tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624Thu, 29 Aug 2024 04:58:05 +0000hopeHandwriting Sanscfwclosurecustomfirmwareflashflashingfontguiltjaflifelonelinessnavifirmnokias60v5symbianttfThis blog is like a diary made public. That is if you write your rants down in your diary. It's a documentation of my soul searching journey and (sometimes) philosophical musings. I may post anything I feel, get moved by or appreciate. So, register yourself to the mailing list if you're interested and you'd be mailed about new posts.http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (nexus11)Blogger58125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-8567817919891170459Mon, 03 Sep 2012 17:15:00 +00002012-09-03T10:16:09.551-07:00closureguilthopelifeWhen you lose someone, you're broken. You have nothing you want more than that person you had. You want her to come running back. You want to go running back to her. It's a normal reaction. Until you accept that your breaking up was probably for the best and these feelings aren't healthy. After your revelation you try your best not to give in, to never let yourself think that way. Just when http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2012/09/guilt-and-closure.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-4072241267878828589Sun, 26 Aug 2012 13:46:00 +00002012-08-26T06:46:59.732-07:00hopelonelinessI don't ever remember being happy. Not that I haven't been happy, I just don't remember those moments. Part of the reason is that nobody ever tries to understand when I'm not happy, or they fail if they try. And I seem to concentrate on those faults more than the joys. Now I don't expect anyone to understand me or try to understand me. But there's still the hope. It stays there, always. That http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2012/08/hope-is-bitch.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-4202205374468229481Fri, 20 Jul 2012 07:57:00 +00002012-07-20T00:57:30.519-07:00What a beautiful feeling it is, being loved. It seems if you could freeze that one moment for all eternity, you would, without a second thought. Of course you'd want change (you always do), but you feel invincible to all that could and should affect you at that moment. It's the one thing you ever wanted and nothing else matters. Next thing you know, it's all gone. All you felt proud of, all that http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2012/07/love-bites.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-8938898053873322230Wed, 18 Jul 2012 11:23:00 +00002012-07-18T04:25:30.274-07:00I have been ignoring this blog for the past two years. And I don't feel right about that. That's the thing, I seem to live my life the wrong way. Consequences can go to hell, I'm gonna live the way I am living. I realize that's not right, but what am I to do about it? I seem to be far too weak to change anything. I am sorry about ignoring this blog, and I am sorry to all the readers I may still http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2012/07/back-again.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-5164107581973691781Sun, 26 Jun 2011 10:42:00 +00002011-06-26T03:47:41.693-07:00cfwcustomfirmwareflashflashingjafnavifirmnokias60v5symbianThis is a tutorial i am creating for flashing symbian phones.... Flashing is essentially re-installing the operating system on your phone with files that have been modified by higher brains...if you don't know what an operating system or a phone is you don't have any business reading the rest of this post :P Now first things first you have to download a bunch of softwares....they are : 1.Nokiahttp://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2011/06/jaf-tutorial.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-686193391993512451Thu, 17 Mar 2011 04:15:00 +00002011-03-16T21:15:40.578-07:00Wierd day today...I guess yesterday now....Gave a test that I'm quite likely to flunk. Attended a fest that downright sucked in my opinion and well had a dilemna of sorts. Now I can't sleep wondering if I did the right thing. Still I don't feel like the day was a complete waste. WIERD...that's what I'd call this. There's no simple explanation to why I'm writing this post at 12:32 AM while http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2011/03/170311.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-5279269110140574494Mon, 07 Mar 2011 13:44:00 +00002011-03-07T05:44:57.796-08:00It seems weird writing after all this time....I thought i didn&#39;t needthis blog anymore...but somehow i do. Now, I&#39;ve read a lot of blogs inthe past few months, and i know i have nowhere near the skill requiredto write a successful blog. That&#39;s probably the reason i stoppedwriting this. But i forgot why i started writing in the first place.It was for me and not because i wanted to be http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2011/03/rereturn.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-6110398874564761869Fri, 03 Dec 2010 17:53:00 +00002010-12-03T09:54:00.726-08:00p { margin-bottom: 0.08in; } Whoa, it's been a long time. If you'd have asked me a couple of months if I'd be able to get by without writing for so long, I would've said no. But man it's happened. It's been whirlwind months. So much to study, so much to do. It's funny really, how I never seemed to have any time forhttp://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/12/sensible-nonsense.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-4746642173462807796Fri, 17 Sep 2010 10:41:00 +00002010-09-17T03:37:08.036-07:00For the last couple of weeks, i&#39;ve been waiting for the new album by Linkin Park, &quot; A Thousand Suns&quot;. And, well i must say, they&#39;ve strayed farther away from the sound which made them famous in the first place. Well, i&#39;m no music expert but i do call myself a music enthusiast. And that enthusiast was left frowning when i first heard this album.I can&#39;t pretend i like thishttp://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/09/review-linkin-park-thousand-suns.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-3696420170566869103Thu, 09 Sep 2010 13:25:00 +00002010-09-09T06:25:02.845-07:00 <!-- @page { margin: 0.79in } P { margin-bottom: 0.08in } --> I know what I want !! I know i've made this declaration a couple of times before, and I know i've backtracked more than that but I think I know now.....I've always wondered what I want most in life. What I miss most in life, what is it that will make some sense out of this pointless existence ? My answers have http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/09/090910.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-7146290546512568760Sat, 04 Sep 2010 02:55:00 +00002010-09-03T19:51:18.634-07:00What does it take to be drenched in utter, complete sadness in a moment ? Absolutely nothing. You&#39;re left thunderstruck, completely out of the blue. Why do i always bring my and everybody other&#39;s mood down to these trenches where i recide ?I dont understand, now i&#39;m fearing i never will. I just fall down into states of so immense sadness, i dont know what to make of it. Suddenly, http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/09/40910.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-4836580886558587546Sun, 29 Aug 2010 17:38:00 +00002010-08-29T10:34:40.477-07:00Another week&#39;s gone by....or is it two ?? Sorry, cant remember....life&#39;s goin just too fast. I sure would like to have a couple of days to figure out, where i&#39;m headin to.It&#39;s absolutely unforgivable when at some moments i feel that life&#39;s borin, and the next every single floodgate decides that its time to try and destroy another city of dreams. Its abso-fuckin-lutely unfair. http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/08/290810.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-3283322640869094922Sun, 15 Aug 2010 16:21:00 +00002010-08-15T09:19:09.749-07:00Life&#39;s returning to where it always was.....i guess some things are never meant to change. Maybe thats what destiny is. You get something and you gotta live with it. Maybe thats what i&#39;m getting to know now. I&#39;m learning some new things about me, most of them from the most unlikely sources, from me.There are some things i am accepting now, knowing now. There&#39;s a reason why i&#39;mhttp://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/08/140810_15.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-5839525435124063115Sun, 15 Aug 2010 16:19:00 +00002010-08-15T09:16:23.319-07:00Its been a long time since i last wrote something here.....To be honest, hostel makes you lazy. Its always a tussle for time control between food, games, sleep and homework. I&#39;ve even stopped reading and the latest book i&#39;ve been reading has consumed more than two weeks, even though its quite fast paced and interesting. Maybe its time to reinvent myself.College life on the other hand has http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/08/120810.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-4032685913195506976Thu, 29 Jul 2010 17:18:00 +00002010-07-29T10:19:54.935-07:00College finally started and well, i don&#39;t know what to make of it....Nothing much is like i thought it would be. Its crazy, absolutely. Past six months i&#39;ve never been this lost for words....i guess all new experiences are like this. Damn i hate not knowing, most of all not knowing how i&#39;m feeling.Well, the classes are pretty much boring till now. Nothing new taught yet, so thats http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/07/29710.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-583627284033347730Sun, 25 Jul 2010 04:43:00 +00002010-07-24T21:44:38.030-07:00My themes page : nexus11themes.blogspot.comhttp://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/07/my-themes-page.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-731325265721458214Sat, 24 Jul 2010 17:34:00 +00002010-07-24T10:38:12.995-07:00Its been quite some time i&#39;ve written anything here....I&#39;ve been kinda busy with college starting and me venturing into theme making. I&#39;ll post the first two tomorrow for symbian series 60 3rd edition.But today, i&#39;m once again in a morbid mood. This has been happening a lot less these days but it seems that these periods are more intense now. Maybe that&#39;s nature&#39;s way of http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/07/24710.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-6143700110672723649Tue, 13 Jul 2010 03:57:00 +00002010-07-12T20:59:20.006-07:00I&#39;ve got only two words for myself &quot;i suck&quot;. I can&#39;t do anything right. I can&#39;t make any fucking person feel good, let alone feel happy. But what can i do ?? I&#39;ve got nothing to lose, and well, nothing to gain either. I&#39;m a castaway of society. People like me usually end up in mental correctional facilities. Maybe i&#39;ll end up the same way....There&#39;s somethinghttp://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/07/130710.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-7929052342791480575Mon, 12 Jul 2010 04:02:00 +00002010-07-11T21:03:35.573-07:00For the past year, couple of years....i don&#39;t know how long.....it seems a tape is being played again and again, over and over apparently continuously in my head....&quot;why am i not happy ?? coz i&#39;m incapable of feeling happiness....why am i not happy ?? coz i&#39;m incapable of feeling happiness....&quot; I don&#39;t know how correct or incorrect that is, but it seems to be the only http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/07/120710.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-5022999841783456503Tue, 06 Jul 2010 08:44:00 +00002010-07-06T01:46:25.585-07:00I&#39;m stuck in Mandi(H.P.) since 3-4 days, spent 3-4 days in Chandigarh before this. I can only wish this was a vacation. Unfortunately, its grave news. My paternal aunt in law(tai ji) succumbed to a brain haemorrage. The whole family is devastated, she was a really loved and treasured member of our family. We&#39;re all grief stricken, pity we can&#39;t do anything about it....As expected, herhttp://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/07/672010.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-2936342905714586561Mon, 21 Jun 2010 11:16:00 +00002010-06-21T04:14:34.462-07:00Everything is wierd....it seems i&#39;ve lost the ability to think sanely, or what i thought was sanely. So many decisions to take and none have a nice alternative. It seems whatever i&#39;ll do, i&#39;m set to lose something. What do i do ?? &quot;don&#39;t make a choice until there&#39;s only one way left&quot; doesn&#39;t sound very promising now....http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/06/everything-is-wierd.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-1920732906123028956Mon, 07 Jun 2010 16:35:00 +00002010-06-07T09:33:23.305-07:00Some very foreign feelings are taking hold of my brain these days. Its good and weird at the same time. Good because it feels i&#39;m happy, but weird because its all alien. It&#39;s like a new birth. Its like i&#39;m being happy for the first time in my life. And i don&#39;t understand how to handle it.I&#39;m getting a feeling, again, that success is highly overrated. Success at anything. When http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/06/secret-to-happiness.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-5328126060742941935Tue, 01 Jun 2010 16:34:00 +00002010-06-01T09:32:23.987-07:00It was a pleasant surprise, getting a within 20k rank in AIEEE. This has certainly boosted my chances of getting into a good college. But, still no sign of me getting a new phone. I exceed expectations at every exam i give, and still nobody is happy with my performance. Nothing is ever enough. That just proves it, work for yourself. If you feel happy doing something, do it. Don&#39;t search for http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/06/imbroglio.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-8075602866293638456Sun, 30 May 2010 04:35:00 +00002010-05-29T21:51:25.507-07:00 &nbsp;my fav song........http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/05/queensryche-anybody-listening-fav-song.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7270780587455506624.post-45620990401695934Sun, 30 May 2010 03:00:00 +00002010-05-29T20:09:16.073-07:00For the first time in a long time i&#39;m struggling to put my thoughts into writing. So much has happened in the past couple of days that i can hardly believe it. Emotions are literally running wild. I can&#39;t understand what i&#39;m feeling anymore. Some romantics might say that i&#39;m in love, but i believe its just another bout of some sort of schizophrenia. May i be wrong for once.Its http://rebeleagles.blogspot.com/2010/05/self-destruction.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (nexus11)3