MY SIMPLE LIFE

2016-07-10T20:38:00.003+08:00

Bersyukur

2016-07-10T20:38:00.001+08:00

Bila sebut pasal bersyukur ni..

Ya aku bersyukur sangat2 bekerja di tempat yang elok..berjumpa dengan orang orang yang berjaya dan belajar sesuatu dari mereka...

recently,

which aku sendiri pun tak expect dpt this rating..mmg la last year aku memang bz gila..bukan sikit bz, tp mmg bz abis..tapi seriesnya aku tak la pikir tahap ni aku boleh achieve among 200 employees in GICT dept, aku rasa, aku cuma biasa-biasa aje..

sekali dgn ni sbnrnya aku dpt lagi extra..

ni lagi aku tak sangka...

itu la dinamakan rezeki tahun ni..alhamdulillah..syukur pada Allah...

Sebenarnya aku rasa aku tak la perform sgt pun, mungkin berkat doa mak ayah..

Dan boss2 aku yang selalu encourage aku..sampai aku rasa beyond aku punya limit as associate11..(mengadap COO, prepare presentation, collbrate with KLB utk Disaster recovery,) aku rasa ni semua keje kelas atasan..hahaha

Just take it as challenge...

Banyak aku belajar dari seorang yang bernama CIO

Sebelum jadi CIO, he is our head of operation. Aku kenal sejak dia HOO 3 tahun lepas..

nasihat dia..think of (people,process and technology)selalu gila dia sebut benda alah ni...

banyak benda yang dia suruh aku buat mmg bukan keje assc11 pon..tapi mcm aku ckp, aku take it as a challenge...sbnrnya, aku dah join pon group lain..strategic initiative nama dept tu..sebab aku nak timba sebanyak gila pengalaman ( sekrang semua pengalaman tah pape..keje last menet segala..aku mmg marah tahap dewa maharaja ke 7 sbb semua takde plan..)

Tp utk complete kan jugak project aku, aku tabahkan hati aku ni..entah la...it is a sour process and experience (i've lost my trust with my good friends, i try to fix the situation but couldn't do so..)regret? yes, aku regret...tapi mcm aku ckp, i need to complete this project since it was last minute assigned to me..

semua ni mengajar aku that you just can't trust your friend until you know the real motive why they come and be your friend...

Tapi aku tetap bersyukur...
Tuhan sentiasa ada bersama aku..sentiasa...

May Allah ease everything...amin......

takde mood gile aku nak buat approval paper last2 menet..hati aku mmg tengah terbakar lagi ni...lantak la..

p/s: bonus dah abis pon sedekah to mom, dad, anak, adik, shopping...haahahahaha

Next? lundu and kota belud project..

sleepless

2016-06-28T05:22:00.000+08:00

It's 5 am in the morning..

sleepless..

just had 2 cups of coffee to fulfill my caffeine dose in my body..i can't help it..I'm coffee addict..lol

Sometimes, i just need some space for myself..1 am on wards in the morning..thinking and prioritizing the task..

Recently refused a few iftar invitation in the luxury restaurant& hotel..wow, it is really weird and awkward especially for taurean like myself (known to loveee luxury foods.)but who cares? hahaha

Really need to recharge my battery of life..it is half empty..lol

Always have this feelings especially during ramadhan..it reminds me with a lot of memories..sighhhh..

May Allah protect me no matter where my future lies...may Allah have a mercy on my soul..

Amin...

2016-06-26T21:21:00.001+08:00

It has been 3 years since the last post..i'm back and will keep posting again..:)

Just because of this song..

Usually i used to blog and post my favourite songs..

i love to listen this song now.. don't know why.. it is somehow reminds me of something that not being settled..hahaha

Ok for now, again..ape tah aku mengarut.. but just to share i love to listen this song..again and again..

Will keep posting and blogging again..

p/s: M.nasir masa ni mmg hensem..haha..

Sinaran sang pelangi

Turut merasakan

Betapa ku rindu

Kepadamu

Di mana kan ku cari bayangan wajahmu

Untuk mengubati rinduku ini

Sumpah setia kau ucapkan

Apakah bagai mimpi

Hilang di pagi hari

Oo... oo... oo... oo

Sedang katamu dahulu

Hanyalah kepadaku

Kau berikan cintamu

Kasih

Dengarlah resah hatiku

Yang masih lagi setia

Menunggu mu sayang

Kasih

[ Sabarlah Sayang lyrics found on http://lyrics.my ]

Walau bumi akan bergoncang

Ku tak ingin kita terpisah

Bercerai cinta

Oo... oo... oo... oo

Sabarlah sayang

Sabar menunggu

Aku kan datang ke sisimu

Kasih

Ku harus rindu

Kupancung resah

Membebaskanmu yang sedang kerinduan

Sayang...

Hulurkanlah tanganmu

Biarkan kugenggam

Isyarat cintamu

Di jejariku

Oh... oh... sayang

Nite.....

cerita..

2013-12-06T14:13:00.000+08:00

banyak cerita bulan lepas...serius mmg banyak tak menang jari nak menaip..

lately ni aku mmg bz..balik pukul 9 mlm ke 10 mlm ke dah biasa dah...redha je la..mana2 pun bz..buat network bz,buat keje baru pun bz..mmg bz dgn aku dah dijodohkan bersama..hahaha...

tapi sibuk2 ada gak aktiviti lain aku buat..contoh?

pegi science festival aritu kat KLCC...ni mmg feveret dia..hahahah...tengok la gambar atas tu,mcm driver la kononnya kan..hahahahah...budak kecik ni mmg nampak sangat interest dgn automotive especially kete2 mcmni...kalau la ada tadika bengkel kereta,lama dah aku hantar..since dah tahu mana minat dia kan..hahahahah...

planning nak g aquaria tapi tatau la bila...groupon dah beli tp tak sure bila boleh pegi..nak tengok dia suka ke tak tengok ikan ..hahahah...

16Nov 2013

Adik aku dah sah bergelar isteri..

gambar kahwin dia tak siap lagi...aku pun lupa jugak nak upload gambar ke notebook..gambar tak banyak sebab kebetulan hari yg sama,muhammad adeeb tak sihat dan kene asthma..so,hati aku berbaur2 jugak hari tu...mlm tu hantar adeeb utk neb,mmg aku bz..kesian aku kat si kecik..aku pun tak boleh nak buat ape2 masa kawin tu sebab monitor sikecik kat dlm bilik...tapi takpelah,semua dah selamat alhamdulillah...

hari isnin,selasa dan rabu...
aku attend kelas kat bangi..ni lah hasilnya...

dah ada lesen dah...hahahah-lesen num saya-10355-bla bla bla..hehe

takut gak nak attend exam..baru dpt temporary cert,nnt dptlah yg ori tu...alhamdulillah...next?intermediate plak..tunggu la company suh pegi baru pegi..hahahahah

hari isnin 25/11/13
The only feveret uncle aku meninggal..dia satu2 nya feveret uncle aku,masa kecik,bawa pegi jalan2,uruskan hal sekolah aku (aku suka pindah2 sekolah,dia la yg rajin naik turun pejabat melayan kerenah anak sedara dia..huhu),org yang sibuk2 masa hari nikah dgn sanding aku...yg sangat baik hati..entah lah...mmg dia la satu2nya pakcik yg aku boleh get along..bagi moral support...serius mmg terasa hilang dia..dah takde dah org yg sibuk2 tukar langsir masa hari raya,dah takde dah orang yg bising2 kat dapor sambil tolong hiris2 bawang,serai kat kg..dah tak ada dah org yg selalu melawat anak2 sedara...yg gelak2..Moga Allah tempatkan diri dia di kalangan org2 mukmin..amin ya rabb<--tetiba mcm sedih...huhu...aku ni penyedih jugak tapi aku tak reti nak tunjuk depan org...org tengok aku rilek je..tapi mana org tahu kan??huhuhu....

Oklah,banyak benda nak cite tapi tetiba jadi sedih,aku undur diri dulu la...sambung lain hari..wassalam...

demi cinta dalam hati ku...

2013-10-07T13:48:00.001+08:00

jgn kene tipu dengan tajuk di atas ok?hahahah...

aku tengah sibuk layan cite adam dgn hawa..

walaupun dah lambat,org kg kata tertinggal keretapi..sebab cite ni dah habis dah..hahahaha...tapi sebab budak2 ni dah download full episod sampai episod 90.so aku layan lah.. haha

cite nya biasa2 je..heroin dia tak syok sgt..hahahahha...feeling dia tu mcm buat2 je.....haha

tapi part yg best bila part kat mekah..bila part perempuan tu doa kat jabal rahmah tu...awwwwwww...so suweetttttttttt...hahahahah

part tu je kot yg aku rasa best...part kat mekah mmg best...tu je yg best,lain so-so je ponnnn

title post tu sebenarnya dari lagu hafiz n siti nurhaliza ni ha...

hehe....selamat layan tok ti dgn hafiz..nak buat keje dulu...

wassalamm... :D

cerita raya yg tak berapa nak raya..

2013-08-19T13:52:00.001+08:00

sejak tangan banyak menaip ni,serius mmg takde nafsu nak menaip utk blog sendiri.Bleh tak?tapi ini hari sebab mood baik (kan dah ckp, mood berkadar terus dgn result bola lfc..memandangkan lfc malam sabtu aritu meraih kemenangan wpun tak bergaya sangat tapi ok la utk first game..first game wajib menang..haha..tactical semua dah tukar...really nice game..buat aku bernafsu balik nak tengok bola...serius mmg tengok bola bukan la dlm list priority aku last year..nak kene pin personal calender tahun ni..hahahah...

raya?so-so.Mak aku tak sihat sgt..so aku tak rasa raya tahun ni raya yg tak best mana pun..takde cerita best jugak takde gambar best..cuma raya keempat adik aku bertunang dgn jayanya..ni ha orgnye..comel kan?mcm ustazah..hahahahhaha...poyo..

tuan besar tengah tunggu rombongan..tatau aku candid ni..konon mcm tangkap gambar hantaran..hahahah.garang oo tapi aku tak takut..haha

kerja tangan aku dan sepupu2 aku..profesional tu..nak buat tempahan??sila dail 755-25-25..haha..

nampak gila2 ni la kaki yg buat sirih junjung..jgn main2..hahaha...sepupu gile..haha

ustazah lagik dan lagik..gila gedik ini ustazah..haha

cium jgn tak cium tangan bakal mentua tu..haha

ok..ni posed purak2 sopan santun...bleh blah..haha

jgn percaya dgn menantu makcik ni ek..wakakakak..:P

so,ni la sikit gamba..malas gile nak upload banyak kot..haha..lenkali lah...

Ok,sampai sini dulu..aku nak g zohor,pastu smabung balik keje..ahhh..malasnya nak buat keje..huhuhu..k bye..wsalam..

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2013-08-12T19:32:00.002+08:00

Kenapa hati aku sedih sgt...entahlah...bila dapat aku lupakan semua ni...tuhan tahu semuanya...aku cuma harap satu hari dapat aku terima semuanya dengan redha..moga Allah sentiasa lindungi aku dari segala kesedihan...Aku tak pernah harap apa apa pun cuma aku sentiasa memohon agar dapat aku lupakan semuanya....aku tahu semua ini tak berbaloi...aku tahu kerana gerak hatiku kuat..aku tahu ikesudahannya..moga hati ini cepat pulih dari segala kesedihan..la tahzan fina....

persiapan kahwin..

2013-06-14T13:53:00.000+08:00

ni aku nak cerita 2 sesi yg berbeza..

sesi pertama.

adik:kak in, aku nak kahwin..
(ok,aku org first yg tahu mak ayah aku time ni tak tahu lagi..hahaha..)
aku: kahwin?
(muka terperanjat beruk kot...tak pernah introduce pun boifren dia..haha..)
adik:aah...ada org ajak aku kahwin..
(boleh ek ajak kahwin terus nak kahwin?haha..)
aku:dgn sape?
adik:nnt aku kenalkan
(sambil belek2 henpon..tak tahu pun minah ni dilamun cintak..hahahahah)
aku: ok
adik: dia ni bla bla bla...
(cerita penuh bersemangat pasal bakal suami..hahah...aku layankan aje...yg menarik perhatian??budak network rupanya...hahahahah...kenapa kene IT jugak bakal ipar aku ni..hahahah...tp dgn cara adik aku ckp tu,dorang ni bkn lah boifren girlfren pun..just kawan2..cuma lately ni nampak la adik aku lovey dovey..hahahah...ok,pada aku bagus lah..wpun mcm tak percaya sebab mcm tetiba tapi bagus lah pada aku..umur dia pun dah 29 tahun ni..wpun aku tengok dia mcm kecik jeeee...hahah..well,nak expect ape?tengok adik kan??hahah...so,ada satu weekend tu ada la sesi makan t.hari dgn bakal ipar..haha..tak bleh la nak bgtahu ok ke tak ok sebabnya baru jumpe sekali..haha..tp ok la...rupanya pernah bawa adeeb makan2 jugak..maknanya adeeb dah kenal dulu..hahahahah....anak aku ni mmg jadi mangsa bawak berjalan2...aku tak kisah pun asalkan adik aku pandai jaga dia..haha....so mungkin kahwin bulan 1 tahun depan..moga dipermudahkan semuanya..aminn..)

sesi kedua..
ni sesi 2 malam sudah...en sayeed dan en wan ajak dinner dekat pantai..tempat dia ok...makanan pun ok..tomyam dia sedap sup daging pun sedap jugak...sambil2 makan en wan cerita persiapan kahwin dia hujung bln 11 ni..seronok dgr cerita pasal tunang dia..mmg kelakar tp aku tak bleh la nak cite kat sini...2 org ni kalau ada,mmg tak berhenti gelak la aku...en sayeed pulak kemungkinan besar kahwin tahun depan...2 bestfren aku ni dah selamat dah nak kahwin...alhamdulillah..tapi 2 ekor ni mmg tak pernah pun introduce kat aku bakal isteri dorang (aku mmg tahu pun..2 ekor ni ...haha..takut terperanjat dengar aku gelak gamaknye..hahahahhaha....sedara aku si fadli pun nak kahwin jugak tahun depan katanya..wah...kene simpan duit nak kene beli hadiah kahwin ..hahaha..ramaiiii tu nak kahwin tahun depan termasuk adik aku...hahahahahahahha...semuanya org yg penting2 dlm hidup aku pulak tu...takkan nak bagi pinggan je kot??hahahahahahah... :)

banyak lah cerita malam tu..termasuk lah cerita pasal KFC...ahh..aku rindu company lama aku..serius...entahlah...tak sama langsung dgn environment company baru....benda yg aku buat benda baru,aku boleh banyak belajar sebenarnya...selalu gak buat discussion dgn sayeed sebab dia mmg expert benda2 yg aku tengah buat ni..camne nak buat analisis,camne nak buat best presentation..banyak gak tlg aku..sebbaik lah...

so,aku harap,tuhan mudah kan semua urusan org2 sekeliling aku ni...benda2 baik camni mesti tuhan mudahkan...insyaAllah..ok,dah pukul 2,nak sambung buat kerja..ada masa boleh cerita...wsalam... :)

listening...

2013-05-31T01:44:00.002+08:00

ngantuk tp tak bleh tido...simplify benda yg complicated mmg selalunya expertise aku...hahah...otak teammate aku semuanya otak complicated ok???aku je yg selalu buat shortcut..haha..last2 task2 meng shortcut mmg pass kat aku la jawabnye...haha..tp camne nak buat benda complicated jadi shortcut pun kene pk mane bleh main hentam ok??hahaha....process flow yg technical kene buat high level...haaaa..amik kooo...dah pukul 2 ni..hahaha...material dah ada cuma dah lama gila tak sentuh ppt ni...gile malas nak buat ppt...hahahahahah...sambil dengar lagu cik pauziah..terkenang pulak cerita sedih.....emo la pulak..hahahah...mcm2 perasaan ada pukul 2 pg ni..hhahaha...okla,nak sambung balik...nite..wsalam...

Flow n process...hari minggu...

2013-05-27T14:12:00.001+08:00

menghadap benda alah ni kdg2 buat aku pening...improvise? lagi lah..nak kene banyak pk ok??haha...aku pemikir yg pemalas skrg ni...

flow??nak tengok?nak tengok???haaaa ni diaa..

jom pening ramai2..haha...

so?dah cukup pening?cuba tengok kat bawah ada bape tab?banyak gile kan...benda alah ni discuss je 3 hari kot...lain2 keje tunggu dulu ok..haha...

tempat ni mmg well organized..setiap change mmg documented..cuma la ni semua manual..system roll out mungkin tahun depan...temporary mmg byk kertas bertaburan di atas meja aku..sama je mcm keje tempat lama dulu..haaha...

Aku nak bawak notebook company balik umah tapi notebook ni gabak gile serius nya tak sanggup nak hangkut ulang alik naik komuter..kalau naik kete aku ampun lagi le..berkilo2 berat nye tu
so keje aku make sure abis kat opis je..kdg2 aku nak gak membaca,aku save je dlm thumb drive bawak balik umah..malas gile nak bawak notebook...

abis cite keje..tamau cite hal keje..nak cite hal lain plak..

Last week ada hari belia kat putrajaya..aku tahupun sbb kwn dok post "tsunami baju" kat FB kalau tak akupun tatau...

Member2 aku semua takde...cuti2 malaysia ok??hahaha...malam jumaat,kak biah ajak dinner kat rumah dia..dinner birthday..ahahhaha...lauk?masak lemak cili api (feveret aku tuu..)sotong blackpper (yg ni baru tahu sotong pun bleh buat blackpeppr..hahah..siap mintak resipi..wkakakak..)dgn sayur tumis blckppr ...nicee sgt...kak biah pandai masak<---aku tamau puji kak biah depan2..nanti dia kembang abis seluar yg mmg dah sah2 tak muat skang ni lagi tak muat..hahahaahahha (selalu complaint peha dia dah membesar selepas bersalin..itulah nilai harga seorang ibu yg melahir kan anak ok??..hilang terus bentuk badan ala2 VB(victoria beckham) dulu..wkakakakaakak...semangat gile ajak joging tapi tak penah jadi..hahaha..tp dia mmg determine nak kurus sama cam aku sbb malas nak beli baju..haha...

so,malam tu makan nasi dengan jayanya..hahaha..aku puasa nasi dan puasa makan malam sbnrnya..tapi sebab kak biah punye pasal,aku makan gak..haha..semua salah kak biah kalau aku naik 10kg mkn malam sekali tu..haha....:D

so,lepas malam aku ambik sekali baju2 yg dah siap di packing kak biah nak bawak g putrajaya..plus aku punye ada 6 beg plastik semuanya..nasib baik ada parking just nice kat tempat letak baju tu..mmg strategik....

aku tak lepak pun,hantar terus g tesco lunch dgn kak biah n si kecik..

lepas lunch,aku balik rumah,operasi mengemas lepas si kecik tido dengan jayanya...atas bawah,dapur,toilet...fuhh..penat gile buat keje domestik sekali gus ni...bukan tak buat setiap weekend buat yg patut je..cuci toilet mmg rutin la,yg lain mcm cuci tingkap ke tukau langsir cadar semua buat 2 minggu sekali..kalau buat tetiap minggu bengkok pinggang makcik..haha..(pss..sebenarnya dah sedar pun diri dah tua..hahaha) energy dah limited..huhu..aku perasan tu...huhu...

malam pulak golek2 dgn sikecik sambil tengok kartun..hahaha.dia mmg conquer tv la kalau kat umah ni...tunggu je saat2 dia tido aku layan pulak battleship..best jugak cite nya...seperti yg selalu di promot cik syamel n gavin..haha..

itulah rutin aku minggu ni...malas gile nak upload gambar kerana tahap kelembapan internet kat sini tiada tandingannya...hahahahha...oklah,smpai sini dulu..lainkali cerita lagi..wassalam..

Post dari Dr Maza...

2013-05-23T13:36:00.004+08:00

Ni post dari Dr Maza kat FB...

..apabila tiba masanya, zahirlah segala yang dilafaz dan dirintih dalam doa..
..mimpi menjadi realiti, illusi menjadi hakiki
..maka tika itu jiwa pun menyaksi betapa bererti bila diri bergantung pada ilahi..

Apa yg Dr Maza post ni mmg betul pada aku...aku pernah mimpi...selalu aku ingat cuma mainan tido,banyak yg jadi realiti...Entahlah, kdg2 aku tak percaya dgn instinct aku...juga selalu anggap mimpi yg aku dapat cuma mimpi mainan tido...dan bila jadi..baru aku tahu...sebab itu, aku tak pernah ambik ringan mimpi dan gerak hati aku...

Harap aku terus tabah...Selalu juga doa agar aku dapat terima apa je yang dah ditentukanNya....

tetiba....

kesian aku...tepon rosak dan aku wipe off hp aritu abis semua no hilang...aku plak pandai sangat dah tukar telco tak buat back up...ingat aku save no tu dlm sim rupanya tak..hahaha....ada mber2 yg mesej aku dpt la save balik...yg tak tu tatau la mana nak pegi cekau..nasib nasib..tetiba plak kan...ahhahahah...:D

makan..

2013-05-22T13:58:00.000+08:00

Ok,aku suka makan..dan aku ditakdirkan bertemu dgn org2 yg pandai menilai makanan...tak kisah makan kat tempat murah ke tempat mahal,asal sedap..ok je..aku jugak suka masakan aku dikritik...mcm ayah aku selalu ckp,ape yg aku masak, rasa lebih kurang sama dgn mak aku..well, practice make perfect ok?time ni dia ckp pun tak ckp direct kat aku..ckp kat adik aku je..so bila abah dah puji tu kembang 2 mangkuk la ok?haha..

Aku suka masak..tapi ada satu problem..suka masak tapi takde org makan..mcmmana tu?so, petang aku mmg tak masak,masak breakfast utk pegi keje..sabtu dan ahad,aku kdg2 masak,kdg2 tak masak sebab aku taknak la membazir kan..last2 tong sampah yg makan..adeeb tak suka makan nasi,so aku hanya masak pasta aje..cuma kdg2 masak nasi dan berlauk,dia makan jugak..tapi tak la berselera mcm makan pasta..oh perasan omputih budak ni...haha..

So,kat sini mmg aku selalu bawak bekal sebab aku tak tahu nak makan kat mana..plus hari panas,dan tempat makan agak la jauh so aku tak berapa la nak keluar makan...breakfast berat di pagi hari..so t.hari tak berapa rasa nak makan...boleh kan mcmtu?...

Cerita pasal makan,aku nak gak cerita pasal aritu,aku wan sayeed dan si kecik pegi makan2...carls jr mmg berger feveret aku...tak plan pun makan2 ni,cuma lama sgt tak jumpa wan..yela org dah nak kawin..haha..bila makan2 ni,serius teringat kwn2 lama kat kfc dulu...serius dah lama tak gelak mcm org gila...dgn dorang ni,dorang tak hal pun aku gelak mcm org gile wpun kat public muka rilek je...haha...so carls jr kali ni di belanja oleh encik sayeed.. :)

well..anak aku mula2 mmg buat2 sombong la..seperti biasa..tapi dah lama2 cuba tengok apa yg dia buat kat carls jr tu...

baring2 ok?dia mmg buat mcm rumah sendiri kot..hahahah..

dgn budak2 ni,apa je uncle wan dgn uncle sayeed suruh buat,dia rela hati je buat..hadoi..paling kelakar bila uncle sayeed suruh gelak style aku..serius dia gelak sebijik kot mcm aku gelak...dah tu pe jadi?kitaorg 3 org gelak gile kot tgk dia gelak sambil terbaring2..hahaha...mmg lawak gile kot...

dah nak balik...dia buat request..mama,nak tangkap gambar..aku keluarkan phone..cari tempat best sikit...so snap gambar dia..

peace!!!!!!!!!!!

ni mmg style dia...peace konon...kuat gaduh dgn aku ni..haha..
ramai gak ckp muka potostat muka aku..ye ke?tah..aku rasa tak tapi org nampak mmg mcm aku...kalau nampak mcm aku,so aku ni kategori comel la ek??wakakakkakakakak...<---mode perasan..ahahaha

bila dah snap tu..siap request lagi..nak tengok,nak tengok...so dia puas hati tengok gambar dia perasan comel tu,baru dia ckp ok...kalau tak,dia suruh snap lagi..boleh tak mcmtu??mmg ambik perangai aku bila tang ni..haha...

Balik dari makan,dia request lagi..mama nak lapar..nak makan..so aku masakkan pasta utk si kecik ni...

dia suka la makan ni..huhu...aku suka beli yg kaler2..nampak meriah kan??hahahahhaha

lagi satu,anak aku jugak seorang penilai makan yg hebat...hahahahha..kalau tak sedap,serius mmg tolak abis..tamau makan langsung...perghhh..kecik2 dah demand kan??hahahah...tp so far ape yg aku masak dia tak pernah refuse pun..haha..kalau la dia refuse,aku akan kejar gak keliling rumah suruh dia makan...haha..

Oklah,sampai sini dulu buat masa ni..pasal makan sebenarnya banyak cerita..tapi dah nak masuk keje..kene tinggal dulu..kalau free boleh cerita pasal makan lg..smpai sini dulu...wassalam.. :)

May Tiba Lagi.. :)

2013-05-16T13:56:00.002+08:00

hahah..ape yg best bulan May ni??Bulan May ni kan antara bulan yg banyak hari special..contoh?Hari pekerja,hari wesak,hari guru,hari ibu dan hari jadi aku..hahahahahahhaha....

Opss..dah tua...dah 31 tahun..syukur alhamdulilah,masih bernafas..masih sihat..bila org ofis tanya umur aku berapa, dgn bangganya aku jawab 31 TAHUN...tak nampak mcm 31 tahun pun...bestnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,,...hahahahhaha..seronoknye dengar kan...haha...

Aku harap aku bertambah matang...banyak benda lagi kene belajar..nak jadi org mmg senang,nak jadi manusia mmg susah la..kene byk belajar...

Aku tatau la betul ke tak ni..tapi aku suka belajar ttg diri aku sendiri..aku ni mcmmana sbnrnya..haha...bleh tak tanya soalan mcmtu kat diri sendiri?boleh jeeee....

17 May the birthday of profound simplicity

Tauruses born on May 17 enjoy the pursuit of excellence. They are intelligent though not showy about what they know; for this reason they may not be perceived as especially brilliant by others.--haha...i always act/pretending dumb..suka tengok org ingat aku tak tahu...haha..

And that's fine, since they are not concerned with how their actions are perceived by others.

Because they have considerable leadership potential, May 17 individuals are likely to surround themselves with more "followers" than equals.-tak jugak...

They are so strong-minded that to be with other people like themselves can create conflict. In love and romance, they are discerning partners.-yeke...entah...tatau...

Your greatest challenge is…

asking for help-yup...tp aku suka buli org yg aku kenal..hahahahahah...

The way forward is…

to understand that if you want to make something happen, you must dare to ask for what you want.

You’re drawn to people born on…

December 22 to January 20-hmmm...tak kot..

You share a passion for devotion, commitment and respect, and together you can create a fulfilling and intense union.-yup..value semua di atas...

Luck maker-ye ke?nnt aku tanya mber2 aku,aku ni luck maker ke..hahaha...yg duduk keliling aku lah boleh perasan kan...haha..

Create a luck network-tak tatau..

Many big breaks come from the least likely contacts, so make an effort to network and stay in touch with as many people as you can.--hmmm

People born on May 17 have a clear-cut code of personal behavior which guides them through every decision they make. Straightforward and to the point, they have a talent for making simple but profound comments on situations.--tak jugak....depends kot..

With little time for small talk, they say what they mean and mean what they say. They are an inspiring example to others but don’t have much patience with those who try to shirk their responsibilities; if they notice someone slacking or not pulling their weight, they are likely to tell them straight out. This clear-cut approach can, unfortunately, win them as many enemies as supporters and so they might benefit from learning more tact. -hmm tak kot..

Their insightful and original approach, combined with their refusal to be diverted from their chosen course, would appear to be a recipe for success. Where this is not the case it is because they have a tendency to overestimate the power of what they can achieve through determination and willpower alone. They often prefer to go it alone, but if this works against them they should recognize the power of a group of people working together to achieve a goal-yeke..tah la...

Until their mid thirties there is an emphasis in their lives on learning in all its forms and they need to take advantage of these opportunities to communicate and exchange ideas with others. After the age of thirty-four they may focus more on emotional intimacy and security. If they can learn to get in touch with their own feelings and the feelings of others during this period, it promises great fulfillment and happiness.-hmm...tatau,belum mid 30 lg pun..baru 31 je..belum mid lagi okie?hahahahha..

There is no denying that these people often have fixed views on things. This can hold them back as life is not as black and white as they think it is. However, if they learn to develop a more tolerant approach it will not only help them achieve their aims and attract a following, it will also open up within them the compassion and determination to improve the lives of others and a creativity that might otherwise have remained dormant.-mmg firm tapi takla fix..still boleh tolerate ok?

On the dark side

Tactless(yup), judgmental(nope), stressed(kdg2)

At your best

Dedicated, honorable, insightful (tak kot....tatau)

Love Inside out

People born on May 17 value personality, integrity and a strong will over good looks, and would rather be alone than with someone they can’t respect-betul kot..

Although they may try to suppress it, they have an extremely sensual nature and a voracious romantic drive; releasing some of that energy into a committed relationship will help mellow and soften them-tah..

Health Give yourself a break

People born on this day are extraordinarily determined and at times this can make them drive themselves too hard and become prone to headaches or digestive upsets. Ideally they should surround themselves with close friends and loved ones who can encourage them to relax and unwind. Those who find themselves alone might find training and owning a dog extremely beneficial. As far as diet and lifestyle are concerned, they should stay away from drugs and alcohol as their body is extremely sensitive to toxins of any kind. Moderate to mild exercise, especially brisk walking, is encouraged to help them blow away the cobwebs, keep their weight under control and boost their immune system. Wearing, meditating on or surrounding themselves with the color orange will encourage them to be warm and open in the company of others.

Destiny To inspire others with their creative and organizational talents

The life path of people born on this day is to learn the power of synergy. Once they are able to open up to others, their destiny is to inspire them with their creative and organizational talents.

Power Thought

“I will always ask for whatever I need”

May 17

Signs & symbols

Sun sign: Taurus

Ruling planet: Venus, the lover

Symbol: The Bull

Birth date ruler: Saturn, the teacher

Tarot card: The Star (hope)

Favorable numbers: 4, 8

Lucky days: Friday and Saturday, especially when these days fall on 4 and 8 of the month

Lucky colors: Lilac, green, brown

Birthstone: Emerald

conclusion,ada yg betul ada gak yg tak betul...so,jgn percaya sgt..cuma nak mengenal diri sendiri aje..hehe...

ok lunch dah abis..nak sambung keje dulu..wassalam...

meeting..

2013-05-14T13:53:00.003+08:00

meeting?benda ni mmg paling aku benci lelebih lagi formal meeting..aku nak cerita meeting semalam satu hari suntuk duduk dlm bilik meeting discuss pasal new process..ada tambah mcm2 ada tolak macam2..banyak benda sbnrnya aku tak berapa nak tahu ITSM punye process..still keep learning..mcm biasa..3 bulan mana bleh absorb semua kan??so meeting smlm wpun aku benci tapi byk output n knowledge yg aku dpt..so meeting smlm kurang sikit bencinya compare meeting2 yg lain..

5s?
alamak..still ada..still gak kene kemas tempat..pe kejadahnye sampai chairman,ceo DRB semua nak turun buat tinjauan ok ??..hahahahah..lawak ok??tp to be frank, kat sini,wpun ICT tp kemas je tempatnya..mcm tak buat keje..hahahah..kemas gile...sbnrnya dorang ada workstation lain,ada test lab,ada library..perghh..canggih kan??hahahahah..

so lepas meeting,aku balik umah..ada a few miscall dr company lama..sape lagi kalau tak en sayed yg call kan?mesti ada benda best nak update kat aku..saja aku biar aku tak call balik..malam dia call balik aku..banyak gile update n gosip2 baru..hahah..pakcik ni janji nak belanja carls jr pun tak siap2 lagi sebab bz gile lately ni...siap mintak mahap sebab bz yg melampau sgt sampai tak sempat2 nak share duit bonus belanja beger..<--ni tak mintak sbb tu aku tak kisah..haha..mamat ni pernah ke tak bz??bz manjang aku rasa..

so malam tadi panas telinga dok berborak..serius banyak gile cerita..borak dgn mamat ni satu hari pun tak abis...mmg tak akan abis punye..ada satu part tanya aku.."dah jumpa cinta pandang kedua ke kat company baru?"ahhahahahahah..aku gelak gile sampai aku rasa urat kepala aku timbul kot...cinta pandang kedua?agak2 la..aku tukar keje bukan sebab nak cr cinta pandang kedua dol sambil gelak je aku reply...FYI, cinta pandang kedua aku kat KFC..hahahahhahahaha..aku gelak time ni...bla dgr terus dia turn on makcik mode dia....sibuk nak tahu sapa..aku ckp RAHSIA..jgn sebuk2 tanya sapa..ko tak kenal...aku gelak lagik....hahaha...tak bleh blah nak tahu gak sapa..ofkos aku tak bgtahu...cinta pandang kedua yg dah failed ht aku plak reply..hahahah..hmm..entah,since tragedi 2 tahun sudah, susah lagik nak jatuh cinta lg..hahahah...susah...biarlah...malas nak pk..

mmg mamat ni insist gile nak tahu tapi aku??hahahah...bukan senang nak tahu nak korek rahsia aku ni..last2 tetiba cut-off mcmtu je..arini dia call pepagi buta ckp sori beb,hp bat abis sambil gelak gile..hahah..bygkan aku borak nan mamat ni sampai bateri abis>?hahahahah...bila kawan dgn sayed,aku mmg teringat kwn baik aku dulu tu..camtulah..kaki kutuk tak ingat..selamba je mengutuk aku..depan2 ok??ahahahah...

Hmm... oklah...aku nak siap2 sambung keje..harap2 la arini dpt keje dgn tenang tanpa gangguan..hahah..sampai sini dulu..wassalamm...

aku menaip sambil dengar lagu ni...

Kini kau tiada
Senafas pun ku perlu mencuba
Kau bawa pergi sebahagian dari jiwa raga

Bersendiri hidup umpama hilang erti
Bagaimanakah meneruskan hayat ini

Andai ku bercinta lagi suatu hari nanti
Tunjukkan di mana
Ruang hati untuknya yang masih belum kau huni?

Apabila tiba waktu bersemuka
Ku perlu pejamkan mata dan memaksa lafaz cinta
Dengan bayangmu di minda

Tiada pengganti bisa hadir dan mampu menyembuh
Rawan di hati meleraikan semangat ku runtuh

Bersendiri masa umpama tak beralih
Berapa lama lagi harus ku merintih

Malam tidak berpurnama
Fajar tiada kejora
Aku hilang di dalam gelita kalbu
Tanpa dirimu rasaku mati

listening...

2013-05-10T13:22:00.001+08:00

byk lagi...mood dgr lagu lama...haha...justin timberlake dah kawinnnnnn...huhu...

org besi, PRU dan kesombongan...

2013-05-09T18:20:00.001+08:00

wah..lama gile tak menaip..ye banyak sgt kejenya..hahaha..tak jugak..sebenarnya malas nak menaip..

ORG BESI

hensem org besi ni...gile best gaban..gaban pun tak hensem macam org besi ni...fuh....part menari tu mmg tak bleh tahan..hahahahhhah...kuat gile kot aku gelak...haha..part paling best house party protocol la..berlambak2 org besi...hahhahahaah...serius makin tua makin hensem tony stark ni..ke aku yg rabun?hahahha...cite best,org best..wajib tengok..haha..

Ok..abis cite pasal org besi..cite pasal PRU pulak..
ok,melobi undi via fb..hahahah...aku suka politik...sbb ko boleh tengok true color org bila nak masuk PRU..aku observer..aku suka observe org,aku suka tengok post2 org..aku jugak suka mengepost..haha.so masa PRU aritu mcm2 aku baca,mcm2 gambar keluar,mcm2 video keluar..ahahah...ada kata betul ada kata tak betul..yg aku pelik,video keluar dekat PRU..walhal tarikh video tu dah setahun kot..mcm kelaka kan?

Lepas PRU keluar isu dakwat tak beberapa nak kekal,isu bangla join voting la,isu peti undi hilang lah,tak bleh tahan isu blackout pastu magic....mcm2...aku simple,karma strikes back..buat jahat di balas jahat..buat baik di balas baik..truth always prevail omputih kata..kan aku pernah kata dulu..doa..mudahan Allah tunjuk...satu hari Allah pasti akan tunjuk..cepat dan lambat je..org macam aku tak bleh buat jahat,sbb aku perasan,mmg Allah bagi cash..huhu...takde tangguh2..

Yang paling tak tahan surat khabar pun join the club racism ni....apa lagi cina nak? mak ko...kasar gile bahasa kot..aku rasa mcm nak bakar je surat khabar ni..nak memburukkan lagi keadaan..nasib baik skrg ni ada mcm2 access..tak harap surat khabar je..Kalau harap surat khabar je,mau nya berparang dah dgn cina mcm 13 mei aritu..Aku rasa media sepatutnya lebih neutral..lebih telus..yg lawak gile tahap cipan bukit result PRU lagi cepat kat internet compare kat TV..yg best,dok dedah kemenangan sebelah pihak je..yg sebelah lagi tu tak byk pun...lenguh gile tunggu..hahah..aku pulak jadi pengulas tak rasmi ayah aku..hahahha...bgtahu latest result..kelaka gile..at first ayah aku tak berapa nak percaya..tapi once result kat tv keluar lepas 15 minit aku bgtahu resultnya dia start percaya start tanya pulak...tp penat gile kot nak update..hahahah...lg cepat compare tv..memang myakitkan hati...dah teruk sgt..kebebasan media dah takde langsung kat bumi malaysia ni..huhu..

isu racism-perkauman ni mmg aku pantang betul..

Aku tatau la..ni karma aku ke ape..aku selalu rasa well loved by other races compare with my own race..serius...yg selalu back stab aku org melayu,yg selalu sakitkan hati aku org melayu..terus terang,kwn2 melayu aku ada banyak kali jugak sakitkan hati aku betrayed aku..mmg aku kecik hati..tapi aku malas nak pk..lebih senang maafkan..cuma ambik masa la nak pulih balik kan...Aku bukan skeptikal.,tapi dah 30 tahun hidup ni..aku jarang di betray oleh kawan2 bangsa lain..8 tahun aku keje,most of my SV n bosses org cina..aku tak pernah ada masalah pun..tatau la...sbb tu bila cerita pasal kaum ni,aku mcm rasa tak syok...takde cerita nak pertahankan bangsa dalam al-quran pun..takde melayu dalam al-quran pun..huhuhu...selagi tak langgar akidah,selagi bangsa tu tak memusuhi islam,selagi islam agama rasmi Malaysia,selagi tu lah aku menentang perkauman ni...ok,abis bab PRU dan perkauman...

KESOMBONGAN...

ni nak cerita pasal kesombongan plak..dalam opis aku ni,ada satu application called "Microsoft Lync" lebih kurang YM la...tapi ni utk kegunaan office...since aku dah ada access...senang la keje aku..tak payah face to face..hahahha..aku ni bab face to face mmg fail la...aku pemalu ok?ahakss..hahahah...
kat sini aku jadi pemalu gile tah pe pasal tah..

so pernah gak 2-3 msg office mate aku kata aku ni kalau tak kenal mcm sombong.sombong?wkakakak..tak kenal aku lagi...sorang dah pun jadi mber menyibuk....panggil aku mereng..dia jugak ckp kat aku,kat sana sebenarnya ramai lagi yg mereng tapi buat2 tak mereng..hahahhaha...ayat tu buat aku gelak..kuat gile kan..ramai gak pandang aku..ok,mmg betul la kan aku dikategorikan mereng..sebab gelak tengok notebook..haha

Kesimpulannya, aku ni tak la sombong..reserve la skit...takkan tetiba nak buat mereng kan...hahahah..aku nak balik...so,kalau free aku sambung lagi...sampai sini dulu..wassalam..

dalam sejarah..kisah prihatin...

2013-04-17T13:59:00.000+08:00

lupa pulak nak cerita pasal public transport.disebabkan skrg aku pengguna tegar public transport,baru aku rasa sbnrnya jadi rakyat malaysia yg macam rasa duduk kat negara asing...aku tak kisah pun kalau tak mengacau org..nasib la ada ladies coach...

last week dalam sejarah aku menstopkan komuter dekat 15 minit..sorang pakcik yg muntah dan tak sedar duduk kat ladies coach..mak aii..aku mmg la takut..ye la takut ape2 jadi keras kat train..nampak semua mcm buat bodoh<<---adakah rakyat malaysia skang ni dah kurang sikap prihatin?aku rasa ya..disebabkan aku baru je masuk dalam coach tu aku tanya la org dekat2 situ n katanya dia dari 2 stesen sebelumnya..bila sampai kl sentral, aku lari2 (ok lari2 ni aku dah biasa dah...joging kat klcc tu kira lari la kan??haahaha..)terus pegi kat tempat pemandu tu dan ckp ada org sakit..tetiba ada sorang perempuan yg sgt2 prihatin turun dah naik atas untuk panggil polis bantuan...aku nampak masa mula2 mcm ragu2 nak tlg...sebab mungkin takut terlepas train..tapi sebab komuter dah stop,dia terus naik atas dan panggil polis...komuter stop lebih kurang 15 minit. yg paling aku sakit hati adalah aku dgr sosek2 kata train dah lambat panas etc sebab mmg ramai gile.dah la tak tlg,lagi nak merungut..hadoi...mentaliti rakyat msia mmg dah banyak berubah...dah makin menjadi kurang prihatin,sellfish...aku harap anak aku takla jadi manusia penting diri sendiri...aku bkn nak ckp aku bagus,tapi sbg manusia..mesti sendiri pun boleh fikirkan??

this week,ada gak la dgr cite kat opis aku stopkan komuter..rupanya ada gak budak seoffice naik train yg sama..haha...tak pasal2...

hari ahad lepas jugak bawak adeeb jalan2 pegi klcc naik public transport...saja2..punya la suka si kecik tu...masuk je train,takde tempat duduk..mak ai..sorang pun tak bagi mohd adeeb duduk..aku tak duduk takpelah kan...tp si kecik tu wei...adeeb baru 2 tahun kot...ladies coach..yg duduk rata2 bertudung..ada jugak yg bertudung labuh mcm pakai telekung..wth????..langsung tak prihatin tgk anak aku berdiri...lepas 2 stesen aku dpt tempat duduk..dgn selamba dan kuatnya aku ckp "adeeb, nnt adeeb dah besar,kalau ada pempuan mengandung ke,pempuan bawak baby ke bagi tempat dia duduk ok?" kuat gile aku ckp aku rasa setengah coach komuter dengar kot..hahahahah..yg kecik tu tak tahu pape terus je jawab "ok mama"...hahahahah..mmg lawak gile la kan...semua pandng aku?SO?bukan susah pun nak educate org ni..hahahahahah.....

so,bila naik lrt to klcc..kita org dapat 2 tempat duduk..chinese guys...then aku ckp kat adeeb say "Sheh sheh"(tq in mandarin)..hahahaha...yg cute nya dia boleh sebut dan ckp kat dorang tu..gelak kuat mamat2 tu...tak pasal jadi star kejap anak aku dlm lrt tu..haha.. ada 2 pempuan cina depan adeeb gelak dan tangkap gambar dia..hahahah...dia senyum2 je..oh part tangkap gamba mmg feveret dia la kan (ikut aku kot ni...hahaha..)dia mmg suka tangkap gamba...mengada la kan dia..hahahahah..mmg lawak gila la kan...

Kesimpulannya,tak kisah la apa bangsa pun,kita kene prihatin..tak kisah la...kalau pakai tudung mcm pakai telekung pun tapi hati keras otak beku tak bleh nak berpk pun tak guna jugak..ok,geram aku tak abis lagi..haha..

semusim

2013-04-15T13:11:00.002+08:00

Semuanya t'lah terjadi
Cintaku telah pergi
Dan kini kusendiri
Tanpa dirimu lagi
Tak mudah... menepis
Cerita indah...

Semusim t'lah kulalui...
T'lah kulewati... tanpa dirimu
Tetapi bayang wajahmu
Masih tersimpan dihati
[ Semusim lyrics found on http://lyrics.my ]

Tak pernah kubayangkan
Kau putuskan cintaku
Ku coba tuk lupakan
Semua tentang dirimu

Tak mudah... bagiku
Melupakan mu...

kalau lah engkau tahu....

bahan bacaan tambahan setelah otak mereng dgn service management...haha..

2013-04-02T10:58:00.001+08:00

Even mengarut pun aku suka baca..haha..siapa yg suka mengarut, boleh baca jugak..

credit to: http://borntoinspire.com/2010/09/19/soul-mates/

1. How do I know when I’ve met my Soul Mate?
2. If I’ve really met my soul mate, why is the relationship so difficult?
3. Why is it that many soul mates don’t stay together?
4. How can I turn the dynamics of this relationship around for lasting happiness?
5. Why do many soul mates continually return to each other?
6. How can we break old negative patterns between us?
7. If we’re apart, and miss each other, what will it take to make it work?

THE ANSWERS
1. How do I know when I’ve met my Soul Mate?
There will be an instantaneous familiarity, a recognition, and an innate understanding and connection from the beginning that cannot be described logically.
You will be psychically attuned to each other, and will feel so alive in each other’s presence. It’s as if when together, you feel more enhanced, alive, and excited!
You can communicate on many levels at the same time, often “tuning into each other” and “knowing” what is going on with the other person.
There will be a shared sense of purpose. A deep love, and a feeling of “knowing” each other on a soul level. It will feel as if you are with your true counterpart on every level.
All of the feelings are mutual. There is a deep soul-level bond, and a deep feeling of having much in common on many levels.
Physical passion can be extremely intense, or in some soul mate relationships, there is more of an intellectual stimulus, and many times it is both combined.
There is chemistry, passion, electricity, and meaning. This is one relationship that will most likely be the most transformative one in your life, and one that you will always remember, no matter what happens.
2. If I’ve really met my soul mate, why is the relationship so difficult?
Soul Mate relationships are karmic. You have made a soul “agreement” to come into this life to meet again to uproot and transform each of your deepest healing and growth issues.
Naturally, when anyone is faced with having to face and heal eons of negative patterns, there is going to be deep resistance on the ego level.
It is vastly difficult to face what we really came into this life to heal. It will be your soul mate, or “twin flame” that will trigger your deepest growth issues to bring them up to the surface to be healed once and for all.
Naturally when this happens, there is turbulence within the relationship, because there is inner turbulence within each person as they are facing their deepest issues to heal them.
This is a deeply transformative process, and a deeply difficult one. However, once you each see that you are triggering growth within the other, and view it as the true gift that it is, then perhaps some of the resistance will dissipate.
In reality, as long as either one or both of you RESIST your growth issues, and resist facing them down to heal them, there is going to be a great deal of difficulty due to this resistance. However, once the resistance stops, and you face what needs to be healed within, then all of that turbulence within the relationship also dissipates, because you are no longer “fighting the river,” but are “going with the flow” where your can truly soar once you stop fighting everything you know deep within your heart to be true.
This requires a tremendous amount of self-honesty, and courage!
The truth of this matter is that once each of you are true to yourselves, and are completely honest with Self, then the difficulties within the relationship will also be transformed.
Being completely HONEST is the key, and that honesty MUST be to Self first, and then to the other.
3. Why is it that many soul mates don’t stay together?
In every case I have seen, it was FEAR of being true to Self, and displaying that truth to the other.
One or both people refused to face what they needed to face to heal and grow. There were often issues stemming from ego that never made their way into the heart of the person.
Ego can NEVER be the foundation of a relationship – only TRUTH can. Truth is the ONLY thing that can sustain a relationship. If one person is avoiding their self-truth, then they are avoiding their growth agreement for this lifetime.
It is for this reason that most soul mates do not stay together. The relationship must be completely genuine. Each person can make many mistakes, however, where there is a refusal to go within to the heart center, and be completely true and honest with Self about what you are feeling inside, how can ANY relationship flourish? So this is the primary reason as to why soul mates to not stay together.
Spiritual law forbids that one stay with the other if either refuse to heal and grow, be honest, and fulfill their soul agreement.
The agreement was made TO GROW! So when that is not happening, sadly both people must part.
4. How can I turn the dynamics of this relationship around for lasting happiness?
The only way you can turn the dynamics around is when you turn YOURSELF around, and get REALLY HONEST.
If you feel something, say it. If you have something that is upsetting you, discuss it! If you feel confused, scared, blocked, or lost, talk about it!
Honest Communication is the KEY.
You have to STOP ALL GAMES, manipulation, defenses, and be AUTHENTIC and genuine with yourself, and with the other person.
Once you do this, and genuinely communicate what you are feeling, THEN you can have a chance to turn it all around for lasting happiness, and love.
5. Why do many soul mates continually return to each other?
Because the love is REAL. It is true, and it NEVER dies. You can be apart for decades, and the love will still be deep inside, even if you are living a full life on the outside.
True love IS eternal.
Once you’ve met your match, you never forget the person. You can go on, and you can even be with other people, however, there will always be a special place in your heart for your soul mate.
Many return to try to make it work out. Then the growth issues come up, which leads to turbulence within the relationship. Then they part, avoiding the growth lessons. Then they miss each other and return, after seeing that it wasn’t all that terrible to begin with, it was just a growth process!
If you find this happening in your life, take a look at whatever it is that you have been avoiding out of fear. Once you can get really honest with yourself about this, then you CAN be with someone that is your true match. Healing and honesty is required – that is the ONLY way it can ever work out.
6. How can we break old negative patterns between us?
You can only break the old negative patterns within YOURSELF. It is a BIG mistake to focus on the “issues” the other person has. This is avoiding self-growth completely.
Face YOUR fears, issues, and ask yourself what you really want!
What do you want in a relationship? Talk about it with the other person!
What areas would you like to come to an agreement about? Talk about it with the other person!
What have you been afraid of? Talk, talk, talk and COMMUNICATE!
It takes conscious effort to make this profound relationship work! It is SO worth it, once you can come to an agreement based on honesty!
That is the key to it all – it is in daring to expose how you feel, what you want, and even saying if you’re not sure – it’s all okay as long as it is completely honest!
Also see if there is a Higher reason why you chose to meet in this life. Is there something you can be teaming up to work on together? Do you share a common vision to make this world a better place?
So MANY of the “problems” CAN be cleared up once you make a conscious effort to really connect and communicate – HONESTLY!
If you have a disagreement – BIG DEAL! Everyone has disagreements! Just talk it over, and come to an agreement, share your views, and don’t run away!
So many times genuine communication can really clear up so much! THAT is why honest communication is the key! It is not to drag you down, it IS to lift you BOTH up to an authentic place where you CAN resolve things between you, as long as you don’t run away, and really want to resolve them.
You CAN break the negative patterns this way, and that is why this relationship entered your life – so you can both heal, grow, and be authentic knowing that anything can be resolved – you just have to want to come to a mutually agreeable resolution, and then, you can.
7. If we’re apart, and miss each other, what will it take to make it work?
Time. Many times people are not ready to face their deepest issues at the same time others are. Sometimes certain issues really need YEARS to be worked through. It is a growth process not a one time event.
Sometimes you may not get back together. That is something you have to come to terms with. You BOTH have to want to get together and make it work.
All you can do is become your own highest and best. You can’t “wait” for the other person. You MUST live your life to its fullest, in every area. Sometimes the time apart is the greatest gift! It can bring the truth up to the surface within each person, and if that truth means that you really do love each other, and want to be together, you can both make it happen.
If the love is real, it never dies.
Your life, however, is about really facing YOURSELF, and in that process, if you find that you do want to be together, life has a way of working it out. You have to express that desire, honestly.
Trust that it all works out for the best. Live and become your highest and best. If it is meant to be that you do end up together, that truth WILL come out in the end. It always does.
Be REAL – with YOURSELF, that is the only way you can ever be real and make it work with the other person if/when you ever do reunite. Trust there IS a Higher reason for it all – it is growth!

kerja baru minggu pertama

2013-03-02T14:07:00.000+08:00

Takde banyak pun cerita minggu pertama ni..actually masuk on 25 tp aku minta delay sehari...nak tenangkan fikiran..duduk rumah..baca2 buku apa2 yg patut..buat medical check up buat surat sumpah<--bab ni mmg tak boleh blah la kan...confirm aku akan keje mcm org gila mcm kat tempat lama dulu...let's cerita hari pasal minggu pertama kerja aku kan...

Hari pertama-nervous tak payah ckap..org mcm aku nervous gak ke?ye..org mcm aku ni mmg nervous dan sgtla low profile ala2 malu cap kucing parsi kan..almaklumlah first day..haha...masuk hr dept..hmm cantik..baru reno org tu ckp...mmg cantik tmpt dia..sorryyy...aku x snap pix sebab tatau nak snap ape kan...haha

Aku sendiri naik department cari PÀ CIO-chief information officer..baik orgnya...kak ji org panggil..selalu org nama kak ji mmg jadi sec ke?hahaha...

Dia hantar temporary letak kat cubical org lain kebetulan tuan punye cubical duduk dlm bilik lain dan tmpt dia je ada pc dan aku dah di inform yg notebook aku tak sampai lagi.

Masuk2 je semua pandang mcm nampak makhluk asing..haha..standard la tu kan..org baru mmg terasa mcm alien sikit..haha...serius dah lama tak rasa mcm freshie kan..hahahhaha...dgn hrpn keje baru ni tak melibatkan interaksi dgn manusia..hahahah..bleh tak harap mcmtu...malangnya bila di ceritakan job scope aku tu,aku masih kene berinteraksi dgn org..arghhhhh..

Rupanya org dah aware pun dgn kedatangan aku sebab unit dah emailkan pasal org baru-akulah tu..haha

Hari kedua-dah bgtahu job scope..senior suruh aku baca ape ape yang patut dn sebenarnya aku dah stadi kat umah pun cuma aku fokus pada SOP dorang je la....petangnya aku disuruh attend meeting-called as CAB meeting (change advisory/approval board) yg di attend oleh head2 of it unit-SAP,NETWORK,APPLUCATION DEVELOPEMENT mcm2 lagi la..dan bakal juga dibgtahu aku akan conduct meeting so kene la prepare ape2 yg patut..nervous lagi....bakal take part juga..yg lagi best aku kene tahu banyak benda..hmmm...sounds interesting...

Hari ketiga-aku byk kene fotostat barang...biasa la org baru..document byk...team aku byk pakai paper lg..sebab system belum ada..arghh..nasib aku mesti mcmni..kenapa tah kan...terpaksa la sabar setahun..dah pun di inform system baru akan roll out dalan bulan 8..arghhhhhhhhhh

Jugak mintak saiz baju utk corporate shirt nnt..haiyaaaa...menci kene pakai corporate shirt hari jumaat..wajibulghunnah lak tu..huhuh

Hari keempat-dah start buat banyak benda...dah start buat analisis juga dah start buat report.canggih tak?,nasib baik otak aku berfungsi dgn baik..juga dah jadi kerani part time sebab kene fotostat banyak benda...mmg xde masa...tp aku akan make sure yg aku ttp akan balik sharp 5.30 ptg...

Ape yg best?belum lg rasa.baru first week..yg best,aku dah tak payah menghadap jam lg..haha..naik komuter je terus sampai..nice...

Rindu keje lama?of course aku rinduuu...bila tengok server room aku jadi rindu sgt2...tp nak buat mcmmana...aku punye sebab yg lebih penting utk tinggalkan company lama...takpelah,mungkin rezeki sampai situ..nak buat mcmmana....ape yg penting hidup mesti diteruskan juga seperti biasa...

Server room company baru

Best kan?hahah...aku selalu harap aku dpt buat perubahan dgn server room company lama aku tp aku failed...takpelah...redha je..harap org baru nnt boleh buat perubahan...

Ada org ckap lepas bonus pun nak blah jugak...hahaha...ramai juga rupanya ada niat nak berhijrah kan..hahaha..

Nak cerita jugak...hari rabu aritu aku buat surprise pada team mis dgn team finance dgn belanja breakfast nasi lemak dan tea k
Choc cake...haha..terkejut beruk Dorang....yela..tuan dah takde tetiba ada makanan plak kan..hahah..

Aku pesan kat adik ksygn aku handle kan..dia sempat whsapp kan gambo kek kat aku...2 bijik kek ckup dia ckp..aku nak bake choc cake sebenarnya tapi minggu pertama keje aku kepenatan..tak sempat sebab banyak hal kene buat....

Oklah..sampai sini dulu..nnt aku cerita lagi...salam...

bila hujan.....

2013-02-24T16:17:00.001+08:00

new adventure begin..

2013-02-23T18:07:00.002+08:00

sebelum ada adventure..aku kene datang 2 hari kat opis mengemas..nasib baik sedara ada..ada level buat renovation,so dia pun ada melepak kat opis..hari sabtu ok??cemerlang tak???hahah..cemerlang sbb nak blah..nak kemas2 skit...sambil dah siap blogging la ape lagi nak buat kan??

tengah kemas2 aku terimgat hal semalam...

ada orang panggil aku..ada orang tanya..boleh tanya personal q?tanyalah aku ckap..tengah bercinta ke??hah??asal tanya camtu plak? aku tanya..ni soalan dari orang HR ok???dgr2 tengah bercinta..adoiyai...pelik bin ajaib mana dapat khabar berita ni..haha..

aku pun jawab dgn selamba..mana ada..serius mmg tak ada..aku tahu org gosip kan aku dgn sape..ah, malas nak ambik pusing pun..ye,aku dgn encik sayeed mmg baik..he is very nice guy..he reminds me dgn bestfriend aku coincidentally dulu2 study kat utm skudai jugak..ambik same course dgn bestfriend aku jugak..mech engineering...kebetulan..lagi kebetulan..dia sorang je ckp ko gemuk ada extra kalori..hahah...serius mmg buat aku teringat kat encik mansor..hahah...kebetulan sangat..kdg2 aku balik lambat aku tumpangkan dia sebab rumah on the way kot..tak berdosa pun aku rasa..kalau lunch makan ramai2..dia antara kawan rapat aku kat sini sebab kebetulan banyak involve dgn dia..buat charity sama2 (basuh rumah banjir aritu..),main bowling sama2,main volley ball sama2,main badminton sama2,treasure hunt sama2,repair kete sama2,lunch buddy aku jugak..lawak pun lebih kurang style aku cuma gelak kurang frekuensi dari aku..haha

Dia mmg kawan yg baik pada aku...selalu tlg orang..he loves to share abt his job n knowledge dgn aku..standard,keje aku ada problem,keje dia lagi banyak problem..dulu nampak mcm dia rilek,aku rasa mcm aku banyak keje rupanya keje dia lagi serabut dari aku..haha..tuhan jumpakan aku dgn dia mungkin sebab nak bagitahu "keje ko tu taklah se serabut dari keje sayeed"..ahahaha... balik pukul 3 pagi pun standard..haha...so, aku bersyukur la keje balik malam sikit pun takpe asal bukan lebih pukul 10 malam..

banyak sgt gosip nya duduk sini...alhamdulillah..tuhan keluarkan jugak aku dari sini...mungkin ni jugak lah salah satu sbbnya..kdg2 aku fikir, tuhan buat sesuatu pasti bersebab..mmg bersebab...syukur sangat2..

aku harap tak berpanjangan gosip ni..lagipun aku dah tak ada..mmg tak ada maknanya..

semalam, aku dapat hadiah dari team MIS n Finance..

aku sebenarnya dah warning awal2..jgn kutip duit,jgn buat majlis makan2..aku tak nak dorang susah2..tapi still jugak bagi hadiah...sedih aku...huhu...kad besar bapak...2x A3 kot..huhu...mekasih banyak2...hanya Allah je yg boleh balas semuanya...sedih sgt..kenapa tah...

malamnya pulak budak sorang tu ajak dinner sambil ajak posing2 mengarut..haha..confirm aku tak post kat FB..haha..kat sini boleh la..bukan org tahu pun kan..hahaha

mengarutttttttttttttttttt

mmg mengarut sungguh..haha

konon2 sweet..gambar ni tarak tak edit tauuuuu..hhahahahahaha...

masa bagi hadiah nangis ngongoi taknak peluk aku..hahaha...sedih sangat budak sekor ni..haha..nak balik pun muka sedih je..aku ckp lah..jgn la sedih2...aku takde kat opis je..weekend2 boleh je kuar pegi joging..hahahah....

Aku selalu pesan kat dia..pegi sambung study balik..selagi ada daya, sambung je study..jgn duduk kfc lama2..go n fly kat luar sana...ambil angin baru...kalau boring, cari tempat lain pulak...she still young, aku rasa wasted duduk satu company lama2 buat keje yang sama...hmmm...

Oklah,nak solat dulu...sampai sini dulu...jumpa lagi di tempat baru...ahaksssssssssssssss... :D

makan je kejenya..haha

2013-02-20T23:11:00.001+08:00

Makin nak berenti ni makin byk majlis makan makan...aku xmintak pun tp ada je yg murah hati nak belanja makan..

Makan makan 1

Makan pizza..organizer en sayeed...macih ye encik sayeed..aku mcm tahu dia nak buat makan makan..awal2 pagi dah dok msg aku cite pasal makan...hehe..aku ni tak bape la gemar makan pizza ni tapi sebab free makan je la kan..haha...lunch ni ditaja oleh lunch buddies aku...semoga Allah murahkan rezeki bertambah2 kebaikan pada dorang..aminnnnnn....

Makan makan 2

Makan makan ni ditaja secretary penny lim nama dia..dia baik jugak dgn aku..selalu jugak cerita banyak benda dgn dia...gosip2 gitu..haha..bukan mengumpat tapi gosip ok?haha...sekali dgn kwn aku cheng..sedap chicken chop ni..serius..hehe..thanks a lot...hehe..

Makan makan 3

Dah habisssss...hahaha..tak sempat ambik gambo...lupaaa...hahah

indah gambar dari rupa..hahahahha...ni keje budak bawah ni laaaa....potoshop la sangat kann..sengal..haha

Ni dinner dgn adik ksygn aku..adik lain mak lain ayah..hahah..adik cum jogging buddy aku..gelak yg lebih kurang..lawak pun lebih kurang..mesti rindu dia nanti...kene joging sorang sorang la lepas ni..haha..hmm..ada lagi sesi makan2 utk esok dgn lusa..kalau rajin aku update lagi...sebbaik aku rajin joging minggu ni kalau tak confirm berat naik 20kg...hahaha...ok jumpa lagi..wassalam...

The Seven Stages of Grief

2013-02-15T14:43:00.000+08:00

The Seven Stages of Grief

1. SHOCK & DENIAL-
You will probably react to learning of the loss with numbed disbelief. You may deny the reality of the loss at some level, in order to avoid the pain. Shock provides emotional protection from being overwhelmed all at once. This may last for weeks.

2. PAIN & GUILT-
As the shock wears off, it is replaced with the suffering of unbelievable pain. Although excruciating and almost unbearable, it is important that you experience the pain fully, and not hide it, avoid it
You may have guilty feelings or remorse over things you did or didn't do with your loved one. Life feels chaotic and scary during this phase.

3. ANGER & BARGAINING-
Frustration gives way to anger, and you may lash out and lay unwarranted blame for the death on someone else. Please try to control this, as permanent damage to your relationships may result. This is a time for the release of bottled up emotion.
You may rail against fate, questioning "Why me?" You may also try to bargain in vain with the powers that be for a way out of your despair ("I will never drink again if you just bring him back")

4. "DEPRESSION", REFLECTION, LONELINESS-
Just when your friends may think you should be getting on with your life, a long period of sad reflection will likely overtake you. This is a normal stage of grief, so do not be "talked out of it" by well-meaning outsiders. Encouragement from others is not helpful to you during this stage of grieving.
During this time, you finally realize the true magnitude of your loss, and it depresses you. You may isolate yourself on purpose, reflect on things you did with your lost one, and focus on memories of the past. You may sense feelings of emptiness or despair.

5. THE UPWARD TURN-
As you start to adjust to life without your dear one, your life becomes a little calmer and more organized. Your physical symptoms lessen, and your "depression" begins to lift slightly.

6. RECONSTRUCTION & WORKING THROUGH-
As you become more functional, your mind starts working again, and you will find yourself seeking realistic solutions to problems posed by life without your loved one. You will start to work on practical and financial problems and reconstructing yourself and your life without him or her.

7. ACCEPTANCE & HOPE-
During this, the last of the seven stages in this grief model, you learn to accept and deal with the reality of your situation. Acceptance does not necessarily mean instant happiness. Given the pain and turmoil you have experienced, you can never return to the carefree, untroubled YOU that existed before this tragedy. But you will find a way forward.
You will start to look forward and actually plan things for the future. Eventually, you will be able to think about your lost loved one without pain; sadness, yes, but the wrenching pain will be gone. You will once again anticipate some good times to come, and yes, even find joy again in the experience of living.

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kerja baru minggu pertama

bila hujan.....

new adventure begin..

makan je kejenya..haha

The Seven Stages of Grief

..apabila tiba masanya, zahirlah segala yang dilafaz dan dirintih dalam doa..
..mimpi menjadi realiti, illusi menjadi hakiki
..maka tika itu jiwa pun menyaksi betapa bererti bila diri bergantung pada ilahi..