Reflections of My Body, Mind and Spirit

Unbreak My Heart... Say You Love Me Again...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 16 Oct 2012 03:12:00 -0700

Agar Tum Mil Jao... (Song Dedication)

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 14 Oct 2012 10:57:00 -0700

I had never seen the actual movie version of this amazing Soulmate song untill yesterday, and was extremely disappointed to see how they had perverted the beauty and the depth in it.... a total heart break...

So here is the song For you My Love with a beautiful presentation that I found on Youtube...

His prayer is mine too...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 10 Oct 2012 01:42:00 -0700

THOUGH I WAS UNABLE TO BE AS GOOD A HUMAN BEING THAT HE WAS, BECAUSE OF ALL THE HORRORS OF MY PAST HAPPENING ALL OVER AGAIN... AND GETTING HIT IN ALL THE SAME PLACES I WAS ALREADY HURT AND IN PAIN.

YET ALL I HAVE IS A PRAYER FOR YOUR HAPPINESS AND WELL BEING: " MAY ALL YOUR SORROWS BE MINE AND ALL MY HAPPINESS BE YOURS, WHERE EVER YOU ARE AND WITH WHOEVER YOU ARE...

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU...

But As Long As I Live....

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 9 Oct 2012 02:58:00 -0700

Till the time God Decides to grant me my Death Wish...

I WILL:

Dedicate the rest of my Life In Penance for all the Sins I have committed.
Dedicate the rest of my Life To Loving You, no matter where I am.
Dedicate the rest of my life To prove to you The Real Meaning of True Love and that it Exists.
Prove that True Love is the only thing that One Needs to Live & Be Happy.
Prove that True Love Can Teach One Anything.

Death Cometh To Me!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 8 Oct 2012 09:38:00 -0700

Nothing in my life, I REALLY MEAN NOTHING!!! BUT GOD & YOU!!! CAN EVER BREAK AND DESTROY ME TO THE CORE...

AND ONLY YOU CAN BREAK AND DESTROY ME THE WAY YOU HAVE...

I HAVE STOOD UP AFTER FALLING DOWN EVERY TIME THROUGH Child Hood Abuse, Heart Breaks, Losses, Countless Failures, Financial Crunches, Accidents, Deaths, Etc Etc

BUT THIS TIME I AM DONE...

AND ALL I CAN PRAY IS FOR GOD TO GRANT ME MY DEATH WISH...

I Will Always Wait For You My Love....

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 8 Oct 2012 08:01:00 -0700

I hold my phone close to my heart hoping you would call, but you don't...
Every now and then I hear the phone ring just to realize it wasn't...
But Every time it did ring I thought it was you, only to realize it was someone else...
Every time I received a SMS I think its from you, only to realize that its spam...
Every time I see your posts online, hoping that it would be something dedicated to us and me, unfortunately there is always something to Shock/Hurt/Destroy Me with stuff dedicated to your new life, your hopes for a new man, your high end materialistic fancies or INSULTING OUR RELATIONSHIP...

I Know You Never Did, You Never Can and You Never Will Be Able To Love Me Truly...
The Way I Did, I Do and Always Will Love Your Truly

But Yet I Will Always Love You And Wait For You My Love...

I WILL ALWAYS BE WORRIED ABOUT YOU MY LOVE...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 8 Oct 2012 07:57:00 -0700

NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE AND WITH WHO YOU ARE I WILL ALWAYS BE WORRIED ABOUT YOU MY LOVE

I will always be worried about:

Your Health and Well Being
Your Mental and Spiritual Evolution
Your Way of Life
Your Addictions and Weakness
Your Physical, Mental & Spiritual Safety and Security

All I can do is Hope Wish and Pray for You...

God Bless You My Love... Please Be Good, Do Good & Always Stay Safe...

Everything That I Am, I Am Because Of My LOVE FOR YOU....

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 8 Oct 2012 02:17:00 -0700

I was very very young when I first felt that I had a Soulmate. In fact it was from that very moment that my life changed forever...

Since then Everything in my life was clear. I had only One Goal: To give my best, to make myself

A Perfect Man that my Soulmate would be proud of, though I know that she would love me no matter whether I was the president of a Country, bill or just an ordinary guy. I must always be capable of supporting and looking after my Soulmate, even if she couldn't. For That I would Have To

Be A Good Human Being (The most difficult task in the world) - By being a Good Man, Good Lover & Husband, Good Son, Good Sibling, Good Friend and a Good Social Being.

I should never ever get attracted to or be carried away by all the evil or materialistic things in the world.
I will have to destroy everything evil and bad inside of me. I know the evil way of life is the most tempting and attractive but I will find the right way, no matter how difficult a path it is to follow I will keep trying and never give up

Learn everything that would be necessary to Look After/Help/Protect/Support my Soulmate to not just Exist and Survive, but to also live life peacefully and happily.

So to make my self as Perfect A Man I could be for my Soulmate, I had to develop my Body, Mind and Spirit.
With this Goal firmly fixed in my mind, I started my search for knowledge and the truths of Life, God, Love, Sacrifice, Honesty, Loyalty and everything I could, to help me in my Impossible task to becoming a Good Human Being. It took me years of mistakes, hurt and failures to even learn the little that I have, and am still learning. Not surprisingly it has been more difficult, to imbibe and put to practice all that have learnt.
In Order to help me face this challenge, I started to follow One of the most Perfect Ways of Life known to man: MARTIAL ART (Budo in Japanese). Martial Art helps me connect with my Spirit, Discipline & Focus my Mind and Strengthen my weak Body. It helps me fight the evil/bad things that had gotten inside of me (from the merciless evil world, that was I helplessly and continuously exposed to since my childhood...)

In addition to all the above, I had to try to learn all the practical skills of life as much as my Body could take and which ranged from Cooking, Self Defense, Home Management, Science & Technology, Computers, Business, Basic First Aid & Medicine, Jungle/Calamity Survival, Music, Dancing & Entertainment, Hygiene, Dressing, Etiquette, Interpersonal & Communication Skills, Looking after Pets to Repairing & Maintenance of things etc.

TO BE HONEST: I ALWAYS KNEW THAT I WAS TRYING TO ACHIEVE THE MOST DIFFICULT TASK KNOWN TO MAN AND HAVE TO ADMIT THAT THE JOURNEY HAS BEEN EXTREMELY DIFFICULT, CHALLENGING TO MY BODY, MIND & SPIRIT, HUMBLING AND MANY TIMES SEEMINGLY UNREWARDING, JUST REMEMBERING THAT I AM DOING ALL THIS FOR YOU MY SOULMATE, HAS KEPT ME GOING... AND MAKES ME FEEL PROUD THAT AT LEAST I AM TRYING, WHAT MANY WOULD NEVER...

INTERESTINGLY IN MY CASE THE SAYING "LOVE TEACHES ALL" TURNED OUT TO BE PRETTY TRUE...

UNFORTUNATELY EVERYTHING CAME TO CRASH... EVERYTHING I HAD BEEN WORKING HARD TO ACHIEVE, I DESTROYED WITH MY VERY OWN HANDS. JUST BECAUSE OF A FEW UNDESERVING EVIL, SHAMELESS MATERIALISTIC PHYSICAL, MENTAL & SPIRITUAL SLUTS WHO I LET ENTER INTO MY LIFE JUST BECAUSE I MISTOOK THEM TO BE MY SOULMATE. SINCE MY GUARD USED TO BE ALWAYS DOWN, THEY LEFT NO STONE UNTURNED, TO DESTROY ME SPIRITUALLY, MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY. THE BACK LASH OF ALL THIS DESTROYED THE HUMAN BEING IN ME AND TRIGGERED THE ANIMAL SIDE OF ME AND TURNED INTO A DEMON, I COULD NEVER IMAGINE I COULD EVER BECOME.....

THOUGH I HAVE SUCCESSFULLY TRANSFORMED MYSELF BACK TO WHAT I REALLY AM, I AM STILL IN PAIN BECAUSE OF THE INJURIES INFLICTED ON MY BODY, MIND AND SPIRIT. WHICH WILL HEAL ONLY WHEN YOU MY SOULMATE WILL COME IN TO MY LIFE...

BEING IN LOVE WITH YOU MY SOULMATE IS VERY PAINFUL AND LONELY MOST OF THE TIME, BUT MY HOPE OF BEING WITH YOU WILL NEVER DIE TILL MY LAST BREATH AND SO I WILL CONTINUE MY EFFORT TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL TO BE EVERYTHING FOR YOU MY SOULMATE....

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU..... (Song Dedication)

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 6 Oct 2012 10:28:00 -0700

My Love Its all I have to say to you...

I Will Always Love You by Whitney Houston

from The Bodyguard Soundtrack

If I
Should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go
But I know
I'll think of you every step of
the way

And I...
Will always
Love you, oohh
Will always
Love you
You
My darling you
Mmm-mm

Bittersweet
Memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So good-bye
Please don't cry
We both know I'm not what you
You need

And I...
Will always love you
I...
Will always love you
You, ooh

I hope
life treats you kind
And I hope
you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish you joy
and happiness
But above all this
I wish you love

And I...
Will always love you
I...
Will always love you
[Repeat]

I, I will always love
You....
You
Darling I love you
I'll always
I'll always
Love
You..
Oooh
Ooohhh

We Are Stuck With Each Other [In A Good Way] (Song Dedication)

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 26 Sep 2012 10:56:00 -0700

Shontelle ft. Akon – Stuck with Each Other Song Words

You can think you can get free
You think you won’t need me
That you’re gonna get you somethin’ better
But you know that we’re in this forever
And you can think you can walk out
Even with your doubts
But you know that we’re in this together
You can try to push me from you
Nothing you do will keep us a part
Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it, baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain’t nothin you can do about it
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong
Cause we belong here
Baby, we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
(stuck in love with each other)
Yeah
Now I can say that I would not care
If you were not there
Tell myself that I’ll be fine without ya
but I would die if I was not around ya
and I can try to convince you
I don’t need to be with you
But my only thoughts are thoughts about ya
What can I do, love is like glue
There’s no way to
Tear us a part
Cause it’s too late (too late, too late)
There’s no escape, might as well face it
Baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other (with each other)
Ain’t nothin i can do about it
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong
Yes, we belong here
Baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
stuck in love with each other
(stuck in love with each other)
Song words are provided by Geniusbeauty.com
There’s nothing i’d rather do
Than to sit with you forever
Can’t think of nothing better
Than to be stuck with you
Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain’t nothin we can do about it
Oh yeah
Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain’t nothin I can do about it
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong
Yes, we belong here
baby, we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
(Stuck in love with each other)
Cause it’s too long, it’s been too strong
Yes we belong here
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
Cause it’s too long, it’s been too strong
Yes we belong here
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
Stuck in love with each other
Ain’t nothin gonna stop me and you eh
Cause you know we just stuck like glue eh
Ain’t nothin we can do
We stuck in love with each other

I TOLD YOU...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Thu, 2 Aug 2012 07:08:00 -0700

I AM SURE YOU REMEMBER THAT:
I told you that your change was superficial...
     but you said that it was from your core.
I told you that by leaving me, you will feel free and unrestricted...
     but you said that you did not want anything but Me.
I told you that by leaving me you will get your life back...
     but you said you had no life without Me.
I told you that it was good for you and that you would feel right about it...
     but you said that you would be sad about it.
I told you that the day you got back into your world you would become what you were...
     but you said that you understood what was right from wrong and you would you never become like what you were.
I told you that the moment you break free you would go back to doing all that you promised me that you understood was wrong...
     and you told me that you would never do those things again because you understood that those things were bad for you.
BUT THE MOST PAINFUL ONE AND THE ONE THAT I MYSELF PRAYED TO NEVER COME TRUE WAS THAT :
I TOLD YOU THAT THE MOMENT YOU GOT BACK TO YOUR WAY OF LIFE YOU WOULD .........
      AND YOU SAID THAT YOU WERE NOT A ........

ITS UNFORTUNATE THAT EVERYTHING I SAID TURNED OUT TO BE TRUE AND THAT I WAS RIGHT ALL THE TIME AND YOU WERE NOT EVEN AWARE/HONEST ABOUT WHAT YOU REALLY WOULD DO OR WHAT YOU REALLY ARE...

Like I always say 2+2 = 4 not 6 not 8

WHY MY LOVE DID YOU TURN OUT TO BE SO PREDICTABLE JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE???

The Wrong Reasons For Which You Have Left Me...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 31 Jul 2012 07:04:00 -0700

"The Very Reasons For Which You Have Left Me, Had Always Been, Are and Will Always Be The Very Reasons For More Pain, Lies, Confusions, Character Assassination, Violations, Un-Invited Alliances, Unwanted Attention, Heart-Breaks, Health Problems etc. in the Future....

I had always been the one to Protect You So Long and Have Guide you in the Right Path,

BUT unfortunately due to your inability to understand very deep core values and your unfortunate attachment/affinity and priority to Materialistic Pleasures of Life no matter how unnecessary they may be OVER Morals & Ethics of True Love and Soulmateship is what has Made you hate me....

SAD BUT ITS TRUE - THIS EVIL WORLD HAS MORE CONTROL OVER YOU THAN ME....

No Reason To Kill My Only Demon....

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 8 May 2010 08:27:00 -0700

With Sick Females Sinning all around who love all the Evil of the world

They are Hyper Materialistic with no Morals, Values or Respect for True Love or Soulmate-ship.
Who have no concept of Right or Wrong/Good or Bad.
Who have no Shame in being Fully/Partially Naked Physically, Mentally & Spiritually in front of people they are not in Love with.
Who Take pride and have a sense of achievement in taking Drugs, Smoking & Drinking.
Who are Physical, Mental AND/OR Spiritual Sluts making this world another "Sodom & Gomorrah".

Worse is them Pretending to be Virgin Angels (Please read Post True Virginity: Are You Really The Virgin You Claim You Are?)) and conning dedicated men into loving them.

Thus the last thing that I would want is to kill the only Demon In Me... Cause its only the Demon (that's gotten inside me) that can and that should treat them the way they should be treated....

Fortunately or Unfortunately its only my Soulmate for who I would want to destroy it....

The Weird Pain Of My Foolishness....

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 3 May 2010 20:25:00 -0700

The Pain and Self-Disgust that I feel, even at the thought of having met, interacted, blindly trusted, befriended and loved many Homo Sapiens pretending to be Human is one of the most Inexpressible and Torturing of all feelings I have ever experienced...

These Homo Sapiens:

Never love honestly and wholeheartedly and never give their 100% but expect to be loved honestly and wholeheartedly 100%.
Feel no shame in lying, hiding and backstabbing.
Always act like an angel and made me feel like a devil but who themselves have a life filled with the most shameless, disgusting deeds, history and have the ugliest skeletons in the Closet.
Have a mindset of one of the Greatest Spoilt Brats I have ever met.
Are Very Very Selfish and were smart enough to exploit me in many ways and few even drained me out of every last penny that I had. When in need of money they will never use a single penny of theirs to help you out.
Would have the unbelievable ability to not do anything for you and yet enslave you for life.

The pain and self-disgust is at it highest when I am reminded of my Stupidity, Carelessness, Lack of Foresight, When ever I happen to see them enjoying their ugly lives with no shame or guilt.

Behind the Mask By Michael Jackson King of Pop, God of Dance...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 6 Apr 2010 06:55:00 -0700

Nothing better than MJ's song Behind the Mask to express how i feel...
The Copyright of this song belongs to MJ only.....

All along I had to talk about it
But like a two edged sword
it cuts you and it stabs me
All along I knew you were a phony girl
You sit behind the mask
and you control your world
You sit around and I watch your face
I try to find the truth
But that's your hiding place
You say you love me but it's hard to see
Cos when he's in your arms
You're throwing rocks at me

Who do you love?
Is it me?
With you?
I don't know
Who do you love?
I don't want ya
If you can't answer
You know me
(There is nothing in your eyes)
There is nothing in your eyes
(But that's the way you cry)
But that's the way you cry girl (Cry girl)
(All is grand, all is bright)
All is grand, all is bright
(you're just studyng my mind)

I Walk around i'm suffering in my doom
When I come to you
Your sitting in your room
You sit around in the strangest place
So take off the mask
So I can see your face

Who do you love?
Is it me?
With You?
I don't know
Who do you love, babe?
I don't want ya
If you can't answer I know you

(Heaven must be wary)

Heaven must be wary
(Your smile is scary)
You got me scared, girl
(Insincere, empty tears)
Every Year, yours are good
(Where's your soul? Where'd it go?)
You got me scared, girl

(Heaven must be wary)
Heaven must be wary
(Your smile is scary)
You know where you've been
(Insincere, empty tears)
Every year, na na na
(Where's your soul? Where did it go?)

I Walk around i'm suffering in my doom
And when I come to you

Guess I dont need to say any more to all the fakers... do I ?...

The fear of falling in love with the wrong woman...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 5 Apr 2010 18:38:00 -0700

The fear of falling in love with the wrong woman is so great that

I don't want to be Rich, lest some parasite pretending to be a lover would want to love/marry me just for my money, property or wealth.
I don't want to be even the least Good Looking or dress handsomely, lest some slut pretending to be a lover would want to love/marry me just for my body.
I don't want to be Famous, lest some fame seeker pretending to be a lover would want to love/marry me just to be a part of the limelight.
I don't want to be Strong and Powerful, lest some user pretending to be a lover would want to love/marry me just to be taking advantage of my strength and power.
I don't want to be Loving and Caring, lest some exploiting bad woman pretending to be a lover would want to love/marry me just to exploit me.
So on and so forth...

In short I don't want to have or be anything that any wrong woman would want or would make her take interest in me...

BUT FOR THE RIGHT WOMAN, THE ONE WHO LOVES ME EVEN IF I AM POOR, UGLY, NOT FAMOUS, WEAK ETC. AND IS READY TO BE MY ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING - I WANT TO AND AM READY TO BE ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING - RICH, GOOD LOOKING, FAMOUS, STRONG AND POWERFUL, LOVING AND CARING AND EVERYTHING THAT I SHOULD. TO BE THE PERFECT MAN FOR HER...

Folly Of Falling In Love With Someone Who Is Not Your Soulmate...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 23 Mar 2010 12:25:00 -0700

The folly of falling in love with someone who is not your Soulmate can become a Life-Long punishment especially if you have issues that a Non-Soulmate can never understand... and can become a Torture if that Non-Soulmate is someone who cannot understand your problems and situations or worse who has no OR has a perverted concept of love...

Inability to identify My Real Soulmate combined with the desperation of finding My Soulmate is the true cause of this folly.

The feeling of being wasted...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 1 Dec 2009 11:38:00 -0800

Words cannot describe how I feel... Cheated, Played, Used & Wasted and god knows what not...

I hate to blame my past relationships and sins, but they unfortunately are, the main factors, responsible for what I have turned into. I remember how proud I was of my self for what I was, for everything that god had given me... But now look at me... I have become paranoid, suspicious, hyper-possessive, crazily repetitive, forgetful, broken down, and occasionally have a death wish (though am not suicidal or self destructive - thank god for the support systems I have in my life)...

What's wrong in expecting a 100% when you give a 100%???

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 2 Nov 2009 22:53:00 -0800

I never do anything to and for the person I love and who loves me, expecting anything in return.

But does that mean its Ok for that person to not give me a 100% in the same way, especially when she claims that she loves me as much as I do?.

When I Live for her, Sacrifice anything for her, Study for her, Work for her, Earn for her, Fight for her, Take shit for her, Eat for her, Dress for her, Change & Evolve for her etc. Doesn't it make sense that she too even without me expecting, feel and do the same for me?

Does it mean she does not not love me? or Does it mean she loves her self more? (Considering that I belive that she is honest about not having anyone else in her life even in the smallest way that could spell "violation".)

I guess the answer is pretty obvious even to a kid...

Giving my 100% and the consequences...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 00:54:00 -0700

Giving my 100% without doubting and questioning, almost instantly, from the moment its clear to me that I care and feel about someone, has always come naturally to me in friendship and in love...
But unfortunately, most of the time, I have always ended up getting a boot back in return...
Actually in my whole life, I have never done good to anyone expecting that, he/she should do good to me in return, BUT WHAT I NEVER EXPECT, IS FOR THEM IS TO DO BAD TO ME. (The logic is simple, if I cant do good to anyone, I wont do bad for anyone either. Likewise, if no one can do good to me, then I don't expect them to do anything bad, to me either.)
Well for those saying that, I am just making friends with the wrong people... Its true... But I don't know why, since the beginning, I have always had this belief that may be the person would see my honesty in the relationship and at least not hurt me in anyway in return... may even learn how to give their 100% too...
Its due to this blind instant trust, that I let my Guard down, exposing my weakness and letting them take advantage of it ruthlessly.
To be honest it never hurt much being ditched in Friendship as much as it Hurt being ditched in Love...
BUT TRUTH IS, I CANNOT CHANGE!!! AS I KNOW ITS NOT WRONG TO GIVE MY 100% NO MATTER WHAT... (so I guess I should be ready for more boots LOL!!)

The Passion To Be Perfect...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Thu, 1 Oct 2009 12:53:00 -0700

Striving to be a Perfect

Human Being
Lover/Husband
Family Member (Son & Brother)
Student
Teacher

has been my Passion ever since my enlightenment.

I know that trying to be Perfect may seem to be akin to, trying to be God. But I also know that even though achieving Perfection may be Impossible but achieving excellence isn't, provided that we aim to achieve nothing less than Perfection.

I know there is nothing wrong being a Perfectionist, so there is no reason for me to change...

I AM A THINKER... AND FOR ME, THINKING IS JUST THE BEGINNING...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 1 May 2007 20:06:00 -0700

FOREWORD:

LIFE TEACHES ALL: AND THE SMART ARE THOSE WHO LEARN NOT FROM THEIR EXPERIENCES & MISTAKES BUT FROM THE EXPERIENCES & MISTAKES OF OTHERS.... BUT THE ONES TRULY BLESSED ARE THE ONES WHO HAVE SOME ONE SPECIAL IN THEIR LIVES, TO BREAK DOWN THE MYSTERY OF LIFE, SOLVE IT FOR THEM AND ENLIGHTEN THEM ON THE TRUTH OF LIFE THUS SAVING THEM THE FRUSTRATION & TRAUMA OF DECIPHERING IT THEMSELVES...

UNFORTUNATELY LIKE ME, NOT EVERY ONE OF US IS LUCKY TO HAVE ONE...

WHAT IS MORE UNFORTUNATE IS THAT, I HAVE LEARNT ALL THAT I AM SHARING WITH YOU, ONLY AFTER INEVITABLY DESTROYING MY LIFE IRREVERSIBLY, AND IN THE PROCESS UNINTENTIONALLY AND HELPLESSLY HURTING MANY DEAR ONES, NOT BECAUSE I WANTED TO, BUT BECAUSE I NEVER UNDERSTOOD MY SELF OR MY WEAKNESS AND THE CONCEPTS/PRINCIPLES OF LIFE WHEN I SHOULD HAVE...

SO IF IT IS RIGHT TO LEARN SKILLS ONLY FROM PEOPLE/GUIDES/TEACHERS WHO REALLY KNOW THOSE SKILLS, THEN IT ONLY MAKES SENSE TO LEARN ALL WHAT ONE SHOULD NEVER DO, FROM THE VERY PEOPLE/SINNERS LIKE ME WHO HAVE DONE WRONG/SINNED IN THEIR LIFE AND ARE REGRETTING TODAY!!!

ABOUT ME:
It is afters years of continuous Observation, Reflection, Self-Study, and Learning from almost any and everything in my life (and the lives of others around me) that form the basis of all my philosophy, principles and concepts, which have successfully molded me into the person I am.

I am an Open Minded person, BUT my open mindedness is controlled by what I call "Protective Thinking" so most people misunderstand me to be Narrow Minded

Just for example:
I don't like Judging people but am forced to do so (using my "Gut Instincts" and mistakes of my past) many times while Interacting with New People as I have to make quick decisions about how to deal with them, when there is no other way of understanding their Intentions (After all we are not in the garden of Eden, are we?).

Even though I Have My Own Beliefs:
I respect all Religions as long as they don't preach anything that destroys the balance of life.

Even though I was Born In a country called XYZ:
I respect all People born in any part of this earth as long as they are Good Human Beings.

I believe every person has the right to do what ever he wants as long as his actions DON'T provoke or hurt others.

Even though I am straight and puke my guts out when Homosexuals Hit on me:
I support Homosexuals and them getting married, as long as they don't start hitting on straight Heterosexuals and start making people feel Homo Phobic.

Even though I don't take the services of Prostitutes:
I support legalization of Prostitution but Not when the woman is tricked/brainwashed/forced into the trade.

Even though I don't like to ever be in a Live-In Relationship:
I support those in Live-In Relationships but only as long as both the Individuals Understand & Respect Each other and their relationship does not affect their present or future in a very disastrous way.

Even though I have been a Soulmate Believer and Monogamous in my beliefs from my Core, I Do Know situations for me being Polygamous, but that is only if I am NOT IN True Soulmate Love with anyone:
I support Polygamy & Polyandry provided It Is Not Based on Lust or other carnal fantasies and is rather based on the Concept of Looking after and Caring for the ones in need of Love(Affection) Protection and Survival and provided each and every one in the relationship is totally happy about being in such a complex marriage. They must love, and respect each other equally, and should be committed towards each other and love to be in that relationship/marriage without selfishness, jealousy or exploitation.

I know like me every one has their share of weakness and short comings... But I hate people who have no principles or morals in their lives (In spite of me having my own weakness and short comings I still do have quite a few principles and morals that I try never to violate) and I hate those people even more when they have no guilt of any kind for all the wrong things they do in their lives, they become even more evil when they make mistakes and don't have the humility to accept it and humbly accept all consequences of their evil actions and evil deeds and worst is when they don't have any desire to be good human beings.

I hate jealous and competitive people who cant see anyone else better than them and who's only goal in life is to prove that they are superior than everyone else. It is because of these kind of people that there is so much unrest and hatred in the world.

I hate people who pretend, fake and try to deceive themselves and others by trying to be something they are not and cannot ever be - basically people who have no self respect and suffer from inferiority complexes -

For Example:
      * Wannabe men and women who fake foreign accents (mostly American/European) when they naturally don't have one.
      * Men & Women who use fairness creams because they are dark skinned.
      * Men & Women who use makeup and other accessories, to hide all the flaws and try to look like something they are not.
      * Men & Women who fake their height by wearing high heels as they feel they are shorter than others.
      * Men who use penile implants and pad their underwear & Women who use breast / butt implants or wear padded bras to fake and hide their real self as they feel ashamed of what they naturally have been blessed with.

I BELIEVE THAT
* PEOPLE SHOULD DRESS TO LOOK LIKE HUMAN BEINGS, WHO UNLIKE ANIMALS ARE MORE THAN JUST A BODY. SO ONE MUST ALWAYS DRESS IN A WAY THAT IS APPROPRIATE, DIGNIFIED, MODEST AND THAT MATCHES WITH THE BEAUTY AND PURITY OF ONE'S SOUL. IN PUBLIC ONE SHOULD NEVER DRESS SEXY OR IN ANYWAY THAT GETS ANY KIND OF ATTENTION TOWARDS THEIR BODY OR BODY PARTS.

I hate people who are attention seekers and who's entire life is spent trying to gain the attention of others in order to feel special/important etc. These people have no self support system and need the constant reassurance of others to realize their worth.
To get attention they - Dress suggestively, Talk Loudly, become Drama Queens, Show off etc.

I don't Like Show Offs and I am sure no sane person would even like one (these people believe that "If you have it Show it" - Instead of being Humble and Respectful)

Nobody likes a Man who tries to run down others by showing of his power or wealth (Displaying his Rolex Watch, Money, Bragging about his Job and Bank Balance) or Strength

Neither do people like a woman showing of her Diamond Ring or Necklace, Bragging about the Expensive Gifts her Boyfriend gives her and this and that...

Well there is one exception when most people(especially men) like Show Offs, and that is in the case of FEMALES(Who are generally Characterless or Just Plain Dumb because their Mama Never taught them how to dress) Who enjoy showing off their sexuality and the sexiness of their bodies(that is abundantly present in the shapes and curves of their body parts). They do this by wearing Skimpy/Cleavage & Butt Crack Displaying/Excessive Skin Showing/Revealing/Transparent/Close Fitting or Figure Hugging clothes etc. They have no concept of Modesty, and will go to any extent to gain attention from people especially the opposite sex. They are similar to Bitches in Heat that deliberately turn their hinds around, pout their butts out and move their tails to the side to show their all, while at the same time look at the Dogs to see if they are giving them any attention and understanding their obvious In-tensions. Interestingly bitches get in heat once or twice in a year while Homo Sapien Females Get into heat every month and end up sending invitations all through out the year. Virgin Bitches have no Idea of the effect of hormones in them why they are doing what they are doing, BUT Homo Sapien Females know everything Yet they choose to behave worse than innocent, helpless Animals.

Showing off is also a Serious Security Risk to the people showing off, imagine a person counting huge dollar bills in public. In fact that is exactly what a Thug would be waiting for, Likewise a woman showing of her body/sexual assets is inviting more than usual Sexual Attention that she may not be able to handle - and may be cheated into getting into bed in the pretext of Love and Marriage or worse she may even get Molested or Raped. (Also Read Women their mindsets and how they get trapped, cheated, hurt because of it...)

Well I am not talking about stray Incidents when even Innocent Humble people fall prey to the Dangerous People (incidents when decently dressed women or when children getting raped.) Its like saying that just because one car jumped over to the Footpath and ran over a Pedestrian that it is totally useless to walk on the Footpath and instead walk on the road. If it was so then all banks would stop investing millions of dollars in security systems and guards cause even today numerous banks with the best security systems and guards get robbed in spite of all the protection and precautions taken by them.

I am Honest but with My Soulmate and only those who are honest to me and to Those who truly love understand and respect me. (Being Honest to everyone is Dangerous Nowadays)

I Like to be Friends with only those who truly need me and have no one else.... For those who have plenty of Options and people around them - I am sure they will not need me, as they already have too many people to look after them, My presence or absence will not make a difference in their life.

I am just a normal guy who believes in "Live and let Live" and who believes in Protective Thinking for the People he loves and cares.

I dont believe in any form of lies in any kind of relationship (Love, Friendship etc.) as it gets no one anywhere and causes more pain and hate. "A relationship that starts with a lie dies because a lie"

So neither do I like Males telling stories just to get Women in bed neither do I like Females faking to get Men to do their work or to be around guys for their Sexual Needs, Money, Power, or Fame....

With respect to matters of my heart:
I don't mind women who have had a Physical Relationship in their past (Be it Sincere Love making with a Lover Or just plain lustful Sex with a man - but who was not a slut) and as long as the relationship were in was based on mutual respect for each other and as long as the memories of that past relationship/s or the person/people in that relationship do not interfere with the present and the future of my relationship with her.

I can even fall in love even with a Prostitute (who became one because of circumstances or a mistake and is willing from the core of her soul to correct it without having to think twice and without me having to tell her to do so) as long as she is a good Human deep inside and truly loves me.

My concept of love: I BELIEVE IN SOULMATE LOVE...