Smile aloud!!

far far away..

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Wed, 14 Sep 2011 17:55:00 +0000

far far away from home,
aimlessly i roam..
and I so realize,
my world has moved,
far far away from me!!

Brought into the new world
with tears of farewells!
to those unseen hands
that i held in mine!

To those unseen shoulders
that stood by my tears;
to those unseen hugs
that curbed my fears!

Feeling like an
Emptied road;
like the flood were to,
drain in a day!

Waiting for the turn
leading to my home!
with eyes and ears open
for the true heart..

far far away..

In search of my home..

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Sat, 20 Aug 2011 07:10:00 +0000

Innocence is a child's nature..! As he grows up, loses his innocence; doubts everyone and everything around him. As for me, I don't think I lost my innocence by myself. It has been shredded into pieces by very many people around me. Some even accuse, I smile too much! :)

Losing one's innocence can be very painful; losing it in the crowd and finding it back takes an awful lot of time! by that time, you become too old..

Being completely innocent makes a person totally vulnerable, whereas ignorance(not aware of the truth/doubting the truth) makes a person rigid, too practical infact! either of them ain't gonna help someone reach their home!

"The home of love and joy.."

To enjoy every little thing, to appreciate even the smallest of things, to be in peace with everyone, innocence is what you need! learn it from the child :) And don't worry, good things only happen to good people!! Or atleast, I believe so :) Innocence at its purest form makes one fall in love!! In love with the nature.. The intricasies, the wonders, the beauty, the silence, can be felt only with innocence! :)
Innocence at heart , radiates love and spreads the smile! :)

p.s: this is a result of my introspection, I don't mind receiving comments against this; But if you wanna advise, save them for yourself! :)

The path to destiny II

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Sat, 11 Sep 2010 05:23:00 +0000

I dunno, as they say, ur first love, ur first kiss is special.. for me my first interview is special.. in a sense! it made me happy! :D I actually wanted to goof up the interview! But then, I enjoyed it..
Leave off the technical part, they gave me blocks to play with and then some puzzles to solve!!
I went crazy remembering how I solve the ambigrams! Similar puzzles were given, and then finally they gave me some picture like I get in forward mails, find out the number of faces in it!
Its like, I know bits and pieces from here and there! Felt like the slum dog millionaire's tackle to the barrack of questions! Though I din't get the job or want the job I was happy I attended it! for the sheer luck of knowing something somehow in a totally unrelated manner!
May be that's what destiny has in store for u! U get so excited, when u know things in an unexpected way! I'm loving this..Wishing more unexpected things to happen and will keep exploring new things to get me there..! Here I come..

originally drafted on 1st Aug..!

The dark hole..

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Thu, 12 Aug 2010 04:44:00 +0000

Sometimes I wanna shut myself from the world
Go hide into a dark hole..
Wanting to be lost,
amidst silence and darkness!!
I don't want the light..
I just want to be left alone!
Cos no one's mine!!
Your words are a wonder
They raise me to heaven
And then throw me to the hell..
To Hell with you!
To hell with me..
The silent dark lonely hell!

The art of saying no..

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Fri, 06 Aug 2010 08:37:00 +0000

Seriously, its high time, I practise this art.. the most difficult of all arts!
One NO at the right time, prevents broken promises, guilty feeling, even though it brings a kind of unpleasant situation, that's quite small when compared to the other option.
Sometimes,being silent helps..Some other times, speaking out helps too..
When you have to say a No.. speak it out.. coz it could be misconstrued if left unsaid..!
By saying no, you are just making everything simple for everyone and especially for you!
Self comes before others, yea yea! I sound self-centered!
But hey, everything starts from within..You must find everything from within..Look inside you..!
If you want it, do it.. otherwise better say NO! than to be sorry!
There are lots of situations, when I have to decide between, What I like and What is needed! I simply go for What I like, to which I should start saying no!
What is needed comes first, isn't it? I think I'll have to learn it the hard way..
Learning to say no, is so difficult! When you want to please everyone..
But if you want to please yourself, that is your self conscience!, everything becomes so clear!
There is no head-heart collision! unless you have many split personalities to argue within!
So yea, Go ahead, Please yourself! Please your heart!
Say no to certain things! and to plastic too!

Imperfections are memorable!..

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Wed, 04 Aug 2010 19:55:00 +0000

I remember the way we were scared,
I was trying to be cool,
But actually we got annoyed..
for getting into a stupid crowded bus!
I still laugh at how stupid we were!

And the other day,
When we got into the wrong bus
That wouldn't stop at the college bus stop,
We were about to jump off the doors!
How naive we were!

Oh and I remember the day,
You wanted me to come along
to the hod's room,
I cant stop laughing
How we goofed up by giving a single page
ripped off assignment!
How bold we were!

I remember the day
we got lost and
searched for the bus stop!

I remember that day
When I got into the wrong direction,
And u panicked and cared for me!

I remember the day, a beautiful day,
still exactly frozen inside my mind!
I din't know I would hang out with u gals!
We went to that place
and I din't have lunch with me!
U remember, We just had chocolates
and her lunch!
haha!! I still remember how hungry I was..
Nevertheless it was so much fun..

I remember the days,
We were too lazy,
We'll go take an afternoon nap,
And then want to bunk the walk..!
The imperfect mobile tower signals,
made it all the more fun!
and memorable <3
The 2 nights at the terrace
Texting and cheating and the fun
and the pain! and the rain ofcourse!

I remember the day we had to go somewhere
and find some sponsor!
We din't get it anyway!
and that's why I remember it !!

Do you remember the day,
We tried connecting speakers,
and nearly got caught!
Oh man! I love the moments
When we were scared of getting caught!
so much fun it was!

I remember the canteen lunch we had,
When u said,
Yea she would screw me up,
If I don't dance well..
Just like the way I felt too !

I remember the silly fight
I had with u,
for not valuing my scraps!!
How silly was I?

I remember the day,
We kept on discussing,
How imperfect we were!

I remember the night,
When we were all late,
after watching a movie ofcourse,
that too a treat,
And u were all worried,
coz my home's far!
How can I not remember that imperfect plan of
getting to the movie after 15 mins or so!

I remember the imperfect day
We had at the IIT coffee day,
We just wanted to check it out
during the lunch break!
We weren't drinking coffee too :P

I remember the day,
We bunked project,
Went for movie!
I think, We said, We wanted to go to college!
some professor called us! :D

I remember the day,
We had the not-so delicious
but a cool blue ice cream!
It tasted yuck,
but that feeling wouldn't show up in the photos! :D

I remember the night
We first discussed,
the sms over the night blanket!
during the trek..

I remember the days
you cried for a biscuit packet
and 1re coins to
telephone your mom!

I remember when u
of us all,
mothered us :( !

I remember the evening,
We kept on eating
or rather sitting simply,
When they came, ate and went!
We are slower than any one can imagine!

I remember the evening,
We got to talk about all science fiction
time travel..
putting some garbage in the car..
conversation...
And then she said "hey am late for home"
haha!! I really loved that !

I remember that day,
When I was so sad,
for reasons U din't know that time,
U sent me a love note,
I still cherish it!
Coz it made me laugh, U silly!

I remember the day,
so bright,
You called me to make sure,
I reached safe..
Coz I was nearly suicidal,
You gals, were incredible!
I laughed my heart out after 2 hours!

I still remember the gossips we talked,
While doing something stupid,
When they asked us to build a
wind driven car!
How brilliant we were to do nothing! :D

I remember the plans,
I made.. and I could never turn up!
I missed those fun :( !

I remember,
How you were happy
with the gift,
but actually it din't fit you properly!
That imperfect selection!

I remember the day,
When we went to the beach..
And she started pleading the dog!
And how can I forget our Imperfect secrets!

I remember the day,
We went on a flying train,
to this place,
And had very little to eat..
And played a game of
telling Your crush story!

I remember taking you
through the time machine!
For You just believed me!

I remember that day,
We kept on taking photos,
Coz we din't get the table,
The looks casted upon us!
The yuck pasta!
What an imperfect meal! :D

I remember the day,
When we poured milk,
And kept it outside!
The next day the blot was in the curd!
I still admire our stupidity!

I remember the evening,
We got stuck in the middle of the forest
And I can remember the fear in your eyes
But we kept on going!
I like our blind courage!..

I remember the day,
When Some one spitted the truth,
While having a pizza!
It was so imperfect to be memorable! :)
I'm sorry I dint tell the truth myself
Anyway it happened, so!

I remember the day
At the beach,
When you both fell down
playing that game!
haha It was fun watching!

I remember the thrill we had.. on a night!! on the night of camp fire..
The fear, the act, the thrill, the fun!!
Eager to do something sneaky..
Just like a kid who wants to eat chocolates all at once..!!
Oh my god, if it was not for the imperfect moment of the
*knock knock* and after!
I wouldn't still laugh at it!

I remember when you wanted my birthday to be memorable
You made it memorable..
All those laughters, upma, gifts,
The cello tape holder list,
The lunch at the Andhra mess,
Even though everyone of us had a stuffed lunch box,
The tears down her eyes.
yea coz of the hot food!
And how annoying you were!
I had to do all the chores :(
And then I cried breaking a plate..
And they show up with a cake..
I go home silent,
Thinking the day is over!
And grateful for the gifts,
When finally u arrive,
bringing my favourite pizza!!
woah that was a splendid moment!
Getting to cut a upma, glass plate, cake and a pizza!!
Man,I'm so lucky!
Ah,I can't forget it forever! The bestest birthday I'll ever have..
Coz I went through all the emotions in a single day!

I remember the fun we had..
baking the most strongest cake!!
And the laughter,
with the bent spoon in my hand!
Din't that make our day?

Oh I wish every one of my days are
as Imperfect as these were!
And wait, It would have been so perfect without you,
Yea I would never have carried these memories with me!
I just wanna tell you,
You are so special to me,
In a totally imperfect manner!
And I wish u gals,
An imperfect happy life!!

Though most of these moments were not photographed,
I don't have any object to remind me of all these,
These moments are very well captured inside my mind!
I think camera-less days were more fun!
Just wanted to write-it down..
To make sure, I read it if I get amnesia :)

P.S: I'm not editing what ever I said, Coz I want it to be imperfect! Totally! :)

Silence is the loudest scream!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Mon, 26 Jul 2010 04:09:00 +0000

Gold is difficult to achieve..!..practise with silver :)

I just realized this fact!! Silence is the most powerful weapon.. powerful when compared to tears!!
No one can possibly understand the meaning of one's silence ! It all lies in their perception..
What ever it is,one's silence always kindles the conscience of the other! Wow!
When You don't know what to say, remain silent and smile :) - The other person will take the meaning they want and go away!
When You are angry - don't pour your heart! Be silence and Don't smile ;) - That is all! it's conveyed! :)
When You want some one to come and convince you - Be silent, smile and avoid their eyes :) It works wonderfully!!
When You want to express your love - Be silent and hold their hands :)
When You don't want anything - Be silent and Do what ever pleases you!!

But the most difficult thing is to practise silence!!
You will realize it's the easiest thing to do! Just like I did, right now!!

You keep imagining things..

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Sun, 11 Apr 2010 08:25:00 +0000

I actually thought "imagination", "understanding" are different cognitive abilities until few months back. Suddenly I realized, all of our abstract understanding came out of imagination! Its not that you actually understand anything, You assume, You imagine and finally u do it all dreaming!.. How ironical it is to the conventional phrase "don't imagine things"!
Einstein said "Imagination is more important than knowledge"!..
Both creativity and intelligence, were born out of imagination!.. So what ever you wanna do, keep imagining things or rather keep dreaming :)!!
Lot of thinking goes during the random dreams.. "dreams", a fascinating thing! Or lot of imagination goes.. You keep imagining even when you are asleep!.. Imagination is so powerful that makes you feel all alone inside a crowd or so surrounded by beautiful thoughts when you are alone!.. At the end of the day, its all surreal.. Nothing is true!..
"ellam mayai"

Adding colours to your life . . .

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Sun, 11 Apr 2010 07:09:00 +0000

Colours are so powerful, they can change your mind. I hated chemical engineering subjects so much that I never listened to the lectures. But then I wanted to give importance to every subject.. After 2 years of studying chemical engineering subjects with not much of an interest, I really liked the one I had in last semester. It was not coz of the subject or the prof! :p It was coz of colours! yea! PINK!.. I made it a point that I write in different colours especially pink and blue!.. oh wat a feast to the eyes.. Everyone was shocked coz I was decorating my notes of a boring subject.. But then colours did the trick.. I was so interested in taking notes.. This meant I had to listen keenly.. So I started listening just to write in colour ink! And that is how Downstream processing turned out successful for me..!.. I wish to surround myself with pleasant shades of yellow and pink!.. They are so smoothening and elevate your mood!! Amazing property of colour that I recently felt.. You should try experimenting with colours yourself.. They are all around.. You could start writing in colour papers.. I like the yellow one!.. so soft to write.. I mean its not soft by itself.. The colour adds to the texture.! And I remember reading somewhere about curtain colours that you should use for pleasant relationships.. I guess that must work, unless you are not at home 24/7.. I wanna experiment with more colours :) ! may be all the colours aren't this positive.. So yea :)!

This post was long due to come out of my drafts..! today I have penned down my thoughts having got the little piece of solitude that this demanded..

An addition to the list

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Sat, 19 Dec 2009 13:56:00 +0000

I was thinking about the uncertainty principle.No, am not talking about the numbers! Leave alone the position or momentum of a particle, the living beings are the most uncertain ones! Yea, Life is uncertain and so is Death.We all accept these uncertainties about future, but do we, equally, accept the uncertainty of belongings? Do we accept a loss that easily?
I was wondering about this and suddenly realized, these are so nicely said in the bhagavad gita.
The bhagavad gita is the work of genius! I just realized, I should have read the complete version of it. Though I think in terms of science, theosophical thoughts enter my mind! I wonder if I have the patience to read the whole book of bhagavad gita. It is quite challenging coz of the language.I wish I read the book , and so here am, adding this to my list of goals..
I thought, this goal in particular, deserved an announcement :)
Everything is for the good :D !

The path to destiny

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 18:56:00 +0000

I am a follower of science who believes the destiny! Somehow, every random thing that I encounter must be connected. I will be able to see that, one day. To get carried away, you don't have to mind your own business at all! (:D) just be curious and peep into everything that passes by and go by the flow!

I started hating the word "forced" so much that I keep running into in every post of mine!..

I want my life to be spontaneous and for that my entropies(here, I mean knowledge on random things) have to be high, initially! well, I wish I could indulge in variety of numerous activities before actually diving into one! Random activities ranging from web designing, photography, art, writing & reading (non-academic), detective work, cooking, magic tricks, doing something good for the environment, crafts! Some of my friends actually feel that I'm wasting time in futile errands! May be they are right. But being curious is not a fault. It leads to my random activities!.. which may build my destiny! And also, I don't consider anything as useless! I feel lucky to have the gift of curiosity. One day,all the randomness that surrounds me, will fold into shape. And that day will see the happiest realization of times! :)

P.S: And thanks to the power of imagination that cradles my thoughts!

Suddenly, I feel myself fancying these abstractness of the human mind..! o_O
One of the random events in the process of writing this post was a website, 43things.com
look at the right column! --->
yea! :D quite a big one..

What is missing?

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 10:32:00 +0000

This piece of writing is purely based on my perception of myself and the people around me.This is filled with many many questions that I have asked myself so many times.. At the end of this session, if you think you too had/have similar questions, pls do comment.. :)

Are we ourselves? Or are we aping some one in the society of ours? Why are we so much influenced? Is being influenced is what otherwise called learning? Learning proven facts is OK.. Learning the moral is OK.. But Learning to be inside some "group"? Is it when some one gets influenced? What is the demarcation between learning and being influenced? Being influenced is just an excuse, when we are capable of being ourselves, at any kind of situation. Why do we keep on changing when we move to places? Does the place has influence or its about the people there?
Even when you know that others are not perfect, why do you have to act like Mr/ms.perfect?
Are we living for others to accept us? Are we living just for the sake of some acceptance from the society that is equally unstable like each of us?why can't you be weird but good enough? :D

OK.. What makes the society? A group of people living in the neighborhood with some do's and don's.. Am not talking about breaking the rules and let loose of ourselves.. Am just questioning, what if we do something apart from the rules? like, what is missing in those "rules book"! When you do everything right, why do you have to be afraid of someone Else's opinion? It's OK to think about others' opinion before committing something major... but you don't have to be afraid of some sacred(really?) society when you know that no one is perfect!

Just becoz some one will laugh at you, you have to give up buying an yellow car, which is actually your favourite colour..Or you have to give up wearing your black nail colour just coz some stranger thinks its stupid..Or you have to talk like you are coming from a sweet part of the earth where there were no criminals? Can't we choose something that we like rather than what others like?

When am talking about choosing, am also talking about the way we carry ourselves.. why do you have to put up a artificial smile on your face when someone superior scorns at you? Is it coz you are afraid of losing something? one thing we have to understand, There is no one to be afraid of and you got nothing to lose.. Once you got this idea into your head, then the all the above asked questions vanish.. They instantly disapparate from your mind.. Now is this what they call confidence?At last I have narrowed down to a single word that I can think about..!

[Even if someone refuses to call it as confidence, am stubborn.. this is what confidence is according to me.. believing in yourself and not afraid of other's opinions.. yea I know.. sounds arrogant.. but are you not arrogant too?]

And talking about arrogance, being considerate is a rare commodity. You don't have to act like you are an helping person, just to impress some one! I'm not saying no one is considerate.. am just saying, "If you are considerate be that, if you are arrogant be that, of everything, be what you are!" Now when you are yourself, you can find the eternal beatitude! :) :)

But now I got another barrage of questions.. and will post some in my next post.. :)
see ya! wouldn't wanna be ya! :D :P

And the list goes on . .

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 16:04:00 +0000

the heavy rain on a lazy dawn..!

the sunny evening after a rainy day..!

the slow drizzle on a lonely night ..!

the soft grass that makes you wonder ..!

the yonder sky that seems so smart..!

those autumn leaves crackling at your feet..!

the tiny stones which you can punt and play !

the sea waves that take you on time travel..

the beach sand that compels you to dip ..

this list can go on and on
all of this tells you what?
nature is not dumb..
it speaks..!!
only that we don't listen often..
even though you don't heed to it,
nature always allays your pain..or fear..or temper..
through its voice!
so, reduce your noise
and listen to the nature
once in a while.. :)

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my first colorful post in here.. ^_^
credits: photos from google search :D
words from the dictionary :P

The escape window . .

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 15:23:00 +0000

Traveling with your friends is always fun! But traveling alone has brought out so much of loud smiles in me :) I even framed this post during my travel only.. :P

If you have been in Chennai, you will know how the metro buses operate here. The seats are always filled at the start point! :( and there are automated doors in the bus which can't be closed! just because its sooo much crowded.. Just by the look of it, most people may dislike getting in there. Actually, I have to travel long everyday. There are lots of disadvantages coz I nearly always go late to my classes and spend 3 hours traveling every day. May be this has forced me to like traveling! or may be not :)

Just like any of us, I too like the window seat whether it is train or bus :D ..Once I get into a bus, I am always greedy to get a window seat just coz u can escape from the crowded hell and look at the far wide landscapes outside.. I really like to watch the lights during the night.. the breeze and the views makes u dreaming ;) I love it very very much when my pal accompanies when am alone ;) He just makes me so.. so..really really.. happy! ;;) I sit at the window seat and hold him by my side. >:D<

wow! I've never been more happier in a crowded bus before he came to live with me! Yea am talking about my music xpress phone :D I just can't describe with words how nice the pleasure is.. Of course not many gets a chance like me to travel long .. lol..

It was in a crowded bus travel that I realized how happy I have been feeling lately..Later I stepped into this pursuit of searching joy everywhere! :) You don't need reasons to be happy.. but u will need them to spread the cheer across :) So hear I spread my word :P I prescribe everyone one hour of music everyday ;) ..and It is mandatory that u are strictly idle :D and smile aloud!

P.S: Don't look for grammatically correct sentences in the above paragraph.. I forget to use them when am happy.. :P

Welcome!

noreply@blogger.com (Vini) — Sat, 18 Jul 2009 13:26:00 +0000

I have this strange habit of trying out new things, and writing blog is now one of those things. Yeah this is my first blog! Hope I make something interesting to read..

The name smile aloud should have apprised you about the content.. yea I'm trying to smile aloud and spread my tiny joys across :) Those little joys and my pursuit of happiness! I am gonna emote my thoughts!

well there are lots of things that make me go crazy ^_^ like the soft drizzle or the quiet breeze.. (I like the sound of these words with 'z'..wow!) Yes, I am on my way to find each of the things that make me happy! and m gonna do some writing on it..

I'm warning you, this blog will be interesting only to my bosom friends or kindred souls.. ^_^ so if you find it otherwise, well there's always the 'x' key at the top right corner of this page!

Thank you.. ^_^

p.s: I'm missing my smileys here in blogger.. :(