Romantic Drawing Artist

My death

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 02:57:00 +0000

leaning against the wall staring darkness in the face,
thinking of everyone i've lost but all that i've embraced,
with wrists bloody and hurting in pain,
I scream in silence the lords name in vain,
he doesn't answer me cause nothing comes out,
no matter how loud I scream or shout,
as I sit there in shame I think about the family I wish I had,
remembering those days wanting to know my dad,
what must I do to escape this nightmare,
I close my eyes and I can hear my lungs fill with air,
I tell myself this is the end my death,
but as I start to fade away I start to think twice but it's too late I just took my last breathe

In Misery

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Tue, 12 Aug 2008 10:03:00 +0000

I try to tell myself your gone
but your words still linger me
because you left I live my life alone
you can't move on how do I set you free
trapped in these enclosed walls I scream but no one hears
I wonder the empty halls
filled with all these dark fears
I see my breathe it's so cold i'm shivering with emptyness can't you tell
your words my heart can't hold
living life without you is hell

I stupid little crush on this boy

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Tue, 12 Aug 2008 10:02:00 +0000

ugh.
I am not obssessed
I'm just not gonna give it a rest
fuck what you say
Maybe without you it would make my day
why would you deny my face
I tingle with your every embrace
i'm done cashing you
I can't wait til you understand it could be just us two
I thought I meant so much more
who cares anymore go fuck some whores.....

Poem

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 00:09:00 +0000

Forced to think that hell is a place called home,
life's like a sticky melted ice cream cone,
having sex and doing drugs to get away from the pain,
it only cause more stress in this game,
never finding a way out of these enclosed walls in my dream,
no one notices me I'm out of breathe and can't scream

Flyleaf

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sun, 22 Jun 2008 18:37:00 +0000

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noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sun, 22 Jun 2008 00:54:00 +0000

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Fighting

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 16:42:00 +0000

Listening to people fight scares me. I cannot stand the hot raging attitudes and the loud noises. I think there is always a better solution than fighting. I know I can sometimes get out of hand as well. and it is natural to get angry. But sometimes your just better off telling the other person your right and move on. You don't live to argue. Think about others around you take the fall and be the bigger man for the benefit of other's.

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noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Wed, 28 May 2008 02:48:00 +0000

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Poem

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sat, 24 May 2008 03:28:00 +0000

Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can't control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,
Right from the very start.

Poem

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sat, 24 May 2008 03:28:00 +0000

I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and blue.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.

I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there.

I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine.

Diary...

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sat, 24 May 2008 03:21:00 +0000

Today,
Was just one of those days you don't want to talk about. That went completely horrible but you ended up having a great time with someone you love at the end of the night. I have made plenty of mistakes today, but I have also learned that yelling doesn't get you anywhere, and if your frustrated just say so you'll never know how much the other person will understand. A calm voice will scare away wrath.

Love

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sun, 18 May 2008 02:54:00 +0000

Family,
definition: two or more people living under one roof. Me and my family have ups and downs. But I take everything they say with respect. They give me the most and best advice. I know we don't always get along but I know things happen for a reason and they love me. I love every minute I get with my family. I know they won't always be here with me so I try to spend as much time with them as possible. One day I'll wake up and the ones I loved the most could have gone to heaven. So next time you have a hard time with your family or spouse make up and live your life with them like there's no tomorrow. I have learned the hard way. If only you could listen to me and take my advice. But life is a little more complicated than that.

Poem

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Fri, 16 May 2008 02:47:00 +0000

Everyday I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders,
me and my family get further not closer,
what am I do to,
with a family like you,
I beg the lord like I'm gasping for my last breathe,
maybe it's his way of giving me a test,
because I feel I have failed I sit in my room waiting for sanity,
the memories of my past flash through my head so quickly,
I watch the world around me play like a movie,
the only problem is it's moving so slowly.

Poem

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Fri, 16 May 2008 02:42:00 +0000

Everyday in life we face a war,
not knowing the consequences but still wanting more,
people will die day after day,
until no one is left cause their all blown way,
everyone's doing drugs and pullin out guns,
soon this world won't be safe for our sons,
all these people having altercations,
when the time comes we won't be able to face them,
father send us some guidance from above,
people need to learn to love,
when will all this quit?

Love Poem

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sun, 27 Apr 2008 20:02:00 +0000

After all this I am confused,
I am still not sure how to feel about you,
I still don't know how you ever felt about me,
I don't know if you cried over me like I cried over you,
the only thing I am certain of is,
I will never find another you,
missing you isn't the hard part,
it is knowing that I once had you
that breaks my heart.

Leona Lewis song Remix

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 21:30:00 +0000

closed off from love I didn't need the pain,
once or twice was enough but i'm done playing games,
time starts to pass before you know it your frozen,
something happened for the first time with you,
when I saw you me heart melted to the ground I found something true,
and everyone's looking around like i'm going crazy,
but I don't care what they say i'm in love with you,
they try to pull me away but they don't know the truth,
my hearts ripped like the vein I keep cutting,
you cut me open and I keep bleeding,
I try not to hear but they talk so loud,
peircing my ears trying to fill me without,
yet I know the goal is to keep me from falling for your face,
but nothings greater than the rush that comes with your embrace,
in this world you are everyone around me,
fixing to go crazy,
but I don't care what they say I'm in love with you,
they try to pull me away but they don't know the truth,
my hearts ripped like the vein I keep cutting,
you blame it all on me i'm still bleeding,
i'll be wearing these clothes for everyone to see,
I don't care what they say I'm in love with you,
they try to pull me away but they don't know the truth.

The End

Deceiving me

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sun, 30 Mar 2008 23:13:00 +0000

When I said I loved you,
It was a lie.
Lust is what
I felt inside.
I'm still wondering
what love is,
This couldn't have been it,
it wasn't all bliss.
We definitely wouldn't
be good together;
The two of us mixing
was like bad weather.
You were snow,
and I was the sun.
The task of staying together
could never be done.
If I say this over and over,
maybe I'll believe.
I'll get out of this okay,
if I can deceive me.

Love Poem

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 23:29:00 +0000

You ask what is love?
To some love is hurtful,
to others love is cheerful,
some say love is love,
some think love is like a dove,
is beautiful and caring,
some say love is just daring,
love is also like a book,
you can't judge by it's look.
Love is just there,
I think it shows how you care,
it's not there to stare,
love is incredible although it's no edible,
love is what most want they never know it will haunt,
what happens when it's over,
does your heart split in three like a clover,
next time you ask yourself what is love?
Will you think it 's like a glove ready to pull your heart out,
it will make you pout,
love is something hiding it's waiting to attack,
so you better have a comeback.
What is love?
You tell me......

Finding the right words...

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 23:16:00 +0000

Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,
Do you not hear my heartfelt cries?

Below the branches, here about,
Do you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do you hear my woeful screams?

Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do you not see my hearts a'skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do you feel my jagged scars?

Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.

It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It's drifting o're the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.

It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It's lost among the stars this night,
Far too much to ease my quiet fright.

No gentle winds, seek my heart,
For simply ... it has torn apart

life as it is

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 23:02:00 +0000

This was going to be a positive note but I decided to let you understand a few things about myself. I am 14 have had a lot of problems and I am a strong survivor of a few things that 1 out of every four girls go through during their childhood or even adult hood. I am not going to explain myself and tell you what those problems were but I will tell you it was tough, and I am very proud of myself for growing immune d, and solving my problems before they got out of control. I have learned new coping mechanism and ways of living to grow stronger from what I've been through. Rather than live in self pitty and be depressed because of it. I am tired of people telling me they can't do anything about it. but if you honestly set your mind to what you are going through and understand you can have a better healthier life than you can do it. All it takes is a few patients and faith in yourself. If you can't forgive yourself than you can't forgive anyone else. Everything is inside you. Be what you want to be with great pride and don't ever say NEVER!

Life

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sun, 16 Sep 2007 15:48:00 +0000

Life... what is life and WHY do we only have one? I am a christian but at times I doubt myself and the person who put us on this earth. Or HOW we got here. for ONCE I want a straight honest answer. Where did we come from... primates? or a so called god?, Why is it that earth is SO perfectly made down to the LAST blade of grass to where we are able to survive. Life... makes NO sense but we deal with it everyday. If we know the consequences of something why do we still do it?...There are SO many questions that even the smartest sientists can't answer... but will they go unanswered for ever?... or will one day someone find the truth. No one really knows. I guess we will just have to deal with life until that someday comes.

Tough Love

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Fri, 24 Aug 2007 00:16:00 +0000

The people in our lives that we live with everyday have some type of emotion or feeling for us. Most of our family loves us but do you EVER realize how HARD on you they are? Well the ONLY explanation I can come up with is.. it's TOUGH LOVE! These people love you but discipline and tell when your doing things wrong so that you'll learn and UNDERSTAND! they ARE NOT doing it purposely to make you mad or annoyed unless it's your little 8 year old brother lol... =D Tough LOVE is an unhappy, unpleasant thing.. but will help you through your days and help you UNDERSTAND! and if it's family doing this to you more than likely you'll LEARN! lol...

Questions:

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sun, 12 Aug 2007 02:19:00 +0000

What is sadness. We know it's an emotion but why? do we get sad. and why does it stay with us..? here's ANOTHER question: I myself believe in god. But what made this world why is EVERYTHING like so perfectly planned to where we have just ENOUGH oxygen and HOW the water cycles move and EVERYTHING is SO perfectly made to where we are ABLE to live and survive?. And everyone KNOWs we have mass but what if there WASN'T gravity.. I mean I know we would float around but what about the people who are standing right side up since we have weight would we float away and way NOTHING or still be standing.. Also... what's out side of the universe are there ACTUALLY other life forms out there? And one LAST thing... If we had no gravity and all how would we know when the world was right side up if there's no top and bottom to our universe or galaxy?

Emotions

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sun, 12 Aug 2007 01:35:00 +0000

Many people tell you NOT to morne over things and to face your fears but what they don't UNDERSTAND is crying IS A WAY of facing them and coping with them... you are expressing your feelings and emotions... Crying shows you have feeling or a HEART for that someone OR something.. It shows you CARED.. and miss it. Love is a behavior not an emotion it's something you have EVERYDAY for that special someone not ONLY on days when your day is going well.

Myspace

noreply@blogger.com (BlackenedHeart88) — Sat, 11 Aug 2007 04:03:00 +0000

Teenagers have a myspace cause they are bored. More than HALF of us are on there to see our friends and chat NOT meet random people online. We know right from wrong. and Myspace should NOT be all over the news.. There might be people getting rapped and stuff on there but that's because they GIVE OUT their personal info NOT because of myspace itself.. Tom made this site so people could have fun not get killed or for ANYONE to fight over it. Parents OVER REACT when.. Kids FINALLY get a myspace. and we WOULDN'T have to go behind our parents backs to get one if they would JUST TRSUT US!.I KNOW this sounds like a bunch of BS.. but it's TRUE!. Parents should learn to trust us more and KNOW we would do the right things and MAKE the right choices.. Myspace is sorta JUST AN EXCUSE for them to use against us kids and teenagers when they have parents have their OWN problems they can't figure out and they wanna yell and raise hell... Well that's their way of using it against us... and YES I agree it's NOT fair but what can we say we HAVE to listen to you guys so... It's off to boarding school and reading books :(