Stairway to Eternity

Hello 2021 January and Feb

2021-02-18T02:18:00.003-08:00

Finally Back again was on Hiatus... It was a Crazy December 2020 the landlord surprise visitation, cut the story short he told me I have to evacuate the apartment fast, as known the house leader has failed to negotiate with the owner, then he just broke the 4 years contract our deposit forfeited, then i have to leave within few days.

Busy like a Bee

Was busy like a bee, looking for a new place to move and looking for new....and looking for new jobs and attended a few interviews. Thank God found a place without contract that means if i found new place i can just ditch my House leader.

January 2021,

Now New challenges arise, all the local businesses are slowing because of COVID19 and the Lockdown. Hope everything gets better, I have joined some Entrepreneur classes and Sidehustle Classes, but the problem is Always lack of budget, I cannot go ALL OUT.

VINCE tan Masterclass Charge very high, Normally these webinars, They advertise their workshop online like Facebook and YouTubes, these are the commonplace where those stranded in.

Yes, things are not perfect as it Seen... This picture Illustrates all. Tearful Eyes and Mouthful of Foams...

Hope Next month things will be better when I apply different strategies into the ball game of Life.

After taking caffein mind are fulls of ideas, But I have to document it before it fades, don't have time to practice all in the same time, so gotta record it first ... Test it later.

Backthen, Here and Now

2020-12-01T07:01:00.000-08:00

Hey Friends, 👍

I am back, Always apologize being Hiatus...A lot of things happened, Really Bring me to tears and Old Fears revisited me.

Back to Track Lets hope something better i coming in December, I have to work hard, and smart to get me Out of this situation.

Even, typing my eyes swell with Tears, While typing listen to Emotional Chinese Songs, It helps me to pour out all the emotions.😓

Friends Left, Lost Job, suddenly have to move house, suddenly felt the weight of the world on my shoulder, remember to Ex-bosses I had, those wasted time.😖

Intense Feeling, at that point really i have the thought to End my life, but that call saved my life, Some random call from this Church workers, she asked whether can pray for me. What a relief, Thank God.

Finally understood, that when people kill themselves, they actually don't want to die it is the sudden surge or urge that cause them to have such boldness to stab or jump down from building ...

No worries, I won't do it... Probably need to wait the emotions to settle, listen to emotional song to get the tears start flowing.😥

Alright share until here, Remember to reach out to stranger, understood sometime people we know refuse to listen or they are not ready, I have tried to open then end up more Hurt. I think in future i will drift further and further away from them make friends with people who are like minded, positive, ever-learning attitudes.

Surround with Positive friends 😀if you do not have now, no worries start reaching our for them... while negative relatives and family members I have say BYE with them, although it hurts but it will HEAL fast.💪😷

September 11th, We Never Forget

2020-09-11T10:46:00.000-07:00

Today is Sep, 11th 2020.

I remember last time when I was young, joined the school trip.

As I recalled, while dining for breakfast saw the Sep 11, tragedy news LIVE. Back then was small don't really felt much. At first sight,

I thought was computer-animated couldn't be real then later aware that the news is real.

Life is short, Unpredictable... People come and Go, Appreciate them before they expired. Today, remind that those people were on the building would never know that morning was their last day on earth.

Revisit the Videos, seeing people rather jump than being burnt, Ashes and smoke filled the air, screams, and shout desperate ask for help.

This year 2020, I have lost many friends and acquaintance they died before their time, I believe in fated destiny, some are around my age, some your just 17,21 sad to see young people, teen, and young adults lost their life.

Final words, no one lives forever. Love them while they are alive. I am grateful to be alive and well will express my appreciation to all my friends and fans (hope they never found my blog).

Bros, memories with you will always in My Heart. I love you very much

Sincerely

Justin.

Yes I am Back, as said Will be back

2020-09-10T02:41:00.001-07:00

Was Hiatus since 2018, my recovery period after that accident/ trauma

In 2020, a challenging year

Glad to be Alive, A lot of younger Bros Have passed away :(

Many things, ups, and downs.

Recently Deciding whether to go Full into Blogger or WordPress.

Most probably I will start more new projects new blogs in WordPress, As Blogger is since 2009, I have noticed a lot of changes a lot of young friends they passed away, went back their blog noticed some of them disappeared, try to find out why a lot of Blogspot account are gone without a trace.

In the end still, the same question should I further develop my BLOG in BLOGGER or WordPress?

Many Opinions, online could be misleading but roughly one has to test it out.

PS: wishing everyone stay healthy and happy always :)

Writing Content

2017-06-13T23:34:00.000-07:00

Writing contents
cannot say it is hard neither easy.
Everyone can write contents, whether the contents are attractive or not
It is the another story.
Trust me not easy to find your own style and match with the audience's preference

Tips

I have learned,
Need to be straight forward,
things written must straightforward,
Brief not too lengthy.
Simple yet not boring
Interesting yet not too much infos (information overloaded)
Easily read yet not too dulled.

These are tips I have learned, Simple yet sweet
Any comments and Feedback feel free to give me, God Bless =)

Lifting weights

2017-06-04T21:19:00.001-07:00

It is actually a misconception that lifting heavy weights will make you grow big muscles and become slow.

It actually depends on the kind of weight training you are doing. If youre doing it right, weights can increase your power, endurance and speed.

If you are doing bodybuilder's programme like (Monday: Chest, Wednesday: legs, Friday: Back, etc.) then obviously youre going to be packing on alot of dead weight muscle.

Nowadays, as opposed to the previous generation, some thai gyms are incorporating weights into ther muay thai.
Times are changing.

Be an Overcomer

2017-04-19T19:02:00.000-07:00

Today is the today you have made I will rejoice and glad in it
.
Challenges face today all have been overcome.

First you have overcome your fear of making decision, on deciding which fund should I allocate for clients, fearing that I would make mistakes, I guess it progress along the way.

Well life is full of challenges,
Always have the mindset of I will go through it regardless of what.

Fallacy number 1, people always think that they are really ready then only take actions,
the fact that one is ready through the readiness of mind.

Always have the mindset I am ready to face anything, whatever will be will be....
Do not worry of the result being less desired or not so perfect. Perfectionism
is another rock thbat gonna hinder you from even start thinking, planning and executing it.
Defeating mindset will echo in your mind.

Today's lesson I learn to " Just Do it " try your best, it won't fall short too far from the set goal, so long you have done your best even though it is not 100%, there is no Regrets.

Gamers always be gamer

2017-04-11T09:10:00.001-07:00

Honestly speaking Gamers are the same
They blame people for everything but refuse to acknowledge their own faults
If you have a few gamer friends, I believe you would agree what I am saying.

It is always easy to blame, than taking responsibilities over the mess that you have created.

Anyway I have signed out from their accounts, I wash my hand cleaned from the basin.
I hold no accounts to their actions, neither wanna be part of the shit they are in....

April's Fool, Nobody's fool

2017-04-08T21:46:00.000-07:00

I am April's fool.

Fool for believing you 2nd time , giving you 2nd chance to hurt me.

Never again I will let you to do this.

Hardening my heart preventing it be hurt again.

I am nobody's fool, giving you 2nd chance doesn't mean I am stupid just that cared too much about this relationship.

For now it doesn't matter for me everyone is the same, people tend to be dishonest and double standards.

These are the attributes I hated the most.

Today is the saddest day, a mixtures of pain, anger and sadness.

I will grow out from this pain.

Enough of explaining myself, no one hears everyone assuming and not asking, that's fine that is how the world 🌎 operates.

Feeling expressed here have no prejudice to anyone not any religion it is purely from my heart. Feel free to leave my page if you don't really like an honest mistakes.

Delay No More, Take Charge your LIFE

2017-03-27T20:05:00.004-07:00

Delay No More,

When Fear over gripped you, everything seems overwhelming.

Paralyze by it, deadlines is nearing....
Yet the feel of losing control, the fear of making mistakes,
the fear of the unexpected outcome.

Perhaps one have set an unrealistic, expectation....
For me, Now and onward I shall not be Afraid of making Mistakes.

Tips
Take charge of your life again....

Reorganized your life,

manage your time schedules well, set priorities, learn to say NO, safeguard your time
avoid MULTITASKING, one step at time.... Danger of multitasking, sometime one might get confused, much errors may arise, sometime tasks
Plan ahead, And take Action. Planning without actions is dead, It is just building a sandcastle in your mind, and It will not be actualized. Plan and make simple steps reaching your small goals
Lastly Fear Not, Go ahead and try, If you fail try again, again until you succeed. Quitter never win, winner never quit.
Always add values into peoples life, always be there to help people around, make the earth a better place for your neighbor if you find this article helps share to them.

New Seasons, it hurts =) smile again

2017-03-07T09:38:00.002-08:00

Thank you God.

Heartfelt.
The New Season.
Somehow felt that it is the time to move on again,
Gotta say goodbye to TOD.
Dr. Loh said was right.
Although it is hard, but i will endure it.

somehow I felt like leaving before i ever did.

What the hell have happened in 2014, 2015, 2016..

Waited till now, time of preparation is perfected, now time to get up and take actions

Stucked, Am I ?

2017-03-06T22:28:00.000-08:00

Am I the only person stucked?

Indecisive in Decision making,

mess all around...

Fear of making mistakes,

Perfectionist comes in.

I do not know where to start,

I know how to start,

but it seems

overloaded with facts

too many choices leave to indecisiveness.

Oh my God, the cycle goes on and on,

Procrastinate, later when actual event is near not much time for preparations,

Regrets kicks in, then get into distractions mode, distracted by games and events doesn't directly related to me.

Suddenly think like a woman, a lot of things on mind, that I could not get it out. Simply could express myself through writing blogs and journal

Try to use less words to carry more exact meaning and express emotions straight to the Dot.

Recently learned how to tell a story.

No Woman No Cry, Disagree

2017-02-21T20:12:00.001-08:00

No woman No cry?
No woman, but
I have cried,
Wanna Cry
but no tears
such immense sadness
cannot be express by just tears and tantrum
Deep intense of dissatisfactions.

Regrets have a few,
Fear of future I have none,
Although the future seems unclear
I think worrying won't solve it
It will just make things worst.

Worrying and Fear have no grip from me,
but the some regrets and guilts of the past,
Keep on flashing back.

I have been strong for too long, sometime is okay to cry, but this time that kind of sadness cannot be cried out. My vocabulary, have become " I have should...." " what if " I gotta stop thinking else, overthinking could make me feel depress.

Okay for now I share until here, to be continued.....
I have promised I will write consistently even though it may be short.

Fabulous February 2017

2017-02-17T02:40:00.001-08:00

Been Gone for 3 months since transition from 2016 to 2017

Ups and Downs we are so used to it, we call it life.

My S6 edge passed away on January, this picture is snapped before my phone motherboard was burned

A little short updates, whee I have started my work as Unit trust consultant and part time grab car driver.

Don't know since when I have the phobia of driving passenger, but if today Grab have an incentives I might Drive straight 6 trips per day, or more trips I will go further for those incentives.

I will try to update more Blogs form time to time....

Blogger no doubt still the best place for me to share my thoughts, ideas with friends around the globe.

A lot of words have written on my hard copy journals so I guess, I will just type a few lines just to express my joy,

The

New Life.

New Life, as I have left the Gym job, personal Coach. I find it more fulfilling,

Now, Helping people to plan for their retirement, children education plan.

Thank God, for being faithful guiding me, I hope i will achieve my one million sales target.

Bye 2016

2016-12-31T03:18:00.002-08:00

Bye 2016

Welcome 2017!!!

Say good bye to 2016

Looking forward for something new.

Life is not always ups, sometime down....

But think on the brighter side I wish all is well, hope for the best is yet to come.
2017, I will surrender my life to the almighty....
2016, I did it my way ended so bad, landed on wrong side, get hurts and wounds
Hopefully, all will be well again when i realigned the priorities of life.

It has been a rough years in 2016, I have learned many life lessons.

New Job is coming, New opportunity.....
Hope all the best, in 2017 in your life...

Will update more, what is going on and share more of my own personal thoughts and perspectives
Will be more expressive than last year....
Will be more noisy, more frequent post and updates.
Will be updating my blog more frequent
thank you my regular readers for your support.

December again =)

2016-12-08T01:57:00.000-08:00

Often heard,
December be kind to me , January be kind to me....

Very often have we think, have we be kind to ourself.
How we manage our time , relationship and family.

Think again in December, anything we have neglected....
haha this year I have survived, I almost died.
Thank God, help sent from various area.... when I felt life is slopping downward

Thank God, for the Mentors,
Thank God, for the prayers and supports.

I am Grateful for the Good and Bad Have happened,
God always provide a way for me ....
Ever faithful God

Thanksgiving

2016-11-24T00:37:00.000-08:00

Give Thanks Songs keep on echoing in my heart
Although this year has been tough year.
by HIS grace I have overcome a lot of trials and testings
well, I am still alive

Really Grateful and contented with that, as long you are living
you have the power to change your circumstances.

Grateful I am Alive to fix all those junks in my life,
Life don't give me second chance but you gave me life, future, and hope....

Too many things to mention about your greatness, faithfulness in keeping and helping me through.

In summary, give thanks all the blessings e have given me, counts your blessings and you will realised a lot of thing worth give thanks for.

Revisiting the past

2016-10-31T09:35:00.000-07:00

Remembering the Past, This was Hill Citi College, A college nearby my House.

Most of my homegrown friend attended this college and graduated from it, what they never expected

is this college, Wind up.

Alot of my friends are puzzled, some changed career some retake their syllabus in another Local university.

Last time remember My mom did nagged me, telling me why didn't I join this college it was affordable and near my house.

Thank God, I have made my decisions did not based on others judgments nor opinions.

I stood firm on the college that I have selected.

Until Now it still exist TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN COLLEGE & UNIVERSITY.

Hope all the best is yet to come, now in the midst of attending interviews.

NOVEMBER be nice to me

Don't Give Up

2016-10-31T01:40:00.000-07:00

Throwback what Happened Last week....
Went for Interview at Fuji Xerox,
Got the feeling I have done well and Screwed the interview at the sametime. Hard to explain it is kind of mixed feelings, anyway I don't wish to worry about that.
Don't care what are the outcomes, gotta continue apply for Jobs...
This transitions of job is not easy, but i will persevere and consistently apply for jobs

Don't Give Up, as long you don't Give up there still be chance...
Eventually you will made it.
If you gave up in the half way, you won't see yourself through.

I want to encourage all, No matter how hard life throws at you, don't give up continue to fight you will see yourself through.

So far I have attended alot of interviews just don't know when they will call me for next appointment. but I cannot just sit there and wait for them, while waiting I am doing some parttime.... and multiple applications sent. Goodnews will be coming through.....
Will update on my next post :)

Happiness is Simple

2016-10-19T01:02:00.000-07:00

Happiness is simple,

It could be sharing foods with people we love.

It could be sharing our most inner part

For me Happiness is easy

Happiness having enough food,

A place to rest my head,

A bunch of positive supportive friends that you could call them

brother and sister in Christ.

A throwback that day I bought this affordable food, Rojak

Rojak, is the local Mixed tropical fruits with special sweet and spicy dressing.

If Oversea friend drop by Malaysia they must try this Malaysian Food.

Guess how much I paid for this Food?

It cost about RM5.50 portion is quite large, with alot of sauce

This Rojak hawker , he usually start selling from lunch break until 6pm.

His store is situated nearby Genting Kelang, Wet Market.

Feel free to drop Comments, recommendations or any Inquiries....

I will reply when available =)

Thanks for reading

Loneliness Versus Solitude

2016-10-18T12:14:00.001-07:00

Language… has created the word ‘loneliness’ to express the pain of being alone. And it has created the word ‘solitude’ to express the glory of being alone

What you think about Loneliness and solitude? Could you tell the difference?

Feel free to drop your comments below...

Loneliness will Kill?

2016-10-17T23:52:00.000-07:00

Loneliness will kill?

I would say yes and No.

Probably depends how One allocate their time

Get into doing interesting self development stuffs,

would help them to get over the feeling of Self pity, loneliness...

As long one gets their hands dirty and busy they will not have time to think about

oh I am the most lonely person in the Planet.

This is how I get along with it.

Most of my time I spent on myself,

Time alone with myself, yes..... Does't mean I am perfect

I don't feel lonely, At times I feel really lonely but

these are the stuffs I normally do.

I get myself occupied at the gym( exercise), some nights will have night at the streets or park.

Tried some favorite cooking recipe saw online,

Set goals and small steps archiving it,

Daily journal writings get my thoughts under control.

Pray, talk to God, I find it more therapeutic than talking to human, hahah doesn't mean I don't talk to People, be selective talk to people who are willing to listen.

Get involved in community work, get to know people who have the same vision...

Recently I get involve in church stuffs, serving as Pianist for the church.... NO idea how will it go for long term just get myself occupied...

So these are some of the ways how I curb with loneliness, beside constant grouping activities

Time alone, helps you reflects and recap what have happened, I found that I think more when alone compare to group, It helps personal development.

Feel free to drop me comments tell me how you curb with loneliness?

Short Updates

2016-10-11T18:53:00.000-07:00

Short Updates

Nothing much or less i have expect in Life?
Except to be Happy.
There are times I hope that shouldn't be born.

Why I am born in this Family ?
Most of the time I have questioned my existence
Sad.
Am I Proud to be the member of their family? No

Born in a Family full of strive.
I believe Most people are not Proud of their Dad. Am I... NO, not proud of my Dad
Most of the children do not have good relationship with dad.
I used to have hope looking forward for father's love care and support...
Until the day that was hurt so badly, I told myself enough is enough ...
I do not want to get hurt anymore, that was the last phrase I told him
I would not talk to him until his death.
Even till his death I don't feel remorse nor regret.
It is Him who taken me for granted not me.
Always I am the one who is reaching out until I get tired and sick of those attitude.
I believe LOVE toward him has grow cold.

Now, Is my Mom's turn, felt like thing not going better......

Hope as time goes by everything will tilt to the positive side

Confession of a HeartBroken

2016-10-09T09:33:00.001-07:00

It sucks,

Even the person closest to you misunderstand you,

No matter how eager you to explains,

It is true what hurts the most are those that are close.

the misunderstanding keep on snow balling,

People do get tired, I am tired of this Relationship

I tell myself it is Over.

Game Over.

I am leaving, leaving you lonely.

Hardening my Heart

so I would not be feeling any pains

some pain are worth taking, some are just a waste of time if we keep holding on.

Should I hold on or Give up?

Worth going through the pain again?

Honesty

this is lacking between us.

Whenever an question is asked, you will reply we with another questions.

For my part, I am holding myself ...

Why it is so hard for people to be honest.

Many Are Curious about what is happening

Only Few are truly care.

well I guess this is just reality of Life

I was hit Hard,

Now my life FUCKED

Pretty Fucked

I have wasted the whole year of 2016.

Choose to Leave or Stay

2016-10-02T09:37:00.000-07:00

Am I going to delete those negative people and stop their influence over my life?
Choice is yours, to change or remain...
Well i choose to change, despite of my situation what could i do?
Not to react any dramas causes by them but remain calm at all time stay away from them as far as possible.

Who is the them ?
Those negative people.
Have you ever came across some people who come to you with only complains but when you have understand what they are going through and presented solutions to them, they ignored and continue to complains the situations they are going through.
Telling you, you never understood until you gone through thinking their problems are so unique they are the only person in the world is suffering it.

Self-pity fellas, such a pathetic being, he know what he is going through but refuse to take actions,
have everyone on the list to be blame except himself.
Everyday dialogs are "poor me "
Talking to them drains much of my Mana ( energy).
I have plan my way out , stay away from them before they demotivate me and bring me along with them to the pit of hell.

I am jovial person, I may have alot of optimistic energy but it will be drained out speaking with self-pity...
Day after day they will come to you the same complains, fucked just get a life.
Sometime I think why don't you change if you are unhappy with your current situations, instead of complain.