fort nico

home inspire: living etc magazine

2011-11-03T20:20:00.001-07:00

home inspire: soho loft plus knitwear

2011-11-02T15:31:00.000-07:00

Source: 1kindesign.com via Nicole on Pinterest

the brick the lighting the knitting. oh yes.

materialism: daddy, can I have

2011-10-19T22:54:00.001-07:00

Found: Living, Etc, Nov 2011

fashion inspire: re-invented chiffons (vera wang spring 2012 rtw)

2011-09-22T16:36:00.000-07:00

Reasons why I love these:

1st outfit: the color, sleeveless vest/jacket, the seams on the skirt

2nd outfit: chiffon underneath the jacket, capelet, the color

3rd outfit: dirty grey, sheer linen-looking fabric, that slit is HOT, soft silhouette that hugs her curves

4th outfit: layered sheer, select glitter, grey-green shoes with white, the x-shape up-front

fashion inspire: prada spring 2012

2011-09-22T15:54:00.000-07:00

Oh Ms. Prada, you are a sensational Italian woman.

Reasons why I love this outfit:

1. dusty pink

2. sheer, vibrant red

3. pops of lime green

4. modest silhouettes

5. sexy fabrics

6. jacket/shirt doesn't perfectly match

fashion inspire: Erdem resort 2012

2011-07-17T23:20:00.001-07:00

found on: style.com

fashion inspire: back [that a** up]

2011-06-25T14:15:00.001-07:00

Found: Vogue: Exclusive on the Met Gala, Vogue Espana, Vogue: Exclusive on the Met Gala, unknown fashion blog, Vogue Espana (Haider Ackerman,) Vogue: Exclusive on the Met Gala (Marc + Kate in Marc)
Commentary: bringing the sexy BACK, back!

fashion inspire: the blues

2011-06-23T20:48:00.001-07:00

Found: Elle Italia, Vogue Paris, Vogue Exclusive, unknown (wedding blog maybe,) Elle Vietnam
Commentary: Summer blues!

fashion inspire: black lace

2011-06-20T23:08:00.001-07:00

Found: Vogue Germany, unknown, Harper's Bazaar Singapore, unknown
Commentary: modest, black lace

Location:Valencia St,San Francisco,United States

fashion inspire: relaxed pants

2011-06-20T23:05:00.001-07:00

Found: Roberto Cavalli Pre-Fall 2011, The Sartorialist, Mr. Newton, Elle US
Commentary: cropped relaxed fancy pants

Location:Valencia St,San Francisco,United States

girl crush: rinko kikuchi

2011-06-20T21:57:00.001-07:00

Found: Harper's Bazaar Korea
Commentary: She was in the Brothers Bloom and she had bad-ass style in the entire movie. I want to be her friend.

fashion inspire: ink

2011-06-20T21:56:00.001-07:00

Found: Vogue Nippon
Commentary: a stunning editorial on their iPad app

fashion inspire: layered stripes

2011-06-19T20:12:00.001-07:00

commentary: love mismatched and varying stripes
found: unknown, style.com, unknown vintage, Hermes advertisement, fashion spread in British Interview magazine

fashion inspire: anglomania, the 2006 Met exhibit

2011-06-19T17:40:00.001-07:00

found: Vogue Exclusive iPad app
commentary: saw this when I first moved to NYC, with my British bestie

travels: London in 2008

2011-06-18T15:13:00.000-07:00

fashion inspire: Zoé Fall-Winter 2011 Collection

2011-06-18T13:46:00.001-07:00

By Zoé Fall-Winter 2011 Collection
Commentary: seems easy enough to make on my own

home inspire: my aunt's house

2011-06-08T11:21:00.001-07:00

Found in: Ethel, WA (photos by me)

fashion inspire: menswear

2011-06-08T11:07:00.001-07:00

Found in: Harper's Bazaar Korea iPad App

Comment: I have tons of large men's shirts, both mine and the boyfriend's rejects. I can never find a way to make them more feminine, but showing a little back might be the answer.

journal: over mountains and losing myself

2011-03-08T00:03:00.001-08:00

Somewhere between leaving one dream behind to finish another, I was derailed. The things that ground me were cut loose and I floated away. Spending a couple years not being able to focus on my future is mind-blowingly difficult.

Its nice to start seeing out from this fog and noticing a trail I can feasibly get to from here.

fashion inspire: prohibition party

2010-12-30T20:45:00.000-08:00

journal: baby, it's cold outside

2010-12-11T04:05:00.001-08:00

For I am about to fall, and my pain is ever with me.
Psalm 38:17

Like one who takes away a garment on a cold day, or like vinegar poured on a wound, is one who sings songs to a heavy heart.
Proverbs 25:20

Lyrics to Fallen Snow/Au Revoir Simone

We both know it's going to be another long winter
The kind that freezes shut the doors of early spring
But I'll still let you in
When I hear you knocking, with a whisper
I'll open the doors and I'll let you in

Depressing things are empty beds and lonely dinners
And women who are middle aged with naked fingers
I'll buy myself a ring
To symbolize this marriage every time I break the locks to let you in

Cause nothing's worse than seeing you worse than me
And nothing hurts like seeing you hurt like me
The consequence is less than the happiness you bring to me
There's more to give than what you take from me

Cause nothing's worse than seeing you worse than me
And nothing hurts like seeing you hurt like me
The consequence is less than the happiness you bring to me
There's more to give than what you take from me

Believe in the things that you know
Believe in the things that you know

Sunshine, throw a starving man a piece of bread

All I said, I didn't mean
The chill is strong and nothing seems
To thaw the icy sentiment
Of love that's gone once winter's spent

All I said, I didn't mean
The chill is strong and nothing seems
To thaw the icy sentiment
Of love that's gone once winter's spent

Lyrics from Winter/Tori Amos

Snow can wait
I forgot my mittens
Wipe my nose
Get my new boots on
I get a little warm in my heart
When I think of winter
I put my hand in my father's glove
I run off
Where the drifts get deeper
Sleeping beauty trips me with a frown
I hear a voice
"Your must learn to stand up for yourself
Cause I can't always be around"
He says
When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change my dear

Boys get discovered as winter melts
Flowers competing for the sun
Years go by and I'm here still waiting Withering where some snowman was
Mirror mirror where's the crystal palace
But I only can see myself
Skating around the truth who I am
But I know dad the ice is getting thin

When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change my dear

Hair is grey
And the fires are burning
So many dreams
On the shelf
You say I wanted you to be proud of me
I always wanted that myself

He says
When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the white horses have gone ahead
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change
My dear

music inspire: broken social scene

2010-12-11T03:46:00.001-08:00

Used to be one of the rotten ones and I liked you for that. (x3)

Now you're all gone got your make-up on and you're not coming back.
Can't you come back?

Used to be one of the rotten ones and I liked you for that. (x3)

Now you're all gone got your make-up on and you're not coming back.

Bleaching your teeth, smiling flash, talking trash, under your breath.
Bleaching your teeth, smiling flash, talking trash, under your breath.
Bleaching your teeth, smiling flash, talking trash, under your breath.
Bleaching your teeth, smiling flash, talking trash, under my window.

Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me. (x13)

Park that car, drop that phone.
Park that car, drop that phone. (dream about me)
Park that car, drop that phone.
Park that car, drop that phone. (dream about me)
Park that car, drop that phone.

Used to be one of the rotten ones and I liked you for that.
Now you're all gone got your make-up on and you're not coming back.

music inspire: e. haines part 2

2010-12-11T03:37:00.001-08:00

Floating the rent
Two by two
From the womb
To the holiday
There is no holiday
First double-cross her heart
He wants to start a family
Needing something to go on

If she weren't writing in blood
She'd bring him her jokes
A new liver
And a shovel for the mud
If he were not knee-deep in mud
He'd bring her his drugs
He'd get her a typewriter

If this is the life
Why does it feel so good to die today?
Blue to gray
Grow up and blow away...

If this is the life
Why does it feel so good to die today?
Blue to gray
Grow up and blow away...

Nobody knows which street to take
He took the easy way
What was the easy way?
First double-cross her heart
He wants to start a family
She always thought she would not.

If she weren't writing in blood
She'd bring him her jokes
A new liver
And a shovel for the mud
If he were not knee-deep in mud
He'd bring her his drugs
He'd get her a typewriter

If this is the life
Why does it feel so good to die today?
Blue to gray
Grow up and blow away...

If this is the life
Why does it feel so good to die today?
Blue to gray
Grow up and blow away...

First double-cross her heart
He wants to start a family
Her body is the baby.

If this is the life
Why does it feel so good to die today?
Blue to gray
Grow up and blow away...

If this is the life
Why does it feel so good to die today?
Blue to gray
Grow up and blow away...

used to be

2010-12-11T01:18:00.001-08:00

Listening to music that I identify with certain past periods of my life, I am interested in who I used to be. Where I used to be? What I used to be?
I used to be similar but different. I don't know when the switches happened, but there has been 5 major life stages in my life that I can identify as different from the previous. The stages are defined by activities, location and major life events. My actions and personality have changed or been honed throughout them.
The place I'm in right now is very interesting to me. I'm in a city I've lived in before, but it "overwhelmed" or "weathered" me last time. Though there are a good number of fond memories, moving back here was a difficult and confusing leap. San Fran definitely got the better of me at some point. It took some years and therapy to get to a point of understanding it and myself. Why would I come back, you ask? I craved the consistency of good people and growth through friendship. I knew it was gonna be against my patterns of behavior to stay put and trust myself to allow others in.
What has actually happened since moving here? Oh man. Exactly what I needed. Nothing that I wanted.
That's why this stage I'm in is so interesting. I'm somewhere between content and happy most of the time. It's true that I'm terrified and uncomfortable as well, but somehow happy and content. I'm fascinated.

our hell is a good life

2010-12-11T01:13:00.001-08:00

First went wrong, is hard to find
We're paralyzed, we apologize
Our hell is a good life
Last went wrong, where's my prize?
Under the lights
Can we call it in, we'll be on the road
Can we stop?
When we stop
My back will turn your face toward the fence

What if what it was it isn't now?
What if what it was it isn't now?

All this weight is honest, worse
We're moderate, we modernize
Till our hell is a good life
All we know what to forget
How to do right
Colouring in the black hole
Can't we stop?
When we stop
My hands will shake, my eyes will burn
My throat will ache, watching you turn
From me towards your friends

What I thought it was it isn't now
What I thought it was it isn't
Punishment to stall what is done
What I thought was in is missing out
What I thought it was it isn't now

There's a pattern in the system
There's a bullet in the gun
That's why I tried to save you
But it can't be done
It can't be done