tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-84570166159363095782024-09-08T11:28:07.593+01:00A story of life, creating life and life rants!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14672330978923617683noreply@blogger.comBlogger45125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8457016615936309578.post-42091479288673350952013-03-12T10:16:00.001+00:002013-03-12T10:16:32.278+00:00

As Britney says...'its been a while'!! Ok, terrible reference to make, but at least the sentiment is true! Life has changed, life has improved and I'm getting happy again, and this time I'm not making my life around a man!!! I'm doing it for me and the kids. I've started a new business with a friend, which now means I suppose that not only are we friends, we are business partners too! And will

Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14672330978923617683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8457016615936309578.post-86253572947070435472012-11-13T12:12:00.001+00:002012-11-13T12:12:06.340+00:00

So I've been taking an unintentional blogging hiatus...looking after a new born takes up a lot of time! He is now 16 weeks old, and just fantastic... Now I'm trying to get some of my life back. Life as a single Mum with 2 kids is hard. I get every other weekend to myself now, but remembering how to have a life is not easy! Being a person without responsibilities every other weekend takes a lot

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My son was born last Wednesday, 25th July 2012 at 5.02am, 7lb 11ozs, after 28 hours of labour! He is gorgeous and such a good boy settling into a routine already. The labour, as I suppose labour is supposed to be, was awful! The care I was given by the midwives at the hospital was less than adequate. Both myself and my birth partner asked and asked for pain relief and kept telling them things

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As I said to a friend this morning, its time to stop ranting!! I accept that a good rant can be therapeutic, but it gets tiresome even for the person doing the complaining! I realise I have plenty to bitch about but really how is it helping?!! I think its about how you look at it all...perspective. Everybody has their own issues, their own problems, and when its your own, its hard. Standing

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Its been a little while since my last post and whilst not a huge amount has changed (I'm still enormously pregnant!) he is still managing to be a complete ass! I am now totally convinced that there is nothing wrong with him other than the fact he is spineless and cruel. Yesterday I received a letter from his solicitor stating that if I don't include his surname in the babies surname then he will

Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14672330978923617683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8457016615936309578.post-71985779735966102342012-06-21T21:08:00.001+01:002012-06-21T21:08:37.429+01:00

So we finally met and talked, and he is in a mess. Clinically depressed and doing nothing about it. At the moment he flails between fairly normal and completely irrational. And, yes, I feel sorry for him, but even this doesn't excuse what he's done. He can't give me a reason why he left and is acting resentfully towards my son, and for that reason alone, I cannot be around him. So I've drawn a

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So the last time we were supposed to meet, he cancelled because work comes before everything, and he has now left it 3 weeks to rearrange it. The difference is, I no longer have anything to say to him. My mind set has changed. I don't want or need him around at all and have absolutely nothing to say to him. I really think it would be so much easier if he just disappeared. Every time I hear from

Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14672330978923617683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8457016615936309578.post-41295561772732480292012-05-21T15:10:00.002+01:002012-05-21T15:10:42.086+01:00

I have made contact with the enemy and after battling through the unnecessary hostility, I have been the grown up and suggested we try to talk for the sake of the baby. I have no idea what I'm going to say to him or even how I'm going to manage to stay calm, but at this point, something needs to change. My stress levels are through the roof and even though I am now 31 weeks pregnant, I have no

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It's exhausting it really is. The noise in my head, between that and the now overwhelming tiredness that comes with being heavily pregnant. The need to shout at him is so desperate as is the need to ignore him, so as you see I'm also conflicted. If someone has the solution to how shut loud brains up, please tell me! The questions are constant and unrelenting...why did this happen, how could he

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Being a single Mum is hard. And staying calm all the time is evened harder. Especially when I'm getting so tired from being so huge these days. My son cam eback from his fathers today after 3 days away and as usual he came back with an attitude he picked up from his 15 year old half-brothers. So all day he was rude, not answering when spoken too, spitting at me, not doing as he's asked. By the

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So apparently, in the extremely vague and hostile conversation that has been had by text message, him leaving is my fault and he accepts no responsibility for what's happened!! Unbelievable! He has given no real explanation other than using the things I have said to him during him leaving and since he has gone, plus it being a bad thing that my son came first...what mother would do anything else

Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14672330978923617683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8457016615936309578.post-25320148495231918102012-04-30T11:06:00.001+01:002012-04-30T11:06:51.073+01:00

So, I've changed my name! My surname that is, and have checked and when my son is born, he can have the same name as me and there is nothing that can be done about it! This I am very pleased about! And I am doing something about the stress....this week I will be attending a ante-natal yoga class at Chakra House (sounds very serious!) and I think the teacher must be very into the whole thing as

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So I'm not going to pretend that the last couple of weeks have been easy. This has been one of the hardest times of my life. My son is so confused as to where his step-father has gone and asks questions a lot. All I can do is reassure him that the reason he went was nothing to do with him and that Mummy loves him a lot and I am never going anywhere. I thought he was doing fine, then he punched

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As previously mentioned, my husband has left...and I am moving forward! As a mother and expectant mother at that, what choice is there? My 5 year old seems to have accepted that his step-father has gone and isn't coming back, so surely that's what I need to do now, right? So, I made a list and I'm getting on with it, all the practical things: Taking him off the council tax bill to make it

Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14672330978923617683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8457016615936309578.post-3697223962724663022012-04-16T10:47:00.001+01:002012-04-16T10:47:28.119+01:00

It seems I have been away for a long time, which is probably because I have! But life has not been kind in the mean time. I am now 25 weeks pregnant, which I am so thankful for, but within the last week my husband has left me and my son with no explanation...gone. And I am broken. I don't really know what to say about it right now other than I am so thankful for my fantastic family and friends,

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I feel I have been a little remiss with the blog of late, and though I have plenty of excellent reasons for this, I still feel a bit bad about it...so, how was your Christmas and New Year, and a very Happy New Year to you all! We lost my Grandmother over Christmas so it wasn't as it normally would have been and was quiet and a little strange without her there, she was missed and always will be

Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14672330978923617683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8457016615936309578.post-45720788087935845992011-12-15T14:43:00.000+00:002011-12-15T14:43:28.747+00:00

Is it just me, or is anyone just not feeling the Christmas spirit this year?!! I'm not saying I'm all 'bah-humbug' or anything, but I'm just not feeling the vibe!! There could be a number of reasons for this...I haven't written my cards or wrapped my presents and now it has become a chore to put off! I have a stinking cold! My Nana is very poorly in hospital! and my son has been ill this week! I

Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14672330978923617683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8457016615936309578.post-63215116356215896902011-12-08T14:59:00.001+00:002011-12-08T15:04:18.370+00:00

The hormones have really gotten to me this week. One minute I'm fine the next I'm in tears and feeling miserable. I don't remember being this all over the place when I was having my son. Plus no one annoys me more than my husband at the moment! I feel that I had so much attention when we were trying to get pregnant and now I am, I'm in it on my own! I sort of feel a bit abandoned, is that normal

Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14672330978923617683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8457016615936309578.post-81973746364141519292011-12-06T14:53:00.001+00:002011-12-06T14:57:32.096+00:00

When kids are at an age where they don't really mind what they have for Christmas, its so much easier! When they start requesting what they want, it gets so much harder, plus their requests change everyday, so how do you keep up? So far there have been requests for Batman, wrestling toys, Power Rangers, knight toys and the list grows. Although my son has written to Santa and asked for what he

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Since I am so bad at keeping my mouth shut, particularly due the excitement involved, I have announced to the world that I am pregnant, and what a relief!! I can understand wanting to keep quiet until after the first scan but how?!! How do you do that? I think women are programmed to talk more than they should and when there is something good to talk about, they just do! I had to convince hubby

Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14672330978923617683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8457016615936309578.post-13563613959120020052011-11-30T15:25:00.001+00:002011-11-30T15:29:48.609+00:00

I am 5 weeks pregnant and look about 5 months! I have given up wearing normal clothes as none of them fit me and will be forever grateful to my friends who have donated their maternity clothes that they no longer need. At this rate I will be an elephant by the time this baby is born! My husband is away for the week and I believe will be shocked by the weekend when he comes home at what he finds.

Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14672330978923617683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8457016615936309578.post-64602904189584404592011-11-28T11:26:00.001+00:002011-11-28T11:32:26.811+00:00

So excited! I'm about 5 weeks and due in early August. To be honest, I have been avoiding blogging as it is only early days and I didn't want to announce it but so many of those around me now know, I don't see what difference it makes if I tell you!! And its true what they say about your second pregnancy, you show earlier! I retained so much water with my first pregnancy that I showed at 6

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Well, it appears the hormones this month are turning me completely mad! I am officially unpleasant to be around...my husband has started avoiding me, I am grouchy and grumpy and have nothing nice to say to anyone, so maybe I should just keep my mouth shut! Plus I am unbelievably hungry and none of my bras fit me anymore! And the wait goes on...I should know this week if the swimmers have done

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