Spiritual Adventures

And yet more "house" dreams!

2012-01-18T00:49:00.000+11:00

Lately, I don't seem to be able to dream anything that doesn't involve the "house" symbol. It's getting a little frustrating, mostly because I do know what the "house" represents (self) but I don't know what the dreams are indicating. First "house" dream was set in my parents' house. They were not present, but my husband was. The house as represented in the dream was nearly exact to the real

Another "house" dream

2012-01-16T18:41:00.000+11:00

This dream had several versions, and most of the details didn't stay with me. The first incarnation of the dream, however, involved my husband and I going to a house to meet someone who lived there (or something like that; details are foggy) and when we got there, we found the corpse of a recently murdered woman. Somehow we knew she lived in the house, and that the man who was still there, whom

A Dream of the Sun

2012-01-15T21:17:00.000+11:00

In this dream, I was inside my home (home in the dream, not my actual home), with curtains drawn. One of my kids was apparently at home with me. The other child (my youngest) was at school. Without warning, the sun outside became extremely bright. It was like someone flipped a switch. Light was flooding in, and it was, frankly, nearly blinding. I didn't have heavy curtains, and the curtains I

Another Strange Dream

2012-01-13T17:06:00.001+11:00

I found myself in a strange society/culture, having been transported there without my will or knowledge. In waking life, I'd say it was a sort of sci fi dystopia, but in the dream, it was just this weird place. There were all kinds of corridors and boxlike rooms and trains ran in somewhat unpredictable ways to move people from one area to another. It was very difficult to navigate. Very little

Signs and Messages

2012-01-04T02:29:00.000+11:00

For some weeks now, I've been getting continual little messages and signs and so on. The last time it happened was some months ago (probably more than a year, hard to recall precisely), and the message then was, basically, that I was awake (or at least lucid). Now the message is that I'm ready, I've graduated, it's time I took up my power and got on with things. It's kind of surprising to me how

A Dream in Which I Was Dead

2012-01-01T15:22:00.000+11:00

I dreamed that I died. Of course, I was still there, walking around, self-aware, etc. I was in a school setting, like undergraduate level university, in a classroom with which I was familiar. I knew the teacher, a man, and I could talk to him and he could see me, but for the most part, I was invisible. None of the students seemed able to see me or hear me, which I found kind of frustrating.

Fluid Reality

2011-12-27T22:14:00.000+11:00

For the past few months, I've been observing certain patterns develop in my reality. I used to say that reality is reflective, but now it seems that it's actually more like a manifestation of my own thoughts, beliefs, desires, and my subconscious mind. It's an extension of that. The reality around me, which I experience, is like a three-dimensional, all-way screen, and everything that manifests

Blank Pages

2011-10-11T19:04:00.000+11:00

So, perhaps it is the case that the default is that reality is shaped by and filtered through individual beliefs, and hindered by things like attachments and so forth. I've seen this and understood it, and have proceeded as if this is the case. Only.... I don't think I understood until now that this is only the default. It's what happens if you're unaware and unconscious. (I want to add that

I've Decided I've Had Enough

2011-10-11T02:24:00.000+11:00

I can't believe this one. Really. It's the most obvious thing in the world, in the universe, in the multiverse, and I haven't seen it until now. When you wake up, while it might be interesting and even useful in some cases to analyse your dreams, they're still just dreams. You're awake. The dreams may be meaningful, sure, no argument there, but there's no need to dwell on them, delve into them,

Reality Flows

2011-09-28T18:42:00.001+10:00

My experience of late has been that of reality flowing in interesting ways, including the spontaneous manifestation of various desires and thoughts and interests. This appears to be a combination of the sure understanding that there's nothing I (I-Me-Mine, ego-self, material self, etc.) can do (surrender) and the directive to "decide", which seems like a paradox, or it did, but I'm starting to

Decide (Word of the Year for 2012)

2011-09-20T18:16:00.001+10:00

It's the middle of September, so it's a little early in the year to find myself directed toward a new "word of the year", but that seems to be what's happening. I guess I got the previous one ("surrender") sorted out well enough that it's time to move on, but the thing is, I never really "move on". It's not like one thing slams shut or stops and the other begins. It's a continuation, a layering,

There's Nothing I Can Do

2011-09-05T00:24:00.000+10:00

Lots of struggle lately. Attachments that haven't yet gone, became very apparent and very obvious and started to chafe. It caused me a lot of frustration and annoyance because even though I know those things are optional, where attachment is concerned, it's easy to forget. The attachment makes you forget, I think, or at least, drags you in so effectively that you can't see past it, even if you do

Even the Structure of Reality....

2011-08-30T16:20:00.000+10:00

So, it appears that even the very structure of (my) reality is illusory, and defined by my own beliefs and perceptions. I know, that little sentence seems entirely innocuous and even bland, doesn't it? But it's actually reality-shaking. I can see, very clearly and unmistakably, and without me having to "think it out" or reason it or anything else, that the "reflective reality" (of which I have

Another Sync/Answer

2011-08-26T14:18:00.000+10:00

Just saw this quote: Nearly everything you do is of no importance, but it is important that you do it. - Mohandas Gandhi Lately, I've been questioning - a LOT - why I bother doing certain things, particularly things that have to do with communication. Why do I write? Why do I talk? What point is there? Indeed, it is pointless, I know this, so why am I doing it? (I suspect plenty of people

Okay, so I guess I do have something to say

2011-08-23T18:26:00.000+10:00

I find it remarkable how every time I think, "Yeah, I should just pack it in. I'm keeping this journal thing and it's getting tiresome, and not doing anyone any good, anyway, so why bother?", it's never long before some unsolicited and unintended message comes to my awareness that says, "Nah, it's okay, it's mostly pointless, sure, but not entirely so..." Heh. Thank you to the person who wrote

Not Very Talkative (or Writative, as the case may be)

2011-08-19T03:43:00.000+10:00

I'm not feeling very talkative of late. I'm feeling even less talkative when it comes to matters "spiritual". I'm seeing, more and more and more, how utterly futile it is to even try to talk about this stuff. Now and then, I guess, someone succeeds at it (like Eckhart Tolle, whose work I have not read, but who is an international best seller many times over, or Deepak Chopra, some of whose work I

Chris Hedges: What is Religion?

2011-08-16T17:57:00.000+10:00

Interesting food for thought:

Release of Old Energy

2011-08-13T16:29:00.000+10:00

It's been an interesting few weeks. Everything sort of came together from all different angles to effortlessly create a sort of "perfect storm" that allowed for the release of some quite profound attachments (blocks, beliefs, energy, whatever). I won't go into all of what happened and how it unfolded, but I will note that the more open I am to receiving guidance/input/revelation/epiphany/release/

Just a Note of Gratitude

2011-08-05T01:39:00.000+10:00

I'm so very grateful to now live in a reality that is free of demons and devils and inflexible, limited ways of seeing and experiencing, of powerlessness, of victimisation. I lived that way for a long time. It has taken many years to unfold, but the freedom is real, and tangible. When I look back and then look to the present and to the future, I can hardly believe the difference. Grateful,

Tremendous Inner Shift

2011-07-14T19:09:00.000+10:00

I can't go into everything that led to this, because I'm still not sure how it happened. I will say that it has to do with being a natural introvert (in the sense of being centered internally rather than externally; I am INFP on the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator). I don't want to go into the whole introvert/extravert thing, but this is not about social skills or shyness (I have entirely acceptable

Attachments and Resistance Part Gazillion and Two

2011-07-04T17:28:00.001+10:00

Anyone who tells you that awakening is the end of all pain and difficulty is full of it. I'm in considerable discomfort today for reasons I won't go into. It's yet ANOTHER attachment, or place of resistance, within whatever is left of this material self's perspective. I can't express how incredibly sick of this I am. I mostly understand the purpose of hitting these pockets of resistance and

My Relationship with Money

2011-07-03T03:10:00.000+10:00

I have had a lifelong problem with abundance. As in, I never had much of it. I was raised with a very obvious and clear "lack mentality" and I adopted that and my reality has conformed to that (because it can't do anything else, only what I allow). I used to live in victim mentality, and so I was a victim and I was victimised. When I broke out of that mentality, that worldview, my reality

Yet Another Reminder

2011-06-30T23:42:00.001+10:00

I mentioned that two themes are coming up over and over and over in my reality. One is the nature of reality, itself (quantum theory, spiritual insights, even joke references). The other is the non-existence of the separated, discrete self. And honestly, it's starting to get creepy. It's entertaining, sure, but it's getting really weird right about now. Tonight while watching a recorded

Melting

2011-06-30T18:41:00.000+10:00

So, this is a strange perception. Lately I find that I have the sensation of melting into the world around me. Not just the physical world, but anything and everything that I can perceive. It's most noticeable when I close my eyes, because my hands and feet immediately seem to kind of dissipate, that is, all sense of distinct "edges" just vanishes. I feel like if I wiggle my fingers or move my

Stream of Reality Consciousness

2011-06-30T02:34:00.000+10:00

A couple of themes are repeating over and over in my reality/awareness. I don't entirely know why. First, the theme of "non-existent self" keeps coming up. Now, I saw the non-existence of this "me" person years ago, accepted it, and that was that. There has never been wavering from the knowledge of "I don't really exist". There is also plenty of subjective experiential knowledge of not-self (