Secret Confessions

Huge Mistake

Anonymous — Fri, 10 Jul 2009 08:39:54 +0000

I had an affair with one of my best friends wife. I had always lusted for his wife, but kept my urges to myself. He left for a month long business trip, and his wife asked me to help her move something she couldn’t lift. I went over to their house, and moved the item, after which she insisted on making me dinner. After dinner, we were sitting on the couch talking and watching TV, and she started rubbing my shoulders, and then other parts of my body once she found out I was aroused. I couldn’t control myself, and returned the favor. One thing led to another, and well you know. After that we sort of developed a sexual relationship, and had sex 4 or 5 more times. I’ve since moved away, and don’t have to worry about seeing either of them. But the guilt that I have is eating me up inside. Almost to the point where I’m suicidal. Now I could never bring myself to act upon those thoughts, but they are strong. I’m not looking for a lecture on how wrong it was, because I know already. I just really need to get this off my chest right now.

Drug Addiction

A Dying Dad ?? — Fri, 10 Jul 2009 08:37:48 +0000

I am addicted to Pain killers and i cant stop taking them i know i am killing myself and i dont want to die but i cant stop i love my kids so much that it hurts but that is still not enough to make me stop i guess you could say i am selfish and stupid i dont know how to quit !!! HELP ME PLEASE….

Pregnant

Anonymous — Mon, 15 Jun 2009 14:01:44 +0000

I am now almost 5 months pregnant and not really sure what to do……My Boyfriend lives 3 hours away we haven’t seen eachother since a fight almost 3 weeks ago when he threw all my clothes out of his house, broke some of my things, told me I overstayed my welcome….and then threw 15 dollars at me that i had given him a couple days before. He has not tried to see me or anything, just calls throught out the day thinking that that is enough….he is not envolved in any way, he says I bitch too much, I told him it was because I do not trust him and if he tried a little more things could get better…he is 26 and has never had any kids, i do not know if i should just change my number, and ignore him……..move on…or just wait until the baby gets here to see if he is going to quit acting like a child???? I can’t go through these feelings everyday of feeling like i have noone to share this with…some days are good becaue i bite my tongue and others are like today were all hes done is send me a stupid text message and i have not recieved any phone calls…..WHAT SHOULD I DO???

Funny now but not then

Joanie — Mon, 15 Jun 2009 11:55:43 +0000

This happenend when I was 19 and it was all because of my stupid boyfriend who is now my husband of 5 years. We both worked at an over 50\’s community at the time and he was in charge of the recreation area. It included a pool, shuffle board, sauna and an inclosed recreation room with ping pong, pool table, card tables, vending machines and TV. One Friday night we were at a party and did a lot of drinking. We both were living with our parents at the time so he suggested we go into the recreation room since he had all the keys. It was late at night and closed so we covered the pool table with towels, got naked and had sex. We had done this two other times with no problems. I remember talking to him about getting dressed and going home but fell asleep naked on the pool table with him. The next thing I knew an elderly lady was shaking my shoulder to wake me up. I was flat on my back naked with my legs wide open and my right leg hanging over the side of the table. The first thing I saw was her and 8 or 10 of the men and a few women standing at the doorway looking at me. My first reaction was to scream and I jumped off the pool table right away not even remembering where my clothes were. I grabbed a towel off the table and covered myself the best I could and just ran histerical and crying to the ladies room. The lady was kind enough to bring my clothes to me. I had no idea what happened to my boyfriend/husband but later found out he got sick during the night and fell asleep in the mens room. Needless to say we both got fired but I found out that most of the men, about 20 or 30 of them, were in and out of the recreation room looking at me. This went on for more than an hour before the lady found out what they were doing and came in to wake me up. Somehow my parents found out about it and my father was especially mad at me. Both him and my mother knew people who lived there. Most of my family and friends also found out and I was teased about it for months and sometimes even now. My husband and I laugh about it now but for the longest time it was so humiliating I can’t even discribe how I felt. I avoided seeing people who either saw me or knew about it. Most of the men and women who saw me naked like that were 50 and older but 3 of my co workers also did. My father knows 5 of the men that saw me and one of them works at his office.

i hate her

caitlin — Sun, 14 Jun 2009 14:01:52 +0000

my closest friend tried to commit suicide, before she did she sent me a txt saying sorry and that she loves me…i called the ambo’s and she’s okay now…they got to her in time…but i cant stand to be near her or talk to her anymore. i love her but hate her because she had the guts to do what i’ve been trying to do since i was 13…her life is actually the closest to perfect u can get, but she doesnt know about my life, i always lie about it, she thinks my life is like hers, perfect…and she doesn’t know that i want to die.
she thinks i hate her for what she did and am disgusted by her.
the truth is:
i love her and envy that she actually could do it.

Confessions of a luxory hotel representative…

Your infamous hotel agent — Sun, 14 Jun 2009 10:40:08 +0000

Please note- It is not wise to be cruel to the hotel agent who checks you in.

I have worked at different hotels over the last 5 years while trying to make it through school and after dealing with some of the most tasteless attitudes from all sorts of clientele I would never choose to make it a career in hospitality. I merely buck up to the insults and deal with it but I have a warning message to those who are the travelers of the world.

Be nice to your hotel agent at check-in… most agents will not kiss your ass once you have displayed how much of a bitch or an asshole you can be… so if your wondering why you didn’t get the comp upgrade you so desired, check your attitude at reception and see if that will answer your question. I is either that or the agent is really sold out of the suites, but you will definately win more with a better attitude.

Personally I have delt with the most witty assholes and condescending bitches… these people constantly insult my intelligence on a daily basis and I just have to put up with it to keep my job. But seriously it is not acceptable people.

For example-Dont be a dick about what room you get at first if you can good with make small talk and nice conversation with out comming off like a perv… I can guarantee most clerks will be more than happy to comp your upgrade without mention. This is how you win without paying out the arm and the leg for it.

If you are more of the whiney complainer type we clerks are less likely to help you no matter how much of the company policy is telling us to kiss your ass… We do have access to what room you get and your room rate… to which no one can prove we did it on purpose; and beware if you are a return customer- so dont expect to get away with murder.

This is not that serious I am not a vengeful person. I just simply wont bend over backwards for ungratefule guests who are never satisfied and feel it necessary to be a constant bitch or asshole during their stay at any hotel I work at.

So do yourself a FAVOR all yea guests and hotel travelers…. treat the front desk staff well and it will definately be worth your while.

of course this is anonymous lol

Fooled

Anonymous — Sat, 13 Jun 2009 14:01:07 +0000

I pretend to be happy.
But I’m really not.
I pretend that I’m selfless, and I try to be.. but I’m not.
I fooled so many people. I’ve bottled up my REAL feelings inside. I don’t want people to know and I don’t want to burden them.
My dreams and goals are getting shattered one by one… from love to education. I don’t know what’s in the future for me anymore.

To Be….?

Frozen — Sat, 13 Jun 2009 02:27:58 +0000

I am a 20-year-old undergraduate at a prestigious college. All my life I have only ever dreamed of doing something, ANYTHING, good for the world, but with one catch. I had to get the credit for it. Win-win, I figured. This messed up world gets a savior and I get validation.

I have always prided myself on my intellect and love of learning, and am a very good, very smart student, but now I feel constantly immobilized and terrified by the mundane pressures of day to day life and I have no idea why. Am I so insecure that just the prospect of applying for graduate school sends me into catatonia? Am I so selfish that the thought of living a non-descript life without glory or adventure makes me flirt with suicide?

The worst part is that even talking to a therapist or spiritual leader about this feels shameful — here I am, unworthy, lazy, worthless, taking up more of their valuable time with my insignificant woes. After all, there are rape victims and soldiers with PTSD they should be helping; people who’d actually make something of their lives. I used to dream of healing the world, of being President. Now I dream of being able to smile without lying. My, how pride cometh before the fall.

Virgin

Anonymous — Sat, 13 Jun 2009 02:24:00 +0000

I am 20yr old about to be 21 this year and i never had a girl friend and never kissed anyone before. I feel left out because alot of people i know already had sex and most people alot younger then i am at least had a a boyfriend/girlfriend and i feel left out. i am so shy all the time and i feel like every girl only likes bad guys. i regret not doing anything in HS and JrHS

My secret.

Weakness — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 14:01:06 +0000

I have an eating disorder, and I cant stop.
I know what everyone will tell me, eat you stupid bitch! Stop doing this to yourself! But I just cant, its an obsession. It consumes me. Its so hard to explain, and so hard to fight against. I want to stop, I try everyday. Ive tried almost everyday for the last year.
No one knows and no one will ever know but me.