Silent Daze

River

2018-06-16T23:09:00.003-07:00

Sometimes I think of time as a river,

Flowing freely and ever clearer,

Sticks and stones may block your path,

Some may drown, even under their own wrath,

Yet I gaze on those who still swim,

Gasping for air but real conviction,

I started to sink but I see it now,

The depths of the bottom pulling me down,

Sudden surge to the surface the sun is high,

Feel the warmth as I heave a heavy sigh,

Horizon is clear we swim with purpose,

Sticks fall free, stones are worthless,

Eclipse that feeling with something new,

The hopes and dreams left to pursue,

Buried deep in lion's slumber,

Awoken to roar with mighty thunder,

I feel the fire a passionate rage,

Cast away that mental cage,

For silence is death to the new age

Life before Death

2017-02-01T22:46:00.001-08:00

Turn the page on another lonely chapter,
The train moves on yet I look past her,
Stare into the darkness I know so well,
Drawn to it's depths to which I fell,
I laugh and smile in a lunatic fashion,
For I must be mad to keep on laughing,
Disturbed I suppose wrought in frail clothes,
The shell slowly cracks as the light only grows,
Emanating within this fire bursts with sin,
Surrounded by youth in pursuit of education,
Where do I belong this is no longer my song,
I wrath and wicked to quell this hatred,
Time ill spent so lost I cannot repent,
I wander alone down this dark dismal road,
Searching for solace as this soul erode,
Cling to the hope of a bright happy future,
Cynical nature always pulls at the suture,
Yet I always repair this worn out bandage,
Nurture the wisdom that my doubts are outlandish,
My eyes remain fixed on that golden horizon,
The wind at my back I will keep on climbing,
The mountain is steep yet I can see the top clearly,
Images of oceans that no longer breathe salty,
My destiny is mine and I will make it known,
My name is not Death and it is my Life that I own.

Flying Colors

2016-05-10T10:13:00.001-07:00

Torn between the life I want and the life I lead,

Tormented by my past and lost time I bleed,

Fears echo slow as the sand trickles on,

Circling that spiral so downward and long,

I've been here before yet I always remisce,

Chasing that dragon for a moment of bliss,

My mind weighs heavy with thoughts I see,

Yearning for change it wants to be free,

Yet the shackles of fate are bound so tight,

Pinned my soul to the fire with grievous might,

I turn away from the flame and I stir insane,

Unable to deter this crisis of blame,

Progress is made but it's always relaxed,

Indecision and sorrow trickle along the tracks,

The train is coming and I know it's on course,

Pushing me along with it's positive force,

Even though I wander for a while,

Taking my time to find my smile,

My heart knows this is not the final mile,

The road is long and I will survive this trial,

Guided by the light and the sun up above,

Resound my passion and feel true love,

For one day it will be clear that it all was a test,

Will I pass with flying colors before my final rest?

Red Dragonfly

2014-10-06T12:37:00.000-07:00

The time may flow like the wind on a calm day,

Or rush like a torrent as it all turns gray,

A brief detour on this most fateful tale,

The tide is heavy yet the brave prevail,

I turn into the wind to catch a glimpse,

Fight my demons and ever since,

The wind seems cruel in the piercing gale,

Like a thousand needles why so frail,

The harbinger looms near with a wicked smile,

Cloaked as a red dragonfly for this trial,

It flutters close so I can see it tremor,

The wind cast away it's final glimmer,

Till one day we may see it fly again,

But for now it sinks and shall never swim

Silent Daze

2011-09-12T00:29:00.000-07:00

Life turns as my wisdom discerns,

The reason for meaning constantly gleaming,

Intake my dragon I breathe out the flames,

Taken for granted my diaphanous wings,

Wither and wicked I wait for a while,

Staring blankly at the last long trial,

Those I hold close fall into blur,

I do not see you I'm sorry sir,

My vision is focused on this one solemn space,

Blind to those I choose not to face,

The emptiness consumes yet I feel so warm,

Collapse my synapses and do no harm,

Did you call, for I am not here today,

I've checked out and prefer it that way,

Oh yes my body is present yet my mind relents,

I'm traveling in my world where comets commence,

Flashing through the pieces of my past,

Laughing or crying the moments don't last,

Sudden surge to reality as a question is asked,

Very good I've answered your request,

Silence begins as my silent daze beckons,

Where do I go when my mind wanders,

What do they think as I sit and ponder,

Derisive comments about one's mental currents,

Yet where anger should appear I simply stare,

Caught in the tunnel I've claimed to repair,

Till one day when my eyes fail to see,

A familiar darkness, for my world is me

Oh my hero

2011-08-16T02:11:00.000-07:00

As the tide flows by I shed a soft tear,

For all the souls to which I hold dear,

When will it end this sorrowful journey,

Amidst blood and guts and all of us surely,

When the sun sets dim and all is left to sink in,

As my ship sets sail on the noon so frail,

Where will I go when my sails are cut short,

The wind grows calm and I lie still distort,

A wicked storm approaches oh sorrowful sailor,

Which direction will my fortune favor,

A capsized vessel in the vast ocean blue,

Of all the conquests I've left to pursue,

Wax and wane this pale harbinger moon,

Eclipse my fate and hero please not too soon,

The time is at an end as the scythe reaps descend,

I turn to the north as my flesh spews forth,

Face your enemy with a solemn face,

I feel not even a shred of disgrace,

For the battle was well-fought,

I forsake thoughts of distraught,

With my last breath I sing of times past,

With my sails falling low upon the mast,

I refuse to be a desolate outcast,

Let me rest with the reign of kings,

As the sirens spread tales of my gentle wings

Sudden Torrent

2011-07-23T18:45:00.000-07:00

I wake to find the world unwind,

Thoughts I lost come swimming by,

I glance their way and fall prey,

For once I turned my head but not today,

How long has it been since it really sunk in,

Spent so much time just to root out the sin,

When all comes crashing in a horrendous flood,

Will you turn your back once again or shed your blood,

A vicious embrace as the mind continues through space,

No longer dampened by the chemicals I long to taste,

Torment flows through with unrelenting pursuit,

Now that you're here they all circle and jeer,

I retreat to calm this shattered mentality,

Bring thoughts back to congeniality,

They fall short of the goal I turn to my soul,

Where did I go wrong oh holy sir,

There is no right or wrong all is a blur,

We dance in the flames brought forth through pain,

Yet at the end of it all whose left to blame,

Cast your doubts far from your mind,

Acceptance most difficult of all to find

Two face

2011-07-09T03:28:00.001-07:00

The moonlight shadow shines upon my soul,

As the schism rends it's heavy toll,

One side for good, the other seeks evil,

Twisted in torment they strive for upheaval,

I compromise for one yet the other seems undone,

As if the tilting of the scales is the wrong move,

The perfect balance maintain or else consume,

I wrath and wicked for all the world is doom,

Pick your poison my son and choose well,

For we only get one chance before we descend to hell,

Make the most of this shattered opportunity,

As fire breathes death upon all of us surely,

I dance in the flames betwixt those insane,

Wondering and lamenting why we suffer such pain,

Wouldn't it be easier to simply not exist,

Not one for all but one for that we miss,

Is it a selfish thing to wish to be void,

To allow the darkness to swallow us whole,

Like a grain of sand in the abyss of space,

Floating we are in this cosmic place,

One morsel to which the galaxy revolves,

We are the center as our nature devolves,

The two faces split and form their dimension,

Thus is created our mortal coil retention

Strength

2011-06-04T02:48:00.000-07:00

The sand trickles down the slender form,

Patch up the leaks to weather this storm,

How to fight when the wounds always torn,

Pick up my sword only to drop it quick,

Lack the strength to accomplish,

Give me life is my only wish,

For I am dead as an ice cold fish,

Take my lessons from the animated presence,

Become humble like the rains rinse,

I lost the treasure ever since,

One day I'll find it buried in snow,

Layers of layers I'll uncover them slow,

The blade will sing with a sharp ring,

I can finally slay the demon strings,

The puppet is free to reign with the Kings

Dipping death

2011-03-09T01:38:00.000-08:00

Pull the string till it snaps,

Release the tension in your grasp,

Rip it back no will to attack,

The fire burns the fated track,

A simple plan turns ever coarse,

Strained from expectation's force,

Give in to the voices that haunt,

Accept the venom that oozes taunt,

Bleeding internally wisdom fails,

Corpse grows cold forgotten tales

It feels like someone's missing

2011-03-09T01:36:00.000-08:00

City of sin my fortune sets in,

Blessed with luck my intuition,

I see the cards so vivid and clear,

Yet my thoughts stray why am I here,

Hello Lady Luck my heart is struck,

Cast your fortune run a muck,

I foresee I will always be lonely,

To want your touch makes it hurt too much,

I don't care that I win these chips,

My only desire is to taste your lips,

Tomorrow I depart back to my sole tower,

One day you will join me in our finest hour

Bright Darkness

2011-03-09T01:34:00.000-08:00

Sometimes the darkest night can be the most bright,

When owls haunt their prey in sight,

Wolves will howl to greet the moon,

Trees will bend to the wind's tune,

Here I wait with a cloak of shadow,

Cold demeanor this night is hallow,

Dagger ready with deadly poison,

Victim steady I reap destruction,

One moment exist turns taken twist,

For he breathes no more I've settled the score

Melting

2011-03-09T01:32:00.000-08:00

Slice me up and serve on a platter,

Feed your hate and get fatter,

Silver spoon will spell your doom,

Rape and pillage hell's cocoon,

Burn inside with vicious lies,

Rebel the fate that reaps demise,

Live and die snake crawl out your eye,

Slither the sickness we live by,

One day they will all sit and laugh,

As the world decays from god's wrath

Dearly Departed

2011-03-09T01:31:00.000-08:00

We come into this world so innocent and pure,

Raised with the trials we must endure,

The purity grows dark as the sun sets,

As fortune favors those with no regrets,

We live and love and laugh today,

Tomorrow we die as time slips away,

Some left behind will keep us in their hearts,

Till the end of days when our soul departs

Alex Lent

2011-03-09T01:29:00.000-08:00

Let us rejoice for this great day,

Celebrate the birth with a fine display,

Alex turns two so much to do,

I wonder what path he shall pursue,

Perhaps an artist or astronaut,

A salesman or a pilot,

Whatever he decides we will be by his side,

Always encouraging with the rising tide

Shadow on the Wall

2011-01-18T01:19:00.001-08:00

I stare at my shadow as it lies on the wall,

It stares back and I expect it to call,

What do you see on this tattered face,

Why are you gesturing at me with disgrace,

Shambled and torn I see you so clearly,

A spectral visage staggering drearily,

Take a step back through that door behind,

The light is too close your image unwind,

Such a clouded prism you see through,

Make it transparent and always pursue,

The fading dreams will grow far from your grasp,

Let them slip too quick you surely won't last,

The passion is the life that breathes ambition,

Not for the intrinsic motives but for your own volition,

To let it die is a true tragedy I won't permit,

I am your shadow we shall never submit

Flow of Life

2011-01-17T00:07:00.000-08:00

Strum the chords of a familiar tune,

Play it soft and play it soon,

If it ends I will repeat the song,

Listen close and forget all that's wrong,

Lose myself in the instrumental bliss,

Each note is passion I reminisce,

So clear and crisp I cherish every sound,

Even when it ends I keep it in my head year round,

Save it for that time when it rains,

Or when I'm stabbed by nostalgic stains,

A memory so vivid with a beautiful soundtrack,

Flowing like a river forward and back,

Until the rocks are worn by the water's course,

Smooth as silk it rolls off remorse,

Someday it will reach that glorious sea,

Where the plenty of fish swim happily

On the precipice

2011-01-15T03:53:00.000-08:00

The penetrating glare of the rising sun,

Proof to all life that the day is done,

Celebrate the new year with friendly cheer,

The morning to follow I will be the subject of jeer,

They will say in a derisive way how much I fear,

Gawk and mock at my pathetic life year after year,

Haha so funny let's all have a good laugh,

I will joke too even about my own behalf,

Do I feel too much or maybe nothing at all,

Rising kings trample this peasant's withdrawal,

Please allow me to feel hate,

I'd even settle for a sour sate,

Yet my passion is checked by torn out hopes,

Whittled my fury as I hang by the ropes,

An artist will prefer to carve a deep depression,

Surgical incision through my heart a morose lesson,

I depart the scene for it's obvious I failed,

Make room for the king who has prevailed,

I'm glad I could serve another dish of despair,

Tear out my soul as my head bleeds do I care,

Embark in the dawn of a brilliant new time,

I walk alone as this dismal spirit decline,

Waiting and seeking what's over the horizon,

Even at the end of the road I won't give up trying,

Filled with the energy that shining sun brings,

Shedding ill will for lost souls parading as kings,

How can you blame a man for his nature,

Or even be jealous of a woman's chosen savior,

I won't run and hide afraid to face foes,

Meet the enemy that hides in friendly clothes,

We are equals in this life and always the next,

Judge not the animals and the usual suspects

Emma

2011-01-15T03:51:00.000-08:00

Early rise to look into your eyes,

A poet's glimpse of rising tides,

Walk the path that the shore rides,

The sun will glow brighter with you at my side,

Take a picture we won't live forever,

Let's cherish our time and make it better,

For it's days like this I will remember,

A happy birthday to Emma I deliver

Not today

2011-01-15T03:36:00.000-08:00

I stare at the empty glass no I won't fill you today,

The poison is thick as it slowly eats me away,

My mind is reeling at the desperate collapse,

Tumultuous thoughts gripping I cannot relax,

Please give in I just want one drink for now,

I said I won't but that wall I will plow,

A struggle within with that pernicious demon,

Laughing inside as I can't find a place to hide,

Where is my retreat when they cut off my feet,

How do I see when my elixir has blinded me,

Why do I try when one day I will die,

The answer is clear the wisdom adhere,

Blessed with epiphany as virtue flows into me,

I don't need this escape to cut through red tape,

The focus is on the problem but that won't solve them,

Instead I analyze different ways to compromise,

A means to discover this burden is not real,

Manifested by devils that shroud all I feel

The Wall

2010-12-19T04:02:00.000-08:00

Pernicious habits I seek to destroy,

Inquire my reasons a pseudo decoy,

Prevaricate around for the truth defines,

Morose of late yet my will declines,

Thoughts focus on all who sleep at night,

As I lay awake with eyes full of spite,

Brush away the feeling by building a wall,

To separate me from all those who call,

Jeering whispers seep through the cracks,

Stabbing with abasement I cannot relax,

Creeping cooling the bricks I lay,

Stone is heavy yet I pile the fray,

Why bother to think of suicidal brink,

The crime is punishment enough to sink,

Unruly demeanor with nonchalant glimmer,

Glisten in the light a sword naked in rage,

Blood stains are fresh a wild dog in a cage,

Sheathe the fury to keep the blade at bay,

Far too dangerous to live that way,

Brilliant explosion brings praise from sheep,

Too green to know what sorrow I reap,

So long goodbye maybe one day we will see eye to eye

Deathwish

2010-12-13T20:30:00.001-08:00

Each step holds a mystery that's new to me,

Reap the rewards yet it all falls drearily,

Can't quite quench the quintessential thirst,

Is this all there is to my existence,

A pursuit of an end to which I will transcend,

Transport to a plane of mundane but I refrain,

Borders on insane but I still play the game,

Doses to my brain of alcohol so vain,

No matter how inebriated I be I still see,

The scanner darkly I only want a visual clearly,

Venom dirges plague yet I carry on to save,

Redeem that spark that I once saw yet so dark,

Filled with animosity to the constant hypocrisy,

Want one thing yet claim to love another,

Smother the sin with the wicked burdens within,

Sometimes I think a deathwish on the brink,

Perhaps the end will justify the means,

Tearing me apart at the seams,

Pull it slow for I will echo below,

A shadow stalking with harmless talking,

Yet it repels all acquisition calm precision,

I laugh at the offense yet hate still relents,

Stabbing my heart like a dart false start,

Spread the love but it falls see through,

Transparent to the apparent abhorrent,

Maybe one day it will make sense,

The devil fosters torrents till I break currents

First day on the job

2010-12-09T03:44:00.000-08:00

Awake after short slumber thoughts tumble,

Rise to the moonlit bike ride steady stride,

Headlights daze my vision brutal collision,

Earphones blaring sounds soul baring,

Bushes stir to my left I jump at the prospect,

Just the same figure of stone cold trigger,

Arrive to the task with my key empty flask,

Alarm springs cacophony why is this happening,

They gave me the key for entry but no way to calm sentry,

Get on the phone to call for help throw me a bone,

Ring after ring no answer 3 am is a cancer,

Finally I get a response but alarm cancels with taunts,

The line is dead so I grab the cell to my head,

Once again reach connection but realize dire section,

Cops pull into parking lot with guns strapped to blow me up,

Don't shoot I work here never mind my dark exterior,

Heat at the ready they shout get the fuck out,

Near fatal mistake I walk into their guns life forsake,

They back up in a panic screaming WO WO all frantic,

Hand them my cell to prevent shortcut to hell,

Manager straightens up the confusion calm persuasion,

I get the alarm code and am scolded for god who knows,

Heart racing a million miles a minute all up in it,

Now it's time to start my shift all the shit I put up with

Silent War

2010-12-07T00:16:00.000-08:00

Stir up this stew with a wooden spoon,

Splinters break off and spell my doom,

Spark the pilot to heat up this anger,

Bottled up till now I sense danger,

Play off my rhythm skeletal schism,

View clouded through vortex prism,

A glass to an end it seeks to spend,

Pour away the tired will descend,

One day in the distant future I see,

All that is dealt will die before me,

Or will I go first sickening thirst,

Regardless of it all I fly but stall,

Engines overloaded commence free fall,

Administer gases to calm the thrall,

Lashes rip against a granite wall,

Bashes of my head I shake when they call,

Useless to fight give in to the plight,

Acquiesce defeat and say they were right,

For the sake of sanity discontinue calamity,

Meet my maker and whatever they plan for me

Sanctuary

2010-12-05T23:01:00.000-08:00

Take me back to a time long ago,

Trapped in a cell of blackened snow,

Crystals form on the roof of my memory,

Slanting awkward with poisonous symphony,

Sit and speculate what path I will take,

Reclining while I wander in wonder's wake,

Take a break from this forlorn task,

Escape to my sanctuary of cleansing glass,

Surpass the worries that plague within,

Exhale the sorrow that comes with sin,

Listless for a while but it slowly fades,

Apathy to all things the iron curtain saves,

Drawn over thick the safety of it all,

Ignore the time that I must watch to fall,

I shall enjoy this moment with a clear head,

Before I return to the task which I dread,

Relax and listen for the music is bliss,

Strums a chord in my soul I will miss,

Play it over in my mind even after I depart,

Ghastly ghouls take turns to tear me apart,

Over too soon I want to stay longer in this cocoon,

But I know it is time to wake from this dream,

To walk down this road and all those between