Oye to the World! Taluli and Mama Chronicles

Navigating Life's Whirlwinds: Embracing Change and Finding Balance in 2024

2024-07-02T07:56:00.000-07:00

As I celebrate my 45th year, 2024 has been a whirlwind of challenges and growth. Transitioning into a stay-at-home, work-from-home mom, I've found new ways to balance life while cherishing the time spent with my child. Our travels often lead us to the beautiful Ilocos Norte, a favorite destination that offers a perfect blend of relaxation and adventure.

A Shift in Focus: From Blogging to Videos

Life's demands have steered me away from regular blogging. The digital landscape now calls for more engaging content, and I've embraced this by shifting to video uploads. This new medium allows me to connect with my audience more dynamically, sharing our travels, daily life, and personal experiences in a more vivid and immersive way.

Visit my Vlog here:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1-TWaSIMaYrEqg_f7Xg14Q

Health Challenges and Recovery Journey

Earlier this year, on February 12, I faced a significant health scare with an ischemic heart attack. It was a mild one, but it left me with a two-month struggle with dysarthria and issues with my right hand and girth. This period was incredibly challenging, but it also marked the beginning of a journey towards better health and self-care.

Therapy has been a crucial part of my recovery, and I'm gradually regaining my strength. Incorporating mild exercise into my routine three times a week has been a vital step in this process. Additionally, monitoring my blood pressure and sugar levels has become a daily practice, ensuring that I stay on top of my health.

Embracing the Journey Ahead

Despite the challenges, this year has also been a time of profound growth and transformation. Owning a home and a car, managing a household, and making time for travel with my child have all been significant milestones. Each day brings new lessons and opportunities, and I am grateful for the support and love of my family.

As I continue to navigate this journey, I look forward to sharing more of our experiences through videos. Whether it's exploring the scenic beauty of Ilocos Norte or the daily adventures at home, I hope to inspire others to embrace change and find balance in their own lives.

Stay tuned for more updates, and thank you for being a part of this incredible journey with us. Here's to health, happiness, and new beginnings in 2024!

When that whiff of familiar comes along

2021-03-19T11:58:00.001-07:00

I went to this place with family just recently. And I was surprised, a whiff of that familiar feeling hit me. That happiness I felt those days I went on a crazy rendezvous, probably the craziest I have ever done in my life. I flew planes to be with you on weekends. I rode busses to be with you and make you feel how crazy in love I was with you. It was crazy. I had too much that I gave, that was too much happiness for me. That was one of what I think the happiest moments of my life.

What I can remember vaguely was, you were in that place, I came and visited you and stayed the weekend in a hotel or a place you stay in which I do not clearly remember but what resonated with me was the excitement I felt when you came to the door after your work day and we just consumed our selves the wholenight and I just gave myself fully. I was very happy that day. But I know that was one memory away. I was thankful for that.

I do not think I fully forgave myself with something about that part of my life, which I hope to be soon.

Ahhh that sudden whiff of familiar that comes along...

Surviving this Invisible World War called Covid-19 Pandemic - Filipina Single Mom Style

2020-04-09T23:55:00.002-07:00

My son and I, (Taluli, my angel, now 5 years of age) have been inside the confines of our barangay (Brgy 170) for approximately 4 weeks now. The Philippines has been placed in Extreme Quarantine for a month now and as a single mother living alone with a child, this has been a challenge mentally because I get to stay at home with my kid and be the best mother while I beat the anxiety that I always fought in being a person who needed to “always get it going on”.

March 12, 2020 — Duterte announced that there was a pandemic and that the country has been put in Extreme Quarantine.

As this news came I knew that my senses will raise a full alert and try to deal with this situation at hand. My son was supposed to have a moving up ceremony and was supposed to practice prior but things kept moving and school suspending that he and I just had to be still. There was panic and fear that I was physically trying to beat the anxiety attacks for the first 4 days of the ECQ. My mind was on a constant beating of worry, the job was at risk, bills had to get paid, my son has to step into grade school and I have to keep my life ongoing.

What Now?

As everyone panicked in the grocery store, my mind was in crisis mode. In the span of 5 minutes my head already had a 5-day meal plan, scurried in the grocery as fast as I could and in 30 minutes, gathered all I needed to be calm and watch what was happening at the confines of my home. I had a conference call with my fellow leaders in the office and have decided to put everyone in a “work-from-home” situation until this pandemic ends. What if something happens to me? Where will my son go and ask for help?

I realized I do not know my neighbors.

I looked around my community I saw that I do not know any of my neighbors (well aside from the person below me who knocked at my door and asked if I can turn my voice down). After 7 years of bidding farewell to condo life and being back at it, I asked myself “ Am I going to live the same passive way I lived in Condominiums and not care about my neighbors?” I thought about stuff like “who would need help?”, “ Who goes to work and not have any means to go around and work while all public utility vehicles were put on a halt?” There has got to be people here who can help another person in need now that this pandemic is happening! Immediately, I kept my eyes and fingers on our FB group sent everyone a message via a post and suggested that we have a community chat room.

Our community chatroom and camaraderie was born.

So many people agreed and I created a chat group for my neighbors on Facebook, added my trusted BizmoGo riders in the chatroom and advised everyone that if they cannot go out, they can ask our riders in the chat to run their errands. We got that going. Until neighbors started stepping up and doing things for neighbors that the chat group flourished. The group now has about 60 families selling goods and services to each other helping each other out. It greatly helped lower anxiety. Never a day that this community had hunger and lack. People shared food, people helped senior citizens buy medicine, single moms asked neighbors to look after their little ones while they shopped for supplies. There was so much love, appreciation and levels of respect that we planned and swore by having a post-pandemic party by the poolside and not give a flying fuck about community complains that would come after because “we endured mother fuckers”.

I realized my son is already a kid.

So staying in meant loads of one on one time between me and my son. The first week him and I ran a schedule, with specific activities that he needed to pick from a jar just to have structure, it went well for the most part. But when the second week came his anxiety got through because everyone needed to stay in and was forbidden to go out and play. That shook Taluli as he is an interactive team player that always wanted human interaction and a lead in the play, this current halt placed his personality skills on restraint. With 2 COVID -19 Positive in our community and strict instructions of not going out, the adjustment was not at all easy for Taluli. As a mom I was helpless and tried creative ways to keep him sane and back in.

The beauty of this pandemic came As I watched him interact with kids and adults when he could and in the time that I was having a one on one with him, I realized that man, I raised a wise, kind and endearing boy. There was even a time when everyone's’ vibration was shot, I guess he picked up on it and started listening to Christian songs. He has this favorite Song, Confiare En Ti, a Portuguese hymn https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v2WbbuwZclg he may not understand it but he Tells me that when he listens to that song, the song makes him feel okay and calm. Unbelievable.

I realized that the things I believed I was great in were the very thing I was not great at.

By week three I was digging the work from home gig that I was in that I started to explore options working from home permanently. I took tests for work from home jobs and have failed all of them. I realized I was too confident and I started questioning my self. Was I really that great of a person that I think I am? I was anxious and the manifestations in my body were coming in, back and neck and hand stiffening, again, of course, as always, solace in meditation and I realized, being still and know that wherever I may go, whatever comes my way, I will receive and walk with what I get because it will sustain me for the rest of my life, and the ability to pick up from it at the right time and moment already makes me a great person. I was living in the past for a very long time. I had to step down from my high horse a bit and started to ground myself in the lowest possible form and constantly pushed myself to the reality of the present moment.

The world as made clear in my eyes in this pandemic:

I started to see things clearer on the extreme side of life. There were several opportunities for new businesses to thrive and the people who answered the call geared their way towards the global shift of things. Companies suddenly created an online presence to thrive. The importance of logistics and farming is and has saved the human race in this pandemic. Politicians legally buying votes by giving extra money to everyone in their locale, to which seems additional help aside from what was already given by sticking up a note with their name on big bold letters on plastic and eco-bags. Politicians who are compassionate versus the passive self servers. The bad opportunists being swarmed forth by the good doing community. The good deeds of the government and their very core in handling this extreme situation and the people who only go from talking to typing with no contribution other than being able to criticize and project their own personality problems to other people. Also and before I forget the one tracked politically drained and confused mind of people who spend time attacking people over talking about what they feel, and if that goes against their views you are automatically put in a bin and muddled without even seeing beyond where you stand.

The fight to ignore may be unnecessary bullshit but as the blinders start to get out of the way, I started to distance me and just be the bigger man to not engage.

Nature, the beings, Humanity and I at the time of the Pandemic.

I watched a clip over from GMA News on how a wife of a dead COVID patient was being treated by their neighbors after being found out to be living in it. It was sad and it magnified how cruel people can be in San Juan City. This was a sad day for humanity.

It also paved the way for nature in dwellers to go back to their natural habitat as hundreds of turtles find safety in laying their eggs in beaches abandoned by humans because of the pandemic. Manila bay was reported to have changed it’s usual muddy color into somewhat a return in turquoise color. These were delightful stories of hope and reckoning in these trying times.

Several people with influence lending a hand in these times create a rush of hope in people's lives during this uncertainty. Tiktok paved the way in providing “at-the-moment” 15 seconds to a minute entertainment for people to get by with while being stuck at home. Some stick-ups even swore to not even try and be caught by that TIKTOK WAVE but guess what suckers, you said the same thing when Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Youtube and what have you were starting, so get over your self. Take a break and be happy!

Oh and let us not forget, ZOOM made us feel virtually close to each other and helped us in ways to interact with our beers on our E-numan sessions (virtual drinking sessions with friends) this pandemic up until the liquor ban came out and killed our vibe.

Oh 2020, how can I forget you ever existed for the rest of my life?? You turned our world upside, down and sideways than ever before.

In Conclusion:

This pandemic has become an x-ray of how our society has been, like God or the Universe’ way of magnifying what is wrong and what is good in the world. It has been like a life audit and it depends on what peripheral you choose to put your attention to, the target that you choose to fix your senses on is where your future will be moving forward this pandemic. It is an audit for us to choose clearer and better without too many blinders.

A Sense of Gratitude to Live By:

I am lucky to be able to live in this chaos called the COVID-19 Pandemic. It is my utmost gratitude to God and the Universe that I have been sheltered for a purpose and after this pandemic will live this purpose off of what is intended for. I hope that as everyone sat at home overcome and tread through because no matter what, God or the Universe has chosen you to live by the tale of what was the 2nd worst pandemic of the last 100 years of the human race.

After this, I do not think that Anyone can fuck with you anymore, I mean You have survived this invisible world war of the century, the rest of the world have to get over trying to get the best out of you. So stay calm sweetie, you are the champ of the century!

Alone

2020-02-24T06:01:00.000-08:00

I get high on my own so I am all alone

nakakalungkot isipin na madalas sa lakbay na to ako lang talaga mag isa.

Kayod na lang para me relevance ako.

Ganun talaga. Hindi ka pinagpala.

Hmmm..

YOU PUSHED HER TOWARDS HER DEATH

2019-11-10T18:19:00.001-08:00

She was running as fast as she could

While no one was holding her down

Then someone came along to lift her up

You kept grabbing her by the arm

Your words are like daggers

Pinning her on the ground while she wanted to fly

She tried to escape so she can no longer be raped

By your abusive rants and cries

She kept changing her life so her future can be so bright

But the atmosphere of your existence was savage

And energy so negative

That she cannot see the light

Now she is drowning alone

Catching her life in deep breath

Her body now wretched and tired

That you pushed her towards her death.

Why do I sing the songs that I sing? Why do I make the songs I make?

2019-04-17T05:50:00.001-07:00

Why do I sing the songs that I sing? Why do I make the songs I make?

I kept thinking about that after my Jam session in Kooky Tuasons' show where in I was a guest along with 2 lifestyle geniuses.

Photo Courtesy of Bigkas Pilipinas

I was asked by AA Patawaran, Manila Bulletin's Lifestyle editor something to the effect of why do I make my songs. Afraid to explain a fair bit and call too much attention to myself, I resorted to explaining it in bits that would be interesting so I can avoid going down the path of dragging listeners to boredom.It was a funny version of the whole explanation as to why. It bothered me that I did not express my truth fully because I was afraid to draw too much attention to the place in my soul I secretly call my own.

Link to the 4 hour show here:

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=2337386626494279&id=249511228120

The fact is , that is a question that I am asked often. Kevin Roy asked me that in our joint gig in paranaque, Kuya Nitoy Adriano also asked me this as well, along with other musicians I worked with and I respond as funny as I can to be likeable.

I make songs to express my truth. I project an outgoing and extroverted persona to be liked in the superficial world but deep down inside I cry about questions that are unanswered in my life and what I go through. Do not bother handing me a joint because I will leave you down to my world of being happy rolling alone and that's just who I truly am.

So going back to unanswered questions, It tires me rolling these questions in my head , scenarios and things I think to be true about my life that no one I know shares with me. My songs are my anchor to feel. I tune out my feelings when I deal with the world as I have to be or need to be or need to act for someone else to be able to survive. I always seek solace through my songs to remind my self of positive and negative feelings that I went through to stay real and grounded. It is my ultimate dream and happiness to have people help me color my music with life as they are all raw and dead down in my soundcloud. I want to make my song known for me to know if there are other people who think like me so I can gain a friend who understands me. I guess it is the same as how I deal with my life, my compositions are like a cry for help a cryptic suicide note waiting to be read and realized. It is both deep and dark at the same time that only I and my feelings can understand. At the end of the day these songs are what I am passionate about in my life. I have invested my travel times, holidays being locked up for days, idle time in bus rides, money and garage band studio time composing bits and pieces of my thoughts and feelings.

How do I clasify my genre?

Now that I think about it, I wanted to pretty much be triphop but it is turning out to be more in the side of sad core. These songs are more of my gut reserve , it depends on how you look at it, some people would call it dark and heavy some would be dizzy and confused while some will treat it as art, dark art. We all have some type of darkness in our life this is my ugly showing out in the world.In my songs i do not care if i use a different note or key from the rhythm of the music to the song I sing. In my songs I feel free to defy. My songs are not your standard and my competion level singing voice is not at play, some tunes off key but that is just me being free.

If we think and feel alike and you feel as though you feel me then give it a listen here:

https://m.soundcloud.com/theremymarie

I won the Mom game through "YouTube Baby Syndrome"

2019-01-05T06:27:00.002-08:00

Taluli is now 4 and is in the age when he is super curious and super enjoying pretend play and that the only way to get him to pay attention is through relatable mediums like his favorite YouTube, Sci Fi and Supernatural.

Every parent wants to manage a kid these days and part of this is giving them gadgets where they can play and watch YouTube, I know it is the worst thing you can do to a kid but because these kids are naturally seeking stimulus relating to anything that is in YouTube when a parent is absent and busy hence making YouTube an ally to these toddlers.

But when is enough, enough? I have noticed that Taluli started to sound like a YouTuber and would talk about anything that is in YouTube and adapt mannerisms, and expressions as exaggerated as a YouTuber would sound, like a total disconnect to reality. That is when I already had to draw the line and think of ways on how to not necessary keep him off of the Tube, but limit his exposure to it.

Taluli responds to stories within YouTube so I showed him a video of a kid that is weird and loud and a kid that was convulsing. When asked why these kids were acting that way I told him that," Honey, they watched too much YouTube and now they are suffering what is called the YOUTUBE BABY SYNDROME."

To give you a backgrounder, Taluli grew up a deep self thinker, he never listens not unless his validation process concludes that some one is right. He relies on his instincts so much that as a child, he only trusts his beliefs based on his experience and insights and I keep that a sacred trait which I pray never fades away. So true to form, as soon as I gave him the "YouTube Baby Syndrome" it had to take him a few hours to be able to believe that it exist and that it is and knew that he already accepted the fact once he started telling people that they had "YouTube Baby Syndrome" in his conversations.

So according to Taluli and how he understand what I meant, "YouTube Baby Syndrome" starts when you start talking and being an exaggerated YouTuber and that you have to be careful not to go to a point where your eyes roll and you start to shake. So since then, he was very mindful of his watch hours and reminds people not to watch YouTube too much so they won't have "YouTube Baby Syndrome". I won the Mom battle against YouTube.

This my friend is a cause to celebrate with a glass of Red Wine. Single Mom Wins.

Bandwagon Post: My New Years Resolution

2019-01-05T03:43:00.001-08:00

So everyone is on to their new year's resolution and I am sitting here having second thoughts as to what and how will I approach my "coming-into-my-forties" year which is just another year supposedly, but with bigger responsibilities. (uhm, Taluli is getting bigger wiser and full of dreams and promise that I gotta give a boy a better life besides what we have now)

At this time of my life, I finally have embraced my leadership skills and talent for figuring out shit from puzzle pieces that I do that as a full time career. So heck I will lead my self now and figure shit out from the puzzle pieces of my own life and take full reign of my happier future.

Pweh daming kuda! So on to my new year's resolution:

1.) I will try and bike to work so I will be back to my fitter self so I can eat what I want and have a reason to eat them, sans rice which killed my vibe so bad.

I used to bike to work and saved so much and ate everything I want sans the rice. But when I (EXCUSES) started getting employment in wacko hours I stopped and hence the 40 kg now that I bear with me as a burden. So now, I will bike to work starting monday and cut on rice. Hello tokwa and lugaw for lunch.

2.) I will try to drink red wine instead of red horse more often.

I know this is a tough one.

3.) I will Save money and Plan for my future.

2018 was a year when me and MS Excel became bestfriends that I was able to play around with it and changed my life. 2018 was also the year where in I opened multiple bank accounts in preparation of. Now that it is 2019 and Taluli is going to finally start school, I have created a Spreadsheet entitled: RETIRING WOMAN'S BESTFRIEND

If you wanna get a copy you may email me I will make one for you.

4.) I will make sure to blog as often as I can.

5.) I will support my son's vlogger dreams.

That is it for now.

xoxo

Remy Marie

We all live a Good Life

2018-09-16T10:05:00.001-07:00

Forgive yourself for being human

in craving things that are wrong and that are bad for you simply because you hurt yourself

over

and

over

again

and again

For grabbing things you dont know about

For playing Fire Games that eventually burn

And Scar and become Permanent Inprints

Of the innocence you felt you were robbed of

Yes it is you who opened the door and you who allowed

But that does not mean that you are to blame or she is to blame

Know that life happens to the current reason of your state of being

Though you get motivated with every single fucking blister

from walking with shoes that are not fit for you

You just need to all of a sudden succumb to retire to the fact that, hey

The illusion of appearance and standards of being are fallacies born by social stigmas

And that getting tired is just a state of mind

fighting to react towards the wave that steal ones happiness is the real battle.

that no money can buy

no thing can satisfy

And Getting through that minute every single time

Is a sign of a good life.

2018-09-06T14:39:00.001-07:00

thank you lord for the gift of 39 years in life

thank you for making 2018 my year

thank you for giving me a second chance in life

thank you for opening up doors for me

thank you for the love that you always showed me

thank you for loving me inconditionally

thank you for making me strong, wise and humble

thank you for making me

thank you for giving me Taluli

thank you for blessing me with awesome people in my life

You have no idea how you blessed my life

You always catched me when I fell

You became a father to me more than everyone or anyone can ever be

You truly have never left me

Whoever you are they may call you God

But i call you mine.

Tondol Beach: Kid friendly Beach Alert.

2018-02-12T02:34:00.001-08:00

So last Febuary 9, 2018 ( Friday) Taluli and I ventured out and went on a spontaneous trip to Tondol Beach. I only planned to go and not much about "going" like planning or how some people would take a "relaxed" vacation. My idea of a relaxed vacation is spontaneous, unforgettable, unexpected and a continous discovery . I would call this the road to chill.

So on to the detail.

After going off of from my work at BGC, I booked an Uber to pick up Taluli from Fairview Q.C. at about 9:30 am in time for our planned 10:30 am descent, which did not happen. 10:30 am, the only bus available was the bus going to Anda, Pangasinan, which was straight up on point to our destination ( Tondol Beach is Located in Anda) but not airconditioned. I am game for anything but the kid wants his aircon so we decided to hop on a bus going to Bolinao instead. So I picked up food in andoks, 4 pieces of emergency Dokito Fried Chicken and 2 pieces of liempo just incase food will suck once we arrived. The bus left cubao at 12:00 pm

While I was on the bus ( Thank you Fivestar Free WiFi) I searched for accomodations in Tondol and called them one by one. With all the resorts I called the most straight up and no nonesense and simplest person I talked to was ate Sally of Tondolandia Beach and Cottage Resort.

She gave me a good rate of 1500 PHP for an off peak 2 nights stay that started from 8 PM Friday night to 7:00 AM Sunday on a Nipahut Cottage with shared bath and offered to pick us up at the Tara Junction. As to where the Tara Junction was, I was not sure at that point good tjing Five Star Bus Co 's conductors are very friendly and courteous.

6:45 PM we reached Tara Junction, ate Sally's Van was waiting to pick us up with 2 gentle folks to assist us, we drove the oh so paved road to the beach proper where all the resorts lined up before reaching ate Sally's resort, and boy it did not dissapoint. Amongst all the resorts hers is more secluded and special away from the common dwellers with a pretty view.

We we're greeted by Ate Sally, a woman on her retirement with semi ashen blond hair with grace so fine who knows a thing about entertaining, her sister and some folks who we're their family. Taluli easily warmed up to all of them as if he knew these folks and did his Taluli charm. They had a quaint store that sold pretty much everything you would need that you might not have brought along with you and it was everything in our stay. Taluli would come by when he is hungry and thirsty to get a snack and have it listed to my account. It did not cost an arm and a leg either so it was the perfect store at the moment. We were briefed with how we can forage food, fishermen passing by their resort from the bay with their super fresh goods can be accessible and is a smart way to go. Paluto doesnt cost much.

I downed 2 bottles of Red Horse and went star gazing with the boy till we hit the sack at 10 pm. So we came up with a morning plan, swim till 10 am and hop on a boat to Cory Island.

We were so excited that we woke up 5 am and waited to catch the sunrise. We were surprised to see the water level recede to a vast Kilometer of sand almost to the next island.

We headed towards the stretch to walk around and heard the water rustling about to fill the seemingly white sand poolbed with water. By 7 am you can already see her almost filled up by ankle deep water.

7 am we decided to go for a swim, as the sun rose the view grew prettier into a Kilometers wide, white sand almost perfect swimming pool of a place with quiet water and star fishes a plenty. It dawned on me that nowadays you won't see this in most of the places anymore. I am so thankful to have shared this rarerity with Taluli. He saw this huge brown starfish with spikes and asked me if it was a Toy, that was how surreal it was for him.

Suffice to say that by 9 am this place become officially paradise because 9 am is when Tondol Beach took my breath away, stole my and Taluli's heart and hushed my praning mommy mind as I saw Taluli go meters away from me swimming on his own, with an inflatable plastic swim saving tire of course because you never know right?

We basked in this beauty and did not realize it was noon already. We were pretty content with the activity so the cory island plan went on the back burner.

We winded down at around 6pm baked as fudge with super brown skin and pretty red cheeks happy about how our day went. We had our seafoods prepared and my Red Horse cold ready to chill in my tummy for a very satisfied sleep.

We woke up very early and tried to witness the process the beach goes through every waking day, I decided to take a panoramic photo of the place bare and no water.

Said our goodbyes and vowed to come back. Ate Sally had us Driven on our way back to Tara Junction for our bus going back.

We will definitely come back.

xoxo Tondol.

The travel was long but I promise you, it is so worth it.

Ok enough of the emotions.

Here is the breakdown of our cost.

Going:

Food and stuff : 500 PHP
Bus Fare: 420 PHP for me Kid is 360
Red Horse: 90 Php for 2 Bottles
Food for day 2: 150 PHP ( 1 kilo of fresh fish @100 pesos, Cooked rice 30Php good for the wholeday and 1/4 kilo seaweed 20 php)
Store Account: 470 PHP which includes snacks and drinks for both, Paluto and condiments)
Accomodation: 1500 PHP

Leaving:

Bus Fare : 420 PHP for me 360 for Taluli - Dagupan Bus Co
Snacks: 150 PHP

We left Tara Junction at 8:00 am and arrived 2:45 pm in West Ave to catch an Uber to go home. I recommend going there riding Dagupan bus because it is more spacious and they have newer and more cozy buses.

Total Cost: PHP 4,420

Approx 5k if you consider the Uber rides.

But the basics are just approximately less than 4,000 if you think about it. for a 3 day 2 night vacay I can say it is a cheap ass quality trip.

To view the graphic visualization of this trip, visit our YouTube Vlog here:

Random Thoughts

2017-12-25T22:27:00.001-08:00

Sometimes I ask myself...

How do people meet and fall in love

Do they sing and dance together to their hearts content and reach the peak in ecstacy to know that they are a match?

Do they have to crawl struggle and get bloody until they come to realize that the person who continously wipe the blood off their face is the same person they are bound to be forever with?

I introduce people to their potential and my hunches work out for them to the point that they stay forever until today and in the years to come

I have attended weddings where in people thank me because I was the reason they crossed paths

I have been in relationships in between rocky marriages and have been the reason why this marriages get fixed

I am wondering how my story will work out in this world where people are full of themselves and their needs never even thinking about........

"hey what about her? How can she be happy the same she made me?"

Am I in a wrong fucked up state of brain?

Or am I just too lazy to love "me" because loving others came too easy?

Unboxing the Animal Planet Mega Shark and Whale Toy Set from Toys 'R us

2017-12-09T12:14:00.004-08:00

So Taluli and I are fans of toy unboxing in youtube, we chanced upon a youtuber who unboxed the Animal Planet Mega Shark and Whale Toy Set and decided to venture out and check out it's price so I can buy my boy one, but lo and behold,

PHP 9,247.00 - What?

So the resourceful mom that I am decided to look around and I see online that Toys R us is selling this item way lower

$21.00 - PHP 1,050 come on. Lazada, what a rip off.

So I seeked help from US friends to get me one during cyber monday sale. The toy arrived and we unboxed it. This is taluli's dream toy, so YOU CAN JUST IMAGINE the look in his eyes when he got this present unannounced. You can watch our youtube video here:

Please do not forget to like the video and subscribe to our channel for more of my single mom adventures with Taluli.

My Soccer Player status just changed.

2017-09-09T14:24:00.001-07:00

I am Remy Marie Del Rosario, 37 years of age, a soccer player turned mom.

My son,Tala Elija is now a soccer player. Went to soccer school before formal schooling so just he can tell where and when is it appropriate to let all the energy out. As a new three year old, (he just turned three last june) his attention span is being challenged by this activity, staying for an hour focusing on soccer is a huge feat. Also the discipline of following a leader (sometimes) is now being built early so it would be easier for me and his future teachers to take on teaching this one of a kind toddler.

Of course, He is wearing a Real Madrid jersey.

So I got to interview him for his first day in class and this is what he had to say:

And just like that my status changed to SOCCER MOM.

Of loss and Grief

2016-12-06T22:03:00.001-08:00

I lost my father last week from cardiac arrest.

And through the course of grieving I lost not a father but a meaning to life.

In just one blink of an eye, you are a memory, a matter that passed. All the false pretense of how to live, carry and hold your life was a big fat lie. The battles and pseudo triumphs you picked and lost to were fucked up imaginings that strain and drain your human body. That you are a slave to chemicals, your soul lives by the promise and result of chemical reactions. It all goes down to this end of the road where you are nothing but a dead body left to be buried into the very same imaginings that evokes simultaneous reactions for chemicals to feed on neurons to make the hormones of the ones you leave behind react into a blissful state of something. The end is cold.

The end is cold.

Change in Humanity Activated

2016-11-08T23:46:00.001-08:00

Donald Trump, Rodrigo Duterte, Radical Solutions and desolutions are openings for opportunities and change.

There is a change that humanity is craving beyond the systems that are in place. That is just how the way it is, until it is put in a box that people are accustomed to, it will always be the subject of confusion and hate to people who have a parallel understanding of how the universe works. Knowing this does not mean you are okay with it..just means stepping back and assesing is the way you can live along these changes while keeping your morals and beliefs intact. Reacting to the actions of people that operate within the change does not help create the balance of your life, it is the work that you do to further your understanding that will create harmony. There will always be the inevitable and chaos.

I will discuss this in my blog as I go along.

Point to Point Bus: A Commuters Haven

2016-09-05T18:38:00.001-07:00

So I was asked by my boss to come and report for work, first thing that came to my mind was, what time do I freaking leave my mom's house because MNL traffic situation has no chill at all, worst of it's kind? How can I travel as cheap as I can going to the place I need to go to that is as comfortable as I am in a chauffered service like Uber or Grab Car or even close?

I first saw this point to point service in ayala while I was dining out with my best football buddy Rica and thought of trying it out the next time I am headed south.

I personally think that this will kill the muck out of the current shitty bus system.

So when I was presented an opportunity to travel southbound for work, I didn't miss a chance of riding this Point to Point shuttle service. For just 100 pesos I am able to enjoy pro's such as:

1.) Cruising just like how comfortable you would be in a car.
2.) Free Wi-Fi.
3.) Friendlier Bus Drivers
4.) Peaceful and safer compared to riding in a bus.
5.) More civilized passengers.
6.) Not much fear in taking a nap looking out protecting your bag from being slashed or pick pocketed.
7.) Your Morning Tv shows onboard because it has TV on board.

Cons:
1.) It is a non stop bus, you can't just stop to pee, eat or drink.

I think that is it for now. Until my next Point to Point bus adventure.

Of Toddlers and Laptops

2016-09-04T10:19:00.001-07:00

You are not a mother of a forever curious and smart toddler if your keyboard does not turn up as this:

I know I have a mom blog but Oh my brother, Taluli in his terible two's. Just the other day, this forever curious toddler took a trip with me to a place where there is a Koi pond and he was just in awe seeing the live fishes. He started to throw stones, I panic in stopping him and patiently telling him how he should not be throwing stones as it will be painful if I did the same to him. Back and forth dude.

I eat (The place that had a koi pond happened to be a food place) 3 bites and all of a sudden this boy takes off his shoes, tells me he is going to swim I put down the spoon and run to grab this toddler and think of a way to sit him still.

But despite of this craziness, you look into his face and every single crazy fit turns to a sweet smile.

How do you get mad at this cuteness?
Photo Credits to Barbara Santos and Richard Fruto of Fairview Bikers

I wish this will go away soon.

2016-05-03T19:10:00.001-07:00

I miss you around me making me smile greeting me good morning
I miss you making me feel
I miss that I can just call you and you will be here and you would make me feel calm.
I still wake up around the same time that we both do 2-3 am I don't know If you still do.
you have been my sweet space
you made me feel really tender
and it was amazing
I don't know if it was amazing for you
I don't know if you felt what I felt.
but i had to stop it had to stop.
because you no longer wanted.
And I don't know how to cope with rejection.
I had to be. I have to let it go.
it is hard. I am counting the kilometers I spend biking in the places far away
I already ran miles but still the pain is just the same
I don't know when I will find or will I be found.
But what happens now is I have to clean up every little mess I made
Make up for all lost time that was brought about by my impulsiveness
Do my own personal responsibilities
With a hurt heart I know I will get over this.
I know I loved you deep as an ocean crave depth
in the short amount of time we spent
What matters now is I will continue to move.
Move as I can. Only a few people know how sad I am
but the sensitive ones know I'm lost
only a few know I am in pain.
I'm not banking on seeing you ever again though
But the next time someone tries to make me feel tender
I will guard my heart and my sanity harder.
I will work myself up to beat all my insecurities and be the best woman I can ever be.
I will use my head more next time.
And not give away too much of my time.
I am treating you as a lesson in life.
I wish all the negative feelings will go away very soon.
Because no one deserves to outshine my stars and my moon.

Truth

2016-04-07T09:33:00.001-07:00

Dear Boy,

It's easy to play on a fat girl with low self esteem

You won't live to regret anything.

Maharlika Paradise: A Secret Pristine Preserved spot in Wawa Montalban.

2016-03-05T20:56:00.000-08:00

I have been coming back to Maharlika Paradise, A DENR Protected site being cared for by Ang Kasama Inc., of the Samahang Maharlika Movement at Sitio Sabangan, Wawa Montalban, everytime I want a space out of the hustle and bustle of that Manila wildlife we are addicted to. It is here where

I plug in to the vibrations of the earth and it's bounty. I get to meditate a few hours and feel refreshed for the week ahead. It is a measly 25-35 minute walk from the Pamitian DENR office. It is a secret enclave known to some of the underground artists and famous writers that seek solace towards enlightenment. It is a half way house of the transitioning empowered soul, as I can call it.

Beyond the peace and quiet that Maharlika Paradise has to offer, what drew me to this movement is the passion for uncovering the realities of one of our societies' lies. This was also the same fight that some of our predecessors have been fighting with including the late president Ferdinand Marcos. Bringing back the original foundation of our country from the spanish' Philippines to Maharlika. Not only that, our rich culture is so muddied by colonialism and all this isms that our roots are being compromised. Maharlika Paradise in general is a protected preservation of integral morals of our original citizenship.

In Lieu with this an annual "Maharlika Summit" is held in different places of the Philippines. This Summit will be held this year at Baguio City.

Back to the Paintings:

Through the goodness of my Meditation Mentor, Dada Deo Palma, I am able to channel my love for art through my expressed meditative strokes during my stay.

This was my Mural art Pre - Motherhood by the guesthouse way back 2013:

At this time I was with Lawrence my song writing buddy as he was my designated driver back then. How I miss lo's company. It's just he is in his cycle of life right now that we cannot control but would pass.

And this is my mural in progress for the daycare kitchen:

This is Taluli and me while I was doing my mural:

I am very blessed to be able to share this experience and way of life to my son in my quest to have him live the freedom that he so greatly deserve.

I am a sucker for Lonely Love Poems

2016-03-02T20:14:00.000-08:00

When I look at Lang leav 's works, I have a very fond memory of my high school days. I made a poetry book about a boy I fucking adored with all my heart which I personally designed the cover, self bound as my first personal published book that I kept to myself for myself. I bring it to school everyday and read it in my corner while I would steal a glance and feel my heart melt. Until the day that My favorite HS Teacher in the whole wide world Dugayo Jr JB stole ( or I was too sloppy to leave?) my very important book and published one of my poems in the school paper. I am forever grateful for that very embarrassing moment that turned out to be the best gift ever. That is when I gained confidence in expressing myself as an artist

Issues and Responsibilities

2016-03-02T18:42:00.001-08:00

Aaargh!

I really don't know what I want. All I know is I stay in the here and now and here and now has a good day and a bad day. I do not know if someone as of yet has the capacity to be there in the days of my life where it will not all be sunshine and will remain the same in the good or bad times. I never really wished for a boy to marry because it just did not make sense to me. I think of too much logic in things sometimes its too deep and only a handful of my friends including my mom dig it up with me. I write shallow songs because I don't want to feel judged and raped just because I have exposed my reality. My feelings are so deep vast and unknown that I tread with caution. I just wanted a guy so committed to be there for me every damn day, consistently accept these dark bits and pieces of me. This guy must understand that this keeps Me grounded. I don't need a man who makes 10 million or billion pesos a year or whatever figure because I know my capacity to out earn you any God Given day. All I want is an open minded fucker who can be another individual to be equal with me...a guy who doesn't get consumed with dualism..A guy who knows himself and is unafraid. It is as simple as it gets.

I was never lucky I thought to myself, but then again the truth is I write my own destiny. The last times my fear got the best of me I ran away and did an act of Houdini. I was a coward at this coming to the depths of relationship thing. I now decide to face this head on and for once stop being a poser for strength. I have a sense that this is somewhat different.

I am learning from my boss the art of getting through natures course without passing judgement. So I am exercising this now in my relations to this person I am dating.

Whatever is the result of this Isolation will take the next course of emotional freedom that I am about to undertake.

2016-02-24T15:15:00.001-08:00

Do you believe

That

IT IS POSSIBLE

TO LOVE

AND TO NOT

TRUST?

in this thought process lies the struggle.

Best Toddler Medicine Tool Ever.

2016-01-01T06:48:00.000-08:00

So you have trouble just like me administering a toddler approaching their "terrible twos" Medicine of how many ML using a teaspoon or a medicine dropper?

Have no fear

This handy dandy super syringe is here.

20 pesos in Mercury drug. 20 times convenience

best Invention yet.

Oye to the World! Taluli and Mama Chronicles

Navigating Life's Whirlwinds: Embracing Change and Finding Balance in 2024

A Shift in Focus: From Blogging to Videos

Health Challenges and Recovery Journey

Embracing the Journey Ahead

When that whiff of familiar comes along

Surviving this Invisible World War called Covid-19 Pandemic - Filipina Single Mom Style

Alone

YOU PUSHED HER TOWARDS HER DEATH

Why do I sing the songs that I sing? Why do I make the songs I make?

I won the Mom game through "YouTube Baby Syndrome"

Bandwagon Post: My New Years Resolution

We all live a Good Life

Tondol Beach: Kid friendly Beach Alert.

Random Thoughts

Unboxing the Animal Planet Mega Shark and Whale Toy Set from Toys 'R us

My Soccer Player status just changed.

Of loss and Grief

Change in Humanity Activated

Point to Point Bus: A Commuters Haven

Of Toddlers and Laptops

I wish this will go away soon.

Truth

Maharlika Paradise: A Secret Pristine Preserved spot in Wawa Montalban.

I am a sucker for Lonely Love Poems

Issues and Responsibilities

Do you believe That IT IS POSSIBLE TO LOVE AND TO NOT TRUST? in this thought process lies the struggle.

Best Toddler Medicine Tool Ever.

Do you believe

That

IT IS POSSIBLE

TO LOVE

AND TO NOT

TRUST?

in this thought process lies the struggle.