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Countdown

2011-02-22T12:41:00.003+08:00

1 week before my hospital stay.
1 week and a few hours before my operation.

Good vibes. Good vibes. Love. Light. Happy thoughts.
Everything will turn out great. I am claiming it.

In 2010...

2011-02-01T12:46:00.003+08:00

I
Lived.
Laughed.
Loved.
Worked.
Enjoyed.
Grew up.
Tried.
Cooked.
Impressed.
Fell in love more.

Lovely. Lost Things.

2010-03-09T17:41:00.001+08:00

The water has calmed

2010-01-17T11:27:00.003+08:00

It's two weeks into the new year, and I feel exhausted as ever.

It has been an overwhelming wave of blows after blows.

However, recent events have made me believe that the tide is turning and that things will get better.

Heart drawn with lipstick. I've always wanted to do that. On the background is our view from the 16th floor. Seeing this helps me calm down everyday.

Better. Brighter. Brand New.

2010-01-01T20:21:00.004+08:00

In 2009,
I grew up.
Got a job. Resigned after 3 months.
Drank with friends.
Got piss drunk a couple of times.
Watched really great concerts.
Ate really good food.
Moved out.
Moved in.
Moved forward.
Got a job, and got past the 3 month peg.
Listened to more music.
Ate more fruits and veggies.
Walked.
Made new friends.
Stayed positive.
Got a glimpse of Utopia.

2010 is going to be swell.
As the LSS song of 2009 goes: I gotta feeling.

Hello, my name is

2009-10-30T10:30:00.004+08:00

Get your letters from Jessica Hische

Treading forward

2009-09-17T13:20:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, I received shocking news about a friend's best friend dying at gun point. My heart sank as I thought 'Oh no, not again." I cried for my friend as he mourned another fallen brother.

Last week, I cried with a friend as she lost her mother. I felt helpless as I knew there was nothing I could do to lessen her pain. I'm glad that I took the time to visit Tita at the hospital. Even though she was hooked up to so many machines, she smiled when I walked through the door.

Oh, and Patrick Swayze died too.

I wonder how they'll all interact since they're all newbies in heaven. That was the only light, quite comical thought I could weave into the happenings of the past weeks.

I also haven't been feeling well lately. My friend said that I probably need to hug a tree to release some of the negative energy I've been absorbing.

I woke up this morning and the first thing I saw was beautiful blue skies and clusters of white spiffy clouds. I made a silent prayer and trusted God and the Universe to make everything be ok.

I know everything will be ok.

Sad loss for Philippine Cinema

2009-09-02T13:09:00.002+08:00

How I wish I didn't have to write this, but I just want to get this off my chest.

I was literally about to go out the door when I received news from my 2bu! friend Tammy: 2BU friends, former correspondent Alexis Tioseco and his girlfriend Nika Bohnic were murdered last night. Please pray for their families in Canada and Slovenia. Philippine Cinema lost a great duo and we have lost a good colleague. Justice for Alexis and Nika!

I cried. On my way to the office, I cried for them.

We were never introduced, but I knew who Alexis was. He was a big (if not, biggest) supporter of Philippine Cinema.

I couldn't believe it was true. I just saw him at the Silent Film Fest last week!

I remember that I sobbed reading through his letter to Nika in Rogue.

Such a great loss!

May you Rest in Peace, Alexis and Nika.
I know you will make beautiful movies in heaven.

At This Moment...

2009-08-09T22:38:00.004+08:00

I am thankful for the blessings slowly trickling into our lives.

I pray that I may have the strength to be patient and tolerant, and have the ability to filter out negative vibes from people who way too cynical and "pa-diff". I suddenly feel tired of trying to understand people and their radical way of thinking. To exert the slightest amount of effort is such a burden. So, I'd rather just like to let go of that.

I pray that I find a happy job that would fit me.

I pray for health, for peace of mind, for sustenance.

The past months has been quite a rollercoaster ride. So much comings and goings on that at some point everything was just too much to bear.

- Found out I had a medical condition that really dampened my spirits. This still has yet to be resolved.
- Got a job. Resigned from that job after 3 months, after realizing that I was meant for something more worthy. My body basically told me to give up the lost cause.
- Mingled more with other people. Enjoyed after-work drinks with my closest college friends. Had to give that up when I resigned. Reconnected with my Miriam friends over Wednesday dinners and dessert fests.
- The latest big blow was when Cory Aquino died. My only clear memory of the EDSA Revolution was going to a chapel near home to pray the rosary while helicopters noisily hovered overhead. But still, when the news about Cory's death broke, I was glued to the tv for all the news about the wake, the funeral march, and the burial. It's such a sad, sad loss for the Philippines.
- But the best new development is that Mike and I are finally Makati-bound. We found the perfect condo for us.

At times, I still can't help but feel tired and drained. But I am thankful. I am thankful. I am thankful.

I am looking forward for things to become more peachy.

Another Contest!

2009-06-20T06:54:00.006+08:00

Frances of Topaz Horizon, one of my daily reads, is having another beauty giveaway! Yay!

Maybelline goodies yeyeyaay!

1st prize:
Clear Smooth Minerals Liquid Foundation
Clear Smooth Minerals Powder Foundation
Clear Smooth Minerals Blush

2nd prize:
EyeStudio Vivid & Smooth Eye Liner
EyeStudio Eyeshadow Quad
Unstoppable Curly Lash Extension Mascara

3rd prize:
Fruity Jelly Lipgloss
Moisture Extreme Pink Lipstick
Watershine Collagen Shimmers Lipstick

Click here to join!

Now, I'm off to a kikay photoshoot with the girlfriends! One of our friends is learning to be a make up artist, so the rest of us are the willing victims, eerr, guinea pigs haha!

Contest!

2009-05-06T16:43:00.004+08:00

Because I do want to be kikay from time to time, I'm asking the Universe for these brushes to be MINE! hahahahahaha!

If you want to get a fair chance at winning this limited edition Shu Uemura Mika Hearts Shu Portable Brush Set, hop on to Beauty for a Living to join in on the excitement :)

I love love love the floral print case! :)

Things are Looking Up

2009-03-09T20:23:00.001+08:00

Two quick points:
- Had a blast at the Eraserheads Final Set. Absolutely INTENSE!
- I have a job interview tomorrow! Whooo!

Low Blow

2009-03-05T16:34:00.002+08:00

One of the crappiest feelings in the world is a friend breaking your heart.

Fine. Forget about professionalism, but what about common decency? There is such a thing as doing your job, and there is such a thing as bastusan.

I can't believe I was so blind, thinking that you were gods. You can have all the shitty glory you're whores for. I am done.

C'mon, Universe! C'mon!

2009-02-24T17:05:00.000+08:00

Publishing, broadcasting, and matters related to academia will glitter and glow. If you are a writer, editor, researcher, publicist, student, teacher, lecturer, radio or TV host, blogger, or are in sales, you will find yourself at the right place at the right time.- www.astrologyzone.com

Angst

2009-02-23T09:29:00.002+08:00

I found my old deviant art page. I totally forgot that I had a bunch of poems in my gallery.

They had way too much angst. But they were quite good though.

Missing a flight

2009-02-19T08:14:00.000+08:00

I always have these dreams where I'm packing, cramming stuff into a bag that won't zip anymore, and while still having loads of stuff lying at my feet. I also always seem to be in a hurry because I'm afraid of missing my plane. The setting is always an unfamiliar, out of this world airport and where the planes look feel like big trains or buses.

Because I have more random stuff to share

2009-02-03T20:44:00.002+08:00

Continuation of a Facebook meme.
Come to think of it, I don't know where the term "meme" comes from. hmmm..

1. As a kid, I also dreamed of becoming a stage actress. That's was my answer to "What do you want to be when you grow up?" in autograph books. I think the phase came after I watched Repertory Philippine's Camelot.

2. When I get stressed, my left shoulder hurts. I call that pinching pain "my evil twin".

3. Back in high school, I used to hang out in National Bookstore along Quezon Ave. I'd browse through architectural books, making up my dream home in my head. Now, I hang out in Powerbooks Greenbelt. I read cookbooks and magazines.

4. One of my favorite childhood dishes was spaghetti with meat sauce from the UP Vinzon's Hall canteen. My dad and I would always go there after my swimming lessons.

5. I think I have obsessive compulsive disorder. I sometimes do things by threes. Lock the car doors and check, walk away, recheck, walk away, recheck. I have go to the comfort room three times before going into a movie theater. List goes on.

6. I cringe when I think about stupid things that I've done. I get these awful feeling in my stomach, and I mentally punch myself for my lack of better judgment.

7. I am an overprotective friend.

8. I read other people's blogs because I feel that I live through their experiences.

9. I had two Smokey Mountain albums in my tape collection. Geneva much? hehehe

10. I honestly think I am a bit lame. I can't strike lively conversations with strangers.

11. When I was in kindergarten, I had a classmate who had downs syndrome. One day, I think he spat on me or something, the teacher made him apologize. He went up to me and hugged me tight. I put my arms around him, and pat his back. I believe that was the first conscious not-so-kiddie-like thing I ever did.

12. Hindi talaga ako chismosa. Kusang dumadating ang balita sakin one way or another.

13. My favorite Christmas present was from "Santa". It was a big, big stuffed green dinosaur with orange spots and spiked down his back. It had a long tail, and droopy eyes. I called him Dino. And I rode him like a horse.

14. Mahilig ako sa ice cream. But I don't have an all-time favorite flavor.

15. I have a shopping problem. Teehee

reposting from Fezbook

2009-02-03T20:41:00.001+08:00

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Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it is because I want to know more about you.

1. I have very good sense of direction. Ask Mike! I am obsessed with maps. But I still do get lost from time to time.

2. I am addicted to magazines. I buy at least 6 magazines a month (including back issues of foreign titles from Booksale). Issues from up to 10 years ago are still piled up in our house. Fire hazzard! I have just recently learned to "let go" and allow myself to (GASP!) tear out pages and throw out some.

3. I'm a shoe-killer. I wear my favorite shoes over and over until they're so worn out that I have to let them go! Sadness.

4. I believe in past lives and parallel universes.

5. I was a Girl Scout from Grade 3 to 2nd year High School. I never missed a camp/ cook out/ activity, and even went to Japan for an exchange program.

6. I get cold easily. My toes and my nose are always the first to freeze.

7. I consider passing Math 17 in one take as one of my greatest academic achievements.

8. I can't live with a small bag. My normal everyday bag weighs around 5 pounds. Yikes. That's why my left shoulder is shot.

9. My classmates used to call me "4 eyes". I wore really thick eyeglasses for about 12 years. I had Lasik surgery in 2005 and boy, was it a life changer.

10. I like taking photos. But I've always had a bad habit of not sharing them with other people. I still have dozens of rolls of undeveloped film from probably 8 years back. Hehehehe

11. Purple used to be my favorite color. Now, its pink. But it changes frequently, actually.

12. Cooking makes me happy. As in. I am cooking-obsessed. I read food blogs everyday, and I have a collection of cooking utensils, recipe books and what not, all saved up for when I have my "own kitchen".

13. Trash tv is my guilty pleasure.

14. On my most recent trip, I lugged around roughly 15 kilos of baggage across 2 cities and 2 countries. My check-in luggage was already overweight. Hehehehe

15. The first cassette tape I bought was I Like You by Geneva Cruz

16. Bacon is MMMMMM heaven!

17. I like watching baduy, pinoy pop movies on Cinema One. Nalelate ako pumasok sa class dati kasi gusto ko muna tapusin yung sine.

18. I have no problem with eating alone in restaurants. I consider it "me time".

19. I'm scared of ghosts/monsters. So when you're telling a scary story and I cover my ears and beg you to stop, please stop. I couldn't sleep properly for 3 days after watching Resident Evil. *shudder*

20. I love taking trains in other countries, but I am scared of the mad rush of people here at home.

21. I hate (most) fish. Ayoko siya. Nasusuka ako sa amoy. But I like sushi!

22. I was a sporty kid. My dream was to be an Olympian. I was into gymnastics and swimming. I quit gymnastics because my lolo forgot to pick me up from school to bring me to training. At Grade 4, getting picked up at 7PM was very traumatic for me. I was invited to train for the UP Swimming Team but I declined. I was still in grade school, and training was at 5pm. Ayoko kasi I was afraid of the pool. Kasi scary yung tiles, and I'm afraid of sharks eh.

23. I hate getting tinga. It drives me insane.

24. I believe I was in my prettiest state when I was in 2nd year high school. Minus the glasses, ang payat ko, and ganda ng buhok ko (layered, ala Rachel/ Jennifer Aniston). And did I mention, ang payat ko?

25. When ordering food, I always have a "default" order, then at the last minute I'll change my mind and decide to try something new. When the waiter comes, I say my default order. Then I usually feel bad afterwards for not ordering something else.

On my knees

2009-01-26T15:38:00.001+08:00

Dear Universe,

Please give me a break. A big, big break.
I need to land that job and we need to get that place.
Or else I will go insane.

Thank you.
Thank you for your quick response.

Zee

OA Worst List

2009-01-13T15:40:00.004+08:00

Yahoo's Worst Dressed at the Golden Globes is ridiculous!

I actually like a couple of dresses on the list! Hello, they don't look bad! I think they just picked random people to bash.

Miley looks cute

I love this!
The write up says that Marissa looks like a pirate.
Susnaman!

Megan is so hot. I wish I were as sexy as her!!!

The color may not be perfect on Elizabeth Banks, but I don't think she deserves to be in the Worst Dressed list. I actually love the dress detail.

I love this!!!
I don't usually like animal prints, but I absolutely adore the color this dress came in. Maggie looks so chic!

I wonder who actually made the list? Was it a random employee at Yahoo?

Some "worst" dressed, in my opinion, look much better than some picks for the Best Dressed! Pfft.

Photos from Yahoo.

Future is Bright

2008-12-31T13:43:00.002+08:00

I am so looking forward for a brand new year! I know everything will fall into place, and I feel that 2009 will be IT (for so so many things)!

I am grateful that this past year, I was able to:
- graduate. Finally finally finally!
- spend time with my family, play with my cousins, and go on a bonding (albeit a bit stressful) trip to Boracay
- travel and "live" in a different country (although it was only roughly 2 months)
- come to terms with things concerning my melodramatic life. I've come to appreciate all the little things I was able to experience when I was younger. I know that when I do have children, I will do my best to make them have happy childhoods.
- realize that friends do make life more happier. I can't wait for more travels and happy experiences!

Though the past month has really been quite rough, and quite jarring at times, I am super duper confident that everything will turn out alright.

2009 is THE year! I can't wait!

Christmas is for kids

2008-12-24T08:20:00.004+08:00

My favorite Christmas memory ever was seeing a big wrapped present under the tree from Santa. (His name was written in cursive writing in a black pentel pen). I may have been 5 or 6 years old. I ripped the wrapper and inside was this HUGE stuffed dinosaur which I named Dino. (My favorite show that time was, tadah, Denver The Last Dinosaur).

He was soft, green, and cuddly. He had a long neck, round face and droopy eyes. He had orange spikes and spots all over his back. Dino was my favorite toy for a loooong time. I'd ride on his back because he was just THAT big!

I saw Dino years after, and well, he wasn't that big, but at least I have that special memory.

Now, the holidays aren't that sparkly and magical like how it used to be 20 years ago. You just wish for practical things or little packages of indulgence.

It's so ironic how you lust for something extra hard at the same moment that you know you absolutely can't have it.

The cutest Heart Onesie ever. All sold out apparently.

Photo from www.googooandgaga.com

C is for

2008-12-18T08:26:00.003+08:00

Things haven't been going well on the health front, so I've been trying to distract myself with food.
Foodfoodfoodfoodfood.

I tried out baking again!
The last time I baked was in Australia. TJ has a really great oven! However, my Red Velvet Cupcakes came out a bit droopy :(

Before that, my baking attempts here have all been in vain. I can still remember the rock hard, burnt eclairs I made about 10 years ago Hahaha! The Manangs still tease me about it from time to time.

But since it's the Holidays, and I don't have much cash to spare, I decided to make cookies. Thin and Chewy Chocolate Chop Cookies!

And let me tell you, these are the best cookies I've ever made!

My brothers gave me the rare "Ang sarap, Ate Zee!" spiel Haha! They're even encouraging me to sell it, but NAH, I don't think so.

Masarap siya! Seryoso :)

I'm super excited for the Christmas Cook Out we're having soon. Again, FOOD is keeping me distracted!

Just Delivered

2008-11-28T14:10:00.003+08:00

Just in time for the Holidays!

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I'm an Addict

2008-11-13T16:57:00.002+08:00

Ribbons are my weakness!

I'm a suki at Carolina's.
Every time I go to Makati, I always bring home a bag of ribbons and other crafty baubles. Sometimes when Mike would ask me what I did for the afternoon, I'd lie and say nothing. But actually I would have yards and yards of the pretty, silly, happy colored things in my bag :)
Hehehehehehehe :)