Redefining P

Long Time No Post!!!

2010-05-13T23:18:00.000-07:00

Well everything fell by the waste side. I think that's how that phrase goes. Life had gotten a bit crazy this past month. but all is well everyone is healthy and on their way to being completely happy...I hope. My face, my workout, my art well it's time to push through again.

Life kinda gives me obstacles and its sometimes difficult to just stay on top of things. Especially when all that matters at times is my family's well being...I forget about mine. But with Mother's Day passing and things settling down I'm getting back to what I have to do. So here's to life and whatever comes my way.

Peace, Joy & Happiness

P90X Day 8 - Chest and Back

2010-04-12T03:47:00.001-07:00

5:08 is early. But I'm up. I ate my banana and drank some water and taking a minute to breathe and getting ready to start my workout.

6:25 I finished my workout and ten minutes later got my smoothie made and shortly after that Bodhi is now up. So my workout went well I burned out and it feels great! I tried to do Ab ripper but it wasn't happening I do it later today. I feel really good. And I can start my day, yeh.

My smoothie is so good. If you like cilantro. I used a mango, banana, small cucumber, celery, quarter lime, hand full of baby carrots, a clump of cilantro and cup of water. Give it a go it's very refreshing. Have a great day!

Phinthone....on the move!!!
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Spring Break is Over!

2010-04-10T17:26:00.000-07:00

This week I had Abigail for Spring Break it was nice to spend alone time with her and Bodhi. I didn't realize how difficult it would be to get my workouts in. So this week I tried to work out three times, three times cut short! So now I've decided to try to work out before the baby wakes up, that mean waking up at 5:00 or before, YIKES! What choice do I have if I want to get back into shape...P90X here I come...bright and early! I'll Start Again come Monday morning.

So I mentioned that I was drinking Green Smoothies, right. Well I decided to the 7 day Green Smoothie Detox diet. Well it is amazing! I feel so great and my energy is through the roof. If it hadn't been for the smoothies last week would have been a daze. I did have a little trouble with breaking out but what I read was during my detox all the bad would be released and well it was released. the hurdle is over and the major cysts have subsided and now I'm on the road to recovery. My face is healing really well and I do have a nice glow even with all the scaring. Green Smoothies are awesome!!! I will continue having green smoothies twice a day but I still love cooked food!!! Maybe on day I'll go Completely RAW!

P90X Day 3 - Shoulders and Arms

2010-03-31T21:30:00.000-07:00

Today I feel much better...my back cracked and popped and the pinched nerve/knot is gone and i feel so much better. Although, starting the routine today made me realize, wow, it would have really helped to have done the Cardio-X yesterday. Well, it is what it is.

Just an added note I started a Green Smoothie diet and OMG it is wonderful. The last time I did the P90X program after the workout I was spent, dead tired. that is with have a protein drink before and after. Today was my second day with the Green Smoothies and my energy is through the roof. I felt like I could have gone for a run after the workout. I would have if I had the time. But for those of you who feel like you need a boost of energy maybe you should try some Greens!!!

P90X Day 2 - Plyometrics/Cardio-X...I don't think so!

2010-03-30T20:21:00.000-07:00

Holy cow!!! I seem to have slept so deeply and such an awful position that I have a horribly painful knot and my back is completely not letting me do anything. I really upset I did not want to stray from the program but I'm not going to hurt myself for the sake of the workout. So tomorrow is another day!

Turmeric mask update 2

2010-03-30T06:25:00.000-07:00

Well I decided to take a break from the mask last night so I could hang out with my husband, Rick.

This morning my face has a few spots that hurt and several more that have come to a head and popped on there own. My face seems to be drying up and scaling. I hope this is a good sign. So tonight I'll have to skip again, I've got somewhere to go. Overall my face is calmer and I'm super excited to see what happens.

I'm adding a few new things to my regimen I'll keep posting.

I feel pretty good today.

P90X Day 1 - Chest and Back

2010-03-29T06:17:00.000-07:00

We finally started again! It is so nice to workout. The first day is always tough trying to find your limit. Luckily I was able to refer back to my first 90 days to refresh my memory. I didn't push myself too hard, I knew I needed to be able to pick up the baby. You definitely don't want to kill yourself when you've got someone depending on you.

We decided to wait until Wednesday to add ab ripper. Let me tell you, I need ab ripper but I don't look forward to it. But if I want the baby belly to go away I'm going to have to push myself.

So all in all it was a good first day.

Turmeric mask update 1

2010-03-28T10:10:00.000-07:00

Well it's the next day and a few of the cysts have come to a head and my cluster has reduced in size considerably. I am quite surprised. Yet there are still a few that hurt.

I'll be repeating it again tonight with more honey. I read that it'll keep my face from becoming yellow. We'll see won't we.

I edited my mask and decided to use pulp of a ripened tomato and a couple of pinches of turmeric. OMG, I left it on for an hour and it made my face feel super awesome. Not to mention it didn't stain quite as bad, it did a little but it wasn't noticeable. Only noticed it when I used my ACV/H20 toner.

Over all using turmeric has helps quite a bit. I'll just keep pushing along and keep updating.

Phinthone....on the move!!!
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My fight against Acne!!!

2010-03-27T18:56:00.000-07:00

I'm so sick and tired of my face. Yes my face.

I've struggled for years with acne and cystic acne. I have got the worst break out right now, I'm reminded of how bad it was in high school. So life has put another obstacle in my path. That's OK. I've got a plan.

I've been reading a site www.earthclinic.com about acne and well I've come up with my own regimen. It is posted on my Acne page.

Tonight I decided to try out a face mask that hopefully tame a few of my cysts and calm the redness, and pain. I can't believe how painful these things are. It really is a pain in my side. it dampens my spirits and self esteem. it just plain sucks. This is just how I'm feeling right now sitting here with the mask on typing my heart out.

BTW, the mask is

1 Tsp Honey

splash of ACV(apple cider vinegar with "mothers")

1/2 tsp turmeric

a couple of shakes of cinnamon and nutmeg.

I washed my face and steamed it for a few minutes to open up my pores and then applied the mask. I'm leaving it on for an hour and then washing it off. I'll follow it up with 50/50 ACV and H2O as a toner and then 2 drops Jojoba and 1 drop Tea Tree oil for moisturizer.

I really can't get too upset I was born with it and now it's time to just take it with a grain of salt and say I just was not blessed with beautiful skin. So now I've got to find makeup that makes me presentable.

It's been an hour I'll be right back.

OK I'm a bit jaundice from the turmeric which I was expecting. Oh yeah, remember if you try this make sure you wear and old shirt because the turmeric will stain. So my skin feels really great and surprisingly my major mass has actually shrunk a little bit and is not as painful which is what I was looking for. So it works!!! The key is to do this as often as I can. Bodhi is asleep so I was able to do this tonight.

So when I started tonight I had five painful sections now I have three. That's not too bad. I'll let you know how I feel tomorrow.

So for those of you out there struggling as I am...Lets keep our heads up together. Because life is too short and if your down I'll do what I can to lift you up and I hope you'll do the same for me. How's that for self esteem lifter!!!

The art of holding a conversation.

2010-03-27T13:30:00.000-07:00

I've never been the type of person who could really capture someones attention in conversation. I lack a certain je ne sais quoi or excitement to my voice. It has a lot to do with my self esteem, the lack of.

So one of my goals is to hold a conversation that captures or rather captivates the person I'm talking to. I have a business acquaintance that is just a ball of energy and if I had half the voice he has I'd be going places.

If anyone has any exercises or tips for me please let me know. I'll keep you posted on my transformation.

Phinthone....on the move!!!
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It's so frustrating.

2010-03-26T08:31:00.001-07:00

It's Friday morning and Bodhi started waking up at around 4:00 this morning and crying then going back to sleep then crying and so forth and so on. Until I finally got up with him at 7:00 to feed him...he slept until his sister came in to wake daddy up at around 9:00. He has been cranky all morning. I think he us teething and going threw another growth spurt.

All I want to do is to make him happy. Well it's hard. The communication barrier between baby and mommy. I'm learning as I go. I love these kids so much but it's frustrating.

He's finally asleep. How sweet.

Phinthone....on the move!!!
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Space Cadet

2010-03-25T08:16:00.000-07:00

I have a little space cadet. She's 10 years old and thinks she is all knowing. I was one of her favorite people, now she just rolls her eyes at me and thinks I'm stupid. This is a common dilemma that step parents go through, I hope.

Her name is Abigail and she has flipped my life upside down. Some good, some bad. It's worth it at times. Yet sometimes I just want to pull my hair out. I say I want to give up but I don't mean it. She has gone through a lot in her life and has learned to be a bit manipulative. Which looking back, I think all kids including ourselves learn how to get our way.

You know what chaps my ass? When she talks around me and not to me. As though I'm not there. Especially when I've been so good to her.

It is officially it's the evening and she has made her departure back to her mom's. This week had a lot of ups and downs. The biggest thing was the fact that she thinks she rules the roost. Apart from that she and I no longer have a good relationship, unless she wants something. I take that back she decided she wanted to cuddle next to me last night when we watched a movie. Come morning she is back to her same hurtful self. I've tried to be nice and teach her things but she doesn't want my direction. She thinks I'm just a nag. Well she and I will come to have the same relationship she and her step dad has, which is lack of a relationship. It breaks my heart.

Abigail if you find this and read this I want you to know I love you and I would do anything for you. Although, I am not just going to sit here and take it. I will start showing you love, respect and compassion when you start showing me some.

Phinthone....on the move!!!
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How do I redefine myself?

2010-03-24T20:28:00.000-07:00

de·fine [dih-fahyn]
-verb (used with object)
1. to state or set forth the meaning of (a word, phrase, etc.): They disagreed on how to define “liberal.”
2. to explain or identify the nature or essential qualities of; describe: to define judicial functions.
3. to fix or lay down definitely; specify distinctly: to define one's responsibilities.
4. to determine or fix the boundaries or extent of: to define property with stakes.
5. to make clear the outline or form of: The roof was boldly defined against the sky.
-verb (used without object)
6. to set forth the meaning of a word, phrase, etc.; construct a definition.

So with dictionary.com I got the definition of define; well it's time to REDEFINE MYSELF. Because what's going on now in my life sure is crazy.

Today I woke up and still recovering from an awful sinus infection, I can't seem to get the funk to go away. Well, all in all I've been sick since the New Year and it's time to get better.

I've got to get rolling again, with work and life, after having Bodhi last June. Bodhi has been my world since he came along. But now it's time to make my family happy, not just the baby.

Rick and I already have almost completed one round of P90X before the New Year but the holidays got in the way. So now we are getting ready to hit it again. I'll be keeping up with the progress and posting measurements soon.

As for work, well I'm working on a few things. I have two projects. One is faux finishing a bathroom and the other is a project that is something I can't talk about yet but I'm so excited about and can't wait to get started on it.

Personally I have had the worst breakout since I'm guessing 1996. I'm so over this acne issue. We'll see how this turns out.

You know out of everything that is going on in my life nothing has got me down more than thus acne issue. It really makes you, I mean me, so depressed. It's really kills me on the inside and keeps me from going outside if I don't have to. And when I do have to leave the house all I can focus on is what people see on my face. But this is not what defines me right? I just have to figure out how to overcome this insecurity. Every time I have an outbreak I always get depressed. It's time for change.

I'm going to keep close track of my life and make changes for the betterment of myself, for myself and my family.

Phinthone....on the move!!!
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