Shaken - But Still in Service (barely)

4 1/2 Years?!?!

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Thu, 25 Jul 2013 16:53:00 +0000

They say time flies and I believe it...!

It's been, according to Blogger, that long since I posted to this blog...

A lot (ok, almost everything) has changed since I was last here. As I look around at all the broken links and blogs that are no longer in existence, I think to myself, what a mess! Apparently a lot has changed in everyone's life, not just mine.

My first instinct was to just "Shut er down! That's not me anymore!"
Now, as I pause, and remember, i think... not so fast...

This place was home for a long time.
It was a place where my old broken self came to find peace, and healing and restoration.
I met so many new and interesting friends during a very dark period of my life. (Many of whom I cannot now imagine my life without...) It was a place where I learned to be the real me; not the one that I thought I should be or that others expected me to be. Just me... broken, and sad, and sweetly... on the road to freedom, and hope, and wholeness.

I've just spent the better part of a morning, when I should have been working, running around here...
Dusting off the cushions...
Reminiscing...
Laughing...
Crying...
Giving Thanks...

Nope, this place is going nowhere. I may never post here again, who knows...
But this place deserves it's place in my history. If you are reading this and are in a dark place of your own, sit a spell, make yourself comfortable, take what you need and go...
My hope and prayer is that you receive a blessing, as I did.

I re-read a few posts, and all the wonderful, life affirming comments made by my loved ones.
I've just highlighted a couple here.
Thank you from the depths of hell...
Tears fall like rain...
The Depp Effect...

and finally I've changed the settings on a private blog I used to share one of the more traumatic , life-changing, pivotal moments in my life. (warning: explicit language, violence, adult content)

UNMASKED

The good news is, I am no longer bound by my past! God, thank you!
I've stirred up a lot of dust here today, opened up the windows and let some fresh air in...
It feels GOOD!

I'm blogging again, but in a new place.
Stop in if you like...
Fifty Shades of Betty's Inner Food Goddess

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got beer...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Fri, 23 Jan 2009 15:16:00 +0000

I guess I probably have better things to do while I'm sitting here waiting for the UPS guy to show up but I can't think of any at the moment!

WHY WOMEN STAY SINGLE...

locks of love...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Sat, 15 Nov 2008 17:17:00 +0000

The Garza Clan!

Thanks Jeanette!

(and thanks to First Class Cosmetology for the free cut!)

This girls story is awesome....

best find ever...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Thu, 13 Nov 2008 03:19:00 +0000

Sorry, I'm on a machine with no editing software. But, is this not the best find ever??? I had to stand on tippy toes to get this pic (my kitchen is a little upside down at the moment) I couldn't wait to share my good luck!!!!

OH! And how about a little .........BEFORE

and AFTER.......

Operation Beernola is officially underway!

guess who...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 03:33:00 +0000

mia...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 00:34:00 +0000

So sorry to be missing out on all your great blogs...

For those who don't know, my Auntie had surgery on her foot on Friday afternoon. The weekend ws a little rough, Monday better and today a bit harder. The doc says the surgery was a success and there was good blood flow there so there is every reason to expect a good recovery. We go back on Friday for the first look at the healing... For now we're taking it moment by moment ;)

Roaming neighborhoods getting some real estate shots this morning I ran across this tree!!! For some reason it really brightened my day! Must have been quite a trick getting all those houses up there... lol

Hopefully I'll get back to bloggerville soon...

PS: Thanks Suz!!!

Just for Doc...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Thu, 16 Oct 2008 14:03:00 +0000

Are ya gonna use me in your book Doc? Are ya, huh, are ya, are ya, pppleeeeeaaaase????? (OK, that didn't sound like much of a captain!)

My pirate name is:
(aka: Bloody Bess Flint: I first did this when i was in a fighting mood!!! Arrrrggghhhhh)

Captain Bess Flint

Even though there's no legal rank on a pirate ship, everyone recognizes you're the one in charge. Like the rock flint, you're hard and sharp. But, also like flint, you're easily chipped, and sparky. Arr!

Get your own pirate name from piratequiz.com.
part of the fidius.org network

The north woods...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Mon, 06 Oct 2008 03:01:00 +0000

Taylor the Latte Boy...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Sat, 27 Sep 2008 04:28:00 +0000

Thanks Rod!
Now I can't leave the Wordle alone!!!! Too addicting...

I love Kristen Chenoweth too... ;-)

White chocolate and raspberry trifle...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Sun, 21 Sep 2008 15:49:00 +0000

ps: some good news on private blog...

Credit for this recipe goes to Lindsey Bareham. Found it in her cookbook Justonepot which I scarfed from the bargin bin at B&N! I had no idea this was a British cookbook when I bought it, but since I have a British friend Doc, to call for translation help I am no longer afraid to jump right in!

For instance, on beef...
"Best value for fast cooking are the minute rump steaks and a clutch of shoulder steaks with distinctive ridged meat like bollo, skirt, bavette and feather, or it's similar French cut called onglet, which has gristle running down the center. It's rare to find these cuts in the supermarket, but any butcher worth his salt will be happy to oblige - if he hasn't already nobbled them for his regulars." !?!?!? LOL

This was my first attempt at trifle, so I was a little nervous but I didn't take any leftovers home so I guess I'm calling it a success!! Mine did not look this classy since it is apparently impossible to find a jellyroll in this day and age, (when did they quit making them?) but I have found a new love and it may be quite some time before I go back to experimenting with granola...

White Chocolate and Raspberry Trifle

2 Cups Raspberries
Juice of ½ lime
1Tbsp Kirsch, Vodka or Frambois de Bourgogne (I used Chambourd)
2 Tbsp confectioners’ sugar
1 Jelly Roll (not Chocolate, I used Angel Food Cake)
4 squares White Chocolate (4oz)
1 cup Heavy or Whipping cream
2 18 oz pkg Custard
Few sprigs mint

Place 2/3 cup of raspberries in a strainer placed over a bowl. Use the back of spoon to push all their juice through into the bowl, leaving the seeds behind. Scrape under the strainer so nothing is wasted. Add the lime juice and liquor, then sift 1Tbsp of confectioners’ sugar over the top, stir well.

Slice the jelly roll about ½ inch thick and use most of the slices to cover the base and make one single layer up the sides of a nice glass bowl. Moisten the slices with most of the raspberry juice and scatter with another 2/3 cup raspberries.

Set aside ¾ square chocolate and break the rest up into small pieces. Place the broken chocolate in a bowl and suspend the bowl over top of a pan of boiling water (use a double boiler?) Stir until the choc melts. When it has melted, stir 1 Tbsp of the cream into the chocolate and then stir the chocolate mixture into 1 of the cartons of custard.

Pour half the chocolate custard over the prepared jelly roll and lay the remaining slices on top. Drizzle the remaining raspberry sauce over the slices and scatter with the remaining raspberries (reserve a few to garnish top with). Use the rest of the choc custard and then cover with the second carton of custard. Whip the rest of the cream until stiff and decorate top of the trifle.

Add the reserved raspberries. Grate the remaining ¾ oz chocolate over top with the large hole of a cheese grater. Plant the mint sprigs here and there and dust the trifle with the rest of the powdered sugar. Cover with plastic wrap and chill for a minimum of 2 hours and for up to 24 hours. Serve with any remaining custard.

Run with the little guy...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Thu, 18 Sep 2008 13:28:00 +0000

Run with the little guy... create some change.

I love JONES' soda!

I cast my vote for no corn syrup!

Breakfast anyone...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 06:08:00 +0000

Found this lovely video over at Tamara's Fotolog!!! Check out her awesome place. Tons of great Johnny pics and love too, from Chile... Thanks love!

There are no words...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Mon, 15 Sep 2008 11:18:00 +0000

update...
The men of the USS Kearsarge are still providing relief to Haiti, not just in Gonaive but now also in about 5 other Port Cities all across the country (north to south). In addition to food and water, they are getting ready to shift to phase two of their mission which is to provide Engineering and Medical relief as well...
http://www.marketwatch.com/news/story/fourth-fleet-directs-kearsarge-expand/story.aspx?guid=%7B51E968F2-A7A9-4470-BB8B-7AE0570D362E%7D&dist=hppr

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Words and pics are slow coming out of Haiti...

Here is a nice dressed up pic of Haitians lining up for relief. Where the need is much greater there are no orderly lines or even a dry place to stand or sit, still...

One decent article...

http://www.reuters.com/article/newsOne/idUSN1342265220080914?pageNumber=1&virtualBrandChannel=0

edit... an episode of DUH! (see private blog)

Seekng shelter from Hanna...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Sun, 07 Sep 2008 21:40:00 +0000

UPDATE

GO NAVY!!!

Ike slams Cuba, readies for another hit
1 day ago
HAVANA (AFP) — Hurricane Ike assaulted Cuba on Monday with monster waves and torrential rains after leaving 61 people dead in Haiti, where a series of vicious storms has triggered a humanitarian crisis...

...Worst-affected is Haiti , where four storms in three weeks have killed more than 600 people and left hundreds of thousands desperate for food, clean water and shelter.
Officials continued aid operations in the stricken town of Gonaives, where hundreds died in devastating floods from Tropical Storm Hanna, but stormy weather and bridge collapses hampered relief efforts.
As thousands awaited relief, the US Navy deployed a helicopter carrier off Haiti's coast to help with relief efforts.
The USS Kearsarge, an amphibious assault ship loaded with relief supplies, will help move cargo and equipment between Port-au-Prince and Gonaives, Saint-Marc and other stricken areas, the military said.

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Fuel $13US per gallon / Rice up 60% since storms

UN peacekeepers struggle through floodwaters near Port-au-Prince, Haiti, in the wake of by hurricane Ike. Photo: Reuters

CABARET, Haiti (AP): Hurricane Ike's torrential rains swelled rivers across Haiti and sent floodwaters gushing into homes in the dead of night in one eastern town, killing at least 58 people.
Flooding also collapsed a bridge that had been the last land route to the starving northern city of Gonaives, where residents fled to rooftops as waters rose for the second time in a week. Three more bodies were found in Gonaives on Sunday, according to civil defense director Maria Alta Jean-Baptiste, all victims of previous storms.
The latest deaths pushed Haiti's toll to at least 319 from four storms in less than a month.
Most of Sunday's 58 deaths were in the Cabaret region north of Port-au-Prince. A swollen river unleased mudslides and floods and crushed homes and sent people fleeing in the middle of the night.
In the Always Funeral Home, 21 muddy bodies were piled in a dank room, unclaimed. Two of them were pregnant, one still clutching a small girl to her chest. Morgue workers roughly separated the bodies to count them, grabbing one baby boy by the head and tossing him aside like a doll.
Waters reached chest-high levels before receding Sunday morning, leaving people to shovel mud from their houses. Others sat outside, surrounded by salvaged pots and mattresses, staring glumly at their collapsed homes.
``We took refuge in one room and waited there all night and prayed,'' said Sister Marie Denise, who was trapped by waist-high waters in the house she shares with four nuns. They evacuated to the nearby school they run after the waters receded.
``We don't know if one of our girls is among the dead,'' she said of her students.
No foreign aid has reached the town even though hundreds of people have been forced from their homes, said local civil defense director Henri Luis Praviel. Still, with the waters swiftly retreating and all roads leading into Cabaret still open, the town may have been better off than isolated Gonaives, Haiti's fourth-largest city.
Pummeled by rains for four days last week during Tropical Storm Hanna, the city was cut off again Sunday when flooding caused the collapse of the Mirebalais bridge in central Haiti. And while the rain finally stopped, high waters will likely keep running down from deforested mountains into the coastal flood plain.
Much of Gonaives remained inaccessible, even to United Nations peacekeepers already in the city, because of rising waters and strong currents. Desperation was increasingly evident among people who have had very little to eat or drink for days, prompting peacekeepers to beef up security.
A line of 3,000 people snaked around a warehouse-turned-U.N. shelter, and several hundred pushed and shoved to break down the door, only to be quickly subdued by Bolivian troops in riot gear.
As peacekeepers delivered aid to areas their trucks could reach, scores of young men splashed alongside, begging for help. One called out with a bullhorn: ``Hey, hey, my friend. Give me some water.''
Food and fuel prices both skyrocketed, with gasoline reaching 500 Haitian gourdes (US$13) a gallon. And while relief workers in Gonaives said they had enough emergency food supplies for the next couple of days, distributing it is becoming ever more complicated.
Workers spent four hours handing out water and high-protein biscuits. But people were growing tired of relief food and started to demand rice, which has gone up 60 percent in price since the storms.
``We would like to eat some real food,'' said shelter resident Esaie St. Juste. ``Rice, beans, sardines. Haitian people like real food.''
Above Haiti's coastal floodplain, in the Artibonite Valley, authorities prepared to open an overflowing dam, inundating more homes and possibly causing lasting damage to Haiti's ``rice bowl,'' a farming area whose revival is key to rescuing the starving country.
``Please evacuate as soon as you can,'' Agriculture Minister Joanas Gay urged Artibonite residents on state-run Radio Nationale

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This photo was released by UN peacekeepers on Wed, depicting folks gathering in 'shelters' in Gonaive (see the link below for the news article about aid convoys having to turn back) this is before Ike hit and dumped tons more on Haiti. At this point it looks as though dams will have to be released potentially killing many more and wiping out key farming land.

See private blog for more, let me know if you still don't have the link.

http://www.boston.com/news/world/latinamerica/articles/2008/09/05/hanna_leaves_behind_despair_in_haiti/

Deforestation and poverty behind Haiti flood crisis

Sadly undecided...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Fri, 05 Sep 2008 16:43:00 +0000

This is the first time since I was eligible to vote that I don't know who I am voting for at this stage of the game...

I've been a liberal and I've been a conservative, I've was even passionately political for a time. One thing I have remained throughout is very passionately patriotic! Yes, I cry still when our National Anthem is played, especially when I am on foreign soil. There really is no place in the world like America. Yes she is young still, and brash as Johnny Depp pointed out in his much misunderstood and maligned comment after 9/11, but she is very idealistic and proud and her people are FREE! We enjoy a freedom here like no one else in the world does. I thank God often that I was lucky enough to be born here. There is no place in the world like America...

I've been longing for some time now to be able to place my vote for President of the United States of America for almost anyone other than a white male of either party. Nothing against white males, it's just time! (Please don't think me racist or sexist, I am very far from either one of those things.) As the political pendulum has slowed it's wild swing in my life I seem to have fallen a bit to the conservative side of center, not as liberal as I have been but far less conservative than I have ever been either...

I've been holding out great hope for Senator Obama during most of this campaign. Though I'd love to see a woman in the White House, Hillary would never have gotten my vote. I was never prouder of her though than when she spoke out for Obama at the DNC. She did her job fantastically and even brought tears to my eyes a couple of times!!! (No one was more surprised at that than I!) I was also moved by Bill's profession of love to his wife, though he didn't really do her any favors during her campaign which only reinforced my intense dislike of the man. I recall with great emotion how difficult the Clinton days were for me. I remember the Reagan/Bush days as the good old days (boo if you have to...) they were good for me economically and also they were very good days for an American who spent most of those days on foreign soil. They were the days of favor for our troops of which I was one. Those were the days I chose to exercise my passion for my country by serving in our military.

I remember vividly the early days of the Clinton regime with horror as he began to decimate the armed forces and it wasn't long before I was one of his casualties. He got rid of most of the mid-level managers, the ones with all the experience. My military service ended but I remained overseas for a few more years. There was a different feeling then about us, like we were often being laughed at. Coming home to white bread America in the mid 90's wasn't much easier. It was soo hard to find work in those days with my military resume. I sometimes felt like a creature from outer space! I guess that's when the pendulum swung right for me...

I'm not still waaay over there thankfully, but as I said earlier, I am still not sure who I am voting for in this election! What I am most sensitive to these days is all the bitter blaming going on in our two party system. I know it has been that way for a long time, but for some reason it is particularly hard to take right now. With all our elections so close in recent history, we are a nation divided. It is really hard to stomach the acrimonious dismissal by either side of 50% of the people in our great nation!! That kind of divisive pride is tearing me apart inside a bit.

There is not just a right way and a wrong way to come up against almost any issue I have ever seen. Anything that doesn't bend, will eventually break. And I'm not talking about one side or the other giving in. I guess I'm talking about giving up! I'm talking about thinking outside the box. Not your way or my way, or what we can't accomplish, but what CAN we do! I think that only humility can bring us across the aisle to someplace where we can co-exist, someplace where we can get close enough to each other to see our similarities and not just the gulf that divides us.

I was sooo hoping that Senator Obama was going to be that man, that man who could get us crossing the aisle and listening to one another. I admit to being pretty disappointed after his speech last week. (I really, REALLY like him!) I didn't hear what I was expecting to hear though. I heard a man toeing the party line, and bitterly so, advocating again, for 50% of Americans. ;(

Instead, last night John McCain surprised me. The words of conciliation I expected to hear from Obama were coming from his mouth instead. Words of humility. Words like, 'It doesn't matter who get's the credit.', and words like I was wrong, when speaking of the way he lived before his experience as a POW. I was reminded of why I served my country and why it really matters when you put others first. I was reminded why I served to defend our freedoms that I so cherish. Even that freedom of speech that some use to rip 50% of our people apart. I was convinced that I would do it all over again if I could. I was moved to tears. I felt like I heard a great and humble man speak last night, and more importantly, I think I heard him bend...

There is a part of me that wanted to turn off the comments to this post, but that is the part of me that lives inside the box. That isn't the part of me that served to defend our famous freedoms. This is America, the land of the free and the home of the brave! So, say your piece, and remember that I love you all, as living breathing people, and not as labels!

I still don't know who is going to get my vote in this election, but I will be listening and watching closely in the days ahead...

Where the hell is Matt...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 13:54:00 +0000

thanks toadlessgirl , i needed a good cry...

Where the Hell is Matt? (2008) from Matthew Harding on Vimeo.

Now it's Gustav...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 18:16:00 +0000

Poor Haiti just can't seem to catch a break...

(Click on the pic for Gustav details, more personal info on private blog.)

Another interesting satelite link.
http://www.ssd.noaa.gov/goes/flt/t1/loop-vis.html

How to fold your underwear...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Sat, 23 Aug 2008 03:34:00 +0000

Well, Minxie said something last night that caused me to flash back to one particular day in bootcamp...

During an impromptu inspection I was found to have my underwear folded incorrectly. As an example to all, I had to go down the line, the line of all the other recruits all standing at attention in front of their lockers, stopping in turn to face each one. As I did I was to shout out, "I'm a Burger Queen, I do things my way!" and then execute a push-up before moving on to the next person.

OH, and did I mention that I had to do it with the offending pair of underwear pulled over my head? Yeah, there was that to keep it interesting...

http://tinyurl.com/5wfbpm

OH! As your reward for scrolling all the way to the bottom, here's the link to a radio interview with Johnny Depp and his band The Kids that took place today (or within the last couple of days anyhow) It is really great to hear him address things that we all know about ie: very current events, very well worth listening too. Yes, there just happens to be a reference to John Dillinger's penis in the interview. For real! Yeah, I had to mention it...

Hurricane Fay...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 00:30:00 +0000

I have set up a private blog to talk about some recent events concerning my girls, for reasons I won't talk about here. If you didn't get a link to it, drop me an e-mail and I will send you the link. Hurrican Faye just passed over Haiti and the Dominican, but there is little info available yet.

MIAMI, Aug 16 (Reuters) - The sixth tropical storm of the 2008 Atlantic hurricane season was heading for Haiti on Saturday where heavy rains could cause mud slides and flash floods, the U.S. National Hurricane Center said.Tropical Storm Fay was expected to move across Haiti in the morning before heading for Cuba. It was then expected to move in the direction of Florida and the Gulf of Mexico, with computer models showing it emerging somewhere near south Florida by Monday.The storm was not projected by the Miami-based hurricane center to strengthen into a hurricane, with winds of at least 74 miles per hour (119 km per hour). The high mountains of Hispaniola and the amount of time it seemed destined to spend over land in Cuba would most likely drain it of energy.At 2 a.m. EDT (0600 GMT), Fay was located around 60 miles (95 km) east of Port-au-Prince and was moving toward the west at about 14 mph (22 kph).Top sustained winds had reached near 45 mph (75 kph) but the storm's potential rainfall of 4 to 8 inches (10-20 cm) was of greater concern than its winds, particularly over the denuded hillsides of Haiti, where thousands of people have been killed by mudslides and floods during the past few hurricane seasons.In some areas torrential rainfall of 12 inches (30 cm) could be expected, the hurricane center said, adding this could cause life-threatening mud slides and flash floods.Tropical storm warnings were in effect for the entire coast of Haiti, for the entire north coast of the Dominican Republic and for part of the south coast.A tropical storm warning was also in effect for the Turks and Caicos Islands, the southeastern Bahamas and part of Cuba.A tropical storm warning means storm conditions with gusty winds and rain can be expected within 24 hours.Energy markets have been watching the storm system closely as several computer models projected it could enter the Gulf of Mexico, home to U.S. oil and gas production rigs.The 2008 Atlantic hurricane season is on track to be more active than average, due to warm sea waters and favorable atmospheric conditions.Two of the tropical storms so far, Bertha and Dolly, reached hurricane strength before fading out over the open Atlantic and washing up on the shores of south Texas, respectively.(Reporting by Michael Christie; editing by Jim Loney and Sandra Maler

Grieving Maria...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Wed, 06 Aug 2008 21:43:00 +0000

When I began my own adoption journey, Stephen Curtis Chapman and his wife Mary Beth were so inspirational to me. They have three children of their own and at the prompting of their daughter Emily, embarked upon their adoption journey which led to the addition of three beautiful little Chinese girls to their family. Their experience led them to found Shaohanna's Hope, a nonprofit organization that seeks to ease the expense of adoption. As of July 2008, the group has provided grants to over 1,700 families wishing to adopt orphans in the United States and worldwide.

Caught up in my own adoption drama, I failed to hear about the tragedy that had befallen the Chapman family this past May. Their youngest daughter Maria had run into the path of their family car and was killed as their eldest son Will Franklin was pulling into the drive. They spoke about their tragedy for the first time publicly on Good Morning America today...

I'm most deeply touched by the presence of mind Steven had to encourage his son even as he rushed his dying daughter to the hospital. These words of his echo and reverberate within my soul, "People say that we are a family of great faith, really we're a family with a lot of questions. That's what faith is, it's living with the questions..."

Since Maria's tragic death over $275,000 has been donated to their foundation in Maria's name to help other adoptive families. God bless Will Franklin and the rest of the Chapman's as they grieve Maria together and find hope in their faith for the future...

My Caribean Dream...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Sun, 03 Aug 2008 19:08:00 +0000

Ever have one of those weeks where you wish you could just fly away???

This was one of 'those' for me!
Hot and muggy and waaaayyyy too much work to be done...

These were my brand new bright pink shoes (purchased in honor of Lotus!) after Monday...

The last place I wanted to be was in a dark dingy basement full of cobwebs and creepy crawlers! Eewwww! I've had the heebie jeebies all week long...

and by the end of the week after I'd painted the floors down there and installed carpeting upstairs... At least my feet stayed cool!!!

When you think about it, it was really just like being in the Caribbean...

Hot. . .

Humid. . .

and buggy!!!!!

Here's one I found inside my car while I was driving!!!!!

Can anyone identify this?

I know it won't be easy since my hands were shaking as I tried to take it's picture while driving down the road in a PANIC!!!!

ArrgGGGGGGhhhhHH#@%@^%$&^$$@%$^#%$"

Even my living space seems to be over run by bugs lately...

There's this HUGE grasshopper-like bug in my room that I have not been able to catch or kill

It's brown and looks like a cross between this stick grasshopper on the left and the Katydid on the right... It only comes out at night when I am in my bed and scares the crap out of me and my cat and then hides again!!!! Eeewwww.......

My only hope is that it catches the other resident of my living quaters which is a big, fat, FAST SPIDER!!!! This spider also hides during the day and comes out during the night... Everytime I try to KILL it it drops so fast that I cannot find it, it's getting harder and harder to SLEEP as I must KEEP WATCH for the SPIDER!!!!!

I need to ESCAPE!!!!!!

So I'm dreaming of the Caribbean...

The only problem is

my only knowledge of the caribbean

is a place that is all hard work

ALL THE TIME!!!!

Donkey pic for dj ;)

My mode of transportation in my actual Caribbean Experience!

(flat tire...)

It's no wonder that when you read of a car accident in Haiti it is never 1 or 2 killed

always more like 26 or 30 ;(

This particular day I spent filming at a dental clinic held at an all girls orphanage in Port au Prince. It turned out to be all for nothing!

My no-line bifocals rendered all my footage completely unfocused

(what??? It looked good to me?!?)

Another donkey for dj!

This is the well outside the hospital we were building.

The kids were just out of school and were sent to haul the water

(again, Haiti - all work, all the time!)

This is one of my favorite pics (taken by Nikki) of my favorite tree

in the village...

...IN MY CARIBBEAN DREAM!

(one can pretend, can't one?)

OMG...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Fri, 25 Jul 2008 14:44:00 +0000

Tears Fall Like Rain...

...is the title of this beautiful song that I was trying to upload this morning. It was written by a friend of my friend and is soo lovely. I read something on Minxie's blog that caused me to remember it and this photo. So as a reminder to myself and so many others who have been in the fire lately, I was remembering the many times I have found beauty and meaning in the midst of my dark days.

Somehow, after I failed to get the song up I'd forgotten I'd titled the post Tears Fall Like Rain and thought I'd let the pic speak for itself! So sorry if I worried any of you!!!

Yes, times are tough, but as Minxie said, I've much to be greatful for and am acknowledging the beauty around me...

Too much time on my hands...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Fri, 18 Jul 2008 18:54:00 +0000

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Fourth of July Weekend at Merrillan...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Wed, 09 Jul 2008 03:59:00 +0000

(Edited to add dj's donkey pic of the week)

What a fun relaxing time...

My Auntie and I spent the weekend up at Lower Lake near Black River Falls. This is my Father's side of the family which I don't know as well as my Mom's, but they welcomed me so very graciously.

Some of the highlights were:

Walking around the lake.

Watching the kids bat at the pinata.

Sampling Chardonnays (my favorite was the Chilean 'Royal Bitch'!

Talking about G&T's all day long and not drinking even one...

The Water Balloon Toss (wondering if I should upload some video)

The fire pit ;)

Showing off my Johnny Depp pics! (yes, I did...)

The swing overlooking the lake, where folks sat to read JP's Enquirer (No Kidding!)

Last, certainly far from least! Sunday Morning Breakfast, mmm.....

Looking at nearly microscopic baby snails...

Oh, and in case you couldn't figure it out, taking pics of the kids ;)

Thanks to all the Ewers' for a wonderful time!!!!

He's not Johnny Depp, nor is he Wycleff Jean...

noreply@blogger.com (shakenbsis) — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 18:17:00 +0000

I do believe he will be just as inspirational though, in his own way! Actually, he already is...

My eyes are still red as I sit down to write this...
This morning on my way to work I had to run a bunch of errands and ended up pulling into Culvers to grab a bite on my way to the jobsite. My mind wandered as I waited for my order, thinking of all I needed to get done. As it did, I was looking in my rear-view mirror and what I saw there made me blink and rub my eyes... could it be?!?!

It was my dear friend W, walking up with my order! I was sooo shocked! W belongs to my Pastor and his wife who I dearly love, and to God... I met W on my first trip to Haiti back in March of 2002. Oh my, how all of our lives have been irrevocably changed since then...

That was the beginning for us all. W finally made it here to the states and to his family a couple of years ago now. (Talk about an amazing and miraculous story! I wish I could send you somewhere to read about it...) When I saw him today in the drive-up at Culvers I was blown away!!! I congratulated him on his new job, told him he'd made my day, shook his hand and drove off...

As I drove, I began to sob, happy tears, sad tears, cleansing tears... Instead of to work, my truck steered it's way home. I grabbed my camera and ran back to Culvers. Yes, of course W wanted his photo taken!! (I knew he would!) I then raced back home and sat down to write. Yes, it's time to finally finish my own adoption story... To read it please go to My Adoption Blog.

This is W with his mom sometime during the week we first met him.

(March 2002)

This is me on my first trip to Haiti, back when my glasses were LARGE and my hair was SHORT!! (and none of us knew yet how to take pictures of black and white people together...) I am holding a baby that this lady tried to give me on my first trip into the village. The baby's name is Savior and she was NOT his mom. I guess I had that 'first time to Haiti' gullible look about me. I'm older and wiser, and sadly, not so naive. There are days now when I wish I'd never laid eyes on the place...

on a lighter note...

The 'Donkey Parking Lot' outside the market. ;)

Now, go to my Adoption Blog!