tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017Wed, 05 Oct 2011 01:05:09 +0000i rant. you listenhttp://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (Taibah)Blogger264125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-891633967105504513Tue, 08 Mar 2011 04:21:00 +00002011-03-07T22:24:09.736-06:00im just running away from the pain.it cant be broken, but it can be torn. you dont know how thats even possible, but apparently it is.picking up the pieces, again.-taibah outhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/VUKGYtSlw_M/im-not-running-away.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2011/03/im-not-running-away.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-6160543481698929688Sat, 19 Feb 2011 04:50:00 +00002011-02-18T23:13:13.042-06:00exhausted, and in much pain. damn kidneys! why arent you normal :(my mind has literally opened itself up to me in so many ways over the past few months. i dont know whats the difference between right and wrong. good and bad. honesty and lies. truth and loyalty. what is the world coming to? what have i become? what did i WANT to become? people ive once trusted have vanished. bridges have burned. http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/_I9Yu57DO9c/and-forte.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2011/02/and-forte.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-6340722080675792131Thu, 17 Feb 2011 04:39:00 +00002011-02-16T22:46:06.863-06:00frustration and anxiety are prob 2 of the most worst combination's of emotions you can put in yourself. sometimes we blame the wrong things for our own problems.which comes to me at no surprise. But as someone told me today "the more you touch dirt, the dirtier you'll get', i realized the truth. And truth is; you're going to get hurt even if you try. Save yourself the ache and just develop the http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/2imbxEE7-Go/somehow-sometime.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2011/02/somehow-sometime.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-2435158095036217686Thu, 15 Apr 2010 06:54:00 +00002010-04-15T02:10:19.211-05:00i start to compare alot of things that happen today to things that ive been busy with in the past.i told a friend that im starting to give up aiming high in the dunya. theres just too many eyeopeners that im seeing much too often...taibah outhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/DYx9IqJHeZk/so-what.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2010/04/so-what.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-1846276261950425905Mon, 12 Apr 2010 04:54:00 +00002010-04-11T23:59:17.181-05:00perhaps the best thing i can do for myself is simply....take a deep breath and let myself take a step back. once ive stepped back, the next thing to do is put my life ahead of me, and spread it out.i speak so strongly about 're-evaluating' my friendships that its time i decide to raise the bar on myself. lets re-evaluate my life.this has been on my mind for awhile now and alhumdulliah, without http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/VZ4ULLaZY_k/without-goodbye.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2010/04/without-goodbye.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-4677607652762986948Fri, 09 Apr 2010 05:10:00 +00002010-04-09T00:16:28.128-05:00i have turned so selfish that it makes me sad. i blame my damn university for this. and my faculty. and my career choices. and why the hell does management class instructor have to be so difficult.i cant complain now, theres an open window thats left. and i just gotta take it for what it is. Strategic Management, FUCK YOU!!! lol.there honestly has to be a better day somewhere in the future, that http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/ZkkNjrY50pk/scene-that-you-grow-now.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2010/04/scene-that-you-grow-now.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-7396516146407872060Sun, 04 Apr 2010 03:05:00 +00002010-04-03T22:07:52.505-05:00-taibah out.http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/QQrdLFmEvj4/pain-is-warning-that-somethings-wrong.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2010/04/pain-is-warning-that-somethings-wrong.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-6741822505547170543Thu, 18 Mar 2010 02:52:00 +00002010-03-17T21:54:18.977-05:00its been a oh-so-busy month. and i really hate how it started out and how it keeps playing out worse and worse. its practically daily something in life, that goes beyond my control, just shoots its way at me. and im much too exhausted to figure out what to do. im worried and anxious.-taibahhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/AWS0JPHaYxE/butterfly-rings.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2010/03/butterfly-rings.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-4299268098284090709Mon, 15 Mar 2010 07:16:00 +00002010-03-15T02:51:01.749-05:00my hair stinks like chlorine, even after washing it twice with shampoo. its been an interesting playout again this year. the crazy shit that happens is tiring. my left arm is twitching. my back kills, i really gotta do those exercises with the exercise ball..ive been feeling really pissed off lately. almost daily, something or someone HAS to say something to make my mood swing back and forth. i http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/q4fJpHyBGqM/want-me-girl-ill-be-your-man.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2010/03/want-me-girl-ill-be-your-man.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-5876965811843162747Sun, 14 Mar 2010 05:10:00 +00002010-03-13T23:10:54.650-06:00 why cant we just play the other game?-taibah outhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/KxMg_MalLA4/creepy-scents.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2010/03/creepy-scents.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-3758470060357130388Sun, 07 Mar 2010 07:49:00 +00002010-03-07T02:07:03.473-06:00say its my fault, but i want it so much.i can try to pretend, i can try to forget, but its trying me nuts....you're a cup of tea. never the same each time. -taibah outhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/EYPkQxahMmM/uh-oh-uh-oh-uh-oh.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2010/03/uh-oh-uh-oh-uh-oh.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-117253087775753679Sat, 06 Mar 2010 06:09:00 +00002010-03-06T00:16:25.849-06:00Do not trust your heart.. Cause its not on Right side"Sometimes i guess you really just gotta go ahead with it. I'll try to breath easily, but still gotta be prepared to fail at the same time. I think our world is overrated. -taibah out.http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/gqpZA-cOB2w/texually-active.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2010/03/texually-active.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-3509999365017381607Thu, 25 Feb 2010 09:09:00 +00002010-02-25T03:12:53.004-06:00can i get your hand to write on?perhaps this is the first time, in a really long time that i finally paid the most attention EVER in school than ever. Too much to handle i guess, everything is much too important. damn group works. i hate getting coffee money from the rents'. happens i guess, esp this time of the year. why does feb screw me over all the time?a new goal: finding peace, Insha Allah.http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/6BZNBkF2FwI/sliding-down.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2010/02/sliding-down.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-6637396487060593160Mon, 16 Nov 2009 06:54:00 +00002009-11-16T00:57:12.181-06:00and as if i don't have enough of my own issues to deal with.seriously, get real. if you cant handle a simple "how are you" then you, my dear friend, have issues. leave. this country.idiots. and i feel no pity.sue me.i think i have some strange sleeping issues...-taibah outhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/kFWjDy8noLE/broken-nails.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2009/11/broken-nails.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-1361447802739656589Sat, 10 Oct 2009 06:56:00 +00002009-10-10T02:02:25.180-05:00And welcome back taibah :)woowwww, crazyy busy ass summer. worked full time, traveled, relaxed, got broke :)it feels good to be back to blogging, lots to talk about, shall write back soon iA-taibah outhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/KhLA62xETr4/back-to-blogging.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2009/10/back-to-blogging.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-4823057268717503691Tue, 23 Jun 2009 12:12:00 +00002009-06-23T07:17:07.921-05:00i have to be at work for 8am. its just after 7:15 rite now, and my tummy hurts :(yesterday was my day off, however i work today and tomorrow and the day after that im heading to CALGARY for 12 days, insha allah.i came home last night around 10pm. only to see my bike from about 10 years ago sitting outside at the edge of the house with a sign on it, as i walked closer to it i see "For Free" http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/wR_OM7UHXpg/when-youre-asleep.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2009/06/when-youre-asleep.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-856963039821056420Sun, 31 May 2009 05:28:00 +00002009-06-05T03:19:50.320-05:00everything in order in a black holenothing seems as pretty as the past though..im waiting for a Monday to kick into full gear. ahhhhh life is sooo tiring!!!-taibah outhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/B--pVw5q9Yg/my-windoww.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2009/05/my-windoww.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-5535547886502520570Fri, 29 May 2009 08:10:00 +00002009-05-29T12:44:23.147-05:00"something to blog about", he says it with a laugh.since when was blogging a bad thing?-taibah outhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/mQ1YgRwel2o/day-well-wasted.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2009/05/day-well-wasted.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-6407462782483468911Thu, 28 May 2009 02:23:00 +00002009-05-27T21:38:47.860-05:00<!--[if gte mso 9]> Normal 0 false false false MicrosoftInternetExplorer4 <![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]> <![endif]--> <!-- /* Font Definitions */ @font-face {font-family:Calibri; panose-1:2 15 5 2 2 2 4 3 2 4; mso-font-charset:0; mso-generic-font-family:swiss; mso-font-pitch:variable; mso-font-signature:-1610611985 1073750139 0 0 159 0;http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/Wwrwz2yeqSA/written-by-bee.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2009/05/written-by-bee.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-1925187156071717198Tue, 26 May 2009 06:42:00 +00002009-05-26T01:47:47.830-05:00and im asking the same question again and again.WHY?it burns everytime. it burned the most tonight-taibah outhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/wzyP78-Trys/lets-play-love-game.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2009/05/lets-play-love-game.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-7555009646269468497Mon, 11 May 2009 03:16:00 +00002009-05-10T22:18:09.138-05:00Taibah aka T-BANG! aka Ñïkki aka Pixie aka Khala says: ohh and raeesa got her eyes peirced!!! did i show you their new family pic?Yasmeen says: her EYES?!!!! WHAT you mean ears???Taibah aka T-BANG! aka Ñïkki aka Pixie aka Khala says: EARS yess earsYasmeen says: holy shit i was like WHAAAAATTTT?!Taibah aka T-BANG! aka Ñïkki aka Pixie aka Khala says: LOLYasmeen says: i thought you meant she got herhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/qngoJexqZRg/bahahahahahahaaaa.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)2http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2009/05/bahahahahahahaaaa.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-5190504891966227794Sun, 10 May 2009 23:15:00 +00002009-05-10T18:16:54.387-05:00last night was good times.despite being in a terrible mood yesterday, it ended quite nicelyisha prayer at the masjidslurpees at midnightbon fire with marshmallows ends just around 1:30am.-taibah outhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/FIfCzin_GJ4/i-cant-crack-my-fingers.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2009/05/i-cant-crack-my-fingers.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-691302018826790946Sat, 09 May 2009 02:33:00 +00002009-05-08T21:37:11.396-05:00its only a dreamjust a dreamit wont happencovered in blood, a bird pecks me to death. terrifed. i awake.where are the heavy scars on my arms? where are they? they were JUST there a moment ago...right?just a dreamim sorry i walked infront of the bird.blood and scars.why is my leg throbbing with pain?just a dreamONLY a dreamit wont happen taibah....just a dream*shudders*-taibah outps. this was in http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/tZZIh7wLz-U/watch-your-step-kid.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)1http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2009/05/watch-your-step-kid.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6320009391033934017.post-2557831596690054498Wed, 06 May 2009 04:21:00 +00002009-05-05T23:25:19.897-05:00my friend tells me she finds my dad inspiring, it doesnt come to me as a shock. i just nod.in other news, so much to do, so little time.todo list:-call ortho-call mastercard-cleanup room-do laundry-buy noodles-pick up book at chapters-INVEST INVEST INVEST (insha allah!)-....more to come, this list is like neverending-taibah outhttp://feedproxy.google.com/~r/SilentScreams/~3/NlHrJ_WAFYI/amazing-what-they-do.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Taibah)0http://taibah-silentscreams.blogspot.com/2009/05/amazing-what-they-do.html