So we wished to have another December… especially Christmas. New Year’s too, but more Christmas. Empty… I know what the meaning of it should have been but I got carried away by my thoughts and things “to do” or “to buy”. And? That was it…

So we wished to dream bigger… especially in the December for the new year to come. I know what I should change and I have an idea for new dreams that should help me aim really high… But I got shut down, by myself mostly… I’m tired of blaming others even when they’re at fault. And? That was it…

So we wished to be happy… especially this season… just so we can get by another year, or half of it, or maybe 5, 4, 3, 2 or 1 month of it…. so it would be easier. And I thought that feeding some hungry homeless people would do that (make me happy). And I’ve stopped myself. I realized that I would be a hypocrite to do it now when the whole year I’ve ignored them;  just so I can feel better this Christmas? Let it burn in my conscience, let it rise a fire in me for those who need the little help I can offer. And? That was it…

Maybe the whiteness of snow reminded me of purity; maybe Christmas reminded me about Salvation; maybe my dreams reminded me of my potential; maybe my desire for happiness reminded me of God. But I am still Robert… still trying to change…

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year… to YOU and ME!

Robert Voica

Well, it is against the rule to write at this hour; no matter what you write, from what I’ve been told so far, you’re supposed to write in the morning when your brain is rested and you’ve pondered your thoughts, somehow over the night; like the cells are happy and popping in the morning…

And why do I try to articulate something in writing (if that’s possible) this late with such a tired brain? It is because I want to share with you my simple idea:

//I don’t have it all figured out//

In the most precious book to my soul, my spring of life and wisdom, the Bible, in the book of James, chapter 5 talks about the importance of confession:

“Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.” (James 5:16).

I am at a point in my life when I seem to not understand a lot of things that are going on and I feel it’s all slipping through my fingers, like sand does when you reach a wonderful place called “beach”. But I have faith that it will catch a shape as the journey advances and… I seem to have the guts to even enjoy it, starting right now. Again.

After all, it’s life. It’s about people. It’s about the imperfect and I’m part of it. I’m amazed by what it means and takes to be human!

Robert Voica

Today something reminded me of you. And I was just amazed. I forgot we’re neighbors. And best friends. And you are the one that always invested in me. I tried to do that to others just so I can honor you but it didn’t work, not even close. And yet, you’re there. Whenever I turn. Whenever I stop. Whenever I realize. Don’t you ever get tired? It’s Fall and leaves are coloring my street and it’s just great. Sometimes I want to feel lonely but I can’t because you are my fuzzy warm flicker of fire that keeps me going. I can’t get rid of you and I don’t want to. But I still don’t understand you. Neither your unconditional friendship. Neither your love. I know about you but not enough of you. And I’m so imperfect. And you don’t even mind when I share my heart with someone else than you. On the contrary, you smile! Thank you! I’m lucky…

Why? Why are you here even as I’m writing this? I am so selfish that I even forgot your name, and I adressed you… but all the way it was… You!

Robert Voica

Dedicated to The Author… God of Israel

Robert Voica

I’m back. Back on. Back in the City. I’m staring at an old building and the cars…keep going. They carry people. Just like me…and you. It’s late and it’s night. Who cares? I’m back. I really missed writing and I feel my blog is excited to see me back. The ones that read are people and they’re subjective, you are too. So am I! …and it’s a great feeling ’cause being perfect is boring.

Looking across the street at the same old building, I just realized I was here most of this summer, and yet I was off from my routine of just…thinking, feeling, breathing, living and…writing. But now, right before fall hits my city… I’m glad to be back.

Getting back at observing people. I’m gonna start with the ones right next to me. Good night! …or good time.

The same,

Robert Voica

In September I will come back with a new format, new ideas, new insights and more… Until then, have a great rest of the Summer!

And don’t forget… IT’S ABOUT PEOPLE!

Robert Voica

A few days ago there was this celebration that most of the people enjoy: Mother’s day. I said most because there is always someone left out. I was just taking a walk and my eyes stumbled upon something. I’d rather say somebody. His name is B.J. There was a show put together and he was running the lights show. I’ve known him for a while. He’s always there doing the same thing. But today… He was projecting for the Mother’s day show. He never knew his mom. She never cared and he never knew he was supposed to feel hurt. But I could see it today; his eyes… I saw pain!

Last night I’ve watched for the 3rd time ‘Hotel Rwanda’. More than 1 million corpses left behind. And it wasn’t just a movie, it really happened in 1994. People decided to kill people. It’s still around. There is murder at all levels, from the smallest decision that you and I make all the way to genocides. There is something that we can do: stop making wrong and selfish decisions. I’ll be honest… It’s hard. Not impossible.

B.J. and people that died in the genocide. Totally different and still so hurt. How do you deal with that?

// I think if people see this footage, they’ll say Oh, my God, that’s horrible. And then they’ll go on eating their dinners. //

Hotel Rwanda, Jack, the Journalist: [after Paul
thanks him for shooting footage of the genocide]

And I wonder… Letting people die is way different than killing them?

Robert Voica

‘Apple has announced their new gadget: the iWish. You name it and it will bring it to you’

What if that was true? Would you buy it? ‘Heck yeah’ is already in the air… I can feel it! I wouldn’t buy it! Not because I’m a hypocrite that’s trying to be special, but because it’d eliminate the things that keep my adrenaline pumped up: the unknown and the wait.

Imagine a life without the unknown: tomorrow morning you wake up, right by your bed, on the nighstand, next to your alarmclock there is a notebook and you rush to grab it. When you open it you realize that it describes your life; not what it was or used to be, not what it is today, but what would happen starting tomorrow. The last page…it’s my final one. It would be so shocking and intense at first but before I’ll notice it will only be boring.

But what if the iWish would allow you to even jump to a certain day in the future? By one touch… Would you want to live it twice? Why? Isn’t it enough to mess it up once?

Even more… Imagine everybody would have access to iWish and the ability to buy it.

Wishes? I have them too. They’ve been around ever since Adam and Eve; that’s not the problem. But it’s more to that…

iWish I provoked a deep peace around me…
iWish I had a genuine love for the people…
iWish I was able to give out my best performance in the show of the life

iWish there will be no iWish.

iWish…these are my requests. Done. Exit. Shutdown.

Robert

So how did I get to this conclusion? Did I make this up? The answer lies in the first paragraph: the way I was created; I used my eyes to observe people, actions and reactions. It’s like a filter for the brain. Everything we see gets sent to the brain that coordinates our thoughts and commands us how to react to the external stimuli. This is not an anatomy lesson, not at all. It is just an observation and a call to action. Here’s why:

Everyday I see people that judge other people. I wanted to start this article by quoting other bloggers that accuse ‘the system’ and ‘the society’ that they live in. Not to mention the city. I would’ve been just the same. There is a big idea that God wants the humanity to understand (that includes me as well) but we seem to just not get it or maybe we don’t want to: IF YOU SEE A NEED, YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE TO DO SOMETHING. I’ve been told so many times ‘Robert, you can’t save them all’. That is very true. But how about ‘saving as many as I can’ ? I will always mention the astonishing example of Oskar Schindler that in the end starts crying because his expensive suit and car could’ve saved a few more jews. What a man! He understood the human need of existence and the concept of serving. But there are some people that are already acting like leaders. Some of them have gotten to the ‘breaking point’. It’s hard, really hard. Still, I have good news: whatever doesn’t kill us makes us stronger. I’ve heard a great example called ‘expanding your canvas’. Life and humanity are like a blank canvas that waits for the paint to reach it. For you, if you are at the stretch point…keep expanding! So what’s my whole point with this?

Take responsability! Be a leader! Do you think that not everybody is meant to be a leader? Yes we are, we all are! It’s only the scale that differs. If you’re not called to be a manager over 10,000 people, I’m sure you could manage your own drawer of folders. The biggest secret behind the concept of leader is responsability that you take. That teaches you how to do your job well, in any field of your life. ‘I already know that Robert’. Do you? Do you act like that? If you do, take the next step a leader does: invest in others! But start small, be responsible and faithful in little things and with time…you’ll be given a whole lot more.

If you read this article you’ve already used your sight to send information to your brain about me and that made you understand to some extent who I am. Because of that I have the guts to already call you my friend, not for what you do, but for what you are. Therefore I want to end by saying this:

I really believe in YOU! Take courage and be a LEADER in everything that you do!

Robert

//9 I want you to be smart in the same way—but for what is right—using every adversity to stimulate you to creative survival, to concentrate your attention on the bare essentials, so you’ll live, really live, and not complacently just get by on good behavior. ”God Sees Behind Appearances 10 Jesus went on to make these comments:If you’re honest in small things,you’ll be honest in big things; 11 If you’re a crook in small things,you’ll be a crook in big things. 12 If you’re not honest in small jobs,who will put you in charge of the store? // [Jesus Christ, The Message, Book of Luke, Ch 16]

Partea cea mai frumoasa din toata povestea aceasta e ca…e cat se poate de adevarata! …si asta ma face sa zambesc, sa cred, sa visez, sa…traiesc ca o stea!

Robert

[Dedicat protagonistei povestii de mai sus cu mentiunea...'A fost doar un capitol, doar o stea; urmeaza urmatoarele']