Ryan David Ginsberg

Desires

2014-02-19T20:03:00.001-08:00

I wish I had the nerves to say what I feel inside

But my voice is muted, like a coward I hide

I'm holding in my desires

That burn like a fire

I'm in love with your mind

And everything that I find

Your body drives me wild

But I'll try to keep this mild

I wanna take a swim in those eyes, wrestle with those lips

And girl you drive me crazy when you shaking those hips

I wanna silence the world, just listen to your voice

I could sit there forever if I had the choice

When you enter a room my heart skips a beat

I feel like I'm floating, yet I'm still on my feet

Everything around me blurs, yet I see you so clear

Come fall into my arms, you have nothing to fear

Damn these feelings are strange, but I won't complain

I'll just keep them inside and hope that you feel the same

No Do Overs.

2013-12-18T01:04:00.001-08:00

I haven't heard your voice in years

It has been too long since you whispered in my ear

Since you kissed me on my cheek

And made my knees feel weak

I miss looking in those brown eyes

And knowing everything was alright

Sitting on your bed with our fingers intertwined

It has been too long since you were all mine

I need to hear that sweet voice, damn I miss your sweet voice

I'd listen to it all day if I had the choice

I'd be with you all day if I had the choice

Tell you that I love you, until I lose my voice

But those days are over

And there's no do overs.

So Far Gone

2013-11-13T23:54:00.000-08:00

The vase sits alone on the table, as the girl waits eagerly

He said he would be there shortly, so she sits, waits, patiently

She hasn't seen him in weeks, says he's been busy with school

She said don't worry, I understand, it's cool

Then hangs up the phone and cries to herself, all alone

But he'll never say how she feels, so her feelings are never known

She glances at the clock, he's over an hour late

Just sit here, she tells herself, he'll show up just you wait

Another twenty minutes go by, she begins to lose hope

The phone rings and before it can ring twice she's already picked up

"Hey babe," it's been so long since she's heard his voice

She hears him sigh, oh she knows that noise

He says he's too busy, maybe another time

She quietly wipes a tear, don't worry it's fine

She says she still loves him, he hangs up

Fury fills her blood, she's so fed up

So sick of every excuse, they've become so absurd

She throws the vase to the ground, as empty as his words

Where the flowers should have been, but he never did show

He was never there to see her there, so he won't even see her go

But she's gone,

She's so far gone

Keep Your Head Up

2013-10-21T14:56:00.000-07:00

Lately I've felt that the sun just doesn't shine so bright
'Cause recently I haven't been able to see its light
I saw a glimpse, but it was quickly choked by the shadows
And my smile quickly gone, choked by the sorrows
Fighting back the tears so I don't drown in its puddles
The pain comes quick, no longer so subtle
My scars bleed out and my soul screams out
Suffocating in all this doubt
I used to be glass half full, but now it's feeling so empty
Don't know whats gotten into me
I used to be all smiles, bow I don't even know what a smile is
And, honestly, I'm kind of over all this shit
I try to hide it, but I feel it creeping out
And soon enough I won't be able to block it out
I have a civil war going on inside
And the demons seem to be the only ones that haven't died
I need to find the positivity of the day
Someone told me she's blessed 'cause she's got 2 arms and 2 legs
Damn, I needed to hear that about now
'Cause I've been feeling so stressed out
Be thankful for one more breath
Soon these demons will face their death
Soon the sun will shine so bright
Block out the shadows and fill your life back up with light
Keep your head up, I just have to keep my head up
Don't give up, I just need to keep my head up

Love Drunk

2013-05-29T18:53:00.004-07:00

I'm drunk off your love

Hungover from your hips

Got that ache in my heart

And tingle on my lips

That scent in the air

Reminds me you were here

My heart still beating fast

As the love beats clear

My mind goes back

To the first time

Love is a battle

But it sure as hell was worth the climb

And all the skipped beats

From when I saw your face

And each time

You stopped me in my place

The lost breath

And the sleepless nights

The loving talks

And the brutal fights

The memories we made

They will never fade

But you left out the front door

Said you couldn't stay

No, not tonight

No, not ever

So now I try to sober up

But I'll be hungover forever

Follow it. Pursue it. Chase it.

2013-05-05T00:13:00.001-07:00

It doesn't matter how crazy,
It doesn't matter how wild your dream is.
Follow it.
Pursue it.
Chase it.
Pour your heart, mind, and soul into it.
Turn the doubts and wonders into actions.
Don't ask "what if?"
But rather answer it.
Ignore the hate and criticism being yelled in your ear.
Instead listen closer to the whispers of encouragement.
And turn those whispers of support into cheers.
Soon enough those cheers will hush the boos.
Soon enough your dreams will be more than just dreams.
Soon enough your reality will be greater than you ever perceived.
But not until you take your dream and follow it.
Pursue it.
Chase it.
Pour your heart, mind, and soul into it.

Two Paths

2013-04-30T23:44:00.001-07:00

I stare at this fork in the road with two differing paths-

One path a hundred years,

The other just one day.

The answer seems so clear from there,

But there’s so much more.

One has you in it,

The other doesn’t.

Sure, I could have a hundred years

With money and cars,

Fancy houses and tons of friends.

Dogs and private beaches,

Year long vacations in Maui,

Oh, the good life.

That life that we all strive for.

The success.

The satisfaction.

The support.

The love of others.

While the other path is dirty.

No house, just living on the street.

No clothes to wear, no food to eat.

Lying here in the freezing snow.

No hope and no where to go.

I look at these paths,

Watch as everyone takes their hundred years.

They turn to me and ask,

“Are you coming?

It’s everything we’ve ever wanted.”

I shake my head and watch as they all walk by.

Sure, I could have a hundred years-

With money and cars,

Houses and friends,

Dogs and beaches,

Long vacations.

Living the good life.

But there is just one flaw,

You’re not there.

So I walk towards my last day,

Happier than I could ever be.

A Place I've Never Been

2013-04-30T17:18:00.001-07:00

Take me home,
To a place I've never been.
A place I've never seen,
Where my hair blows in the wind.
Lets take a little hike-
From the misery of life.
That brings me back afloat,
Because I'm drowning in this strife.
Drowning in the doubt,
The fear and insecurities.
Hiding away in shame-
From all of my impurities.
So can we get away?
To a place I've never been.
With some familiar faces,
Because all I need are my friends.

The Fragile Heart

2013-04-15T10:33:00.001-07:00

There's a lot on the mind of the girl in the corner
As her tears fall down on her broken heart
The picture ripped in half by her side
With the paper saying "We're better off apart"
She thought things were going smooth
The way she let down her guard
She never told him stop
Even though she knew he was going too far
All she wanted was love
The appreciation she never had
The love from the movies
That she wanted so bad
A kiss in the rain
But her love story was just a storm
The cuts bled deep
And the scars begin to form
Her tears begin to tattoo her face
After all they never seem to stop
Love conquers all
Or at least that's what she was thought
But maybe she had it all wrong
The meaning of this cliche
For maybe love does conquer
Just everyone in its way
As she lies there bleeding
Drunk on the thoughts
Suffering from pain
That only love brought
She tries to stand
But he cut her at the knees
She falls right over
With such a light breeze
Guess he never knew
How fragile was her heart
As he ripped up every piece
He never wanted her from the start
All he saw was skin
That looked nice up in his bed
Not realizing the heart in her chest
And the brain in her head
The soul inside
That may never trust again
Because the only thing she was looking for
Was someone to fall in love with

Beep, Beep, Beep

2013-04-15T00:30:00.002-07:00

I get so lost in that twinkle in your eye

Time sits still as you walk on by

And my heart skips beats when you give that little grin

That transfers to my face oh, so big

Even as you leave and continue on your way

That smile stays on my face for the whole damn day

I Think about when I will run into you next

Hope I don’t trip over myself with every single step

And I hope my words can form themselves, because I know I’ll lose control

You have hold on my heart, mind, and soul

I look across the way and see her walking up

The rest of world blurs as I stare at her

Can’t hear a sound, but her beautiful voice

I hope that this moment never has to end

Wishing on airplanes that you will never leave

Stay here, right here by my side

Tell me again those words that you said

That night when we laid out for hours

Staring at the stars, you turned and said those words

“I love you”

Time froze, I froze, my heart didn’t beat

No sounds were made

Nothing

But those three words echoing

They echoed over and over and over

“I love you”

Even as you left and went on with your day

I could still hear you over and over again say

“I love you”

But then my eyes open to me staring at my ceiling

Turn over and I’m all alone

The alarm goes off: beep, beep, beep

Guess that whole time I was just asleep

Ode to Her

2013-02-13T13:30:00.002-08:00

I know that we haven’t spoken in ages

And it’s about time for me to start flipping pages

And stop staring at the past

Cuz they’re just memories, but oh they’ll always last

I can’t help but think about us

Everything we were and how easy everything was

Holding you in my arms, forget about the world

Nothing else mattered, but me and this girl

Your smile still has me mesmerized

And everything you did, I still have it memorized

Written on my soul, written on my heart

Written everywhere so we will never be apart

But I said I wasn’t ready, so I just let you go

Now that’s a regret that my heart will always know

Cuz the green of your eyes and the light of your halo

Is an image that I can never let go

How you were so ticklish with every single touch

And every moment with you was always such a rush

But these are feelings that I decided to hide

Held them up deep, hid them all inside

Never let them out, so you never knew

That the only one ever on mind was always you

And now every girl I meet

It is always with you that they must compete

But they never stand a chance, because my heart is still yours

I said I’d never be in love, but damn I think you were my first

And now no girl will ever have a chance

You were my first and, hopefully, my last dance

Crippled Dreams

2012-11-13T19:20:00.001-08:00

Dreams, they're a crazy thing

Sometimes there is nothing quite so frightening

Pouring your soul into this one desire

Burning fiercely inside like a fire

The only thing on your mind

The dream that you hope you might find

You want it so bad it's got you paralyzed

Because failure is an option you've just realized

Afraid that you may fail, afraid that you may fall

Pour out your soul, just to lose it all

Then you look at the other side of the spectrum

What may happen if success does come

What if it doesn't live up to your expectation

This thing that you have poured your life in

The dream that haunts your sleep

The dream that you've kept so deep

The dream your lips mutter and eyes scream

With each breath you breath this dream

You pray for this dream alone

Like it is the only thing you've ever known

Each thought is consumed

To this dream you've become its groom

But the fear of failure and the fear of success

Has crippled you from putting this dream to the test

The fear that they may not accept

That this dream they may reject

That you may be outcasted

And see this dream never lasted

So you hold onto this dream

Never to see what it could have redeemed

You're dreams speak no words to hear

Because you have been crippled by fear

Don't Waste It

2012-10-20T00:24:00.000-07:00

There's only one life, spend it right, don't waste it

Spend it chasing dreams, not sitting there wasted

Pour out your soul in everything you do

Not pouring out your bottle so you can chase twos

Try to change the world, but only for the better

Give everything you got, and make nobody a debtor

Give your time, give your heart, give your soul in everything

Not wondering what your efforts may bring

Go the extra mile, go an extra two

And never wonder what they may do for you

Smile all the time, but only from your heart

Don't just smile so you can play the part

Love one another as you love yourself

Don't dwell on the past, you must forgive yourself

Let your anxieties go, throw them onto God

Rip away those chains for your freedoms been bought

Your bill has been paid, carried by the cross

Forget about evil, for it's already lost

Now the horns can't pierce and the fire can't burn

For grace has been given, it is nothing we can earn

Given by faith, never by our actions

We are all His children, just different complexions

We live different lives, but receive the same love

All are equal and no one is above

There's only one life, spend it right, don't waste it

Be confident in your path, for God's already paved it

100 Pieces

2012-10-14T12:31:00.000-07:00

Life is a puzzle, that's all it really is

Each moment is just another piece

The here and now, that's just one piece

There's a much bigger picture

All you have to do is take the pieces

And put them all together

Each piece has it's perfect match

You just need to find it

Maybe that piece hasn't yet been made

So, you have to wait

For the pieces to fit together

So you can finally see that beautiful picture

Because there is nothing beautiful about 100 pieces

Just waiting to be put together

But it seems my pieces don't fit

So I just wait for the pieces to fall together

Because I know when they do

Oh, when they do

It'll be b-e-a-utiful

Oh, so beautiful

Would You?

2012-10-10T20:19:00.000-07:00

If I closed my eyes could I see you again,
Go back in time to how things were back then?
If I muted the world could I hear you speak?
Get back my strength, cuz since you left I've been so weak.
If I held out my hand would you take it back,
Pick up my broken pieces and get me back on track?
If I gave you my heart could you help it mend,
Be my guard there to defend?
If we were given a choice, one day together or a million apart,
Would you give up your life and give me your heart?
If you could go back and change how things went,
Would you?

Oh, Come Sun

2012-10-10T13:07:00.000-07:00

The clouds flood over my head

Blocking away the sun until the light is dead

The darkness of the clouds begin to pour out

Flooding the streets so the light can't be found

Raindrops hitting all around

Creating new obstacles on the ground

And all the darkness blocks my view

Blocks my sight, so it's no longer on You

I try to find my place

But the darkness has blocked my grace

As the storm continues

Just wishing it would be through

But the rain turns to thunder

All these noises make me wonder

Then come lightning streaks across the sky

Tries to pass off as true light, but I know that that's a lie

Giving false glimpses of hope

As darkness continues to scope

Looking for its next victim

Oh, light please come

For it seems the light has been drowned out

And I'm trying not to doubt

But I don't know when I'll see it again

As the cloud keeps on pourin'

I'm just looking for a sign

A rainbow, possibly, across the sky

Where's all that You promised us?

I need to be patient, I must, I must

And I wonder when this storm will be done

And the light can come back from the sun

To take away this darkness that I see

Oh, come sun, I plea, I plea

Price of Regret

2012-10-07T12:24:00.000-07:00

Oh, what a heavy pillow you have

From all the dreams you have left on it

Each day and each night, they pile on

But you fear too much to pick them up

Fear too much to live them out

So they just remain

Silent, oh so silent

As you add on

Day after day

Night after night

Dream after dream

But they never move

So many excuses flood in your head

As you drown in the dreams that you left on your bed

As fear forces you to tie them down

Tie them down and never live them out

As the days go by

Your dreams never leave

For a dream is something that's hard to forget

And no one can measure the price of regret

Don't Forget About us

2012-09-30T02:53:00.000-07:00

I Am Full

2012-09-27T14:45:00.000-07:00

Legs so long, like they would never end

Long blonde hair just flowing in the wind

Your beady blue eyes have me so lost

Your warmness has made my cold heart defrost

Your name playing in my head on repeat

You come near and my heart skips a beat

Reaching for your hand as our fingers intertwine

In a world of hell, but with you it's just fine

Your voice, the only sound I hear

I can't help but smile whenever you are near

I'll do anything to hear your gorgeous laugh

I've loved you since the first day, I'll never take that back

My soul just loves everything you are

Tattooed to my heart, so you can never be too far

The present of your presence, the only thing I need

I want you all to myself, guess you can call it greed

I will love you with everything I got

You complete me with everything I'm not

They say that opposites attract

Well I must be the devil, 'cause you're an angel, that's a fact

Before you, I was a boy so lost

But God came through, and to me you were tossed

Your halo so bright, to light up my path

'Cause i was suffering from the darkness of life's wrath

I give you my soul, give you my heart

Praying that you and I will never be apart

So kiss my lips, connect to my soul

'Cause I am just a boy, but with you I am full

Sometimes

2012-09-26T01:10:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I stutter when I talk

Sometimes I stumble when I walk

Sometimes I trip when I run

Sometimes I come and ruin all the fun

Sometimes I forget my name when I see her

Is it Ryan? I'm not really too sure

Sometimes I forget the answer in class

Sometimes I'm too nervous to even ask

Sometimes I don't know which 'to' to use

Sometimes I just feel confused

Sometimes I lie

Sometimes I cry

Sometimes I nod, because I don't want to ask 'what?'

Sometimes I'm the chicken that won't cross the road, because I don't have the guts

Sometimes I feel so insecure

Sometimes I act immature

Sometimes I'm not perfect

But I was made by a God who is

All In

2012-09-22T09:46:00.002-07:00

Sometimes the hardest things in life is chasing after a dream. Chasing after something you really, really want, but fearing that you just don't have what it takes. Whether that dream be acting, singing, becoming a doctor, going to Harvard, or being the world's greatest hobo, we all feel that little bit of fear. And, sadly, that fear is sometimes enough to hold us back from ever truly reaching after that dream. So, instead of going after what we really want, we go the typical route of life for security: we graduate high school, go to college, major in whatever we can get a job in, graduate, maybe go to grad school, and live our whole lives in a cubical. But, in the end, what do you have? Nothing more than a heart of regret and a head filled with 'what ifs'.

Honestly, screw security. Who cares about what the world says we should do. Who are they to decide what we do with our lives? If you want to act, then act. If you want to make music, then make music. If you want to write, then write. If you want to be homeless...don't do that, that one should probably be avoided. The only thing we should be seeking out in life is happiness, not security. If you have a dream, chase it so fast, chase it so hard, chase it with all you got, chase with every single ounce of energy that your body possesses, so that at the end of the day you don't have to ask yourself 'what if', because you'll know. That's the only real security you need in life.

And often we fear that we won't have the support of our peers, fear that we may be teased, that we may be ridiculed. But, truth is, you will. Everything worth chasing in life has a group of critics on the other side. But if you don't bet on yourself, no one will. So take all your chips, take every single chip, and slide those all to the middle of the table. Put every chip that you have and place them on your dream. Don't be half in, quarter in, mostly in, but be ALL IN! If you really want something, if you really want it, then take all you've got and chase that dream. Chase it so fast, chase it so hard, chase it with all you got, chase it with every single ounce of energy your body possesses, so that at the end of the day you don't have to ask yourself 'what if', because you'll know. Yes, that needed to reiterated. Be all in. Because if you believe in yourself, they'll come around. So take your chips, be all in.

Forks in the Road

2012-09-19T10:44:00.000-07:00

In life you come to forks in the road,

You can either go left or you can go right.

You make your decision, then you move on.

You go down a few more steps,

Maybe a couple miles, maybe a few feet,

Then you come to another fork.

You are then left to decide once more.

You decide, then it's done-

And life goes on.

And you reach another fork,

And the pattern continues.

Not knowing, however, that each path

Has it's own life.

Each direction, the left and right,

Both lead to whole new lives,

To whole new decisions,

To whole new endings and beginnings.

Each fork in the road is like the flutter of a butterflies wing,

Swirling the world into a whole new direction.

All based on that simple decision,

Left or right?

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I wait

2012-09-16T22:12:00.004-07:00

I see your face, shining through my memories

And I can hear your voice in every single story

And God knows your name by heart, from every single prayer

You may be gone, but I always will care

Your name is permanently tattooed in my heart

Put it there so we will never be apart

Put it at the tip, so I don't ever have to dig

Have my arms spread, I love you this big

Wrapped around the world so many times they can never miss it

Just sitting here wishing you didn't have to exit

Exit my life, to never come back

I'm a train wreck, fell so far off the track

As the train's steam reaches for the heavens

Carrying every cried prayer with them

Every shout and every tear

All wishing that you were still here

But, like they say, every good thing ends

And my heart one day might mend

But until then, I wait

Tick-tock, tick-tock; I wait

God Overcomes

2012-09-10T01:37:00.000-07:00

The cross symbolizes so, so, so much. But there is one thing that has just crossed my mind. Ready, set, read!!

Okay, so Jesus(the perfect man, God's son, fully God and fully man) was sentenced to the most brutal death one can imagine! He was beat with over 100 lashes(over double what is considered automatic death), he then is spit on, crowned by thorns (are you joking?? Could you imagine the pain?!), forced to carry an extremely heavy cross for miles and miles through a village of mocking people. He was spit at some more, punched, kicked, thrown to the ground, dirt kicked in his face, and received very gruesome taunts. Then after all of that was nailed to a cross, I said nailed to a cross!! Had nails hammered into both wrists and then had his ankles nailed together! Do you have any idea the pain it would be to receive nails through your flesh, nerves, tendons, muscles, bones? I don't want to know that pain.

Oh, and did I mention that this whole time He had the power to end all of this?? To end all the pain, to end all the torture! But He loved us SOO much that he didn't even NUMB a single nerve. He didn't numb out a single ounce of pain! He felt every single whip to his back, every nail, glass shard, and more that ripped his skin off, felt every single kick, felt every thorn to his head, felt the pain of carrying the cross, along with carrying every burden of every man, of every female to ever (I said EVER!) walk this earth(whether that be Adam, Eve, Abraham, Moses, Napoleon, Henry V, Shakespeare, Hitler, Stalin, me, you, and every single person that hasn't even yet been born).

Back to the point. Actually, all of this is the point.

All of this was put onto Jesus, the perfect man, the son of God, fully God and fully man. And what happens after all of this? He conquers death, yes I said conquers death!! Have you ever heard of a man who has been dead for three days, thrown in a tomb, had his heart stopped, no food, no water, no oxygen and then all of a sudden, three days later (BAM!) he's walking around completely alive? Nope, just Jesus! Could you imagine the power it would take to bring a man back from the dead? That is an insane amount of power and strength! But who has that strength? Oh, that's right GOD!!! God has the power, has the strength, and has the love to do so!!

So, if God was willing to put the perfect man, the son of God, fully God and fully man to death just so He could overcome it, then why should we ever be discouraged? Why should we ever fear? Why should we ever doubt?

We so quickly allow ourselves to get down when things aren't going completely as we planned. Well, next time you feel discouraged just remember this: God put Jesus through all of that so He could use Him to overcome death. So, what makes you think he won't use you to overcome whatever that obstacle in your life may be?

The Pursuit

2012-09-08T00:18:00.001-07:00

In my opinion, the best worded phrase in a historical document* is found in the Declaration of Independence. This phrase is very renown and goes like this:

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.

The part I want to focus on is the underlined, bolded, italicized part(so it cannot be missed!!); "the pursuit of happiness." Even our forefathers knew that happiness was not a given right, but the pursuit of it was. So, how do we then attain happiness?

Well, like stated, it is a pursuit. To pursue something is to seek after something; in this case, happiness. Happiness must be something we seek out every single day. We must seek happiness in all we do: in every breath, in every step, in every word, in every action, in every decision. The biggest lie that we can ever tell ourselves is that we are entitled to happiness. That we have worked so hard and we are now entitled to this. Truth is, we are only entitled to the pursuit.

So, whatever it is that you are going through in your life: whether it be a relationship, school, work, sports, acting, singer, whatever it is, you must pursue happiness. You must seek it out with all you've got! If you want to have that smile on your face, that smile that you actually mean, you have to seek it out in everything you do. There are many things in life that you can attain through connections or just pure luck, like landing that perfect job, meeting that dream producer, landing an audition in that dream movie. But, once you get that job, record deal, or leading role, what must you do? You must continually work at it, must continually grind, must continually seek it out! It is never finished, it is never accomplished, it is never done. It is a pursuit.

Happiness is attainable, it is very, very attainable. But, where will you look for it? Guess it's just yours to pursue.

*Besides the Bible, of course.