Simply Nicci

"I live everyday like it's my last." BULLSHIT, I say!

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Thu, 18 Nov 2010 17:16:00 +0000

I call Bullshit, hardly anyone does.

This was brought up in my World Literature 1600+ class on monday and I got to thinking about it, it's so true how not true that statement is. If I had a penny for every person I heard say or agree with someone else who said that they live everyday like it's their last I'd be fuckin' rich! But I don't and all I do have is my blog to think about it on. :) So here I go!

Here are very few, but HUGE, signs that indicate you do not live every day like it's your last:

1.) You wake up in the same house every morning.
---> I believe that, if you did live everyday like it's your last, you would not settle for waking up in the exact same situation as the day before. Not only because I would expect you to travel, explore, and see the world, but also because hardly anyone is ever satisfied with what they have in the Now. Therefore if you lived everyday like it was your last, you would not settle for a home you don't like. You would either spend your time not there or there making it a place that you love.

2-A.) After waking up in the same house everyday, you still go to the same job and guess what? Tomorrow you'll go there again, at 8:00 am.
--->I also believe that you would not settle for working on your last day alive.

2-B.) OR: After waking up in the same house everyday, you still go to your regularly scheduled classes and will continue to do so until the semester ends and then do it all over again next semester until you graduate.
--->See 2-A, it will apply greatly.

3.) You keep telling yourself that if you do the above 3, that a few tomorrow's down the road, you can then live everyday like it's your last.
--->Now you're just missing the point of the saying. If you keep using today to make tomorrow great, you're contradicting the statement. All you know that you have, for certain, is today, and you don't even know if you have that. You don't actually know if you have tomorrow. We as humans get so conditioned to our lifestyles and the repetition of it that we take for granted the best thing we have each day, the ability to wake up and get out of bed. And what a slap in the face to Life it's self that all we do is go to work or school, come home, watch TV, rinse, lather, and repeat. We are assholes, do you not see this?

4.) You have a bucket list... that you keep adding to.
--->Either or both of those apply very well. If you have a list of things you haven't done yet that you'd like to do, you definitaely are not living each day like it's your last because you're constantly thinking about the future, not the Now. If you were to die when you go to sleep tonight and not wake up tomorrow, if this was your last day, you would not only leave behind a shit-ton of pointless possessions, but more importantly a list of what you never did in life that you wanted to do. Why? See indicators 1-3. Either drop the bucket list and never think about it again, or another idea is, accomplish that bucket list. Starting, Now.

5.) The biggest reason of all, you're ungrateful, hateful, rude, ignorant, selfish, or an active participant in this paradoxical world.
---> If you can't see where I'm about to go with this then don't bother reading. On the other hand if you can see where I'm about to go with this you shouldn't have to read on, should you? I'll go there anyways. Let's combine indicator #3 with the phrase it's self. You take for granted each day that you have, in belief that you will get, tomorrow. You are rude today because you think that you can make up for it, tomorrow. You are ignorant to everyone else's views because you believe yours will flourish to the world, tomorrow. You are selfish about being able to breathe, move, stretch, walk around, having the physical ability, to live everyday like it's your last and you don't. You save it, for what? There are people out there who do not have the physical capability to live everyday like it's their last and wish so bad that they could. Instead, they are grateful for being able to breathe and live and they are completely happy and satisfied with that. If you know someone who has a life threatening disease, illness, or who is handicap, you know that they are some of the most nice and grateful people on earth. Why? Because they have seen and experienced terror and have been given the chance to not live that way, so they don't. The great majority of us have great capability to do anything we want and the simple fact is we don't.

Animals are great examples of how we should be. Even domesticated ones. Animals do whatever they want, even the trained ones. I'm sure you've experienced walking your dog and out of no where they dart after a squirrel, cat, or bird, even though you've trained them not to go after other animals. It's their instinct. It's fun for them and they just can't resist. They do it anyways. Maybe not all the time because they have learned that you don't like it, but they slip up simply because it's what they want to do. We should, instead of getting mad at them, feel inspired by them and be jealous. Be very jealous of them because they are true examples of free souls. They have no conscious mind to talk them out of things or to be "logical". Instead they have instincts, and with instincts you are much more wise.

Now let's get real about the issue at hand:

1.) Money
---> Okay so to be real about it and defend everyone who the above indicators apply to, which is most everyone, it cost money to live everyday like it's your last. That's why you're working your 9-5 everyday, to hopefully be saving up money to eventually start living everyday like it's your last. This one kind of defends all of the above, it's what we rely on, it's what we feel like we need to survive.
---> But what about before we had these ideas about "the way [right and wrong] things should be done" and physical things we have labeled "necessities" in life? For example, what would the world be like if we never created a concept, idea, and physical form of money? Then we wouldn't have rent or a mortgage to pay or be contracted to. Then we could just pick up and leave whenever we wanted or needed to. I want that kind of freedom, myself. This idea of money is so fake to me and it personally makes me mad that everything now depends on money. And that so many people believe in it. Who would have thought that millions and billions of people would end up believing in electronic numbers as their representation for their money, something deemed as most valuable in today's world? But the truth is, in todays world you have to believe in money and you have to use it in order to be considered anyone. In order to be accepted as a human Being. My next question about this is, does the reason everything cost so much make it more valuable, not in money, but in experience? What I mean by that is, if money wasn't an issue and we were really free to do whatever we want, would we then take being able to do whatever we want for granted and still not live everyday like it's our last? By this I mean, if it didn't cost to get on a plane and fly somewhere, then it obviously wouldn't mattered if you showed up to work everyday because you possibly might not be getting paid to be there, if nothing else cost. Why would we need money to pay employees? What would money be used for if you earned it and couldn't use it on anything because nothing cost anything? I believe that even if money wasn't an issue, we would still be in this same rut because of the mind-frame that we have developed being so dependent on tomorrow, something that doesn't even exist yet.

2.)Not thinking for ourselves.
---> We have allowed ourselves to fall victim, century after century, to this horrible idea that we need to live this way in order for the world to work. And by 'this way' I mean, grow up going to school, some continue onto college & get a degree, get a job, get married, buy a house, have kids, believe in a certain religion and political system, rinse, lather, and repeat. Who the fuck allowed this bullshit to happen????? How could soo many people fall victim to that idea, believe it, and apply it for ages? Why is this supposedly the only "successful" way to live? Of course it's not literally, people do actually live outside of this pattern a lot, but the majority of us don't and truly believe that we cannot live outside of this cycle. Now, let me clarify a little. I am continuing on that same path by being in college. I LOVE being in school, I really wouldn't change much about that in my life. I truly do love being a student, I love learning. I want to learn as much as I can. But what I would change about it, is being able to learn wherever and whenever I wanted. Meaning, Universal learning. If I want to study the French lifestyle, history, traditions, and ways, I should be able to go to France, live there, and do that. But I should not be expected to stop learning, end school and have to give it up to be an "adult" (Such a silly word to me, adult. That's another topic for another time.) I should have the ability to learn in any fashion that I want to, not just in an Academic Institution, where I pay a shit-ton of money for a half assed education because of all the bullshit pre-requisits that I have to have to learn before what I really want to learn. And not to mention the countless shitty professors that there are because of people settling for jobs when they get out of college and not really doing what they love. I can guarantee you at least half of the professors at my school do not really give 2 shits about what they are teaching. They are there because teaching college makes more money than teaching elementary, middle, or high school. And that's sad.

Why do so many people accept the expected life schedule that was made a long ass time ago? Why has no one been pissed about this? I am pissed, believe me. How dare people expect me to live a life that someone else chose, or didn't, for themselves! Why can I not do what I really want to do? Because it's unheard of. I get shunned upon by my own family members if I do something or even talk about doing something out of the "norm." I hate that. Who are you to say what is normal and what is not? Who are you to say this is how life is supposed to be lived or it isn't? Not me, I am not one to say how you should live your life. Not at all. But I am one to say how I should live mine, because that is all I know. I do not know anything other than that and you can't get mad at me for that. I personally see a problem in how the rest of the world chooses to live and I am choosing to live differently. Just like you all have the ability to do. If you're constantly feeling like you're expected to do things because it satisfies everyone else, shame on you! Or more so, shame on society for putting that un-real pressure on you. But also shame on you for letting yourself feel like you have to fulfill the needs/wants/expectations of others. What real harm is it going to do if you don't do whatever expects you to do? If you really think about it, what a reward that would be. Not only do you throw everyone a curve ball, but you satisfied yourself and that's all that matters.

Life has never been hard or unfair....

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Fri, 05 Nov 2010 21:06:00 +0000

That's right! I said it! And I truly believe it. Why? Simply because life isn't hard or unfair, it's the events in life, our choices in life, and the outcome of our choices that are hard and unfair. And the only one's responsible for all of that are ourselves. We make living life difficult for us, but by no means is life itself hard. It's a gift and what we choose to do with it is up to ourselves. Let me elaborate a little bit more on my thoughts and where the topic for this blog generated from.

First, what fueled me? Social networking sites and over all "drama queens/kings." To those "drama queens and kings": Where did you understand that a social networking site was meant for you to ramble on about everything horrible in your life and how selfish are you to think that that's all we want to hear about? Yes the obvious response for anyone else is simply deleting those people who are like that and trust me, that is what I have now done. In my defense, I had no information given to me when adding these certain people I am thinking of that stated that's all they talked about. I didn't like hearing all negative things in high school and I really don't like hearing about them now. I did not associate myself with people who were like that then and I will now disassociate myself from people who are like that on these social networking sites. To be more clear, I know that everyone has those facebook and myspace "friends"/friends that all they do is post things that threaten other people for useless drama, complain about other things that everyone else has to deal with in life, or talk about how horrible their lives are even though they clearly have the capability to log onto a computer that allows them to go onto the internet where they have a facebook/myspace account where they can post that. That already tells me they are way better off, at least financially and electronically, than a lot of other people. As far as events in life that happen, for example, over drafting your account and then not having enough money, loosing a job, getting bad grades, not getting the house/apartment you want, etc. are all results of other choices you've made, or the lack of choices in some cases. Whether it was making wrong choices or simply not allowing yourself to see other posibilities happening, it's still your fault. You are the creator of your happiness and pain. If you truly think about everything in your life, it was all a reaction to something else. Your neglect to see the good in your life will result of loosing a good job, friend, or anything good you have going for you. Your choice to excessively buy things you already have 3 or 4 of will result in an overdraft bank account. The participation in unneeded drama will result in loosing friends, making huge (unneeded) conflict with friends, and hurting friends who may not be directly involved in which will return in hurting yourself. I can go on, but I think (hope) you get the point. Take credit for your life for once and own up to the things you do, you'd be amazed at how you can control the outcome. Be grateful for what you already have instead of wishing for what you don't have. If you constantly live in a state of unhappiness you will in return create your own unhappiness. If you never see the good in life, there will never be any good in your life. It really is as simple as that. Have something to believe in, either it be a God of any religion, Karma, Trust, The Devine Flow of The Universe, or simply Yourself. Let me say that these things cannot bring you what you want, they can only guide you. No matter how much you pray to God, in the dogmatic sense, He will only guide you in spirit, but you have to physically participate either by physically making your dreams come true or by opening your mind to all the possibilities. No matter what you believe in, the base creator of your life is You and how you interpret things, how you address things, and how you are able to logically think about the outcome of everything you do and LEARN from it. Your intentions and expectations are a HUGE part of your life, whether you realize it or not. But if you accept a job with the intention of keeping it and expecting to keep it, don't get disappointed when you lose it because you didn't ever expect to, or know that that was a possibility. If you're ever disappointed about things in life, it's simply because you were naive in thinking that the outcome you wanted was the only one.

Second of all, yes everyone has the right to Freedom of Speech and that is exactly what the "What's on your mind?" box in these social networking sites are for. Why else would it ask it so specifically? But how is it really working out for you, being so negative all the time? To me it seems like it's only keeping things in your life negative. If I were to have hate on everything I've been through, alcoholism in my immediate family, divorce between my parents, rape over a handful of times, abuse through an intimate partner, drug addiction amongst myself and constant financial struggle, I would be absolutely no where in life. If I constantly dwelled on all those negative things, they would all just keep happening. Instead I know for a fact, because I have lived it an experienced it first hand, that there are way better things in life to be grateful for that, by a very large percentage, out way all of the negative in my life. Be grateful for what you have because it is all you have. Stop worrying about the past because you can change it and it no longer exists anyways. Stop being in such a rush to the future, you'll miss the Now. You cannot predict the future, no one really can, all you can do is know the possibilities and set your intentions for the best. Be grateful for other people you know who's lives are going well. Be grateful instead of hateful.

Now we shall celebrate in increments of 10, happy 60th post! :)

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Wed, 27 Oct 2010 00:00:00 +0000

Here is a little picture update :) enjoy!

[i have my own darkroom <3]

[my puppies are perfectly cute.]

[david makes me perfect happy :)]

[dave matthews band saved my life]

[attempt #1]

[attempt #2]

[good job Gil, Dusty, and David!]

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Oh life, you have yet again confused me, hurt me, surprised me, and strengthened me. I'm not sure how you do this all the time, but you do and I simply have to learn how to deal with it. You and I WILL get along and it WILL be dope. :)

Let's see, what has been going on?

Well, I have been able to produce some of the best art I've ever made so far. I am working on getting it scanned in to post. But in short, it's simply beautiful and amazing. And best of all, I printed it in my OWN darkroom. :)

I have been physically ill and do not know what is wrong with me. I had an emergency room visit two weeks ago on the 15th for sever stomach pain. They drugged me up with morphine and sent me home with vicodin and anti-neausia medicines. What a help they did. But tomorrow I have a doctor's apt with my gasterologist to demand some test done. I don't kill myself in school full time for no reason, I'm going to take advantage of my mother so greatly allowing me to be on her health insurance. I will also be going to an internal medicine dr. to get a second opinion about all my symptoms. Simply though, I am in pain in my head, neck, shoulders, eyes, stomach, legs, everywhere pretty much. I need to get this solved because I cannot live happy and healthy this way. I will get this resolved and adapt gratefully to whatever changes I have to make in my lifestyle, with gratitude! :)

There are other things going on in my life but I am not quite sure what I think and feel about them. so, later? cool.

I cannot get enough of David right now. All I want is to cuddle with him and spend time with him. I want to get away to somewhere where we can relax and have some fun. I want to go to a beach and be lazy and drink long island ice teas all day long. Maybe go dancing later in the night and play some pool :) I would love the shit out of that. I think mainly I just really want a romantic vacation with lots and lots of passion :) yeah, that's right, passion! lots of it, too. ;)

School is going great besides just photography. I need to do a little better in my world litterature class, and I will. i have picked my classes for next semester already and I'm super excited. I will be taking:

Mondays:
2:00pm-4:50pm Advanced Digital Photography

Tuesday:
12:30pm-1:50pm Principles to Accounting
3:30pm-4:50pm Personality Psychology

Wednesday:
2:00pm-4:50pm Advanced Digital Photography
6:30pm-9:20pm US History from 1877 -present day

Thursday:
12:30pm-1:50pm Principles to Accounting
3:30pm-4:50pm Personality Psychology

Friday:
9:30am-1:30pm Drawing 1

yup, 15 hours. I added another minor to my degree. I am now working on my Bachelors in Fine Arts with Photography, a Minor in Psychology, and a Minor in Business Administration. :) I want my shit covered when I get out in the real world. If there is any real world. But my expected graduation time, May or December 2012. Yup.

I feel like something very exciting or very interesting is cooking in my life and I cannot wait to experience it. I have a feeling it will be the relief of christmas break. If we either go some place tropical or simply the feeling of no school for a couple of weeks. It will be bittersweet!

Wish List(s)

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Sun, 17 Oct 2010 22:21:00 +0000

I've decided that there is no better place to state my on-going wish list than, here! Where I can tag it over and over again and then it's on-going like it is in my head. (And so I don't forget ANYTHING) And also, it's available for anyone to look at incase anyone is feeling super nice and getting anything thing off of it for me. ;) Post yours and I might be able to get you something off of your wish list, but I won't know what to get unless you post it. So here is the start:

I'll start small, as in quantity, and big as in excellence and price :)

This little guy, Linhof Techinka Master/Jubilee cost about $8,000 new and about $4,500 used. It's an AMZING (in quality and cuteness) Large Format 4x5 Field Camera. The camera that good photographers dream of :)

And while I LOVE my 2005 Audi A4, my DREAM car is an Audi S5. And yes, Matte Black is what I want. Too sexy. ;)

And for those of you who know me and my books/helf, this one is just great. But I would have it be either white, chocolate brown, or a lime/mossy green color for the couch part.

And because my S5 is not convertible, I have to have a car that is, so this is my pick. 1968 Mustang in that color with a darker brown interior. I've wanted one since I was a little girl and anytime I see one today it still stops my heart. Too beautiful.

More to be added later :)

The Postcard Couple/Family

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Thu, 14 Oct 2010 03:04:00 +0000

(apparently I started writing this on 10/13/2010 and never posted it. But after reading it I still totally agree. actually published on 11/14/2010)

I'm afraid of being like the perfect couple because it seems, according to the news and TV shows, they always have a tragic ending.

New Car :)

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Mon, 11 Oct 2010 16:27:00 +0000

Yup. Things are looking better. Not that my life is terribly bad, but I have to remember that and not let the little bad things really bring me down. Mainly, not let the things that I cannot control bring me down because that's simply pointless. BUT I can completely celebrate the great things in my life, like my unexpected new (2005) Audi A4. Thanks insurance!

I am grateful for my mom and how loving she is.
I am grateful for my car and reliable and safe it is (and fuckin' sweet it is.)
I am grateful for my David and him always being loving and supportive of me.
I am grateful for my puppies Haley and Hydie for their unconditional love.
I am grateful for good health to be able to go through my days with no problems.
I am grateful for my new ability to manage money to save for my future, either near or far.
I am grateful for my financial and mental ability to go to college and work on my BA with a Minor to eventually get my MA.
I am most grateful for my ability to see the good in everything.

there's just this thing...

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Wed, 29 Sep 2010 14:49:00 +0000

(blog post attempt #1)
I've felt the need to write very heavily lately. I haven't because most of the stuff I feel like I want to put down are just thoughts that I know I wont forget. Other things I'm not sure what I want to say about them yet.

A lot of my thoughts have been about realizing how the world actually is and trying remembering it that way. I catch myself believing things to be one way, I'm assuming based off of my feelings about them, and then I come to find out they are a totally different way.

(I started this post about 4 days ago because I just haven't been able to gather my thoughts on exactly what I'm going through right now.)

(Blog post attempt #2)
Mainly, my mood is different every day and sometimes different parts of the days. Over all, I am amazingly happy at how my life is right now. My life is in utopical serenity.

(here it is, yet another 2 days that have gone bye. I will get this post done and I will say what is on my mind. )

(ah, yes, blog post attempt #3. 3's a charm!)
The current readings floating around in my head are The Secret by Rhonda Byrnes and The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. Not only are these two books very inspirational, motivational, and enlightening to ones self, but they can also be very very misread and confusing. These two books are the guide that I have been (trying to) live off of for the past 6 months. I have been waking up everyday and noticing and acknowledging everything I am grateful for. I have a 30 min drive to school and 20 min walk to class that I do nothing but think. I have 3 1/2 hour long classes that I do nothing but think. Think. Think. Think. All I think about is my life, my David, my money, and the future. I'm fucking exhausted. All I've been trying to do is project good thoughts and feelings about my life in hopes that good things will come. If you've ever read or heard anything these two books, you know the basis of it is manifesting your life. The way it "works" is, if you are afraid of something or completely not afraid of something, no matter what you'll attract it in your life. So the way to go about life is only think good thoughts about everything, no bad thoughts. Only put of good and positive energy about everything because it will bring the good side of everything. When you're thinking bad thoughts you may not attract those exact thoughts (same with thinking good thoughts) but you attract the bad of that idea, or thought. You'll never know how things will happen, apparently they just will. If you spend your time with details on how you want your life to happen, for example:

you thinking: I'll interview for this job. They will ask a certain questions, I'm going to ace it and get the job.

That's too much detail for the Universe to handle. Waaaayyyyy to much detail. (From what I've learned) All you know is you have an interview and you may or may not get the job, no matter how bad you want it. If you spend your time just thinking about how bad you need the job and (you may not notice this but) you're really sending thoughts of insecurity. You're already relying on a job that you don't have by having thoughts about how much the job would help you out. Why? because you're already assuming you've got the job and when you end up not (because you weren't considering the outcome of not getting it, you spent all your time thinking about how much it would help and how much you needed it) you get disappointed. That's the whoooolllllleeeee thing behind it. We as humans expect (or look for) certain outcomes, mainly because we are too arrogant (<--that's just my opinion) And when we expect something and it doesn't happen, or the way we thought it would, we get let down, and we sure as hell don't look at ourselves for the reason why. We dwell on it and get upset and that causes more feelings of insecurity and fear. But it's all of this that I have been trying to pay attention to in myself. There is so much more to it though, words like Personality, Soul, and Ego. I'll let you read the books for yourself to get into the nitty gritty of that. The reason I mention this is because I truly feel like I have been projecting nothing but good thoughts, very optimistic, and not at all expecting. My life has been wonderful, perfect actually, until about 3 weeks ago. The frustrating part is I don't know what I've done wrong, not that looking for it will do me any help. By no means do I expect life to be perfect and care free all the time, I know things happen, life happens. I've been trying to stay strong and keep my head up, dismiss some of my feelings, but I feel like I cannot control them anymore. I feel like I want to break down and cry 90% of the time. I'm currently crying writing this blog because I'm so frustrated. I have no idea what I'm frustrated with, I have no idea what I want to think, and I have no idea what I want. I believe the hardest part about manifesting what you want is decided what you want. There is no possible way to know the outcome of things that you want. I haven't heard anything out of these two books about the outcome of manifesting your life. Sure, you live a great life in abundance, but what about the pressure? What about the pressure of maintaining it? Yes, I'm aware that rich people get poor because of the fear that they will lose everything. This is not what I'm talking about. What if I manifest what I want, I get it, and it makes me a worse person or it's not what I wanted? What if I become hateful and greedy? I already know the obvious answer my mentor through all of this would say, "Then those are thoughts of insecurity and fear and you will lose everything." Everything ties back to your thoughts and how you're projecting them. But I could see this happening even on the good side of things and it still having a bad outcome. For example:

I project good thoughts, good things come just like I wanted (without assuming how they happen, of course) and then I realize I don't want that anymore. I realize that I actually made something work that wasn't what I really wanted. Maybe because of "extra luggage" that thing I wanted comes with or because I learned about something new and better than what I originally really wanted, whatever the case may be. I "wanted" it because it was really nice, at the time. Kind of like a kid who really wants a puppy, gets it, and then realizes all the extra work that comes with having a puppy and then doesn't want it anymore, or at least doesn't want to take care of it.

Is that fair to yourself or the Universe? My point is, what if you really don't know what you want? Or what if what you want has a completely different outcome than you ever thought of, an outcome that hurts? I feel like this is my struggle. I could be wrong and over analyzing things, like I've noticed I've done in the past, but regardless it's a struggle and I don't know what I want to get out of it. I don't know what kinds of thoughts to have. I don't know how to feel about things anymore. Sure, feel happy and grateful, live prosperous, but how can one feel that all the time? That isn't fair to yourself. How is one really supposed to go through life without a struggle? If one did go through life without a struggle, what would be the point of manifesting your life? I simply don't know, a lot of things.

Another idea that's running through my head is, are these two books I've been talking off of really spiritual enlightenments, or simply a philosophical theory? I think the answer has an effect on how it works, the details in between and the outcomes it creates. And of course, I don't know the answers, just the questions.

...um... hello? hi. :)

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Wed, 22 Sep 2010 00:00:00 +0000

Geeze... it's been awhile. A loooonnnnggggg while it feels like. That means school has started for me again. Takes up all my time and stuff. But it's good for me. It's good for me now and in the loooooooooonnnnnnnnnggggggggg run.

Up coming stuff:
This weekend: little 1 1/2 day trip to North Carolina with David, Dusty and I think his girl/ex-girl/whatever she is.
David and Dusty have a friend who is a pilot so he got us some buddy passes to fly, I'm excited for another weekend get-away.

Well, the accident David and I got into... my car is considered totaled! You have no idea how excited I am about this. I hated that car. So, the car I'm getting: hopefully a Nissan Xterra (used of course) and If I can't find a good one then my next choices are 2001 camaro with t-tops, a jetta between 2000-2004, an audi a4 2000-2002 (if I can pull it off)

I am still planning that special surprise, I get more and more excited about it everyday. :)

I finally got my darkroom set up in our new place. yes, I have been making prints. It's amazing. :)

The Dave Matthews Band show was the best show in my life I've ever been to. I am in love with a new band and I think I feel in love with David all over again. :) I've been listening to DMB since the show and it gets be excited about life, love, and living. A lot of songs also make me cry... but for good reasons. :)

Pics to come for all of the above later. :)

I am grateful for having the opportunity to get a new car.
I am grateful for having the most perfect boyfriend in the world, the only think that has consistently kept me happy.:)
I am grateful for having opportunities like DMB and NC to get away from the crazy everyday routine.
I am grateful for my mom being able to help me out financially
I am grateful for my dad supporting me so much while going to college
I am grateful for my two puppies that keep me entertained when I don't want to study
I am grateful for being happy.

:)

picture update :)

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Tue, 07 Sep 2010 03:48:00 +0000

My first baseball game, ever. :) It was a lot of fun.

David's new pool table :)

a study date with David at spiderhouse :)

<3

The ice cream festival :)

water love with a cute boy and puppies

my new air plants :)

and my new hammock chair :)

...that gave out and made me bust my foot (about an hour ago) :(

and last of all, I got rear-ended last friday. my 6th one in 2 years, since I've owned the car. :(

where did the love go?

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Wed, 01 Sep 2010 18:27:00 +0000

I hate to say it, but I think there is becoming a lack of love in the world. I had a suspicion when I discovered there really wasn't a God (in the dogmatic sense) because we have no one to really show us how love is supposed to be displayed. Or maybe confidence is in our DNA and there is less and less being reproduced. I say this because since I've started this fall semester I've seen a lot more students on campus and a portion of them are couples that walk together. Not only are they paralyzed in a social coma product of technology, but it almost seems like they are not holding hands for the sake of showing love towards their partner but more so for claiming their partner. If they aren't both texting someone else they are walking around (in both cases holdings hands) with the most jealous and defending look on their faces. This saddens me but like a lot of other things in the world, I can't do anything about it. But my main thought about it all is people my age and younger don't really know what love is and how to express it without being jealous. Maybe we should re-define the definition of love to fit more perfectly to modern day. Just and idea. All I can really do is appreciate my amazing boyfriend David and even more so appreciate the relationship we have. I really don't think I could ask for more.

Sooooo what's new? Well, school is yet again taking up about 110% of my time, but that's okay, keeps me busy. I have some exciting things coming up that will be just in time for a small break for me. David and I will be going to see Dave Matthews Band in Dallas on sept 11. I'm really fuckin stoked about this. It's going to be a me and him date, that's my favorite part about it, of course. (It was his idea too, even more special :)) And then, two weeks after that Dusty (his new girlfriend) Ashley, David and I will be going to North Carolina to go wake boarding for a couple of days... for free. :) Maybe I'll just wait and do a huge picture blog of all the new stuff in the past and coming month.

new new new!

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Thu, 26 Aug 2010 18:36:00 +0000

so many new things :) two of them were free, so those are extra special. I got a new phone(free), ipod, textbooks(free), and will be looking for new headphones. and oh yeah, adobe design suite cs5, I can't wait. :)

advanced b&w traditional photography class today.... :)!

back to school again!

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Wed, 25 Aug 2010 18:17:00 +0000

Well, my week and a half long summer was fun, but now it is over. :(

That's okay, I was about to go crazy without school. Today is my first day back at school and I'm happy about it. I like the first day. It's the easiest and I like meeting my new teachers. My favorite part actually (as nerdy as it may be) is going over the syllabus. :) I like hearing about what the semester has in store for me and I like going through and writing in my agenda when I have big projects due and mean test. And also you never really get homework the first day of class. I do have one small assignment though for history so far, to think about what freedom means to me. I might be brainstorming on this in another entry later. It could get interesting.

We got the pool table finally and it's beautiful. It's so sexy. It's a dark cherry wood with a very dark green felt. It's smooth and fast. :) David is teaching me how to be a pool shark and I love it. I'm gonna be able to kick anyones ass soon enough! Watch out! :)

I am hoping to finish my garden this weekend. I will be planting my veggies and fruits and getting more pretty flowers to hopefully have the backyard complete. Pics will come soon as well as for the pool table.

I am getting super excited/worried about this surprise i'm cooking up and it's not even happening for another year. too bad that's all I can say about that.

Off to World Lit 1600+ class :)

post #50

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Sat, 21 Aug 2010 13:19:00 +0000

this is lucky number #50 :) yeah, it's not that many but more than I thought I would originally get to, so it's a good little celebration.

Well, I don't think I could be any happier. I have really been enjoying my week and a half long summer. I've been having lots of fun being David's shadow. (hehehe) I'm sure I'm driving him crazy though, being home literally 24/7 and sometimes hanging out at work with him. Oh well, he'll get a good sized dosage of (and gifts from) Nicci before I gotta go back to school this coming wednesday.

Let's see, what all have I done this week? Well on monday I don't really remember.... I think I did absolutely nothing with a side of David. On tuesday I WAS going to go play disc golf but couldn't. Boo! But I ended up hanging out at David's work to work on some images for wedding I should a month ago. On wednesday Aunt flow came into town so I was on bed rest. Thursday I worked on the weddings pics some more and David and I went and looked at a couple of pool tables. Yesterday I finished the weddings pictures and delivered them as well as planned out the design of the backyard. :) My lovely boys, David and our roommate Gil, are helping me get down and dirty and landscape the backyard. So it can be more enjoyable. Right now it's just a huge weed and bug keeper and I don't like it! End of story! So, we are putting in a flower bed, a tea garden, herb garden, and fruit and veggie garden as well as some new grass for our entertainment area. I will be putting a hammock some where too. But really, we have the huge backyard that is great for the dogs, but it really isn't enjoyable to hang out in. The bugs are nuts and the scenery isn't that pretty. Pictures of the final product to come.

Did I say something about a pool table? :) Yes I did. Sooooo I got awarded some student loan money aaannnnddd decided that I missed seeing David kick everyone's ass in pool and how he does so sexy like. So I concluded that there should be a pool table. We found a few on craigslist that are pretty decent and we are getting professional movers and having it re-felted to match our place and to get professional grade felt. :) pictures of that to come soon too.

And of course, I'll be getting myself some goodies along with a new backyard. These might include getting my credit all cleared up, my dog and shot up to date and groomed, pay my two months of cell phone bill, get my license, get my website back and a new flash for me. :) It's the mature things in life that get you far, right? (bbbboooorrrriiiinnnnnngggggg!!!!!!) But you guys don't know what else I'll be doing and that's the super fun part.

And what's just around the corner? FOOOOOOTTTTTTBBBBBAAAAALLLLLLLL season! Probably my favorite part about the fall and winter seasons. I really can't think of any other good reason to like those seasons. It's too cold, you can't wear a swimsuit or go out to the lake, it's christmas time, stores are crazy, and the people are crazy. No good reason to like the fall and winter. But as a little girl, I remember every time I saw my dad during these seasons we were watching football. Any time we went to eat it had to be somewhere where we could watch the cowboys game. That's right, I said it, the COWBOYS! :) And if the cowboys weren't on we would watch just about any other game that was on. Texas is great for football though. It truly is set up to be a football state. On tuesdays and wednesday you can go and watch jr. high football at any stadium here in Austin. Thursday and Friday you can go to any stadium and watch high school football. Saturday is college day and Sunday and Monday are NFL. 7 days a week :)

My "Summer"

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Tue, 17 Aug 2010 15:30:00 +0000

I think I passed my philosophy class with a 75. That's barely passing and that's all I wanted if it means I don't have to take philosophy again. :) But now I'm on my actual summer break which will be over in a week from today. Booo! Oh well, at least I worked my ass off this summer for a good damn reason. Next summer though, I have great great plans and nothing is stopping me. It will be a life changing experience and I have never been more ready.

I have been getting some summer fun in though. I've started playing disc golf and our roommate got a Wii, so that's been entertaining. I finally got my study all set up and cute, like it should have been 2 months ago. David and I had a margarita day yesterday and took the dogs to the lake. Beer pong has also been in the agenda and I think David and I agreed on beach camping at the end of this week. I'm excited. :) A picture update will come, probably next week. And though I only get a week and a half as my actual summer, I am already ready for school to start again. I really do enjoy school and going to class. I don't know what I would do without that stability and stimulation. My fall semester includes:

history 1310 - - - - - shoot me now.
world literature after 1600's - - - - - which is nothing but fairy tale stories :) I'm excited about that class
Digital studio 1 - - - - - more photoshop skills and adding in-design skills. stoked about that
and of course,
Advanced b&w film and darkroom manipulation - - - - - - super fuckin' stoked! i<3darkroom.

I will be in class 5 days a week but that's okay because it makes the weekend way more enjoyable and appreciated. :)

a little poem about time travel :)

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Thu, 12 Aug 2010 15:49:00 +0000

There was a girl named Bright
She traveled far faster than light.
She left one day,
In a relative way.
And returned home the previous night.

:)

when life get's to you... it hits hard.

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Wed, 11 Aug 2010 17:13:00 +0000

It's really hard to try and hide crying while you're in the library. I have so many things on my mind today I can't focus on anything. All we did for my last day of 3D design was clean the studio and I couldn't do that without getting lost in my thoughts and messing up. Now to study for the final that determines if I barely pass or not? Yeah right. I'm so frustrated with this philosophy class I feel like anything I do to study for it wont do a damn thing to help. Every test or quiz I've taken for this class I've studies my ass of for and felt confident about and have failed, miserably.When I say miserably, I mean like.. my highest grade so far is a 72. I did a re-take for a quiz to replace my lowest grade (which was a 33) and got a fucking 50. When I mention the few lines to David about my frustration about it, he seems like he doesn't believe me that I have been studying. But I have, more so than I ever have for any class. I've never sat down and actually read an assigned chapter, but I did, for 3 weeks straight. I've memorized vocabulary, theories, and philosopher. I'm philosophy-ed out. But I have one more test that determines my grade and I'm terrified. I'm already on academic probation and I'm not sure what happens if I fail this class.

I want David to be happy and nothing I can do does that, he's told me this. Whenever he is down there is nothing I can do to make him feel better or cheer him up. This hurts me so bad I don't think anyone could ever understand. I don't expect to turn his world around when he is down, but I find it hard to believe that there is nothing I can do to make him even smile. On the other hand, I haven't found anything yet... that I can afford at least. I feel like he thinks he can't confide in me or doesn't want to. that hurts. I don't want him to tell me every feeling of every minute of every day, but when something is bothering him I want him to know that he can rant to me. If that's all he needs to do, Im here for that. If he doesn't want me to speak back, I can do that. If he wants me to, I can do that too. But he doesn't ever want me to and this has been hard for me to deal with. Even after 2+years. This is how things are going to be and I'm not sure I can live with that. (don't just to conclusions people. I don't give up easily about things I am very passionate about.) I love this boy with all my heart, I really do. I am 100% okay with the idea of supporting him and being with him for the rest of my life. I have no interest in other people. When something happens to me, I want him to be the first to know. I put him first before people in my family. I love waking up next to him, I love going to bed next to him, I have date days/nights with him, I love his work ambition, I love his smile, his hair, how he is good at everything. I love his smarts, his craftsmanship, I love his ability to make pretty much anything and make anything happen. I love his kisses, I really love his kisses and his hugs. I live for the small touches he gives me when playing with my hair or rubbing my back as he walks by. It almost hurts how much I love all these things about him. I would do anything for him. No body really knows this and I feel like it's a major no no for me to tell him all that. So I, in the end, have to keep my feelings all bottled up. This hurts too.

[David drew this for me on my drawing pad on my phone when I first got it. It's my phone background and it keeps me going. and yes it says "I <3 the most beautilul baby" :)]

[and this is on the inside of my phone. yup, he wrote my name in piss on our garage at our last apartment. Is this how I know he loves me back? :) hehe, I think so.]

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I want to get away so bad. I want to be anywhere but where I am. I'm happy with things in my life, but I want to travel and explore. Experience new cultures and learn new traditions. I am becoming to hate america and it's ways. yes I am thankful for freedom, but all we are doing is abusing that. and at that, how much freedom do we really have anymore? I get shit on by my family for posting something I believe in on facebook because they didn't agree with me. I get censored at an art school because someone get's offended. We are so constrained by these laws that are set up to make up fail and empty our bank accounts out to the government. Over and over again. This all came about because I was thinking about the next huge expense coming up in life (not just mine, but all of ours) and it ended up making me think about america and it's ridiculous culture, traditions, and ways it's created. Of course the huge expense I was thinking about was fucking christmas. I hate that god damn holiday. It's pointless. No one celebrates it for what it actually means anymore. It's all about greed, spending, and a god damn popularity contest. Yeah sure, let's spend about $500 on gay ass decorations that only get used for 2 weeks out of the entire year. And while some of it get's used again the year after there is always new stuff that people have to have, so they buy it. And let's spend another $500+ for gifts and traveling for people who don't even know my degree in college, my interests, or my beliefs. (Not that they care either) And just to make sure we empty the bank account to it's max (and some), ring out all my pennies and dimes to charity. Charity, really? That's what your calling it? Fuck you, it's not charity. I bet a larger percentage of the money raised during the holidays goes towards paying the people who organize the people going to collect the money. If we've been raising this money every fucking holiday season for I don't know how many years, why is it not enough yet? This could go back to the US not spending their money properly in the first place. Or even cities alone. $220 million for re-paving Mo-pac (loop 1)? are you fucking serious? Take at least 1 million of that and give it to the homeless. It's the same god damn thing as us donating all our spare change during the most debt collecting, bank braking fake holiday. You take it out of our paychecks anyways. But back to the topic of christmas, it's almost unheard of not celebrating it. I'll get shunned upon with my family when I tell them I'm not celebrating it. It's probably an ultimate sin for all I don't know. I've already tried telling the people who I thought would understand the most, my mother(s), that I'm not religious and shit hit the fan then. Why do christian people get so upset when someone decides not to believe? It's my fucking opinion and choice and it doesn't effect you so why does it matter? I don't get mad at you for believing? Doesn't "God" teach you to accept others for who they are and not judge? If the dogmatic God really does exist then he will let me know when I need to start believing just in time to save me from going to hell. I know I've done good in life. I do nothing but good for other people, I try to stay away from drama and conflict, and I do nothing but care about others. All though I personally like the heat, always have, maybe I'll finally keep a tan in hell if I do go there for not believing. Christmas is just another hallmark holiday to keep me living pay check to paycheck and in the cycle of this stupid american "dream." Fuck Christmas, I'm done with it. (I'm sure I could do some research and make my argument much more believable, but this was really a rant. thoughts in my head and piss me off. I could very well be wrong about everything I said, but I feel as if I'm not and that's all that matters.)

almost done!

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Tue, 10 Aug 2010 17:43:00 +0000

just 2 more days of summer school after today and that's it. I'm so excited. I have no focus whatsoever which isn't good. I am wrestles, I wanna go out and do things, being at home is making me antsy.

Yesterday though, David, Gil and I went and played disc golf. Gil and I first times. I like the game so far. I'm no where near good, but with a little practice I can see it being a lot of fun. :) I got some really cool lookin disc, one is ty-dye :)

And today, instead of having a real final for my 3D design class, we went bowling. yup, we went bowling. :) I did terrible but it was fun. I got an A in the class for the semester. Pictures to come. As far as philosophy, we had out last written essay exam on friday and I studied all week for it and got the topic I knew the best. I was able to write much more in detail about this topic than the one for the first test. I made a c- on the first test and I didn't know anything for it. This one should be at least a B for a grade, but most likely more. I should find out today or tomorrow. I'm still a little nervous.

I have something that I have to keep inside me until the appropriate time, but I can say that I'm boiling up a surprise and it's a huge and very much deserved one. That's all I can say. and that I'm super fuckin stoked about it. :)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holy Guacamole!, Date Night, and almost done with school

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Sat, 07 Aug 2010 15:42:00 +0000

:) mainly a picture update, please enjoy. (I did!)

my puppy studies hard with me, by sleeping in my lap!

[high. what's up, chuck? :)]

so, in my 3D design class we recently had a group project to do. We had to pick a saying and make the visual representation of it. There were 3 groups, this group did [from the big lebowski] "Nobody fucks with the Jesus"

this group did Butterface. "She's hott as fuck, but her face. butterface"

and we did Holy Guacamole! haha, a huge bowl of guacamole in all it's holiness.

and David and I had date night. :) we got 2 bottles of wine, went to Brooklyn Pie Company for some great pizza then we went over to Cafe Monet and painted some ceramics. He got me some flowers too :) If David's not amazing then I don't think anyone could be.

today seems 'off'

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Thu, 05 Aug 2010 17:51:00 +0000

I'm not sure what it is about today, but everyone seems to be off. They are either running late and in a hurry, they don't have all the things they need, or they are super tired (like me). I guess it's just one of those days.

I have another big test tomorrow in philosophy, yuck. I will for sure this time be typing my papers up tonight on here to see if I can explain it all right.

Tomorrow night though, David and I are having date night. :) I'm super excited and I have a plan for what we are going to do. I can't say because I'm not entirely sure if he reads this or not, but I will be posting pictures of it.

Some random stuff:

an amazing Woman/Artist/Architect: Zaha Hadid
check out her stuff, it's absolute beautiful. If you find info on her bio you'll be amazed at what you read.

In my 3D design class we are doing a group project. We have to make a large scale sculpture of something that is the image result of one of those silly sayings like
"early bird gets the worm"
"holy cow!"
"head over heals"
etc.
well my group is doin something pretty silly and it looks great so far, pics of that will come shortly too.

I only have 4 days of summer school left. only 4. within those 4 days I have 3 test and 2 projects due, starting tomorrow. How am I still alive? I'm not sure.

I will be feeding God a shrimp this weekend. I'll try to video the hunt and post it. Let's hope he doesn't eat it in -2 seconds this time.

I'm really thinking about making some art and getting some prints made and selling them at the armadillo christmas bazaar this year. thoughts?

aaaannnnndddd
I <3 david. :)

That's all, have a good day!

Picture Update and Randomness

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Tue, 03 Aug 2010 22:27:00 +0000

From present to past:

What has been consuming my time? Philosophy.

But it's all okay because my puppy studies (in her sleep, she's very talented) with me :)

I got a brackish water fish, a Green Spotted Puffer fish to be exact, I named him God. He is venomous, has 2 fangs for teeth and he looooovvvveeesss to hunt ghost shrimp. :) He's cute.

My birthday was a little while ago, big 22. David made me pancakes and mimosas, we went bowling and to a movie. :)

And here are some random things I like.

oh so tired!

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 17:40:00 +0000

Yesterday was a fun last min lake day that almost got really scary. Long story short David and I went out on the lake again with my Dad and his girlfriend Pam. David and I went wake boarding, of course, and then we met up with Pam's family and fell into a trap of pulling all her grandchildren (there's like 1,000...) on the knee board, which was fine, until it was 3 hours later and we were pissing everyone off with our waves. Then it was a bummer, man. But David and I got to wake board a couple more times each on the way out. I finally learned how to control the board, which was a lot of fun. Now I just gotta not get scared of going over the wake and not let it push me around! I am sore as shit today though, my entire body, which makes for a pain walk throughout campus. I don't mind much though, I like knowing (feeling) my body got some exercise and major stimulation. That was my last day of real fun though for about a week and a half. In the books and writing papers I'll be! Another 4-5 page handwritten essay THIS friday for our Endterm exam and then continue studying for a make-up quiz next monday and our final on either wednesday or thursday of next week. :( so much philosophy in so little time with a tone of questions to be unanswered. boooo!

[I trust and allow my soul to guide me now.]

things I am grateful for:
-My family for being so understanding about my absents in life due to school.
-My Dad and Pam taking David and I out on the boat whenever we ask
-My Mom for financially supporting me so I can go to school full time
-my puppies, Haley and Hydie, for always getting excited when I get home and showing me unconditional love all the time
-David for getting along with my family and respecting them and also for him being so cute, sexy, sweet, amazing at everything, for being the handyman that he is, smart, successful, ambitious, and over all wonderful. [his kisses are sweet too :)]
-and lastly I am grateful for being who I am and starting to accept me for me and not trying to be the "ideal" of someone else. I am who I am and I am pretty fuckin awesome, if you ask me :)

now back to philosophy...

saturday is no fun day for Nicci :(

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Sat, 31 Jul 2010 17:46:00 +0000

yeah, stupid homework all day. Philosophy stuff. I'll probably post an explanation of what I'm studying currently (to help me understand it better) later today. but until then, please enjoy :

Date Day David and I had a couple of weeks ago [picture update]

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Wed, 28 Jul 2010 18:51:00 +0000

Wake boarding on the lake followed by some Sushi at Uchi makes for a perfect day spent with my sweetheart. :)

oh 6:39 am, you come soo quick....

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Wed, 28 Jul 2010 11:39:00 +0000

this would be the time I am up every morning this summer (yeah, summer) to go to school. (yeah, brain killing school). These past two months I have discovered that I absolutely cannot wake up before 6am, unless I go to bed with a shot of nyquil at like 8pm the night before. Oh well, at least I'm doing what I should be doing and not skipping everyday like old Nicci would do. yay for growing up and being mature! this is one of many things I am grateful for today.

My agenda today:

8am-11:30am 3D design class where I will be making a balanced block sculpture. We have to have 3 squares/rectangles/blocks (or something of the sort) 1 each made out of paper, wood, and plaster. We have to attach them to each other at 90 degree angles. I always try to make something I can use or that will look pretty in my home, so I will be attempting to make a wall hanging pencil holder/lamp decorated in paints, paper mache, and seashells. I'm excited.

THEN...

from 2pm-3:40 pm Philosophy class where we will continue discussing freedom; if we actually have it or don't and if we don't have it (saying a god like figure controls us and knows are predestined future) then why do we still commit sin/acts of evil. Intense discussion. Here is the topic we started off with yesterday:

Pedophiles: It has been said, by some psychologist, to believe that pedophilia is an uncontrollable condition in which the person who is labeled a pedophile was molested as a kid and it disrupted their proper developing of sexuality. This molestation most likely occurred during the peak sexuality stage and hindered them to chemically be more attractive and compulsive sexual acting upon children. IF this is true 1.) is it then actually considered a sin/act of evil (assuming there is a god like figure who has control over our actions) (who has right to say what is really moral or not? the greeks had man to boy relations in order to teach them how to be a "man" and it wasn't considered pedophilia nor was it gay) and 2.) (IF) pedophiles really don't have control over their urges and can't change what they like, then is it right to prosecute them? IF it's not right, then what do we do with them? Would it then be okay for them to participate in the viewing of child pornography? Or is that still unmoral because then they would be supporting the making of that child pornography. So then what should/needs to be done and how do you define that with absolute certainty?

That's what I'll be discussing today, at least I think. That's what I got from yesterdays discussion. What are you opinions?

(after re-reading that when I am now awake I realized that I didn't explain how that topic is apart of our freedom issue in philosophy.)

How all that ties together for the freedom topic is:

Whenever we take an action to do something, either it be to lift our arm or go to the store, it is unknown if we are the ones who are actually making that choice to do so, or if something (God) is doing that for us. If they already have our actions laid out in a plan and we really aren't making decisions for our own. Or possibly, we are making our decisions through our mind or soul and then that causes the physical (chemical) reaction in our brain to cause other physical things to happen. Make sense? Ask me questions and I will find an answer for them, this helps me study so please ask questions. (or explain to me the correct :))

I also wanted to send my best out to a friend of mine Dusty for the wonderful news he received yesterday from his son's mother. Here are some thoughts for you (if you're reading this):
[Don't stress it too much Dusty, I'm sure you have a little while before the court date and there is no need to stress about it. It will only make the outcome what you don't want. (use the law of attraction for the right reasons and allow this time you have before the court date to manifest the best for Josh and You.) Know that there is possibility of bad things to happen, but there are also many many many possibilities of good and great things to happen. you will only attract what you don't want by thinking about what your'e afraid of and what you don't want. ]

And then tonight at 10pm I will definitely be watching:
Through the Wormhole with Morgan Freeman at 10pm. *get loud, heeeyyy!* (I'm excited)
______________________

Things I am grateful for:

I am grateful for waking up with enough time to write this blog
I am grateful for having that exrta $2 to be able to get my coffee on my way to school today
I am grateful for having such a cute/handsome boy to fall asleep to and wake up to.
I am grateful for have a puppy that cuddlebugs like none other!
I am grateful for having been able to move down south austin
I am grateful for being in a very good mood today and being very happy.

Thanks Universe! (Multiverse, I guess I should say)

stupid philosophy test, a good life, and a new dress.

noreply@blogger.com (Nicci) — Mon, 26 Jul 2010 21:55:00 +0000

I am about 80% sure I fail my philosophy midterm today. No comment on the rest of that story.

Things I am grateful for:

David for him supporting me so much with school and my love for photography, for him being patient with me and my lack of house work around the house, for him being so darn cute and perfect, and for him making me soo happy.
Linda for all that she has taught and currently is teaching me.
my financial ability to go to college
my dad for his support (financially and mentally) and love
my mom for her support and love
my 3D class being easy
for my puppy hydie for being soo cute! and my (davids) puppy haley for being so ditzy and awkward! i love them both and i am most grateful for them loving me unconditionally :)
I am grateful David and Gil let me have my own room in the house that I can use for a study. I just need to actually use it now...
and most of all, next to david and my puppies, I am grateful for having the ability to see, hear, think, smell, taste, judge and overall make an opinion for myself on whatever topic I feel necessary.

I got a new dress for only $8 yesterday and wanted to wear it, like all new clothing I buy, so David and I went to lunch at homeslice. It was amazing as always and it was even more so yesterday because of the feeling a new dress gives a girl = pure confidence in looking great (or maybe it was the cute boy by my side, either way it makes for a pretty smile on my face)

:)