, pretty gizmo just for you!

You Know What We Did Last Weekend

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Fri, 12 Aug 2011 13:01:00 +0000

This may be a little late but well, you might still be interested on the itinerary that we had when we went to Batangas for a weekend getaway! I know that you first want to know the amount that we shelled out for this getaway. Would you believe that we only spent more or less P1,500 only for this weekend trip? So this is what really happened last weekend. Pictures from my Facebook were made into slide shows for you to get a glimpse of what it is like.

Saturday. We were supposed to meet up by 12 noon at Metropoint which is beside MRT Taft Station. That would somehow be a good time since the ride from there to Chateau Royale will take 1 and a half to 2 hours. But unfortunately, Lai missed her flight from Bicol to Manila so we waited for a couple of hours more to wait for her to arrive. We all met at around 4:30PM. Instead of going there on bus, we decided to use a van. Fare from Taft to Chateau Royale, P180. We arrived at around 7:30PM and take note, our check-in time was 2PM. So for you to not waste those precious time, be early on these kinds of situations.

We checked in, hit our cabin and then it's time to grab some dinner. The resort has 2 choices, the floating restaurant and the Verande, their cafe. Price range? The floating restaurant has this fixed price of P250, a semi-buffet meal where you will choose from pork or chicken barbecue or grilled tilapia. Huge tasty pieces I'm telling you! Rice all you want, green salad all you want, and served with soup and grilled corn and their closing time, 9PM. On the other hand, their Veranda cafe do also serve meals ranging from P160-P320. Different viands to choose from, P20 for rice, and they only have San Miguel Beer if you're into grabbing one, closing time is 10PM.

Since we arrived late, we continued on to have a night swimming instead. Their pool are open until 8PM but we hit the water at around 10PM after dropping by at the Veranda cafe to grab some sweets and beer. Before you can use the pool on those times where the pool attendant is not anymore available, you are to sign a waiver stating that the management is not to blame when accidents happen. Anyways, we only stayed there for an hour then we went back to our cabin.

Back in our cabin, we forgot to bring some drinking water. Take note of this, Chateau Royale Drinking water, 326 ml, P35. So it would be best if you can bring your own drinking water. The cabin's great. It's huge that even a family can even occupy it. Air-conditioned, nice beds, sala, flat screen TV which only has 17 channels, ABS-CBN and GMA and TV5 not included. It was nice staying there. Lights out by 12 midnight and woke up by 5AM.

Sunday. Free breakfast served on one of their huge hall and there we met other people who grabbed the promo as well. Anyways, you'll easily notice them because most of the people there are grouped into 4. We went back to the pool to grab lots of photos then we were approached by one of their attendants to give us a tour of the whole place. There we saw there vegetable farm, mini zoo, orchids farm, and the fishing lake. The whole place is just s outrageously large which I even thought of it being a subdivision. There are bikes for rent, and even a horse-back riding.

So we roamed the rest of the place, went back into our cabin and checked out by 12 noon. We learned about a church nearby at Caleruega. Just a tricycle ride away. But you first need to reach Evercrest by jeep, P8 ride. From there to Caleruega, P20. Entrance on Caleruega, P30. I've been there for the 2nd time. First time I've been there, the place is not as great as it looks now. It really is so great to be back there. This is where you should spell B-E-A-U-T-Y and N-A-T-U-R-E. We went to visit the church, the picnic area, the hanging bridge, and the rest of the place. It was a quick stop but what we saw there is really worth visiting.

Then next stop, Tagaytay! Since all we need to do is ride a jeep at Evercrest, we went up to Tagaytay to grab a bite at Carlo's Pizza located at Magallanes Square. I'm not sure but I guess it's a P20 ride. or if not, well still, it should be cheap. We had some pizza and pasta and enjoyed the overlooking view from there. Total amount of food that we ate? more or less, P1200.

Then since it's already 5PM when we finished our food, we head out and went back to Manila. We took an ordinary bus on our way back, and the fare? P60. Well, the fact that we never chose to ride an air-conditioned bus is because of Lai who has this motion sickness on aircon buses.

So there! And oh, wait. The amount of the accommodation at Chateau Royal, P1,999. Just sum everything up then that would sum up to not more than P1,500 trip!

I Think I'm Still On Vacation

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Wed, 10 Aug 2011 05:58:00 +0000

Alright, So we left for Batangas last Saturday afternoon, spend the whole weekend there until Sunday, went to Caleruega after leaving Chateau Royale and headed to Carlos Pizza on Magallanes Square at Tagaytay to grab lots of foods! That's what happened last weekend. And for the details, I'll be posting them up on my next post because until now, I think I'm still on vacation and my mind's not yet still on the course of taking so much actions. But would you believe that we only spent around P1,500 each for this whole weekend getaway? That I will tell you, really, on my next post! Hahaha!

So here are some pictures that I can share, the rest of the pictures are uploaded on my Facebook, you can view the rest of them on these albums, "LG, Low Gets.. Parang Ikaw!" and "From Left To Right Kapag Nakahiga!".

Chateau Royale Batangas This Saturday!

noreply@blogger.com (Rashid) — Thu, 04 Aug 2011 07:45:00 +0000

It's nice waking up to a very nice weather and I hope this continues for the rest of the week! Weekend is almost there and I'm really looking forward to spend it with some friends. If you haven't known about this great deal that we found you must check it now to experience a Batangas Getaway for 4, P1,999 Only! It'll be on until February 29, 2012 So book your reservations now!

It was really a good thing for me that the sun showed up. My clothes will be sun-dried in no time! If not for the sun showing up, I might have only brought a pair of clothes for the whole weekend. LOL! Well now it's good. Clothes check! As for its location, Chateau Royale hotel Batangas is conveniently located across Evercrest Golf Course, a twenty-minute drive away from Tagaytay City. But if you're coming from Manila, that I am really not sure of. I'm a bum, yes. But I'm more of a home-buddy bum and less of a traveler-type bum. So I'll just depend on my friends about how we are going to go there.

So just wait for my post about my experience in Batangas next week as soon as we get back! This is really going to be fun!