Realm of My Alter-Ego

Great Reasons to Complete your Degree

2010-10-12T06:25:00.000+08:00

A university education is one of the best possible ways to insure your earning power upon graduation. There are all kinds of fields and all kinds of majors, some paying higher than others but as a rule, college graduates will earn more money over the course of their lifetimes than those who do not have a college education or degree.

We live in a world that increasingly demands more of its citizens. We need to have the ability to hold academic conversations on the corporate level that go well beyond the score in last nights basketball games. Companies' want well-rounded employees that epitomize all the great things that a four-year degree has to offer. For this reason, even those who have labored in order to gain an associate's degree are getting left behind in favor of those who have a more 'complete' education.

If you have already entered the work force there is still the time to increase your earning potential by seeking higher education. Colleges and universities today are offering more options for students wishing to return to college than ever before. In fact we are seeing an increasing number of college students that are classified as non-traditional students. We are seeing many more adults returning for the education they didn't receive the first time around, which is good news. It also means that more and more options are becoming available at night and on the weekends for those adults.

Even better is the fact that more and more often we are seeing courses being offered online for those who are seeking to complete their education. This allows even more options for those students who are desperately trying to balance careers, family, and education. As more and more opportunities such as these arise we will also see a growing number of graduate studies opportunities being offered in a similar fashion.

If you are thinking of returning to school after years of absence or perhaps attending for the very first time while managing an existing career there is no time like the present in order to do so. Not only will a college education give you greater earning potential in your lifetime it can also qualify you for promotions within the company for which you currently are employed.

The truth of the matter is that you really can't go wrong when it comes to going back to college and getting or finishing your degree. You can increase your earning potential, your promotion potential, and most importantly your self-image. There is something about having a degree that makes you feel better about yourself and your ability to provide for your family. Even if you never actually use your degree for anything other than a plaque on the wall, you will have the knowledge that you accomplished something that only a small percentage of the population ever gets around to completing.

If nothing else, your college education is worth every penny you will pay in order to have it for the wonderful sense of accomplishment that goes along with getting it. Your college degree won't make you a better person; just give you a better opinion of yourself as a person in many instances. If you need a confidence booster in your professional and your personal life, getting your college degree is often just the bump of confidence you need in order to accomplish many great things.

Plus Size Fashion: Is There Really Such a Thing?

2010-10-12T03:36:00.000+08:00

Are you considered to be a plus sized individual? If you are, what do you wear for clothing? If you are like many other plus sized individuals, you may respond with something off of a store rack. While it is more than possible to shop at a department store or a traditional clothing store, do you know that there are stores designed just for plus sized women, as well as men? There are and if you haven’t already, you may want to think about visiting one.

When it comes to shopping at or at least browsing at a plus sized clothing store, there are many men and women who wonder why they should bother, especially if their clothes are already bought from somewhere else. What you need to remember is that plus size clothing isn’t what it used to be in the past. Due to an increase in the need for plus sized clothing and fashion accessories, there are now many fashion designers who are starting to focus on individuals out there who are just like you.

As previously mentioned, plus sized fashions aren’t necessarily what they used to be. In fact, some would be hard pressed to refer to the old style of plus sized clothing as fashion. The same cannot be said for today’s plus sized fashion clothing and accessories. It is now possible to look and feel like a beautiful model, despite being a plus sized women or even a man. There are a large number of plus size clothing pieces that are designed to make you look great for a day hanging out with your friends, a day at the gym, a day at work, or a night out on the town. No matter what occasion you would like to dress for, you should be able to find beautiful pieces of plus sized fashions to get you there.

If you are interested in finding a plus size clothing store to shop at, you may want to consider visiting one of your local shopping malls or shopping plazas. It is not uncommon to find a plus size clothing store located inside these shopping centers. If you are looking for plus sized women’s clothing, you are more likely to find specialty stores than men are, as they tend to be more popular. You may also be able to find other local plus size clothing stores to shop at by using your local phone book, online business directories, or recommendations from those that you know.

In addition to shopping at local plus size clothing stores, you may also want to examine the online retailers who run plus sized clothing stores online. What is nice about shopping online is that you are often given a larger selection of retailers and products to choose from. This means more clothing choices and clothing accessories for you. It is also important to mention that shopping online allows you to do so anytime, day or night, from the comfort of your own home. You can easily find a number of online plus size clothing retailers by performing a standard internet search or by asking those that you know for recommendations.

As a reminder, it is more than possible to find plus sized fashion clothing pieces and accessories available for sale. If you haven’t updated your wardrobe in some time, you way want to think about doing so. You may actually be surprised with the plus sized fashions that you can find available for sale.

Is Your Relationship Castle Under Siege?

2010-10-09T01:09:00.001+08:00

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Change your attitude? Will it change you?

2010-07-17T16:59:00.000+08:00

Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference” – Winston Churchill

It’s amazing how your attitude can have so much to do with how successful you are in life. Yes it will make a difference to your business and work opportunities, but I’ve also discovered there are other ways my life has undergone some serious improvements due to some changes in attitude. This has also affected how ’successful’ I am in other areas, such as my relationships, my motivation, and my overall feelings of fulfillment or hapiness.

Recently I have been through some money difficulties which were partly due to poor decisions. I’ve read a lot of books on motivation and attitude, and the concepts should be ingrained in my psyche by now! It’s funny then that I found myself in a situation that caused stress, anxiety and particularly financial hardship, and I had forgotten how to take a step back and reassess the situation and see things from a different perspective. I was guilty of letting my negative attitudes affect my personal life, which led to a cycle of a bad situation becoming worse.

As my situation worsened, I began to feel the emotions that are associated with being poor: stressed at the thought of working more than full-time.. Sad that I had made poor decisions.. Worried that I might not make it back out of the slum I was in.. Anxious that my family would suffer.

I’m still on the road to recovery from the money side of things, however my life has turned around completely from those previous feelings – and it all began with an attitude change.

Why is attitude important?

There is a motivational speaker named Sam Glenn that has some great ideas on why attitude is important. He offers up the following thoughts:

* Attitude is how we treat others
* Attitude is the way we approach life
* Attitude is contagious
* Attitude is how we respond to challenges
* Attitude affects our health
* Attitude affects our relationships
* Attitude is our personal trademark
* Attitude determines if we fly or fall
* Attitude creates experiences for you and others

It’s difficult to recognise the importance of attitude without seeing the evidence of it in your own life. I have found over the last few years that when I have been caught up in situations such as the poverty slum from moving, no changes of any significance have happened in my life without me taking some deliberate measures to readjust things.

How do I go about changing my attitude?

Changing my attitude was the first step in taking control of my life again, and for me it started with a conscious decision. I didn’t like feeling the way I did, I wasn’t being good company or productive at work, and my negativity was bringing other people down.

My conscious decision to change my attitude started with making changes to how I looked and felt, and concentrating on finding solutions to move forward. Because of this decision, over the first week I began to see changes – first small ones, then larger ones as I formulated a plan to get through my problems. At this point, I began to see a snowball effect – my change in attitude filtered through my family, who also were being more positive. This helped us to not only get through some tough times, but also become closer as a family.

I highly recommend reading some of the fantastic books by Justin Herald, founder of ‘Attitude Gear’. After starting from scratch, today Justin’s business is a multi-million dollar company, with products sold throughout the world. Justin’s business line initially sprung from encorporating quotes onto clothing, such as “If you think you’re beaten you are!”, and “It’s not whether you get knocked down it’s whether you get back up.” He has adopted these quotes into his own life and business practises, and offers some great ideas on how we can make changes to our attitudes and enhance all aspects of our lives:

“Never underestimate the power of your attitude. How you view things will have a direct impact on how you handle the next day or the next crisis. You need to make sure you are constantly checking your attitude to ensure it is on track.”

David Holmes also puts it into perspective when he says:

“Consider this, if you wait for someone else to change before you allow yourself to have a winning attitude then you’re giving control over to others for how you feel. Why would you allow anyone to control you in this way?… “

“…The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past …we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable.

The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude …I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you …we are in charge of our attitudes”

How is your attitude? Is it having a positive or negative influence on your life? Can you make some changes to your life by changing your attitude?

“Ability is what you’re capable of doing. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude determines how well you do it.” – Lou Holtz

How to Jumpstart Your Confidence

2010-06-23T13:31:00.000+08:00

We all have been denying ourselves opportunities and chances in all aspects of our life due to the fact that we are too afraid and we do not have enough self-confidence and self-esteem. We cannot keep up with a healthy relationship as we cannot afford to do things that needed to be done as we are completely shadowed by our low confidence.

Now just chill, there is no need to worry as it is quite simple to overturn this problem and this can be done by starting to be a bit more optimistic and try not to relate too much to the past including these painful memories. So let us just create a new stimuli for you to go on ahead into changing the way you see yourself and to rebuild your own confidence.

Here are 3 strategies to bring you out in a more confident way:

1. Fake it until you make it.

As we know, old is gold! This is an ancient method, but obviously it can work surprisingly well if you pitch in enough efforts. When you “pretend” that something is true, you perform a mental shift from one state to another. You are, in essence, moving yourself from one “reality” to another. While this usually won’t bring about long-lasting change, it can definitely help to put you up a notch and help you to get the feeling of how being confident is!

The next time you’re out in public, pretend you are the most confident person in the world. Imagine that you are completely secure in your own capabilities and completely accepting of yourself as a unique and valuable person.

Consider how a person with these beliefs would act, and then make an effort to act that way. Pay attention to what happens when you do; how others treat you, how you feel about yourself and so on. You may be surprised to discover just how much attitude has to do with self-confidence.

2. Affirm your good qualities.

While faking confidence can be an immediate help, you will also need to address the underlying beliefs that cause your low self-confidence if you want to create lasting change.

One good way to do this is by forming a new habit of building yourself up. Take time to acknowledge the good things you do, the achievements you’ve made in the past, and even the effort you give to something new.

Speak kindly to yourself and develop a healthy appreciation for your skills and abilities. If you stop beating yourself up because you’re not the most perfect person in the world, you’ll probably discover that you’re not half bad, either!

3.See yourself as a work in progress.

Remember that there will always be people who are more talented, smarter, braver, and better than you are in some way. If your confidence is suffering because you are trying to measure up to some impossible standard, learn to adjust your thinking a bit.

Affirm that you are a work in progress, and you get better every year. With each passing phase of your life, you grow in mastery. You are smarter than you were yesterday, better than you were last week, and more talented than you were last year.

This is a process that will continue throughout your entire life. If you can keep in mind that you’ll never be “done” growing and learning, you’ll be able to see your capabilities as ever-evolving aspects of an ever-evolving you!

Zen in our life

2010-06-09T03:16:00.001+08:00

Sometimes it feels like the older I get, the less I know. How is this possible! We’re supposed to be getting smarter, wiser, and more fabulous as we age, right? (Okay, the part about “fabulous” might only be true for Jennifer Anniston, whose body could inspire the sequel to Benjamin Button!). But it seems like, as we age, we are bombarded with messages from advertisers, family, friends, and the media about how we should live our lives.

For instance: I’m sure your mother would do cartwheels if you were married by 25, lived within two miles of her, and granted her exactly 2.5 grandchildren. But that might not be your cup of coffee. When the world dictates how you should live your life, it can actually become harder to be true to your authentic self. In my last Something Different for Women class, we talked about aligning with the powers that be: Your True Self.

Jennifer Maculoso said: “Success will always find you when are authentic. Follow your bliss and you will always feel joy, and when you feel joy, success finds you.” It sounds like she picked up and cracked open the perfect fortune cookie.

Why do so many of us wear masks to hide our true selves? Everyone is born authentic, but as we grow up we spend too much time separating from who we are, acting like we’re something different. Acting is stressful. (Especially, when you’re bad at it like me.) Being true to who we are takes time and effort. Here are some things to help you on your way:

To be authentic means to find the key to happiness and success within one’s self, not within society.
When you live an authentic life, you are living the life that resonates with your soul! As the saying goes, “We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.”
It takes courage, honesty, and a desire to be free of other’s opinions. I love the line, “What you think of me is none of my business.”
To be authentic, you have to stop putting other’s needs ahead of your own, and you have to stop compromising your dreams to please others.
Don’t be such a yenta with your friends, either! Allow them the freedom to chose their own life plan.

This is all great and dandy, but how do we get down to the core of who we really are and stay true to ourselves? Here are questions to ask:

What in life already makes you happy?
What, if added to your life, would make you happier?
Where do you already feel successful?
Does the life you are living resonate with your inner being?
Do you have the courage to live more authentically?
What habits do you need to let go of in order to be more authentic?
At what point, during each day, can you make time to connect with yourself?

Have an authentic moment every day. Whether it is telling your friend what she can do with her opinion of you, or directing your mother to the adopt-a-grandchild in Africa non-profit. Take a stand each day, and you’ll be happier, healthier…and attracting the life that you really want.

IS IT FOR REAL??!!

2010-05-27T17:11:00.002+08:00

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Strange Laws..Check this out!!

2010-05-04T06:20:00.001+08:00

Hi there, currently I'm writing one article concerning the polarisation between the liberal and conservative ideals of a society but while I was researching for some facts, I accidentally stumbled on something that is pretty weird, strange and on top of that funny, so I'm posting for you to read it for your own entertainment but I can't guarantee the truthfulness of the post as I'm reproducing from another website which I'll give the link in case you want to refer; here you go:

Strange Sex Laws :

1. In Lebanon, men are legally allowed to have sex with animals, but the animals must be female. Having sexual relations with a male animal is punishable by death.

2.In Bahrain, a male doctor may legally examine a woman's genitals, but is prohibited from looking directly at them during the examination. He may only see their reflection in a mirror.

3. Muslims are banned from looking at the genitals of a corpse. This also applies to undertakers; the sex organs of the deceased must be covered with a brick or piece of wood at all times.

4. The penalty for masturbation in Indonesia is decapitation.

5. There are men in Guam whose full time job is to travel the countryside and deflower young virgins, who
    pay them for the privilege of having sex for the first time...Reason: under Guam law, it is expressly
    forbidden for virgins to marry.

6. In Hong Kong, a betrayed wife is legally allowed to kill her adulterous husband, but may only do so with
    her bare hands. The husband's lover, on the other hand, may be killed in any manner desired.

7. Topless saleswomen are legal in Liverpool, England, but only in tropical fish stores.

8. In Cali, Colombia, a woman may only have sex with her husband, and the first time this happens, her
    mother must be in the room to witness the act.

9. In Santa Cruz, Bolivia, it is illegal for a man to have sex with a woman and her daughter at the same time.

10. In Maryland, it is illegal to sell condoms from vending machines with one exception: prophylactics may be
      dispensed from a vending machine only "in places where alcoholic beverages are sold for consumption
      on the premises."

Life is like a box of chocolates

2010-04-25T21:24:00.001+08:00

Forest Grump might look like a retarded person but whatever He said, was full of meanings if we apply it to our daily life, that is, ""Life Is like a Box of Chocolates... You Never Know What You're Gonna Get!"...

It might be a mere statement for some of us but if we apply it to our life, we can deduce easily that it reflects perfectly what we are experiencing nowadays.

Let us look back at our past, we had our moments of joys, sadness, happiness, sorrows but no matter, how depressed we were, somehow
something out of nowhere would just pop out and make our life shining and rocking and even sometimes much better than before.

This shows us that we don't always have to think that our lifetime in this world suck big time but rather be optimistic and think further than where our noses end. We need to think further that somewhere, something will come up to make our day. The only variable we can't control here is when it will happen so we will always have to arm ourselves with patience, perseverance and wait for it to happen.

Believe it or not, the result would be more sweeter than expected as who wouldn't be happy after a long painful ride full, we end up having something that doesn't only take the pain of the ride away but also brings to us a feeling of achievement, satisfaction; a feeling of completeness and success!

But to achieve this, the road is not easy at all. We have to conquer that roller-coasting life by going with the flow and we can't freak out easily by letting go and prefer living in a life of darkness, pitiness, and distress as we will regret for not trying more harder in the future, as it is only our will and choices that make us who we are and where we stand today.

So people let us be more firm on our ambitions, let us jump over all obstacles that appear in our ways to success and victory, let us not back off from the hardships which are ahead of us, we won't know if we can't do it unless we try.

***Those who had bad results for the previous semester, let us all gather our strengths with new resolutions that we are going to make the lecturers go berzeck by scoring all A's. Again it all depends on our determination and strength as it doens't depend on how smart we are but what are the efforts we will be putting in to reach the goal we've set!

GOODLUCK AND MAY YOU ALL SUCCEED WITH FLYING COLORS ON THE COMING SEMESTER

Oppppss...I did it again!!

2010-03-25T05:08:00.000+08:00

I've not been blogging for a while because I was extremely busy with my life, by the way, I do have one in case you have this misconception that bloggers need to get a life. :) Here I am, early before the sun rised and I am blogging because my brain has too much inside it and I can't find this sweet tiny relaxation mode that we Human beings call as "sleep".

I won't tell you all details about what happened recently but just the fact that I've realised that you can't actually live your life without having some "nosey" brats poking the noses in places that they shouldn't. Given that I am a hot-tempered guy, I was looking for the them to re-decorate their faces so that next time they think twice before even talking about me or sniffing around like fat-ass rats. But then someone told me to just ignore them and not to tell them anything, that is, don't give them more woods for their grand fire they are lighting but rather give them the cold shoulder treatment or silent treatment if you prefer.

Pondering over what is the wisdom in giving such kind of treatment isn't always enough so I ran the two scenarios in that fertile imagination of mine and guess what?! I felt like I have the power to change myself from "Big & Nasty" to "Big & Tasty". I am sure you want to know why I feel like that, it is because I've understood the wisdom in being silent when the "dogs" bark :). Have you? We all feel bad when someone gossip about us or say something that is none of their concern but we never thought that we must have something that they don't have that are motivating them to gossip and talk about you. So should we lucky or not?! Duh!! I still prefer the punching treatment, the crushing feeling of bones under wrists etc.. but I decided to give that new treatment a try.

Guess what happened :)?! Well for the time being it is working perfectly fine and this I need to be grateful to Miss Fiona for constantly bugging me with her angelic face not to do anything that I might regret later. Currently the whole gossip things are cooling down and on top of it, I feel great and nice deep inside even though I didn't lash out in anger. So the conclusion for today is that everything can't be solve through anger and neither can it be solved by fighting fire with fire.

So let us get on with our life, with our plans to fulfill our ambitions and regardless what people say, we won't let it stand as obstacles in our ways but instead we would be constantly fighting and constantly striving to be better "us" and to achieve our aims in life and to hell with social gossips. They are just like these "leeches" that suck only "bad" blood but never suck "good" one :), I mean they always look at the dark side but never at the bright side and best of all, they don't ever notice the smelly boopsssss hanging down their own pants, Duh!!

Alright now, those last few paragraphs were far too positive and lacking in cynicism for me, so hit the back button and pretend you never saw them.

Goodnight and Stay Alive..
Till then,
Ciau

Crack the Code..Can You?

2010-03-01T06:22:00.003+08:00

Egocentric...Sarcastic...Narcissistic....These are some of the "ics" that composed my outer personality, which I am going to refer to my outer shell. Nobody can deny the fact that they do not live with their life with only one personality, otherwise the "potential" of being able to think and react to our environment would be totally futile. I've been looked upon by some people as a very bad guy without even knowing me personally and it seems they never came across that famous quote:"never judge a book by its cover", but anyhow even if i do not need to justify myself in front of them, I just want to write about it as I've too much already to keep inside that brain of mine.

   I am a guy who lives by a set of principles, created out of peer pressure, habits, likes, dislikes and so on but my principles aren't fact-based but ratherthey are based on my experiences and I do not act as a robotized human being because my principles aren't the types you enter into data-bases of a robot. I will explain to you what I mean by my "outer shell", if you understand it, you will be able to guess what is my inner-shell hopefully. I live by this statement: "If you like someone to love you sincerely, you show them all your bad side first then if she is still around after it,she will be worthy to know your good side". To put it more simple for you, you can say "No one deserve you at your best when they can not handle you at your best".

I am sure you know where I am going with this statement. I am someone who live by it, in any aspects of life,i've always shown the "ics" side of me first because if someone can not handle me in this realm, I do not go forward with it. Sometimes I choosed to be sarcastic,proud of myself a lot, extremely caring like a glue, act like a miser, extremely rude, act as if you are weak, stupid etc, and if someone who is just around to fool with you, you can trust me on that, you will not hear from him/her again even though it might damage your reputation a bit which I do not really care about as I know who I am. But if that someone is really into you, she/he will ask you why are you like that, why are you acting in such a way, she/he will try to find a way around it, find a solution to all these. Normally it wouldn't be a big deal as you can easily discard these "ics" when you know it is worth it to crack open that mysterious inner shell that you've been keeping hidden deep inside.

Many people might not see the wisdom with the way I deal with my life, but for me it makes sense, because I've experience it. Once you've set the bar low ("ics"), whatever you are going to show afterwards will do nothing except strengthening the bond between both of you as She/he will discover a new side of you which was totally hidden before and which will be much more appreciated after "ics" period. On top of that, the favor will be returned to you as it increases the chance that the relationship goes fluidly both ways, that is, two-ways communication which is always efficient and effective. It is what we call an"up-turn" in a relationship whereby mysteries and unexpected things always pop up to keep the relationship "up" and "flourishing".

   To better understand the philosophical and psychological aspects of what I said, which might be a bit hard for those who didn't undergo such kind of experiences before, I will try to implement it in a situation. Let us take Valentin day which was just recently, a lot of people hurried and bought precious stones, expensives gifts to express their love to their lovers,right? Let us say that someone bought something worth "100$" for the first valentin day,so for the second valentin day next year, he will have to buy something which will cost more than "100$" as he knows her lover will be expecting something much more better than last year. This is a psychological aspect that one can easily understand. The same goes with what I said before, you set the bar low, so that in the coming days, months, years, you do not need to over-outdo yourself to please someone you care about as if in the long run, it will cause only stress, depression and sadness.

Hence once you've set the bar low, that is,show your outer self with full of these "ics", then when you move on slowly by showing your inner self slowly, it will just create a sense of gratitude and appreciation from the other party as changes in your character will be vividly identified. Some might say this is a case of manipulation but in fact it is just the way you project your personality without tampering with it as we all have atoms of these "ics" buried deep inside us, and the only difference is that they are not that influential. The advantage here is that you have master all these characteristics of yours and also you've shown to the other party the whole of you (bad and good parts).

And this is where the part "always expect the unexpected" comes into action. Life is boring if you know everything about your partner and you know the way your partner will react in such and such situation but if you go through the outer/inner shell formula, it will always keep your partner guessing what you would do in such and such situation and this creates a positive vibe and positive friction. I've heard that this is not good way to gain the trust of your partner but we should take into consideration that your partner won't be disappointed in any ways as He/She already knows the bad side of you and if He/She is still with you,means they can handle it and they've learnt to trust you no matter how bad it was in the beginning.

This is all I've to say in the first post under the new tagomatic I've created. I will post more whenever I am free and please be aware that whatever I've said is just from my own opinion and experiences and I do not want you to try it without being confident of yourself first. Try it at your own risk as I do not want to receive emails saying "this happened and this blablabla..".I am not a philosopher,nor a therapist, nor psychologist so I can't advice you in anything accurate or even if I do, I do not promise that it will work as it is all based on experiences and not scientific facts and as you know, experiences are subjective.

Thank you

New Tagomatic-Me,Myself & I

2010-03-01T05:28:00.000+08:00

Sharing your life on a blog can be nice but it has its side-effects also when people read what you've written and attacked you with it. This is why you shouldn't write everything or anything concerning your private life and this is where I made a mistake. Just recently I've realised that people been reading my other blogs and making judgements about me which for me is totally unacceptable given they do not know me personally.

As I am to be blamed, I decided to take down my two other blogs and write on only one which will have nothing concerning personal matters but rather general matters whereby I gained knowledge or experiences which can help you out there to understand life a bit better and this is why I am creating anothing tagomatic which will have as title "Me, Myslef & I". It will contain my coming experiences, lessons I learnt, philosophical aspects that are derived from things that happened to me and so on. Soon enough you will be able to read it and I hope you all will beneficiate from it.

Cheers

Do we really want it?

2010-02-23T20:30:00.001+08:00

There is an old Greek fable which is quite popular among kids around the world; it is about the story of a fox, who tries really hard to get his hands on a tasty vine of grapes. The fox tries and he tries, but eventually he fails in all of his attempts to acquire the grapes; at which point the fox calmly continues with his life by convincing himself that he really didn't want those grapes that badly afterall.

There is a common wisdom in this tale that I want to share with you, that is, how we deal with being thwarted in our desires. Nowadays there are so many people live in denial after having their desires being crushed so easily out there and being too afraid to face the truth, they prefer to continue living in the fantasy of their own world that they have created instead of facing the reality and carrying on living their life with the hope that sooner or later, they are going to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

There is a question for us to ask ourselves instead of going to hide in denial and it is what if the fox tried, tried, tried and finally obtained the grapes and with lots of pain and much effort, he finally got them but unfortunately, let us say they are too sour for him or maybe it is not up to his taste or liking.

What is the result? He has drained his energy completely and the grapes were just too sour or he didn't like its taste. Well another complication would arise which is frustration, anger and so on.

I don't mean not to strive for what you really desire but I just want to show that there is a chance, or there might be a chance that the very thing you are desiring so much is what you have the most chance not to achieve no matter how much effort to put it.

There is no need to exhaust yourself to gain something that is out of your reach. Just go with the flow is what is needed most of the time and just don't let your aims and ambitions get blurred in the process. Go step by step along the road of destiny without trying to gain something out of your reach. Do not try to run when you are still crawling, you will reach a certain point in your life and when you will look back, you will be surprise and regret that you wasted so much energy on something you desired but now you see it wasn't of any good to you.

So whenever you feel stuck and can't get what you want, just allow your heart to let it go as there is a chance you might not like is even if it is the most desirable thing you've ever come across or you might encounter a better one in the future which is way much better than this one. So do no despair and say that life is not being fair to you. Life is poker, you just need to know when to call, when to raise, when to fold and when to cash out.

Cheers

Hilariously Dumb

2010-02-15T19:58:00.000+08:00

While lying down on my bed, i remembered an incident that happened around 3 months back on one of my outings among some friends and I smiled at myself. So I thought of sharing it with you, maybe it will help bring some smiles to some faces out there.

It was during one of my escapades with my friends, we went to a sea-side here in Malaysia. I was swimming with my friends cracking jokes and so on when I noticed a girl at about 3 metres from me and she was around 20 years old looking lost and searching panicly around her. As you know, I am a gentleman in disguise so I approached her and seeing me coming near... Here is where the hilarious part started:

She: "Adik blablablabalabla...."speaking in malay"...

Me: "Kak I do not speak malay, Can you pls speak in english?"

She: "Oh sorry, I am telling you I lost my spectacles while swimming, it felt from my face just here, can you help me find it please?"

Me (thinking amusely why would someone swim with her spectacles on): "why did you bring your spectacles with you?"

She: "I was not supposed to swim that far, I just wanted to get a little bit wet then I would join my friends for lunch".

Me:"Wet...........(don't judge me on that because I'm a guy afterall)"

She"Yea wet....(then she realised why I repeated it with an amusing smirk on my face and she turned red completely)"

Me:"ok ok ok if it felt down here, it must be around here itself..just don't move too much, I gonna help you."

As I approached the place where the spectacle felt in the sea, I stopped swimming and try to walk on the sand as slowly as possible just not to make the water sandy. While walking around trying to figure where the spectable was.. I felt a sudden crack under my feet. And a horrible thought came to my mind. Can you guess what the thing that made the cracking sound..?

I'm sure you can.. I continued making as if I am looking then I said: "I am running late so Got to go and I am sorry for your spectacle"..

She:"Thank you very much for your help".

I turned around and left the sea but a terrible guilty feeling was building up inside but I continued going...

Later in the afternoon i saw her with some bunch of friends playing volleyball.. I approached her and said if she can see properly without her spectacles.. and guess what was the answer?

"Oh I can see properly, the spectacle was just the cheap sunglass I bought in the morning because of the sun" and she bursted out laughing...

And I felt like a real dumb guy but it was a lucky encounter as that girl turns out to be the cousin of Puteri Aideeni, one of the university friends of my sister :)

Emptiness

2010-02-15T19:20:00.001+08:00

“Courageous - that’s how you see me; Successfull - that’s how you belive in me; happy - that’s what you expect of me; But...Emptiness - that’s what is inside of me.”

I don't know how common this is, but for me, the main problem is that I feel
disconnected from everyone and everything.

I have a few people out there who I care about, or who care about me, but no real
intimacy with anyone. Worse yet, this is a long term pattern with me, it's been going on
for enough years yet that it's quite possible I will be alone for the rest of my life.

This totally sucks.

I would like to have friends I could be truly close to, someone that I could be in love
with, but I'm psychologically fucked up enough that I don't know how to make this
happen.

I like to think that if I had love and intimacy in my life, life wouldn't suck nearly as much.

And hell, I think I've reached the point where I'm jealous of cult members. Those poor
deluded fuckers who shave their heads and dance around in public begging for
donations, or the heaven's gate suicide cult, at least they have a sense of purpose, of
belonging. They must have a sense of devotion for their beloved cult leaders.

QUESTION TO REFLECT ON:

Is there any way to have meaning in your life when you're disconnected from everyone?

Love? Or Being In Love?

2010-02-10T14:51:00.002+08:00

The Experience Of Being In Love Is Not Love At All

Lots of couples end up in the marriage therapist’s office every day. But hardly ever does someone end up there who actually understands what love is. In fact, I would go so far as to say that it is rare for anyone to ever end up in any therapist’s office who actually understands what love is.

There is within each of us an inherent desire to love and to be loved. But if we are ignorant as to what actually constitutes love, then how will we ever hope to know whether what is happening between us and another person is actually love?

If the truth be known, what many (if not most) of us are looking for is not love, but rather, an in-love experience.

But an in-love experience is not love at all.

In-love experiences are almost always effortless --- that’s why we call it “falling in love” --- how much effort does it take to fall? But the suggestion that love is effortless is ridiculous. It ranks as one of the more stupid assertions ever made about love --- it ranks right up there with the line from the 1970s movie “Love Story”: “Love means never having to say you’re sorry.”

Furthermore, an in-love experience may serve to assuage the painfulness of life, but love does not. In fact, what many of us have discovered (by loving) is that when we truly love, sometimes the painfulness of life’s experiences increases rather than decreases --- after all, we are now concerned about someone else besides just ourselves.

As it turns out, way too many people are seeking to avoid life’s responsibilities through love, only to discover that what they were really seeking wasn’t love at all. Rather, it was an in-love experience. You see, love does not enable us to avoid responsibilities. On the contrary, love (by its very nature) carries with it more responsibilities.

If you are looking for something that is effortless, that will soften the painfulness of life’s experiences, that will reduce the load of responsibilities you are required to carry, then I would NOT recommend that you seek love.

Love consists of Passion AND Intimacy AND Commitment.

I am hard-pressed to understand how two MEs becoming a WE (the heart of Commitment) is effortless.

As for Intimacy --- maybe it’s just me --- but I don’t see how in-depth communication (the heart of Intimacy) is painless.

That leaves Passion. Admittedly, Passion is the easiest of these 3 to come by, oftentimes even effortless --- especially when the relationship is new. Furthermore, passion will often serve as an analgesic, alleviating the pain of life --- but only for a time - as with any drug, the effects dissipate until another fix can be found. And often Passion will have no strings attached.

Needless to say, Passion --- without Intimacy and Commitment --- is what many people today mistake for love. And it’s easy to see why --- it comes closest to mimicking the in-love experience.

But Passion without Intimacy and Commitment is not love.

Have you ever felt as though you’ve been duped --- you know --- by love? It seems so easy, so painless, so carefree. But then we come face to face with the challenge that is inherent in love. Do we decide to move on --- to a place of actually loving and being loved? Or do we stall the process, attempting to stay with an in-love experience, only to feel the inevitable frustration of trying to remain in a place that by its very nature is transient?

We have been duped, but not by love. Rather, we have been duped by the misguided notions of love so often promoted in our culture.

People Are Stupid

2010-01-24T03:32:00.004+08:00

People Are Stupid

By Mr LifeSucks :)

If you ask people why they do the things they do in life, they will give you sensible

sounding reasons which seem to explain their decisions. We like to believe that we

exercise sound judgement, especially in the important decisions of our lives. I think that this is rarely true. I think that standard operating procedure for human decision making is to do what feels right to you at the time, and then to give logical sounding justifications for what you were already going to do anyway, whether you had

justifications or not.

So, if you are pregnant, and want to get an abortion, you will be able to give any number

of reasonable sounding explanations why this is the right decision. You're not ready to

be a parent, or you need to finish your education or get to a better point in your career,

or you don't have enough money, etc. If instead you want to keep the baby, you will

explain how even though you will have some extra difficulties due to the lack of money

or whatever, you will certainly be up to the challenge to make your life work with the

baby, how being a parent will be good for you, what a great parent you'll make, how it

will bring you and the father closer together, and so on. In either case, none of these

will be the real reason for your decision. The real reason for your decision will always

be, "I did it because I wanted to do it".

This method of decision making may have worked fine earlier in human history.
However, in a highly complex technological society, the inevitable result of this is that
people behave in extremely stupid ways. For example, the average American household now has $8000 in credit card debt, on which they pay an average of 19% interest. Is there any good reason to be running an $8000 debt? No. Did these people all run into major life crises which forced them to run up huge debts or else become homeless? No, they spent it on furniture, clothing, televisions, etc. Is it logical to spend $1500 a year in credit card interest?

Clearly not. People do this because there isn't extra money in the bank, but there is something they want to buy, and the positive feeling they get from the idea of having this item is stronger than the negative feeling they get at the idea of their monthly payment going up by another $20. For example, marijuana is illegal in most of the world, while alcohol is legal, despite the fact that alcohol is a far more dangerous drug than marijuana in every way. People consider marijuana to be a dangerous drug, while they think of alcohol as being a fun beverage. They consider those who sell marijuana to be drug dealers, the scourge of society who should be hunted down and imprisoned, while those who sell alcohol (winemakers, grocery stores) are of course not placed in the same category.

Logically speaking, it should be the other way around. Alcohol tends to make many
people aggressive, leading to a variety of violent crimes, while marijuana does not.
Alcohol is a central nervous system depressant, and leads to a serious loss of coordination and motor skills. At larger doses, alcohol renders one completely unconscious. Drunk drivers cause enormous numbers of automobile accidents and deaths. Marijuana is not a central nervous system depressant, and while one probably shouldn't drive while intoxicated on anything, it simply does not cause anywhere near the loss of motor control that alcohol does, and is only a fraction as dangerous as alcohol in terms of driving. And, a large enough dose of alcohol can and will kill you, while the same is not true of marijuana.

But people are looking at this based on their feelings. Marijuana feels like a drug to
them. It's illegal, isn't it? Alcohol feels like a fun beverage. It's legal, and socially
acceptable, so it feels ok, so it must be ok. All of this is illogical and stupid, and typically human. And I could give countless other examples of this, but I'm sure you can think these up yourself. Just look at how people behave in terms of politics and religion.

And, I think that when you see ridiculous and idiotic behavior and decision making in
other people(or in yourself), you have to consider it to be the inevitable result of the
nature of the human psyche.
"The only way to comprehend what mathematicians mean by Infinity is to contemplate
the extent of human stupidity." - Voltaire

Cut The Crap!!!

2010-01-08T00:13:00.004+08:00

Hi people, I didn't blog for a long time because I've choosen not to :) but I am back now, so sit back and let me talk you into some nonsenses,ok? Ready? Here we go...

Remember when you are extremly hungry, and you have not eaten for a long time, the only feeling you feel is hunger and the only thing you are looking forward to is "FOOD". This keeps you motivated to keep going, no matter how frustrating that can be as you have something you are looking forward to. On the other hand, you have just eaten food soo much and you are so full that you can not even walk properly, at that moment if someone will present you with a nice hot plate of your favourite food, you will not be able to take, you might even puke as you have more than enough
of it.

This is a metaphorical version of the craps known as fake emotions and some people tend to feed us nowadays, and we have only two options in front of us, either you play along or you simply bail out as you can not take it anymore and in this situation, you do not care what people think of you. All you want to do is to put as much distance as possible between you and these craps. Everyone of us will have to experience it sooner or later in life, hence the worthiness of mentioning; how are we going to deal with it? The only result here is that you can not take it anymore to such an extent to shut yourself even to true feelings resulting in a numb heart?

Talking from personal experience, I have instinctual desires like a beast and I can sense when people messing with me. Nowadays It is simple to say the three sacred words "I Love You" but it is really hard to live by it! It is almost impossible to meet someone who really loves you for who you are. These three sacred words have been corrupted since a long time and it must take a fool to see that it is not a reality. The fact that I don't have emotions anymore isn't a deadly secret. People might say I am abnormal but helloooo I might not be doused with the heavy burden of feeling, but I can certainly get a job done more efficiently and all-around better than most people in the world. I have no fear, and no obligations. I have never met anyone else like me, so it is almost a thrill to see this. In this situation around us. We all mask our selves, which shows the power of social contract, but we are open to each other hence no way you can tag me as an anti-socialist.

Unfortunately much of our lives is spent trying to fit in, making others happy, and pleasing the people around us so that they accept and love us. The world is a cruel place and is not going to get better and We should stop trying to fit in by foresaking our emotions but rather let the flow guide you as a life without tragedy and pain will rot your brain and heart completely. I do not say that not having emotions is a right thing but this is who We are. Some might say we are cowards or we are a very smart and unique kind of people that just see's the world and how everything works differently . But one thing is positive is that we are so gifted not to have to feel the emotional rollercoaster that consumes everyday life.

Unfortunately we are a social animal, it is our duty to tag along what society thinks as "leading a normal life". So to get rid of this numb heart of ours. the key to it is believing that you will find someone who will accept you for who you are no matter what, not because of you being cute, being a stud, being rich or blabla but just the annoying simple you..plain and simple. I don't mean that we need to be choosy but rather we need to look for these qualities in that person we wanna share a part of our life and create memories that will make you happy while sitting in your living room with a cigar in your mouth in your late 60's.

Someone who will be ready to make sacrifices to fit inside your world and you will also be with your whole heart agree to do some changes to fit her throne besides yours. There is nothing called a perfect lover, hence the reason for accepting who she is when she is ready to be yours no matter how jerky you are as none is perfect and certainly not me.

This post might be a bit ambiguous for some of you but whoever is like me will be able to identify himself or herself and I hope it will help you to get rid of that numb heart of yours. Your emails relating your experiences are very much welcome.

P.S: LOOK FOR SOMEONE MYSTERIOUS-ALWAYS UNPREDICTABLE-IT GONNA ROCK YOUR WORLD.

Is your daily routine starting to get too predictable?

2009-12-07T17:48:00.006+08:00

A new semester starting, a new beginning where you live your life for the next several months with the same timings everyday, the same routine. It can be very easy for people who live by the standards of most people, that is, following the trends and the ways of the majority as it is logical for them that; this is the right way to go about.

Fortunately not me, as I've learned throughout my experiences is that life is what we make of it, and not what other people decide for us to be life. I can't disagree that in some contexts, it is mostly better to follow the mass crowd but when it concerns your life and the way you live, I think you can decide that on your own if you are not in any ways neglecting the social norms which would eventually turn you in a social outcast if you persist.

Here I'm speaking about how to spice up your life so that you don't feel like you are the same as the other ants working and living the same routines everyday. How can we make as if everyday is a new day with loads of exciting things to discover, to experience? How about we inject some new blood in this imagination of ours who already been corrupted by our traditions and habits?

I'm not saying not to do anything that goes against your principles but rather how to tune it so that you feel special within yourself, you know you've aims to accomplish and everyday you try to find new ways, new tactics to achieve them? I bet it gonna be as exciting & awesome as you might think.

Let's Consider this questions and ponder over them: Is your daily routine starting to get too predictable?

It’s not necessarily that what you do is boring. Routines have their purpose. Many people like them, as it gives some comfort and security. However, sometimes it gets too comfortable and leads to a lack of action.

Here are a few simple things you can do, without altering your routine too much. I am not suggesting that you consider all of them! Depending on your personality and life style there may be things you might/might not want to try out.

1. Vary your travel routine. Do you always take the train to work? Can you take the bus instead? Do you vary it much, if at all?

2. Do you always read the sports page first? Change your reading routine.

3. Vary your television and radio routine. Never watch TV at 3 am? You’ll be amazed at what’s on!

4. Go to a strange restaurant or go to a familiar restaurant and order something totally different from your usual.

5. Try out a new recipe you've been meaning to try.

6. Get up on the other side of your bed (if there’s no wall!)

7. Always eat cereal for breakfast? Try some fruits with it or have something different for a change.

8. Volunteer your time. Giving back to your community or find a charitable organization which could use a pair of hands.

9. Learn a new language

10. Just do nothing! Sit in the porch!

11. Rearrange your desk or furniture around

12. Clean! Your room, file cabinet, wardrobe etc.

13. Dance; Jive, waltz or just shake your booty!

14. Sing in the shower!

15. Organize; hard disk, kitchen knives etc

16. Change your writing spot e.g. blogging

17. Call a friend you haven’t spoken to in ages or make a few calls to people who would be happy to hear from you (like your mother!)

18. Make conversation with a stranger

19. Try a crossword or sudoko puzzle

20. Go for a spiritual service

21. Say a prayer

22. Take a short nap at an odd time.

23. Look into the sky... observe the stars!

24. Read a random page on wikipedia

25. Are you good at playing the piano? Guitar? Learn a new musical instrument.

26. Go to a library or a bookstore and browse some books.

27. Do a random act of kindness every day (a simple, small favor). Make it anonymous if possible.

28. Add something new to your regular exercise routine.

29. Babysit for a friend.

30. Visit a museum

Any ideas you can add to this list, and share with others?

Make a list of a few things you've been meaning to do. See how you can add them to garnish your day with some variety...

Cheerssssss!!

The greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing

2009-11-23T05:49:00.002+08:00

As the quote stated: "Life is like a beautiful melody, only the lyrics are messed up.. " No one can deny the fact that we are living a life which has no sorrows or pain in it. The best we can do is to make the best out of this life. I keep pondering what I am doing with my life. It is not strange for a guy to constantly nave to try to figure out what He is trying to do because as you go down the path of life, doors that you never expected to be there will be opening to you till the point that you get stucked in the middle without any clue of which door to get in..

A sense of uncertainty, hesitating and fear of being wrong overcomes you like darkness overcomes the sunrays at dusk. And We keep hoping that someone will come down the road with a lantern to help guide us to the path that we should take but in vain. Here we are, left in the darkness all alone with no idea what should we do, which door should we open, is it the right one or the wrong one? Who knows.....

And suddenly out of nowhere, you realised that you are not in darkness but rather in a prison cell created by yourself from all the taboos of the society, the expectations of your family, the normative ethical principles and your so-called ambitions in life. All you've done is enclosed yourself safe from all the doors that spell ''risky'' by creating a parallel world of your own where you can justify your actions by blaming everything on others.

But this won't forever last long, as sooner or later, you'll come to face the reality that life isn't about living according to what people think is the best or what did you accomplish during your lifetime because in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years that really counts! Because simply life is what we make it, always has been, always will be.

We can sit in a corner grumbling and growling that life is not fair with us or we can just take our chances and take life by the lapel and tell that : "I am with you kid. Let's go." Maya Angelo wasn't a fool when she said that, but rather she has realised the wisdom behind living a real life, that is, life is a compromise of what your ego wants to do, what experience tells you to do, and what your nerves let you do.

Thus let us think, what are we doing with our life? Are we still hiding behind some crappy excuses or are we making the most out of it? We've only one life, only one chance to make it count no matter what as this life is not perpetual but rather a temporary one. Are we cut out to make out the most out of it?

Tell me not, in mournful numbers,
Life is but an empty dream!
For the soul is dead that slumbers,
and things are not what they seem.
Life is real! Life is earnest!
And the grave is not its goal;
Dust thou art; to dust returnest,
Was not spoken of the soul.

POEM BY HENRY WADSWORTH

Sweet Sour OR Bitter Sweet?

2009-09-30T17:31:00.002+08:00

Life is yet another place where we live and enjoy life, but of course, there are some limitations or rather obstacles that make us not capable to enjoy life to its fullest. We are human beings; born at a point and one thing we are sure and certain about in this life is that we will die at some point later on. Due to this, we are limited in knowledge and experiences. And We us to realise this limitation is very hard as we are known to be the best creatures in this universe, but luckily there's a way to discover this limitation is when you encounter a problem where you go through all the encyclopedias & dictionnaries of life & love but you return empty-handed with no solution or answers. Today I've decided to blog because I'm fighting with myself from within. It is easy to fight with someone else where you can burst out your anger, sorrows and frustrations out to him but it is a nightmare when you are fighting with yourself as you always end up being more frustrated.

These past two weeks were very troublesome in aspects of loneliness and my addiction to coffee.. **Smirk**.. I've not been lonely in life as I've always surrounded myself with my desires and fantasies even though I'm not that much of a social animal. But as we know, there is a limit to everything, even chasing dreams and desires. There is a point where we can not take it anymore and we just have to cut it off or you will just burst out hurting yourself and other people who care about you.

I've not quite finished with the emotional part of these two weeks but sometimes, emotions are better kept inside rather that being said as it can create more damages if told. Hence let's move on to the sarcastical fun part of my alter ego =). Let us focus on the fun part, as life isn't not about complaining or whatsoever, it is about enjoying and fullfilling your own responsibilites towards yourself and the society. I've tried to do so these past two weeks. Thanks to my friends from ISD, I've enjoyed my eid a bit, it was fun having pictures taken with a cue stick sticked into an unaware guy's ass or trying to be noob in pool when you are actually pro or when one of my country mate faking a piss in the water jet in front of everybody and trust me, it was very awkward but worth it! Hats off to that friend.

Moreover I've spoke to someone who really stirred the wild part of myself out but God knows best that only second more, I'll be running out like a lion who fasted for a very very long time. Oh what type of meat available, I'll just gulf them down but God blessings, the phoned died out of batteries :) What a twist of fate...it comes to tease you and when you are warming up, it just leaves you out there hanging out like a cold turkey!

Guys how much we try to blame our griefs and sorrows on fate; destiny but in fact for real, we are to be blamed as we are just not trying hard enough. We are not strong enough to stand up on our own feet, we are not strong enough to create our own world of happiness, we are not strong enough to create our own luck & we are not able to influence our own destiny. What is wrong with us?

What is wrong with us is that we are afraid of getting the wild, afraid of jumping into the unknowing, where each our own step can either lead us to our loss & our gain.. Now are we ready to take this risk or not? What will be waiting for us at the end of the tunnel?

So what Say? Sweet? Sour? Bitter? Let's go find out,,,

Wondering Who's Got The Action Again?

2009-09-06T03:16:00.001+08:00

Bored again, hence blogging a bit to take out the inner stress. You guys already know that life isn't that wonderful for me right now, I don't know but something really fishy must be missing as I'm feeling extremely drained and sleepy. No matter how much caffeine I'm engulfing in this body of mine, I end up sleeping. It seemed that my bed and me have become best buddies lately.

Today I went for a meeting at ISD for the coming Eid program, and guess what? I ended up with the special task role, designing posters-banners etc.. Duh who said guys can't be creative enough,huh? Now I'm stuck with a Tuesday deadline to submit these and I've another meeting for a seminar on Monday. Right now I am feeling the urge of running away with all these stress and go hide in a chalet where no one can find me. But wait a second!!?

Isn't it me who's putting me in such stressful schedule? On top I've to run my ass red during rugby training.. Pfff soo much responsibilities at such a young age will make my arteries burst sooner or later. Well I would advice myself to slow down but somehow I'm a very stubborn guy. Having a stressful schedule and life is becoming so boring and just like a military routine doesn't combine with a nomadic guy like me, i mean for the meantime. Hell I want to get a job and start earning some real bucks like before! Fate doesn't smile at you all the time so you need to learn about realities the hard ways. Guess the only moment I feel relaxed is when I'm listening to "Painted Memories" and trying to grind the song from my acoustic guitar. Don't ask me, I'm no good but it makes me happy hearing my roomates shouting after every 5mins :"Shut the fuck up dude"! " Go play your rattle drum outside".

Did you ever know that there's something called "spontaneous recovery" in human's pyschological system? Well I've read about it but guess I've finally experienced it. No matter how hard one can deny that he moved on in life, something or someone in the past will always be haunting you whether you want it or not. Definitely I'm not a playboy, I'm just someone who likes to offer his services! Lol how nasty that sounds but it ain't when you encounter the realities. Even if you try how much to be the one-man show, one-woman world, caring, loving, affectionate, passionate or whatever, it won't ever walk because human is just another imperfect creature who can't appreciate the real blessings when bestowed upon them. Sarcastic and pathetic human beings, how can we be so lame in identifying the real blessings of our life?

Guess I'm better off in my dark ways and I need to only find a solution to spice up this living-dead corpse's life before i tuned myself into a depression mode which it isn't that far. As the saying goes, "we need to break more than one egg to make a delicious omelette", how many more do I need to break before I reach to the extinction phase?! Guess the future will tell us soon...

~~Love seeketh not itself to please, but for another gives its ease.~~

Let's not complicate life too much...

2009-07-16T16:52:00.000+08:00

Hola peepz,

            its been a very long time, nearly one month since I blogged the last time, well I've been very busy with different university based programs and other stuffs that I got entangled in. Life has been good to me and what about you guys?! A new semester has just begun and I've been stuck doing manual registration and changing my program from Islamic Revealed Knowlegde to Human sciences which luckily I've been able to yesterday and trust me, this week has been a hell of a week and a real pain in the butt and I'm happy its over.

I've finally decided to go to gym regularly, time to boost up these muscles and I've joined the japanese martial art Aikido, don't ask me why I did so. Maybe I thought it was good enough to waste my time on :). Nah in fact I'm just looking for stuffs to fill up my schedule given that having free time makes me feel bored and I don't want to be bored, rather I'm fedup of it! 

But there is another thing that is right now nagging me, all my classes starting at 8a.m and given that I can't sleep before 4a.m, it is very difficult for me to wake up even though I've put 16 alarms on two different mobiles, I managed to oversleep for the past two days missing the morning classes. It is as if am fighting a real world war 4 with myself every morning, but guess I need to look for another remedy for that yaay!! Insha Allah I'll try to be serious for the coming months and we'll see where I'll ended in November and yup I'll strive to get all As this semester so you all pray for me. Thanks

I take your leave now, as I feel the sleep coming to bug me again, so i'll go take a walk around campus =)

Take care and be safe.. Talk to you all soon! :)

Best Birthday Wish I got + The Coating Picture! =)

2009-06-08T13:00:00.000+08:00

I decided to post one of the many wishes I liked when I check my inbox saturday night and the most funny part of it was the picture that goes with it. Thank you very much to Anna for this aweful picture, damn I didn't know you actually got some real problems in choosing pictures! haha but anyway the effort is very much appreciated! TQ a lot, here it goes:

Instead of counting candles,

Or tallying the years,

Contemplate your blessings now,

As your birthday nears.

Consider special people

Who love you, and who care,

And others who’ve enriched your life

Just by being there.

Think about the memories

Passing years can never mar,

Experiences great and small

That have made you who you are.

Another year is a happy gift,

So cut your cake, and say,

"Instead of counting birthdays,

I count blessings every day!"

The Milestone of 21 is over...

2009-06-08T12:39:00.000+08:00

              Hey pals, how are you all keeping? I hope just as great as I am doing, well I'm seizing some free times between class to blog a bit given that I really do not have anything interesting to do. As most of you all must know that last saturday[6th June] was my birthday, yea yea am Gemini, and thank you very much for those sarcastic emails, I really do appreciate the wishes. So where was i? Yup finally I've move up the milestone of 21 to 22 years old and you will be surprise to hear that, it still sucks! lol

              I really do not know what I am doing in this university, it is extremely boring and nothing interesting every happen here except that you can catch some gay couples doing themselves in the room. Anyhow I really miss my previous university where life was rocking, all these illegal races, night life were amazing. You feel like you are living and have an aim to look forward everyday, that is, breaking the hostel's curfew and party till the morning! haha, I think since our gang got dispelled after those problems, I am planning to do a get-together soon, either in Malaysia or Dubai, so please princes & princesses of chaos, please contact me if you will be able to make it. I am very much sure that Feisal won't be able to make it as his wife is expecting but what the heck, we'll enjoy on his behalf! So guys go quickly to compose email & send your answer to me asap.

              Anyway as I said before, UIA is damn boring and the chicks in here, i.e, most of them.. Gosh gimme a break!!! lol most of them think they are the centre of the world, and I've not met anyone yet who goes to the criterias the chaotic gang looks for... Well yea maybe I met one, just recently, I knew her from before, but not on personal basis, it was just through the "window shopping" that guys do with their eyes...hehe lol no more comments about that! I'm looking forward to know her more soon, because she seemed quite chaotically eligible! haha and on top of that, she's awesomely weird and guess what? I liiiiikeee!!! :P

So pals, guess the time isn't passing as quick as it was supposed to be, and I have got still 2hours to go, so I'll take your leave, got some other blogs to update. Ciau and live on till we meet again.

~~Sayonara :)~~