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Dying a little bit everyday

2024-01-26T11:34:00.001+05:30

Driving on an endless highway

Loathing the ground beneath

Countless fears lurking in mind

Haunting me every night and day

Doors inside my head bolted from within

Blocking all the dawn

Knocked out hard by the strong winds

Nothing left to win

Waiting on the sea of gray

Seven moons and seven suns

A lot to forget, a lot to remember

I am dying a little bit everyday

I met a man on the way

Who greeted me with a smile

I was looking in the mirror and realized

Don't save it for another day

Worn out, it was a long day

I stopped at a place called home

Room to room, came a revelation

We all are dying a little bit everyday!

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48 Laws of Power by Robert Greene: Key Learnings from the Book

2023-04-29T20:27:00.001+05:30

"The 48 Laws of Power" by Robert Greene is a book that has gained significant popularity since its release in 1998. The book aims to provide readers with a deep understanding of the dynamics of power and how to gain and maintain it. While some may view the book as manipulative, others see it as a valuable guide to navigating the complexities of the modern world. In this article, we will discuss some of the key learnings from the book.

1. Power is all around us

One of the primary messages of "The 48 Laws of Power" is that power is ubiquitous. It is present in all human interactions, from personal relationships to business dealings. Understanding power dynamics is essential to navigating these relationships successfully.

2. Learn to observe people

To gain power, it is important to be able to read people accurately. Greene advises readers to observe people carefully and to pay attention to their body language, tone of voice, and overall behavior. By understanding what motivates people, you can better influence them.

3. Be adaptable

Power dynamics are constantly changing, and those who are successful in gaining and maintaining power are those who can adapt to these changes. It is important to be flexible and to be willing to change your tactics when circumstances demand it.

4. Play the long game

Greene advises readers to focus on the long-term and to be patient in their pursuit of power. He emphasizes the importance of planning ahead and of building alliances that will support your goals over time.

5. Cultivate a reputation for unpredictability

One of the most interesting laws in the book is Law 18, which advises readers to cultivate a reputation for being unpredictable. By keeping others guessing about your intentions, you can gain an element of surprise that can be useful in negotiations or other power struggles.

6. Understand the importance of timing

Timing is crucial in power dynamics. Greene advises readers to be patient and to wait for the right moment to make their move. He also emphasizes the importance of being aware of external factors that may impact the timing of your actions.

7. Never outshine the master

One of the most famous laws in the book is Law 1, which advises readers never to outshine their superiors. While it may seem counterintuitive, the idea behind this law is that if you make your boss look good, you will be rewarded with greater opportunities for advancement.

8. Be careful who you trust

Greene warns readers to be cautious about who they trust. He advises readers to be aware of the motives of those around them and to be careful not to reveal too much information to those who may use it against them.

9. Keep your options open

Power is fluid, and those who are successful in gaining and maintaining it are those who keep their options open. Greene advises readers to cultivate a wide network of contacts and to be open to new opportunities as they arise.

10. Understand the value of silence

Finally, Greene emphasizes the importance of silence. He advises readers to be careful not to reveal too much about themselves or their plans, and to use silence strategically in negotiations and other power struggles.

In conclusion, "The 48 Laws of Power" is a book that provides valuable insights into the dynamics of power and how to gain and maintain it. While some of the laws may seem manipulative or unethical, the book provides a useful framework for understanding the complexities of human interactions. By understanding the lessons in the book, readers can become more effective in navigating power dynamics in their personal and professional lives.

Have you read the book? Share your thoughts in the comments section below.

Why 3 Idiots is More Than Just Entertainment: Valuable Lessons for Personal Growth

2023-04-14T14:44:00.002+05:30

3 Idiots is more than just a movie - it's a masterpiece that has managed to leave an impact on millions of people. From its heart touching dialogues to its amazing screenplay and relatable characters, this movie has managed to capture the hearts of many.

As someone who has watched the movie several times, I can confidently say that it's one of the most inspiring movies out there. Here are some of the most important lessons that I have learned from watching 3 Idiots.

Money Can't Buy You Happiness, Really?

The age-old adage that "money can't buy happiness" is true, but there's a catch. Money can buy you the things that can make you happy. In other words, having more money can lead to a happier life to some extent. However, it's not necessary to have your own money to be happy. The character of Rancho, played by Aamir Khan, is a perfect example of this. For him, happiness was about gaining knowledge, and he was able to do that even though the money wasn't his own.

Have and Follow Your Innate Desires

As humans, we often lose ourselves in the loud noise that we create. Many of us seek validation and get judged by people who aren't even like us or who haven't had the same experiences as us. This leads to a toxic and hypocritical culture where every action is judged.

The character of Raju Rastogi, played by Sharman Joshi, perfectly portrays this inner fear and vulnerability that many of us feel. But ultimately, he realizes that the life he was living wasn't worth it.

It's important to understand your passion and nurture it. Each character in the movie had a desire or passion for something. Pursuing your passion can lead to a happier and more fulfilling life.

Fear is Not Good for Grades, TRUE!

Fear is one of the biggest roadblocks to achieving our goals in life. The only thing that stops a person from doing anything in life is fear. Unfortunately, fear is deeply ingrained in our minds by our parents, relatives, friends, and society in general. We often miss out on opportunities and experiences because we are afraid of the consequences.

To overcome fear, we need to take action. The answer lies in three simple words - "do it anyway." When we take action despite our fears, we realize that the fear was unfounded in the first place.

Detach Your Minds and See the Wonders It Can Do

Society has a way of telling us what we should do in life - get a degree, get married, have kids, and settle down. However, this is not the only path to happiness. People with burning desires, passions, and dreams are often laughed at and crushed under the weight of hypocrisy, ego, and greed. Rancho was able to achieve wonders because he was not bound by these societal pressures. He was able to focus on his passion and excel at it.

Change Yourself, and the People Will Change Themselves

Change is inevitable, and the only constant is change. The way you look at the world is a reflection of who you are from the inside. The world is a reflection of your thoughts and perceptions that have been built inside you since birth.

Changing your patterns, unlearning and learning new things is what is needed to enjoy every phase of life. It's not your basic nature that needs to change, but the learnings from your experiences that need to change.

Observe, Observe, Observe

Observation is a powerful tool that often goes overlooked. In the movie 3 Idiots, we see the protagonist, Rancho (Aamir Khan), use his observation skills to great effect. For example, when he notices Pia's (Kareena Kapoor) watch, he deduces that it belonged to her mother.

However, in our own lives, we often fail to observe even the most basic details. We get lost in our own thoughts and miss out on opportunities to learn and grow. Even when we do observe, we may not always use that knowledge at the right time.

To become better observers, we can start by consciously practicing observation in our daily lives. This means paying attention to the world around us and taking note of the details. We can also try to use our observations to draw connections and make deductions, like Rancho did with Pia's watch.

These are my learnings from the movie. What are your thoughts? Do share your take in the comments section below.

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The Sun will Rise Again…

2022-12-18T21:01:00.002+05:30

I passed across an alley

All I could feel was silence

And an eerie vibe

Consumed me from within

The thunder lighted up my way

For a fraction of a second

The cracks on the building

Proclaimed its haunted past

All my life I have waited

And in my hour of need

Tonight I pray to you

One last time

Tell me that the sun will rise again…

Begging you to listen

No I’m not insane

I am ready to face it now

Just coalesce the revelations

The sun is bound to rise again…

The sun is bound to rise again, yeah!

The memories came back

As a bullet pierced my brain

Opening up the hidden chambers

That lay lifeless but with pain

All my life I have waited

And in my hour of need

Tonight I pray to you

One last time

Tell me that the sun will rise again…

[chorus]

The sun is bound to rise again…

The sun is bound to rise again, yeah!

 
Copyright - Saurabh Chawla
 

I Have Waited Enough

2022-09-25T20:51:00.003+05:30

Walking away

Past the shadows

Waiting for my time

You suddenly turned up

All the times of pleasure

Took over the pain

Those unforgettable innocent eyes

And that cute smile...

I have waited enough

You don't get it

I guess you never will

And it was a beautiful night

The time when we kissed

And stayed together

Hand in hand, our love bloomed

Oh, I loved every bit of it, I still do!

We hit the sidewalk

Walking past the insinuations

And the implications

Only to lose it all...

I have waited enough

You don't get it

I guess you never will

And it was a beautiful night...

In your eyes, lies my world...

2022-05-17T19:51:00.001+05:30

Saw you on Facebook

Dressed in yellow

Impossible to let my eyes off

Oh! you are so beautiful

The first time I saw you

I was lost in those deep eyes

Searching for some place quiet

To build a home inside

The first time I touched you

Felt the ever longing twitch

My mind keeps reminiscing

Those moments of bliss...

Still looking for a place

In your ocean eyes

To build a home sweet home

For US to live and relish together

Oh the beautiful you

No one can steal your glory

Will find a space and build a palace

Never to skip from your eyes anymore!

Let's build a palace together, my love!

Let's Dance Tonight, shall we?

2022-05-17T19:21:00.002+05:30

Let's dance tonight

Under the starry sky

Breaths mingled together

Like moon with the night

Let's dance tonight

Kissing indefinitely

Let our lips do the talking

In this beautiful darkness

Let's dance tonight

Hand in hand

Held close together

Never to leave again

Let's dance tonight

Consumed in the moment

Let ourselves unite as one

In the subdued moonlight

Let's dance tonight

With the stars & galaxies

Celebrating US together again

Never to fall apart...

Let's dance tonight, shall we?

Loving you is the only what I remember...

2022-02-07T17:34:00.002+05:30

The sky burst up in a confetti

Snow bathed the roads

The feeling of old is petty

As we see each other at the crossroads

Your mellifluous voice soothed my ears

As I was lost into the way you talked

Where you have been all these years?

Maybe you were the one I stalked

As the sky turned black

The night dragged everybody to their homes

Excited when you gave a nod to the snack

Tonight, You be the Irene Adler and I'll be Sherlock Holmes

Night sky welcoming us as we take a stroll

Silent, letting our eyes do the talking

Like a soul talking to a soul

And our lips do the locking

Stars playing hide and seek in the dark

As the coal sees the last of its remains in ember

I still have the deep love mark

Loving you is the only what I remember...

Happy New Year 2022: Best Quotes, Wishes, Messages to share with your near and dear ones

2021-12-30T21:50:00.006+05:30

As we proceed further to step into the new year 2022, I would like to wish you all a very Happy New Year 2022. I started my blog in the year 2012 and year on year the, blogging journey has been wonderful experience for me.

I was not aware of How to start a blog, but as I continued writing, I was able to sail through the process. This dream flourished when I started with Storizen Magazine!

Today, I would like to wish you all a very Happy New Year 2022. Most of you would not be able to party, celebrate the occasion like before due to the pandemic and rising Omicron cases!However, messaging, wishing your loved ones also counts for a celebration, isn't it?

I am sharing below some of the best Happy New Year 2022 wishes, messages, quotes for you to share with your friends, family and near and dear ones!

Happy New Year 2022 Wishes

Time flies when you’re with the love of your life. Cheers to another year together — and forever to go!

I’m so proud of all your accomplishments this year — and I just can’t wait to see what you do in the next.

I’m so grateful for your support and love this year. Here’s to many more years of friendship!

The future is your story to write… make next year the best one yet.

Our friendship is like wine, and it's a new year of us getting better with age. Thank you for being you and cheers to what is coming our way.

Wishing you and yours some well-deserved downtime and a very happy new year to come.

Wishing you and yours a happy, healthy, and abundant 2022!

You deserve all the best: May all your wishes come true in 2022!

New Year’s Day is the first page in a blank book: Write a phenomenal story!

Happy New Year 2022 Messages

Nights will be dark but days will be light, wishing your life to be always bright – Happy New Year.

Let us look back at the past year with the warmest of memories. Happy New Year.

A new year is like starting a new chapter in your life. It’s your chance to write an incredible story for yourself.

May you discover everything you are looking for in the new year right inside yourself!

A new year is like starting a new chapter in your life. It’s your chance to write an incredible story for yourself.

Let the old year end and the New Year begin with the warmest of aspirations. Happy New Year!

Let your dreams take flight in the new year!

On this New Year, may you change your direction and not dates, change your commitments and not the calendar, change your attitude and not the actions, and bring about a change in your faith, your force, and your focus and not the fruit. May you live up to the promises you have made and may you create for you and your loved ones the happiest New Year ever.

Out with the old, in with the new: may you be happy the whole year through. Happy New Year!

With the new year on the horizon, I wish that you embrace it with an open heart and go forward with faith, hope, and courage.

Happy New Year 2022 Quotes

"This is a new year. A new beginning. And things will change." ―Taylor Swift

"All of us every single year, we're a different person. I don't think we're the same person all our lives."—Steven Spielberg

"All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them."—Walt Disney

“No matter how hard the past is, you can always begin again.” —Jack Kornfield

"Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365-page book. Write a good one." —Brad Paisley

"An optimist stays up until midnight to see the New Year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves.”—Bill Vaughn

“Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. Life is beauty, admire it. Life is a dream, realize it.”—Mother Teresa

“The beginning is the most important part of the work.” —Plato

"Maybe this year, we ought to walk through the rooms of our lives not looking for flaws, but looking for potential." —Ellen Goodman

“In our perfect ways. In the ways we are beautiful. In the ways we are human. We are here. Happy New Year’s. Let’s make it ours.” —Beyonce

Do share your favorite ones in the comments section below. Also, if you want to share some of your own quotes, messages, wishes for the New Year 2022, do let me know in the comments section below.

The Love so Sweet, Yeah I Know...

2021-10-17T11:28:00.003+05:30

Looking myself in the mirror

Staring the hurricane in the eye

As I come closer to my reflection

Hiding beneath the lie

The colors in the sky turn grey

Thunderstorm welcoming the day

I walk on the cracked roads

Below which thousands of souls lay

The unknown is the path, the unknown is the way

Still, I have stepped out towards the destination

The pain washed away by the tiny droplets of rain

Moving on from station to station

You can't cage a bird as free as me

Destined to see the places without a sigh

Past influences future or future is the past

Yeah, I will fly high...

I must be traveling now

The love is so sweet, yeah I know

Pulled me like the guitar strings

So much for you, I have to show...

Photo by Alejandra Quiroz on Unsplash

I'm Here to Stay...

2021-04-30T13:31:00.000+05:30

With all the heart

And my soul

I embarked on a journey

Without any goal

Lighting up the candles

As I sit in the dark

The 3 am friends came knocking

Yes they appeared so stark

Listened to my heart's calling

Staying away from the crowds

Loved the enchanting scenery

Behind the white clouds

The sun kissed the mountains

The ink splashed on the paper

Painting thoughts with words

And emotions turn to vapor

The time went by so quickly

It just seemed like yesterday

I was drawn to you, the pied piper

Not going anywhere, I'm here to stay...

*This year, I complete 9 years of my blogging journey. It is not a roller coaster ride for me. As a person who takes things slowly, like to live a slow, peaceful life, I pen whatever I feel like writing. With this poem, I express my thoughts and emotions plus the experiences.

Photo by Elijah O'Donnell from Pexels

Are you ready for this trip?

2021-02-24T22:39:00.000+05:30

Starting from scratch nth time

Following a different way

Getting not even a dime

As the regular pay

Removing the sick mind

Replacing with the healthy one

Not to be left behind

This fight is to be won

All that hard work

Always gone unseen

Life gives a smirk

Time to change the scene

Taking on the challenge

Sailing the sinking ship

Not trying to be savage

Are you ready for this trip?

Photo by Fuu J on Unsplash

With you, my love, every week is a Valentines week!

2021-02-08T21:23:00.003+05:30

Taking my breath away

As I see your silky hair sway

Can't wait to come to you to propose

I come closer to you with a red rose!

Dancing under the starlit sky

Our lips meet, with a sigh

Feeling cold, I put my hand in the pocket

Surprise you with your favorite chocolate!

The Downpour of the rain teases us

There is a minus, there is a plus

Making it sure that we are ready

Says with a blink, the cute teddy!

As the thundering becomes intense

Clouds began to form so dense

Being with you is a sweet drug

Can't wait to give you a tight hug!

Wishing this night doesn't go away

Is the only thing that I pray

Time is running out, reaching to the peak

With you, my love, every week is a Valentines week!

Also read - Nobody else, but only you!

Giving It All Up

2020-11-08T11:12:00.012+05:30

Counting and recounting the number of times I failed, it has created a mountain tearing the ceiling of the house I live in. Curse, as they say, It's not bad luck as I don't believe in the bullsh*t of good or bad luck. The reason being the definition of what's good or bad varies from person to person.

They say being lost is common and one can get back. What about a person who has gone for too long and too far? It will take a lifetime to get back. Living the same old life on a daily basis, the problems faced never seem to end. The so-called God sitting above the puny human beings is enjoying the matinee show.

Never-Ending Pain

Aching nights, tracked by the satellites, but I am not received. Looking for ways to collect the broken pieces of my useless life, but it doesn't seem to fix anytime soon coz the pieces are too many.

The fire that originally erupted seems to complete its course and burn out. The cold flame seemingly burning the last time, trying hard to gather the needed air to burn itself again.

Going by the rules, the world seems to spin around endlessly. Trying to grab on a constant spot, but all trials in vain.

The caste, the creed, the religion, the spiritual taking on all that you have got effortlessly. Sleepless nights, endless fights, no one cares if you see the dawn or not.

The Burning Soul

Tried praying, did all the possible activities to please the one sitting above us all even tried sitting in a burning pyre, but it seems that the enjoyment never seems to end and the audience wants more of it.

Pulling the sheet above my eyes, so I can try to sleep tonight, but the constant beats of the drum wakes me up every damn night.

Like a ghost I wander the streets, seeing the smiling faces, happy couples, group of friends dancing in the lounge from a single, lone corner. This is what I also used to do when I was alive.

They say don't let them take you down, but what if I want to drown me slowly?

Wear Me Out Till I Am Dead

No matter how much I try, it's not enough. I see myself in the mirror and I see the mountain of the pain tempting me to climb it up. I so damn wish too but it seems to be 50000 feet high and with one slip, I will be lost in the bottomless abyss to be lost again.

Sometimes, I pray to keep me adrift, unaffected by whatever happens, but the prayers are the means of entertainment for someone listening to them. It's like a mellifluous song to his ears which he forgot to remove from his player's repeat mode.

Stopped doing the crap I was doing in the past, forced myself to be distracted with the life I once wished for myself only to know that wishes come true only in movies.

The reality is different in the sense that your wishes are controlled by someone else. You can't ever get what you ever wished. In fact, you don't even know what you have to lose to let the genie grant you that wish of yours.

The sands of time will wear you down, killing you from within. Every time you wake up from that deep slumber, you will feel like you have been reborn, reincarnated from what you actually were in the past.

Gain Something, Lose All

I tried gambling, no luck, card games, no luck again. Mediocre, average I have always been. They say do the stuff you are best at, I tried that, only to be left alone with a room full of darkness all around.

No claps, no sound of appreciation, cheerful audience, I haven't seen any. My mind shouted, TRY AGAIN. I tirelessly give in my best again, gathering the lost pieces along with the ones that are in my immediate sight, only to see the same results again.

I wonder cursing myself would help or curse fate, but neither helps. Now I feel the worst is near, but to keep my dying hopes alive, lose everything I have got, and break down in the shape of things to come.

Gave It All Up

Sharpening myself, rubbing every inch on the edge of the stone, I gave myself up a long time ago, it was just the ending flame, before burning out, help me find the dawn of the dying day.

On the sea of grey, I endure the pain, the suffering and the endless torture, I am lost, tired and depraved, I am looking for a ray of light to come from somewhere.

Waited for ages, losing patience, I have convinced myself that you won't be there ever and I have to walk alone, paving my own path only to find you standing at the other end, smiling and taking all the credit of all the things you never did.

Here is another selfless attempt to please you, I am a wreck, I am a mess, I know I screwed it all up, like always, you enjoy seeing me giving it all up.

Don't Wake Me Up Ever Again

2020-11-07T10:20:00.000+05:30

"Wake up! It's sunrise." Someone screamed at me in the dawn. In deep slumber, I had no intention to wake up and face the demons of the haunted house again. Life literally plays hide and seek with me and somehow I have also started enjoying it.

Tried a lot to speak out but as I elucidated in my previous post, counting my failures is not my cup of tea anymore because they are too many. Carrying miserable myself everywhere, knocking every door I can to seek refuge, but sometimes life, like the tongue can be betraying.

From dawn to dusk, I do it all over again incessantly every single day. Watching all laugh at the fool called me is no surprise as I have started doing the same, I laugh at myself whenever I do something that doesn't seem to be of this world.

Please me not

The pleasing material I have become, like a puppet with strings held by multiple personalities out there. I try to find myself but all I see is darkness. Hiding, deep down I pray for this misery to end but all my efforts go in vain.

Being the favorite child of the so-called God as I am told every time I am laughed at for that failed attempt to please somebody. I reluctantly inhale the smoke from the fire by burning down the place I once lived in, but still the riot deep inside seems to not end as it decides to move on.

I only realized after closing in on the personalities holding me, it was a disguise and I was being played by God. As my favorite child, I have to please him with every breath I take. No one cares how many times I fall or even if I will wake up or not the next morning, the show must go on.

Admonished every time I try to change my path, I embrace the painful, pitiful journey with a smile on my lips. If he is anywhere listening to me, I am in and would do anything but to please you.

Tie me up

Mundane life seems boring but to have the bread and butter, getting back to the things I do is important to live. No one cars whether I love doing it or not. Think about a lion is left in a green pasture with no one to pounce on.

Anyone can imagine the fate of the lion but no one can feel the pain of the lion. Again, one of the so-called trap laid down by the father called God to tie me down so I am not able to move around. A plea from the favorite child which I know will again fall to deaf ears, tie me so tight that I cannot breathe anymore and leave this stormy world peacefully.

Revelations bring me closer to hell

Digging down deeper in the pages of the book of my worthless life, I enjoy and laugh as I finish every chapter and so wish to be closer to hell. The turmoil drags me down every time I try to keep my eyes off. Solving mysteries, I cannot find the missing clues anywhere.

As life unfolds in front of me, I may have already left for hell seeking refuge from the incessant torture tearing me apart. I rather not invite you to travel with me on this journey as I like to do it alone all by myself.

Wrapping it up

Ultimately, you are allowed to lay in rest, go wherever you want as you no longer can bear the pain of the torments that you have been through.

Running away from it doesn't work because it is inevitable. I somehow regret being not able to face this sooner when I was absolutely close to the end, so close that I could see it a couple of inches apart.

I may hurt you, but I also feel the pain. Bruised skies bring the rain. It's true that I try really hard, but all my efforts go in vain!

Think about this when the next time you try to wake me up because i no longer wish to see the dawn of the day.

I am a Failure

2020-11-06T22:19:00.002+05:30

“Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough.” This quote by Og Mandion seems like a ray of hope for many out there who are struggling right now or have seen struggle throughout their lives.

Today, I am going to discuss something which I have been pondering over for the last few months. It may seem that I am venting out my frustrations to most of you but I am speaking this from my experiences rather than frustrations. So it's a request to all of you not to judge me by this post or if you do want to frame opinions you are free to do because I have no control over it whatsoever.

Fear All Around

I have never been fearful but lately with the chain of events that has happened in my life recently, fear is the new language I am peaking now. It's not that I am an introvert and can't shout out loud for what I want or need, but it's that I am f**k**g tired of doing that. The voices either fall on deaf ears or are lost somewhere in the noise.

It only reflects back to me when I try to say something. It is like talking to myself or even yelling at myself. I fear, not for me dying as that is evident but what will happen if I have to stay alive another day in a similar hell loop which I even did not create.

I try looking for answers, searching every nook and corner, sometimes wishing to close my eyes and imagine that it never happened. All of this goes in vain and I am back to the same hell loop circling round and round!

Go the Extra Mile, Forever

"You know he got selected for IIT. After completing his graduation, he will be taking admission in the IIM!" "When will you go the extra mile?" The words scream in my ears whenever I see a failure.

I have not traveled that extra mile! No one knows the background and story of my life. All they want is to form an opinion that I don't have that spark or an edge over that guy!

Skills? I don't have any. Work? I can't do it. Payment? I don't deserve it. Serious? No, I can't be. The chain keeps on growing and it never seems to end.

The rookie in me has been dead for almost 6 years now and I have walked several thousand extra miles towards the end of my life's journey but Karma is a bitch so I am back to square one!

Wondering what's next? I will keep moving forward no matter what and end up again to my starting position, every time. It's a bad habit which I can't get rid of.

Trust Me Never

Life throws a lot of stones at you but it is up to you to convert those stones into flowers. Sometimes, life throws heavy rocks at you. Now, try converting them to flowers! Trust me never my friend, you would love the pain in doing this.

I have faced plenty of betrayals in my life, all of us do right? The point is not about facing the betrayals, it's about how they shape you up.

Betrayals have shaped me better but deep down, the trust is not there. From the outer world, people around to me myself, it's getting harder every single day.

The only hope I have is to keep going which is a dark never ending tunnel that never seems to end.

I try to keep my sanity the way it should be but it gets on my nerves when one mistake in life which I even didn't commit, I have to pay for it every single day. The best part is that I will have to keep paying for it until I die.

All I Have is a Rejection

Endlessly tiring rejections break me down. I don't have the degree from that great institution and yes I may not be that brainy, but with all the power of my puny brain, I may build out something of importance.

I have heard a lot of "iske bas ki kuch nahi hai" and still hear it, especially from people who were once close to me, every failure draws me to the belief that they were in fact true.

Endlessly tiring rejections, getting refused straight on the face without reasons, going from the room by room patiently, I wait for you like a stone only to be thrown away one day.

Die the Hard Way

Making up my mind about one thing, I get bogged down by ten others. The problems you can see by looking deep into my eyes. I try hiding behind the curtains or sometimes behind the closed doors, wishing that they never open up.

They say everything happens as written in your destiny. I hear this all the time, incessantly, "Sorry my friend, your destiny is written with cacti, a lot of them."

I don't even fee the thorns now. Maybe they pierced deep within my soul (If I have one). Many personalities I embraced during my not so important life, I embrace the pain of failure that it carries along with it.

Curse in disguise, walking in the haunted world with the honest ghosts of my own past, waiting for the death to finally strike me. I am that failure that can never succeed, the disease that can never heal.

Heading towards a dead end, all I can say is, BRING IT ON!

Nobody else, but only you!

2020-08-23T12:51:00.001+05:30

Looking into your eyes

Escaping the world outside

Following you tonight

And Longing for a life

Baby I was lonely

Quarreling with everyone

Searching for peace everywhere

Finally got it in your arms

Bloodless and blind

I had turned

Of people turning me down

Now I've buried them all

Standing on the empty street

Staring the Blue moon

Waiting for you to arrive

Nobody else, but only you!

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Feeling of Nirvana!

2020-05-27T19:55:00.003+05:30

Your long lashes
Inviting me hard
Old memory flashes
Temptation I can't guard

Dark fantasies can't be ignored
When I caress your silk
Slowly the wine is poured
On your skin so velvety milk

Our lips explore each other
From top to bottom, every inch
We feel a seductive smother
Did you also feel the pinch?

Rolling over on the bed
I apologize, I trespassed,
Your territory moving ahead
That too without being asked

Holding hands together, fingers clamped tightly
Your eyes tell me to walk your territory really?
Your incessant gaze, so tempting, mine accept brightly
Deep within ourselves, we feel nirvana, freely!

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Revelation

2020-01-01T18:56:00.003+05:30

Living a life of peace

Saving myself from the turmoil

Free from the disease

Better to keep the oil

Alive I feel

By each passing day

With myself, I made the deal

To keep the worries at bay

Dealing with the procrastination

From the unnecessary things

Dreaming indefinitely, imagination

With the life only, I love the flings

Mistakes buried in the past

Never to be dug again

Moving slow and fast

That's how I train

Gobbled up what is left behind

I have traveled past those stations

The testament is thus signed

I am happy with these revelations

Wish you all a very Happy New Year 2020

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Inebriated By Your Love, To Divinity

2019-09-03T21:32:00.000+05:30

You looked at me
With your tired eyes
Not able to, you still prise
Soothing it is, do you agree?

The black Mascara
Accentuating your lashes
Our eyes meet in flashes
Losing slowly in an old era

Nobody is around us
At least I don't see a soul
In the garden of Eden, we stroll
All sorted out, there is no fuss

Dancing with hand in hand
With our fingers clung tight
To the mellifluous band
Please, dim the light!

Wishing this night stayed till Infinity
You and me, eyes to eyes, soul to soul
Slowly we slip in the night, don't cajole
Inebriated by your love, to divinity

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Losing Myself

2019-06-10T19:24:00.001+05:30

Losing myself
Escaping the world
From shelf to shelf
I like to be curled

Growing up
In the uncertainty
Like a street pup
Want decision with certainty

Getting nervous
Wrecked from the inside
Doing all but service
As a part of me died

Got shooed
I tried my best
No change in the mood
Huge load on my chest

Snap back to reality
I may appear sick
Falling fast, thanks to gravity
I want to lose myself in this music...

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Sun Will Rise Again...

2019-04-24T15:17:00.000+05:30

Running away from yourself
The reason unknown
Selecting one from the shelf
No one stays on the Throne

Loving the way you live
The only truth which is there
Whatever you take, you give
Putting it on layer by layer

The past is so haunted
Left alone, forever
Fighting it undaunted
Tired? Never!

Journey that can be so exciting
See it Closely, feel its brilliance
No, it's not inciting
But an act of resilience

Through the thick and thin
You crawl, you walk, you run
Breaking off the calluses off the skin
It will rise again tomorrow, the sun!

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For No Reason At All!

2019-03-10T19:48:00.002+05:30

You always tend to speak
But never listen
Sometimes making me weak
Creating unnecessary friction

You always try to show me
The world through your eyes
Turning me blind, a great fee
The harm you can't realize

Though I can take the fall
You always tread upon me
And take pride in standing tall
I know you feel that you're free

I will build you a pedestal
To feed your bruised self-esteem
Making you feel incredible
Faking it to be closer to your dream

Call me a zero, you never mind
I am ready to take the fall
Leave me speechless, turn me blind
You can, for no reason at all...

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As I write this song...

2019-01-23T19:12:00.002+05:30

Living a life
Or living a lie
Harmony or strife
Eventually you'll die

If you get to see
The moonlight
Above the sea
Or it's out of sight

The beat of the drums
Creating the melody
It goes and comes
But heard by nobody

Burning away the lampActing as if you are brazen
Making it damp
Even in the haven

Coming near or turning away
Moving right along
Either go or better stay
As I write this song....

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I have been Used By, Compromised Many Times too. I am Setting Myself Free. Are you Setting Yourself Free?

2018-12-02T20:39:00.003+05:30

Life has many phases. You have to go through all of them. The day you are born till the day you die, you would have spent your life in both measurable and immeasurable experiences. Most of the times, the thing that often comes in mind, is how much you tolerated or compromised yourself for the other person. It doesn't matter what was the position of that person and yours too at that point of time.
There always comes a point when one says that yes, I am not able to compromise anymore. It can be due to your observing the things from another person's perspective or because of your own, open-eyed perspective to which you were one blind way long back.

Whatever the case may be, a time comes when you feel that you have been weighed down all the time till now and your compromises are just looked down as you being a weak, loser kind of a person. The result, a big blow to your self-esteem, self-confidence, in short, to your self-worth!

It happens in everybody's life. You feel dejected, unloved, disliked by all not because you are but because the image created by you by your compromises, sacrifices for others is like that of a weak person. The perception created is such that others simply start taking you for granted.

What can you do if stuck in such a situation? I have been in this situation a lot many times but now, I feel that its high time to stop thinking on it and do something about this and I would like to share it with you all below -

1. Realization

The very first step in this process is to realize that yes, it is the actual problem for which you are seeking a solution. The point here is to be conscious. If you don't realize it, you will keep repeating your actions subconsciously.

If you observe closely, even a doctor can't treat your illness till the time you realize or accept that yes, you have a problem. Realization is the first and foremost thing if you want to get out of this feeling once and for all.

2. Draw the line

Once you have realized that you have a problem of compromising every time and have a feeling of being used, simply sit down with a piece of paper and write down your traits for which you feel you usually feel being used or it's in your nature to compromise for.

If you recall and write down these situations, you will be able to draw the line to what is the limit up to which you can tolerate it and what happens if you go beyond that.

3. Learn to say the word 'No'

The word 'No' is in the English dictionary for a purpose, so make use of it. What you are currently doing is following 'Yes theory'. The point here is not saying yes at all but when you really need to.

Learn to say no to things which you really don't like doing or want to stay away from all the time. Yes, there will come the time when you have to face the situations or the people that make you uncomfortable but that would not be frequent. Moreover, a little discomfort is also necessary as it tests your limits.

So start saying no and see what difference it makes overall.

4. Weigh your priorities

People, especially in India as I have observed are very discouraging. Earlier, I used to get very sad, depressed by such behaviors of them but now, as the times have changed, I am neutral and sometimes laugh at some of them. I don't let them affect my thinking.

The reason why I am able to do that is that I simply realize that they can't match my wavelength. It's like saying, we all sleep under the same sky but we all see it through different eyes.

Weighing your priorities helps you in many ways especially the impact of what that person is saying to you.

5. Don't run away

This is essential. The main thing about all of this is that you can't run from the truth. Take responsibility for your actions and accept that you also played a role in being compromised or used as you think you are. You allowed yourself too to some extent whether consciously or subconsciously into acting the way you wanted to act.

This way you could keep a track of your actions and train your subconscious accordingly. You would be able to say that I have had enough and I am not born to compromise. That day, you will set yourself free.

Is there a time when you felt that you have had enough and want to get away with it? Share your experiences in the comments section below.

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