Seclusion of a Lonely Poet

Love (a Haiku)

2009-12-31T17:54:00.000-08:00

I was supposed to be joining a competition of making a haiku in "i Poetry TV", but I don't want to pay money to participate... anyways I will just post my Haiku here in my blog... I will try to make more...

love is my hobby
you are my one and only
why dont you take me

You Damn Bitch

2007-07-26T17:45:00.000-07:00

this, actually is a song i just learnt while i was taking a bath… and then i just wrote it down as soon as i dried up and clothed… and of course i’ve edited and added some more to it… it's actually about a girl whom is with my loved one, i don't like her...

I think that I’m sick
I think that I’m alone, so alone
I think now I’m confused, I feel used

(Bridge-1)

Oh, did you ever mean it when you say… when you say…

(Chorus-1)

That you love me… that you need me… did you just want me? Or did you ever love me like I do…

I think that I’m cursed,
I think that I’m crazed, (yeah)why am I erased
I think now I’m sure, there’s not any cure

(Bridge-2)

Oh, did you never felt…my warm embrace… (and I repeat this phrase…)

(Chorus-2)

(No)Did you love me… (No)did you need me… did you just want me?(Yeah) Or did you ever love me… just like I do…

Was it all a lie, NO! Don’t you deny…
‘Say you’re such a bitch…
Used me to FUCK YOU when you itch
No…no time to cry, I want you to die

(Repeat Bridge-1)
(Repeat Chorus-1)
Don’t kneel down my floor
Get out of my door,
NO! Don’t you ignore
Don’t believe anymore,
You’re such a whore!
You’re such a bore
My life you tore,
Reached up to my core,
And I say, GET OUT OF MY DOOR!!!

(Repeat Bridge-2)
(Repeat Chorus-2)

Yeah, did I learn or did I not,
What matters now, is what I’ve not….
You’re not a priest so don’t you preach
My unholy beast, you’re blasted speech…
Will never work things out…
Now I’ll be your jury,
So meet my savage fury
And oh… yes… yes… surely…
You love just so poorly… YOU DAMN BITCH!

Me and You

2007-07-26T17:44:00.000-07:00

Damn me, more damn to you
‘Just wanna hear, what is true
What d’you think, what d’you do
I’m wasted here, waiting for you

I waited for you, waited for nothing
Thought that I, for you is something
‘Coz you know, you are my everything
Everything now just ended as nothing

I don’t do things just for mere fun
I’m not for free, I’m not that one
If you want me, then get things done
Anticipating stabs, so don’t dare run

I know you’re afraid, well I am too
What would there be, I have no clue
We’re not alone, there’s me and you
Let’s just face life, like nothing’s new

Liberty is Dignity

2007-07-26T17:43:00.000-07:00

Look around, to see the faces of those who dare to hurt you
Move around, walk away from them all who stabs unto you
Spit around, and observe how they frown, what will you do
Spin around, to dodge everything who tries to break you

But then observe, what do you see
You must preserve—your dignity
And let them see, that you disagree
It’s your victory, ‘coz now you’re free
Yes, now you’re free… with your dignity

Walk around, and re-think over everything that you wanted to
Fool around, because sometimes it is just what you have to
Turn around, for it might be the last thing you need to do
Scream around, and let them hear what your heart is in to

And then look about, and then you’ll see
You must put out, your dignity
And let them see, that you disagree
It’s your victory, ‘coz now you’re free
Yes, now you’re free… with your dignity

Land of the Living

2007-07-26T17:42:00.000-07:00

Grieving won’t ever change anything
Living is now what you are needing
Waiting just for the unjust nothin
Weeping is simply wasted dealing

Feeling pain and always keeping
Nothing it does, your heart’s rotting
Revolving in the murk world of evening
Seeing none of thy beautiful morning

Returning in the world of the living
Turning back and move on finding
Swelling eyes are last to be mending
Forgetting, facing, just stop regretting

The Love Flu

2007-07-07T17:48:00.000-07:00

if you would be a disease, i would gladly sacrifice myself

for in that way, i could say, that you’ve been a part of me

the mere entry of your microbes in my body, is so much

i would cry, not for the pain and troubles you are carrying

it’s because for once, you did care to know me a little bit more

i would gladly be infected by your love flu, because im so into you

but so selfish i am, i won’t let anyone other than me to be infected

if it may that i should be isolated and quarantined in such a lab

it would be fine, yes it would be fine, as long as your just mine…!

BUT IT WOULD BE BEST TO BE HEALTHY AND ALSO BE WITH YOU…

I Need You

2007-07-07T17:47:00.000-07:00

everytime
im all alone, i look back in time, wishing it was different from what
is now, wishing after all those things were done, it turned out right

i
always see you, i still feel you, just like when we were still
together, i need you, i want you, please be mine, i beg you, please be
mine
when
i close my eyes, you’re the first thing in my mind, and when i wake up
in the morning, still, you, i see… again… but only in my thoughts,
just mere illusions

i
need your lips, your love, i want your embrace, the heat of your body
next to mine, i need you my love, my only one, i need you tonight and
forrever

so please be mine, if it can’t be forever… be it just for tonight… but please even once, be mine…

Hey...Baby...I'm Sorry...I'm a Liar...

2007-07-07T17:46:00.000-07:00

“If you would ask me why, all that I could reply, is that I just wanted to try, all I did was to pry, and then the next was that I, just made us both cry… and I then told another lie, if you would ask me why, I did it so that I won’t die, for the truth would make me sigh, but all my lies you didn’t buy, and now my life is oh so dry… I feel damned and too shy to try… “

I'm The Greatest Pretender... and It Doesn't Feel Good

2007-05-17T17:49:00.000-07:00

the pendulum revolts my inside;
spikes everyhting that i tried to hide;
coldness that gradually envelopes me;
when the hordes of death invades my body.

as much as i laugh is as much as i pour;
storms and thunders walloping my core;
everday’s rainbow’s losing it’s color;
another classical movie destined to bore.

your signals that’s thrashing and sure;
keeping me crashed unto the last floor;
thorns that are penetrating my insides;
then the interweaving vigors collides;

stealing my last drop of sleep and might;
like thief keeping me wake allthrough
the night…

A Happy Poem of Love

2007-05-17T17:48:00.000-07:00

Do you still remember when we were still
together?
We were so happy and we really loved
each other.
So good it felt and so content that
you’re this near;
You never made made me shed even a bead
of tear.
other’s hood;
Whenever I get down and drowned, not in
the mood;
You’re just still there, never left, not
even when i get rude.One time you drag me someplace i do not
know where;
I asked, “where are we?”… you said,
“it doesn’t matter”.
I just kept silent…’doesn’t matter as
long as we’re together;
It was so much that happiness, not one
word i could utter.

It was then, finally?, it just happened,
we had our first kiss;
I felt so unreal, it was a dream, for
me, it like a math quiz;
The chemistry was so intense I was cold
and was stuttering;
I never slept at that day… and i went
on until next morning.

When I looked at you and see that sunny
sunny face;
I just smile, I can’t beleive but then
continuously gaze;

And so pleased and all, how lucky I am
for having you;
But of course, what can I do, all of
this is so not true… just my
imagination…

Hanggang...

2007-05-07T17:50:00.000-07:00

hanggang titig nalang sa iyong mga matatamis na ngiti;

hanggang imahinasyong nalang na ika’y makapiling pang muli;

hanggang alaala nalang ba ang ating mga masasayang sandali?

hanggang pangarap nalang ang matagal ko nang minimithi…

hanggang nakaraan nalang ang ating pagsasamahan

hanggang dito nalang pagkat tayo’y nagkasamaan…

My New Found Treasure

2007-05-05T17:30:00.000-07:00

I am an angel of the wallowing shadows

Skulking at your most and then swallows

At your being and all that belongs to you

Turned on by that thing, your point of cue

Everyday I guard waiting for you to salute

Then seize you but tenderly and then shoot

The burning hell in so much of a pleasure

Don’t want to be afar, my new found treasure

Slithering snake of a liar, seventh angel’s on fire

All get so intense and still goes higher and higher

Lika a thief in the night with nothing in repent

Just to thrash you, my innocent sashaying serpent

I Love You, Does That Matter...?

2007-05-04T17:35:00.000-07:00

If you walk away from me today;

I will understand but still feels betrayed,

‘Coz I don’t know, why you wanna go;

Is it me? Is this just a show?

Baby I don’t know, was it all true

When you say, “I love you…”;

Oh I don’t know if you feel it too,

When I say, “I love you…”

‘Coz baby it’s true, baby it’s true, that I love you…

And if you walk away from me today;

I will understand, but does the love you layed,

Unto me… is true? For now I don’t know;

If it’s me and you…was it all just a show,

But maybe its true, you loved me too.

Does it hurt you too? Leaving me, alone and blue;

Oh I don’t know when it’s true, when you say… I love you,

But baby all i know, is that I love you;

And that the feeling is true, when i say… I love you.

Baby i will miss you, ‘coz i love you, baby it’s you,

I LOVE YOU…

Pleasurable Nightmares

2007-05-04T17:34:00.000-07:00

“i always thought you knew;

that there’s something in me at you…”

“that day which i regret– but not;

a pleasurable nightmare, was it not?…”

“thought that we could be

be together– together someday,

something true, true for me and you,

no masks, no shadows, no pretentions, no sorrows…”

“i still feel your warmth wrapping me;

everytime i lay me down to bed

and when i close my eyes indeed

its still you—i just cant get you out of my head

“you pushed me away; away from you, yes you!

you left me with tears left me in blue

BLUE why did you blew my love away

blew me away from you, but still, i love you and i miss you

Your Kiss Was Like

2007-01-19T17:38:00.001-08:00

that wide smile, since then i always admire

so cute when you smirk, it’s as hot as fire

yet to me its been so sweet and so tempting

those soft lips i die longing for some kissing

so i say it’s your soft lips is so sweet as it is

when i tasted them, i still feel you, i miss you

yes, i always remember when we layed lips then

i took all that i could from you, yes… but hidden

sneaking while you are there lying, you’re sleeping

while im just there with you and your everything,

it’s all so good though freezes my nerves, so longing

except when you woke up (i died) and started kicking

it’s a mixture, all at once excitement and fear

then im just an oppossum rolled in tact, oh dear!

it was so bent, im not good in (acting) sleeping

next day, my heart tore when you were crying

it’s wrong i know, but at the moment it felt right

for me it’s right, it’s just that im not so so bright

i am wrong, didn’t see your desire, we don’t belong

you say ‘bug off and get out of my sight, g’night!’

i regret what i did, but not my real loving thing

i loved you for a very long time, innocent darling

but this is a paint of no returning, no erasing

im so damned left out, without you, life is so boring

Untitled

2007-01-19T17:38:00.000-08:00

-i look up the sky that guards you in the cold eery night

-just as if, i too, is guarding you even if you’re far of sight

-and look up the stars that looks on you in return directly

-thinking they were you from that distant place, missing me

Just As It Is

2007-01-19T17:37:00.000-08:00

the moon’s bright light is your smile,

it cleanses all of my sorrows

and its warmth is your skin,

where i love myself to burrow

I Represent the Country

2007-01-19T17:36:00.000-08:00

the darkness of the night makes me forget that we can never be

it covers us from whatever is out there against, they will never see

the night is blank, do you agree with that? it’s depressingly dull, so sad

just like our situation, we can never be, it’s a mad life, a life so mad

Tula Habang Ika'y Natutulog Sa Tabi Ko Noon (A Poem While You're Were Sleeping By My Side Before)

2006-12-15T17:39:00.000-08:00

night after night all i see, is your eyes staring right at me

with that soft smile you put up, warms me until i wake up

and in the morning i feel, your tight embrace, so good so still

i secretly smell your every breath, but sadly your not mine “yet”

your milky skin so light, so white, makes me want to touch all night

don’t want to get you out of my sight, can you be mine tonight

i remember from the day we met, you were just calm like an angel so quiet

but then i felt the love inside, i wished from then for you to be by my side

i always put my feelings away, but then it came to this opportunistic last day

i could’nt resist the temptation you pour, and now you dont want me anymore

the pain i felt when you resisted, made me wish i never existed

may you be happy for the love you wasted, all i feel from you now is your hatred

You're Gone and I Know

2006-12-14T17:41:00.001-08:00

yes your fading, in reality

but sweeps through me desperately

keep pulling off of my shirt

grasping my skin, oh heaven’s dirt

like an owl, so blank in a pedestal

guards from the one, so sentimental

turn your eyes on me, just me again

envelope your wings, now and then

i know what have been done, its done

and i know for you, im gone, so gone

and here i am, so lost and its no fun

here alone and weak, you left, im none

Rag

2006-12-14T17:41:00.000-08:00

please… even now look unto me

even for a while, please let me

wanted by you, can i be

your world your one or maybe

just someone you need, you fancy

fill me with your warmth and glee

make me your one, a first degree

can you be mine, and yours is me

even not now, no need to hurry

i’ll just wait, till it turns to reality

i need you now, just like before

its just that now, is so much more

yet you push me out of your door

im still here to wait, down on your floor

Hard

2006-12-11T17:22:00.000-08:00

it’s hard to live life in pain, so hard to miss someone who doesn’t…

it’s hard to love with nothing in return, like dreaming nightmares you can’t resist

it’s hard to look back when you just can’t, you can’t retrieve what is already over

it’s hard to fool yourself when the truth is just, deceiving yourself and in the end your still the loser

it’s hard to believe lies when you know what’s true, running away but nowhere to go

it’s hard to let go when it binds your being, hiding from something that tails you

it’s hard to go on when you dont want to, just hard to let go when it punctures deep

yet… it’s easy to fall in love…

Someone Like Me

2006-12-07T17:25:00.000-08:00

someday, when my life is over
would you still remember
someone like me…
would anyone ever notice
or even just care or miss
someone like me…
and when that day comes
would i be prepared
to face the truth that lies
would i be scared that i
would face the truth through lies
i wish you would care and miss
or even just notice, (im gone)
hope you would remember
when my life is over
there was once someone like me…

Please Be Mine Tonight and Forever

2006-12-07T17:22:00.000-08:00

everytime im all alone, i look back in time, wishing it was different from what is now, wishing after all those things were done, it turned out right
i always see you, i still feel you, just like when we were still together, i need you, i want you, please be mine, i beg you, please be mine
when i close my eyes, you’re the first thing in my mind, and when i wake up in the morning, still, you, i see… again… but only in my thoughts, just mere illusions
i need your lips, your love, i want your embrace, the heat of your body next to mine, i need you my love, my only one, i need you tonight and forrever
so please be mine, if it can’t be forever… be it just for tonight… but please even once, be mine…

As I Lay Me Down to Sleep

2006-08-03T17:25:00.000-07:00

i still can see your face,

i just couldn’t erase

still remembers your smile,

can i see it again for a while

i still smell your scent,

its like you’re heaven sent

still feels your lips,

my whole world uplifts

i still taste your kiss,

that’s what i always miss

still senses your heat,

as if our body meets

i still smell your breath,

oh… won’t you let

with those charming eyes,

now as cold as ice

to forget you,

i don’t want to

i still want you,

still needs you

though it does hurt,

that for you i’m just a dirt

but for you’re all,

because i made my life whole

i know we’re not meant,

and we just can’t, wishing love’s for rent

if so it is, can i have a moment please…