Shilpa

stop or self-hurt??

2012-11-23T20:55:00.000-08:00

Feeling lost and confused,

Sensing feelings I can’t explain, Looking to make my escape but I don’t know how, It’s eating me from the inside, Where is the joy I used to know, I want out of here! But I’m feeling really weak, I think the only way to come out is either blood to run from deep in my wrist or stop the way i breathe the pains Want an end to this so called pains forever.. What would be the answer to this??

2012-10-01T10:22:00.002-07:00
Every situation in my life..

i feel like i am left ALONE,

loving everyone so much and

they hurt me too much,

unable to bear this pain,

donno wat to do,

feel like walking away were

i can see no one,

why shud this happen only to me??

Donno wat GOD has written for me??

Waiting for happiness in my life !!!

chiiiii

2012-04-11T09:17:00.000-07:00
thuuu
na bratuku ento nake ardam kavatledu,
nenu anandanga unapudu a anandam
share cheskodaniki avaru undaru !!
nenu anandanga gadipithe a roju awariki
bagotledu,
so nenu inka happy ga undanu,
appudaina andaru happy ga untaru
ani asistunanu,
Soo guyz njy nenu inka happy ga undanu !!!!!!!

For u

2012-02-24T09:37:00.002-08:00
I can find you always in my heart,
in my dreamz,
in my eyes,
in my heart,
and in everything i do...

I love u with all my heart,
I wanna take care of u showing love all the day,
Wanna take every step wid u,
Looking into ur eyes,
i would be loosing myself,

When i say sorry it doesnt mean
that i want to skip the situation
i want ur forgiveness,
When i say i miss u it means
a part of my soul is missing,

Without u i cant be myself,
Every breath i take is hurting me like hell,
I am getting mad of u each day,
Ur smile is making me fly like a bird,
I wanna hug u so that i can feel ur heartbeat,
One thing i wanna tell u is
i wanna die in ur arms,

For u my dear sweet heart !!!!

(:)

2012-02-21T07:18:00.000-08:00

Even though u r not wid me,
I know u cannot be wid me,
But even then i can be happy,

YES,
happy without u,
I will be in a feel that i am
with you,

U know everyday,
i think of u and goto sleep,
and in the morning my first thought is u,

Anywhere,anytime i will be there for u,

LOVE U BABY...

Truly from my heart:

2011-11-12T06:36:00.000-08:00
I want to cry on ur shoulders heartfully,
i am not happy,
i dont know the reason y u are sad,
there is no question of me asking u as u wont be tellin it,
i know there will be some reason,
i wont ask u again and again and make u hurt more,
if u feel like tellin it then u can,

But remember one thing,
there is a girl(me)
who is waiting for u to become normal,
who is waiting to see ur smile again,
who is waiting for u every minute every second...

For me:
The days are being covered with dark clouds,
Throns are being pierced into my heart,
Each second without ur message is hurting like hell,
I never knew how sadness is,
but now learning it,
i am waiting for u to become normal,

I want u my dear friend,no ur more than that to me,
i need u in my whole life..

(Pranam manalni vadili velpotunte a bada ento anubavestae gani telidu... )

Friend

2011-07-09T11:14:00.000-07:00

A real friend is one who cries wid us,
who fights more wid us,
who hurts us most,
who takes care of us,
who washes our dirty feet,
who washes our clothes,
who looks after us as a mother,
father,brother,sister and our
"BEST LOVELY ENEMY"
we keep telling each other our deepest details,
things that we dont even share wid our family...

One side love

2011-05-12T10:48:00.000-07:00

Lines felt by a one side lover:
I cant express it to u,
but i want u to know it,
i wanna spend my life wid u,
itz hurting me while i m looking at u,
but the pain is sweet sometimes,
i wanna hold ur hand forever,
i am ready to die bcoz i can atleast
see u from the sky every minute,
even if u dont need me ever
i will always be there for u,
i know that u dont need me but
why??????
I cant express this to anyone,
For me ur the perfect guy,
I always want to be in ur arms
with my ears listenin to ur heartbeats forever,
I fell safe there.....
(Dedicated to all one side lovers...)

!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-05-10T22:17:00.000-07:00

When ur dreaming with a broken heart
its very hard to wake up,
actually sleeping with a heavy heart
is more difficult,
Everything seems to be very sad,
U feel emptiness everywhere,
U feel u have been alone since many dayz,
It seems that u are the only one living wid pain,
But even then u try to laugh,
Night becomes the worst thing in ur life,

It takes only one second to hurt people,
but it takes years to heal that pain,
sometimes even death would be more better
than the pain...

hmmm

2011-05-10T10:56:00.000-07:00

The things i hate but i never expressed this to anyone,as i dont want others to know it
The best thing i like to see is the photo above.I love to look my.... like dat.But i have given a word to my friend dat i wont do it,so i am not able to do it.Many times i reach out for it but that promise stops me.But the pain that it causes is a great relief to me .It gives me a moment of peace.

No title

2011-05-10T10:29:00.000-07:00

So I’m not writing this because i’m really depressed or anything like that.Right now I couldn’t cry if I wanted to.I feel like this is all I can do.I have always let the people be close to me.I fear of losing them.I gave them everything as much as I can.But i am soo unlucky that i lose my friends at some point of time(dats for sure).This is happening to me in every stage of my life.I have many people around who love me,but i don't have that feel.I feel like i am a burden to everyone.I wonder why i even try to be happy.But it ends in the worst manner.I feel that i mean nothing in anyones life.

Disturbance

2011-04-27T03:25:00.000-07:00

Perturbation ...
un meurtre sentiment,
ne sais pas comment elle vient,
ne sais pas pourquoi il vient,
ne sais pas comment en sortir,

Perturbation ...
perturber mon esprit,
perturber ma conversation,
déranger mon coeur,
déranger mon tout,

Perturbation...
la vie est comme une lutte,
en essayant de sortir de celui-ci,
mais sa me tirant vers le bas,
n'y a personne pour me tirer,
pas en mesure de le prendre positivement,
faire des choses avec un esprit perturbé, c'est vraiment comme un enfer,

Single

2011-04-14T06:24:00.000-07:00

This is the only relation which u can never lose,
There are no promises,hurts,laughs and cries,
U can live each moment joyfully,
But
being single requires much self-confidence,
It doesn't mean ur selfish,
it means that u dont want to get hurt,
Being single
means that ur giving time for urself,
spending time only for u,
Life is totally different when ur SINGLE...

Father

2011-04-13T11:47:00.000-07:00

This is the love which cannot be
understood soo easily,
He is the first most loving man
in a girls life,
He can the the best valentine,
He has been there for us since the
time we have opened our eyes,
He is source of strength and support,
He can create a atmosphere of
love and affection,
He shares the sweetest love for his daughter...

Amma

2011-04-13T11:21:00.000-07:00

Probably,the first word that comes out of a
baby is "AMMA",
Her affection towards a child is true forever,
The relation between mother carries a
deep emotions and feelings,
She is the only person who expects nothing
from u,
She is the biggest sufferer but never
lets it out to anybody,
We celebrate mother's day once in a year,
but do we need a special day to show our love
we have for her only on that particular day???

Suicide

2011-04-04T08:32:00.000-07:00

Pain or not, I would most likely
walk around in a
suicidal way of my life,
Wanting to die seems like
it might be a part of being alive,
I had wanted to kill myself,
not because I hated living,
but because I loved it,
Depression is about as close as you
get to somewhere
between dead and alive, and it’s the worst.
The thought of suicide is
a great source of comfort,
It is just like u can kill ur physical self
and no longer feel
pain...

2011-03-06T08:41:00.000-08:00

I like u alwayzz,
for the care u have showed on me

and u will be showing on me,
i like u wid all my heart,
i'm sorry for hurting u,
i know this is not really enough,
but this will never happen again,
i promise you,
the pain i have given u is really hurting me now,
i can feel ur pain now...
(To the one i hurted unknowingly...)

2011-02-15T10:02:00.000-08:00

Hmmmmm.....
Its a great feeling when a person
u like the most enters into ur life,
its like u have won over the world,
ur the most happiest person,
ur eyes find her always,
u feel like talkin to her alwayz,
ur lifz most beautiful moments are wen ur wid her,
wat elzzzzzzzz
no more words to explain............

For u...

2011-02-13T10:19:00.000-08:00

Thanx for being there in my life,
i love u in all ways i can,
i dont find any reason,
y i like u soo much,
i feel my life is more beautiful wid u,
i love to fight wid u,
i feel like doing anything for u,
even if i hate it,
i love to see ur face smilin always,
i like doing anything for ur smile,
the feel i get when i do somethin
for ur happiness is really great...
(LOVE U TEJU....)

Stop....

2010-12-03T07:10:00.000-08:00

I want the world to stop here,
i'm unable to bear the pain,
dont want the world to move forward,
unable to talk with anyone,
this heart is unable to bear the hurt
you have made,
want the end my life with silence,
so that it doesnot hurts anyone,
you didnt lend your hand in times of need,
instead you left my hand,
you showed me dark instead of light,

2010-11-26T07:12:00.001-08:00

The word happiness would lose its meaning if therz no sadness to balance it.....

No one

2010-11-25T10:34:00.000-08:00

Smilin wid sooooo much pain....

In a crowd
i feel soo lonely,
I'm unable to
believe that i'm alone,
All of them
deserted me,
No one to
care and lend a hand,
Weeping
alone in my empty bed,
Got a doubt
whether i'm alive or not,
Spending all
the nights lonely,
Donno if
anyone is there for me,

Even cactus hugged with much love,
gives us only pain...

sorry...

2010-10-27T06:12:00.000-07:00

plz come back,
i'm waiting for u here,
really life is hell to me without u,
i didnt mean to hurt u,
i juz said it in anger,
i apologise,
itz my mistake,
but plzz come back,
i'm unable to stay without u,
i'm not able to sleep,
i want u to take care of me...

(Dedicated to my darlin....)

missin u...

2010-10-24T12:06:00.000-07:00

hey darln,
i'm missin u a looooooooooot,
unable to concentrate on anything,

its hurting me like hell,
my eyes are waitin to see myself in your eyes,

i'm waitin for your message,
i'm waiting for your call,
i'm dyin to see you,

but this is the only feeling me
which makes me know that
i'm still alive...

"Thank you for making me know
i'm still on the earth"

(Dedicated to two of my frnz...)

I wanna leave

2010-10-17T08:56:00.000-07:00

I wanna leave now,
I have lost myself,
forgot the meaning of smile,
donno wat to do now,
donno watz goin on within me,
this cant be described,
silent tears are hurting me,
i wanna destroy myself,
even when i'm cumin out of this feel
doors are getting shut,
so i'm going back again,
I'm smiling to give happiness to someone
which i dont feel,
I feel like everyone rejected me,
Now pain is taking many forms in me,
itz filling my life with sorrow,
itz making me feel the worst way..