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Being a long time

2018-04-05T00:59:00.000+08:00

"Us" now, 2018

"Us" now😊

Make Du'a

2013-02-25T18:29:00.001+08:00

Derbyshire

2013-02-25T02:11:00.001+08:00

I wasn't really finished with the previous post. But anyways, we are now a lot more settled. I think we are here for almost two months. And I can't thank Allah enough for all that He has blessed us with.

The first week in Derby, we were greeted with snow. It was a cold spell throughout the island. And the snow here in Derby was ankle-deep. The days were very cold with temperatures plunging down below 0 degree. Alhamdulillah, we survived without much complaints. Hehe. Tool the kids for a feel of playing in the snow, making snowman. Hamza was so excited he started a snow-fight. Cute. The cold spell lasted for 2 weeks or maybe less.

Other than that, we've met Malaysians studying here. And there are 6 of them including the husband. We get together rather often. Cook something for all of us, share some laughs and our experiences and jokes. It is all different but otherwise good.

But u know, what is life without challenges? What is the meaning of studying if you already know the answer to everything, right? And that too we didn't miss. Life can never be easier nor difficult. But when it does, one just have to brave through it. And yeah. But I am very positive with all the hardships because I believe hardships make u become only a better person.

And being faraway from the usual daily routine, familial support especially with the kids, makes things very different. We have to sort the kids all on our own. And truth is, they are just right under our nose 24 7. After a while, it can get to your nerves. No movie outing, no lunch or dinner for just me and the husband. Heh. But hey.. I am not complaining. I have never felt more content with my life. I am so grateful for the time i have with the husband and kids. Priceless. I am so relaxed. I don't mind doing the chores. I love it. I don't have to think about work, the mind is not exhausted, yeah and i love it. I don't take naps in the afternoon despite staying home.

Heh. I am praying for a smooth sailing adventure here with my beloved husband and my precious sons and unborn baby. May Allah bless us with more rezqi. Ameen.

Till then. Toodles

Baru

2013-01-13T15:27:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum,

The weather has been urmm.. COLD. There's snow outside the house. Subhanallah. I thought the last time i saw snow was when i was 4 years old. And then.. 25 years later.

Yes, we are not in Malaysia. The husband was given the opportunity to further in Msc. and believe it or not, we decided to come to this foreign yet not so foreign land (to us, and to many that is). We are in Derby, England. Why Derby? Because this is one of the only place where the husband can do his course.

Honestly, coming to the country at THIS time of year is not so fun. Yeah, the snow, the leafless trees.. But it's just cold. The day is of course shorter than the night. The day starts at 830 am (thats when the Fajr ends) and it ends at 5pm. That's Isya'. Sesuai la untuk sape sape yang nak qada' puasa. huuuu.

The whole journey of COMING to this land has been so overwhelming. We left behind everything and everyone in Malaysia. Our parents, our brothers and sisters, our friends, relatives, neighbours, bebeh the cat.. well absolutely everything. But as many advised, don't look back. Look forward and enjoy the new journey and adventure. In shaa Allah it will make us become better beings.. as a whole.

PMS ke?

2012-07-02T03:29:00.001+08:00

U know how sometimes every small things just annoys u tick u off. And that u end up like a freaking monster.

That happened to me yesterday, with the kids. If I was even PMS-ing, i thought yesterday was by far, the littlest sabr i had for the kids. Horror. I was like this annoying bitch, barking over the smallest issue. Like How i'd just scream to Hamza to stop playing with his cars on the chair coz it was making rather annoying noise to the annoyed bitch. And i'd just go "Stop it Hamza. Stop doing that!!! Bisingla!!" Honestly, i didnt realize all that that i've done until the husband told me off and for the second time. "Whats wrong with you?" Huuuuuu.

And they went boycotting me. That actually helped me come back to my senses. The kids, they wouldnt come near me and they were having fun with their baba. I went nuts. Aaaaarggh. I was like, u crazzzy or what ya. They are just small kids and u're the adult. Ishhh. Astaghfirullah al Azim..

And poof. I wasn't the annoyed bitch anymore. Aiihhhh. In the firstbplace, why'd i let the satan take control. Haih. Mistake mistake. And i cannot let that happen again. No matter if u're PMS-ing or not or tired or stressed we must always have a lot of sabr in us. Because we are muslims.

Adoii

Yes. And that was a lesson-learnt for me. Lots of kisses for the husband. And to Hamza and Abbas, forgive ur mama for behaving far worse than a little child. I will work harder to be a better muslim so that I will be a better mama to the both of u. InsyaAllah.

I am watching football, final EURO2012 spain vs italy with the husband. And spain just scored the second goal. Yippeee. Bye all. Assalamualaikum.

conjuncti...

2012-06-25T00:15:00.001+08:00

...vitis.

it aint easy

Berleter

2012-06-12T23:38:00.001+08:00

Random

What usually took me 20 minutes tp reach home from work became 45 minutes today. I seldom take the highway when going home but i felt like doing so today. There you go. Unfortunately for me, there was an incident, a trolley got caught on fire and the traffic build up... Aaaargh. Madness.

It's . I'll stick to the common route back home.

Abbas is 1!

2012-06-07T16:01:00.001+08:00

06.06.2012

Abbas is one!

Geli

2012-05-26T20:05:00.001+08:00

I don't know how to begin. The feelings inside me, it's beyond words. I'll try see if i can deliver it.

I was working today. Yes, i know it is a saturday. Many of you must be staying home, lazing around with your husband and kids and family and friends. Yeah. But i had to go to work. Every time i do the weekends shift, i will have to dispense methadone to patients i the ward. Yeah. Sometimes, no.. Most of the time they are HIV positive patients with co-infections usually tibi. I'll just make sure i put on the N95 and some gloves and i'm all set. Watch them drink.

Today, i went up to the ward. There was this guy, a patient i have known since maybe end of last year who's on methadone. Apparently he was transferred to the ward. My heart sort of like sank when i saw him. I felt like crying.

The first time i met him, he was this guy who was always angry when we were late to dispense methadone to him. He'd scream and harass you the moment you arrive. I gave him a piece of my mind. I remember him since then. You see, i don't get to do the same duty every month. So, couple of months pass, i had to again dispense methadone.

I was sad. His skin has definitely darkened. He's lost some weight and he was not the 'kecoh marah-marah' patient he was. I asked nurse. They just geleng their heads.

If that one time shocked me, this time its worse than before. I could see his breathing.. Heavy. And wheb he was about to drink the bloody syrup, he sort of like lost coordination. Maybe he couldnt see that well anymore. His skin, plagues on his arms and they are white whereas his skin has turned darker than before. He took sip by sip.. Oowh ya Allah.

Kesian tu bukanla kesian. Tapi the sight of him before and what he is now, menginsafkan.

Kalau orang lain tengok.. Sure geli. Honestly. Geli. He knows coz when i passed to him the bottle he was very cautious not to touch my hands. Lagi la hati ni berasa sayu. Mungkin kalau ada ustaz to help people like him before the pass on... Aiihh..

Ya Allah. Sungguh besar kuasa Allah. Semoga dibukakan pintu hati patient itu supaya kembali bertaubat.

What a day. I'm glad for that opportunity. Memang in life, we must pause and reflect.

"Soul-mate"

2012-05-26T15:55:00.001+08:00

Rrrrrrrandom

2012-05-25T00:41:00.001+08:00

It's getting pretty late and i can't sleep just yet. Still waiting for these small people to slip into lala land. Abbas is but Hamza is still busy watching his Babytv vids on youtube. All the more i have to wait until he falls asleep because two days ago, he used my phone until the batteries ran flat. As a result to that, i was late for work. Huhuh..

*yawn*

To be honest really, I don't know what to write. So yeah. I think i'll stop writing and hug my two little boys.

R

Who's your neighbour?

2012-05-22T18:49:00.001+08:00

Zaman sekarang ni, kita dah xkisahkan neighbour kita. Either we are too busy with our daily life or we just don't care. Let me tell you, when i was small we had good neighbours. Esp. The ones next door to us.

But as years passed, the kind neighbour moved out and new neighbours came in. The new neighbour was different. We thought they are just plain selfish and ignorant because whenever we are out, they'll park their cars infront of our house. That's the extent that they went.

Later it was our turn to move out. But it was more or less the same. And my little family unit also moved out into our own nest. But it's different entirely. I have amazingly kind and nice and helpful neighbours.

For and instance, last week husband was away for three days. Usually i'd just camp at my mom's but that didn't happen. Definitely. But i didnt tell my neighbour that the husbands not in. Until the last day husband was away, i received a text that morning. The text read 'Nadia, just to inform you Mr Tan and I will not be in tonight.'

I smiled. They are one kind neighbour. They are concerned about my kids and my safety. I told husband. He said syukur to Allah. Now thats what we do. Watch each others back.

Husband was out for futsal. Suddenly at around 9 pm he called and told that his car broke down. So he asked me to go 'rescue' him. I was hurrying when i guess the neighbour heard me. She came out and asked if i was going to my mom's. No i said. I'm going to check on the husband. Suddenly, she was saying, eh takpela we follow u. Nanti kids siapa nak jaga. Really i couldn't say no to their kindness. So yes mrs Tan came with me and the kids to check on dear husband.

Aih. Seriously. I could never aske for more. Your neighbour, they are the closest to you. Therefore we must maintain good relationship with our neighbours.

Moral of the story, you must want to know who your neighbours areans you must be kind to them. They will be kind to you.

Bride and Prejudice

2012-05-21T20:17:00.000+08:00

First saw this movie in 2007. In the UK with my two sisters. It's the Bollywood version of pride and prejudice. hahaha.. We sort of like went crazy over it. So, last night my sister text us on Whatsapp saying 'yols and adek.. I am watching Bride and Prejudice! OMG.. memory!!'

aaargh.. I immediately called husband to get him to download the movie for me. I so miss watching it. especially with the sisters. The husband downloaded it for me. It took around 10-15 minutes for the download to complete. and then I was already watching it. segera tak segera. hahahahah.

Watch this video. I couldn't stop laughing watching it. hahahah..

and then u will want to download the whole movie. Having watch this a few times makes me miss my sisters so much. I so can't wait for Jeds to come home for Hari Raya.. In the meantimes, lets enjoy ourselves watching this and I, i want to reminisce those good memories we had back in 2007.

Green

2012-05-17T12:26:00.001+08:00

Malas pun malas juga. But I believe we must try to preserve the Mother Nature. If not for us, for the future of our children.

Talking about Going Green [bukan turn green like the Incredible Hulk], I have started Abbas on Cloth Diapers. I honestly couldn't care much then, but when you have two kids, you know you'll be piling up disposable nappies. At least that was what i thought. So I Google about this Cloth Diaper thing and i found this. Truly, it has helped me in making the decision to at least start (if not switch) my son on Cloth Diapers.

So yeah. the webpage. I tell you, it's super duper helpful. You'll go from zero to hero after reading through whats written it it. Practically, it helps/guides parents on how to start using cloth diapers. I have seen some CDs before this and looked up for that particular brand on the net. But man, i got lost with the terms. It's rather funny u see, the terms AIO, AI2, pocket diapers, etc etc. and ended up not wanting to buy.

My first 3 CDs for Abbas were from Lunatots. Its an All-in-2 CD. Not cheap i tell you. But it was a-okay for a start. Honestly, i love the colours, the cutting but somehow rather, i just don't like using it. It's not easy to explain. Since i only have 3, i thought i wanted to try other brands. So, i bought 3 from bumgenuis. it's a pocket CD. It's way expensive than the Lunatots. But i honestly, i like this one better. BG doesn't have prints like other brands. It doesn't matter that much to me though. What's important is the performance of the product. ahaha. cam ape je kan. But seriously. I feel it's easier to use and i just love 'em.

Again, i have to stress here, they are not cheap. like really. So, yeah. I could only put Abbas on CD during weekends. Coz we only have 6 CDs. sorry. The poop u ask? It's not that difficult. the smell? aaah, come on. Don't tell me you can't stand the smell of your kid's poo. Disposable or not, u'll still have to go through that episode of 'tahan nafas' n 'cuci berak anak'. hahahhaha.. So, yes that is not an issue here By the way, i got a friend who happens to also started cloth diapering on her son. And she recommended me, this webpage. She operates through Facebook. And then, things just fall into place.

I was introduced to alot other brands but i am still sticking to BG (1st preference) and now trying out Charlie Banana. The best thing is, she offers really good prices. most of the time, they are all affordable. Now i am a happy mom. hahahaha. Abbas is still on disposable. But with the CD, he definitely use less disposable nappies and i am so looking forward to start him on CD completely. My CD stash is definitely increasing. Just bought 6, and another 4. Next is to convince the nursery to put Abbas on CD.

Preserving the mother nature is our responsibility. Although i am only taking baby steps, but this is for the better future of my children and the next generation.

I'll let you feast your eyes on my CD Stash.. ngehngehngeh..

Abbas's BumGenius collections

Charlie Banana. Love the material.

Rehat

2012-05-16T11:46:00.000+08:00

Sangatlah sibuk mengejar masa. Masuk pukul 740, balik pukul 540pm. Setiap hari. Hand Hygiene, Audit Dalaman Antara Farmasi (ADAF), antibiotics usage, kerja-kerja hakiki dan seangkatan dengannya. Rumah, adalah tempat istirehat. xmungkin saya akan bawa pulang bersama kerja. Bawak juga. Tapi tidaklah akan berusik kerja-kerja itu.

Work is all that i have in mind. But, u know u gotta know when to slow down abit. Monday night, abbas came down with fever. Tuesday night, he didn't sleep throughout the night. But i still had to go to work the next day because of ADAF. I was supposed to leave after the colleague came back, but lets not go into that. at least just yet. Ngamuk mak kang!!

cool

So, yeah. last night Abbas was still very restless. I just had to take leave today because there's no way i' gonna push myself. I was slightly cranky yesterday, i was exhausted and i couldn't think straight. Thus, my day off today.

I still have tonnes to do but i'll just chill and relax and tend to Abbas.

Husband's coming home tonight. yeay!!

Abbas needs a shower. till then.

First time

2012-05-11T00:26:00.001+08:00

Hi. This is my first time blogging from this thing.. Cool eh?

H A M ZA ft A B B A S

2012-03-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

a picture speaks thousand words...there are 20 pictures in this post..Syukur Alhamdulillah..we are blessed with 2 charming sons...

What to write?

2012-03-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

Bleurgh.. Ketandusan idea nampaknya.

okla. Lainkali pulak la menulis.

S for Sweat

2012-02-18T11:56:00.000+08:00

wow.. such a good way to start our weekend.. Played badminton! It was more like a family get together. My parents, sister and her small family, alee and my family. We played at the Sunsuria Badminton Court. It was really good. I just can not remember when was the last time I actually did some work outs. The body feels good. But very tired. after that many years..

We've booked a session for next Saturday, after work! yippee!

Need to get ready to pick up Hamza from his Neyna's.

I Lai You?

2012-02-18T00:41:00.000+08:00

Hamza is at my mom's. He's a big boy now. Tak nak balik rumah. I was getting ready to join the husband meet his friend at Subaidah. Hamza saw me and instantly he went

'bye bye mama. I lai (love) you'

Honestly I was more ecstatic to hear him say I love you, than to realize that he's a big boy and has his own preference. My baby is a big boy now. haih.Period.

Tired today. I need to get some rest. Plus, It's the Weekend. I am glad.

til later

Happy Weekends everyone

Ciao

Diet.. Dietician..

2012-02-13T19:18:00.000+08:00

No diet control! Thus the whopping *bleep* kilos I gained. Making me *bleep bleep* kilos now. Dang! My clothes Of course a lil bit tighter.. there.. u know I sort of like have to jump when getting my jeans on! Shoot! *like tow-mater says.

Still, no plans to start having a proper diet control.. hehehe

I am taking mum to see a dietician tomorrow. Hopefully 'Keinsafan akan hadir' in me tomorrow to start living healthily :P

Ni la bahana bilamana Giant berada 3 minit dari rumah kerana makanan tidak sihat berlambak dijadikan stok! sheeshh

Off for Maghrib and crying Abbas

Cerita Hujung Minggu

2012-02-12T23:33:00.000+08:00

The weekend's over. *sigh*

But it was pretty much a memorable weekend. Well, the part the friend got hitched. Yeah. And the fact that we just sat at home and did nothing for the whole of today. Blisss..

I have always loved my weekends break and will always will.

Just a quick update. I've started to potty-train Hamza. We think he's pretty much ready. But we couldn't find the perfect time/day to start potty-train him. So, yesterday, he had stomachache i guess and poo-ed like 3 times in 1 half hour. His bumbum a little injured because of that. He was complaining of the pain. Won't let me touch or have a look at it. So I thought air-dry would be good for him. And prolly a good reason to start potty train him.

I just told him a few times to tell me if he needs to wee wee, take off his pants and go to the bathroom. First attempt, failed. Second attempt, with flying colours! But that was only for 3 hours..

Still so proud of my little boy.

Today, another round of potty-training for another 3 Hours..

I pray to Allah that Hamza will be able to off his nappy really soon.*Prays really Hard*

I need to get some rest.

Toodles.

yuu.. Haluuu?!

2012-02-11T06:42:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum and good morning. I have been wanting to write, but time has not been kind to me. I have been worked up with a lot of things! Housework, Work, Kids, Parents, Grandparents. But simply, Life has been good, Alhamdulillah. Owh, we've moved into our new nest some couple of months after I gave birth to my second baby. Well, he's a big boy now. Just turned 8 months. We still go back to my parents though. Of course. Regularly.

So, what's up with today?

Nothing so special, but feels like mentioning it in here.

The Husband's colleague is getting hitched today. And he invited us to attend the solemnization ceremony too which I think we should oblige to. They are good friends and he's also a nice person. So, why not say yes to join him celebrate his day.

Bleurgh. I sound so formal. bahahahaha..

Anyways, Congratulations to Nakip & Astrina. In advance. *well its just some few hours away. All our du'a for a smooth sailing event.

Before my littlest lion gets up, i'd better go and get some things done.

Semoga Allah memberkati perjalanan hari ini. Ameen.

Suddenly

2012-02-07T16:29:00.000+08:00

I feel like i want to start writing...

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S.T.R.E.S.S

2011-04-29T12:02:00.000+08:00

... yang tiada tandingnya.

An incident took place at the office yesterday. It seems as though the big bosses hates those who are BRAVE enough to raise up opinions and disagreements. In my defence, it is my WELFARE i was protecting.

I am 35 weeks pregnant. Having to work in a hospital setting means, we have to do extra work, they call shifts. In this setting, we have to do Inpatient weekend, ED extended weekend and weekdays, ED night shift and Methadone weekend. Many months ago, after i have given birth to Hamza, some colleagues got pregnant. In the meeting, they requested that all those pregnant will be excluded from doing ANY shifts in the last month of pregnancy. I supported the motion, and granted!

Today, I am 35 weeks pregnant. My due date is on the 3rd of June. So, i guess it is only logical that i wouldn't have to be included in the May schedule for any shift. correct? I am already 9 months pregnant. BUT........

I WAS WRONG!!!!

My name appeared in the list and worse still, the bloody shift falls on the 2nd of May. THAT, my dear readers, is a public holiday. Honestly, I was really upset and frustrated and disgusted and angry. Every word that could describe how devastated I was. So, u think i just sat and wait for the schedule to come out and just hope my name would not be included? NO.

I went to see my immediate superior. She was not very helpful. She said, if I insist that I be excluded from the shift, then I would have to 'Replace' the shift after I come back from my confinement leave. WTF?! So, i was not happy since there was a black and white saying that we do not have to work in the last month of our pregnancy, I referred my case to the biggest boss. The 'Ketua Pegawai'. In the meeting,I reminded her that the other colleagues who were pregnant before me we all excluded from doing any shifts in the last month of their pregnancies. On top of that, I explained to her that I will be 36 weeks pregnant in May, and my due date is just 3 days into June. Plus, I have a very bad back pain and I am under Orthopaedics follow up. She noted. After much discussion, she agreed to excuse me from having to do any shifts in May. I was a happy woman after the meeting. I thanked her for being very understanding of my condition, although I think I do not need to do any explanations about my pregnancy because I am entitled to be excluded. Betul??

So, yes. back to my story. Upon discovering my name in the schedule, whatmore on the date that i am NOT AVAILABLE, i flipped. I was just so angry. I cried so badly. I called the KPF first to ask to see her. But she was away attending a meeting. So, I just sent her a text asking 'why my name was put into the schedule when she's promised me that I do not have to do any shifts'. She replied minutes later saying 'Bulan ni banyak cuti. dan ramai pegawai kena buat shift 3 kali. Jadi kena masuk juga'. I thought that reason was plain rubbish. I looked back at the schedule. 15 pegawai had to do 3 times, and 7 or more has to do only 2 shifts next month. So, I said. WOW!! ramainya!! I thought, if excluding me, all my colleagues will have to do 3 shifts. I obviously could not accept her poor reasonings. Therefore, I sent her another SMS. In the SMS, i said, i am very frustrated and sad over this whole issue. I thought it is plain unfair to have my name in the schedule for the sake of her trying to be just/fair to my other colleagues. BUT at my expense. I am 9 Months pregnant la lady!

I called the person who prepared the schedule, and after much investigation, I soon understand that it was also him, and the bosses who wanted my name in. Being so frustrated and stressed out, I left for home 30 minutes earlier. [apa, dia ingat aku de marah?]. The boss texted me, around 437pm, wanting to see me. But since i've already left. I just didn't take heed to it and didn't even bother to reply to her sms. The next day, I came into work, I thought the onus is on her to tell me WHY my name is in the schedule, so i did not even bother to go see her. 930 am, received a call from a staff, saying the boss calls for me, urgently. I took my time still. Had my breakfast. And then went to see her.

In the room, there were other bosses as well. My immediate superior and another boss. Those two who i guess shouldn't be there but too busybody to know what happened. So yes. Konon-konon when i came in, muka semua orang masam. hahaha. I made a plain face, as though I did not care to what had happened. So, here goes.

B.boss: Do you know why you are here?

Me: I can guess why.

B.boss: Do you know that I am very unhappy with what you wrote in your SMS?

Me: I will tell you why [starts to cry]. I feel that my welfare as a staff, plus being pregnant is not being well taken care off. You told me, i didn't have to do anymore shifts in May, and yet my name is in included in the schedule. Why?

B.boss: When is your due date?

Me: I have told you before this. 3rd June

B.boss: what is the date today?

Me: 28th April.

B.boss: So, you will have to do the shift until 3rd of May.

Me: wow, so much for being fair to other people. 3 days is an issue to each of you. haha [i gave a cynical laugh]. I think, if you cannot be fair to your staff, then I would suggest that you don't try to be at all. Please do not give privilege to one group, and then when i got pregnant, I get nothing! None! I told you how Syidah was excluded from doing any shifts in her last month of pregnancy and that was december. Do you remember how many holidays we had last december? And plus the long christmas hols? Do you remember? Do you think this is fair for me?

B.boss: I think you are being very ungrateful. Do you know that I have 15 officers who has to 3 shifts next month and I have to also do 1 shift. I am the KPF here. Other KPF wouldn't even bother to do any shifts. All the other bosses are also doing 2 shifts. So, what are you thinking? We have been very much considerate to all the staff. And I don't get to be appreciated at all. If this is what's going to happen, I think I will revoke whatever privileges there are. Nobody will be excused.

Me: Exactly! That's what I want you to do because I am very frustrated because of this unjust decision making, done on your side. I have also typed in my SMS to you, except that I didn't send it out. I wrote, If the next officers after me who is pregnant, and gets more than what I am getting now, I will definitely make it big. I am so unhappy and I feel 'teraniaya'. Yes!

B.boss: You are very rude!!

P.SS[another boss]: I think you are being very rude. You must show some respect to your boss. For her position and if not for her age.

Me: You have to understand how frustrated I am. You are not in my shoes. Not pregnant. Not a U41. You will never understand!

B.boss: I am more frustrated! You don't know how to be grateful and at least appreciate your boss.

P.SB [Another boss]: What is it that you want?

Me: I am unhappy and frustrated over the schedule.

P.SB: What did i tell you earlier?

Me: You want me to 'ganti' balik the shift if i do not want to do it. I am for god sake 36 weeks pregnant! Dulu, Samantha gave me 4 shifts a month after I came back from my maternity leave. Konon2, i have to make up to the shifts that I have missed during my confinement leave. You tell me how fair is that?!

P.SB: But it was only that 1 time, right?

Me: How could ANY BOSS allow that to happen? I was on leave for 2 months. But the number of shifts I have done is the same with a single unmarried officer. Can you explain to me. That was why I went to see B.boss personally and told her and explained to her. And I just don't get it WHY MY NAME IS IN THE SCHEDULE!

P.SB: You are still back to that issue. You are rude.

P.SS: No wonder your staff is rude. Just like You.

B.Boss: Yes. That's right.

Me: What has she got to do with this problem anyways?

P.SB: Your staff emulates you and is a reflection of you!

Me: [laughed] and shut up. *I wished I had said, who do I emulate then, out of the 3 of you? hahahah. Surely I emulate one of the bosses.

B.boss: You are a very good staff. I am very much shocked with what had happened.

P.SS: If you feel that you cannot do the shifts, I suggest you apply for a transfer.

Me: Well, honestly I am considering that. It's not the shifts that i care about. It's the unfair treatment I am getting here.

B.boss: do you have anything else to say?

Me: *quiet. Malas.

*after much lecture from the smaller bosses about how kind and generous my boss has been to all the staff, the meeting was dismissed. P.SS came to me, asking me to apologize to the B.boss. I had to do because afterall, I kan orang bawahan. So, yes. I apologized. She too apologized because she has many a times, overlooked issues such as this.

The moral of the story here is, when you are a boss, it is very important that you be a very good one. One that can provide protection, one who can be just to each of the staff. And one that can be a very-very good manager. It is also important to protect the welfare of the staff. Sebab at the end of the day, it still matters. To some, this is only a very small issue. But, mind you, every small issues, when being handled very poorly will turn into a big one. And i guess, the b.boss, she's been dismissing this issue so much until it has come to this stage.

I am basically very much stressed. still. But, I am very much praying for Allah's mercy to help me be at ease and help me feel better.