Stretching Intervals

Brief Thoughts from an Airport

2009-08-04T15:05:07Z

After a very full week at a festival in Montana, I am now waiting for my flight at the airport with a unique feeling of exhaustion, exhilaration, and a certain kind of delirium that comes about from a combination of intense music making and jet lag. Performing a wide variety of solo, chamber, and concerto repertoire within 5 days as well as giving a master class is a challenge for any musician, and I have certainly been heavily immersed in music this week. You can see a little of my activities this past week in this video, and some info on the master class I gave. I love this beautiful northwestern region of Montana, and am very much looking forward to returning again in the future.

At the same time, I am now filled with tremendous excitement to be heading to Toronto, a city I love - it has been close to ten years since my last visit, and I’m thrilled to be able to launch my new recording, “Chopin | Schumann: Sonatas”, in this vibrant city. This recording marks the start of a special collaboration between myself and UNICEF Spain, an organization that I very much support and, as many of you know, I consider my outreach and humanitarian work an important part of my artistic life. I feel that this new partnership can help all of us contribute in some way towards the betterment of afflicted children worldwide. I know that I will be meeting some of you at the launch party, and I am so very happy to meet some of my “online” friends in real life! For those of you who will not be there, or are unable to attend, I will be performing and giving an interview on one of Canada’s top classical music stations, 96.3FM, on August 5th between 3:15 -3:45 (EST) and will be performing selections by Schumann, Ravel, and Chopin. If you are not in Canada, you can still listen and watch because it will be live-streamed through the station’s website.

I have always felt extremely fortunate whenever I have met or worked with people who not only impress me with their character and talent, but who also inspire and challenge me to be better, both as a person and as an artist. So far, in all of these aspects, this summer has been a memorable one for me. Not only did I meet fine people in Montana, both musicians and concert administrators who are committed to bringing the arts alive, but I have worked with two extraordinary Canadian females for this CD launch event. Liz Parker (my publicist and all-around samurai rock star goddess) and Rosemarie Umetsu (a fabulous designer who not only is providing the marvelous venue for the event, but is also outfitting me for both my radio/live-streaming interview and launch party) are both the powerhouse individuals that have made all of this happen. Furthermore, this event would not be possible without the generous support of Scott Wilson of Terzetto Wine for providing the wine and Paul Hahn & Co. for providing the beautiful Steinway piano for me to play on.

This is a joyous event for me, and quite simply, I can’t wait!

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Perceptions in Sound

2009-04-06T09:44:16Z

A few days ago, I practiced for a couple of hours in a hall here in Madrid. As I walked out of the hall and headed for the subway station to go home, I was lost in my thoughts about the music I had been working on. Humming under my breath, I revisited a phrase from the Chopin B minor sonata in my head and walked rather obliviously toward the station. It wasn’t until I got home later that evening, that I saw on the news that I had walked right past a rather large and vocal protest. I vaguely recalled seeing some police officers and people on the street, but the scene, and more importantly, the sounds from that very loud protest had simply not registered as I walked past. I have previously posted on this blog my thoughts on the differences between hearing and listening. As I thought about how I perceive sounds in different ways depending upon the situation, I wanted to revisit this issue.
During my practice sessions, I become so absorbed in what I’m doing that I will not hear the phone ring or realize when someone is speaking to me. When I was younger, this was the cause of a lot of laughter in my family. My mother would actually have to touch me before I would lift my eyes away from the piano, look at her, and then realize that she’s actually saying something to me. My brother’s favorite past time was to come up behind me while I was practicing and scare the living daylights out of me. Of course, it’s not that I don’t actually hear the sound - rather, it’s more like my active “listening” is so focused on what I’m working on that any other extraneous sound from my surroundings simply does not register in my head, or enter my sphere of attention. The sounds around me are filtered through the “hearing” part of my brain and doesn’t get processed in the “listening” section.
The exact opposite situation happens when I perform. As I sit at the piano on stage, every sound from the hall or audience - the rustle of a skirt, the turning of a page in the program, the sound of someone whispering to their neighbor, a raspy cough, the crinkling of a candy wrapper or cough drop - becomes unbelievably magnified, and I feel as though a megaphone is directly attached to my ear and is amplifying every sound from my surroundings. In this case, my listening becomes so active and sensitive to the acoustics, vibe, and subtle nuances of the space within which I am about to produce music, that every other sound also gets caught in my “listening net” and feels like an incredible intrusion or interference. It is the same when I rehearse in a hall prior to a performance - if someone enters the hall or walks nearby, I feel the energy of the space drastically shift. This is the reason why I usually request that my rehearsals be closed so that I have the needed “alone” time on the day of a performance to absorb the space of the hall.
This difference also permeates into the periods after I make music. After I practice, rehearse, or perform, it takes me at least an hour to come down from the music-induced listening (the reason for my experience on the street the other day). I remain in a rather spacey state in which I’m still occupied with listening to music (even if it’s just in my head), and everything else immediately goes into the section of my brain reserved for background noise. After about an hour or so, my sound perceptions start to shift back to its normal equilibrium.
I am fascinated with how music, or any type of endeavor that requires one to reach internally for a higher degree of awareness , can cause a shift by bringing some elements to the foreground while pushing others to the back. This holds true whether I am the one making music or the one experiencing it. For example, I cannot listen to a wonderful recording while I do small tasks or errands around the house. A powerful recording will demand my attention, push itself to the front, and will not settle into the fuzzy realm of “background noise.” I cannot continue to wash dishes or cook - I have to actually sit down, listen, and absorb what is being said.
Whether it’s the composition or interpretation of a musician, the speech of an orator, the words of a writer, or the visual world of a painter, choreographer, or director, art places demands on both the creator and his audience. It insists that we shift our perceptions from passive to active, that we listen rather than simply hear, and that we search rather than accept.

Artistic Legacies

2009-03-25T11:58:33Z

I just finished reading Milan Kundera’s thought-provoking book, Testaments Betrayed, and have been mulling over some of the interesting points he makes about how an artist’s wishes regarding his work are often ignored and misinterpreted.
Although Kundera uses many examples throughout history, one main theme that pervades his essay is the story of Franz Kafka and Max Brod. Kafka, as most people may know, left explicit instructions with his friend, Brod, to destroy his works upon his death. He did not ask for all of his works to be destroyed, but left a clear list - he wanted his personal writings, letters, and diaries as well as stories and novels that he felt were not successfully written to be destroyed. Instead, Brod believed in his friend’s genius and had all of Kafka’s works and private papers published after his death and became the greatest proponent of his friend’s art. What we know of Kafka today - his works, his life, the resulting Kafkology myths - are a result of Max Brod’s efforts. Thus, the fundamental question: Did Brod do the right thing or did he betray the artistic intentions of his friend? Many have argued that though Brod’s actions may have been flawed, he nevertheless provided the world with the discovery of Kafka, and that this alone more than made up for any kind of betrayal.

“Brod the enigma. He was guided by no ulterior motive, only by the spirit of justice; he loved him for the essential, for his art. But he did not understand that art….Brod understood cubism as little as he understood Kafka and Janacek. Doing his best to free them from their social isolation, he confirmed their aesthetic aloneness. The real meaning of his devotion to them was: even a person who loved them, and was thus most disposed to understand them, was alien to their art.” (Testaments Betrayed, p. 253)

I am not a composer, poet, or novelist - I cannot imagine what I would feel about such a situation. But as a performer, I believe that this issue is important. I have asked my friends who are writers and composers what their thoughts were on this, and they unanimously agreed that an artist’s aesthetic concepts and wishes regarding his creations are absolute. And yet, in both the literary and music worlds, we have clearly seen so many examples of how an artist’s wishes or intentions are ignored. There are concerts that promote the first performances of previously unpublished or abandoned material from a composer’s work and new recordings of previously unpublished fragments. New revised editions with material that the author or composer chose to remove are added back in for “authenticity.” I have never quite understood this concept - why do we perform a work or fragment that the composer himself clearly deemed not suitable for performance and either removed or abandoned? Why - 200 years after a composer’s death, when he no longer has the ability to speak up or protest - do we insist on pulling every possible scrap from his personal, private life as well as from his pile of discarded, incomplete works and shine a bright light onto it like some kind of novelty? Would a composer want us to publicly perform fragments of works that he had completely abandoned? Would an author want excerpts and fragments of ideas he had written in his private journals, notes that were meant only for his eyes, to be published?
It reminds me of a conversation I once had with a well-known musician, who shall remain nameless. We were discussing Mozart’s works and he told me that he thought it was very important to go to Austria and see and study the desk, writing instrument, and shoes Mozart wore and used as he wrote a certain piece (I kid you not) because it helps us to play his music better. This same musician also said that he didn’t believe one could perform Bach unless one was German. Now, I strongly disagreed with both of these statements and very vehemently told him so. His way of thinking represents the way some people narrow their view or focus in the hopes of finding a deeper understanding or meaning. But they fail to consider the possibility that taking the exact opposite action and broadening their view could actually provide them with the meaningful perspective they’re searching for.
Even as I passionately argued against his views, this musician insisted that he was right in what he said because he truly “loved” and “revered” Bach and Mozart, and felt that he was “protecting” their authentic values. He believed that we must leave no stone unturned in analyzing their lives, and that every scrap of paper - a fragment tossed out into the trash, or a private note that was only meant for the recipient’s eyes - was important in preserving and understanding the genius of their art. But by insisting that Bach could only be played by Germans, he inadvertently limits the Bach that he loves so much to being an artist of only one country, when his artistic legacy belongs to a perspective and history much larger and greater than that. I was also left thinking about what Mozart would say if he knew people were looking at his shoes to figure out how to interpret his music…it seems, in many ways, that the spirit of Max Brod continues to live on.
Do artists have any control or authority over the legacy they ultimately leave behind? In what ways do we misconstrue or warp an artist’s original aesthetic conception or intention? Do you believe people like Brod are correctly acting in the greater interest of art? Or do you believe he betrayed the fundamental individual freedoms that are at the heart of what art is? Are there circumstances or situations that are exceptions?

A Door

2009-03-16T10:59:35Z

A confession: I have never been particularly fond of that rather overused saying about how one door has to close in order for another to open. The image of two different doors just never felt quite right to me. I always preferred the image of one solitary door, a door that with each opening and closing reveals a view vastly different from what we saw before. I like to think that we are always standing in the exact same spot, simply and curiously looking through the doorframe at a vista that changes and shifts each time the door swings open.

I have been quiet on this blog for these past several months because I have been doing a lot of thinking about beginnings and endings. It has been an emotionally tumultuous year for me. First, there was the joy and fulfillment of getting married this past summer. It was a very private and quiet ceremony and it filled both my husband and I with the kind of hope and happiness that can only come at the start of a new journey. After this new beginning, however, came about a succession of endings. First, the very sudden death of my extraordinary teacher in New York, a person who was dearly important to me and one of the greatest influences in my artistic life. This was followed by the passing of our family’s beautiful dog in Hawaii, who finally lost his long and brave battle with cancer. A few weeks later, my uncle passed away in Japan, leaving behind a grieving family including his younger sister, my mother.

As anyone who has lost someone knows, it is difficult to grapple with the feelings of grief. I was here in Madrid and felt as though important parts of my life were disappearing all over the world and I was powerless to do anything about it. All of the memories intertwined with these people, with their words and actions, as well as the emotions tied with those memories, surged back to the surface and I needed to work through my feelings privately.

When I was a student, my teacher, Alexander, used to talk with me about what might happen after he was gone. We always had extended conversations about the meaning behind artistry, about what it meant to be an artist. Our lessons were not simple and dry one hour sessions. I would head from Manhattan to his home in New Jersey, and spend all day (between 8 to 10 hours) there. He would work with me, cook meals for us, and we also spent many hours discussing paintings, literature, and philosophy. Some of my most affectionate memories are where I would be playing a Chopin ballade and I could hear his voice, marvelously thick with his Russian accent, coming from the kitchen. “Gracie, Gracie, please - your 4th finger legato!” he would roar as he continued to chop onions for the soup we would have that evening. It was wonderful, eccentric, inspiring, and special. He used to muse aloud that music is a performance art, one that is meant to be experienced live and one that defines the very spirit and soul of the artist who creates it. Therefore, when an artist dies it would be almost as though he had never existed at all. The sounds of his music and of his art would disappear along with him, and in the end, all that would be left would be his photo on the wall. After his passing, I could not get that particular conversation I had with him out of my head.

Besides performing, I have dedicated the past few months to extended humanitarian and charity work, and have used classical music to reach out to teach students in my hometown of Hawaii and also impoverished and needy children in India and Nepal. I threw myself into intensive work with both government and local organizations abroad to contribute in any way. Music and the arts are such powerful means of empowering children to express their own creative individuality and to communicate and understand ideas and emotions that perhaps cannot be put into words. Of course, I ended up learning so much more from these children than I could ever have taught them.

As I taught, as I gave myself over to the refreshing purity, honesty, and freshness of children, I came to terms with my own grief and the aching feeling of loss. I remembered Alexander’s face as he talked about how an artist would disappear after he dies - and as I taught Nepali children about music and aesthetic principles that I had learned from him, I thought about how his photo should be up on the broken wall in that crumbling school in Kathmandu.

In the weeks following my uncle’s death, my mother spent most of her time sharing with me the wonderful Japanese folk songs he taught her when they were children. My uncle did not study music but he loved to sing and had a beautiful lyrical voice. In the end, the strongest memories that stayed with his little sister were not complex, overwhelming moments, but something much more bare and infinitely more priceless, an essence that I call my uncle’s “internal” music - a personal music that every individual, regardless of whether they studied music or not, possesses. What remains of my uncle are the sounds of his voice, of his laughter, of his pure unadulterated joy in singing, and the excitement and life on his face as he taught his little sister a new song.

I have been thinking not only about Alexander, my uncle, my unconditionally loving dog, but also about the many other fragile strands of souls spread out all over the world who helped to form the very fabric of who I am. I grieved because with each death I felt that these strands were slipping away, disappearing from me, and evaporating into the air. But I have started to realize that the ends of those strands have not vanished - they are, in fact, connected and linked right into the very heart of me, inextricably intertwined to who I am, to my music, and to my future that continues to open in front of me. I just couldn’t see it before - and now, as that one door once again opens for me, I am standing and looking at a wondrously transformed view.

Quick Update

2008-07-18T18:11:28Z

I’m currently in one of my favorite cities, gorgeous San Francisco, to attend the Blogher Conference, and am having a lovely time. I’ll be sharing a longer post later today detailing where I’ve been over the past month, but for now, if you want quick updates about my experiences at Blogher, you can follow me on my Twitter account. If you’re here at Blogher, please come by and say hello, or drop me a direct message on Twitter!

Opening BlogHer mixer at the top of the Westin St. Francis

A Pregnant Silence

2008-05-11T17:23:55Z

Silence is the absence of sound, the lack of auditory vibrations traveling through the air. But this absence does not necessarily mean emptiness. Silence can communicate, can carry a weighted meaning, and can often transmit ideas and emotions of penetrating profundity.
I was a painfully shy child, sensitive and emotional - but the one thing I remember with crystalline clarity is the security and comfort I felt whenever I was with my mother. I was happy and content because of her - she made my life as normal as possible, and there was an absolute certainty that my mother would always protect me, always be there to hug and console me, and perhaps most importantly of all, would always understand me.
My mother seemed to possess an innate understanding not only of the power of silence, but also when it was important. She would quietly let me sit and play for hours at the piano and let me have countless hours of fun by myself (and later with my younger brother) as we created and acted out our different imaginary stories and scenarios, and had animated conversations with my stuffed animals as though they were real human beings. My brother and I were both avid readers and ever since I was five, she used to take us to the local public library every Sunday morning. She would sit there with us for 7 or 8 hours (until the library closed), as we consumed and read book after book. She always wrote down in a little notebook each and every book we read, what we thought about it, why we enjoyed it, and would ask us to rate it on a scale of 1 to 5. One day, after reading an adventure book, my brother and I become consumed with the idea of creating an imaginary world that involved defending the queen of the castle from various evil doers. I remember my mother quietly sitting at the dining room table as we jumped around the room, excitedly talking about all the different scenarios and possibilities. The next day when I came home from school, there was a pile of 20 to 30 empty boxes of different sizes. When I asked her what they were, she simply said, “I brought them home for you and your brother.” I still remember the indescribable glory and happiness of those next two weeks, as my brother and I cut up, colored, and painted those boxes and created the very castle that we had been talking about.
To this day, I marvel at how a first generation American and single mother was able to give my brother and I so much of her time while also running the household, taking care of all of my unusual music related activities and schooling, staying on top of my brother’s life and education, and running her own school in which she educated and influenced literally hundreds of other children. By nurturing me with her silence, my mother gave me a priceless gift - the freedom to be myself. She gave me the quiet I needed in order to think for myself, to formulate my own ideas, to choose my path in life, and to make my own mistakes along the way so that I could truly understand the learning process. On this mother’s day, I celebrate my extraordinary mother’s life, and the inspiration she continues to give me everyday.

All-Around Bits

2008-05-08T13:22:40Z

As I keep up my maddening work pace this week, I thought I’d share some interesting articles and posts that I’ve enjoyed over the past few days:
- Via Chris Foley’s Collaborative Piano Blog: Chris shares a hilarious video of the singer/comedienne Anna Russell’s take on how to be an opera singer
- As an educator and as a strong believer and advocate for early childhood education, I have always maintained a strong interest in the field of cognitive psychology. This article on Elizabeth Spelke’s fascinating research at Harvard was interesting to me for several reasons. Although babies can develop visual differentiations between races and skin colors by the age of three months, language (that is, sound) and what we hear plays a greater factor in a child’s long-term development.
- Wil Wheaton’s blog is always a very funny, open, and refreshingly honest account of his approach to creativity and life. He recently wrote a post that discusses his thoughts about his creative career and shares some resources for aspiring writers.
- As those of you who follow this blog know, I took some time off this past weekend to do some internal spring cleaning. Going offline and taking some time for myself was wonderful and something that I very much needed to do. Tying in with my interest in education, both Chris Brogan and Chris Pirillo recently dealt with the issue of information overload, and how best to manage and handle our time in our current wired society. What I enjoyed the most about both posts was the idea that in the end (as I realized for myself last week) the solution lies not necessarily with better machines or filtering software, but with our own human selves, and our ability to decide and choose how we each define and take responsibility for our lives.
- Chris Brogan on saying no
- Chris Pirillo: How do you deal with information overload?

Spring Cleaning

2008-05-03T20:05:39Z

After a month of indecision, Spring seems to have finally decided to officially arrive here this week. It is as though something has visibly shifted in the city’s atmosphere, and the natural festiveness of the culture has once again permeated the air.
Meanwhile, this is what I spent this past week doing:

Between the piles of scores that I have to go through, work on, and learn for upcoming concerts, and various administrative and computer related tasks I have to do for different events this summer, I haven’t had any time to enjoy the marvelous seasonal change that is always my favorite time of year. I would much rather be like this little one, and simply rejoice in the sun and warmth outside:

This weekend I plan on doing some spring cleaning, not necessarily of the house (which, actually, does need to get done…), but of myself. I’m taking some time to do the simple things that bring me such pleasure - going to the museum to soak in beautiful art, taking a leisurely walk, reading a book at a cafe, watching a movie, and cooking and trying out new recipes. As someone who tends to be on the workaholic side, I’ve been trying to learn how to take the time that I need for myself. Nourishment of the soul is important in order to sustain continual emotional and mental concentration, and I hope the little quiet time this weekend will help to enrich and renew my inner self.

A Quest

2008-04-27T21:39:47Z

“The true poem is not that which the public reads. There is always a poem not printed on paper… in the poet’s life. It is what he has become through his work. Not how is the idea expressed in stone, or on canvas or paper, is the question, but how far it has obtained form and expression in the life of the artist. His true work will not stand in any prince’s gallery.” - Henry David Thoreau
The above is one of my favorite quotes. I first came across it as a teenager at a time when I was immersed with thoughts about my future and what it meant to pursue a life in music. I recently had some interesting conversations with some friends about the nature of creativity and the definition of an artistic life, and as I thought about how to discuss this idea on this blog, this quote came floating to me from the memories in the back of my mind.
I do not come from a family of professional musicians. They are all music lovers and my mother is an amateur pianist, but my family members are all educators, scholars, researchers, and activists. One of my uncles, a mathematician, was one of my closest relatives during my childhood. My brother and I wrote handwritten letters to him every week, and would receive one back from him as well. These letters are some of my most prized possessions, and the joy I felt in reading them is one of the strongest memories I have from my childhood. Although I was only seven years old, his letters to me were filled with his thoughts on life, his work, his research, and his philosophical musings about the nature of the universe and its connection to everything around us including the arts, sciences, and humanities.
When I was about ten, he finally completed one of his great life opuses by solving a celebrated mathematical problem. Taking a break from his work, he came to visit and shared with us how he came to the solution. He was kind enough to show me his published theory (which, of course, I couldn’t even remotely fathom) but he took the time to explain to me as though I could understand. He had been working on the solution to this problem for 15 years. This fact alone boggled my 10 year old mind - why that was even longer than my age! I asked him how he could think and work on one problem, one idea, for so long. He then told me about a trip he had taken to France in which he visited the beautiful gardens and home of Monet in Giverny. Inspired by the natural setting and beauty, he decided to walk back to the city he was staying in rather than take the train back as he had planned to. He ended up walking for over five hours to get back to his hotel. I was astonished. “Why didn’t you just take the train back?” I asked. He calmly replied, “Because I wanted to think.” What I took from his anecdote was that time - whether it be 5 hours or 15 years or even an entire lifetime - becomes irrelevant when one endeavors to reach for an original insight.
Since then, my uncle has continued his research into another theory, another chapter and challenge in his life’s work. My formative years were colored by conversations and the sharing of ideas with people who I believe, like my uncle, lead an artistic life in their respective professions. There may be many layers of interpretation to Thoreau’s quotation, but I have always interpreted it to mean that an artist’s best work and the true meaning of his life is always yet to be discovered; that is, the essence and definition of what it means to be an artist lies within the very act of questioning, searching, and seeking. There is always a possibility that we may never discover what we hope to find. We may reach the end knowing that what we have learned along the way is not even remotely close to satisfying, and we may spend a lifetime pursuing an idea or belief that ultimately has no resolution - but this in no way means that the search itself was futile. An artistic life celebrates and values the courage needed to ask the question that allows us to continue searching and growing - not for “any prince’s gallery”, but because the question itself reveals the infinite dimensions of our relationship to the world around us.

Monday Mantra

2008-04-21T13:04:54Z

I recently came across two classical concert musicians who are using their education and skill to express through comedy, much like Victor Borge did in the past.
For more videos of their humor, you can visit their website which has more videos as well as information about their background, their show, and upcoming performances which include a tour with violinist Gidon Kremer in the fall.
This particular video seemed to be an appropriate way to start off the week - enjoy!

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