Reaching for my stars

SUMMER

2010-07-23T19:43:00.000-05:00

My children have had a wonderful summer. They went to two different camps, saw there cousins a lot, watched fireworks. They went swimming, visited a nature park and the summer is not over. We buried granny this summer she was sick with als then died on July 1st. that was very hard. God has been are strength. She was a women of God and lived every day of her life to please him. The zoo or camp next week and we still have to visit the mountains.

My very own

2010-06-14T23:22:00.000-05:00

OK ,I am starting my own business, it is more confusing than I thought it would be just getting started. There is so much I have to do. I am getting frustrated. I have not even thought about taxes yet. I hope it will be enough to allow me to stay home with my kids. To take care of my home better, and be there for my family. I do not need to be rich I just need to have enough to pay my bills and have money in the bank for emergencies. To be able to run to the zoo or have a picnic with my kids every once in a while, would be nice to. I pray it works, as long as I pay my tithes, I know it will. I do not want to work under someone else for the rest of my life. I do not want to grow old and have to be a door greeter some where to make ends meet. I love my Family, I want to spend my life with them and never want them to be with out. I have a online business it will require my time every day but on my time and not someone else. I will be able to continue to write and finish the book I started on my time. This will allow me to live my life and be the mother I always wanted to be. I would rather spend my days with my kids around me than some where else around coworkers.

camp

2010-06-12T22:52:00.000-05:00

Two of my kids went to junior camp this past week. They had a lot of fun. I missed them so much it is good to have them home. Started something new a couple of weeks ago I hope it turns out well. My daughter goes to senior camp this week hope she has fun will miss her much.

life

2010-06-03T21:26:00.000-05:00

I enjoy my children.

Something New

2010-05-28T15:26:00.000-05:00

Trying out a new set up for my blog and posted some pictures for you.

He trys to leads us do we listen?

2010-05-24T15:40:00.000-05:00

He leads me threw life. Guiding my steps if I will only listen to him. I wanted more than anything for my children to know how to pray. I believe pray changes things, my children come to me for prayer. The lord gently gave me a way to do this with out others knowing. Away he wanted me to live something he requires out of me daily. I came across another problem only this was something to do with other children that wanted to come to church, With problems at there home and things I know they face and I do not want theses spirits attacking my home,or my children. I do want these kids to continue to come it is good for them and they love our church. The lord told me what to do he whispered stay on your knees. When ever I come across a problem in life God tells me just what to and every time it works he has never failed me. When I see my temper rising in me or my attitud, or catch my self doing something. He whispers in my ear reminding me off his word and showing me and teaching me. I find myself desiring to be more like my God and running from this wicked world. I do not want to dress like them or look like them,or go where they go. I want to keep my self from the strong hold satan has on this world. For God to keep my eyes open to what is going on around me. Somethig beautiful has came from choosing to live for God. My daughter has a desire to dress modestly, not to wear reveling clothing like low cut shirts, or short skirts that do not cover her knees when she sits down. Not to have on a shirt that reveals her stomach when raising her hands her sleeves are just the right length as not to reveal her under arms when raising her arms. She has no desire to wear pants that reveal her bottom figures shape, like the shape of her bottom or her legs. Her hair is uncut and you can see the glow of God radiating from it. No make up on her face to change the appearance of it. The Egypt women have had an effect on this world for years and in many Church's it is prevalent. The Egyptian women who cut there hair out of rebellion for a sacrifice to one of there gods. Then sold there bodies to men. They rebelled against what God wanted them to dress like and look like and painted there faces in rebellion to the church and God. We all want to go to church but we want to still look like the world. We want to go to the same places then on Sunday act like he is our everything. Is he your every thing if he told you not to wear certain clothing would you. Have you ever been in church and felt God so strong and felt uncomfortable in what you were wearing. That is God, his way of showing you how he sees you. Like Adam and Eve in the garden they were naked and not ashamed until they ate of the fruit. realizing they were naked. They sewed fig leaves together to cover them selves yet when God called out for them they hid from his voice. God then made coats of skin to cover there nakedness as if Adam and eve did not do a good enough job. Adam and Eve made aprons God made them coats. Next time you go to church try covering your self a little more make sure you are not reveling anything and see if when you feel God if you still feel uncomfortable in what you have on.

In Case You Are Wondering

2010-05-17T21:22:00.000-05:00

In case some of you are wondering Broken promises was just something off the top of my head and not about my husband and I. I want to thank every one who leaves me comments, I am glad there is someone reading what I write, thank you.

Broken Promises

2010-05-12T19:01:00.000-05:00

When will the sun shine again? When will I see you again? When will my heart break again, how long will it take for you to see, I,m not waiting on yesterday for the sun to shine on you, I took my bags and ran from you. i took one look and said no more. I cant play this waiting game. My heart is racing with the time, I ,m broken hearted from the promises you made. I took my bags and ran from you no more telling you how I feel. No more waiting on wheels to turn. I packed my bags and ran out the door my heart is racing I may be shaking but I'm free. I took one look at you and said, no more broken promise,s from you. I'll take my chance's on my own.

Tornado

2010-05-10T17:57:00.000-05:00

It is that time of the year again. Tornado's I am thankful I have never been affected by one. I have been close to being in two and have lived in this state my whole life. One year when my children were very little we had one very close to our house, my husband put the king size mattress in the hall and told me to get the kids and get under there and he ran outside to watch the tornado. Today my husband called me from work he works out of town , he calls and says come get me I am sick i think I have broke both of my legs the tornado got us He is not very funny. I told him to be safe, knowing him we will want to be outside watching the storm. I love the month of may. Some times the news makes it sound worse than it is.

The book

2010-05-05T14:02:00.000-05:00

I have been working on my book. I do not have a title for it yet. It is on modesty and how the fruits of the spirit play a big roll on modesty. We can all ways look just right on the outside but what we display in our conversations and our attitude plays a roll as well. I can not boast I do not have every thing right I can say I I draw closer to God I am thankful for his grace and Mercie and for directing my steps and correcting me on the way. I am still on the first chapter and every thing is coming together at first when God gave this to me to write I was not sure how it would fit together but he is showing me so much and everything is flowing together.

What America Has Came To

2010-04-28T21:02:00.000-05:00

What has this world come to? Women want men to give them respect, but they insist on wearing low cut blouses that show there cleavage. Women want men to look at them in the eye when it is the women showing the man her cleavage. It is like saying I am showing you my cleavage but I want you to look at me in the eye. When we go out to look for a job most people know you want to dress decent and professional you would not go in for a job interview at a bank or florist shop extra looking like you were working on the streets. You would not get the Job. If women want the right kind of respect then dress right and respectful. If men still gaze at your breast when you are in no way showing or reveling anything and you do not have on tight clothing, then that man is at wrong. It has become very hard to go into a clothing store and find a blouse that does not reveal something this is true there are how ever camisole's and some women where a long sleeve shirt under one that is low cut or has no sleeves this is a good way to keep yourself covered. Let me ask this Question have you ever been in the presents of the lord and really felt God so strong you felt uncomfortable in the clothing you had on? this is the same way Adam and Eve felt in the garden after eating of the fruit and covering them selves with fig leaves. They had noticed they were naked sewed to gather fig leaves to cover them selves and were scared and hid them selves when they heard the voice of God. When before they were naked and not ashamed the lord spoke to them daily. The lord called for them after they had sinned and they were hidden. God knew why and then made coats of skin and covered Adam and Eve. Adam and Eve made aprons out of fig leaves and God made coats. The high Priest in the bible had to be covered and dresses according to Gods standards in order to come in to his presents. God has not changed he is still the same and expects for us to be covered as not to reveal are nakedness. That is why when we are in the presents of the Almighty God we tug on our blouse when raising our hands so we do not show our tummies or hold our blouse when bending over not to reveal anything, why do we do that? No one has taught us that, have they it is the natural order of God to have our selves covered. When we have an uncomfortable feeling because of what we may have on it is God tugging at our hearts letting us know( yes, I want you coverd.) Think about this the next time you are in church look around and see if you can spot some women like this. Notice when you go to work that those who are dressed respectfull get the most respect.

Just another ramble of words

2010-04-23T18:42:00.000-05:00

I had three days off this week feel like I have not worked all week. I am tired have not accomplished anything. it is a beautiful day outside. Love to make allot of jumble ramble instead of some short message of how my day has been. For all you Oklahomans I am not from muskogee. I do love the weather we are having no I do not live in muskogee. I like have no followers and no one may see this but one or 2. I have allot of kids in my back yard playing they all want Popsicle, what is up with my house in the summer time they all come running like a heard of wild wolves. It,s time for the kids to go and guess what time to hear my kids complain it,s only such and such time. I love my kids I love this day I like to write a bunch of nothing today. I hear the water running in the back yard now and I hear kids that were supposed to go home. I remember when I was young, I did not Liston either. OK for every one that wants to correct my grammar I know I have a bunch of run on sentences hear. There is also mi's spelled words I do not care to correct today. I love God he is so good to me glad we had the sun shining do to the rain we had last night.

ONE STEP AT A TIME

2010-04-19T18:11:00.000-05:00

Today I was off work and decided now or never so I started to finish a book that I began a few months back and am happy to say I have finished the Introduction to the book. I have to get started on the rest one chapter at a time. It is about holiness in case you are wondering. It has been on my heart for some time to write a book on the subject so I thought I spent to much time on the computer not to be doing something useful. Instead of wasting my time I will spend it accomplishing something. Which means not so much time on face book. and less time wasted, time to make room for a dream. That I pray will help me in the long run. I want to thank lady writer for giving me a little encouragement. Thank you

sunday

2010-04-18T18:55:00.000-05:00

It has been a rainy day. Families seem to be sleeping in but all went well. I seem to have accumulated several children to come to church on Sundays this is good. I love to fill my car up with kids for church on Sundays and make a couple of trips to get every one there and back home. It is funny though we do not have a Sunday school yet we just have one regular church service on Sundays from 3 to 6 but the kids love it because they can feel the presents of God they even go to the alter and pray and seek God it is so wonderful seeing what God is doing with my children and all their friends. Shows you do not have to have a big church and a huge Sunday school to win people to God. All you need is a place where you can reach God a place that knows how to pray and worship and reach the throne of God. God does all the rest. What is so funny is we are a small church of 4 family's mostly single moms and we do not worship enough but we do pray and know God can do anything and he moves in our lives.

Seeking

2010-04-16T09:12:00.000-05:00

Seeking things that can not be found, like yesterday gone with the wind. A glimpse of hope abroad the air, I seek again in hope of what might be there. I am not a poet as you can see I only write what I seem to feel.
OK, Got that of my head. I went to work early today thought I had to be there at 8 this morning wrong did not have to be there until 10, my bad. I am at home rambling on trying to be quit so I do not wake my sleeping husband. He is grouchy if awakened. It is like waking a sleeping bear you might want to run away. washing my clothes this morning trying to get some out of the way it piles up so fast. My young boys have a habit of not listening I do not know if it is genetic or just being a boy. they put there clean clothes back in with the dirty instead of putting them up when told to do so they let them fall on the floor of the bed, then they get shuffled under the bed and the next thing you know 2 days latter the same clothes are back in the washer, which they never wore. OK for all you who want a girl, drama queen I love my 14 year old daughter but could she possibly cut some of the drama out and have her clothes picked out for school the night before. No because she has to change her mind at least 5 times every morning, then walk out the door looking some what crazy. She is a talker in the morning in the evening in the middle of the night. She has woke me up to ask me things like mom you forgot to pray over me ! (No, honey we prayed, go back to bad.) 5 minutes latter did we pray tonight ! (OK honey let mommy pray for you again.) my little drama queen. she thinks she has authority over her brothers. .lol. Children, they will make you laugh, cry,crazy,go insane, and sigh with joy. They are my pride and joy they keep me on my toes. There not for sale they are more precious than silver and Gold.

How Amazing

2010-04-15T20:22:00.000-05:00

Amazing is my king, How great is my God in all the earth ,The sea roars at the sound of his voice. The mountains crumble beneath his feet. The ski has no boundaries when he speaks. My troubles turn to dust when he calls me forth. No bitterness dare stands where he has walked, anger has to cease when his presence comes threw. I know not nothing but to trust in him and when I'm weak there's no need to be strong for he is all powerful. When my steps are falling behind his gentle touch keeps my pace swift. My troubles never find me defeated, for he already won. I soar with ease like a eagle. I run and never grow tired because I learned to trust in him. My sickness never last for he comes and cast it away. My cabinet's never go bare for he has supplied my every need. I trust in Jesus he is all I know for there is no other God beside him. He has always been. He taught me to walk with him he taught me to talk, He is my teacher in him do I trust for he has never lead me wrong. In him will I live on.

Just Another Thought

2010-04-12T16:35:00.000-05:00

I was looking threw pitchures today, I had on my computer and came across a old story I had started to write some time ago. I was amazed at what I had written and found my self lost in my own words. Why did I give up on my desire to write? Why have I failed at taking the last steps needed to finish what I had started. I have to make my self finish, I want to do this for my self and for my children. Writting has always been what I'v wanted my whole life. When in grade school I joined a creative writting class and was always receving wonderfull feed back from my teachers and parents. I recived awards and was asked to put my writtings in a contest and did so one time. I don't remember winning but I was told I did great. I never entered another contest after that. I wrote a essay in Junior High once on abortion and was asked to read it to the whole 9th grade. I would write songs when I was younger and was always told I was going to be a writter one of these days. I guess life has just got in the way of my dreams. I get lost when I write like I am in a new world a world of my own. Writting just seems to flow through me like the wind blowing threw the buttom of a door on a cold wintery day. Or like vines in the spring time that find them selfs crawling up a fence post. It is like seconed nature to me. Writting is wear I find my insperation in life it is where I can escape from the world and be lost in my own. I do not want to be found I just want to be left alone and endulge in my thought withmy keypad in front of me and the only sounds I hear are those of the keypad and my own thoughts.

My bussy life,with JESUS

2010-04-09T19:04:00.000-05:00

My life gets so wrapped up in itself, I cant breath sometimes. I feel my self fading away in yesterdays sorrows, until I call on his name,(JESUS) he is always there to pull me out of my sorrows. I get myself in a jam sometimes because I am always rushing to get every thing done. JESUS is always there pulling me out. Yesterday my youngest was sick I had to leave work to go get him then take him home and rush back to work. When I arrived home after work my 2nd oldest walks in the door and reveal's that his sick brother missed out on reciving his orders that he sold to the neighbor hood. I found my self rushing to his school to pick up the orders and get back home to deliver them, on top of that I had left my purse at home with my ID in it. I was pulled over for a light violation. I rolled down my window to hear the officer, with my heart racing, (my only thought was at least my son and I had our seat belts on.). The officer said I am just giving you a warning, This will not be on your record. Then he asked me for my ID, I do not have it on meI replied, he said thats ok. He just needed to ask me a few questions. I answered the questions then I was free to go. JESUS he is my life savior. My life is a rush, I rush hear and there and hear and there allday long, every one needs me I feel like cinderella, thank goodness my godmother is not a fairytail and not a godmother but God the one and only. JESUS is his name.

I am a christian

2010-04-07T18:01:00.000-05:00

I am a christian I am apostolic united pentecostal. I belave in one God he is my every thing. He means every thing to me I am so thankfull I know who he is to have been raised in this truth.

Another Day another thought

2010-04-05T20:30:00.001-05:00

I have started something new and I am not shure what I am doing. I have no thoughts for today nor do I have much intrest in writting a blog today but hear I am I started this and will countinue it. I do love to write and have written music,songs,childrens storys,and just written child hood memories. I am not good at spelling I have tried to learn, it is much easier to spell check my self when writting a story, or song. You may see a lot of misspelled words so feel free correct me. I write from my heart mostly just what ever I feel in my heart at the time. Some times when writting it just flowes like a river from with in other times like today there is nothing to pull from I am just writting to be writting doing what i enjoy to do. One of my dreams is to wake up in the mornings and fix the kids breakfast send them to school fix me a cup of coffe with milk and sugar, sit down at the computer and write. I dont want to have a full time job were I work for someone eals doing something I do not enjoy but to write to do what I love and make a living doing it that is my life long dream.

reaching for something new

2010-04-04T19:19:00.000-05:00

Ever since I could remember I have wanted to write. I have wanted to feel important,to do something with my life. I had kids young and never stayed and finished school. My senior year I had my first child. Moved out when she was 2 months old and 2 years latter I had fell in love and had 2 more kids. Stayed at home with my kids as long as I could before turning back to work. Who ever would hire me, cashier,busboy,house keeping,daycare teacher. I'm tired, tired of leading this life the same life so many of us lead. I want to be at home with my children who are not getting any younger. I want to be able to really be involved in my church and write and make flower arrangements. I want to have money for my kids to know they will be ok when things are tight or when I die. I also love to read things I have written, I inspire my self and hope to one day be able to write and inspire so many people.