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2012-11-06T19:37:00.000-08:00

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Xoxo
Zi-Fi

Ooooh The Fun Continues

2012-08-12T19:35:00.001-07:00

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2012-08-12T10:10:00.003-07:00

My adventures continue, look at my website to keep up with the new happenings.

www.StripClubJournals.com

~Zi-Fi

"A woman has many faces as she goes through her life. It's like we need more than one hair-do. We have many, many changes in the evolution of our lives. We have, we learn, and we grow; we view life differently, and life views us differently."
Sharon Stone

The Adventures Continue!

2012-08-06T16:24:00.003-07:00

My blog of adventures in the strip club industry continue on my own website.

www.StripClubJournals.com

Keep up with me if you can! ;)

Zi-Fi

Connect on with me on FB at:
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'Essential to the theory of evolution is the premise that everything has come into being by itself."
Walter Lang

Normalcy

2012-07-31T19:19:00.001-07:00

Normalcy comes in different forms for different people. Tanning is one of the few things I do for my job that I still enjoy. After years, tanning is still something I look forward to. Plus, it is a tax write off so it is a guilt free pleasure, financially at least!

Zi-Fi

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Going Big

2012-07-31T18:28:00.001-07:00

Last night I had a meeting with a web design team till late in the night. I am expanding my blog and preparing for the publication and release of my first book. The trip to Eugene was more then worth it! Never did I realize the possibilities were so endless!

Zi-Fi

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Emotions Come At A Large Cost

2012-07-29T01:36:00.001-07:00

Being upset the past few days has ruined my week of work. If I cannot smile about the men in my life who do not pay me, it is very difficult to fake admiration with strangers.

Strangers who pay me, while drinking, to crawl on their laps naked and make them feel like a King. What a weird reality! By now it is normal for me. It is other people who have a difficult time dealing with my reality, that is a fantasy.

Sometimes my fantasy has more clear boundaries then the so called real world!

Zi-Fi

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Let The Games Begin

2012-07-28T17:13:00.001-07:00

I got The Talk last night about my job from the new boy. He was quick to the draw, but good at being understanding while still pulling out emotional manipulation. I was taken aback beyond belief.

This reoccurring conversation is the reason I avoid traditional relationships. Men always say they can handle my job at first, but when it comes down to it they make demands in an effort to compromise for their own feelings. Then it becomes my job to not only do my job, but also make them comfortable with it. When all along they knew what they were getting into.

In the past I have given up work to be available during the evening for men. However, there was always a financial compromise in the past for me missing work.

No compromise ... No missing work!

Zi-Fi

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Depending On Regulars

2012-07-27T18:55:00.001-07:00

Depending on regular customers is a comfortable trap I fall into too often. A regular who will make your night or get you on a role is comfortable. It is the whole goal of dancing!

The more regular customers you have and enjoy, the easier this job will be. It sounds extremely simple, but in actuality it is quite the complex equation.

Good hearted people are few and far between...

Especially in a strip club!

Zi-Fi

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Drinks

2012-07-26T02:38:00.001-07:00

Still, I do not understand men who spend more money then a private dance on drinks for me. I know they have alternative motives. All I can do is smile and drink through it while taking their money. With hopes that it will be enough to conclude my night of work or I will find another quick catch to make my night.

Well there was no other fish to catch tonight, but I tried. Some nights just trying is more then enough.

Zi-Fi

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Back to Pen and Paper

2012-07-25T19:17:00.001-07:00

When I stay in Salem, I do not get phone service where I stay. Therefore, I went to the store to find my solution : pen and paper.

I will catch up as soon as possible!

Zi-Fi

P.S. Thank you to the dancer who recently reminded me weird and creepy are always relative. After years in the industry, it is hard to top what we have already seen and experienced!

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Being Good

2012-07-21T03:31:00.001-07:00

Oh how times change, yet stay the same!

I come home from work on a bad night like tonight and all I have is vodka to keep me company. True there is a warm body on the other side of the bed, but really this is all I get? My hours are extremely odd and I am not a day person whatsoever. However, there are sacrifices I make that make me question what I do.

The simple things in life are what are real in my world and make me happy. But what are those simple things to me? I know what other people expect them to be and perhaps I am unusual.

If I wake up in the middle of my night asleep to make someone breakfast and wish them a good day, I expect perhaps too much in return. May be this is the price I pay for being a dancer/stripper in a man's eyes.

It is what it is! I just have to figure out the rules and boundaries.

Zi-Fi

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Sugar To Real!?! (Part 2)

2012-07-16T21:07:00.001-07:00

This experience has taught me a ton about myself already. It is life changing because I work more in the club. Which is what it is, but no one likes to work more hours for less money.

However, on the other hand there is someone there for my good and bad moments, which is priceless. An extremely different relationship then I am used to!

Now just time to focus on dancing and time to travel for work. No matter how much I dislike traveling for work alone, it may be a necessary evil for having a real life?...

Zi-Fi

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Sugar To Real!?!

2012-07-12T18:44:00.001-07:00

Relationships are an interesting dynamic always. However, factor in working in a strip club and it becomes exponentially more complicated. What are the boundaries? What is too much? And is it worth it?

The answers do not all come down to dollars and cents, which makes this new territory!
Time tells all!

Zi-Fi

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Shadows From The Past (Part 2)

2012-07-09T16:26:00.001-07:00

Who would have thought working 75 miles away from home was Not enough to avoid running into human reminders of the past!

Well it was not. On a weekend night, I ran into my biggest reminder of an emotional tornado I have in my heart, in human form. A large occupational hazard because it took away my smile for the night and I went home early. Tears flooded my head and heart with emotions.

Is there really ever a good reason to forgive a person for doing you wrong?

Admitting they were in the wrong over a year later hurts. Especially, when I have already cleaned up the mess, put myself back together, and moved on.

Zi-Fi

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Long Run...

2012-07-05T18:23:00.001-07:00

I wonder where I will be in five years? A girl cannot dance forever!

In five years I hope to be a published author and maybe try marriage, or I may still be wandering the road less traveled. My personal life has been on the back burner for a long time. At the time it was for a good reason. I thought the money was worth the sacrifice. And at one point in time it was enough. However, as we evolve as individuals we choose what we value.

I value my personal life now. Perhaps, more then ever before!

~Zi-Fi

"If I get married, I want to be very married."
Audrey Hepburn

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Manic Monday

2012-07-02T22:29:00.001-07:00

It was a good idea to take Sunday off to recover from last week. Knowing when enough is enough is a learned skill. There will always be work to gamble on, but it is a bad gamble if your emotions cannot be put on the back burner!

A phone call from the past on the drive to work helped to remind me of the distance I need to put between my heart and the world. My reality is based on fantasy. Real emotions are a barrier to Real money in my job for the most part. Emotions bring into play the emotional spectrum of human, which is hard to shake at times.

Sometimes I throw human out the window for money. This too is a learned skill I have yet to master completely!

~Zi-Fi

"But I can't be late
'Cause then I guess I just won't get paid
These are the days
When you wish your bed was already made

It's just another manic Monday
I wish it was Sunday
'Cause that's my funday
My I don't have to runday
It's just another manic Monday"
~The Bangles

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Wonderful Wednesday

2012-07-01T04:37:00.001-07:00

Wednesday night I went to work for a few hours. Yes it was a long drive for only working a few hours, but time does not always mean money at the club. So I take what I can get and in three hours at the club I made more money then the average person working a "real" job for a week.

Sure a good night to start the week out was amazing and hopeful, but unfortunately the weekend did not compare whatsoever!

Sales is always interesting! .... no matter what environment it is in!

~Zi-Fi

SO.... to just call it a poor week or to try again tomorrow night, in hopes of saving the week?

“Victory is sweetest when you’ve known defeat.”
~Malcom S. Forbes

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Is That Really "Work"?

2012-06-30T04:48:00.004-07:00

Tonight, I voiced my adversion to getting ready for work on my personal Facebook page and received the following comment from a friend who is a DJ by trade:

"Is that really "work" tho??? Kinda like my job...its not really a job. They pay me to do what i love lol"

My response, "Nope ... It's really work...Shocking I know!"

A few years ago I may have agreed with this friend, but nowadays I do not.

Years ago, I could have a bad day/night personally and still had a good night finacially. Merely enjoying preforming on stage, just dancing. However, the "Real" money has always been in getting naked on customers' laps and the hussle.

No this is not something I love.

I do not enjoy dancing naked on a strange customer's lap.

...I love the money!

~Zi-Fi

"And I try to give the best bang for the buck. I love performing more than anything else."
Jimmy Buffett

Dating

2012-06-30T04:13:00.000-07:00

People always question me about dating and my personal life. It is as if they think it is a sport I am a champion at, merely due to my job.

Tonight at the club, a customer interrogated me on why I am not married yet. Some men just cannot wrap their mind around the fact that I do not want to be married yet. They tell me I am too pretty to not be in a relationship. But if I was in a serious relationship, I would hope not to be working in a strip club.

I have seen men lie to women, girlfriends, and wives throughout my career. This is not comforting. Especially, because I have been that woman that was lied to in the past. I know how it feels.

Seeing the other side, in person, of just how horrible men can act is enough to jade anyone.

~Zi-Fi

"If you stop caring, you're jaded, but if you care too much, it'll ruin you."
~Criminal Minds

"The actor becomes an emotional athlete. The process is painful-my personal life suffers."
~Arthur Helps

Viewpoint

2012-06-30T03:49:00.002-07:00

Tonight was the worst night I have had in a very long time. Which is humbling and good for my ego, but not good for my bank account. I did not feel very aggressive tonight to begin with. Then a regular customer questioned me about my personal life and all my gumption went straight down the tube!

I share with him because I have known him for years and we have similar viewpoints. It is always nice to get another opinion on life events. However, sometimes I need to take into account that this other viewpoint just may be biased.

Just as my own can be.

~Zi-Fi

"A purely objective viewpoint does not exist in the cosmos or in politics."
Howard Fineman

Auditions

2012-06-30T00:25:00.001-07:00

The things the girls and customers say about new girls who are auditioning are baffling. I remember my first time auditioning at a club. I was mortified! I admire the courage it takes to audition at a club for the first time on a weekend night!

I was not that brave years ago! Now however, it is my preference if I am going to work at a new club. More customers means more money and in turn more residual income.

Oh how times change!

-Zi-Fi

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Always An Interesting Night

2012-06-23T04:43:00.001-07:00

The weekend crowd was out tonight. However, the majority were small fish. Customers with small pockets we could reach in and find the bottom in one song. Not the easiest crowd to work!

I am starting to remember regular customers and this is great! Seeing customers who have familiar faces is nice. Weekends are about the random big hits, but the regulars provide a naive security blanket within the forever changing fantasy land I call work.

Weekends are an adventure!

Thank you to the cocktail waitress who called me out on buying my own drinks tonight! I waste money due to laziness and bad habits, which are hard to break. I miss the good old days, when if my tab was a hundred dollars it did not matter, it was a given. And I still made good money!

Oh how times change, but little things add up!

Zi-Fi

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Spoiled... Who Me?!

2012-06-22T04:40:00.001-07:00

Tonight was a reminder of how lucky I am in so many aspects of my life. Taking away the glitz and glamour for a day and having an adventure to the river made me appreciate what I have in my life that is Real.

On the other hand, it made me realize some of the things I am accustomed to other people are not as picky about. Drinking an energy drink without a bendy straw is enough to put a damper on my day at times. I just like things a certain way. Everyone has preferences! Guess I just speak my mind more?

The industry has disconnected me from mainstream society. Taking time to plug into the mainstream culture can be overwhelming, but a necessary evil.

Not everyone eats eggs at 3am and stays up to watch the sunrise? What...

Zi-Fi

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Acclaimating

2012-06-20T21:55:00.001-07:00

As I acclimate for the night of work, I drink vodka and club soda with lemons and limes. I wait to go on stage. My first set of the night always seems to have a large ripple effect on the tone of the rest of my night.

I asked a customer what he does to acclimate and his response was the following: "I usually sit somewhere to relax and drink and observe for awhile. On nights when I get dances, I take that time to observe and pick the dancer of my choice for the night."

We all acclimate in our own ways... Happy Monday!

Zi-Fi

"Alcohol gives you infinite patience for stupidity."
Sammy Davis, Jr

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