I smile, I rant, I write because.

2012-01-16T11:26:00.000-08:00

Ortigas is Boring me Tonight

2012-01-16T07:50:00.000-08:00

See what it does?

Fluish and the Long Weekend

2012-01-15T07:15:00.000-08:00

Long Weekend. Long Rest

Next week we shall marathon it. Sundays and Saturdays of work hello! :)

2011-12-27T17:46:00.000-08:00

THE FIRST VIEW OF BORACAY

2011-12-27T17:44:00.000-08:00

Not much to see, drank my first two beers ate my fish steak and went to sleep.

Sky is the Limit!

2011-12-27T17:42:00.000-08:00

The Clouds are my friends in this trip. Their cottony view seem soothing in the eye!

Ready to take off!

2011-12-27T17:40:00.001-08:00

Took my Photo while I was bored from traffic in Resorts World. Air Sea Land traffic is Massive this season. Where do all these cars come from???

Atlas Shrugged

2011-12-22T15:39:00.000-08:00

Damn, I have not read Atlas Shrugged for quite sometime.

The first time I did, It was in my high school years. Shopped a book out of Booksale along with that Shakespeare Collection all in one book I have always been raving about to my friends of getting. Back in Highschool I didn't go much because I was busy finding my niche out of the boring, but that is a story to tell later on.

But Atlas Shrugged changed me, all of a sudden back in high school I have always wished I can be Dagny Taggart, run an empire or at least be a part of it the daring and the bold, no man fazes you , but you bend over to the right ones, the smart watchful same like mind you can "mind fuck" with. (So far, I found one, but John Galt got him.)

You just do the deed and walk by it to greatness and death.

The right kind of ego. I even wrote one time. I will be Dagny Taggart. read the book 5 times since.

Until this year they made a movie, failures gone by, stagnation and all I went through a different path from what i once wrote.

Dagny Taggart shocked me. I all of a sudden realized, what was making me feel better was because I was going the way I oct wrote, I was living the dream that sparked my interest all along. I intend to stay the route for as long as I can knowing, not everything is right.

Wow.

Thoughts

2011-12-22T15:23:00.000-08:00

The vast majority of the study of space and ocean have always fascinated me. It bores me to see water space with an Island close by.

I always loved and was thrilled of infinite possibilities, limitations such as not knowing how to swim, not knowing how to drive, shortage or lack of money are the ones I am set to conquer during my lifetime. By conquering this, I consider myself whole.

When people around me ask why I am not married, why I don't have kids, the reason is, those are not the dreams I dreamt In my younger years. If you were a fan of "The Secret" those are not the things I wrote in my book.

What sparked a light in my tiny head and made me giddy are stuff not normal girls are accustomed with. I always liked the thrill of making things and shocking people without saying a word. I loved the thrill of people not seeing it coming. The trouble of whats taking things so long is when the times that I cared what people will say. The more I thought of that, the lesser I become great.

I was not just born that way.

Thankfulness, That's whats UP

2011-12-22T15:15:00.000-08:00

Looking forward to my family being back here by next year from their failed retirement. Too much rain in the south lately.

Looking forward to a mind-blowing year work wise, new experiences, new opportunities, new growth, new blossoming future. I hate being in Plateau. I am very thankful for this current phase in my life where I am given enough liberty to control my growth the way I want too. Thankful for the experiences that brought me to this point, good or bad. I had no regrets, but nothing to come back to because if I did, I would end up S.T.U.C.K. I hate that word. I am thankful I have come to love the hate on it.

I hate on the right things, Stop hating people, seen too much fruit f bitterness going on, I lived on that majority of my life.

Never look Back, just Move forward.

I am moving on. I am in the right opportunities at the right time.

I have only God to thank for everything. He deserves all the glory, no man no woman no material thing.

I am very thankful He made me see that on his own time.

xoxo

I'm Going to miss this popper during my vacation..

2011-12-21T21:52:00.001-08:00

Best Picture i took that describes my future

2011-12-11T19:07:00.000-08:00

Hi blog, here I am again

2011-12-11T18:50:00.001-08:00

I rarely update this blog now because I am busy with work life and it does to concern me channeling to my emotional side. I am surrounded with testosterone that sometimes, giving in to a little emotional girly route can derail me, because as I have faced it, I am a woman. I have always reminded myself to stick to the goal. My only goal in life is to not get fucked over and as it has been progressing, money came along the way which I am grateful for. There are better goals than making money and my mentor was indeed right, your personal growth follows income. I can say Im starting to see that due to what has been happening to his own life that I do not doubt in my mind it can happen to me. I just follow his lead. It's simply put, Don't get fucked over as I see it.

What do I want? As far as I know, I am pursuing something that I am not able to define. It is as if it's a moment to moment thing. It come that day as a challenge and I just refuse to accept defeat and it has been pretty much satisfying. I stumble upon some emotional shit that I am able to recover faster now from than before. I have grown to know that our minds are very powerful ore than we ever think of.

What do I want for this year, I want to get head cleared and really focus on my health. I have not been very watchful lately. There are a lot of limitations I have not crossed over yet. Because there is still that huge emotional chunk part of me that wants to get delayed food has provided enough stuffing to not get me derailed. I am seeing patterns that sabotage my success'. I guess my next goal is not to sabotage myself.

That's why this next Hong kong trip is going to be wonderful. It is a time for long walks and assessment. Most of these alone trips give me perspective and epiphany comes my way. The outcome becomes fabulously fruitful after. It excites me treading alone because it boosts my confidence in making personal decisions that need no approval of others, Hong kong is perfect because you walk long walks and able to do a gazillion of things.

Till then I shall document and update.

xoxo

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2011-10-26T15:10:00.003-07:00

Ask me anything http://www.formspring.me/theremymarie

What was the happiest moment in your life?

2011-10-26T15:10:00.001-07:00

Im thankful for everything but It hasn't come yet.

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What's the best place near you to get a pizza?

2011-10-26T15:08:00.005-07:00

YELLOW CAB PIZZA FTW!

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If you could be on the cover of any magazine, which would you choose?

2011-10-26T15:08:00.003-07:00

Fortune Magazine

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What's your favorite spicy food?

2011-10-26T15:08:00.001-07:00

Bicol Express

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How Am I, Really

2011-10-18T21:39:00.001-07:00

How am I really

I get out of the house to work so I can escape from that fact that I really don't have a home. I have no mother, I have no father I have no sisters or brothers. I am attached to a name that I don't really share ideals with but I do know at the end of the day when I die that group shall claim everything I have to leave behind and that's a part of that whole shenanigan of life.

I have no emotional support other than God. My affection support is my dog.

Some people call it sad, I have to convince my self that it's not and that I can call it life.

Because Life is tough.

And So should I be.

I can't be blown by the wind every single time though I look like I can be, I have to fake my way through it to survive in this crazy world sometimes.
People read me the way they want to, I know who I am.

In some standard of living, I may be crazy, I maybe different, I maybe sad because I don't have anything that they think they have.

Still I wake up everyday convincing myself I am not but rather

Go with The truth that I am a person that doesn't bend over the world and if I do I'm only human and it's ok.

I am very thankful to God, he gave me a second chance. He gave me what I asked for.

I believe that in the midst of everything else, he will make a way for something some people in my favor.

I trust his plan for me wherever he wants to take me.

I am going somewhere only he knows, he is hooking me up with some person or people he only knows who. He will give me anything I can bear. He will teach me the lessons he want to teach.

I am my own cheer team.
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Desiderata

2011-10-11T04:19:00.000-07:00

Desiderata

Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Desiderata is Latin for "Things to be Desired."

2011-10-11T04:18:00.001-07:00

2011-07-25T20:55:00.001-07:00

It is nice to be blogging from my cellphone.

I never knew what busy meant not until this week happened.

I'd rather be busy than stop and dwell about my pasts and my life my plans etc. Because I do know my issues and the only people who try hard to say they are well meaning people who want to help you out with your issues and go talk to you and try to fix your life are the very people who are afraid to face their own set of self trouble, you are a bad friend if you let them go on and let them fix your life.

Because even if it is true that No Man is an Island, the beauty of realization is a thing that happens when some mysterious moment and ephiphany comes, a phase that only you and God knows how did or will happen. The human physical hand cannot touch a soul, only God or the devil has a hold on that thang! Thus the no man is an island thing is a co beneficial relationship, helping each other physically, and the only thing another person besides you can contribute is to be physically there!
So any bullshit that binds and hooks you that makes you feel like you cannot live without them is another persons control.

Being physically there is a day to day choice and is not based on emotions.

These are notes to myself.

Xoxo
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It's Monday.

2011-07-18T01:40:00.001-07:00

Monday seem to be slow today. Just took a Mr.Bigshot Lemonshot to speed it up a little.

For some reason, I hate the weekend specially the times where there is nothing to do but I know it is made for rest so I cruise along and rest a little.

I rest more to the fact that I am really thankful to God for whatever is happening in my life right now. Really thankful for all the changes and the pacing of every happening, how God is keeping me and the rest of us grounded in all these changes of routine and success that's about to come, I just know we're on our way.

We're getting solid more than ever. God is responsible for making things happen the way it is. We only are instruments to making things happen, he already opened these doors long ago for us to take, and the choices each individual make takes us a step closer to the next level.

The more we get up in every fall the better we face the next challenges that come.

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My own "Men Personal Checklist".

2011-07-15T14:45:00.001-07:00

Never revisit old acquaintances and "THE" possibility of getting together. You failed on this numerous times.

If you want to continue to live until at least 70, never get hooked up on facebook outside the maximum "sixth degree" people get killed from the thrill of it.

If. THE guy says these, or have these, don't think twice and just settle for friendship, that's it:

- says "I'm not going to bring my car ok? When they don't have one or if they have one, who cares, yeah?"

-if he says he is a broker

-if he is very very nice.

-if he wants to look good everytime.

-if he is a bottom class model

-if he is ON the latest thing of. EVERYTHING.

-if he is busy changing work titles and work affiliations in facebook.

-if he doesn't say his civil status on face book.

-if he always in an "it's very complicated" situation.

-if he poses a picture on a coat (or coat and tie) aside from being on a prom or being a CEO.

It means he is a bottomline POSER.

Never revisit ex boyfriends and that possibility.

And when all else fails, Keep on moving forward.

I'll put up more.

Disclaimer: I'm not bitter, I am just taking notes for future reference. I do not encourage you to believe what I say but just know, these are mistakes time and again.
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Who's the funniest person you know?

2011-07-12T16:50:00.001-07:00

I am the funniest person I know.

Ask me anything