Realiti&Fantasi

1st Show Takasaki 2012

2012-01-19T17:35:00.000-08:00

Oh.. after Pray in the morning, open my curtain and SHOW.. Heavy show.. so i can't cycle to office.. need my Crocs boots Pink, think cloth and enjoy the white view. I took a few pictures on the way to office. Event it not so heavy like Epinal. This is 1st show along my training here. But, after lunch, the show turn rain.

Picture from my balconyAlso from my balconyMe on the way to officeMy Office aka TARRIOntheway to laboratory building

Look at my Crocs pink boots

Stupid Emotional

2012-01-17T16:32:00.000-08:00

Oh ok.. actually i hate to write about stupid feeling, but u know i at Takasaki, Japan and i dun hav any good listener for my feeling. of course i hav girl who always skype with me, EVERYDAY.. but yesterday something stupid happened at back our home. Our maid wash all dry cleaning cloths. More than 10 pairs ok.. seriously.. girl call me and cry. i also cry because each of the cloth hav their own story.

BUT..

This stupid morning emotional cause of 'a man' or ' a guy'. as i told before i tired love, tired cry for nothing. Yup.. i the one who easily cry. i felt i dun want to get involve in relationship. I will ask my parents look for my mate.

To ma an abah,

Please find someone you like to be your 'menantu' i will agree.

Yup, sound funny right. but i believed believed in family bliss. i am the one who can easily accept the week of the partner. If not how i can survived the relationship with Remy of Farhan. As long as the guy can accept my weekness which is ' kuat membebel'

Sound desperate right? I dun mind what you or anyone critic about this. but i am serious!

Just look to my girlsfriend. Fida-Syed, Kmar-Pele, Mok-Suhaimi and the newly married Sue-Fariz. Only Fida and Sue involve in 'couple' phase. and the other two only minute' relationship and the critical coming wedding of the year 2012 aziah-zaki after 2 month decided to get married! and the best things i manage to join The E day. just a day after o home in March 2012.

Stop being emotional!!! when i emotional i can't focus working, keep think stupid things and of cause the work no quality. i will died after Dr. Saiki found it!!!

i know its very difficult to change your live, but change for good things will get bless/ support from people who love us especially parent and girlfreind.

Big significant changes will happend.

Untie Fath with Baby Syed Faliq Akid.

Daruma-ichi 2012

2012-01-15T02:41:00.000-08:00

Last 9th January, Iwanade-san asked me to Daruma Festival at Honmachi-dori. Darumaichi at Shorinzan kicks off daruma doll sale of the year. It is also nationally known and is the largest of its kind, attracting more than 300,000 local and out-of-town visitors every year. On the shrine premises, people can request to participate in a Shinto ritual in which they paint a pupil on one eye of the daruma doll for their wish to come true.They paint the other eye either when their wish is granted later in the year or at the end of the year.

Daruma Doll street..

Another type of 'lucky' broom

The Entrance of Shonrinzan Temple

Me.. while q to climb up the temple

My daruma

2012 Greeting card

2012-01-05T16:24:00.000-08:00

Just want to share 2012 Greeting card done by my office mate here. here their culture send new year greeting just like a post card. its handmade and print by home printer. i receives 2 card. from Hosina-san and lovely secretary Suda-san. even i receives late due to long public holiday, i so happy for that. Share the cute card for me.

The front : My room add here!Left : from Hosina-san. the cute of Saki chan

Right : from Suda-san from Suda-san the picture during their wedding

2012 Started!!

2012-01-02T02:24:00.000-08:00

Oh.. i just want to share my 2012 diary, i went to Takasaki downtown and found very nice diary. It Dolly girl by Anna Sui Diary 2012. The cover in black and pink inside. For the last 3 years i used Starbuck's diary but here in Japan they didn't sell it.

Inside

My diary 2012

Happy New Year 2012

2011-12-31T23:58:00.000-08:00

Start new year at Takasaki, Japan. Another 12 week to go. Wish for 2012? 27 year old, what should i dream? i didn't expect big things happend within this year. i wish, i pray i will

More mature face the problems that come.
More confident as a Nuclear Research Officer.
Closeness to Allah.

Finally, i wish i will will meet with a man who want to be with,love and take care my feeling. Seriously, i already feel tired to begin a relationship and tired bear the emotional.

with love

-fath-

Takasaki, Gunma JAPAN

2011- I expecting the sky, but it was too high then i stuck at coconut tree

2011-12-26T16:40:00.000-08:00

Life at the age of 26 years, 2011 must be year full of joy and sorrow. However, that's life. First, thanks to Allah for the extended age, given good health and better livelihood.

Profession
Still working as a research officer at the Malaysian Nuclear Agency. Entering first year of work, daily life is filled with a rather dull routine job.Wake-up, drive like formula1 driver, punch card, breakfast. then start working. a bit disappointed with some superior who are love to been in comfortable zone

Thanks to a former Director, Dr. Khairulzaman already pension Sept. 2011, chose me to attend the IAEA RCA traning at Advanced Radiation Technology Institue, Jeounp-up Republic of Korea. During the training, i get to know the real Radaiation Chemistry Research and some lecture on it.

Langit tidak selalu mendung,Result for MEXT Nuclear Exchange Resercher Programm 2011 outlast July, I one of the lucky girl. Since OCT 2011, I will spend time working at Japan Atomic Energy Agency, Takasaki as MEXT Reserch Officer . This attachment will be ended in March 2012.

Romance
An extremely critical to be informed, it's true, I'm not always lucky in love. Too much sadness from happiness, so many difficulties faced. in the early years, my relationship with farhan as usual even though he was away working at the Kluang. For lovers who try to understand I learn how to love long-distance, which has nothing else I believe.So far, farhan never do anythings about other women but who knows hearts. Everthing ended before the Ramadhan, no storms, no hurricanes .. he left without any word.
Life must go on, Recover the broken heart to Japan, self-reflection. Try to start a relation with a man from the southern region of Malaysia, It is more difficult than I expected. At present, no one man who b in my heart. I pray for the happiness to all the people i loved before.

Family
Congratulations to all my siblings,kak long graduared in MSc (genetic),girl MBA and Faird BSc (Maratime). thanksgiving to Allah to give my parents health. This year, on the first day arrived in Takasaki, Maklong(the father) passaway. Al-Fatihah. 2011 none of the single person who married or engaged. New born, baby sarah son's of my cousin and Abg mamat Kak Aidah

Unbearable Feeling...

2011-12-20T01:14:00.000-08:00

I can slept since 3 days ago. think what going on during the new year holiday here. Will stuck at Takasaki? Erm.. Miss some'one' but dun know who.. lay on the bed, update the blog and cry.. what happened?

The 42nd Tokyo Motor Show : Part I

2011-12-15T03:51:00.000-08:00

As promise, i managed to find good time to write about this great event. Last Saturday, Ma-san and i enjoy our trip to Tokyo. Takasaki to Tokyo took about 1 h 40 min by local train not bullet train (Shenkasen). So as plan with Ma-san we plan to move around 8 am, but Ma-san work commitment drag the time until 9.00 am. Cycle from our dormitory to Kuragano St about 30 min and take train to Tokyo. Arrived Ueno St. strigt to Tokyo Big Sight where the show held

Superb Busy!

2011-12-14T20:58:00.000-08:00

Seperb busy.. I need to get ready for my 1st presentation tomorrow. Busy reading all the journal and books which sometime felt i am born for these such things. I start doing grafting from zero, never do these research before. i need to understand every single chemistry reason. Promise to update about Japan Motor show!!! seriously, i didn't scroll all the picture. Ok.. now just take a fews minute for my lovely blog.

1 day.. 4 pack of nescafe 3 in 1

Messy ofice table.. scientic right? u didn't see Dr. Saiki's table.. Lbh kurang je

My slide presentation. gud luck Fatahiyah!!!

Will Updates Soon

2011-12-10T20:20:00.001-08:00

Just come back fro Th 42nd Tokyo Motor Show 2011. Will write about it soon. still tired. very interesting.

Train ticket and the entrance ticket

New Bag to work

2011-12-05T16:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, the sadness release when i arrived my parcel. 2nd items online shopping. i bought Tommy Hilfiger Tote. Boleh la.. since i didn't bring any handbag beside my green bagpack. Its look weired i bring it to the office. Because i attaced at office not university like before. erm.. 3000 yen including shipping. i think it worth.

Enuf for my stuffs.. logbook, Journal, organizer and wallet..

new toys

Bersabarlah..

2011-12-05T01:16:00.000-08:00

Monday, as usual busy with work and laboratory work. since Dr. Saiki not well, so i just finish some of the laboratory work. but today I feel so sad, i can't tell what deep inside my heart. Just need to be patience and conscious my life. when i in my room i just see and read something make me happy. the time will arrive soon. The best were Allah specify. Allah will not test the servant, if the servant is not able to face. Insya Allah, everything will be fine.

Ordinary Friday : Messy

2011-12-01T16:29:00.000-08:00

1st friday in December 2011. my location now at Takasaki, Gunma Japan. Having attachement which make my live little disaster. Experince at young age will be usefull soon. Actually, Dr. Saiki away for almost 2 weeks. Yesterday he here, so i start to rearrange all the result for him. This morning i review my logbook. OMG.... soo messy... this weekend i have work to do. Arrange the logbook. By the time nk present, so disaster.

Long Distance Wedding Picture

2011-11-29T04:10:00.000-08:00

Last Saturday , one of my GF wedding Sue at Sagil. I already post about it. I so stress alone here, not able to enjoy that moments with my girls. Finally i wore the purple shirt, ans asked anyone there Skype with me. Of course girl! i want my picture with the gorges peranten. Thanks to the great photographer Razali took this picture. and... i feeelll ssoooo touched.. sooo calm.. by the way.. even i stuck at Takasaki.. but i managed to get this memorable picture with Faris and Sue. Love this picture so much..

Faris, Me and Beloved Sue.

Farmville at Takasaki, Japan

2011-11-28T16:04:00.000-08:00

At the back of my domitory, there are quit big empty land. Shima-san and Ma-san who already stay here more than year usually plant vegetables or fruits. Since everyone quit busy with own career here the farm already look like vacant land. A fews ago, they start planted again and i had a fun time joined them. They plant strawbery and radish.The vacant land area

Helped Ma-san rebuild the farm

Ok.. Siti-san played around

Keria

2011-11-27T20:14:00.000-08:00

Oh.. disaster! When you away from home and want to eat your home food. Last week i felt want to eat Keria. Keria are typical desert made from sweet potato. I really want to eat it!! google the recipes and the ingredients are simple also easy to find here. The reality,this is 1st time in my live made keria. Upgrade cooking skill. hehhehe..

Forget about the messy kitchen. of course the flour scattered around.

Nihon-jin Wedding

2011-11-26T22:41:00.000-08:00

Today, i have a chance to go to my secretary's wedding, miss Suda-san. Great opportunity to be there. Suda-san and her her husband Fumie-san so gorges. Miss Suda-san also prepared some foods that we can eat. Happy for them even i just know her only 2 month. She so kind even always had language miscommunication between us. Again thanks to Hoshina-san to bring us there. To girlfriends.. korang ingat korang je pe wedding.. huhauhauhau

Sue and Fariz

2011-11-25T20:26:00.001-08:00

Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind

~ William Shakespeare ~

Just finish called my gurl. she at sue wedding. One of the gurlfriend. Sue the pharmacist at HSA Johor Baru married with Fariz also pharmacist but i dun know which hospital. Erm.. I'm sure all the gurlfriends excited during the wedding like before. Thanks to Fidah send this picture for me. Love you all.

Gorges Sue!!!

I am sure both of them nerves

Nandeeka Farewell Party

2011-11-23T16:24:00.000-08:00

Nandeeka Research from Sri Lanka one of the MEXt researchers at TARRI, she only for 3 month and she come 1 month earliar than me and she leaving today. Last night we had farewell party at Okomoto-san House at Fujioka. Of couse the food nice but u know no chicken or beef. i like the salmon soup. uuhh sometime i felt i vegetarian because most of the food serve were vegetables.

Nandeeka with shima-san

Okomoto-san. Nandeeka and me

Siti-san with the food...

When everyon talk about 'bola' and i blurrr

2011-11-21T16:15:00.000-08:00

Of course every one know Harimau Malaya won at Sea Game 2011, last nie while gurl skype me and updated a feww hot story suddenly

Gurl : ok la kak.. nnt smbg lg.. bola nk start..

me : bola?

Gurl : iyer la.. Malaysia lwn Indon la.. final..Sea Game

me: ko nk pe tgk kt mane?

Gurl : umah jer la..

Stright away offline the skype......

Since when gurl tgk bola.. klu dulu farhan nk tgk bola and ktorg nk tgk af.. bleh x jadi dating la kn. but now she watched football alone with the cats.. Even my girlsfriend whatupp silent.. but when the critical moment, become 'pasar malam' and again.. stress...

When i woke up this morning and look up the fb... and finally.. everyone wish and happy to harimau muda team.. ok.. u know.. i blurr... because i didn't watch and i did know what happened.. and i have to go work..

The TARRI become yeloww..

1st online shopping at Japan

2011-11-20T22:07:00.000-08:00

Last week, i felt i need a new shoe and Iwanade-san told me the famous online shopping in Japan, Rakuten one of the famous online shop beside Amazon Japan. Plan want to have boots finally sneaker. Wooottt... i a fans of sneakers. i took 1 week to made the final decision. I ask a fovour of Suda-san to pay on be half of me since i can't write kanji to made the transfer. The box just arrived during lunch hour and loook 'hasil' yang pertama..

The Label writen in Kanji.. my address

The Box..... and....

Ralph Lauren Red Sneaker..

When i not smart as them

2011-11-17T23:15:00.000-08:00

This is about my current feeling, feel there are someting wrong with my experiments work here. I already optimize the parameter for irradiation dose, grafting reaction time and amine modification. i surpose i can start doing absorbtion experiment but beloved Dr. Saiki so busy. So i need to do some graft polimerization experiment in others type of trunk polymer. After discussion with Dr. Saiki yesterday, i need to repeat the same material because the degree of grafting is so high. Ok its just to comfirm. Daijobu. I can do it while Dr. Saiki away for 2 weeks.

when i works with people here, with PhD and with alot of research achievment, i feel so small. Since primary school i never be 'pelajar harapan' or be top 3 in the class. i am a moderate student. Exam results also so so. Event i never qualified for boarding school. Ha but i had Remy who finish his school at STAR and Farhan at SAMURA. But i very lucky to get into university and will soon get my Master degree when i home.(waiting for Viva). The great part i get opportunity to had along attachment at others country. France 2009/2010 and Japan 2011/2012.

Thursday 20111117 at TARRI

2011-11-16T18:11:00.000-08:00

Already 7 weeks at Japan, so many things already adjust specially the weather. Gunma prefracture famous with the strong wind and of couse cold wind. My laboratory work also smooth event Dr. Saiki demm busy and sometimes he forgot what i doing while he away for outstation. Office enviroment not so diference from Malaysia, but the person here.. so serius.. very serius and some time they didn't get the joke. i wish i will survive more than i surpose because i allways feel want to go home.. i dun have any ideal. no one special that i miss and wait for me at home beside my lovely family.

Winter Sakura Bloom in Autumn

2011-11-16T01:50:00.000-08:00

Last sunday, 3 of us with Okomoto-san went to Fujioka to see the winter sakura flower. i didn't there are winter sakura flower, as i know sakura flower during spring. there are 7000 tree around tha park. we arrived quit late and not much time left for the two great photographer took picture. but i so excited to see sakura ( event winter sakura) in front of my eyes.